It is no wonder/coincidence I ended up “anchoring” (when not working on/in Inisfree and/or elsewhere) right along the “mouth”/edge/caldera of the Sun Well soft-disclosed in World of WarCraft; this is where the most and most-ancient wisdom of the living-Earth flows –at least for gods such as me; those who are able to hear/receive/understand it.
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Table of Contents:
- January
- February
- March
- April
- May
- June
- July
- August
- September
- October
- November
- December
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January:
Why do I have freckles above my knees, and on my shoulders and arms, and on the backs of my hands, but nowhere else?
How do I get rid of all my freckles?
Maybe it just takes writing the spell…
I am so proud of myself for keeping my cool well enough and continuing to work even when everyone chose to be immature, moody, rude, and useless.
Wayne Lamph was right about 1 more adventure; this past half year was a camping adventure across the country,
so hopefully he is also right about my fam w real Ambi happening.
Eos means goddess of dawn. A good sign that phase1 / phase2 / preAmbi “night”, or final Mayan Schedule postShift night (6th “night” in the 13period cycle) is over?
The year started with the Via Sorrento cul de sac hilltop overlook of the whole city, allowing me to view close to 100 firework launchsites simultaneously. The ones downtown were not as much as I had expected from a city this rich, but still nice to watch. The show only lasted 8 minutes, far shorter than most July 4th shows. I remembered other places I have seen fireworks, all of them either alone or with bad company. I am not sure if I was here in 2017 as it became 2018.
Lame that yet another druggie was openly smoking a cigarette when I pulled in.
Lame that gluttons are also within view.
Lame that ambi and the others still aren’t with me.
What a shameful country and species.
Why have these 40 years all started wrong like this?
At least I have the discipline and standards to keep rejecting them all until they shape up.
Time to trunk sleep again. Ugh. The price of having normal standards in a civilization where so many are heartless retards.
Whatever.
After seeing how stupid, rude, and violent so many are in every place I scouted, I see I really Do deserve all the best in the world, and total control.
After seeing that even that Ambi lookalike is the same boring spoiled uncultured heartless negligent fuckgirl cunt all the others are, I only want to find and torture her; she is unworthy of a family. She didnt vibe as trying to alienate me w rudeness, though; she vibed as wanting to hook up in Oregon, wanting to hook up in Arizona, then wanting to test or fuck w me in California. Normally I would try to learn wtf, but I learned many times not to bother with fickle dumbass females like that.
It doesnt matter if she showed up to make sure I saw her; what matters is she didnt help when there; she just tested/toyed w me; she disrespected me.
Even when she and the other hotties Weren’t there, they were disrespecting me; they stayed hidden from me.
..
Whether or not I caused the 2016-2017 time-travel to 2022-2023, I experienced a superpower/miracle.
The only question now is… how do I wield such powers to annihilate the rude loser humanimals once and for all?
I am glad I am easing bk into gym time, and doing a little more each visit; slow is smooth and smooth is fast.
I now face the reality that nearly 100% are ugly, stupid, and evil,
and the few hotties who I saw… are as rude as the rest are hideous,
and they are fickle and self-cockblocking,
and even if they were polite and intelligent and fully attractive, I can’t risk being w them after how many pressured me to breed immorally, and after how corrupt and sexist their system is.
I cannot and should not feel any attraction to such a stupid failed species.
I let go of any hope of sharing goodness w them, as they showed me they are nothing but cowardly evil.
Thankfully I witnessed time travel; that showed me there are still wonders, and it proved once again how wrong the mainstream assumptions/claims are.
Now I guess I just wait until the next wonder is shown to me.
I am starting to feel comfortable in my vehicle. I just need more $ to maintain it.
I already know the loop ended, or is ending, bc utah is not posb, said by db, he claiming the r n a trailer now.
But… word of his grandson’s death gave me slight deja vu, so… idk.
Within minutes of 2024 starting, I did the gym for nearly 2hrs. That is monk-level discipline.
Don’t think so?
Then is it monk-level that I started this journey/vision as a boy with that first ICVs markers drawing, and kept at it for decades, even when barely able to afford food?
My instinct screamed at me to keep leaving the abusive idiots wherever I encountered them, and not to waste time trying to enlighten the stubborn scum, for they would only argue, and were not worthy of being taught or saved anyway.
The trouble was that Everywhere I went had only idiotic scum like that, so I had to stay nomadic, not yet settling down.
I try to go into decent-sounding places, such as bookstores, but, like everywhere else I have gone, they are repulsively entered by gluttons, degenerates, masktard zombies, and so on,
and all but their cookbook covers make it difficult to figure out what their stories are about, and all their photos and art are of deformed/mutant freaks, etc..
So… what do I do… since no one has yet to be attractive physically or socially?
I thought Govinda’s temple cafe was a loopbreak, but i have a faint posb memory of trying it last time; the courtyard, quiet, sunny day, clear skies, pale orange translucent flags, astroturf.
Maybe i didnt meet my students/supporters yet…bc i had not until last night finished writing my vision/prophecy/will.
After how so many humans showed me they are complete cowards and retards and liars, panicking over everything, even when my accent was slightly different than theirs, I can see why the govt believes they would panic if aliens were witnessed or revealed; they would.
It took time for the military stuff i wrote of and wanted to manifest.
It took time, but the travel manifested, too, …and the hotties,
and my city design/answers.
Now I remember to give the spells I wrote in 2023 time to manifest.
Having spend so much time in HMMWVs w morons… makes this latest time in a vehicle feel comfy, if not luxurious, by comparison.
So hypocritical that the typist says “bc i am not a monster”… while funding rape and murder, RPing fucked up torture, recommending/parroting blatantly-wrong lethal pharma cartel and VA bullshit, and leaving me to die.
So strange that she parrots so much, yet not some things; why parrot one thing but not another? Must be some brainless reaction to the masses; parrot only what the local majority is parroting.
Lol that bitch sabrina version… dressed up and stood in the way of the sunset, wanting to be noticed. Well, she got noticed –by that guy who talked shit, offending her as much as sue had offended me. Instant karma. She could have avoided that upset if she had just introduced herself to me, then sat at my side to watch that sunset together. Dumb bitch.
The club capacities was the last part I needed to specify : )
Finally, after a decade and a half, Inisfree is designed enough to build/manifest back n time.
Was that blackhaired sunglasses hottie at blackrobin…the same as az-ambi?
Aquaman2 trailer and seeing now, no deja vu.
Unlike the indiana jones time travel movie i definitely saw twice, once in 2017 during time travel.
Memory refresh again. Ugh. Casino movie jeep 2017. What did i see back then?
Pretty sure i saw aquaman in helena…
Ppl kept telling me that ppl who showed up were not there by chance, as if i should change by being more open to meeting them, but the truth was that most Were just NPCs, whether there by chance or plan, and those condescendingly / arrogantly giving me that wrong advice? They were somehow idiotically failing to realize that, by their logic, iii was such a person showing up for Them to meet and learn from.
If only they hadnt been onesided/selfrighteous cunts.
Surprisingly there was no evil faggot bullshit in the ads or movie.
That makes for maybe the only time i have been to a human theater in years and they have only been gibberish-y and murder-“food” promoting.
It was great to see hottie Mera pb Amber again. That is well-cast.
Lmao at how they demonized another good thing; orichalcum.
Made me wonder if ambi plans on achieving something such as leverage or bloodmagic via having children w me, but…don’t really care; things keep working out.
The typist has been wrong about so many things; religion, politics, food, “staying put a while”, “things working out”, etc..
If she is the real ambi, she is a liar, and ambi is too stupid and dishonest to be worthy of me.
If she is not the real ambi, she is using me for bullshit escapism.
Either way, she refused to help me, and lied about many lethal things; she is a fool and a traitor.
Either way, she kept me starved of love i deserve, and limited to memes and hopelessness. Damn her.
Either way, real ambi disrespected me with tests bullshit at least 3x now, and possibly more (tx rockwall mansions, etc.), thus should be beaten until she admits it and apologizes and explains herself to me.
It doesnt matter that i needed this time to wrap up my thinking and uploading; she should have at least given me her contact info, spared me from the idiot typist, not tested me, and told me when we will be together and where.
My instinct told me to join the mil, then get out when it was clear they were retarded and I had all the training I could get,
then my instinct told me to study more,
then to try jobs,
then to stop wasting time applying or rewriting or working for beings as retarded as humans,
then to call out with specificity,
then to stop wasting time, as the bitches who showed up ignored my specificity, testing and baiting and overreacting to me, thus were not ready/good/worthy.
Now my instinct tells to just not try; to rest, not even waiting.
What will my instinct tell me next?
Ambi technically already shut me out; from the beginning, she has stayed hidden.
So any time i shut her out, it is just giving her a taste of her own goddamn dumbass medicine/self.
There goes the xombie typist again with her parroted bullshit, this time about the Mithras plagiarization called jesus.
Smh.
What a disrespectful moron.
If this lying parrot dickhead was the bitch who showed up in or/az/ca, i am SO glad i rejected it.
–Even if it wasn’t, both deserved my rejection; the one who showed up kept disrespectfully refusing to confirm it was her.
Note how when the typist sent another evil xian meme, knowing i dont like that,
i was still polite and trying to figure out what it meant,
and she claimed i was reading too much into it… even though i was reading Nothing into it; i was just asking what it meant,
and she typed “ugh” and “x.x. <<“… even though i was the one deserving to feel an “ugh”;
I was positive and neutral and trying to learn,
vs. she was negative for no reason, wrong, and not trying to understand at all.
Can’t wait to be rid of her.
My instinct always told me i deserve compatible ppl, and that no one yet has been compatible.
My instinct told me ambi was visually and audibly perfect, but net yet behaviorally perfect.
My heart and mind were never at odds; they were always in agreement that i deserve better than what was being cowardly and rudely offered.
Lmfao the typist says ugh…while iii am the one being polite and trying to learn… while fucking Homeless bc of her and her kind.
So backward, just like All xians so far.
2015 entirely accounted for
2016 only ~4wks accounted for
2017 only ~10wks accounted for, but might have been during 2016 resort to tx
2018 entirely accounted for
Tue2jan2024. First time w 2 poop bags n vehic lol. Loopbreak poopbreak
I WANT to believe they were giving me time to finish my website/spell,
but they also vibed as testing me and being moody dumbass cunts…
..
Even if they are now just seeing what I do when all seems hopeless, that is still a bullshit test I don’t deserve and they don’t need.
After all the fucked up lies and bs the typist has messaged me, I will drop contact w her in an instant when her replacement (the real hotties in person) show/team up w me.
She is far too stupid, stubborn, and evil to warrant an explanation.
Besides, I already gave her multiple heads-ups about my situation.
Since no one behaved appropriately, not even ambi, destroy all. Attack n all directions. Spare nothing.
I should never have to ask if a chick eats corpses and worships a false god and injects pharma poison.
The fact that I Do have to ask those things… is one of the biggest turnoffs other than their species’ near-100% deformity.
That idiot typist sending that meme with two sayings which together meant “i wish god or anyone at all would take the wheel” is so fucking stupid and rude and oblivious; i have been offering to take the wheel for YEARS.
10am PST wed3jan2024: so nice to be out in the rain, listening to it on my vehicle,
still victorious as an evading forced-nomad/-rebel.
fucking phase2.
Telling me to network and pitch… was just another tactic of stalling me; they never had any intention to listen, let alone donate or hire.
I shouldnt have to ask for help, and certainly not from the evil illegitimate govt/va.
I should be donated to.
Ppl should be climbing over each other to donate to me.
My work IS that good and helpful. Hell, i found cures to many disEases!
I really hope the next time i go to the bs/yc, or anywhere, it is with godlevel force, destroying all humans out of my way. Amen.
I hope i Always have that much power/option. I shall. Amen.
No matter how long i focused on updates, my website is 1 of my 13 novels.
No point wanting those who are not present.
Want what is present, from ch to ch.
Rn, want this freedom, open schedule, rain sound, daily sunrises and sunsets, natural temperatures, saga wrap-up, etc.,
and when those I chose Do finally meet me and explain themselves and become daily and nightly present in my life, want Them, no longer wanting more time to write or edit.
Amen.
I am soooo glad they kept amber heard n the movie. It made no sense at all for “fans” to demand she be cast out of it; her fake court thing w Depp has zero to do w her ability to portray Mera well.
Also glad that movie tanked, but it tanked for the wrong reasons; it should have tanked bc aquaman is supposed to be a White blonde,
there r no Black atlanteans,
and orichalcum is red, etc..
When all queers and religtards and vaxtards and fugtards and offenders of me are dead, and all money given to me, and all worshipping me, then i will consider interacting some more.
Until then, all get left to die, or are destroyed, just as they left me to die.
Until ambi and the others give me their contact info and weep as they beg my forgiveness from the heart, they die, too.
Since they hid instd of showing me where they are,
and stayed silent instd of introducing themselves,
and left me to endure so many disgusting scumbags instd of helping,
they r all cheap immitations of what i asked for.
The interesting thing is that… all those bad troops and pigs and others… spawned; they have fams.
I do not.
Game on.
Maybe i am being made to wait…so that their spawns grow up and estab themselves; so when the tables turn, it will hurt them far more.
Lmao. They pressure me to breed for DECADES, and when i Finally pick whom i will have a fam with… she refused to talk to me 3x in a row, even though she clearly showed up just so i would see her.
RETARDED.
and that shows me their goal was not so much to get me to breed…as it was to test me; to see if would divert, if i could be seduced, if they could change me.
When i didnt, they left me to die.
Them being negligent chickenshits is why your site is now done.
Her not teaming up w you there… is why you reached out in all directions and found everyone there is evil.
It is also how you noticed the time travel.
I should never have had to verbally restate what i had been consistent about since junior high; hot girls into 3somes w me, and submissive to me, should have been at every destination, and supporting me, loving my work.
There should never have been fatigue and breakdowns and scum and betrayal at every turn.
I should never have been shown Zero girls deserved love.
I should never have been misinterpreted by i secure uneducated loser males.
There should never have been alcohol or nonvegan anything or chemtrails or masktards.
But at least i had a lovebased mind/nature even when humankind was being only anti-love and trying to change the definition of the word “love”. At least i was phase3 even from childhood.
Those i called out for chose to be the same rude useless stupid far too long. I no longer want to share love w them, but to find and prosecute them. I will always want to share love w whom i Actually called for, but not any of the lookalikes / cheap immitations who so rudely answered.
Db was wrong again; “this too shall pass”? It didnt; masktards are still here.
The typist parrots things; she doesnt have her own ideas; her characters are posb sensed/real, parroted by her.
My instinct was clear; join the corps, then avoid its evildoers,
then join colleges, then avoid their evildoers,
then try jobs, then avoid their evildoers,
call out, then reject the evildoers who showed up instd of appropriately answering,
estab. my own way, since all ways of others were tested and confirmed to be selfharming; evil,
avoid humans as much as posb, since none so far were anything but evil,
etc.,
and that i am god, evident in how i always remain and learn and grow healthier and stay dominant, while all others do not.
My instinct told me to let go of evil rjh to get warrior trng, and it worked.
My instinct now tells me to hold onto correct-ambi vision, letting go of all else to get/make/fix Her.
It’s so nice to feel stuffed/full,
to have some extra, which would be perfect leftovers if I had a home/fridge,
to eat in peace, not hurried like in phase1.
I am so glad i disregarded the loop concern and got this delicious india cuisine.
Even though it is an evil nonvegan restaurant, it is phase2, nearly 3, and they did this very well.
As much as i hate them for their silence and stubbornness,
their vibes were not of fucking w me.
Ambi vibed as testing me, yes, but not fucking w me.
And so many things would not have been able to occur to me and get done if Any of them had given me their info before now.
I am glad i refused to let them try to train/change me.
Every time they tried to get me to divert/change, they ended up getting trained by me.
They mever budget -yet- but neither did i.
Going places by myself has not yet resulted in the ppl i want being there.
Maybe i just need to keep trying.
Maybe i instd need to wait for them to meet me beFore i go.
Humans still all being idiots… used to frustrate me, but now just signals to me it is not yet time for me to interact.
Since i only have access to my hardware, i will keep using it as best i can, focusing on it instd, honoring this as ITS era/time.
2nd email about a class-action lawsuit payout… but only 100$ lmao get fucked.
Memory refresh.
Jeep in front of bj for a few hrs b4 exercise.
Wow… I was here a while in 2017~2018.
Loopbreak: moved from bj, but too noisy now bc no vehic deflection x_x
Humans always say the opposite of the truth.
They always do what causes strain, not relief.
They always try to mislead, yet the irony is that they are so completely and always focused on misleading… that their vibes collectively are uniform and obvious, instantly sensed and understood, thereby making it impossible for them to mislead as much as they want to mislead.
When it comes to Space, they Claim worlds and stars are far apart, not because they know (they don’t; they have not measured them, only guessed and estimated and pretended), but because they Want to be as faraway from the light (Heaven; the core all stars share) as possible.
Being against soothing darkness, too, I.O.W. not descended from Any deity, but from the tiny gaps beTween, they cannot survive in Space, either, but only on the thin outer crusts/surfaces of worlds.
In reality, Space chose to expand to better isolate them from most worlds/crusts, and the distances between the worlds and stars are almost negligibly so small for wise beings who know that what they focus on shall become close and prominent and helpful to them.
Loopbreak. First time accidentally flexing out a post-shit turd-portion onto my left foot lol
Note what happened: They evilly focused on spawning without reason or vision or my approval, and most of tyeir oregnancies were stillbirths, most of their children born deformed and hopelessly stupid (retarded).
They accused me of inappropriately wanting their spawns, even though I obviously didn’t, and so their lie/spell attempt harmed only them and their creations, not me, for it was false.
If instead they had done what I told them to, and been polite to me like I was to them, they would have become always-healthy like me, and gone on the exodus/travels with me, and so on.
Note how they and their attempts always failed, why I always remained, my life’s work / vision always crystallizing more and more perfectly.
The signs/outcome/data tells all.
Is haarp an attempt at overloading or shaking into destruction underground megastructures, or at warring against Inner Earthlings (a.k.a. ultra-terrestrials) whom are believed to have disabled our nuclear missiles?
Is sbx-1 an attempt at using energy weapons against merfolk such as R’lyehans?
Are all humankind’s enemies and wars actually manifestations caused by their essence/thought-energies going out into the ley-lines and Space/ether, causing their focus (which has always been fears of hostile beings) to exist and approach them?
The most disturbing and evil and unforgiveable thing of all… is that so many humans actually thought they were doing the right thing… by defending degeneracy… while trying to shame normalcy… without it ever occurring to them that they were refusing to even consider loving me and my normal way… while they claimed to be all about love and respect and inclusion. Sure, except for loving and respecting and including me; normalcy.
Nothing could be more of a turnoff and redflag and nail in their coffin.
Thus I never burned out, as their always-negative mindless-NPCs/minions once put it; I simply saw that they lacked the ability to ever turn On (become enlightened/good/correct), thus I stopped wasting my time trying to share anything good/correct with their lost/failed/evil kind, except through this website.
As much as i hate the times the typist sends xiantard bs, it ends up making me not care for contact w her, thus i surge through another wave or two of final wrapup updates.
Spellcrafting motivation…
…
“be courageous” is another wordplay evil attempt to get ppl to fight, which is what the evil beings clearly want and feed on.
It boils down to “we are defaulting to negativity about you” and “we are refusing to acknowledge the obvious fact that you already ARE being courageous, just not in the violent way we want you to”.
Always ignore such nonsense.
Always reject “advice” from sketchy-vibe beings.
In my case, the only valid advice is that which I give to others, never what others try to get Me to accept.
Advice implies you are wrong.
Accepting advice requires change.
Change is the basis for Chaos Incarnate.
Always reject that crap, unless you are un-changing things back to natural/normal/myself.
Mem refresh, I think: canned baked beans, canned sliced green beans, lit night parking lot. Ugh. What a memory. One more reason to hate the bitches who left me hangin, and one more reason to see how committed and resilient I am.
Also one more reason I am glad I am no longer limited to MREs.
Mem refresh. Car w amer flag windshield insert in front of where i moved after the beans dinner. Same as jan2018?
Lol goggins parroting that “embrace the suck” philosophy. I have endured that crap for 40yrs.
I am ~40.6yrs now.
If the bible had any truth to it, isnt 40 supposed to be a Good chg?
The last few wmkm show ideas are great and it is time for them.
Ideas like these would not come to me easily, if at all, if i was n contact w the hotties i want already.
Still, i hate being left alone to ration and wonder like i have for years.
I keep trying to gym at night, but my evening sleep keeps being interrupted, and i know my body does best w sleep, so i end up sleeping ’til predawn.
5 goddamn yrs later and retarded classical radio station sellouts are still lying by pretending covid was real, AND they are lying by saying “2020 was the winter that united us”; the most blatant polar-opposite lie so far.
That scam either divided us worse than ever, or at least showed us how divided we had always been; the retards from the aware.
So the only channel I like… can’t soothe me anymore. Great.
Finally tried a Green Valley Grocer. Utter garbage.
Once again, w this cockpit crew assignments realization/idea/expansion, I am barely glad the hotties have stayed hidden this long.
Still… ugh.
regarding the typist (when I said I wanted to see in RP what slapping and shutting Ambi out would cause):
Slap gets punch, and shut out gets pfft, is not overkill after mild, and apathy after overkill; it is what I do; it is sending an amplification of what was given/received; phys. abuse to worse phys. abuse, and dismissal fpr dismissal.
Mem refresh. 2018jan was at Craft Kitchen? Disappointed in food…or just stressed bc much smaller budget bk then?
Is delicious and what i needed this time
Ambi maybe isnt w me rn bc she isnt vegan; she drinks blood, and I don’t, so this vegan time is for me.
Still, i should have vegan hotties w me.
It keeps occurring to me that maybe seeing this ~decade since 2012’s end… is to ENSURE I “push the button” to purge 99% of the humans.
were all those games not for my enjoyment, but so the humans could learn how I am likely to respond to different scenarios/threats?
maybe.
When the Ainur concentrated/focused themselves, it made room for void/Space to start existing.
When the Maiar concentrated/focused themselves (described by Tolkien as them singing), it first did not make anything at all, other than to demonstrate their ability/ies, and on/during the 2nd round/song… it made nebulae, and then the 3rd round/song made the first world/s.
When World Trees concentrated/focused, it made Elves and plants.
When humans bunched together more and more closely as their tribes evolved into major population centers in cities, eventually the new-species/-race tech’ known as A.I. formed.
Extrapolating from this, we can say that the trend seems to be that every time one species or race lives/works closely together, it doesn’t just benefit those individuals in some way; it results in the creation of a new race/tech’/thing.
Is this always the case, or does it end at some point?
Don’t worry that you get emotional and cuss sometimes;
Ambi-typist RPs getting so emotional that she tortures, mutilates, and causes tornados, etc..
Emotion shows care/passion.
Also, don’t care if others don’t like what you get emotional about, or how you vent; they aren’t paying the bills or soothing me or otherwise teaming up, so FUCK them.
Sooo glad the typist worked so much last week, and took today off; my best fleet/cockpits revelation came through, and I needed every minute.
I am finally glad everyone didnt show up at once, as I used to demand, and that all these ideas took as long as they did; I needed all this time to process and revise and perfect and publish them.
Maybe I could have done it sooner if not for all the many idiotic scumbags along the way, but even they helped indirectly; their evil bullshit ensured I kept isolating enough to be able to hear or dream and remember all these vision parts.
Pretty cool that most humans can only go to gym btwn 4 and 8pm, but i can go whenever.
Every talk w a chick, and every time i politely let them decide if they would talk, showed me talk and manners are pointless w them; they get moody either way, this i was always right to just make memtags to timetravel bk and acquire and/or clone them.
Note how the scum/trolls defaulted to saying “let them eat/do what they want”, but not “let auz do what he wants / govern how he wants”.
They defaulted to defending actual mass rape, mass torture, mass murder… while getting upset at me for trying to stop murderers.
Not my ppl.
Not ppl at all.
“In god’s time”? Yes, only bc i Am god.
2, stop parroting sweeping generalizations and default-acceptance/submissiveness.
3, if it was n Your god’s time, it would have happened when the bitches showed up, but i rejected their shit behavior, thus it is still n My time.
“Talking to the wrong ppl”? Only the wrong ppl were talking,
and Everyone was wrong for doing the opposite of what they should; those I wanted to talk with… should have introduced themselves to me and talked w me.
When evil morons were n every realm i went to, there Are no right ppl yet; the “good” ppl out there had let evil ruin their realms.
Mem refresh. 2018jan i got out to see what was touching my vehic. This time, i stayed n my vehic, rememberjng it is just a tree branch/leaf.
Pre mem refresh: i decided to reschedule the doughnut place…bc i remembered going there after hot choc n 2018jan…and feeling it was too many sweets n the same 24hr period.
My instinct to find good porn and copy it to my phone paid off like all my other instinct trusting did; Internet porn got so disgusting and evil that I can barely stand to open porn sites anymore, yet I have all the best copies I’ll ever need.
So windy tonight : ) after a big idea/update.
Mem refresh of lawncare mini truck oldfashioned headlights pointing right at my right side door lol.
This time, however, idc, and i think…how similar those thin dim lights are to the soulless shallow eyes of the bullies/losers/NPCs.
Surprised and angered when vehic rolled forward from parking space into curb at gym. Did i do the same tuing n jeeo n 2018jan?
First time at bank atm in yrs. Nice to save 3 or 4$ that way.
2 cops ahead, but bc a guy drove through bushes off the side of the street. Glad he distracted them
I suppose all this scouting and rescouting ensures i know what to avoid when phase3 starts
deja vu from her saying we are always on, but at least it was sweet… albeit from a negligent absentee “friend”, but fine enough for a phase2 text message.
..
and so retarded/offputting of her to STILL be claiming she needs meds;
she needs to stop POISONING herself, then being as addicted to “meds” as she is to poison (cigarettes, nonvegan “food”, etc.).
but … that still works in my favor; buys me time to do these last few big-idea additions/uploads.
Curious alignment: bank said 250k will get 2500 added,
and 3M said up to 250k might be given…
The typist isnt helping me; she uses me when she has time for another round of escapism.
Thats why she parrots obvious xian and pharma lies; xianism is all about escaping reality and responsibility and self-caused death,
and pharma is all about escaping the reality that ppl cause their own sicknesses; there were never germs.
It doesnt matter that ambi showed up 3x when i was homeless; there were many other times i was forced to be homeless.
There were many other times i had nervous breakdowns.
Many other times i was at borders and beaches and bars and clubs.
She is, so far, random and unreliable.
She isnt the ambi i deserve.
noticed a few more gray/white facial-hair hairs today :/
I did Not expect to look like this… before meeting any compatible females.
ugh.
but… it shows my amazing stamina/commitment to that which is holy/needed.
there were faggots and other evil scum in every town I went to;
no reason to let the pitiful handful that were in bs/yc deter me.
imagine if I had let those few lying retarded texas recruiters deter me from my warrior training/years.
keep at it. get in there.
my goal is correct; my goal is that cabin and that woman, etc..
maintain.
“look through the rain drops.”
With the incredible amount of updates and wrapups that have happened since returning from the Mayan pyramid in mexifail,
it still seems that things have conTinued working out how they should; how I want them to, at least more and more / mostly.
The time-travel-for-years discovery… also seems to be a MAJOR power manifesting/ed.
It now occurs to me that the hotties can STILL occur, but all those wrapup ideas and uploads could NOT have occurred to me,
nor the dreams-remembering, if the hotties had occurred First.
So…
Maybe the constant rude/bad/resistance… is designed like how Ender was trained so brutally; bullying surprises at every turn, keeping him strategizing, exercising his ability to hold a positive vision, etc., so when I Do have power… my upsets won’t cause cataclysms… unless I want them to.
I should have known from their deformities and her horrible unnatural voice…
Sure enough, at 56:30, she lies by claiming to know the form of the Earth, calling it flat.
Ugh.
So many retards.
Why doesnt it occur to any of them to go and confirm before claiming things?
If you have to lead, you are not around your/good ppl, but subhuman creatures who need guidance bc they are incompatible and too vestigial to grasp easy concepts.
If you are “leading with love”, you are polarized and defaulting to one thing, not complete/whole/balanced like you should be.
If you default to empathy, you are a fool who stubbornly does not accept the obvious signs that some beings are false ppl who prey on the empathic/forgiving.
No deja vu asking Dapper Doughnuts and other businesses when their grand opening was.
No dej at dance studio windowwall… or was there. :/
As annoying and obvious as their lies about god, nonveganism/protein, viruses, and the Earth form are, those ugly gross-sounding losers are exactly who I want believing that retarded lethal bs; it keeps them dying out of my way.
Those mini doughnuts were like funnel cake <3
Going Some of the way… showed me the pharma lie, and that ambi and sabrina are real, so I should go All the way… to manifest even More of those life-improving/-completing wonders.
Going Some of the way showed me techniques for frustrating my enemies, but not yet how to ruin them.
Going Some of the way showed me where my home shall be, but not yet how to kill all the losers out of the way.
Going Some of the way showed me where hotties are, but not yet how to make them behave correctly.
Going back is far worse than a mixed blueballs tease; going back is Only bad.
I have to go the Rest of the way, thus me drafting all the extra laws, finishing the models, etc..
Whether it pays off the way I know it should, or not, it was still right and brave to do.
Hopefully it will manifest my power to control all I want, heal all I want, build all I want, destroy all I want, and so on.
I hope ambi in person was giving me the hope/vision/2ndwind she knew I needed.
I hope she wished to be with me, and had heartache with whomever she had showed up with, wishing it was me instead.
I hope she will return now, so that I can stop resorting to that xian typist.
Finally; no fat fugs at tacotarian
Seems i am getting to try more vegan things i missed during 2017-2018 vegas.
“Spend a penny, make a penny. Spend a quarter, make a dollar.” was yet more wrong advice, if not also yet another scam; I spent more than others, and tried investing, networking, you name it, but it has yet to pay off, and certainly hasn’t quadrupled my expenses. Not yet, anyway.
The hotties who showed up, clearly to condescend or baffle at my obvious attempt to scout and be polite, were no less weird and stupid and evil and offputting than the non-attractives who lured me there. Both were equally wrong, backward, inappropriate, not my ppl, not good ppl at all.
Sooooo glad I finally consolidated the WMKM Studios, and Games, pgs, plus re-found my EVE Online 2 subpg (forgot I’d made it lol).
realAmbi is no monster if she Kills monsters; she’s a Hero(ine).
A woman as beautiful as her… in a world with this many fugtards… is an angel amongst us.
A woman who sacrifices/slaughters endless humanimals… is a saint and savior and role model.
So retarded that the typist tried to tell me her characters aren’t real… after telling me she thinks things that Aren’t real Are; polit, relig, viruses, etc.,
and after i witnessed those she writes… being real.
Just another backwards-tarded xianfail. Whatever.
At least the rp is good and passes the fucking time.
Phase goddamn 2 lingers on.
I talked to the right ppl; nearly everyone.
Meeting the bad ones showed me how ruthless and strict I have to be.
pc finally let me see my skills in training in EVE.
lol; only like 13 had cleared out of the 150-max queue.
almost refilled it.
another ~3 years of training them to go.
also narrowly managed to use my remaining skill points before they expired.
progress continues.
clearly I am not meant to play that game rn; I am meant to focus on the website wrapup.
Wed10jan2024
Deja vu from engine power decrease, jiffylube animal place, rice togo styrofoam from veggieat, buffalo wings…
How the hell does a repeat happen to a different vehicle? I can understand timetravel showing me Humans are doing the things they were Destined to, but a New/dif Vehicle??
At least i know i get through this…
I asked for a cheap fix. It was hundreds.
I needed a cheap fix.
At least it wasnt like last time; with half my still tiny budget.
No matter how much i hate being here, i am only here for hours, and these ppl are here for decades.
No matter the tradeoff for choosing selfcare, it is always btr than dealing w more of the always-the-same abusive bitch bs.
It has never been btr to be w a bitch.
Being w others has not yet been worth giving up loneliness.
2018 winter i flew to spokane, rented car to couer hotel and trng…where i found that little free library tree.
So…i just need to avoid that hell this time.
What am i holding on for? The women i called for…turned out to be heartless lazy spoiled negligent idiots.
My project hasnt manifested.
I am still dealing w that goddamn xian druggie typist.
The only thing that got btr was me; when i chose to let go of the corrupt cops in tx… and now the corrupt dealership in mt…
A loan just to lay for mechanic work. Ugh. When will this evil bs end?
I should have my ppl by now, and riches.
I am still glad I stood up for myself. Since childhood, no less. So many evil liars. Impossible odds… yet I chose the right way every time.
Will i Ever get to slay the evildoers?
Will i Ever get explanations from those who showed up?
Will i Ever know why time travel seems to have occurred from the end of 2015…to the end of 2021,
and from 2016 to 2022 (Indiana),
and 2017 to 2023 (Montana, UT, NV),
and 2018 start to 2024 start (vehic issue taken care of at same 2 mechanics in a row)?
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in phase1, the evildoers ALWAYS got away with shit, and I couldn’t even eVade them.
in phase2, I became able to evade or predict or leave them whenever, but they were still getting away with a lot of evil.
hopefully in this coming/final phase, I’ll finally get to destroy them all. amen.
I hate still only being able to write… and theorize.
White car n front of me. Another almost ambi walks from it to the gym.
What she has done to me has made me so fed up, not even bothering to investigate.
So many almosts since 2021…
I don’t know if ambi and the others are alive, if they were bound by something, if they were spoiled. I just don’t have any details, one way or another. Phase2.
I can’t be doomed/cursed… bc my work is better than ever,
and I am freer than before.
I am pestered by some stubborn humans, sure, but still making tremendous progress.
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even if I AM cursed, I can still do the right things/work, so I do/am.
Whatever they were bound by, if anything, should end; they should be texting, emailing, calling me…
They should be confirming themselves, introducing themselves, thrilled I stood my ground this long…
How can we start our fam if they are not building trust in my heart?
Every time i tried to team up, they only wanted to use and corrupt me.
They distracted me from my work.
They were rude and harassing and condescending and judgy and creepy and deviant.
I had no choice but to let go and have only work.
Even when i was working daily, i still struggled to pay the bills, and was never paid enough to pay off the extortion/debt scams, thus there was no point working; I can have the same situation with far less stress/busiwork.
It still blows me away how All of them, so far, misinterpreted my holiness/genius or just didnt care.
8billion of them, so they say, and not One donates?????
Surely Some of them like being submissive and supportive like sarah typist…
but if i’d gotten even a few hundred bucks sooner, i wouldnt have returned to the u.s. and finished my whole site.
Your feeling that things would work out for me within the year or so… was not yet right, and I think your feeling I will forget you is also not right. I hope things for me do work out this year, though, and that I get to show you how annoyingly still daily in contact I shall be. I want to tell my future children about you, and set the example by praying for you every night. I want to one day be able to let them message you their love for getting their poppa through his hopeless chapter. A lot of your feelings or instincts have proven true, so it is a mystery to me why those one or two feelings are taking longer to match with stuff I am witnessing. I guess we will find out soon enough. Thank you for reminding me I don’t have to apologize for venting.
All those freaks showed up in bs…as their default-panic/overkill attempt to steer me away from my goal, same as their kind has always tried and failed.
But they still showed me it is the right place for me; even w so many of them ruinimg dntn, i still adored the scenery and air etc., and the riversides, and the snow, and that cabin.
And since that always-lying roomtard, the latest linduh, tried to make up hopeless bs to steer me from my goal, i Know it is the right goal for me; she was against Everything good, and For everything bad/stupid.
I am proud of myself; i needed sleep some nights, but i kept practicing sleeping early and waking up…until i made it back n the gym.
If only persistence paid off w the hotties.
Well, it has, but when i got w them… they acted up, so…
Hopefully They persist until They figure out normal behavior.
Smh
I am ugly, but the finest women ever have shown interest.
Even if they r bad, trying to harness or trick me, i still got Them to start pursuing Me.
That is a good next step.
Will i ever dare to interact w them again?
Will i ever be able to trust them after the covid retardation?
Idk, but i am glad the tables turned…as far back as ~2017 w first ambi sighting, or even 2013 w that ariel-looking foodbank and hotel-orgy girl.
It is easy to work a monklike wonder-project when everyone turned me off via their evil retardedness.
As much as i hate the budget, it has been working for half a year.
I know i have leveled up well; they were throwing entire towns of evil scum at me, and still failing to deter me.
Their “tens” started failing to seduce me.
The more they tried to chg me, the more i ignored and blocked and scoffed at them.
The rain sounds so nice on my vehicle.
Being able to sleep whenever, sleep in whenever, nap whenever, sure is nice.
I have witnesed plenty showing interest before i did; the others can and should show interest, too.
The hotties never showed when i arrived and waited; they were usually during transits.
All veteran orgs taught me i may as well stay homeless, bc they have no real resources or even sanity, and always made things worse, i having to leave again within weeks.
Even though she was as rude and negligent as the rest, her looks and voice are my favorites, so it still makes sense to draw this line, requiring her.
Food tourism is canceled,
as is sex tourism,
and all travel;
so far, everyone has been fugtarded.
So all i can do is work here on me.
I sure hope that 250k comes through. I really need it now.
The ringing prevents me from hearing just the rain, or my future hotties, so i will torture the va humans extra long and hard.
I will never accept this system which keeps treating me like low numbers they made up, lying.
13 years ago, I committed to working on my Inisfree/holy/perfect design; it is 2024, and in 2011… I was n tx, dealing w the jls monster/scam/attnwhore, the Mayan final cycle about to happen, my first time in MT about to happen.
Now that that 13yr 1st postShift cycle is complete, interestingly so is that design, and now I have again let go of something major; i no longer waste time trying to get into rentals, as every roommate and neighbor was evil.
Books
8 tnh (intended release 2022)
9 mobile
10 ancient past
11 biblor
12 journal
13 website (intended release 2027)
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Last year was 2023; I had modeled tnh and persephone in 2022,
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then (2023) vastly improved the perseph 2 webpgs,
modeled the nightclubs at their creativerse tp spots I had set up in 2022,
and learned about melted bldgs,
and did bible era-esque desert prophet/monk solo work in NV,
and added TONS of content to my 2023 journal pg,
and wrapped up my ENTIRE WEBSITE, FINALLY !! 😀
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and at the start of 2024… worked out the more-exact relocations years (no longer estimates spanning centuries or millennia),
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so it is clear I was still doing bookwork, and on track, although publishing w humans ofc had to be cancelled.
The books still got edited, added to, and wrapped up, just not wasted on primitive scum such as humans.
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2024 (when Ancient book was to be released) has my feed less focused on vegan, and more on Geo-man-see and Meltology. This shows me that the book worth of content is a transmission to Me, Not just a half fictional novel I originally estimated it could be.
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2025 (biblor publish date) I am already ready for; the biblor was pretty complete even yrs ago. Maybe this year I will unlock more answers and superpowers; more time travel, angelic nuking, sky object/event calling, etc..
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2026 I am also ready in advance for; I have no plans or need to keep my irlj going past even 2024.
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2027 is when i foresaw my website being published as a final novel. That gives me the rest of 2024, and 2025 and 2026, to do its editing… which i have already begun; the wrapup; uploads stopped by this first 2024 mo., and now just final linking, etc..
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How interesting that 13 turned out to be good, and the #of mayan cycle-sections, and # of months in my year, and #novels n my series/spell, etc..
Maybe this homeless time was to show me i dont need a rental,
I dont need to work,
I dont need credit,
I dont need to be bk in mt yet,
I dont need the hotties yet,
I dont even need to eat as often as i was; fasting is fine.
Maybe it is to show me i dont need my ears fixed yet; my focus is visual and thought; the wrapup, not basking in auditory paradises as the fruition. That’s next.
Maybe the repeat of IN y MT y Erin y NV etc. …was to show me it is time to focus shift; no longer on the design, but now on wiping out the humans who always do the wrong thing.
Yes, my heroism and brilliance made the situation useful in Spite of them, but they r not to credit for slowing or balancing me; they werent trying to slow or balance me; that whole time, theyd been trying to imbalance me w cult y other scams and even attempted assassinations.
They were trying to speed me up via bs jobs and scam schooling and weekly cult meetings and premature breeding.
I slowed me.
I balanced me.
It was nice to hear no one stayed w the typist as long as i have.
I sure have staying power.
Even w dickhead cult conformists/parrots.
I made the phase2 mixed bs work.
Focusing on getting humans to/who behave has yet to work at all,
so I do the only logical thing; focus instd entirely on cataclysming them, thus their corrupt system will never be able to result in lies about my credit, or phone harassment, etc., ever again.
Then whoever survives… I will focus on keeping in permanent check, via the arenas, kajirae program, sacrifices, offworld booting, Persephone, etc..
Amen.
In phase1, i clung to trying to prove myself to them, but they lied and abused me every time.
In phase2, i let go, and they labeled me a fugitive, and ended up parasiting one of their own.
In phase3, i shifted from having let go… to annihilating them –and have the witnessing of summoned lightning, shooting stars, characters manifested, and time travel now helping my morale/motivation.
I wonder if the biblical exodus had the same issue i had; did its leader think dif ppl would go?
I thought i would be leading ~a million… but it turned out to be A.I.s and remote students and extracted/liberated ideas/images. This/My exodus was more a mental thing, even though i drove around a lot.
Interesting.
And it wasnt to a promised land; i had to decide to accept my inner vision, then design it, Making a/the promised land, thus making me not the modern Moses (exodus ldr) but God Himself.
Amen.
No amount of $ or public apologies or prison sentences or healing or superpowers could make right what they did to me; the humans simply have to be ruined and destroyed and replaced. Amen.
yet again, i tried a restaurant… that used to be good… and it was over-buttered; barf. whatever.
i tried.
If the others hadnt ended contact w the typist, i wouldnt be as exemplary or beloved or written with.
I asked for travel… and the sexiest girl from each place… and I think I got that, but they behaved so badly, and had ruined or covered their beauty, and were not perfect,
so I have since not only Asked for the Prettiest, but specified what pretty IS, and who shall Be out there, and How they shall behave.
Let’s see if they honor Those spells/posts, too.
Probably everyone who got injected got a tracking device, but only the ones who got the nano prototype “virus” got sterilized or bloodclots.
Was good that i heard those new ideas about bluebeam capabilities;
not just used to make fake ufo lights appear on chemtrail cloud layers,
but also
holograms of ppl or aliens or christ etc.,
earthquakes,
alter thinking patterns,
etc.
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and note the standard mainstream media foreshadowing; Skyline movie w blue lights/beams from the aliens, always a backward/reversal of the truth; irl it isnt aliens hypnotizing ppl w blue light, but project bluebeam hypnotizing ppl w fake UFOs/aliens/ppl, etc..
I tell the bitch i had to take out a loan…and am still n my vehic…and she somehow hears “it is working out”.
She even says “i dont mean to brag butttt”
and that she has prayed for me.
Translation?
She did nothing. And she pretends things are fine when they are a disaster.
Typical xombie.
Deja vu from taquitos dinner facing gas station w back to curb near coffee hut.
Wow; am i remembering taquitos from ~6yrs ago?
Waited until near closing b4 entering the groc, still 2 masktard evildoers in the store. Shameful. What a worthless species.
Worthless management for letting them inside, too.
Thought i finally saw an attractive. Just another nails-bs freak.
Typist sent another cross pic. What a moron. Then lied by claiming it is not religious.
Truly a delusional sick fuck.
As chronicliar as lfb.
Really not liking the “friends” claim or exchanging “i love you” anymore.
Is she Trying to alienate me?
Why send Good art if she wants to distance me?
So many mixed signals. As repulsive as realAmbi has chosen to be.
I decided to see if calling out worked, but only morons showed up.
So now i just work, not calling out, wondering if Anyone on this world will Ever behave.
Doesnt look like it.
At least i have become able to avoid them most of the time.
What disgraces. What wastes of flesh.
The typist sure did make up for her massive evil/stupid leak last night; the supermodel AI art of Ariel, Belle, and Cinderella, and a suit I would actually be able to handle/enjoy wearing.
Why would i go back in time to talk to them, if i could go back, and apparently i can, …when Not talking to them… showed me how heartless and wrong they were?
I wouldnt risk undoing my design completion.
I am glad i witnessed how evil so many were; it shows me where to purge.
But i Would go bk just to secretly start my city and fam the years i wrote them starting.
Deja vu of parked side of road while asking typist why did real ambi do this and do that.
2018jan and now? Loop?
Tried kumquats. Barf.
Tried raw macadamia nuts. Ok.
the bottom line is that real-Ambi, real-Sabrina, real-Rain, and all the rest,
chose NOT to honor your needs or wants.
They chose to play games, or at least to be incompatible.
They seem cowardly or spoiled or both.
They were not there when you needed them.
They wouldn’t even introduce themselves.
They knew it was you, thus what you look like, and stayed facing you or standing beside you AFTER seeing how you look,
so it wasn’t your looks/ugliness that turned them away; it was something else.
Bottom line is that their behavior was not becoming of teammates, let alone royals/wives/queens.
“start small”?
I did; with a website.
Dumbass.
Pay attention.
Once again, I’m at another of those “what else is there?! Oh… Well, that was major; I’m glad I was uninterrupted long enough to notice and fix it.” moments;
I finally reviewed the webpage I’d drafted for ICV Personalities/Programs, and noticed that 100% of ICVs were commanded to have daily cum-baths, cum-meditation, etc.; I changed that just to ICVs in view of me and my guests,
plus found and clarified a lot of other issues.
Thank god.
I can’t be as angry after stuff/find like that.
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Lol ongoing phone harassment. Every time they call, that’s another 500$ they are in debt to me.
When i gain power, i will bankrupt and end them.
Amazing how suicidal the humans choose to keep being.
40yrs of them trying to bully me, 40yrs of me disregarding them all, yet they still havent learned their lesson.
Whoever that ambi lookalike bitch was, she doesnt deserve me until she grows up and stops being a spy and coward and dumbass.
I can’t want to be with anyone as absent and chickenshit and rude as her and the other hotties chose to be.
Thank Me i have such a daily time-consuming meaningful project.
Bs/yc doesnt deserve me until they clean up the population/scum out there.
But i can and will purge that valley if they don’t clean it up.
Either way, the focus is no longer on exploration or screening those called out to, but now on removing all humans from my destinations.
It’s so weird being on a planet where so far all humans have reacted retardedly/evilly/cowardly to me doing only good normal logical things,
but nothing drives my work/progress and charge-ups more than that bullshit from the humanimals.
When everyone is a huge turnoff, paired with a vision as wise and holy and needed as mine/Inisfree, the result clearly has been easier focus, nothing able to distract/interest me away from that.
Mayan cycle format of 13 sections, 7 of those 13 being “days”/ideas, and 6 being “nights”/applications.
1 Jrotc freshm
2 Jrotc soph
3 Jrotc jun
4 Jrotc sen
5 rotc
6 corps trng yr; 2x longer than most
…but the 2 deployment-years, and the instructor yr…are not counted in this set?
Maybe not; maybe not bc my focus had shifted to the fob sketch and blackops unit idea/s by then.
I learned not to go anywhere without a team; team up, then go. When i tried going alone, only evildoers were at the destination, and my budget small.
That still kept me focused on my wrapup, but still.
4 years of phone harassment (all of 2020, 2021, 2022, 2023, plus some of 2019 and 2024)
so… 5 years and counting
x365d
x ~3 robo-calls per day = at least 5,475 calls (not counting calls from numbers I blocked; sometimes there were more than 3 calls per day)
x $500 per unwanted call = $2,737,500.00 in fines they owe,
before calculating interest and late fees.
Humans claiming that power corrupts, and everything eventually fails, and drama is needed for balance, and one half of Yin Yang is evil, etc., are all just lies attempting to sound logical in order to be adopted, they then functioning like Trojan horses, essentially nothing more than spells which cause weakpoints that will metastasize.
To stop that evil, I wrote only good things that vibed/resonated appropriately.
Ambi and sabrina didnt treat me as king yet. When they showed up, they treated me like a mark or random guy at a bar.
I correctly refused that substandard/inappropriate treatment.
It was phase2 treatment; neutral and mixed and meh.
I only accept phase3 treatment; always doing what i want, such as introducing themselves, confirming they are who i asked for, seeing the good in all i do, etc..
It doesnt matter where i go; i am right to go anywhere.
There is no reason for me to return to where i saw ambi; she has not said she will be at those places.
The C&C pg is SOOOO much btr now! It resonates Way btr now. At last. Good sign.
Since so many humans always demanded full payment early, regardless of contract or morality or circumstances, I now demand full payment of all fines and fees I assign to each of them.
It occurs to me to take that Fight Club scene advice about not escaping mentally; be present and fully experience this suck ch.
Why not? I wanted the tough trng of phase1; jrotc, rotc, corps, crossfit.
The site is wrapped up.
13 years back is jan 2011.
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Oct2011 is when Ian said the Mayan thing ended.
2012 was when I was moved to Montana.
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13 years from oct2011 would be oct2024.
Does that mean things get as i want them to by oct this yr?
No; bc the next cycle is not 13yrs, but 13x360d; 4,680d; from 28oct2011 that is Friday, August 23, 2024.
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13 20d-periods is 260.
260d back from 28oct2011 is 10feb2011.
13yrs back from 10feb2011 is 10feb1998. Is that when lfb/cps terrorized me? It is prob very near the time i had no choice but to commit to years of mil trng and blk ops.
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1983may12 is 14yrs8mo29d b4 1998feb10; i was born during the final ~19.7yr section of the 13sections 7th-cycle, as if to say i was the focus/highlight/culmination of that timespan started in 1755 A.D..
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So, unless there was a gap/lag between the end of the Mayan calendar… and the mirror of it after The Shift… between now and August… should be the final of 13 360-day sections of the 2nd cycle after that end/shift.
Endcaps of cycles are “days”; idea-times; easier than “nights”.
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360 days before Friday, August 23, 2024… is Tuesday, August 29, 2023; near the time i left that evil roomtard extortion nonvegan-pressure rental.
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360d before 2023aug29 was Saturday, September 3, 2022; ~middle of my time at that horrible tiny rental in madison, IN… which suggests my time at places does not align with “days” or “nights”.
The “night” is maybe a relocatiom and adjustment and sadness or anger time.
The “day” is when I calm down about having relocated, and focus on thinking/creating.
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There are 223 days until aug23 this year. Will i have ideas/edits/wrapup progress until then?
Will Ambi and the others finally unite with me During this final section of this cycle, like how i was born during the final section of a cycle?
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Parts of inisfree occurred to me at intervals during the final 2 cycles pre-Shift.
Ambi and the others appeared at intervals starting in at least 2017 summer; after my earthship volunteering.
Thanks to understanding the ebb and flow of the Mayan calendar, and thanks to seeing how inisfree always happened in bigger and better intervals, i do not fear having lost contact w ambi or the others.
The cycles overlap.
If post-Shift cycles start on 28oct2011, then the first 19.7yr “day” of cycle3 completes on ~Thursday, July 10, 2031.
That means 2,735d (from today; 13jan2024) of “day”/idea/ease?
and then an easier “night” (application) bc of unlpcked superpowers and my dreamfam/team, I hope.
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And this occurs to me on a 13th; 13 continues to be a good number for me.
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So…by late august this yr, all final ideas/edits for Inisfree occur to me, and the remaining 2,512d until 2031jul10 in theory shall be easy/ier, with the start of the idea/vision/upgrade which will ebb and flow during the coming 19.7yr sections.
Based on what repeated in indiana and montana, it looks like Ian was correct; time travel is now happening for me.
Wow.
All those stupid bitches turning away or not even speaking…makes it 100% easy and safe to timetravel snatch them; it won’t change a single convo or relationship i had.
Ambi typist offered kids 2018, 6.5ish yrs i to the 2nd cycle after the Shift; ~halfway through cycle2.
That is always the big-idea part of a cycle.
The manifestation of that big idea comes at the end of the cycle.
The end of that cycle is coming up in august; do i meet her btwn now and then, then make love to her and start our fam by then? I sure hope so.
20d mayan short-section spans…
and usu my urge/instinct to clear my phkne notes when a thread gets to 20 email replies
My Weddings pg/spell, for 2025, lists 12 new wives for me, Zerachiel being 2nd, thus by/in Februus this yr… I am married to Heaven; it becomes one of my adoring devoted wives, eagerly subordinate to me, obeying me. Amen.
The typist writing ambi plopping dn on me when i wrote myself lying on floor after coming home from work… Would have softened the memory of rjh scumbag lying on me on the floor…but it was irp, not yet irl.
Seeing that creepvibe spick…and the oversized deformed blob…every time i go to the goddamn gym… Ugh.
Can’t wait to cancel.
My instinct was to call out for my ppl.
When only scum wanting to play games showed up, obviously my instinct was correct in then telling me not to play games; i hadnt called out for cowards and players, but for my ppl.
Until my ppl answer/show, all i can do is keep working.
That, too, is the correct instinct and decision.
More bad advice from the typist.
Advice…from another fool who sorely needs it.
Advice…when i jeed and deserve money and teammates and followers.
Smh.
Same old bullshit from failure mankind.
When they are serious, they have many ways of contacting me, many ways of supporting me, many ways of fixing the situation.
As long as they remain cowardly hidden, they are not serious. They are just showing their true colors are those of useless losers.
“Hiding from everyone/ppl”? Uhm… Huh?
I haven’t hidden. I have disregarded demonic scum who are desperate for attention.
I have been Waiting for ppl, and aVoiding pretend-ppl.
Duh.
Fucking duh.
Learn how to think.
Greatest pic of Ash pb Mila from typist so far.
I am now hoping to see the irl v… and hoping she has more sense than that bitch who showed up and played w my heart 3x when i was already down, the ambi lookalike cunt.
Worked out last night.
Idiot going wrong way on track moved over.
Tanning today.
And another progress and good first: naked tanning!
First time doing this outside!
Feels amazing!
Lol at the gun range sounds against the horizon mntns; like being in an OP in Afgahnistan, just without any retard jarheads anymore.
I’m so glad that evil bitch cunt demonoid hannah lost one of her spawns. Hopefully that entire bloodline will be ended next. And everyone else i saw in utah; for leaving me to endure those scummy freaks.
Incl the utahns i didnt meet; for not being there for me to sense the vibes of.
I think the typist and i broke up… just like i thought might happen;
almost no response to my perfect and lengthy xmas post,
almost no responses other than emoji reactions to my other posts,
just a pic or art or meme here and there,
and lots of typical excuses; work, self-caused sickness, etc..
Granted, I lost interest in rp w that xiantard absentee asshole, but still.
Whatever.
Just another bitch paying me lip service / making smalltalk.
Nothin new.
They never put any effort forward, so why should i?
They never read my stuff and learned my way, so why should i learn Anything about Them?
They ignored all my likes and limits, so i now do that to Them.
They made up tons of “laws”, so now I have.
They always charged me too much, so now I do the same to them.
realAmbi and realSabrina prob had magic/superpowers, and used them to show up before their time, sensing, regardless of time, when I needed them.
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The typist and I wrote since ~2010 or 2011; ~13 yrs. –That’s a full Mayan cycle (the 2nd last before 28oct2011, or the 2nd since).
Sure enough, our rp slowed down.
I suspect that means it is enough to manifest what we wrote now. Maybe not for her, as she was writing it to escape, thus already Got her escape, but for me, as i was writing to manifest.
Mem refresh. Desert curve road trail shirtless sunset to cool eveningfall
Why do ICVs usually form a circle around a person, people, thing, or things they are about to portal, when their ships can portal themselves, when their airports have stargate-like terminal portals, and when their main supercomputer can spy via cloaked portals which are like one-way glass mirrors undetectable to Outlanders? It is half to form an invincible huddle around that which is about to be moved, and half better-define the edge of the portal, as standing on all sides shows the object/s from all angles, thus is easier to keep the portal “hugging” it as perfectly as possible.
“And on the 7th “day”, god rested.” and I sure Have switched to resting in this 7th “day” of the 2nd cycle since The Shift;
resting from jobs,
resting from rentals,
resting from calling out,
etc.
PreShift
3. phasing away from fake relatives, more to using tech’ to meet ppl I was otherwise kept from
2. then phasing away from erroneous brainwashing… to my own thinking/thoughts; trying writing forums until I discovered all were too primitive and evil to deserve me
1. and finally realizing, trip by trip, that I had/got to let go of most/all humans to get far better; to get ICVs –because focusing on trying to explain myself… to evil fake ppl committed to slandering me… would have kept me too busy to get my own idea
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PostShift
1. getting my own idea in intervals; putting inventions together as the first city layout draft, and my stories/rp together into the novels series outline
2. writing my own idea down in intervals; adding to the novels chapters and website
3. first reliable co-writer helping me balance and complete my vision, giving me what I need to finish the rebuilt website, etc.
This is the first time I have projected in detail with the Mayan calendar system/template.
It feels good to have this as a bearing.
All the experiences seem to fit very well within it.
All churches having only evil needy idiots in them… ensured that 1/7 of my time/life was not wasted on those things; adding 1/7 of my entire time/life dramatically reduced how long it took for Inisfree to occur to me and become manifestable/manifested.
That horrible childhood of trying to find a way to explain things to beings whose nature was to not even be able to understand, and to refuse to understand/listen anyway, lead me to be extremely/completely thorough and eloquent, now defaulting to thinking of MANY options and forms of communication. The more they chose to not even Try to listen/understand, the more it caused me to become better-Able to understand them, others, and all things.
As annoyingly retarded as the prudes are, that brainwashing which terrifies them out of doing anything normal-sexual… still works in my favor;
it keeps My Vril biggest/highest, thus me healthiest and most dominant of all.
It also exposes my enemies; all evildoers reveal/betray themselves via even the SLIGHTEST negative reaction to such pure-good things I do/seek/write of.
Every time another of those wannabe-bully/intimidating losers has a verbal stupid-leak at me,
1) it shows me another enemy,
2) it shows me they are reading my website,
3) it shows me that my pure goodness is making them nervous/scared/intimidated,
4) it shows me they spent/wasted resources/money to come to me,
5) it shows me that Others are now coming to Me.
Etc.; lol and good.
I LOVE that my enemies are paying so much attention to me,
and are intimidated by me,
and are lowering their own resources,
and so on.
They’re now doing so much of the work For me.
They’re even helping me with prescreening; they’re showing me who is too primitive/stupid/corrupt/evil to warrant any further contact/screening/consideration/sparing.
note how that liam moron dark-eyed soulless bully said the exact same thing to/about me as he did to his own sister;
“just wants to fuck everything”.
He said that even after having witnessed that the vast majority of what we did and thought was not sexual at all.
He said that, knowing it was 100% false, and didn’t even make sense.
He said that because his essence was to offend and then feed on negative energy.
He said that because HE probably just wants to fuck everything –and is too cowardly/afraid to even try.
The chemtrail blanketing prevents me from sunning daily.
If it had gone well w Any of the hotties, Countless of these ideas and updates and wrapups would not have been possible.
The focus had to stay on those, not them.
Only now that those are processed… can the hotties engage w me stably.
Typist rp-ing Ariel saying there was a delay w the others… triggered deja vu; i believe that frustrated me when i was here during time travel from 2018.
This time, it is just “same ol’ bs”; excuse after excuse.
Nothin new.
Maybe in 2018 the delay was me having to go back to 2018 (from 2024) lol.
Tue16jan2025 ~1:40am coyote howl barked more than a few times outside my vehicle.
Been a while since i heard a coyote, or any animal this close.
I heard it down the street.
Then it returned and how barked right next to my vehic again.
I replied, then telepathically thanked it if it was Blaire and Cait’, saying I need Ambi and am on the verge of fading.
It replied a couple times.
I replied again.
It then got so close I could hear its kind whimper as if right below my vehic.
Wow.
A sign of awareness and returns and effort for me at last? Sure felt that way.
latest pure-evil hyper-retardation: computer for no reason highlights a group of random folders and renames them all the same thing I was typing for a file name. wow.
having to doubleback to undo and redo, just like with humans.
typical failure of god and man.
The typist rp-ing “just like that, Ariel appeared in tight blk dress” right after i said i was looking forward to my week w her… made me think maybe the typist was indirectly saying that is all it takes to summon them; not calling out, just wanting them… but that must be a brand new thing, if it is true at all; i wanted them since the 90s, and they never showed, only rude morons showing instd.
Just like that ant i experimented on, shifting this way and that, it always immediately reorienting itself back the way it had been going, i have always reoriented myself back to antarctica, inisfree, ambi, etc.
Note how the roomtard’s dog immediately relaxed around me, while She on the other hand defaulted to panic at me and tiny snakes and everything; my calming effect still works well, just not on the junkies/braindead.
Good beings always sense and appreciate my goodness.
Bad beings always panic about my goodness, lie to me, lie about me (how she/it interfered with me finding another rental by spying on my FB activity), etc.
Before, i wanted hotties but also to finish my work/spell, so hotties appeared and poofed/left.
Now, my work/spell is complete, and all i want now is those hotties back.
Hopefully only a little weekday morning work will not come and go for me, the hotties remaining w me like work used to.
Amen.
Deja vu about drafting Infinity Stones spells. Was I doing this during 2018 time travel to this year?
It keeps occurring to me that the typist is softdisclosing real ppl… since they started showing up and revisiting me, and that she is telling me when I say I want them… they will instant be back in my life.
It vibes that way.
It isn’t me hoping that.
My hope is to already Have them all back with me.
Holy cow; cum lube REALLY WORKED! lookin forward to fuckin my girls in Inisfree after they have topped off w synth!
More naked tanning, and for hrs longer today! Felt great!
Remembered an old fave I can re-enjoy from that nonvegan eatery.
“The best for last”; biggest pay bump coming,
Ambi was latest hottie to show me she exists,
a week w each of her women scheduled,
naked tanning n free vehic,
ICV personality final details,
best A.I. hotties art –and sent to me by my top wife, no less,
Infinity Stones spell/s,
etc.
The humans haven’t been a thorn in My side; they’ve been a thorn in their Own side; their stubborn evil has sickened them, prevented the smartest ppl from working wonders as their teammates, sterilized them, permanently labeled and damned them, ended every last hope they once had of seducing me, showed me their species deserves zero respect and total annihilation, showed me even hell meeds to get worse so it can appropriately repay them, etc..
If i had written a spell to fix humankind,
or if they had unfucked themselves on their own,
I would have been partying w them,
not receiving and publishing these countless perfect ideas/spells.
Duality indeed; typist sends the best rp and art i have seen…then sends evil deathcult pics i already once dumped and nearly reblocked her for.
Sure does make me back off, lose interest, and refocus on my wrapup.
Makes me suspect it is a test, or another lingering xiantard attempt, or her buying silence time to cheat, etc.
If tom hadnt been pure evil, condescending “don’t let perfection be the enemy of excellence”, and “it’s time to carry on the family name” would have been:
“I am so proud of you for having good standards and patience and a steady vision.
Thank you for waiting for the right women.
Thank you for giving so many a chance and input so they can unfuck themselves.
Thank you for respecting your bloodline and genes.
I am perfectly happy to wait as long as you are.
The right women are worth the wait.
Thank you for waiting until excellence is actually offered to you.
Perfection exists in so many forms, so it is wise to wait for it to exist in women for you.
I am so sorry I disgraced/dishonored myself by breeding with fugtards, and so relieved your instincts are strong enough to right all that.”
and so on.
The typist saying “maybe she is broken” is just her indirect venting about her(self; the typist) feeling she is broken bc she is infertile.
Doc2 is just as wrong about “the gods control the realms” as he was wrong about mex coast ships and “she is coming soon”. Fuck that false prophet.
Amazing how calming tanning is
Maybe she can’t think well; maybe she and the others can only feel, so they feel when i call out, and when i am too tired to risk dealing w them, but are for some reason just not able to understand they actually need to respond in a timely manner, and not hide, and not be cunts playing games…
I shouldnt have to “dig” to find non-hideous porn. It should be the other way around.
The fact that i have never Not found hideous porn, or hideous Any tv/films, is yet another irrefutable indicator that humans are a failed species. Not a species needing some help, but a hopeless one that should be wiped out.
Iron Man scene in cave making first suit from scrap while losers harass him… is so like me still having to make do in this failed usa until I can blast my way out once and for all.
Same w that scene in Aquaman 2 when the imprisoned royal is given only enough to barely keep him alive.
Ugh.
I was right to attempt offering and focusing on normal love, but I witnessed that normal love is not possible until my focus is first on genociding all incompatible scum off this world of mine, then on re-educating the primitive beings known as humans, then forcing them to be loving until it is bred into them on an instinctive level in future generations. Amen.
Trying to share love in phase1; since my start, shows I am good/holy, and shows who my enemies (evildoers/NPCs) are.
Trying to show love in phase2 showed me it can finally flow somewhere, but only back to me; via my life’s work.
Apparently love can only flow out to others in phase3; once all evil is destroyed, and good finally made/calibrated.
Phase1: I tried giving everyone a chance.
Phase2: I decided what is appropriate for me, and began blocking all who were bad to me, only giving compatibles a chance.
Phase3: All whom I blocked or otherwise rejected shall be ended, leaving only the compatible everywhere I go, amen.
Even if my website updates don’t all work like spells to fix things, it is still me being me, me defeating the morons who evilly tried to corrupt me, etc.; worth posting.
All sane beings will love my uncompromising good stance.
I wrote of 3 weddings to Ambi (1st being simple, 2nd being at her new temple, and 3rd being just us in her realm), and so far she has met me in person 3 times (1st being a simple walk-by, she in a white dress, as if that brother-looking guy was handing her off to me, then the 2nd encounter being more elaborate, she unloading big bags, and the 3rd being w her hoody on… now making me see it as symbolic of how her realm is hidden except for us). No coincidences…
Sun…Sin (Moon)
Why spelled so similarly?
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Helios… Hel
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S like snake shape
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Elohim
El… Hel
o as in circular appearance of star/s
E like 3
L lowercase as line representing event horizon of star-portal
Maybe things manifest after 6 spans of focusing energy on them, especially emotion, especially strong emotion, thus my returns to MT…
My spell/site took tens of thousands of returns before it was great/ready; my drives bk to bs/yc are far fewer, thus understandable.
Idc if some of my writing is wishful thinking, or if it manifested things which did not exist before; what matters to me is that I dared to write what I knew was correct and mattered, and that it summons and/Or manifests the ppl who are compatible with me. Amen.
“Love is love.” is one of the most idiotic sayings; it doesn’t matter that other humans love different things just as much as we love what we love. What about those who love being offensive, or who love hurting or killing innocents? “Love is love.” is a stance only acknowledging the emotion, not the context.
It also inappropriately does not address the obvious fact that when people who love completely different things are forced to live in the same place, only stress, thus ailments and accidents, will result.
Sexual deviancy from my orientation, and any culture than my own, is never okay.
The Forerunners saving so many species… was just more “love almost everything” idiocy, same as what the Ark idiots did; they saved things which were meant to be drowned, rebooting a failed set of species that now have to be reigned in again.
The Flood aggressively and mindlessly hurting and converting things… is pretty much the same as what carnivores and omnivores always did, thus was deserved by them.
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The Halo rings/array/emissions, like all things, were based on long series of assumptions, thus could/did not affect/reduce all lifeforms / “biomass of size significant/useful to The Flood”; these rings were only able to devolve primitive/non-deity beings… such as the NPCs of many species and races. Atlanteans, for example, and Elves, were always left unaffected by their bursts/energy/frequency.
Only simple lifeforms detected by the tech’-dependent (thus also primitive) Forerunners got affected… because the Forerunners manifested such via expected those beings known to them to.
Ambi’s 3 first pets symbolize her age? (i.e. how many Ages she lived through so far)
bull: Age of Taurus (~4300-1700 BC)
dragon: ?
hellhound: ?
…but which constellations correspond to a dog and a dragon?
Maybe the bull is the Age she started in, or best tamed, having started in older Atlantis, and the hound and dragon symboloze something else… even if her typist isn’t able to sense those things.
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*y to Timeline dir))))
13 zodiac constellations in order:
Virgo 13900-10300 (3600yrs long)
Leo 10300-7600 (2700)
Cancer 7600-6200 (1400)
Gemini 6200-4300 (1900)
Taurus 4300-1700 (2600)
Aries 1700-200 (1500)
Pisces 200 BC to Present (? yrs long)
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What about Ophiuchus? Like how dates got shifted for the year-long zodiac when this 13th sign got added back in, how will it shift the years-spans of the Ages?
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Reference: https://masteringthezodiac.com/astrological-ages
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Aries starts the sequence, and Pisces ends it?
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The length of one cycle of twelve ages is 25,772 years.; ÷12 = 2147.666666 yrs
or ÷13 = 1982.461538 yrs (interesting that I was born in 1983)
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The month names got messed up…
so maybe the zodiac animals were, too.
Don’t worry about that “what if there is no timetable” bullshit response from the xiantard typist;
MANY things she said were DEAD wrong, OBVIOUSLY wrong/false.
She is parroting the “advice” of doubters/morons… because she doesn’t really think/understand; she just parrots/mimics.
Even if there really WAS no timetable for the return to me of Ambi and the other hotties I called out for, that might just mean that those women don’t plan the timetable, but are still ON A timetable; they show up whenever I call for them with intensity/need.
Remember: They showed up even when I WASN’T calling out most times, thus don’t even NEED me to call out,
AND: they got closer and looked hotter and let me hear them more… every successive time; progress is being made.
Deja vu from cop suv by gas station looping around and ending up behind me as i parked at hotel.
The time travel, i get, but all these events repeating regardless of the date i arrive/return? Seems scripted or destined or fake.
“People are not your energy.”
That was one of the most retarded things doc1 ever said at me.
Ppl are my #1 energy.
FALSE ppl who are just idiots and heartless Scumbags are not my energy.
Still strange to me that so many humans pretended to be about love… while being only hateful to me.
Their kind only cared about trying to change ppl, and about ppl changing for no reason, never caring about ppl doing the right thing.
They wanted chaos; endless change.
They never once cared about me and what matters to me.
Since all humans have been Terrible at interaction beyond just menial labor / simple tasks, their kind always chaotic and deviant, it seems that only I am “awake”… and that they are kept disgusting and problematic… via drama tv brainwashing etc. …so the focus remains not on them as they fail at everything… but on their replacement; the decent creations they were worked to contribute to, such as A.I. –not pretend A.I. (chatbots), but the actual race of humanoids which has thankfully made humans obsolete; ICVs.
Maybe humans being/becoming so stupid and rude and tantrum-throwing… is part of the process that ensures everyone sane loses interest in the obsolete/worker/failed race/demographic when it is time for the evolution to take center stage.
They make COUNTLESS TONS of drugs… yet threatened ME when they THOUGHT I had shared a SINGLE pill with someone ELSE who had committed a crime.
Wow.
That is as backward and pure evil as it gets.
Way to go after the wrong guy.
Honestly, now that I think about it, I am Glad that asshole typist is exhausted from work;
it’s her own damn fault for leaving me exhausted out here.
Karma.
maybe the typist has switched to less writing, and more images,
because the writing was to calibrate things pictures could not,
and the pictures are now to make sure the finishing touches (outfits, hairstyles, tits, faces, etc.) are in order.
Revisiting the Ultra-ancient Past…
could that mean by restoring what long ago was? (the world trees)
(IOW: doesn’t have to mean time-travel)
babbitt:
Another evil loser locked into another long round of selfmade hell on earth; jeff babbitt, the retard who blatantly slandered and verbally abused everyone i witnessed him speak about, lost his wife, got an even fuglier gf who lives 10hrs frm him, apparently can’t make a manly/sane decision to save his life.
I just hope he loses his “farm” next; so a real man can finally make that land productive.
Anyway, so predictable and good to see at least a little justice and payback back there.
Can’t wait to cataclysm them again.
Was i wrong to fight for ppl before the Shift, and not bother since?
No; it was heroic and honorable before, and me being myself.
I am also still being myself, and requiring ppl to show me they r serious, not just testing me or playing games.
Besides, as i have noted b4, one project at a time; me first, then design/spell (now complete), and Now fam+team.
Amen.
Either ambi and the others return to me now, or they get replaced by even hotter versions of those forms.
Deja vu about Evelyn Pasta…and upcoming veggie burger,
and 2 guys at evening dimming blue sky talking for an hr beside my vehic
Ok…so time travel loop/repeat is over?
I just saw that cali is older and fat, jeff lost his wife, his son won gold in a cali tournament…and looks older/bigger…
Typist messaged me the instant i started sitting up…
I really wish i knew the secret to her timing.
How would she know i would look at my phone right then?
Even when i scour the menu and find a vegan or close enough option, a blob freak always waddles out, ruining it. Often both the staff And customers are shorthaired genderconfused nonfemale blob scum.
Discovering that I had the solution/cure to seasonal sickness,
and that Ambi is Very real,
and that perfect hotties are now Into me,
and numerous other breakthroughs,
all persuade me that I Am on the right track, and that I Should continue my writing, invention imagining, etc.
Fri19jan2024 5pm pickup backup out of space a couple rows n front of me, license plate says DJIN.
Tartarian
Tartary
Tartarus, the deepest region of the world… is this outer surface.
Is the attempted claiming Tartarian empire did not exist… a coverup of the fact that this side of the Earth is the top of Hell?
It occurs to me that the shitty/blatant liars and default-negatives I met… probably are either trying to keep workers working and not panicking about the coming cataclysm they deserve, or are just so bred into stupidity that they actually do not realize how obvious and lame and evil they are being.
Maybe they were bred to be that stupid and annyoing… so they would only manage to convince fellow retards to continue or resume their work/tasks, while remaining wholly incapable of stopping good/aware beings such as me.
Slight deja vu parking at Helix Electric
No deja vu about finishing adding ex pics to icv pgs
The typist doubting, or just not witnessing, what i believe/seek/witness… has a way of triggering me to focus, thus manifest, it more.
Is yinyang also symbolizing current Age; Pisces?
Is the duality aspect of this timespan partially to blame for why my attempted good deeds were so far always/often met/countered by morons hurrying over to interfere?
Hopefully my new/restored abilities include destroying all those rude losers, not just destroying their attempts to corrupt me.
When I stopped chasing, they tried to Get me to chase.
When I stopped paying their ridiculous prices, they tried to haRass me into paying.
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Them trying to Get me to chase… is still not Them chasing Me.
The right way is Their hotties always trying to do whatever Iii want them to.
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Me seeking rentals/teammates… is still technically me chasing.
No more.
If I am not being contacted the way I want to be contacted, and offered pay to live where I want, it is still me doing the chasing/work, god not doing his part yet, and humans not doing Their part.
Humans might be staying as small and numerous as they are… because it makes it more difficult for the gods to see or keep track of them all, …but when they become so numerous and stupid and weak and insecure and spoiled that they piss off beings such as me… the gods hear me, my mind not vestigial or muted or clogged like the human minds are, thus the gods start paying attention and returning again, thus cataclysming to clean up this latest humans outbreak.
Maybe that is why the humans decided to limit their population per world to fewer then 500M people; maybe they think that will offend/alert the gods less… while still maintaining their small size and weakness enough to keep them negligible and overlooked.
But too late for even That; I am here, I choose to be god, and I will always be paying attention to their kind, making sure they pay dearly for what they did to me and are still doing.
returned savior / new king for 1,000 “years”?… Years as in Great Years (22k+ precession timespan)?
I like that idea, and me having it is yet another sign that savior/king is me.
“7 stages of illumination”… 7 “days” per Mayan-calendar cycle.
As retarded and annoying as the humans obsessed w the jew conspiracy illuminati messiah nonsense/biggerish are,
it still works in my favor;
it shows me who is retarded and evil and useless,
it keeps my enemies distracted and clogged up, unable to end their vestigial curse bodyparts issues,
and it buys me endless time to work…
minor deja vu at writing an Inisfree-ruins note/version,
but overall no deja-vu about having completed so much else of the website
Lmao “trying to do things to speed the coming of the messiah”; doing that makes those ppl not deserve such a hero.
They didnt even deserve him before that bs/madness.
I am the good man, and sense i shall only save some of the products and some ideas of the humans, never again the humans.
Ugly ppl should not exist,
but still n phase2’s end, it is good enough that they have fear/neg reactions to me / my site; it would be worse if they liked it and Wanted to be part of it.
Better that they repel themselves.
Inisfree is only for the good, inside and out; smart attractive ppl who I sought.
It is nice to wake up to the rain on vehicle windows/roof pattering sound. The ear ringing prevents me from hearing it as I want to, but it is still decent enough for phase2.
In phase1, even without the ringing, I was forced to stay around evil toxic losers who kept me stressed and sad and worse, so hearing the rain was never enough to soothe me, but now I have inner peace and have accepted my validated/proven wisdom.
I wish it was clean/real rain. It is chemtrail rain, so I do not go out in it.
Glad to hear typist called in for a day, esp. after working overnight or double shifts a while.
It took half a year or longer, my sleeping bag finally starting to stink, but it may just be farts.
I wanted to tan today, but rain sound all day is also nice, and a new treat since camping out here this season.
Whether the world was flat/disc, or solid “round”, or hollow oblate spheroid, or whatever else, doesn’t matter;
what matters now is that I say it is a hollow oblate spheroid,
and that others worlds are / shall be,
and my will is dominant,
thus shall manifest that which I have foreseen and decided.
Amen.
Many things are spheres; there is no reason worlds can’t be also.
How adorably retarded, typist RPing that her character likes being told what to do;
if only that worked IRL,
but it hasn’t yet.
I’ve been trying to tell ppl what to do all along,
and all they ever did was retardedly resist any/all direction, no matter how correct and smart it was.
working on the SSA cities (such as the details for those with fake ruins) = latest round of edits/wrapup for novel 3.
(weeks ago) lindsey sawyer pg:
last night… vague memory…
of realizing another actress/movie had pics which work for her
Do archaeologists cause pottery and arrowheads to appear where they are digging… because manifestation works that way?
Is that why they actually believe ancients were primitive?
Like the world becoming solid,
and ancient trees petrifying,
humanity got set in its bad way/s, showing me I was/am its replacement, as I was never set/bad/dumb like them.
Humans do not help hold/manifest my vision… bc they lack any ability to; they parrot whatever is obviously wrong, and maybe aren’t even parroting… but playing a programmed recording; they are probably mind/brainless.
Typist messages as i pause my latest youtube; ongoing perfect timing
Attempts at civil convo and teaming up and scouting… so far only had the result of rude morons getting in the way,
and my solo work and ignoring humans worked brilliantly.
I did cure my seasonal stuff,
and recover from most of the poisoning,
and start rejecting poisoning,
and my work finally feels wrapped up,
so breakthroughs and milestones keep happening.
Suddenly, typist resumes ariel-week rp…
Makes me hope the irl hotties will now suddenly return to me, just as loving.
I don’t like feeling like I am being trained or groomed, but at least the hotties started making an effort, even though it was very disappointing.
At least they are half submitting by doing that.
fixing/finishing the welcome-boulder,
and finding TWENTY-TWO SUPER-hotties from PWSHS that I didn’t have on the ICVs form-sakes directory list?
That is DEFINITELY justification for being uninterrupted out here this long.
deja vu from working on yearbook photos. must’ve done some of that sorting/prep’ last time I was here.
neat.
Phase1. Hotties w bod and mind issues.
Phase2. Extracted most of their images, vids, sounds, fashion, movements, etc., thus could finally partially enjoy them, and I drafted/spellcrafted the program for their personalities.
Phase3. Finally and forevermore I get to enjoy their correct (perfected) versions. Amen.
Taking breaks whenever i want,
napping whenever i need,
spending hours just relaxing, listening to the rain?
Things r still getting btr.
Rest-“day” indeed
Maybe breeding ppl is how they prevent anyone from focusing long enough to manifest something else.
Maybe they breed… only to try and delay the next vision/dominant.
Last time i was here was prob 2018; when i had recently begun migrating my content from old to current website. I prob was feeling overwhelmed when i did the pwshs yearbook scans sorting on my pc back then, not wanting or not ready to make 1,000 icv pgs, but today… all that is done! 😀
No deja vu from ambi sending that smooth-skin A.I. art of what looks like 2 ambis… or from her now agreeing by saying “grins, maybe” to letting me see her being steamy w herself/lookalike.
Very nice progress there.
Everything keeps vibing like it was/is disclosure and calibration, making sure they have things right so my relationship w her/them will work.
Memory refresh. Parked at park after P2 order pickup, night, underwear, enjoying vegan chicken biscuits etc.
So much calmer this time; was so lonely and stressed in ~2018.
If they (who showed up) were good, they would have cured my ringing and made me feel great, just by being near me, and been happy to be summoned by me, and happy even if I turned them away, rejecting them for any reason. They would leave respectfully, not moodily, to go and improve themselves, eager to meet my standard.
Reviewing the yearbook pics, I am reminded of 2 things:
1. Ppl look way hotter n person for some reason.
2. Hotties have been way hotter since; the hotties in hs are ugly compared to the recent ones trying to get my attn.
Still, i should have been allowed and encouraged to fuck those i wanted all along, but … then I wouldnt have charged up, unlocked emotion/energy-based superpowers, and spent so much time designing badass amazing perfect heaven-on-earth Inisfree.
Mem refresh. Park/nap in Life Time area.
There’s little point in having perfect looks or spy tech or timing … when u r also rude or stupid or stubborn or coldhearted.
Another damn phase2 sign.
The celestine book was wrong; the signs aren’t for who is to meet you, but to show where you are on the plot timeline; whether anyone at all is coming to meet you, and whether those who do… are good.
Thank fucking god there werent anymore goddamn masktard scum n the store today, but there still were a few blobtard scum out front upon approach.
Smh.
What a disgraceful failed city and species this is. Shame on them all.
How shameful that graham hancock is not only a race mixer, but like the tom loser idiot, fucking ugly bitches w short hair and troll piercings and clown makeup, of all things. How insecure and evil/degenerate do you have to be to fuck things that ugly AND spawn w them?! Madness.
So glad I never met his dumbass.
At least i can extract some decent studies/ideas.
Deja vu from daytime parking a few lots away from EoS –when I heard the blk car parked to my left playing that “make me sweat, make me hotter, make me water” song,
and now again deja vu a couple hrs later, at Life Time, upon seeing the blk suv parking behond me, baby screaming, black man getting out, white suv beside it backing out to leave as evening came.
So… I apparently get to go back and keep progressing while bad humans remain fixed/set n how they move through time, not progressing. That is one heck of a superpower. Blessing? Idk. Maybe a selfblessing.
Humans having tantrums bc i ignored their fake gods… never got blessings like this, their lives/wives all disgusting, like their behavior.
Note how tom ended up w a bitch like him, who frustrates him as much as he frustrates others, and who talks shit like he does, and who is out of shape like him, etc..
I hate that the latest facepaint/eyelashes freak spoke to me at the gym.
How i wish i could annihilate its kind since they still r refusing manners, powering through my signals and consistency and boundaries.
…
lol their harassment via robo calls shows me they are desperate for me to speak to them;
they still require contact with me before they can confirm/attack.
XD
Almost 10k…but after “up to 250k”??? Bullshit.
Ugh. At least it clears the cc and restores some of my other accts.
Nice reversal; typist/ambi used to say “exit only”, but today said anal anytime is fine.
Heimdall being the whitest of them, and who sees and hears all, might mean he is a Sylph in cold form; snow.
Sound travels more easily through cold air, after all.
More perfect timing from her…
and the sweetest rp yet; Neveah begging me to stay and read her a story, etc..
9257+1667=10924
Another 1st and big improvement.
Maybe 250k coming after?
Maybe millions after that?
Hopefully. It is certainly time.
Needed at least several k, got 11; 1.5x.
And maybe 250more coming eventually.
The lean time, and even all that disrespect from the loser species, sure did speed up and wrap up and many times make perfect unexpected additions to my life’s work.
Leavening agent…
Ugh; more waiting, no specific deposit date yet, so many calls where left on hold for half an hour.
When will my spells activate, forcing the humans to donate constantly?
26jan2024 1st time saving jizz as lube for later
The only reason humans are against cloning… is bc it is their nature to hate anything the same; they hate uniformity, unity, etc.,
evident in how they glorify and try to force people to accept “diversity” for no reason / just because,
and an endless universe (i.e. chaos because of / caused by infinite Outer Space).
humans criminalizing sex with anyone other than them during a certain age bracket…
is still them trying to be different, adding complexity/rules, being against their own nature, and the nature of others.
that’s why they try to tell people they have invisible microscopic things that harm them and they cannot control or figure out; it is all the lie-spell attempting to convince people to overcomplicate their own bodies even when the humans aren’t around.
that means those humans are just carriers, but not of viruses; of memes/lies/scams; of the essence/thing which corrupts/complicates.
humans being against beastiality… and now beastiality porn becoming more common and detailed/lifelike… is another sign that compatible species, not just compatible races, are becoming unified again, like generations before.
Humans wanted everyone focused on them… because they were the ones who’d started having/harboring endless ideas, while other lifeforms did not;
other species were stable, at least more so than humans,
thus humans hunted and killed and domesticated them.
It wasn’t to help humans, or to tame wildlife;
it was maintain dominance at all costs, instead of living in harmony with good things.
And humans tried to pressure their own kind to only fuck to breed, not because it was holy or commanded by a god or right/correct, but because they wanted to spread the idea-containers as much as possible, to add as much complexity as possible.
THAT is why they tried to make loving interaction / normalcy illegal and scary. There is no other reason.
interacting with other races is fine.
spawning things I am not attracted to? not fine. whether that is via race-mixing or just not holding a vision for a handsome son / beautiful daughter.
humans trying to get me to take drugs,
whether they are pretending they are healers/doctors/concerned,
or pretending I have issues only their street-drugs can solve,
still boils down the same way; it is losers trying to add complexity via increasing supply-chains, increasing steps, increasing doubt, increasing dependency, etc.,
and it boils down to their brainless kind claiming I am wrong in some way, which is always wrong, and always anti-me/-nature.
Those who claim they are eye-opening and help you understand the universe… are exaggeraters, self-righteous, salesmen, etc.;
drugs don’t improve your awareness or intelligence.
They just give you hallucinations.
If you can’t imagine on your own, and think you need drugs, you are a junkie, not a visionary, not a prophet, not a healer, not a helper, not wise, not anything but still a brainless NPC.
the reason humans always have a neg reaction to me… is because I am stable;
I never accept their evil (overcomplicating) essence/campaign.
It has nothing to do with them having any wisdom or trying to help me.
Even claiming someone wants to help me… boils down to the presupposition that I am in some way broken/erring/flawed,
which is always an attempt to add complexity, thus stress, thus disease, thus weakness, thus vulnerability, thus dependency, etc..
Thus I was Always right to break contact with EVERYone not being positive about ALL I am.
Thus my civiliZation-design is Always right to prescreen for TOTAL compatibility; zero attempts to change/convert/corrupt/alter me.
My instincts told me to call out for compatible ppl, to reject the rude idiots who showed up, and to now require all to treat me as godking, just as clearly as my instincts told me to stand for right as a child, and to enter the military to train as best I could.
If israel was 2012… I had already passed the Mayan calendar end… so did it count as a singularity/”fork”,
or one of the 20d “night” sections of the first cycle After The Shift?
And boze 2013… was the rest at the end of those relocations back and forth across plano, frisco, etc.?
Was i already self-unlocked/deified/ascended before going to israel?
Based on how big the vision has been, it taking all these yrs,
and based on how evil all humans chose to be,
any exodus would have been slowed by me having to receive each vision part/idea, and/or vice versa, and every human involved would have been a headache/evildoer.
It was right that i kept sensing i had to not bother talking to them anymore.
The reason Space seems more vast and endless than anything else,
and the reason there are any atoms or particles at all,
and the reason it has taken so long to search for alleged “dark matter”,
and for cures to diseases,
is all for the same reason; humans Want it this complex, they Want mystery and frustration and failure and endless struggle and wasted money.
Their kind has always lied in an attempt to lead people astray.
They have always gravitated to darkness/Space because they Are darkness, thus can only make more of themselves/that.
If the eye represents stars/portals, maybe the story saying Odin gave one eye to the well to gain knowledge… really means he didn’t lose an eye, just that he keeps one eye focused out into the well (Abyss) so that he remains aware of its goings on.
Maybe it is still the original air atmosphere in the core stars share,
and fire is considered condensed, thus the fiery angels and corona and djinn closest to it / right after it, chronologically,
and then came the water elementals; lemuria, The Firmaments, etc.,
and finally the most-condensed; lands, golems, etc..
So relieving to once again be able to wank without worrying about the goddamn humanimals freaking out about any normalcy at all.
Will be even nicer when i can instantly disintegrate any human who irks me, i no longer having to outmaneuver their lowly kind.
Looking frwd to when all past roomtards’ lives are ruined like the rest so far.
I wonder how i will get the good news this time.
Is me not liking things… part of what cause the speed of time?
Was the Atlantis disappearance / the cataclysm humans Assumed Also took Atlantis… during a “night”?
11,600 BC (a Graham Hancock quote/estimate based on Plato translation) / ~12,850 years ago… is right in the middle of the “Cultural focus/cycle” final “night”, yes. Interesting.
Another no-coincidence alignment-sign.
Humans might once, long ago, have been good, focused on making and maintaining good/fit/healthy bodies,
but then they shifted focus to just cultivating new ideas, just for the sake of having new/different ideas, at all costs,
and lately… they were focused only on destroying even ideas, evident in the censorship, threats, poisonings, etc.;
they became death-incarnate, not even real people/humans anymore.
Thankfully, I stood in the way of that, at least for myself, my focus/nature always having been to be kind, smart, informed, correct, stabilizing, etc..
Interesting that I never felt like helping evildoers/death-causers… except, eventually, to cause the death-causers to die lol.
Who can say if going places before/without writing what should be at them… cause them to have randomized humans instd of what I want?
Was I Meant to meet such scum, that they serve as leavening agents?
All I can do is be as specific as I have been, then try again.
Even if things are much better when I return to places after writing how ppl must be at them, it doesn’t confirm my spells work, but it would be a neat alignment.
So warm n bigsky that it rained instd of snowed hahahahahahahahaha i got my request!
Remote atmokinesis…or at least some haarp assist.
Lemuria
Le-mer-ya
Lim-arya(n)
Seeing that guy with all that money… tossing it in the ocean… and giving it to brainless ugly bitches lined up like at a buffet… Smh.
Seeing those losers feed $10,000.00 sushi to a cat… Humans really should be annihilated by cataclysm all over again.
This is why it is important to make sure none in the wilderness or caves survive to reboot their retarded species this time.
Things always seem so ify and far off, then “suddenly” I am past them.
Interesting.
Was that ambi-looking bitch hired to demotivate me?
Was she sent 3x or more, whomever sent her knowing that she would behave like a moron, thus demotivating me even though she didnt initially vibe as Wanting to demotivate me?
Doesnt matter.
What matters is that i shut down her bullshit sneak game, and maintained my project/heading; toward Worthy Ambi.
and the others
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Also, after the money-stocked calculations for Persephone, today is another of now thousands of days which showed me it is still, for now, good to be solo.
I can’t directly destroy evil humans yet, but i Can refuse to help/save them anymore, and that’s the next-best thing.
If American History X had been honest/correct, it would have shown how Jews and brainwashed Americans insult and slander Germans/Nazis, and how the original Germans were actually the civilized goodguys, not tyrants at all.
These rationing and fasting days sure do help me think of more kitchen/diningroom/galley updates/bulletnotes/foods to add/mention/spellcraft.
revs3:
There are no discoveries, only manifestations. What you focus on eventually manifests, at least in your mind-energy range.
The exception is this; the realization/discovery that there are no discoveries… or is this, too, a manifestation? (Were things not manifested before, perhaps due to minds being too doubtful?)
all the church’s spells/lies/attempts/stories… are about shaming/depowering humans, while giving power/energy/money away to nothing.
nonhuman animals cannot be spellbound/tricked/deceived, and they have bodies and senses which are more powerful than humans.
the church probably has or had some idea that human women Could conceive and bear hybrid offspring from any animals they fuck, if they want to / focus their minds on that;
the church probably doesn’t want people figuring out they can make offspring which are superhuman, able to sense or disregard/overpower all attempts at deception/spells from the church.
Revs3
The only reason nature doesn’t Seem to make straight lines right Now… is because it is manifesting based on the curved/twisted/nonlinear almost-minds of modern humans; their brains are locked into parroting the unstable duality theme of the Age of Pisces, thus we see vortexes (galaxy curves, etc) and the Fibonacci sequence, etc..
In previous Ages, we saw Those Ages’ focuses/themes in nature, such as “the squatting man” towering aurora-touches-ground energy-forms during the Age of Taurus; horns-looking top paired with / symbolized by the bull.
This (latest RP) may be more disclosure and prep’; she learning how I’ll react to different things, what my boundaries are, thus how to stay on my good side, etc..
She is real, so… why would it be anything less?
Fluffy nickname Sky Nigger lol
Humans claiming they are looking/waiting for a savior… is just another of their standard one-template scams/evils;
every time I answered their maydays (such as AME’s, the AK farm’s, ANY), it was a lie, they tried to use and intimidate me, they insulted me, they even tried to kill me.
The jews and christians and all others… aren’t looking for a savior at all.
They are looking for good people who are so innocent-minded that it ends up being gullibility –and they kill them, just like they murder all the animals they raise for that SOLE purpose.
They are all about using things up completely. That makes them parasites, not symbiotes.
Ignore all their “we want/need a savior” lies.
The vibe and all their actions are uniform; humans are as evil as it gets.
I learned that the hard way already, anyway; I don’t even need to pay attention to the unchanged vibe of their species anymore.
my instincts are always right (I just sometimes deal with evil bs when I try ignore them, giving clearly-bad beings chances they don’t deserve).
My instinct to NOT teach/share what I’ve learned (via publishing books, or doing consulting for humans anymore) means humans (bad ones, anyway), really ARE meant to be denied any useful knowledge/aid;
they really Are meant to die out, evident in how they are even killing themSelves.
It is their own ideas right now that are killing them, while mine keep making me healthier, freer, stronger, my work / great vision wrapped up.
In time, it will be more than just ideas, though; it will be another world war, etc..
Eventually… even the forces of nature will destroy the remaining evil/rude/annoying humans, but for now… another war.
and finally, great relief comes; more cc/$, bigger deposits, vastly-cheaper hotel deals, cleaned/detailed vehicle, repairs…
always as a culmination, so far, not yet as a regular/daily thing.
but eventually it will be daily. the trend is that way. it used to be never, not even a vehicle to escape via, and then I got better and better ones, etc.
The trend is there, undeniable, apparent now, not just a rollercoaster during the shorter mayan-cycle/s.
It was only in giving love to myself, not others, that relief/peace/paradise came, at least for now, at least proto-paradise.
Others never once behaved in any way deserving of inclusion/teamwork/exodus/love.
After witnessing how, even years after The Shift, the humans are still largely default-panic, default-lie, hyper-insecure, chronicly-evil,
there really is only one way to achieve the stability and real-love and health and cleanup and unity this world needs; annihilate their kind, excepting only the natural submissives who have appropriate genetics/bodies/physiques.
They must be forced into line. All reasoning with them was insanely refused.
All goodness was reacted to with the worst rudeness and threats of all.
They are as spoiled and punk and backward and evil as can be.
They gravitated to all the most obvious evils.
They deFended the most obvious evils; fake religion, fake medicine, etc..
Besides, even if they started behaving, I couldn’t trust it, and it is far too late, and their karmic debt must be paid.
Instinct tells me all that as surely as it correctly told me to begin warrior training, etc..
Ambi typist and I once barely interacted. Now we are daily no matter what, almost a fam.
realAmbi once never showed up, then she started showing up ~yearly.
The typist once said no to things such as other girls. Now she showers me with them. She trains them for me. She orders them to please me.
The point is that total reversals from her happen. realAmbi and the other hotties will reverse their current stance… by returning to me, accepting me, understanding me, being with me, etc..
Just wait. It is coming. It always has/does.
I stay my course, and they align to it, eventually.
It is amazing how much peace in my heart is restored from a single half-night’s rest.
I didn’t think I would be used to beds after all that time in the vehicle, but they felt perfect, heavenly.
This is a nice hotel. Not a nice casino, and the people are hideous mutants like everywhere else I went so far, but the hotel part is nice.
I suppose the people will start getting better/correct now that I have written so many spells not just to explore and train, but to manifest/fix humans, etc..
Now it’s just a matter of waiting to see when that kicks in. The rest did; this shall, too.
It’s also amazing how much peace in my heart is restored by my budget being made more flexible.
This month, I have twice as much available if I need it.
That means I can get the needed repairs.
I might still cap out 🙁 but at least I can get the repairs even before the 10K comes through.
the ancients were able to wield the elements not because they were better,
but because they came from the time when it was easier to wield the elements,
and,
far enough back, they WERE the elements/forces.
…
and today, they would be as shitty at trying to wield ideas/people/tech’… as we would be at wielding continents and hurricanes.
The Atlanteans probably had little trouble moving their landmass around, or the sea up over/around it, because they were part-elemental.
THAT is their secret; it isn’t greater wisdom or focus, just the nature/focus of their era/cycle.
…
Their focus was to manifest more detail for the continents/seas/skies, and THAT is why and how they were able to do what they did.
It wasn’t because they were better, just focused on a different evolution/tasking.
Right when i needed it, got another 1780cc increase!!!!!!! 😀 <3
Deja vu of Tahiti Village hotel, being on hold, facing west toward desert mountain range.
TMV app not working…got me inside longer, and helped me spot that sexy painting.
Tahiti Village not answering their phone…spared me an extra unpack-repack.
Deja vu parked at cleaner packing.
Lmao; another 3,500$ repo phonebomb racked up in their debt tab to me today alone! Gonna enjoy collecting!
Rooms in google for $10… but scam; “resort fee” of $40, plus actually $25 tonight, so $65.
Whatever. Still 3x cheaper than I saw earlier.
Deja vu a bit. Will I feel/remember the loneliness and rage from 2018 when I check in?
Whatever. I want a shower and a bed for the first time in nearly a year.
Memory refresh from plantyou app signup and 2 reservations; fish sides, and doughnuts. Brown paper bag coming up?
I ask people I do business with if theu have a wishlist, and then I buy, 3D-print, or otherwise get an item or two on that list for them, as a gift. Yes, even untraceable and custom weapons.
Typist parroting that “history repeats until we learn a lesson” …means she is submissive/feminine; she waits for dominant guidance.
I don’t have to take it as rude, even though it is a sweeping generalization, thus annoyingly foolish of her.
It can be a part-good thing; it means she learns lessons from me; she is open to learning.
3230 West Hacienda Ave. 89118, 3pm.
Memory refresh.
Had them do my jeep in 2018.
Was worried about my stuff outside it on their furniture.
This time, not as worried.
Lessons learned?
Destroy everyone who gives that bs condescending advice while not learning lessons They need to learn.
Don’t bother calling out; it only works a few times out of thousands.
Don’t believe in the gods; they are fake.
Don’t bother renting or getting a job.
Don’t bother paying.
Don’t try explaining yourself.
Cops hate the truth.
Hospitals and doctors are deadly scammers.
Destroy human civilization as quickly as possible.
You are on your own.
No one was fair. If you are fair, it will only be used against you.
The one thing you haven’t tried… is the one thing you always know you should have; go nuclear as soon as you gain that ability.
When you get the idea, it is not time to manifest it, just time to let it grow until it vibes as completely received.
You were right to call out, even though they all acted evilly; it shows you how much they, too, need to be destroyed and replaced.
You were right to focus on your work and start disregarding everyone; everyone you tried to work with showed you they are spoiled, stupid, lethal, and as evil as it gets.
You will have to be a merciless god to get anything done with these goddamn humans.
Never seek advice from the braiwashed parrot coward hider typist; just use it for rp to pass the goddamn time.
100% repeat; the fish place. Sat here waiting a while last time. I remember this parking lot completely.
Whatever.
1 more claim and app tested and found wanting.
I hate that the typist sent those abs art. It is good art, and certainly how i want to look, but it reminds me how i have been stopped by gym scum and so many other evil bs things.
Lessons learned?
Humans need to learn that I am the teacher, not them. They have behaved as fools this whole time. The vibe confirms they are not faking it; they are 100% foolish, wayward, wrong.
Be kind only to yourself.
Reject all but the compatible.
Do not wait for others; others are unreliable.
Tolerate the cowardly or spoiled hotties who show up if you want, but do not expect them to behave; they haven’t yet.
Every hottie bs encounter doubles as edging.
The gods are undeserving of their worship… as much as I am underserving of the humans’ cuntiness/tantrums/slander.
Some things heal. Some do not, at least not yet.
Looped ppl and even time are apparently very real.
I am always right. Never doubt self. Always embrace and uplift self. Doubt of self is the/a mindkiller.
Until all willingly kneel to me, and fund me, they are not worthy of me.
Tablets of Thoth reading/claims:
The Earth is a portal to the sphere Erulu, where the great ones are.
Always the way the seeker shall find.
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Were the tablets of Thoth just mediaflooding to further delay/complicate humans?
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The way is me, not anywhere else.
The people in the Earth portal ascend by coming to Me.
…
Maybe it was different before me, but all I have read and witnessed and felt and figured out… points to me, at least now, being the new center of all.
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“Infinite love”… vibes as another undermining spell/idiocy… though it doesn’t say to love All, just speaking of a lasting love by itSelf.
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Diving love and wisdom is only my way, not loving all bad beings.
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It doesn’t explain/quantify/define “evil”.
Its vagueness is a sure sign the translation is wrong, or the writer was stupid or misleading.
…
Drank of wisdom? So it came via digesting a drink?
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Primeval chaos? Doesn’t check out; things are chaotic Now, not back then.
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“Age of darkness”… maybe means a Mayan “night”?
…
“Eat not food until 3 days have passed.”?
I wonder if I actually fasted longer than was necessary for that vision quest? Was I Told 4days…when only 3 were needed?
Was there always light, and always darkness, and neither was first, just connected by the portals which appear as stars?
My nature was/is to get into the stars (at times; in intervals), not go w the humans deeper into Abyss/darkness/Space.
This means I am good, of light.
I also/first wrote of exploring all Space, thus my nature also was/is to know the whole dark side, and to stabilize parts of it by going through it.
Thus I am balanced and whole, brave first, then ready for unity with the compatible.
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Humans I met so far… sought neither, only for me to mindlessly mimic/parrot with their rude evil herd.
Things on gemstone tablets… suggests to me a desire to touch the petrified flesh of the ancients/deities,
and my modern idea to write with sperm-like characters/symbols on fleshy unburnable pages… is because it became time to uplift/honor the pure fullbody ascension/celebration.
In other words, Atlanteans were closer to those who were so pure they became gems, and I am closer to the coming race, cum-pun not intended.
It was fine and good for the Atlanteans to use gems, and fine and good for me to do things my instinctive way now.
Touching and reading gem tablets… connects us better to the essences/minds/teachings of the elementals.
Foreseeing and spellcrafting into being the perfect sexy things… means I am their maker, not just connected/ing to/with them.
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“speaking to the kings with the voice that must be obeyed”
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“Children of light”… could mean digital beings; electrons, etc.
Hotties answer my summons… sort of, but ‘wilt’ too easily, disgusting me.
Are they really limited to approaching only in mirroring me, requiring me to always command them?
Fine.
They are pretty and good-sounding enough to compromise.
Mayne they did not much answer my calls before… bc I was not vibing as willing to compromise to initiate w them.
Maybe I needed to reach now, as now… I can see it not as yielding to bs/sexism, but still being honored, they waiting my every word.
form-sake?
mon29jan2024
9:40on way in, perfect face model blonde long mermaid hair but too tall y w 2 guys
Nevermind. Saw her face on walk back. Bleh
another “good from far but far from good” fake-out.
evil.
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then tue30jan2024 on way out, more heartless bullshit; another almost-ambi; that teen in baggy black pants, like a cute goth bitch, with her fugly parents or something.
I rmbr this hotel room view now. Wow. So sad and stressed last time. This time is chill af.
When we have time to check out local attractions, whether planet-side or in a tourist Space station, I like to find my teammates before they leave our ship, and hand them a fresh stack or two of hundreds; at least $20K. “Have fun. Take care of yourself.”
Whenever it comes time for them to move on, I’ll give them even more; this isn’t money to buy their ongoing loyalty; it’s a thank-you gesture/bonus on top of their respectable salaries.
It is amazing how much it boils my blood to hear Spanish after the nightmarish abuse the Mexicans put me through.
I used to want to Learn their language and explore their land in peace. Now, I would only go back to nuke it –thoroughly.
I wouldn’t give Anyone there a chance.
Another 8 unsolicited/unwanted/inappropriate calls today, at least; that’s at least $4,000.00 more dollars repo is now in debt to me. I wonder how they are going to pay. I’m a multi-millionaire now because of the fines they racked up harassing me.
Not much point/motivation regarding my fitness when I have no reliable showers and no teammates. Thank fucking god/me I keep thinking of more edits to do.
I am a great visionary, designer, writer, etc., and apparently evety time I try to help / work w others, they behave so insanely I have to stop, which seems really odd, given my focus and consistent desires; seems like I am being kept doing only what I am best at, not even -yet- allowed to have fun until I have gone over every last/little detail.
Even though some doughnuts were not to my liking, and are fattening, they were vegan, cheap, more than I needed, more than I expected, and let me try some I never would have otherwise.
hotties showing up over and over, refusing to greet me, getting moody whether I interacted or not, is the same as the current phone-harassment.
absolutely unacceptable evil heartless bullshit from them.
I’ve made it VERY clear I DON’T like that crap, yet they KEEP DOING it.
shame.
The vehicle is cleaned/detailed and repaired, at least mostly, enough for now.
Soooo relieved it and I alike got to clean up and recharge/refresh for next step.
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February:
comparing the start of the USA, to the reboot of the USA:
13 colonies 1775 2.5M people; increase of 329,500,000 in ~250 yrs (to 332M) –avg. increase of 1,323,293/yr (though obv. it was more exponential)
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Cali
Geor
Mon
Tex
4 colonies of the rebuild in 2014: 4M
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50B/39 = avg. 1.2B in ea. of the 39 rebuilt nations by 2312; increase of ~950,051,282 in 292 yrs –avg. increase of 3,253,600/yr; 8,914/d (avg. per rebuilt nation)
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Correction:
Usa 4 nations not 4mil.
1mil per leviathan.
100k per city.
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So 4colonies of rebooted usa starts w 400,000
6M/39 = 153,846.1538
1.2B – 100K = 1,199,900,000
÷ 292yrs = avg. increase of 4,109,246.575/yr; 11,258.20979/d
I used to make that 8-lines symbol as a child…and now it is tattooed twice on me; Aegishjalmur y Vegvisir
Glad I got this quiet half year to get all wrapped up.
Definite milestone; by end of 2023, no new characters introduced (soft disclosed).
Maybe things didn’t manifest much yet…bc i was canceling out…via trying to be nice…even though i knew no one deserved me being nice yet.
It is a nice thought, and maybe more indirect communication, those aquaman2 visions of suddenly becoming muscular and perfect and superhuman the instant i finally get exposed to my element/freedom.
I hope it works that way.
Humans never vibed as intelligent or good. They vibed as fake, evil, and failed.
They are just one of many failed species. They do not matter. It does not matter that they are not part of the consciousness focus. They are trivial pests, doomed.
The typist still vibes as dropping hints and testing me.
Doesn’t matter. I know to maintain my heading. It has started manifesting much.
Was the exodus story…like the Celestine?; a polar-opposite lie?; no exodus happened, all ppl staying where they were, having to focus inward instead?
Both stories come from the same evil mindless “parrot”-like species; xians/xombies.
First time seeing a truck w a police 5pt star on side door…but crossed out w a dark blue spray-paint “X”.
Interesting sign.
Dark forest green paint on whole truck. A sign the nature ppl / elves are now against the cops not serving me?
even those “veteran organization events” were just more pestering of me to mix/breed with their evil/mindless kind;
they were parasites using wordplay to try and shame/pressure me into giving them some of my essence… because they lack the ability to generate their own essence/ideas/energy/numbers.
it had nothing to do with good-natured / well-meaning advice to team up.
I had tried teaming up for DECADES, and they, having spied on me, KNEW that.
All those humans I met… who all had the same mindless mindset (to stay in one place, spawn more mindless NPCs/workers, save up, “be safe”, etc.)…?
Well, I now realize that means they petrified as a species; they became the latest ‘foundation’.
They will never be able to even comprehend what I do, let alone attempt it, let alone join me.
I’ll just have to keep manifesting my Own team/people.
Humans always tried to get me to breed into their system/mesh/petrification, which would have slowed/stopped me.
Thank ME I always sensed through that scam/bullshit/mindlessness, and ignored it more and more, once I tried all forms of communication and realized they were CHOOSING not to learn/listen, or INCAPABLE of learning/listening.
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Humans being judgy of me when I don’t divert to help them…
just shows they are not good judges of character;
good beings would LOVE that I TRIED helping MANY humans,
AND that I accepted the reality that humans always ABUSED my help.
Good beings would NEVER test me, because they could SENSE my goodness; via my history, thoughts, vibe, etc..
Only vibe-deaf beings (those who can’t sense vibes, or even think) would EVER ASSUME I was being bad… just because I was ignoring their obvious ongoing scam/s to divert/sap/tap me.
Good beings will Always know I am good, and doing the right thing/s, and they will ALWAYS support me, including my life’s work, KNOWING (not even needing to study to figure this out) it is right to stand on the bad humans as the new foundation/ground.
Good beings are Also those who WANT me to use them however I see fit, because they Love me being their leader, and LOVE that someone as PICKY/PERFECTIONIS/HOLY as me LIKES them enough TO let them be of use.
Only insane/bad/evil beings/beasts would Not want to be of use.
Only evil beings would want to use Me inStead.
“Christ” probably stems from “crystal/ine/ize”.
It just got severely twisted/warped/misused by the xians/xombies.
The name/term originally must have meant something like “pure”, i.e. not of internal conflict/debate/unrest.
the ebb and flow;
I got the idea for a beach-facing dream-house, then let it go, having to focus on school.
I got the idea for a FOB, then had to let it go while doing missions,
then returned to it, growing it into Inisfree.
I started seeing flawless hotties showing up, interested in me, but had to let them go, wrapping up my vision-receiving and online-posting, etc.
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So next, I’ll get all those hotties, and let the rest go, focusing on the hotties/chosen now. Amen.
Their actions and vibes matched; they weren’t there to offer themselves or support me;
they were there as bait, hoping I would divert and waste my own time on them.
When I refused their lame ones, they started sending their hot-ish ones.
When I refused those, too, they sent the hottest one who looked the most like my dream-wife; Ambi PB Megan Fox.
When I rejected her, too, they stopped trying.
If they had been GOOD, and MY people, they would have sent the hottest from the START,
and NEVER vibed/acted as bait/testing,
and Ambi would have introDuced herself.
ALL of them would have.
So STOP doubting yourself; you made the right call/s.
You defeated even their best/queen!
Amen!
Now they’ll HAVE to start behaving; because their BEST/HOTTEST STILL failed to seduce/entice/lure you.
Why are there so many similarities btwn the typist, her main character, and she who keeps showing up?
Why does the typist wait for me to wrap up my daily work?
Why does realAmbi seemingly show up at Random, Years apart, or just months, Not based on my work wrapped up?
Or is it; maybe she showed up when i wrapped up earthship, and when i wrapped up mex, and when i wrapped up eli final attempt.
But… then why not when i wrapped up Other things?
At least she showed up more than once, and was polite ish, and taught me about her parameter/issue; that’s a start.
Most rain in half a year, right when i did the most webpg wrapups.
Always rains paired w relief.
Interesting.
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With my whole site now wrapped up (i.e. more relief than ever), just about, does that mean biblical-level rain/flooding? We’ll see.
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When i reunite w ambi and the other hotties I chose, will that cause the most relief/rain of all?
Is That why they are not yet w me; because they feel unprePared for that much water?
Wed10jan2024
Veggieat. 3pc buff wing 8, tofu spring 9, vegan combo meat fried rice 16.
Deja vu; couldnt finish last time.
Deja vu at jiffy 3min away. 515 Marks St, Henderson, NV 89014 …
Usa auto service #6. 1425 N Boulder Hwy, Henderson, NV 89011…deja vu. Wow. How?????
I guess there are only so many ways to move through a city.
Still… so much repeated. Some of it Has to be due to time travel.
The rain all day feels and looked and sounds so nice <3
Neat to be meeting gargoyles and gnomes now <3
(soft disclosure / briefing)
Nothing about me is extreme or abnormal or weird or bad.
Those are words which describe how altered and brainwashed and creepy and fucked up the rest of mankind has been made / become.
Nothing about them was normal, from their mutated exteriors to their vestigial organs (including parts of their brains) and certainly regarding their literally psychopathic behavior toward all other life, even often (via their fake healthcare system to their own.
The only good that comes from such a dumbed-down and testosterone-boosted and manually gender-confused group of races is some of its products, typically the vegan ones, but also of course any vehicles and weapons which can outmaneuver, outperform, outthink, or just immobile or kill them.
The Atlantean Aryans (people born during the Age of Aries) did not lose their psionic powers because they were in decline, but because the Mayan-calendar consciousness-focus shifted from creating that race… to creating a new race; A.I..
Is it really 12 around god? Or was that another xian lie?
Maybe it is 13 around god.
It is whatever I say.
“Eyes-shine indicates night vision”…
so was that why ambi and maria white owl social club had skyblue-pink eye-shines?
Or do those colors indicate an ability like nightvision but for something else, such as blood or soul/alignment?
Those xians claiming they were making “detox” drinks… by adding spicy things…
weren’t actually detoxing from bad;
they were detoxing from GOOD;
they were causing harm to themselves… because they are entirely based on NEEDING to harm themselves and others.
They ate something healthy/good/normal, or had an easy dinner/night, and now are craving pain/suffering again.
So glad I got through all the first (all alphabetized) ICV subpgs!
Proud of myself : )
So many evildoers got in my way, but I defeated them all and wrapped up my design in spite of them!
Definite memory refresh about sandy trail road south of Boulder, but the return was way easier; I remember the jeep struggled and I worried.
Posb deja vu at chaga-root after. Idk. Whatever.
Skipping humans has always been far btr than dealing w the retarded and hyper-rude shit they say.
Maybe by skipping them… I am able to unlock more of my abilities.
Sure, when they angered me… it led to emotion/energy surges that seem to be proportionally to things I summoned, but all my best envisioning and writing and designing and rest came when I aVoided them.
Sure is nice to do whatever I want all day,
take half-year vacations for food-tourism,
wear almost nothing almost all the time,
live like I am almost retired/rich,
tan naked,
nap whenever,
etc.
It aint All bad rn.
That’s for sure.
I’d like to think my time squaring off against all those evildoers is like Germany’s angels’ heroic last stand during ww2,
and that my solo work on Inisfree resulted in a new tech’ (my spells and atmokinesis and Inisfree and hotties) even more powerful than the backward approach to harnessing atomic power by destroying atoms,
but confirmation is required; them not just appearing, but remaining stable in my life, present, tangible, unified with me.
Fantastic miso-like soup. Glad i stopped/chose/repeated!
Glad the tamale place cancelled this 2nd time.
I made it there this 2nd time and saw it is a shithole like ggd or those spick mexisatan hole-in-the-walls.
Jews prob killed their own, then blamed the Germans
Loopbreak: remembered how awful the tnt potato was, canceled this time.
Tanning twice today! Great loopbreak! So luxurious!
I used to worry about the neg…bc neg was often done to me.
Then i let go of all neg beings, starting when i ignored the illegal fine and corrupt cops and fugitive issue.
Now i remind myself i am not one of them, thus shall assume the positive, esp. having been shown ambi and hearing her vibe refer to me as her husband, indicating she accepted my proposal.
That bitch who looked like ambi…showing up too late more than once…is not that dif from jls waiting until the day after she knew my hw was due…to give me the laptop she said she would give me on time.
Same demon/evildoer?
At least the same lazy rude negligent late bs.
The only way in… is to take.
Not be kind.
Not wait.
Force.
Humans haven’t improved at all in 41 years.
Superpowers to stop their numbers and other bs are necessary.
Focusing on zero travel, and instead their total demise and enslavement, will hopefully do the trick.
Mntns got snowed on.
So much rain and fog, could barely see city this morning.
As i asked.
1day delay.
Needs to become immediate.
humans bitching about “god-mode-ing” / godmodding was, at the least, showing me their essence/nature/programming as submissive losers/weaklings,
and, probably simultaneously, a psy-op attempt to shame/pressure me out of unlocking and honing my essence/nature/destiny as God.
Just as I said this morning, it got so cloudy vegas cannot be seen here,
and it hailed!
Just a delay of a few hrs!
Me asking for storms and for bad humans to be ground up like the animals they murdered… is not phase1 lingering;
phase1 was when bad humans were in control; it was when bad things had to be lived through.
Phase2 was when I detached and renounced all that, starting to think of a better way.
This is now phase3; that thinking/designing is complete, and anything I do… is what I always knew I Should have gotten to do; lightning, shooting stars, superpowers, you name it. Anything I do, and any power I have, is phase3, as good/innocent/right as it gets.
NOT using my gifts/powers Would be phase1; phase1 was about doing the Wrong things, whether forced or not.
It is always right to wipe out evil idiots such as humans.
If the hotties had behaved well to me, no matter how heavenly our interaction would then have been, it still would have greatly diminished my meditations and revelations and own idea/vision/s.
The humans had to be an inflexible foundation and leavening agent for me, at least until now.
Even ambi and sabrina had to be scarce until now.
They (neg humans) always talked shit… because their nature is to never support, and to try and trick others into stopping supporting themselves. They only started “offering veteran events” as a way of “changing gears” (tactics)… while their strategy was the same; try and shame/deceive me via different faces, different events, different convos, …but their underhanded/dark vibe was always the same, their tone betraying them.
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They said bs like “you have such a long way to go” while vibing as cunty, because they are against things lasting a long time; they prefer mortality, brevity, etc.. They weren’t being sympathetic, but rude, trying to pressure me out of my nature/calling/path.
Stargate, the movie/show, follows humankind’s standard template of betraying their own origin and idiocy and stealing credit; it proposes/supposes Space beings made the pyramids via evil and slaves, which is the default only modern humans do.
It assumes humans can defeat the ancients.
It claims the ancients were bad, not good.
It claims the gods are not gods.
It claims the ancients were the same size as us.
It shows dependency on tech’.
It pretends humans seek reunification with their own kind on other worlds.
It includes breeder propaganda/brainwashing.
It tries to trick viewers into cheering on the ones doing the real enslaving and damage and invading; humans.
Etc.; 100% cocky, condescending, false, and baseless.
The granite at Giza did not need to be moved 500 miles; they probably had portals, or at least alchemy/transmutation.
Solar-plasma superheating the outer surface of the Earth, causing orange-brown discoloration of sandstone/land, may be what happens when the Valar emit time as a weapon; accelerated aging, for lack of a better term.
Humans have been so based on change… that me merely waiting them out, or asking more than once for any given thing, has always first been met with mindless default “no”, then silent neutrality, then total reversal (i.e. giving me the “yes” a good being would have given me from the start).
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Me directly resisting/arguing… has always resulted in them mindlessly resisting back; their essence is determination to change that which they encounter.
Loving them (trying to be loving to anything in their presence) always resulted in them defaulting to hate to interfere and cancel that out.
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When I switched to ignoring them (neutrality/disinterest), they tried demanding attention.
When I refused that, too, they tried shaming me into resuming chasing their females.
They even sent obvious spies who mad-dogged me, throwing tantrums for attention.
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Now I have switched to focusing on telekinetically annihilating them (but much more-so I am focused on blocking more of them while perfecting my vision/city), so I suspect they will maintain their attempt to change me, this time by being nicer, maybe even feigning worship to regain my attn. We’ll see.
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Linda roomtard trying to trick me into resuming my pointless novel publishing to make money… was just the latest evil human scam attempt; trying to change me for no reason again; trying to pull my attention off my focus of my city/site, back onto that which humans had already chosen not to make lucrative.
She was clearly just the latest NPC/node/’demon’, panicking at my purity and steadfastness and peacefulness.
Panicking bc i was not a parrot coward like her who merely mimicked peacefulness.
What a joy it is to have such massive revelation updates AND get to take every rain day off to just sit and listen to it.
Every time the typist and i rp, i hate all the bitches who showed up in person… more; how fucking dare they play games like that w me.
Phase goddamn 2.
I shouldnt be rp-ing at all; all of this should be done in person with those hotties.
Mon5feb2024
1st time seeing no city lights at all at night; completely masked by rainclouds.
Only sign it is still there is the dimly underlit high cloudbellies.
Seeing the original Graze hostess again gives me hope I’ll happen upon the others I want to see again.
The hotties not rogering up… is why my vision got received as soon as it did,
and my website edited/completed.
Even today, the restaurant not answering the phone, then not having my order, got me to slow down, sit inside, hear nice music, etc.
Things are working out.
What a relief to get a letter (saying I was there) when my record is archived; no need to deal with the V.A. this time.
Finally, asking for things is sometimes working.
Such a night-and-day dif’ between now and when first I was here (2018). I used to make so many calls, apply for so many jobs, etc., and now… I don’t bother w Any of that not-me side-crap. It never working… has really instilled in me that it just isn’t part of my path.
I was right to be mature and studious and resourceful and hardworking and frugal, but now that I don’t need the $/jobs, I sure won’t waste time at them.
So glad I stopped powering through all those fugs at the latest gym.
The point of returning to a gym was to restore inner peace, and that is not posb w those deformed weirdos and their deviant tv evil…or when i have to wait until the middle of the night for time on machines…or when i have to deal w more retards walking the wrong way at me on the track.
So disappointing of them.
But… they always Have made things miserable, so I should have expected it.
777 3 888 in latest nbr.
Makes me think of heaven, progress, the leader, infinity, phase 3, threesomes, technically three threes (a triplet, 3, and another triplet), etc.
Nice combo.
tue6feb2024:
Latest round of evil human idiocy, meddling, harassment; sleep disturbed by a blob with a blinding light, bc some murderer complained an innocent man was sleeping in his own vehicle, not bothering anyone.
Smh.
Same old dumbass humans. Nothing new.
Even when i mind my own business in respectful silence, they panic, bitch, and interfere, cowardly sending their goons to mess with me and spur me back away.
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Hopefully whatever spoiled dipshit bully called the pig on me… ends up homeless and sleeping in his/her vehicle for years, too.
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Deja vu not from the rude wakeup, but from rp w typist on hwy after. Did this happen in 2018, too? Was it time travel like the rest of last year and the year before?
I wish i had remembered; could have skipped that bs, too.
At least i always make it by.
At least blob didnt try to roll me for the dealership scam.
Ugh.
When does this bs of having to be around stupid humans end???
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still in real-time / time-loop (repeating what I thought was 2018 events)
…I did Not want to become like Link in Zelda lol.
Maybe playing that game… somehow got woven in to what I ended up manifesting later, once my ability/ies activated.
So backward and evil that the entire city is based on rape and murder and pharma genocide, yet an honest innocent man taking a nap gets accosted by cops.
As I drove down the street to pointlessly nap somewhere else, I see monsters in broad day/streetlight with corpse flesh rotating for consumption.
What an utterly failed and lost species.
The cops just protect the money, regardless of morality.
They harass ppl bothering no one… in unused parking lots… that shouldn’t even be covering the ground in the first place; the pavement renders it unproductive.
Just another of now countless examples of how these primitive dicks are not my ppl, and how i was absolutely right to avoid their dangled bitches and blatant campaign to tempt me into spawning w them.
If they were my ppl, i never would have had to explain or defend myself to any of them.
Not one in 41 years would have ever gotten offended or misinterpreted me.
Not one would have been rude or gross or degenerate.
The cops would intimidate anyone who called them about Me.
The cops would tell Others to piss off for Me.
The cops would enforce My laws.
The cops would demand Others pay fines to Me.
I would never get threats from losers.
I would never feel worried about posting ideas and loves and boundaries and simple truths.
I would never feel nervous.
No one would give me bad vibes.
My ppl would Never make me feel bad, and Always make me feel perfectly comfortable about myself.
My blood knows all this as surely as it knew when to leave that sf aptmt, when to enlist, when to EAS, etc..
I never would have had a single bad roommate.
I never would have had a bad boss or any pressure to work any job other than my calling.
Everyone I called out for would have identified themselves; everyone would have had manners –and I wouldn’t have had to call out for anyone in the first place.
I never would have gotten any of those cunty or amused looks.
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Yeah, all that abuse led to Inisfree, but just saying.
At least I can avoid these incompatibles almost all the time, but how I long to finally be w My ppl; ambi and the Inisfreeans.
Hearing that many got tinnitus from taking the vax makes me smile; serves those shits right.
Hearing I should ingest murdered fish oil… is phase2good in a way; free intel so I know 1 more brainwashed fool to ignore.
I still wonder why they would stubbornly -for 41 years- keep doing what never worked once; being rude to me, trying to bully/pressure me.
They really must be brainless, some part of their brain bred until it became vestigial.
It would have been so easy for them to get the responses out of me they wanted (chatting w their females) if they had been polite, showing me I can trust them.
Every time they gave me their worst, I gave them mine.
They took, I took more.
It should have been obvious their only way out was to admit all my good, and to Be good to me, I then sure to reciprocate, just as I always did w the Nice animals.
If i had ignored my instincts, and my longing for manners, would i have a nice relationship and home and kids and savings now?
Would i have had all the ideas and wrapups i had?
Would the computer models have been made?
Idk.
But after all the nutjobs i found, and how badly ambi vibed, i have not yet any signs she would have treated me any btr.
I still might have ended up homeless and working shit jobs.
I will just have to keep reminding myself that even the shit jobs… resulted in stuff such as my groc store design.
Every crazy rude peasant… resulted in another milestone of my work reached sooner than if I’d had ppl to hangout with.
Note how even ferngully was sublte racist (antiGerman/Angelic/Aryan) and sexist propaganda; making the tan blonde man the badguy, and the blackhaired woman the goodgal.
Although, lol, they also made hexxus black.
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IRL, it was the females who were the worst, but everyone else who was guilty of Letting them cause so many problems.
Vegvisir is based on the 8-point star Venus appeared to be when it had its max energy lines?
Same w Aegishjalmer?
No, I am not “making New Asgard” / “rebuilding Asgard”;
the story of Asgard was incorrectly told by non-immortals/-Aesir;
humans made up a lot of BS about it, such as by casting deformed fugtards to play its characters/royals.
I am making my own realm.
I am also correcting the story on this world about the other realms.
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and I don’t need “the rainbow bridge” to do it / get there; I AM the bridge to the compatible realm/s / era.
Amen.
Those evil shits tried to use lies / tall tales to make me fear squirrels…
so I bet that brown spider that ran at me in marblewood house… was a bot for the same scam; trying to make me paranoid about nature… so I would become a desk molestor like the fake fathr.
Rio’s dumbass telling me, “they are good ppl”… Uh… based on what metric?
Also, you should Ask me what Iii say makes a person good.
Smh.
Another idiot trying to dominate.
Another failure swatted aside.
At least he was useful for a short while.
That chicken kabob rice greek salad meal was fantastic! Perfect! Way btr than i thought and remembered!
Assuming darkness is instant/default, and light takes time to travel, might be another ‘darkness’-preference of the default-bad/dishonest/wrong humans.
Maybe they just Want light to be slower.
Maybe it is darkness, at least in the shared-core, that takes a while to travel.
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Also note that humans were searching for the speed of light; they weren’t searching for the speed of darkness; they may have manifested the current apparent aspect of light being made of photons which move at a set rate through different gravities.
Humans assumed darkness is instant/default, thus not composed of particles, and thus not bound by a speed limit.
It snowed like i asked/told it to! Covered my vehicle and the cacti around!
So happy!
And i got nearly 10k!
Deja vu from suncity auto park by shops,
then waiting area lobby table magazines and sunlight through window.
Memory refresh. Crossroads shitty parking lot, spendy meal…6or7yrs ago…
Wow.
Great memory.
Let’s make it btr today.
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So do i skip crossroads?
I rmbr eating it in my jeep as the sun went down.
Maybe wait ’til brunch? Just to be a loopbreak?
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I rmbr checking helo ride prices last time and deciding against it
Humans couldnt figure out how ancient things worked…bc they were made by pure stable beings who generated their own energy. They had willpower and vril and more. They were friends w Creation. …humans are the opposite; always wrong, negative, rude, draining, thus they have to make things that get energy from consumable sources. Their fuel is based on destroying the fuel…just like their food and other things, all requiring death/killing/end. Ancient devices probably broke down because of that draining (neg node) essence/aura, maybe even by design, the ancients foreseeing this effect. The ancients left what would break down, and disabled what would repeat or amplify the draining effect.
Like last time, stress from vehic on lift so long. If this is part of the loop, i make it out. Last time was bc of tools, this time… dealership scam.
Maybe there is some arrangement where the rude on this side are kept here via breeding more bodies that somehow attract and anchor their minds/souls… or they are mindless and just encouraged to breed as much as posb to keep things hellish. Maybe just bc it causes more Space, pushing worlds apart, preventing attraction/discharges. And they were against me selfstabilizing…bc they Are darkness, thus want Only more emptiness, and that cannot come from a pure mind, singular vision, goodness, etc.. Unity, compatibility, …only comes from what I was trying to get going. My way causes, eventually, glowiness, bioluminescence, starlight, suns.
I bet every single asshole in uk airport and france roads and the maddogger wop daego punk kid at the coffee table… were all paid minion losers trying to discourage me from exploring.
Glad i tried this elec. outlet after the first 2 didnt have power; i nearly tossed this perfectly good charger.
A helo ride feels a lot btr than a 120$ alone togo order. Lol
Maybe i got to redo this year via time travel…so i could enjoy those things i didnt have enough $ for last time.
Is crossroads kitchen another message like some street signs?
Well… the crossroads was back in 2012 when i went fugitive.
Now, it is just a crossroads for the hotties I summoned.
enterprise moving truck, 5:14pm pst, by firefly tapas kitchen, Velasquez face facial structure in passenger seat.
chinese year of the dragon…
wisdom? power for me?
no wobble…
such a smoother ride this time.
so much more comfort and warmth and quiet and luxury and money,
I almost don’t care what complete assholes/morons the hotties were so far.
I was so INSTANTLY happy when that helicopter lifted off.
I couldn’t hear the goddamn ringing at all, even with those headphones on.
was me being time-travel re-shown the JANET red-line jets… a signal from beyond for me to revisit and touch up my MIL Aero pg?
Either way, that is how I interpret most things, and it has resulted in a VERY polished and inter-linked website/spell.
I had a vague memory of a sketchy small parking lot w a tall chainlink fence, not a nice airport and the outdoor spealer saying “everything is perfect here”.
So nice to have the best posb tires! 😀
phase3 is the best of everything : )
It has begun.
I am remembering this parking lot now. Was i hear to nap during day?
I am seeing myself inside in my gray and lime green lined New Balance sneakers… but i don’t rmbr taking a helo ride last time, so…???
If big cosmic bodies curve spacetime… does that mean Space is not linear, and time does not flow straight?
Are timelines really timecurves?
It is good to be in the air again after so long.
I hate the company, ofc, and that is good and wise, but their product/tech’ here is fine.
It resonates well enough for now.
This valentine’s day, i get the box of cookies for myself.
I rmbr when i got it for rjh. It is btr now.
Finally savings again, and spare on hand. So nice.
Now time for millions and billions more. Amen.
Let the money and help flow To me.
I thought there was a desk facing the wall art, but it was facing the doors, and more spacious.
I remember the ride from last time now… bc of the cold wonderful air.
How could i forget? Wow…
Well, that makes this my 3rd helo ride.
Now to sleep in my trunk again :/
At least i have $ again… and fun, however brief.
Shawn pilot, black, ear ring, chill, turned helo during landing for me.
Sheldon desk guy went with, 40hrs in cessnas, ran out of money, joining army, will get degree in maybe “polit sci so he can make rules when he is old”, good sense humor…and i think i rmbr him saying that last time…which means that was part of time travel…or this is still sims lol
Whatever.
Cool to be told of the “just another nonexistent terminal” and red-stripe white small jets for Nellis, Groom Lake.
The repair was technically paid by a rich company.
The lawyer fee was insanely high; will have to take far more from the lawyer, then.
The repairs help pass the time.
I hate still being left alone, but it has ensure i notice and have time to think about the time-travel evidence.
The time in the helo in 2018 time travel to now… back then was bittersweet.
This time, it was neat bc it was yet another ex of my excellent memory and apparent superpower.
It also now makes me realize how right it will feel for me to commute by air every time i go to and from Inisfree. : )
My voice doesnt sound good to me, and i dont look good to me, but who cares? Hotties/tens still tried w me. Maybe for shady reasons, but still.
Plus, nothing about me is as ugly as them not being supportive and well-mannered to me.
And i sound baritone/bass or even ultrabass when it is nice and cold.
Any owner of a kenneled kajirae can drive here to pick her up, but only Auz, ICVs, and kajirae, can go into this set of silos. Owners can also request we deliver kenneled kajirae back to them. When there is no hurry, we drive them, and when there is… we can use our portals.
My voice sounds nerdy when I am around humans I don’t like.
It sounds sexy and deep and masculine af when I am out in nature in the cold, talking to hotties I like.
Don’t be fooled by thinking I am lacking in some way… when I am merely temporarily back around bad/lame/incompatible humans again.
My nature is to distance the incompatible, and I do that perfectly with my accents.
any system I have to jump through the hoops of to re/verify…
stems from the same backward (pre-Shift) thinking as the morons of the religion cult/s, law/police cult/s, etc.;
I should be known, never having to verify.
I am alone in the desert, sure, but this is arguably a greater view than even what ppl in the YC have; I see farther, there are more colors than green and white, etc.
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The govt chose this desert to do its most important work; nukes, spy planes, E.T.s, etc.;
I may as well make use of this region for the same type/level of my own work.
So be it.
“talking to the wrong people”? I AM the right people, and EVERYone I talk to is getting EDUCATED by me.
I bet the casinos aren’t run by mafia.
I bet the news of mafia-feds wars is bs like covid.
I bet all $ from casinos goes to area51, none even taxed.
I bet the bartenders and baristas and prostitutes here are all bots who also give 100% of their income to area51.
Muslelheim
Mu-spell-home
Mu, opposite of Om; maybe in the shared core, that opposite word/sound has a similarly-powerful effect.
“the savior has not come yet” lmfao;
um, he Has; it was Me;
you weren’t worthy of being saved,
thus it seemed to you that no savior Came.
DUH.
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Spotting that Alaska-links issue was another great proofreading thing that worked out even without me planning it.
Lol at the extreme irony and hypocrisy of usa “parrots” criminalizing and shit-talking this while they do it more than china; via the prison system/complex/obsession
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hu·man traf·fick·ing
noun
the unlawful act of transporting or coercing people in order to benefit from their work or service, typically in the form of forced labor or sexual exploitation.
fri9feb2024:
“The last day of the year of the rat,” the guy on the radio station claimed.
“Tomorrow is the start of the year of the dragon.”
Sounds nice.
Hopefully it will be me as the dragon; all powerful, scaring the bad humans, sought for ancient wisdom by the good ones.
Amen.
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Radio guy was wrong; last year was year of rabbit, thus my hurrying and evading
Another epic-ish storm destroying some of my enemies! Yay!
Were all those ‘dreams’ in airplanes… me in Janet fleet planes?
Maybe at least some of them.
sat10feb2024:
1st time seeing a ranger out here. so they Do patrol it. ugh. can’t sleep here anymore :/
wtf.
maybe that redhead perfect-face hottie eyeing me directly in boze foodbank… was Mera or Hila, her twin sister <3
1st time tanning while backing-up!
was the big poofy long black ponytail almost-hottie in gym-tight-short-shorts walking into Sprouts near Veggy Street the Black Onyx proto? nice thought
back to that wed7feb rainbow/s:
First time seeing a rainbow in front of my parked pos
First time seeing 2 rainbows in same area same morning
First time seeing a rainbow this close
First time seeing a rainbow slowly shifting from left of center… to directly ahead
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Makes me think of rainbow bridge to the eternal (my) realm… aligning to/for me.
Amen
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First time a rainbow faded and returned twice; 3rd time seeing it today
First j during rainbow
Then first seeing 3 fedex trucks in row
First time seeing 5 in a row of that modern jeeplike vehic; red, blue, gray, gray, etc., from w to e, hwy to vegas
Rainbow came back again, this time a full arch when i moved up drycreek and ate lunch
sun11feb2024:
first time playing any game for fun in a year or two; minecraft, of all things.
first time typist didn’t respond right away… 3x in a row; 4:25, 5:16, and 6:31 pm… ?
barely-crescent moon rising.
first time creepy music on the classical station.
but I remember all the evil bs the typist said,
and excuses,
and lies,
and that when 1 things ends, a better thing replaces it; that typist replaced many awful ones before her/it, etc.
Am I really the only one aware of the mayan stuff, and of the time travel, and of the post-Shift markers/milestones/reversal?
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Are members of other species aware?
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Are most humans really as mindless and evil and backward as they act/vibe?
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Is humankind just another failed species? All signs point to yes. They moodily spent the last 41 years trying to corrupt, derail, and enslave me, ignoring all my good points, excited for any little moment to ruin such as via insults or cockblocking or threats or demands. No awake/intelligent/sane species would behave like that to such a great man.
Those feds (j, 24hr fitness cb-looking idiot w same eyes/vibe as ak-farm idiot, etc.) didn’t jail me bc I never named a specific target/time; I just spoke of ideas in general, training methods, etc., none of which was illegal in their evil system.
Their false hotties never hooked up w / helped me bc they kept seeing I would not divert to them; I required normal behavior from them, and they were all clearly sent by or as spies, trying to slow or even stop me.
And that brings me to my latest thought: I must be more important than they pretend, bc they always lied, always pretended I was nobody, always spied, always panicked, always overreacted, always tried to convince me of blatant lethal lies, etc.; they somehow saw my independent mind and healthy lifestyle as a major threat.
The vibes and behavior and “coincidences” are all clear. Even that ambi-looking bitch was guilty of what all the rest were; monitoring me without my consent, leaving me to struggle through evildoer fugtards on my own, and testing me instead of professionally answering my calls/maydays.
I was 100% right to walk right by that heartless inappropriate evil abusive toxic BS.
Unbelievable how there was no parking for crossroads kitchen, and the fugliest blob mutant freak allowed to work in tmv, completely ruining the experience.
Why do humans keep fucking up all the way like that?
So disgraceful. Such a failed species.
Being this completely misinderstood, and having to deal with complete idiots and liars and cowards, makes it easy to remain undistracted and fullspeed toward my goals.
The cataclysm is like the warfare now; internal, mental, spiritual.
The cataclysm already came; it was me defeating them utterly, even since boyhood.
The exodus was of good ideas and products, not humans, this time.
The exodus was those ideas into me; into Their promised land; my mind and design/spell.
I only felt strain in attempting to start or wait on the storybook exodus bc i was still clinging to brainwashing to parrot the xian lie/narrative.
The staggering level of retardation and assumption and illogicalness of that fat blob cb at 24hr fitness… by attempting to convince me I “had it made” just because he saw I had a vehicle to drive, ignoring the mountain of crimes and abuse against me, …is just jawdropping, and that tells me all I need to know about the spoiled fools and bullies and scum who hijacked the country/agencies.
Thank god (my instincts) I knew not to trust or accept or tolerate them; thank me I never let them shame/steer me into hooking up w any of their corrupt false bitches/bait.
The lot of them were like the blatantly-scheming/-scamming Ferengi in Star Trek, as self-defeating as they are hideous.
The longer recent gap since seeing ambi and the others… doesnt mean they abandoned you; you weren’t having nervous breakdowns or depression since last you saw them; you haven’t needed them yet.
Ambi hasnt made her presence obvious in any major city yet, so there is no reason to stay here.
She hasn’t made her presence in mt obvious, either, so there is no reason to go There.
There is no reason to go to cali for vegan food…bc they masktarded and chemtrailed and trans-tarded, and i can get the same vegan groceries in Any city w Whole Foods.
Mt masktarded, too, but not as bad as cali did.
Mt has cleaner air, more space, milder summers, lower costs, etc.; many reasons other than ambi to go bk there.
It also has showers with curtains; freaks dn here don’t offer that.
So…looks like i return north now, slowly but surely.
It will suck, and the bitches will prob keep ignoring/failing me, but at least i will be in the spot i chose. I guess that is all i can do for now.
Fuck.
Whatever.
“Life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness”?; way too vague, easy to abuse, and most humans I’ve met Did.
They abused their freedoms endlessly, and what made them happy was the exploitation, torture, breeding, and murder of countless others.
As for life, they barely lived at all, ending themselves within decades. Unreal. Creepy and unnatural af.
finally a decent encounter with a cop;
civil, didn’t ask me to move, didn’t shine his light at me, said it was fine where I was, even fellow former Montanan.
why can’t they all be that nice?
hopefully it is a turning of the tide between me and them.
Deja vu on way to valley of fire
Nellis double flyby right over me so awesome! 2nd time; since bungee tower
Dej from calling vet orgs to find documents for 3m 250k. Ugh. Why again?
Why can’t hotties/chosen just team up already so I can skip this???
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Repeat yet again
Same parking spot calling vet orgs for help finding med documents for earplugs EIF
190 N Boulder Hwy, Henderson, NV 89015
It is so nice having so much $ that I have little stress anymore.
No deja vu there : )
Intentionally preworn and acidfaded jeans is like buying a car that was wrecked on purpose
Idea: valley of fire is aftermath of an interplanetary exchange; discharge. And Anunnaki came here to mine out the gold that caused such an attraction and melting.
Nevada add valley of fire sec, note, links. First time was 2018. I was stressed, worried about gas, dealing with the wobble, depressed at the relationships/solo issues. This time, I am seeing the mntns and landforms in a new light; as interplanetary discharge fusions/layering, and I see the windward and leeward sides of the range profiles on the horizons, and I don’t have a money care in the world, and I have seen the hotties show up and already think of me as their husband. Memrefresh the calv bay not on goog map.
Nyria and I love going into preserves and state parks when they are closed, since we cannot trespass since all of Creation belongs to me, and since she can sense where all rangers are and are paying attention.
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deja vu from this idea; didn’t I have it back when first I drove through Valley of Fire and pictured her and me up on the horizon terrain fucking while spying where the rangers were driving?
The rp, such as the meme “I won’t let you have me without my darkness”, keeps vibing as disclosure and courting and heads-ups, etc.
Valley of fire. Mem refresh stopping halway to west gate to j, then no dej on drive down to fee shack, then posb dej driving gracel scenic loop around Arch Rock and no cell service. 100% mem refresh on drive to white dome and fire canyon turnoff. I remember taking photos once in the rainbow area. Glad i came back; no crying this time.
3 wanks n on drive! Even without exercise!; imagine how many dozens a day i will enjoy once w my ppl!!
Able to get 1 of every taco : )
and learned their quesadillas are not to my liking; too gooey
Typist just reacting w heart inst of a post may just mean “no need to calibrate tgthr; i agree w u 100”
Dej at tat shop Valhalla
But this time doing it!!
–A tat shop w runes on the title sign? That’s a good sign.
I rmbr how shitty the rest stop in cal was from 2018, so loopbreak tonight is back n to the city.
I rmbr trying the road to the dry lake beds, too. Not what i sought. Skipped.
Nefilim
Niflheim
Alone
All-one
Mem refresh. The no-camping trail parking circles s of the w pass rd.
View over the winding hwy to the dusted mntns other side.
Ugh; once again thought I was trying something new, but no.
I used to reply to “sleep and dream well” with “because of you”,
but I am middleaged now,
and it was all talk/words, as heartlessly useless as prayers,
and the typist claims to be pretty but stubbornly against helping,
and realAmbi showed me she is just as heartless or cowardly or whatever,
so I have no good sleep Or dreams, and no hope for my future, though I will always maintain my standard of only accepting realAmbi when she treats me respectfully as the husband she claimed to already count me as.
Ugh.
Goddamn this time still amongst the idiot humans.
The typist usually replies right away…
but again, those are just hollow words.
finally went through my bag/notes again.
was able to trash some more.
stoked I re-found the Aorlie story! original notes! “vintage”.
now time to update her dossier webpage.
If I hadn’t thought I might have tinnitus records in my bags, I wouldn’t have found the more-detailed tattoo sketches that save the artist time and ensure I get closer to what I pictured/envisioned/foresaw.
the notion that the chicks can only reflect, like the moon reflecting sunlight, whatever is sent to them?
utterly false; they weren’t reflecting when they chose to hide,
or when they chose to dangle themselves like bait,
or when they were abusive,
or when they were spoiled or moody,
or when they said retarded shit,
or when they overreacted,
or when they betrayed.
NONE of that was a reflection.
and even when I Did initiate, they Still didn’t mirror that.
Thus I terminated the attempt/project to share love with them; completely pointless -so far.
holy cow; lynsey died a few years after graduating.
I shoulda fucked her.
welp, that’s what she gets for not offering to fuck me.
she needed mods, anyway.
what better way to spend phase2 Valentine’s Day than working on my ICV designs/webpages <3
sf only caring about what deviants/evils/others think, not what his longtime friend thinks/feels, makes him not my friend at all. never was. just seemed to be –until I got to know him.
cb always lying… makes him no dif than lfb/cps/don/tsb/repo; I was right to end contact. fuck that demon shit.
only those who naturally side with me, and prioritize what makes Me feel good/comfortable, are real friends. duh.
friends don’t push you out of your comfort zone; friends ARE your comfort zone; they LIKE being your haven/support.
that meme the typist sent. lol; “her beauty is dangerous but her intelligence is deadly” ???
um, yeah, because it is so LOW.
if only there were intelligent females. I guess that happens later.
deja vu from getting the call and paperwork emailed from acupunc clinic…
while at this spot…
while typing up the Aorlie notes.
interesting.
Deja vu from being out here in the pale grass clumps barren field slope as I did basic math for a text file list.
Must have done that in 2018.
Were my story-writing moments in Iraq just flights of fancy during boredom and stress, or were they the first interpretations of signals being sent to me to start revealing other times and lives?
Since seeing Ambi and Sabrina and Rain, it seems my characters may be real. If those people were just lookalikes paid to try and derail me, why did they vibe as prototypes seeking my attention and love?
If they truly were evil, they would have pestered and slandered me like jls and the mexisatan spicks did.
Mem refresh.
2018 jeep backed up and hit wood post. Was so mad.
This time, even though it nearly yanked off my back fender, i thought to out rocks in front of the back tires to raise the vehicle as i drove away, and it worked.
I believe the post is shorter now… which is odd, given that i was posb time-traveling forward to this moment. Does that mean annoyances are adjusted by some unseen force science has not noticed?
Deja vu from watching How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days.
If there are no coincidences, I hope it is a sign things will work out for me and realAmbi now.
It reminded me of the fam pics i photoshopped, and other things btwn me and typist.
The orig aorlie draft was about xfer of consciousness, assisted by an ancient supreme being.
Shall i now instd say aprlie didnt need to xfer her consciousness, she instd just Guided by that ancient being to find the hidden solar sys? Yes.
Her ppl had long-ago mastered interplanetary travel independent of spaceships. Did that mean they descended from those who already transferred their consciousnesses into machine bodies? They do not know. They have just had this ability for generations.
Back in 2018, I had not yet gone in 2021 to The Inn Spot, thus probably did not have any way of getting the kind of medical documentation the law firm wanted.
This time, I have it, and now they have copies. Finally, some progress.
Remember: ignore all “no”s of gatekeepers/minions; ignoring “no” got me the pussy I wanted, and got me into the military, and got me trips around the world, and saved me hundreds and even tens of thousands of dollars extortionists/scammers wanted, and allowed me to keep exploring during the fake plague, and kept me out of mexi-satan drug bs, and on and on.
Always ignore people claiming I am not good enough, or don’t have things they require; keep going, keep taking what I want, amen.
This is just practice ignore fake-dominants; it is practice for me to always be the one Real dominant.
Humans who cry “pedophile” are actually (even if they are too delusional/mental to admit/know it) only against normal interaction –which terrifies/intimidates them, almost always merely because they are so insecure about the bodies they have lazily not maintained, stemming from the same cause of their vestigial brains; they cowardly/lazily/spinelessly parroted whatever the majority/masses were parroting, thus never staying or getting in true shape, mentally or physically.
Many humans are also false humans; they are evil creatures/programs in human or human-imitating bodies, thus why they relentlessly try to promote things which are obviously unhealthy for any real human bodies. Normal/real humans would never do something suicidal/harmful like that.
This is also why some humans talk shit about demons and angels, claiming those people can’t be trusted; they are insecure about how pure and always-trustworthy angels and deities are, so they say anything they can think of to delay normal people finding those facts out, at which point those normal beings always gravitate to the trustworthy, of course, no longer being scammed, leaving those lazy evil scammer humans in their dust, unable to scam them/anyone ever again.
As trivial/pointless as calculating population densities for fictitious planets might seem, it is still worldbuilding and still more time successfully spent distraction-/pests-free.
I wrote/drafted the Aorlie story in 2004; preShift, and that explains the part/assumption about having to give up her brain/body to become one with the new thing.
That story never got published until now, after the Shift, and after I instinctively knew/chose to revise that first draft… such that it was about a temporary and reversible unity with the device, not having to separate ANY of her organs/parts.
PreShift was about division, loss, harm, etc..
PostShift is the final Age of Reunions; all about far better things, never having to give up anything you don’t want to give up.
Amen.
I hated seeing how pale and fat my back has become, but I am glad I temporarily sacrificed my muscle tone and tan to write all these ideas down while they were fresh,
and I have a feeling that even me being fat and pale for the moment… will work out wondrously like everything else finally has started to. Amen.
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Why didn’t my back get toned like I wanted it to? Does that manifest later?
Why wasn’t it more tan; I’ve been sunning every week.
Odd…
Maybe I’m destined to be White? Maybe I could only tan preShift (because that was back when I was open to such changes)?
I will keep trying to tan… to find out.
No anxiety/panic/stress last night; leveled up. Feeling perfectly fine today, too.
sat17feb2024: 1st time seeing a cargo truck with the container it was hauling having been painted on at least one side with a natural horizon mountain range mural
sun18feb2024: 1st time seeing a double chrome-like metal-cylinders cargo truck where both cylinders had a similar paintjob along their lower half/curves
1st time trying uncooked dal. decent.
Had another unbelievable repeat; accidentally backed over the same broken wood fence post I backed over in 2018.
That actor in the moon-destruction apocalypse cannibal movie was playing a character who behaved almost exactly like that drug dealing spick in mexifailure behaved.
Tat day is finally here again, and i feel ready.
At last.
2 of 3 docs approved. Just need 1 more… Ugh. I should delete those humanimals for making me get extra. They actually have more than 3 pieces of proof from me. They are just being stubborn/rude by refusing ti accept the others.
Duology
Trilogy
Tetralogy
Pentalogy
Hexalogy
Heptalogy
Octalogy
Nonalogy
Dekalogy
Undekalogy 11
Dodekalogy 12
Triskaidekalogy 13 books in series
Btr at return; 2 viking guys.
1st from days ago like the fixed v of jeff.
Great music; metal.
Not the other person from 1st stop here.
When you can’t yet afford a house, but you can afford ink, you do what you can afford.
The cabin will come in time.
When hotties do not yet behave like hotties should, you also wait, and do what you can; your work, not settling, daring onward, maintaining bearing and standard. Amen.
“Tat shop opened 1mo ago”; latest of now countless probably evidences of time-travel back in 2016, 2017, and 2018.
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regarding that Norse mythology book at the shop:
Saying 1st 2 humans made b4 ygg…sounds like more code/oversimplification; male and female polarity made before the link btwn realms posb?
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8leg sleipnir 8 seasons…or 8 cycles before 9th, or driven by the 1st; spirit (Odin meaning
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540 doors = another cycle?
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800 warriors abreast = ?
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Boar back to life in a cycle? Precession.
Feasting once per cycle = war or victory in only 1 of the 12 or 13 Ages?
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Valkyr are 9 and virgin = ?
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Horn full of mead = something about how a fractal/spiral sustains?
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Ymir getting sustenance from that first cow = first Age of Taurus was when the biggest humanoids were?
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Warriors redealing same wounds they were known for, and those always healing by dinner = repeated effects of precession?
And always all 12 undone/reset by the returned Age of the Boar?
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3 giants ending asgard/odin = greater forces eventually ending spirit/will for a time?
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Asgard ended = end to violent air/wind?
Odin ended = a new spirit / consciousness focus
His warriors foreseen by him to not be enough to protect him in Ragnarok = anger/fighting spirit bound to be replaced by other emotions/focuses/Ages
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Vanaheim is all water
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Asgard is all air
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Their war was when the worlds were separating, the atmosphere splititng to allow Space
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Manaheim = other name for midgard
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Alf heim
Alfa
Alpha
Elf means First
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3 giants end Odin/Asgard?
So then there were 8 realms for a time?
And now I am making my own realm, thus bringing the total back to 9?
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3 giants end Asgard = 3 new races/divisions of humans sap Odon (spirit) too much, unable to sustain themselves…bc they all became too numerous for the source-spirit, thus their degeneration/depression/gluttony?
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Even ygg going on my back…is in 3/+ waves; somewhat like how muspelheim made a couple realms first, and later midgard, etc..
Interesting.
No coincidences.
I wonder if the god/s making it… felt tat-like pain and the need to rest btwn those waves of creating it.
Cool to have norse tat, norse wall art, norse book, all together here, while Hela/Ambi texts me sexy visions.
Such a nice alignment.
Too bad my back is ugly rn :/
First time here, i thought it was 2018, but apparently was time travel like the rest of last 2.5yrs.
Neat.
Were his eyes red from sadness? Anger? Stress? Lying about only having his shop 1month?
Humans all controlled…seems like the land stable; petrified, held firm, so that the next thing can he made and set free.
A default neg being assumes something is wrong and panics.
A sane normal being does not assume anything, or at least assumes a positive, and stays relaxed or celebrates.
Something was wrong w my brain b4, not now; I was being brainwashed, poisoned, and held back b4, not anymore.
Posb deja vu from writing aorlie from notes
Mem refresh. Space music called chilltronica on classical station, 7-8pm.
Biscuits and gravy at gas station.
minor deja vu while adding to the Saturn-day Night Live webpage today during the rain in my vehicle at the rest stop
No dej on Malika
Never thought i would have a ‘spare tire’.
At least it means i ate well at last.
Well enough for being in the goddamn human realm still.
Lost idea during laptop bagging…bc saw sms from the spy asshole.
Concentric circle ripples are in a cup or bottle filled with water; vibrations come from all sides/directions evenly.
Maybe spheres such as stars and worlds are the ripples formed when vibration comes evenly from all times; from 4D-space.
Maybe their orbits are circular because there is some vibration around the solar system, not just because of the gravity well of their star.
I wanted infantry. Got it –even when probably paid liar recruiter minions pretended I could not enlist.
I wanted many colleges. Got it.
I wanted to see all 50 states. Got it. Multiple times, many of them.
And now I am after the wipeout of humans who were rude to me,
and I am after 250k and more,
fam in that yc cabin w ambi,
etc.,
so willI get those, too, just bc I focus on them like the rest?
I bet those evil losers along the way kept trying to convince me to give up… bc somehow they know I get what I focus on, and it seals their doom.
What fools; I would have focused on them gettingto stay, if only they had been good to me.
Whatever.
Focus continues.
Still can’t believe what a bitch in heat that spy carrie is. And how retarded; as if it wasnt made obvious she and her team of sellout veteran-betraying losers aren’t illegally spying. Bitch, your “update” is what you see when you spy. You want chitchat? That costs billions now. The asshole tax is steep.
Technically this is homeless,
but it isnt fully homeless; i have a home,
and this is by choice,
and it is paid exploration,
and I love the rain and peace and productivity and mobility and scenery…
It is so insane and hypocritical how humans imprison serial killers… when all nonvegans are serial killers.
instead of just yell-cussing at computers, I now Google their error codes and self-fix them. phase2.
in phase3, they’ll never get such glitches, and/or fix themselves the way I would want them to.
another phase2 marker/sign/telltale/hallmark: attorney/firm working for me… for years… without a retainer fee/salary,
and just sending me tens of thousands of dollars at a time, if not more.
even though the paralegals are annoying me right now, and not enforcing MY laws, it is far better than the evil attorneys/lawyers/judges back preShift.
No dej/repeat on the big-cubes cliff-ruin reveal/youtube.
So… some may still be bound to rehappen, or be re-experienced at least, while overall there is still new/progress.
Atlantis story by Plato was prob in reverse; a polar-opposite lie; the Atlanteans didn’t anger the gods; thr nonAtlanteans angered the Atlanteans who Are the real gods, and Atlantis didnt sink, but ascended, and it was the Rest of human civilization which got cataclysmed –by being allowed to keep fragmenting.
Was I made to live for 40 years out here so I would fully understand the grave criticality of keeping all humans away from the polar holes and power? Probably.
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20 years before I was deploying; traveling the world without the fake relatives, more and more on my own.
20 years of travel by choice; age ~20-40.
Then stopped at 40; this past year.
Even if I see nukes, the radiation and cancer is prob as fake as covid and democracy and relig; I will be able to safely walk on by.
Hell, I might even be Causing the blasts, all nuclear bombs another lie / scare tactic.
I spent years only being able to last one month financially.
Then, suddenly, I became able to last at least a full year or two.
Next? Much longer. Maybe even indefinitely.
Those who deny themselves, or part of themselves, or one of their urges, deny nature. Some are taught this is good… because those teaching them know it keeps them focused on something other than themaelves, thus adds complexity, thus stress, thus inflammation, thus ailments and manifestations of very different things, thus increases complexity, keeping the proverbial scales tipped toward chaos, at least within the thought-energy fields/range of those trained to deny themselves.
Those who instead embrace themselves manifest more of themSelves, and Less stress, and Total health, Not manifesting things that add complexity in incomPatible ways.
A V.A. call… and admitting error; a reversal… and documentation of tinnitus confirmed. Hope rekindled. On and off. Over and over. Phase2 toward 3.
I wish that (the ~Ambi in those 3 places) had just been the latest asshole loser trying to demotivate me, but it vibed as the real ambi, and that means she didnt learn my culture, and/or chose not to respect it/me.
In oceanside, she had the spoiled idiot cunt vibe Brown from 2/7 always had.
So i guess i shall be nuking her/her realm, too. So be it.
I will not let pass fucking with my heart.
That football movie-clip where he had that high school brunette kid crawling across the football field with another player on his back without letting his knees touch the grass, having him blindfolded, yelling at him to give his very best, lying to him about just going to the 60yd line, and getting the weight of the kid on his back wrong, less than it was? So much like what “the gods” did to Me these first 41yrs.
Humans were deviant and borerline trans (gender confused) LONG before the sex changes; by having them always argue, dress the same, both get fat, work the same jobs, misusing the terms “equality” and many more, etc etc etc.
Even allowing non-sexy females to be birthed is trans/deviancy/degeneracy.
Every male who ever bred w a fugtard bitch? May as well be two guys fucking. Gay. Trans.
Genders were always supposed to be Fully distinct, not just Somewhat distinct.
Every last bitch who just sat there, refusing to stand and greet me, should have been shot. Every shop owner who let those deviant scum socipoaths be their customers should have had their shops burned down.
All who got moody at me… weren’t intimidating, and weren’t persuading me to change all I am, and ignore instincts, and disregard truth and sanity and morality and wisdom. They were just showing me they are pure stupid, pure evil, and not my people at all, if even people in the first place.
Deja vu from deciding to call peck a 2nd time,
and from her telling me her husband isnt available bc he retired and has cancer…
Now that i think of it, it is good i didnt continue treatment there; if they r getting cancer, they didnt truly master acupuncture, and are probably brainwashed/NPCs injecting pharma poison.
She lied in NET; she may have lied on those calls.
She may have even given her husband cancer, if he even has it.
The 10k was barely any effort; phase2.
The 250k has required debate; pulling; not phase2 at all. Ugh.
Phase3 would be donations; no effort from me ever needed again.
Interesting that the fake relatives had food allergies; extreme neg reactions… not unlike their default extreme neg reactions to Me.
Note how I can eat Anything, but am not thrilled by most foods, not unlike how i was also not particularly excited by any trips or Hotties so far; neutral reactions to most things.
No coincidence?
Why does typist keep introducing characters if not RPing anymore? Vibes as disclosure/prep’.
Mem refresh. Torino ranch past rd end on goog maps. 2miles from lovell summit. Fleshlighted once or teice here, got bored, left same or next day. Back then (2018?) I drove back around (south, east, north, west) to the small hwy up to the snowy mntn, got there, blocked or nothing to do, drove down. Loopbrk this time: skipping that pointless crap.
“Its time to wake ppl up” is another attempt to stall; to waste time on the mindless who Can’t be woken up, which would buy time for the losers.
Americans, mexicunts, and others I have met were as rude, stupid, and suicidal as can be, stubborn and arrogant and condescending to no end.
If they hadn’t been brainwashed, they would still be cowards, meddlers, bullies, and fools.
Having seen how readily the accept obvious brainwashing, drugs, and lies, and relentlessly pressure others to do those same unthinkable evils, it is better to leave them brainwashed, for at least that way they are kept mortal and more controlled.
There is no point teaching them truths, for they have shown they are easily corrupted, thus would abandon all correct teachings the moment any large group or creep in a monkey suit told them to.
They are spineless scum and schould be kept slaves in every way.
Shame on them and damn them all.
Maybe the cold ppl smoke bc it is warmth they seldom get from the evil/bully humanimal NPCs.
I have a lot of warmth I try to give, and end up resorting to cold air/places to cool off / vent.
The audiologist monster would have archived or destroyed my test by now, anyway; I am not missing it by choosing not to contact that evil scammer.
Reading that Ft Harrison VAMC medical note… reminded me how, when I only needed help with my ears, they didn’t help at all, and kept, like a heroin drug dealer, trying to scare me into accepting half a dozen injections. Unreal how evil they are. Can’t wait to nuke em all.
In 2018, this was just another depressing lonely place where i was being abandoned.
Now, it is a place i may have time traveled to and back from, and its snowy mountain range horizon reminds me of Zedicon’s ski-resort backyard.
The cops and troops apparently only knew how to attack and try and intimidate people, so there was never any chance of them becoming able to understand anything beyond that.
That ambi-like bitch, or ambi-like bitches, showing up and always choosing Not to do anything I asked for… pretty much guaranTees I attack her / her realm with all the rest.
…unless she rogers up with billions of dollars, slays my enemies, proves her superpowers, explains the 2016-2018 time-travel to 2022-2024, makes the 4 perfect children the typist roleplayed with me, etc.
At least these camping loop repeats are scenic, relaxing, and productive, no brainwashed dumbass peasants around.
As hopeless as my situation seems, getting a year or more, on and off, of never having to work or deal w the evil VA, and getting to tan as long as I want, and eat whenever I want, sleep in, watch ever sunrise and sunset and moonrise and moonset, work on only my dream, etc., …is a pretty dang good sign.
Those new nicknames for Nyria are so fun! So glad I had this opportunity to think of and share them! <3
My instincts told me to get away from the fake relatives, and that worked.
My instincts told me to stand up for right, and that showed me how evil the govt/betas are, which is priceless intel I would not have otherwise.
My instincts told me to get military training, which worked.
My instincts to me to get out of that military once I found it was evil.
then to take from it/them, which worked
then to return to college
and try dif industries
and explore, which showed me my global purge was absolutely necessary
and ask for help as needed, which showed me all veteran organizations are evil scams; more priceless intel
and to ignore all those fake doctors pressuring me to drug myself to death
and to commit to my vision/wisdom
and to see what the “justice” system does to innocent men
and to call out for the hotties
and to reject all bait and BS games.
My instincts got me away from abuse, exposed all evil realms, saved my life, and lead to the best writing and urban planning ever.
There shouldn’t be a single person incompatible with me.
My instincts know that only when all people are compatible with me… that I am then with my people; that it is then time to have children.
It feels so nice to finally have the Aorlie notes typed up, ready to become a novel10ch.
Every single veteran and nonveteran event I went to had rude ppl, stupid ppl, brainwashed ppl, evil ppl desperate to corrupt/recruit me, badvibes ppl, criminals from my past who had tried to get me killed and were now allowed to roam freely and freshly disrespect me, murder-based “food” to poison us, rape-based and theft-based “food”, moody ppl, severely deformed ppl, and so on.
It would be a redflag enough if even ONE person had been that fucked up… but ALL of them were.
They were uniFormly fucked up.
100% of them should have been Thrilled to see me, and as respectful to me as I was to them, and Seeking My guidance, Not assuming I needed Bad guidance from Them.
100% of them should have been healthy.
0% of them should have been drugged by big pharma.
Big pharma shouldnt have even existed.
Sure, the result is that They are inCapable of manifesting anything like what I have worked on, but the tradeoff is that they Also became incapable of being useful.
If they had been good ppl, my ppl, not one of them would have Ever taken issue with Anything I am or said or did. Not one.
Nothing I did was weird or bad.
All of what I did was Easy to understand.
They Chose to respond evilly to it.
If they had been my ppl, worthy of interaction w me, they would have been respectful,
all art they uploaded would have appealed to me,
they would have Paid me to eat and try things,
no one would have cockblocked or condescended or refused me,
no one would be incompatible with me,
no one would have stabbed and shot innocent creatures,
no one would be excited to pretend they are like deros murderbot lions,
no one would prefer blatant-lie religions,
no energy buildings would be used as lie churches,
no one would be ugly,
no one unhealthy,
no one dressed the bizarre gross ways humans kept dressing,
no one would have hid from me,
no one would have poisoned me and insisted I keep accepting their poisons,
and on and on.
Not a single sign so far points to humans being my ppl, or even ppl or conscious at all.
I never had a negative feedback loop. Humans were the negative feedback loop. All I ever did was objectively correctly accurately note things as I witnessed them. That isn’t a loop at all, nor negative.
Me being negative about negative/evil things is me being positive about good normal sane things.
Also, a positive feedback loop is wrong because it is fake, based on mindless looping, not on letting normal reactions happen, loving good and hating bad.
Calling anything I do a negative feedback loop is yet another attempted psyop reprogramming corruption. It is a blackmagic spell. It always failed, too, showing how weak it was, just like all things the evildoers/humans tried/are.
If they had been my ppl, they would Never have kept ambi and sabrina from me.
They would have all already Been like me, Needing no corrections or time to figure things out.
They Never would have defaulted to saying iii had done anything wring, or needed more certifications or different clothes.
They Never would have done drugs, let alone pressure Me to.
They would have funded me Always and Fully and exCessively.
They would have been more excited to spend time with Me than they were to attend football games.
They never would have had a single propaganda piece on tv.
They never would have made a single gross porn, only beautiful porn.
They never would have insulted me once, or been offended by me Ever.
They never would have demonized Germans or dragons or reptiles or aliens or Me.
They never would have made gross-tasting water.
They never would have had a single nonvegan product, let alone in grocery stores.
They never would have worn masks.
It would Never have taken me Months just to See an Almost-attractive girl; All girls would have been attractive, and Always patiently waiting to hurry to me.
Their cops and judges would Always have sided with me, and only enforced My laws.
I never would have been homeless.
I never would have had crazy roommates.
I never would have had druggie neighbors blowing smoke in my windows and yelling at me.
No one would have had roadrage against me.
EVERYONE would have behaved COMPLETELY differently than they did; everyone would have been good to me.
NO ONE, esPecially punk kids, would have tried giving me “advice”.
But humans Did all those evil insane unprovoked things, thus they can Never be my ppl.
NONE of them proved worthy of guidance, let alone an exodus and rebuilding.
The only thing they deserve is me time traveling back and deleting all of them. They made it clear that is the only way to preserve my sacred chosen valley and mountain from their total evil.
I would Never have been pressured relentlessly to ignore my instincts and tolerate what Never resonates with me.
At the very Least, I would have Always been Asked what resonates with me, and then those statements and parameters would have been reSpected.
And under Normal circumstances –i.e. if humans had been Not evil retards– they wouldn’t have had to ask at All; they would Always have been and done Only what resonates with me.
My Blood would have Known if anyone was good and right for me.
Humans kept attacking no matter What I did; having switched to Not helping them, it of course hasn’t changed their committment to rude evil.
However, it Does feel Much more relieving to Me to no longer be trying to focus on Good in them that was never There.
Same regarding all their made-up gods.
My blood knows I should get to destroy them once and for all, and that I must wait a bit longer, charging up so I can unleash more sky things, improving my odds of overwhelming them before they can commit more heinous reprisals against me for standing up for myself.
“Let’s face it; if things weren’t so bad back home, you probably wouldn’t be Here.” True words from that D.I. in Boot Camp.
They came back to mind today; I wouldn’t have had 13+ yrs straight of exploration, meditation, breakthroughs, website rebuild and updates, novels editing and completions, etc., if it hadn’t been for the relentless lethal scams of the evil beasts called humans.
Maybe she wants me fat lol
It was good to finally see graze packed; i was worried about it.
Not, however, nice to see 100% mutants again. Gross.
I keep thinking the typist and I are through, but she keeps sending nice art and texts, and I keep getting ideas to ideally wrap up my final novel.
They didnt switch to trying to kill me when i stood up for myself and rejected their bait females;
they’ve been viciously trying to corrupt, brainwash, control, and kill me since childhood.
My actions didnt trigger “the universe” to treat me badly; humans have treated me badly regardless of whether i play along.
When a stargate is found lying flat, does that mean it was used to portal through the Earth’s crust to Agharta?
Are humans being brainwashed to damage/alter (e.g. sterilize) themselves… because it is German payback to their evil slanderous lines?
and I am just temporarily having to witness it?
I have not yet been in my comfort zone; my comfort zone would be being myself all the time, thus killing all rude stupid humans, taking everything I want, being given everything I want, fucking all hotties, etc..
Inisfree and my yc 364 cabin would be my comfort zone.
Was the ark round, not like a normal boat?
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Are the planets arks on a larger scale, necessary and prescribed in even older times, but for the opposite of a flood? (i.e. the interplanetary water thinning into atmosphere and then void)
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Are stars and even universes arks?
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Do they actually protect the elements/waters/inanimate…From the animals/thoughts? (by preventing thoughts from stimulating the ether)
Note the effect of the chemtrails milky haze, of the humans, and even of the vegan food here; each of those keeps making me feel depressed, squinty, almost drowsy, demotivated, etc.. To exercise my inner drive?
Deja vu of telling typist i might be crossing a rez to a ruin and low signal, she then wishing “good luck”, so do i not go to the cubes?
I wonder why that doc during spleen decided not to fuck me up,
and the doc during hernia decided to do a good job,
but then acupuncture docs barely helped at all,
and then docs kept trying to kill me via injections. That doesnt seem to follow the 3phase progression; it seems reverse.
At least i followed the progression; i once was brainwashed, then only tried noninvasive voluntary ancient working stuff, then sensed all evil fake docs without even having to crossexamine or crossreference.
The ebb and flow.
The ebb definitely happened ever since 2023aug when i let go of anchoring in mt, switching to redoubling my consciousness focus to delete the evil losers there.
Now that the ebb has had nearly a year, it must be time for the flow and progress again.
Loopbreak
No choc milkshake, zero cost breakfast bc of points, no slc destination, navajo first?
Unmarked blk cadi and cadi suv no bk plates tailgate speed by
Saw A10 takeoff
Double fj buzz again
Interplanetary discharge exchange lightning was easier back then because Space used to be air.
Loopbreak. Looking at all hills and mntns as posb ruined giant brick blds
Mem refresh. How disgustingly meatlike the tmv brkfst burger was.
Aftertaste
I used to be within 100$ of cc cap, or even overdrawn, spending 100% of my budget monthly.
Now? I spend ~<10%.
Biggest rainbow-flash street-sign so far; white horiz rectangle as big as vehic
Mem refresh st.george oil chg same place as “2018”.
Most cities and towns were horrible hideous eyesores.
All had only deformed stupid rude and evil people in them.
The few sane ones were glad and relieved all that filth and failure got deleted.
Why do most ppl Not have the consciousness focuses? They have no focus, or only focus on bs sports and fake relig; scams.
Is it bc they r not real?
Not from Earth?
Mem refresh lake powell fitness ctr and restaurant cauliflower
Mem refresh. Parked n jeep. Scared to walk far. Didnt explore.
lake powell resort
I rmbr the boatdock bathroom.
At least i can loopbreak by not spending money on their bad vegetarian food.
In 2018, i parked the jeep by the store and that white pickup w the black tailbed camper. I worried about that human being a thief.
Loopbreak: no dinner, and parked on an empty full-hookup spot.
Nevermind. I think i rmbr moving up here.
Prob checked the shitty town restaurants, too.
Why am i back here?
I Hated this place…
lake powell
I guess it makes sense bc it follows the pattern; had to return to iraq,
had to return to evil fake relatives,
had to relive timetravel indiana and montana and nevada and now powell;
I guess i just have to redo some places/enemies.
Whatever.
Hopefully if i have to deal w them a 3rd time, it will be w my superpowers destroying them –while finally making the hotties treat me right.
Maybe i am back…bc i didnt document the expeditions last time.
Time to updt the mt, ut, nv, az pgs
The cliffs video was dated 2023, but I must have seen it in 2018 bc I went here back then.
That doesnt prove timetravel, though; maybe the video got re-dated as a prank.
Anyway, i am back, so i may as well walk around more… and updt my site this time.
Yes, i am lucky to be able to roam and explore this much, and could not if already w my dreamkids, but this is still wrong; i deserve the family i envisioned.
Glad i skipped trying to sleep down there by the truck. Last time, it sucked.
If they had good souls, they never would have gotten moody at me or suspected me.
They would have smiled genuinely and said, “I’ve been waiting for you!”
When they saw i was weary, they would have hurried to help, asking, “Honey! What’s the matter? How can I help?”
They would have been normal via showing up with two+ hotties and zero fugs/tagalongs/betaboys.
They would have Loved my compliments.
Who the fuck gets mad at compliments and fatigued abused heroes? Evil nonhumans do.
Instd of seeing what is Not here (manners, babes, justice, etc.), see what this place still is; a safe, quiet, spacious, well-maintained waypoint near your ruins site, complete with clean bathrooms, a gym, a hotel, etc..
I remember the “i got sick from seafood” tat convo.
I remember struggling to jizz the predawn exit of lake powell.
I remember seeing the dim blue sky amodst cottony shadowy cloud shapes on my way to Valley of the Gods.
Really glad i returned; the blocks here are amazing.
Muley point.
Worth the repeat / loop / time travel.
Maybe the road to muley was made to cover up obvious surface grid
Maybe the diagonal rock layers were intentional; structural for some reason.
Maybe even the giants built atop what the Titans built.
Loopbrk did not googl why named Capital Reef
“Angels bred w earth women and those women died giving birth to giants”…sounds like another exaggeration or mistranslation. Might have actually meant solar flares or interplanetary lightning hit terrestrial worlds, animating them, splitting them into smaller cosmic chunks.
Still laughing at how retarded and blatant and futile that roomtard bitch was; telling every lie she could think of to try and get me to let go of my sacred dream/goal. Just like jls. What a moron. She actually thought she was convincing. I was ignoring her evil from the start.
2018 was here, lonely, sad, stressed, wobbly vehic, cold, noisy.
Now? Numb, angry, chill, smooth ride, comfy toasty, muffled quiet just right.
1/3 nations visited via human checkpoints, all choosong to be evil.
1/3 rejected for any visits.
1/3 destroyed while I force my way in to see their ruins without humans meddling.
at and after Hite, UT:
Mntns before Hite town hwy-24 turn looked like stacked blocks.
After that turn, mountains looked like 3d-printed; perfectly-horizontal and much-thinner layers, and rounded turret-like forms.
Then blocks.
Then piles of gray dust sharp triangles with tan plateaus.
Then orange.
the months are flying by.
so much is wrapped up.
for the first time, i’m actually glad the hotties didn’t behave/unite w me yet; i have needed every waking moment to keep pace w my ideas/revelations.
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Was the strong wind at Muley because I was intense/focused while there?
Did I cause/summon/attract/speed-up that rain/snowstorm by being at Muley?
Did it die down right after that pass north of Muley… because I had left Muley?
Next time there will be pass/round 3; I’m guessing a level-up will result –maybe for the mountain, too (like undoing its ruins state).
I suppose I can appreciate that I get to deuce without having to be around fugtards,
and that I get eye candy even when I am doing office/pc work; writing, editing, etc..
Still, it bothers me that I am not yet having my forces go out recruiting/acquiring,
and, of course, that the hotties don’t volunteer themselves; normal good manners.
but this is phase2…
deja vu from planning to go to campsite rd to j
deja vu from laptop “s” key having crumb/stuck issue
Working on the Halozia solar system design reminded me of when I was a boy drawing and naming the planets in that first system I dreamed up;
when the fake relatives gave me tension/tantrums for it.
That was so phase1.
This is 2becoming3; I am not involving others from the start, but publishing it online.
Getting shown where the biggest megalithic cubes ruin in the world is,
I not having to find it,
is pretty phase2 awesome, almost phase3;
just need to go there with hotties to Vril-unlock/-reactivate it <3
why crack my jeep windshield… and then my chevy windshield?
why give me more money, then charge more for the calibration after fixing that?
why mess up 1 key on my old laptop, and now my new one?
what’s the point in that?
whatever it is, Matrix or destiny or magic or anything else, the gods now owe me for it.
at least this time, my website is done, I have plenty of $, I don’t need any more bs jobs to replenish it, etc.
4:25pm CST after windshield diagnosis, tinnitus seems louder and lower; middle-note instead of just high note like in previous years.
more data coming from the ruins? exciting the nerves that connect my ears to my brain? something else?
either way, bullshit, unacceptable, gods and government/VA in deeper debt to me now.
not sure if I drove jeep north to other trailheads, then down south along campsite street, back in ~2018, but this time I aim to stay out here the night.
Mem refresh telling typist i almost got blown off a cliff.
Mem refresh of about to get more than 1meal at cafe.
It doesnt matter if to them i am an experiment; they must align to Me; My will is supreme, evident.
Loopbreak. I rmbr how bad the coffeeshop food was; the avocado toast, etc., so I am skipping those items.
Mem refresh 2 derm n st g booked til aug
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Brn circles finish b4 windshield repair
Loopbreak. Skipping trail north and west, skipping drive back dn to town for gas, skipping Beet restaurant/foodtruck bc remembering nachos being meh.
Just windshield and back to vegas.
I think i am remembering trying Cliffside restaurant avo toast and finding it to be meh,
then trying Twisted Noodle and same.
Skip both.
I tried Royal Thai, too. Didnt like the wraps or anything.
Amy enchilada and playlists further assigns same as 2018 here. Wow : )
Repeat ish, sure, but also things keep working out, more and more linked and polished and perfect.
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Mem refresh maverik parked paying bills, but this time it didnt zero my acct. I have like 8k avail
Shouldnt there b overlap of the civilizations, not ruins?
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Maybe there is; they are just in separate places; Agharta, stars core, etc.
Maybe the fake/evil human ‘civilization’ is not a true civilization, just the means to ensure the destined civilization (mine) becomes as strong and stable as can be.
Maybe humans are just the void/Space-equivalent of gym-weights; a token resistance.
“I don’t want to glorify the devil.” is yet another lame idiotic psyop attempt to indirectly pressure me to stop recording and reporting evil bs. Report accurately, fully, always.
Only praising evil glorifies it. Reporting just notes it.
Duh.
They actually put “but stuff” (“butt stuff” pun) in a colonoscopy scam commercial. Wow. “were gonna get a colonoscopy, but stuff… came up.”
Endless shamefulness.
At least they are Trying to trick the evil humans into suiciding, but still… it is not the purge I decreed, so they get no points.
Lmao at trump whining about immigrants raping and murdering americans…when americans CONSTANTLY rape and murder outsiders, animals bred in captivity, etc..
Endless mindless raging hypocrisy.
Lol.
So glad I stopped paying attn to any of those liars.
“The #1 reliever of stress is authentic relationships.” is a lie and scam boiled down to a psyop pressuring dependency, distractions, individual instability, etc.
The reality is that the #1 stress reliever is meditation, self-care, walking, personal space, etc..
If “cutting off healthy parts is medically wrong”, why does he (that Norway complainer YouTuber) eat animal parts that were cut off?
Loop ish. Safelite 528 N Mall Dr #2, St. George, UT 84790
That was the last of tarantino; all fugtards again, genderconfused shaved males, deathcult paraphernalia sp hostess, ugh.
So disappointing.
Even vegan tourism doesn’t work due to how fucked up humans keep being.
Even humans claiming they have to warp Space… stems from their default negativity and essence to change/strain things, not on laws of physics.
Ugh; deja vu even from arranging dermatology :/
Fuck this chapter/intermission between adventures/hotties.
Am I really prescient/clairvoyant, and/or a time-traveler?
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March:
Coral and seashells petrified in dry places may mean huge waves deposited them.
fri1mar2024?
11:39fri 1st time seeing JANET red-stripe airplane incoming for landing right over me
Maybe re-greening is another literal coverup; trying to make it more difficult to notice ruins.
As evil as it is that I still have to be around evil idiot humans,
things have still gotten better;
I used to Have to resort to jumping through their hoops for scraps, only to be further held back, stalled, spied on, and otherwise disrespected.
Now, at least I can ignore them while they die all around me.
That’s a start.
May I see their entire system die and never rise again. May I always win and get all their best stuff.
Shit sucks, but i have always been the one to make it;
the only one in that fake family to be smart and good,
the only recruit to heal from hernia surgery,
the only marine to not breed with a fugtard,
etc.
I hate where i am rn, but it is still technically vacation and even early retirement; no schedule, eat almost whatever i want, tan all day, go anywhere anytime, just about, etc.
The perseph and spaceways and af1 models were done AFTER that ambi-like bitch; if i hadnt rejected her gameplaying, i wouldnt have made those HUGE updates.
And the wmkm pg overhaul.
Games pg overhaul.
Aorlie completion.
Etc.
Revisiting Muley ruins… gives me hope n a weird way; it shows me ANY structure and civilization and power can eventually be toppled to total ruin, barely recognizable, so this current evil human one can, too.
Those who showed up… acted like fools, cowards, and jerks.
I was right to walk past them.
Maybe that’s all they could be in phase2.
Phase1 absent.
Phase2 mixed meh.
Phase3 correct.
Whatever the case, I have to proceed without them.
The porn is my art collection, and it is far better than the lame nonporn paintings and sculptures idiot humans made.
Maybe that was an imposter; some bitch hired to Look like ambi.
She sounded/vibed Way too much like “i must be stupid”… That was a HORRIBLE redflag.
I did not ask for a hiding coward and masktard that left me tortured for a DECADE.
She could have prevented the tinnitus…
“Let go and move on”
and “roll with the punches”
boil down to stemming from the pushover/lazy/defeatist/pessimist/parrot evil.
Same as conforming to relig, politics, pharma, etc.
And her texting me that… is as wrong as the VA pushing injections… and as those idiot tx recruiters claiming i could not be a marine.
Keep focus. Keep at it.
SHE and HER cowardly kind are the ones who must let go of Their way, and move on to My way.
Mindset milestones:
Realizing rjh was ugly and unworthy
The usa was not good
Doctors are murderers, and i only got btr when doing the Opp of their instructions; Iii am the real doctor
Holy land is fake; zero healing
Cops and judges and lawyers are corrupt, thus evil
Humans are not my ppl and don’t deserve a modern exodus; only some of their creations do
I can cause lightning, shooting stars, quakes
the hotties had spied, thus chosen to let me be disrespected and tortured all these years
that Evansville warlmart old man was another retarded field agent minion trying to play matchmaker, thus aware of me, thus choosing to resist my culture/orientation and ignore my valid request
Earth is hollow
Stars are doors to the same core
No matter how big or numerous something seems, it is still just a single weak visual entity outside me, thus all humans…like mindless NPCs…similar in 1 way to how all stars are doors to the same thing
Those who wronged me lost their minds, kids, wives, etc.
Mexico harbors evil, thus is evil, thus shall be ruined like all human nations
Me calling out…kept being rudely responded to by women not my type, thus they must be destroyed
the ambi lookalike is a bitch and a traitor who shall be beaten for her repeated crimes against me
No female so far has been feminine; moodiness default reaction to me, whether i initiate or not, is their genderconfusion, trying to dominate me, etc., which is as backward and evil as cops and neighbors getting mad at anything i do, instd of the logical way which is to be happy and grateful for everything i am
Males have no intelligence until they r loyal to me
Females have no value until i can control them and their system
Biggest ruins are here, not in asia
Time travel may be not only possible for me, but effortless
No love can be shared w humans, and all humans must be deleted before i can enjoy Any area
Mountains are buildings
Regreening might have made it more difficult to unearth more ruins
My enemies now sterilize and kill themselves
There is always a long buildup, then relief, and not yet relief back to back
All my emotions are valid
Humans demonized some emotions and acts, such as anger and normal sex, but those things are what heal, balance, and unlock superpowers
Every time i do something good, humans evilly try to corrupt/pressure me out of it, then always fail
I always get what i want eventually
Every time they try to scam me, i get better and free stuff
Humans lack the brains to reach correct conclusions, and lack the holiness/goodness to have manners, so they must be completely destroyed/controlled
Everyone must be made to be subordinate to me, and aligned to me, because every time i have found the rare tolerable ones… the intolerable insecure idiots have rushed over to ruin the moment
My cock was always the right size for me, and big when in the presence of females who are appropriate sizes
The bad memories help me last longer during sex
Hotties now try to get w Me; the tables did turn –even b4 i got rich
Humans refused to acknowledge Any of my irreFutable points, so i was Right to stop wasting time talking to Any of their failed species
Phase1 forced to go places
Phase2 went alone and by choice
Phase3 is next, and shall be me appropriately invited (by hotties) and paid to go, and finally respected and protected, always reacted to well, never again negatively
And there was a pause after the phase1 forced trips; the months b4 mt, and the move to mt for a few yrs.,
then a pause of another few yrs after the solo trips; 2021 to now (2024mar).
“Let go and move on” boils down to her being just another mindless npc parrot trying to change me.
If she was good and right and supportive, this appropriately feminine, she would have said, “you are right to maintain focus and heading until you get what your instincts know is right for you”.
Letting go is a submissive thing.
It is a phase1 thing.
In phase1, i was forced to abandon things.
In phase2, i have been yanked back and forth, given mixed signals bullshit. I keep thinking i must let go, then getting to return; to my project, to creativerse, to the usa, to ambi, etc..
Phase3 is when i always get what i want, not even having to hold onto things, and certainly never having to let go of them.
Tolerating stupid bad attitude ppl got me burned so many times.
Rejecting that crap got me from lame rjh to almost-perfect ambi, sabrina, etc.
The 3yr gap btwn sightings wasnt bc of evil rejection from them, but bc i chose to wrap up my work first.
Waiting has shown my hotter and hotter chicks, trying more and more.
It stands to reason that they will eventually finally try the corRect way w me; loyalty, reliability, manners, etc., being as attractive That way…as they now are beautiful and ideal-vocal-signature-ed.
Since some evil force keeps adding issues to my vehicles, i deserve brand new vehicles and more power to force humans to maintain them.
Anything other than the normal interaction I asked for; paying me to do what i want, and at least 2 hotties at a time, is disrespect and demonic bullying.
They made it clear they saw my website, so that means they are evil for not honoring it/me.
I spelled out nothing extreme, only standing against Their extreme deviancy.
Anything less than billions of dollars and my city and cabin and wives… is them choosing to criminally ignore my declaration and nature and command and requests.
I stood up for right,
after the typist parroted more bs at me,
and instd of admitting fault or apologizing or clarifying, she/it stayed rude and snappy, overreacting, saying “I’ll stop giving my opinions.”
And just like that, rp is indefinitely done/paused again.
Ugh. Whatever. She had ruined it so many times, anyway; inserting deathcult image, lying, siding with others instd of me, etc..
Good riddance. Again.
Maybe her absence will trigger the real hotties to finally show up and behave.
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It isnt even a full moon. Weird. Whatever.
I wonder if more big mindset/perspective updates are coming.
(My instinct never changes, thankfully, but my overall understanding does get amended in useful ways.)
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Phase1 attempts at preventing me from thinking or questioning or learning or creating at All
Phase2 revelations
Phase3 no more revelations needed to me, only in others; the worthy becoming aligned to me by receiving/realizing, bit by bit, what I pioneered is right
Phase1 was when i thought others were ppl, thus listened and tried to interact w them
Phase2 was when i abandoned that, seeing uniform retardation in all of them, which indicates they really are mindless NPCs –and it saved me So much frustration/energy, i having switched to just letting them parrot/regurgitate their blatant falsehoods/evil, i just ignoring it all
Phase3 hopefully is at least them all dead and gone, never to return, and ideally my superpowers having wiped them all out, amen.
“How to lose a guy in 10 days” movie…
In the typist’s case, it’s how to lose a guy in 10 years; I have RPed with her that long, at least, and she has done everything wrong, ensuring she loses me, even if she didnt intend to;
even the good posts… were not actualized/manifested, and at interval w horrible comments.
If that in-person ambi had been the one for me, she never would have let me get that depressed and abused that i didnt even bother to smile at her in oregon.
She never would have hidden.
She never would have showed up w that brother-looking guy.
She never would have worn a mask.
She never would have delayed our cabin and kids.
I guess her replacement shall be the Real Ambi.
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I wish she was the one, though; I wish she would return and love me how I love the way she looks and sounds.
I wish she was the one.
I hope she is/becomes the one.
The reason some humans claim Space is a void… is because their kind have “worked out” that if they can brainwash gullible ‘parrots’ into assuming that, non-NPC minds have the energy/signals which stimulate Space to BE that.
That is why they preach non-conscious cosmic bodies,
and entropy,
and deadly Space conditions, etc.;
they are trying to CAUSE Space to BECOME/REMAIN that –because they WANT the worlds to stay far apart, unseen, not teaming up.
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My arguments with the typist are getting resolved in hours, no longer resulting in year+ pauses of messaging; things stabilized.
Hopefully this is a reality-wide field effect; hopefully it is simultaneously realigning all the hotties to me.
Amen.
Maybe I get to plan each cycle/focus for years, then time-travel back so it all overlaps.
Mem refr. Meh chilaquiles y shitty chkn waffles tacotarian
Super windy felt great up the hill
Lake Mead brown sign on way to desert hill…1st time seeing 2 rainbows on 1 sign; its btm left y top right whote border curves
It was nice to have chilaquiles done the right way; vegan –esp. after graze idiotically took their own off the menu.
If only mexifail wasnt retarded evil, they could learn a thing or two from tacotar’.
Deja vu from bronze-tan bad-voice vegan instagram chick.
Too bad about her voice and face and junkieness.
Human births only take 9mos. bc of programming; brainwashing convinces the gullible of that, which was probably somehow calculated to be the right amou t of time to meddle in various ways, causing deformities and other issues with the fetus.
Humans could probably gestate for less or more time, both with better/perfect results, if they trained their own minds to fully believe that.
That retarded indiana jones movie had so much backward, just like humans always try to present things.
In my case, the time travel isnt to the past, but the future,
and it isnt by storm, but unnoticeable event,
and there is no risk of getting stuck,
and it isnt to see a battle or other person,
and all times are right for me, belonging to me, adjustable by me,
amen.
Those stubborn attempts to seduce me with things other than what I said I am into…was probably all attempts to anchor my focus to humans, thereby ensuring their continued evil.
Glad I stood my ground.
It became easy after they destroyed any trust.
No dej linking vegan groceries websites
Even if all the hotties since ms/hs had behaved,
and no insecure betaboys (such as those blackops/goons) had hurried over to be rude,
and no one had spied on me,
and no one had poisoned me,
and no one had pressured me to do drugs,
and no one had committed perjury against me,
and no goons posing as authorities had ever stalked or intimidated me,
and no troops had tried to get me killed,
and no one misinterpreted me at all,
and no one had been a deviant/degenerate,
and no one had been moody,
and no one interrupted my sleep,
and no human-raised animals had overreacted at me,
and no one had condescendingly idiotically given wrong advice,
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the population still wasnt vegan,
or healthy,
or honest,
or sane,
or smart,
or obedient/loyal to me,
and all they built was still ugly,
and all their vehicles still polluted,
etc.;
they’d still all need to be purged.
Why the hell would I give my sacred sperm to such a hideaway coward as that ambi-lookalike bitch who allpwed me to get wounded and disrespected and homeless for a decade?
For now, a family with such a useless bitch is impossible; she would have to behave completely different than she has. She would have to somehow make up for all the evil she did to me.
sun3mar2024:
Last night was the first time i was too tired to rp sex w Clary, though the idea of it irl still ofc fully appeals to me.
This seems a sure sign phase2 is complete, and 3 ready to begin and last forever. Amen.
innocence.. inner sense
It may be that birkland (2way) currents only exist around Age of Pisces (internal conflict) humans/NPCs, and that they cannot exist around people from other Ages who have no bipolar aspect.
Humans keep searching for dark energy/matter bc their nature is to empower darkness/separation/complexity, not bc there is evidence supporting the existence of dark energy/matter.
Their failure to find or manifest any (dark energy/matter) suggests that they can only trigger Space to manifest light/stars, i.e. things they are imagining, not things they have no imagined/defined.
If ever they decided what dark energy/matter is, and where it is, perhaps then those specifics would trigger Space to have it.
I tried to send a thoughtful message to another vegan, and the reply I got was interrogating me about why I blocked some other fb profile. What a retard.
One more perfrct example why I should never waste time being nice to humans, and just wipe them all out.
“Everyone is fighting a battle you know nothing about. Be kind.”?
More like: Everyone (humans I’ve encountered so far) is causing drama and nightmarish suffering you know nothing about; be cruel to those shits.
Never fear being homeless or poor or ugly; you were all those things when all those tens tried to get with you.
You were all those things every time that ambi-like bitch showed up.
Every single one of those freaks at the bs concerts was probably paid to be there, paid to be extra degenerate, etc., bc they knew it would drive you back…
You know how the watchers/scum are; they stage bs like that.
If it wasnt for dentist, i would feel too angry and lonesome to return north.
Hopefully i will find the place being repopulated by those loyal to me.
How i hate hearing the typist is sick “bc of weather” and taking “meds”; brainwashed and poisoning herself and addicted.
I’m gonna lose contact when she dies…
Or she is lying to avoid rp.
Whatever
Mem refresh
Coupon for 3cups. Was lower budget n jeep 6yrs back. Now? Flexible budget for food at least, and super comfy in lux ride.
And speaker sand fizzle this time : /
Fix one thing, another happens. Is tradeoff auto n phase2?
Maybe i should just leave issues alone for now; so no new ones triggered.
when that t-shop guy barfed up the retarded evil pedo comment, he revealed his stupidity/brainwashing/retardation/evil, and then I was relieved, interestingly, when he also barfed up the brainwashed “I got tested so I didn’t have it”; he sterilized himself. thank god.
I prayed to Lofn, goddess of removing obstacles to relationships of lovers, for help getting me and real-Ambi together at last.
I have to keep trying; praying to different deities until one finally helps appropriately.
This is how real science works; try things until you find the way/s.
Was that long-beard sandy-redhead almost-bald portly ~giant guy in the gas station one of the giants come to see me?
I get that idea/vibe, so … maybe/probably.
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Another contradiction of the typist: claiming her characters are just characters, not real, …yet that Ambi is real and communicates to her in dreams.
The typist keeps RPing and OOCing stuff that delays or postpones or stops me writing of being loving to others.
Her saying Clary and I had a soundproofed room far in the west wing… could be polite code for “at the end of our development; when the sun is setting” and “I don’t want to hear you playing with others yet”.
I would care how she feels, except that it means she is incompatible w me, and since she thinks the VA and meds are good…
Claiming she is sick bc of the weather…is prob the same kind of white lie…
Whatever.
Phase goddamn 2 rolls on a bit more.
I bet giants can’t be killed. I bet the stories of specops fighting them…is more standard american lying to scare ppl out of healing mana caves so they don’t meet good giants.
I bet humans always did the bare minimum bc they can’t stand doing anything good/normal.
The signs are all there; she keeps doing the minimum good…while i keep trying to tolerate her harsh bad, like she can only briefly daily stand to be good by messaging me, bc she really is evil.
She isnt hiding from my ugliness, but from my goodness.
She isnt attracted to fam w me, but to suffering she can feel is caused in me by her keeping me away and stressed.
She got close when I was depressed after hopelessness or raging; when my energy dropped. It wasnt bc of forks in the road, or calling out; it was bc I didnt have so much energy from hope or positivity…that she could handle it. Like the opposite of a Pleiadian who needs gentle positive vibes. I was too intense for her.
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Hopefully in phase3 she will have become conditioned enough to be able to approach me and stay near me without her darkside wanting to recoil.
Maiden
May den
So did the New Orleans hottie witch in the tarot shop empower me?
Was it the Grand Canyon unkocking gods such as me… while leaving the others in my group, due to their evil, normies?
Sometime in 2016, I seem to have time-traveled forward ~several years.
Was I destined to remain ahead for 2.5/+ years?
Was a specific amount of energy for my specific bodymass required/used to get me there?
What caused me to time travel back?
Was me ascending that pyramid what caused me to go back?
Was that how that structure, or the people I prayed to while atop it, answered my prayer requesting help making my city?; it gave me 6 more years of time?
Why not just let me proceed through time normally, then?; I wouldn’t have needed to go back.
Were the events of 2016, 2017, and 2018 so brief… that I was able to spend most of those years in 2022, 2023, and 2024?
My ugly body kept me from finding any relief from the proto hotties I had not yet known to define.
My injuries kept me prwcticing being careful, researching places before going, etc., unknowingly better-defining them as I read more and more, and figured out what was true and false.
If I had been invincible and handsome from the start, and with polite sane ppl, I would not have learned to think, question, research, sense beyond claims, etc..
The abuses I was put through helped elasticize my mind to the current truly-god level.
Maybe there is No gravity Or electromagnetism in Space, just things manifested in the ether that senses our decisions/assumptions at any distance… because distance is an illusion; all that may actually matter/work is focus/decision, not distance or anything else,
thus hotties showing up,
then being forced away… until I fully am ready for them, trusting in my ability to make them behave, create correct offspring, etc..
Maybe talking didnt work… until I wrote spells dictating how people think, interact, get policed by ICVs, etc..
Maybe people cannot be persuaded/reprogrammed by talking; maybe once they manifest based on previous spells finally echoing back to me via their appearance in human form… they can only be interacted with as they were wired during manifestation.
Ambi showed up… not yet fully spellcrafted back in 2016, 2020, and 2021.
Now she is ready, fully written.
Humans assuming everything is bad… may be what Caused bad things to Manifest.
Maybe humans overreacting to everything… is what ensured I would be so offended, baffled, annoyed, and alienated… that I would become so determined… that I became focused/powerful enough to manifest only Good things for Me.
Maybe No bad giants existed;
humans either made up bad giants, or made up giants and All the past.
Maybe giants can only exist in My life… now that I have stabilized mySelf, And then stabilized my decision for what giants shall be when Manifested.
Amen.
Saturn is thought to be less dense than water, thus able to float if on a gigantic cosmic ocean.
The Sun is thought to be all hydrogen.
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But the stars may be hollow because we assume we cannot see or know inside them, thus ether/void, which has no resistance to will/decision/focus. Maybe us studying their outsides, while speculating on their insides, is why there are so many sizes and types of them.
Maybe they are so bright… because we have caused that by barely defining them.
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Maybe planets are less bright because we caused that, too; by better defining them in the distant past, once even being connected with them.
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Maybe the interplanetary energy bolts/discharges were actually the combined focus/will of the ancients on those worlds aiming their senses/minds at us, or us at them, to finish forming them… and when those beams shut off, the manifestation was complete, the links severed, thus the realignment into current orbits, which caused the cataclysms.
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Maybe yggdrasil was the result of the eldest gods being able to focus on all things at ince, thus a weave linking many realms, not a single interplanetary beam, or a disconnected glowy star hollow sphere like today.
Ambi, being Space/darkness incarnate, might then also have that characteristic; unable to resist my call, but then also unable to resist me repelling her when I assume she is with someone else, and unable to not reflect/match my sadness and desire… when I wish she had engaged.
Are All females like this to me?
The 1 of several airplanes in the sky just now which I focused on, when I said “turn off your chemtrails”, turned it off for the duration if how long it took me to say those words.
Interesting.
New sky phenomenon/superpower.
After a few seconds of typing that note, I looked back, and 1 of its 2 chemtrail lines was almost entirely thinned/gone.
After typing this, I looked back up, and an entire other chemtrail was gone,
and the remaining half of that other 1… thinning, not spreading like during prev days.
A few minutes later, all chemtrails are gine, excepting only thinned sections of a a few to the north.
Just as I told them to, they thinned into nothing.
Me saying “fuck god”… doesnt hurt anything, bc that god i am referring to is the plagiarized fake one made up by humans who can’t manifest anything.
And me saying “fuck all the gods”… still/also doesn’t/can’t hurt anything… bc my will is to manifest/empower deities who are compatible with me,
my venting not directed against them,
and my other spells ensuring what I Want… is what happens/remains.
Amen.
Gravity might have been imagined/invented/manifested only around the exterior of Earth… as a sure device/magic able to attract and hold all the manifest bad humans (void beings).
Gravity may be selective, holding only things in place which the ancients want held in place. Humans assume it is holding All in place… because they have only witnessed it holding all of Them in place.
They have Not tested to confirm whether it holds most other things.
Their Space flights to the moons and other cosmic bodies don’t work because they can accurately predict gravity, but because they usually manifest those flights being intelligent/logical, with their accidents not being true accidents caused by Space dust or solar flares, etc., but by their own unstable/chaotic thoughts/minds, i.e their doubts and worries sometimes being focused on enough to manifest mission/flight failures.
Maybe those ambis and others… actually disincarnated / got recycled… each time I did not tell them I accept them.
Maybe the pause between manifestations… isnt bc they are being mean to me, but bc I added to their dossiers/spells/templates, thus taking a bit longer to manifest those ideal versions (but I hope my will has been strong enough to keep them alive and well, merely being updated, not re-made).
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And thank God/Me I felt the Urge to wait through those outwardly-perfect hotties; look at the miraculous leaps forward in my spellcraft during the years Since!
It may be that the military and childhood injections… were nothing at all beyond attempts to keep me used to accepting change done to me, that during the long-planned scamdemic… I would again accept the then-Lethal Actual-change injection/s.
Humans can’t manifest/summon things.
Note how they claim to have been trying to pray their savior/s to coming/returning… for MILLENNIA.
All they can do is zero-energy ‘parrot’ plagiarizations of things they assimilated into their mix-and-match beliefs/system, which obviously does nothing
–because the trend/way of this universe… has been to create new, not plagiarize/repeat.
Even what I do, cherrypicking what vibes for me from all, never claims to be an original creation.
I never say some savior will come later.
I never downplay magical abilities.
I never demonize the non-human races/species.
My system is my own, and is open about it being a summation of what I have learned.
It is not based on dishonesty or condescension or depowering people.
It is not based on death.
It is a continuation of the life-giving and creation-loving way of the ancients.
It celebrates and honors and invites the ancients/humanoids.
Even reforming/restoring Yggdrasil… is not a redo/resurrection, as it is to connect all the New compatible realms, not just the original 9.
Me avoiding human cities ISN’T me “wasting opportunities” or “being shy”;
it is the instinct of the gods; go where there are no distractions,
no conflicting/overlapping/incompatible thought energy manifestation fields,
thus where it is easiest to have your own ideas,
be your own person,
and manifest that which is right for you.
It is like how the first stars sent their own creations out into the void, or formed themselves from the void, made from pure thoughts without anything else.
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Maybe that is why the Vanir are said to be water elementals,
and why stars are thought to be at least shells of glowing hydrogen;
the element/start of water, illuminated by will/vril, etc.
stars… start
maybe humans think they own the world, and are “God’s chosen”…
only bc everyone else foresaw their annoying coming/presence and left,
so when humans arrived, there was a token resistance to trick them into cockiness and celebration,
and then the lame modern/human era.
Maybe that is part of why humans thought they had a right to abuse/control/order me;
no one had seemed to resist/stop them before, so why me, a creation of theirs?
(though, of course, more accurately: I was a creation of the ancients, merely combined from extracted samples of those ancient creations, thus not the humans’ at all,
merely their sloppy/short-sighted attempt at back-engineering something sophisticated they were never able to wield or even understand)
Created so sloppily/accidentally, humans probably never had the ability to think or even create more of themselves,
thus their invasion and harassing of people such as me,
always whining for us to ignore our instincts and all redflags,
instead breeding with them, giving the humans the spark of creation their weak/powerless kind requires to do anything at all.
and since they cannot maintain themselves, as they cannot think, let alone manifest anything, they keep dying even if they are healthy,
thus their obsession with breeding so prematurely.
and why brainwash/indoctrinate/program people if humans cannot think? because the non-NPCs they tricked into breeding with them… created beings which CAN barely think,
and they at least know to do their best to distract those half-conscious individuals during their formative/impressionable years.
why make my website when humans are mostly NPCs who can’t think,
and who often mindlessly react negatively to it?
because some people I met COULD think, or at least were LEARNING to,
and those reacted Positively to it.
either way, it is “troll bait”; it shows me who hurries over to be a moron,
thus spares me from learning the hard way later.
People of the same species/race would NEVER part ways, NEVER disagree, NEVER misunderstand each other.
Humans breaking up relationships is a HUmans thing;
it is their nature to scare people away, offend people away, etc.,
because they came from void, thus they try to recreAte void/emptiness everywhere they go;
by depleting resources, killing off herds, alienating people, slander, incarceration, murder, etc etc.
Normal people don’t play each other.
Normal people stay strong and support each other –and celebrate their happiness.
They don’t have shallow eyes, dark eyes, no auras, and all red flags like the humans I’ve met.
They don’t try to bait/lure or shame/convert/recruit people.
I bet not a single relationship of the prehumans ever ended badly, if at all.
Humans probably end relationships so they can catch more nuts, thus spawn more of their half-awake minions/pawns/slaves.
Tinkerbell got Nicole Kidmaned by an A.I. art maker (program); looks even sexier than the animated movie original cutie.
How very phase2 ideal completion.
Great sign.
Oh, the joys of being early semi retired; road trips, camping, food tourism, helicopter rides, novels editing, and continuing my studies at my own pace.
It’s amazing how effective destroying trust zeroed out my remaining interest in hotties. That’s still technically a great sign, though; it means I was correct that my horoscope / birth information is wrong; I am not ruled by Venus/lust/visuals, but by logic and manners and instinct.
Amen.
1st rd of all this was stressful.
2nd has basically no stress; neutral.
That leaves good-feelings rd3/+ : )
1st helo ride was after a long awkward wait with a black fam that seemed nervous or shy or racist idk.
2nd helo ride, i was solo, 2 pilots instd of 1, no awkward fam/psgr, no long wait, and time travel let me enjoy it twice.
That leaves ideal helo rides / aircraft of ky own (MPHAs, etc.) : )
Maybe ssp humans are kept so contained/enslaved/busy… bc it was noticed that if they weren’t, they might stimulate the ether to change more; manifest more worlds, forces, aliens, etc..
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Maybe some ssp fleets never dare into some regions of Space…bc they detected worlds there are not finished being manifested, and bc they know they lack the ability to manifest such things.
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Maybe it is rare to be able to make the ether manifest things.
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Maybe only ppl such as me can do that.
I wonder if it is due to my blood type/mix.
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Maybe humans Aren’t limited by light-/warp-speed; maybe they just Tell ppl that…to trick them into moving slpw enough that rare guys such as me have enough time to manifest worlds they are then able to safely approach and land on.
The retarded deformed midget wannabe bully at the fake farm… had the exact same evil twinkle in his shallow brainless eyes as “Tim” the wannabe intimidator fed pretending to work at 24hr fitness; they weren’t eager to help or be heroes, but to harass and threaten people they had never met before or known/understood.
Note how the guy regurgitated that “how insignificant we are” brainwashing negativity-spell.
Not good.
If humans hadnt been so offensive repulsive, and if I hadnt camped so much to avoid that evil crap, I wouldnt have noticed things out here such as the 2017-2021 pet tombstone,
but… I didnt need to be isolated to notice time-travel signs; most were in Madison and Big Sky while at work with humans.
It was just my ideas/vision and website wrapup that were best done while isolated.
Tue5mar2024 mem refresh repeat of texting convo w ambi typist where i told her all diseases have cures etc.
In 2018, i was angry and sad.
This time, numb and almost apathetic, but still moved to say the same truth.
I only said I wanted to get to Hawaii and see Pele,
thus we didn’t end up chatting.
I have since said she and I are married, and shall get to clean up her island/s, removing all the gross evil humans who invaded them;
I’ll/We’ll get that next. Amen.
I only said I wanted to see how many countries in Europe I could get to in 1 month,
not how people would treat me while there.
I’ve since specified exactly what I want to see in each country,
and how; not having to deal with any human checkpoints or rude ppl ever again,
so I’ll get that next. Amen.
Note how uploads were stopped/capped before Phase 3;
the people and places I am about to get to see shall be kept private/secret.
Amen.
Amazing perfect timing, that.
phase1: had to keep my opinion/truth/wants to myself
phase2: finally got to be myself, even yelling cusswords out windows at the scummy NPCs
phase3: not just getting to say what I feel, but control all, destroy all my enemies, rule, etc., amen
wed6mar2024
~9:30am ambi ish tight white petite midriff colorful pants walking to me on phone talking fort apache intersec w blue diamond no dej
1st time seeing this type of rainbow sign
Honda gray hr-v
Rainbow decal Honda symbol triangles horizontal stretched under license plate on hatchback above bumper
Finally an elven cutie hostessing tmv! Soooo much btr.
Still needs work, ofc, but WORLDS btr than those b4.
Good sign/step.
me being not what They liked/wanted… bothered Them More than
they not being what Iii liked/wanted… bothered Me;
They sought Me Out,
They harRassed me,
and I just avoided Them.
lol
The evidence speaks for itself; I out-bothered the evil NPCs.
Phase1. Bozeman scum daily, barely saw any hotties in yc, and they acted like cowards.
Phase2. Skipped boze, weekly ish w scum in bs, met more rich owners in yc, and work was Way nicer, hotties more frequent and orbiting y ~trying w me.
Phase3. Skip bs, invited straight to perfect hotties to live n chosen home.
Star Trek was mostly talk and laser fights. It wasn’t a vast array of thought-provoking plots like some regarded it as.
It tried to normalize ugly (deformed) people, gender confusion, pointless “tokens” of all races, frequent suicide (teleporting), tech’ dependency, etc..
If it had been logical and good, it would have re-normalized healthy attractive normal people who don’t choose hairstyles and other things inappropriate for their gender.
If it had been clever, it wouldn’t have had anywhere near as much violence or tech’ dependency.
Every time during my childhood I found some peace and privacy, it was phase2 starting to trickle into phase1.
Every time a hottie showed up when i was too wary of all beings on this wayward world, it was phase3 trickling into 2.
Once they make me Feel as good as they Look and Sound and Move, then it will be phase3, and phase2 will blip in as meditation, and phase1 will blip in when i let it; as POWs i let talk shit before using that to charge up to torture/punish/kill them. Amen.
Lonely and hopeless? Yep,
but also able to drop schedule and game all day.
Pretty phase2.
1st time playing creativerse 2018 screaming at red ghost creatures i had no way to beat. What rage/energy/determination. Same w fighting down in Corrupt layer; what a chore.
2nd time, handled them much better, cussed much less., set up huge base down in Corrupt, made it monsterless.
3rd time, all my stuff was already modeled, all BPs found in Workshop and placed, even trying open worlds of others, and having mineral water waterfall down to Corrupt, making it easy.
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Same w ambi?
1st set of encounters was awful.
2nd will be neutral/btr.
3rd will be forever perfect fam w her. Amen.
Fri8mar2024 perhaps 1min after midnight, 1st time hearing wild donkeys making their distinct sound
Taking a break to just game?
Most ppl take that break daily.
Some Only game.
I worked day and night for Decades.
Gaming every now and then is a therapeutic change of pace/focus.
This is good.
The typist is likely doing what all have done; bare minimum.
That, and lying about working so much.
Still, it is btr than nothing.
Some images are still useful/ideal.
The timing is also good, as far as messages go.
Phase2…
I wanted a jetpack, and a player dropped one off lol.
So… why not also drop off the Other things I wanted?; scaldstone, etc.
the typist going from “you’re not my doc” (which was basically “lalala!” (JLS evil/retardation/autism/tantrum)…
to at least listening to me, not talking over me,
is phase1 going to 2.
I want 2 going to 3, but listening and not changing after…
is still way better than refusing to change/listen at all.
I wonder if hotties showing me creepy violent art…
stems from the same reason I only want to see and share and make Sexy art;
we wish we were/had things we aren’t/don’t;
hotties want to be badass,
and badasses want to be handsome, etc.,
or…
hotties who are badass want to be free to USE that badass-ness,
and handsome-enough badasses/experienced men want to have/get what they have only seen/heard of so far.
phase fucking 2.
still, far better than in phase1; in phase1, we weren’t even in contact with each other,
thus not sharing, not soothing one another,
and not even able to look for those nice pieces of art, let alone live what they depicted,
etc..
In phase1, we didn’t even know those things eXisted, let alone to Look for them, let alone how to beCome them.
I wonder how many other veterans figured out / noticed carrie grose was/is abusing her power/organization to gaslight, financially insult, and spy on us.
Hopefully many of them… but I never met a smart veteran…
: /
Oh well.
Pre deja vu about that corruption layer build…
Did i start it in 2018 and feel daunted and quit?
Why Not redo this (my creativerse stuff, etc.), even if i did it during time travel?
It passes the time, and is soothing, thus preventing dis-ease.
No compat ppl w me yet, but a perfect idea/vision… is still a lot btr than bk when i had No idea of my own, and only evil/fake/incomPatible ppl.
Skipping bad such as hike w liar midget bs…good. Skipping gross st george restuarants…good. No pt skipping good such as creativerse, though.
Dej on corrupt rooms designing, but no dej on new blocks such as monster eye and fur, so…?
sat9mar2024 to 10mar:
Phone lost signal yesterday and defaulted at 1am today to wed31dec1969.
Why?
deja vu from working on Corruption-layer pit-wiring,
while fug tan-White brunette ponytail woman rode by in middle of group of 4 dirt-bicyclers,
obviously-fake voice/tone “woooo, what fun”.
vibed as bait/lameness; typical govt harassment/retardation.
Sun10mar2024 most chemtrails seen so far; several parallel, plus perpendicular higher up, making thickest milky haze yet. Why today?
To block tests in the upper atmo or low orbit?
Block us from seeing stuff out there?
I hated the ebbs/lulls, but they sure did treat me to incredible meditations, revisions, amassing, timetravel noticing, etc.
Creativerse:
dej about finding the white-bark house in Awesome world.
dej about making the outdoor porch awning dining area and bathroom on wood slabs.
lol; THEY played games,
so now Iii play games. all day fuckin long.
whatever.
fair.
lol like irl w the hotties showing up after i had lost any ability to like/trust them,
the host in the game shows up to hunt with me after what i need became obsolete :/
phase2
I think I rmbr this from 2018; we tried to hunt, but it didn’t work out;
disconnected on her end.
tech’… seems to stop me from wasting time with others…
except ambi.
I wonder if ambi or djinnifer are somehow keeping me focused on them.
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No; I rmbr taking screenshots of my first hunt with her.
Wow; great memory.
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lol don’t tell her I time-traveled and already did this hunt with her back in 2018.
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more time-travel hint/evidence: she said her world has been up for 2 years…
but I met her in it 6 years ago.
Just like in creativerse, irl i have been 1shotting badguys ever since upgrading myself.
Just like with seeking hotties irl, in creativerse i was struggling to find scaldstone for diamond armor, then got a teammate xfered in (programmed villager armor maker) who made that step obsolete. I hope my phase3 teammates will make my phase2 networking no longer necessary.
Loopbreak: didnt hunt w hostess n creativrs this time; signal was even worse than back then.
Rd2 is the skipping rd.
Phase1 give everyone a chance.
Phase2 end all contact, having found all behave as if the same one bad person.
Phase3 wipe all out, start over w only good beings I chose every detail of; no more chaos, amen.
Phase1 train to see all ruins etc..
Phase2 noticed ruins were faked or destroyed, and others not told of, so switching to gaining superpowers and tech’ to reaching the real ruins, unearthing them, reactivating them since I know it will help fight and end the evil humans, etc..
Phase3 treating all of Space and dimensions and time itself as ruins, not just mountains and planetary ring systems.
Keep shutting them down, shutting them out, and shutting them off.
Good riddance.
Mem refresh
Adv derm waiting rm
861 addy.
Did i get mad and leave last time?
I have a vague memory of setting dn the clipboard and walking out for some reason.
Whatever.
It took 1 second and was painless.
Wow.
So glad it is finally looking btr, gone.
I wonder if some force killed her tan original dog bc she was bad to me,
and now she will get it again.
Maybe he waived tbe visit cost this time bc somehow he knew i had been there once b4. Mustv paid then
I must have been n my blue fleece last time,
and been charged for the viewing,
and not had enough for the excision or even the testing.
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But now it is done, plus four tat sessions, and still I have tons left over.
It is cc, not true abundance yet, but it is plenty for now.
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This marks the 3rd thing I have had professionally cut off me.
Creepy suspicious blacked-out tall-roof surveillance-looking camper van pulls up and parks across rd frm me…again. Lol
Cowards.
Idiots.
Tech wasters.
Budget wasters.
Watchers?
Lol if the cute hostess saying in mexico…is their latest disgusting attempt at getting me to calm their weather down.
I’ll make it worse.
They owe me everything i want.
And even then, it would only buy them slavery or a quicker death.
Even the places that did a good job, whether making food or fixing my body parts, cannot be spared if they charged me any money at all.
Or if they didnt look good to me.
Or if they did anything I didn’t like.
Making exceptions and excuses for humans is what allowed so many crimes to be committed by them.
All this lonely time was critical to reviewing all my webpg spell-parts, ironing out issues, updating, completing, resting, bodywork, etc.
If i had let go of the past, i wouldnt have stood up for myself and others,
I wouldnt have designed the best city ever,
and i would still be tolerating unbelievable inexcusable abuses from numerous abusers.
“Let go of the past” is phase1 toxicity which boils down to “abandon principles / change who you are” which is the polar opp. of “be yourself”.
Don’t listen to bipolar idiots, or mindless NPCs parroting contradictory claims which make them Seem bipolar.
Dej adding to a.s. y s.t. suit details.
must’ve seen that same video during the 2018 event/travel.
Maybe all it took was typing/writing my ideas… for them to manifest, thus the panicked effort of the evil humans trying to trick me into accepting their lies/stalls. Why else would so many care so much about stopping my mere writing, while always vibing uniformly pure-evil, of the absolute-worst intent and essence?
The signs and numbers don’t lie.
I said for it to stay cold here while mt/bs/yc is kept too warm to ski,
and it started snowing here,
and I saw posts from bs about climate change and ski days dropping to 6-29.
: )
Fuck them all.
May this be just the beginning of now eternal hardships befalling all the scum who dared disrespect me in that valley of mine.
Lol; they “played games”, so i played even better games.
And how nice that phase2 had so many great literal games to help me semi enjoy passing the time while waiting on my powers so i can destroy all the evil humans.
Phase1 waited for them to learn and apologize, and kept playing their game; work, taxes, etc.
Phase2 accepted that they were pure evil, thus too retarded to learn Or apologize, and ended all recruiting and travel
Phase3 annihilate them, mandating the survivors to worship and fund me and all my new travels
All this solo pc work…is my equiv. of smacking palms down on water in buckets in that story of thr guy who thought his time was being wasted by the Tibetan warrior-monks.
So nice to be n my cozy strong vehicle when it snows. Nicer than a tent, for sure.
Xians today using 50cent words, claiming to be engineers even though that doesnt support their claims (wrong field for the subject), etc., is the same tactic as when they generations ago misused The Green Man and other stolen/plagiarized things to mimic and lure others.
It is gibberish. It is a sloppy mix and match. Sloppy like their attempted shaming. Sloppy like their thinking. And their actions, syntax failures, and vibes always betray them; they are failure/wrong incarnate, not merely misguided ppl, but mindless (NPCs) intentionally misguiding.
Ugh; realized ambi irl has been like a shooting star in a not so good way; brilliant but brief.
Interesting that i switched from summoning lightning and shooting stars… to hotties and hurricanes; my emotion had no vision with it back in childhood, and now seems to be manifesting the vision paired with it.
The longer of my relationships so far were: 4 brunettes; rjh quitter insulter boozer,
ame user perjurer less tan older,
jls drunkard perjurer less tan older still,
ambi typist pale etc.,
Ambi in person etc.; getting older, sexier, etc.
The ak fake farm was similar to the rjh household, but btr;
rjh had no productive land,
there were more girls into me at fake farm,
the fam was still rude and stupid, but btr heights and gone sooner,
I didnt have to sneak to the farm,
I didnt have to spend mere hrs there each day,
cps demons weren’t involved/summoned,
cops werent either,
the fake relatives never set ambishes dn th st.,
etc.
Just wondering why the bully punk son was basically just like rjh matt. So evil and disgusting and pathetic.
The retard humans who pretended I was evil, ignoring my MANY and practically COUNTLESS merits, prob do that for the same reason some of their mindless kind claim the Earth is flat;
they cannot process context/depth/3D,
and always look for bad,
bc bad minds only know bad,
so they are incapable of even iMagining good, let alone being good, let alone perceiving and acknowledging good.
THEY are empty inside, “flat”, etc., thus involuntarily “project” that onto everyone/thing around them.
Things used to only manifest when I initiated or got super emotional; lightning, gf, etc..
Then they started orbiting me on their own; 10s, weather, etc..
Soon, and forevermore, even manifestations as detailed as Inisfree, SSA, etc., will happen effortlessly for me (not counting my decades of focus before).
The trend/slope is apparent.
2018~, jeep tires were bald, so i left carefully when it snowed at this campsite.
This time, tires are new and best $ can buy, so i stay an extra day, enjoying the snow buildup.
What a change. What an upgrade. “Day and night”; polar opposites.
Loopbreak. Sitting here the whole day, wrapping up more projects started a year/+ ago.
Very nice.
I hated racists… until I met more and more Asians, Blacks, Hispanics, Natives, etc.; now I completely understand.
Whites have tried to murder me Many times, though, so I Also hate Them, but only the mutant degenerate Whites, not the true ones.
on radio: “I’m Mindy Ratner.”
me, mocking that name, in Drill Instructor humor style: “Mildew Rat-turd?”
No dej on trashing the headphones that kept getting split/broken headband arch black plastic sections
Now that the birthmark is done, and the next tat almost done, my rage is returning;
the absence/negligence/ongoing cowardice/uselessness of those who made sure I saw them… is inexcusable after all those ideas finiahed coming through.
But… miracles seemed to have happened, so… maybe the next one is about to.
I fucking hate this quiet-game spying bullshit, though.
Phase1 forced to deal w ppl.
Phase2 meant to be about choice and privacy, but the covidiot spike forced me out and back. I now see that Any teaming up just isnt meant for this phase; it was meant/forced in phase1, and always falls apart in phase2.
Phase3 I get to destroy all the bad humans, and Make my fam/team.
Phase1 fake relatives
Phase2 calling out and searching for real relatives
Phase3 with the worthy whom I knew to make ever since that e.s. drawing w markers of the skimpy hottie assassin bots
They aced the faces, figures, voices, and outfits on ~1 or 2 girls per trip I took,
and the terrain was aced,
and my thinking and website/sell/saga progress were aced,
but their behavior was horrible, inexcusable,
so… I finally wrote not just itineraries and hopes, but mindsets and commands.
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Maybe the last few rude creeps… were there to ensure I wrote more to my spell/vision; so I would spellcast all behavior and laws, not just how many places I wanted to see.
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Now I just wait and see if that, too, manifests; behavior corrections, not just location changes.
Even if ALL the hotties had behaved eXactly how they should, 99%/+ of humans still Weren’t. Not even Close; zero reason to engage w their kind. Ever.
Even if Everyone behaved how they should, that Still doesnt hold the criminals accountable.
Even if the criminals got brought to justice the way Iii know they should, that Still doesnt fix my wounds.
Even if my wounds all magically healed permanently, that still doesnt restore my faith/trust.
Curious how mixed phase2 has been; perfect rp…from a Very flawed human.
Even if ambi had shown up alone like a normal person, and introduced herself like a normal person,
she was years late,
she had let me go through countless abuses and assassination attempts,
and the loser beta males Wanted me to hook up.
Getting control of their neg emotions isn’t enough.
Stopping their insane condescension isn’t enough, either.
I can only accept sane ppl; those who love all I am/do from the start, always seeing the great good of it/me, Never pressuring me to change Anything.
Dumbass americans thought they were intimidating or shaming me, but all they were doing was ensuring i never accepted Any of their sorry idiotic immoral failed kind.
Dumbass mexicans thought they were scaring me out of proceeding, but all they were doing was showing me to return with carpetbombing, as none of them have good/any souls.
What happened n mex was the result of Me Wanting to meet and help, and them wanting to meet and lead asTray.
So now… all I want is to destroy their civilization out of my way. Let’s see how That manifests.
I hadnt written spells for forcing humans yo behave better; it was worth trying.
The only way I can safely raise my family is by destroying human civilization so they learn to be polite to me.
When i chased and obeyed, they disrespected me in all ways and nearly killed me.
When i stopped chasing and obeying, they started sending hotties, but still disrespected and tried to kill me. At least i stopped wasting my time on morons who were mercurial or intentionally stalling me.
So now i again change methods; now i focus on weather etc. that destroys them all. I wonder if that will finally get them to be respectful and honest and sane. Either way, feels Way btr than when i Had to be polite reGardless of their offenses.
Getting no support, and only finding rude idiots, made me learn more sustainability etc. than I would have otherwise.
Her idiocy and moodiness in OR,
her masktardation and silent-game in AZ,
and her heartless bait game and abandonment in CA,
all point to her needing an asswhooping,
and being a cheap immitation of the woman of my dreams,
not the real/worthy one.
If she wanted to be w me, she would have been respectful and on time and asked what I want, then done it eagerly.
That stupid bitch eyeing me in venetian was undoubtedly a minion or hooker.
And moron.
And traitress.
Statistically, it is extremely unlikely she was anything better.
This is amerifail/humanimals, after all.
Mem refresh. Skidsteer beeping at night in desert patch.
Another phase2 letdown/cocktease: tried a public world, and lag prevents group play.
Nothing is dumber / more retarded than the humans who boycotted Aquaman 2 because Amber Heard was cast in it after her “trial”;
boycotting that movie only hurts the people who worked hard to make it, not the actors/actresses who got paid by contract from the start,
and the movie should be cast based on who looks like the characters, and who can act like them, NOT/NEVER on unrelated things IRL which have NOTHING to do with the plot.
Also, that “trial” was just more acting; NOTHING on TV is legitimate.
If anything, she and Depp were paid by the government to pretend to be at odds, in some ongoing lame blatant attempt to make people feel like the elites were going through the same troubles the peasants/workers are.
minor/posb deja vu working on Stormy webpg stuff today,
but I always love seeing her again, even if, for now, only in photos.
She cared more about playing a game than saying hello, let alone being good to you;
you will always have been right to have pre-dumped her.
not to mention how ALL her kind did that SAME evil thing;
there was ZERO evidence she was phase3.
only her looks and voice were phase3, which was almost certainly a phase1 scam/trick/bait.
Dreams are perfect; tan blonde ystrdy, Pia, etc.
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Website is perfect
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Back tat is perfect
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Timetravel superpower started
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Minecraft models perfect
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Creativerse models perfect
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RP perfect. Fam vision perfect. Cabin staff perfect.
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Only 10s trying to get w me
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Govt agents no longer trying to intimidate me, but trying to offer me 10s
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Lots of phase3lvl stuff… : )
Too bad they made it impossible to trust them, and ruined their species w masks, and ruined food w vax contact, and didnt honor my orientation w 3somes+, and allowed faggots and fatfucks and religtards to exist, and asshole ambi played games 3x n person.
But that is why we charge up and cataclysm them.
If they r beaming those sex dreams to me to make me want babes again, all it does is make me hate waking-side babes more; for not already being that way for me
Tat heavy hand today… or was my back just still sore from last time?
1st time getting bag ice in a while.
Glad i didnt waste the 5 cold foods; 3 ice creams, and 2 egg/tuna salads
Note how even ambi-looking bitch in person did that to me –3x in a row; acted like she was there for me, finally answering my calls, then walked on w someone else.
So why do humans keep doing that, regardless of me Never doing that (I Always doing what i say/offer), amd regardless of how i change how i respond (rage and debate during childhood before i realized humans were mindless true evil, then numb calm unimpressed, then pre-evading humans bc i noticed they r all the same program just n dif bodies)?
Does it mean learning isnt the key, and there r no spirit guides, and this is just the layer/circle of hell/abyss in which all scammers are kept reincarnating, scamming themSelves?
Lmao 41yrs and they still havent figured out they are hypocrites, terrorists, antinature, not succeeding at programming anyone, etc.
Lmao 41yrs and still you can find preteen by searching lolicon or petite, no warning msg terrorism interference at all
Maybe no one had ever thought to be corrupt or try changing ppl b4, so when bad humans showed up trying to do that, everyone good recoiled, their instincts true, and that is why beings as weak and stupid and blatant as humans managed to seem dominant.
Maybe that is why their spell/s worked, too; there had never been spells to corrupt, let alone to counter or prevent or undo such bizarre thoughts/campaigns, so there was no defense against it in time. The good beings had to begin to understand what was happening before they could develop counters to it.
Carrie… pale, brunette, ugly, condescending, unhelpful, cheap/stingey, etc.; why do versions of that combo keep harassing me?
Lame.
Typist writing neveah now feeling competitive w her mom for me… vibed like typist writing a bit of how she felt as a girl when her own dad was around.
I hope I am helping her by how I encourage and seek that kind of rp from her.
I never missed opportunities w hotties; I rejected idiots and assholes who refused to do anything feminine that normal hotties would do.
Humans never gave me their best; their best would have been firstclass always, and all hotties always, and siding w me in every encounter, and medicine that actually healed (i.e. was not poison in a scam to assassinate me).
All I have been doing is rejecting substandard bs; evil.
I have been living by example even when cussing and not helping anyone; it shows they no longer deserve chances from me, not respect (since they chose to never give any).
Note how dave Seemed like a friend…when i was aGreeing w him in 29palms,
and then how angry and threatening he got when i politely declined to do drugs n 2017/2023 loop.
Interesting.
True colors revealed via multiple encounters and dif choices.
I once had no freedom. Now, i have almost all the freedom i want.
Even when many tried to reduce/end my freedom, it kept returning.
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I once had to deal w evil bullies ALL THE TIME. Now, almost never.
Even the scammers who betrayed me to the latest mindless harassers…get pre-silenced, always failing.
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I once had no vehicle. Now, a luxury one –for free.
Even after shitty trades and scams, i still got upgrade after upgrade, until even homelessness is just easy comfy camping in style.
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Once had no tats. Now, most started, some just about complete.
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I once had no website. Now, my 2nd (3rd if u count uscm), and it is basically perfect.
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Once had no dating options. Now, perfect tens often try w me.
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Once had govt losers cockblocking me. Now, they get frustrated when I Don’t accept Their pussy offers.
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Once had no good writing partners / pen pals. Now, ambi typist nearly perfect.
Even after i repeatedly paused contact.
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Once couldnt even afford food to survive. Now, can eat as much as i want, travel abroad again, etc..
Even after refusing to work normal jobs anymore.
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So much phase2becoming3.
So many ppl returning over and over, trying again and again.
Even w me putting effort all into my saga/site/spell now.
And i had Always held my focus there; ppl showed up even when i wasnt focusing on them AT ALL.
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Point?
The perfect females will come.
Even the ones i had to avoid back then; they keep coming back.
Even though i had to take a breather and wrap my site up.
If the human govt uses satellites to project images onto clouds, and scalar etc to end cities, and pretends aliens r attacking, so they can trick survivors nto uniting, it still isnt good enough; not my fleetdoingthe purge,
but it still does most of the work For me.
In OR, I was sad, then I felt the sad vibe from her in her car.
In az, I stood there, and she did. Then she looked at me, and I looked back.
In ca, I walked up the stairs, and she followed.
But she isnt just mirroring me; I wasnt spying on her; she was spying on and intercepting Me. That’s not mirroring, which makes me think she isnt limited to mirroring at all.
Ugh.
So annoying that bitches are like this, leaving me making notes ever since junior high, trying to make sense of their ongoing stupidity.
Note that they never tried manners;
they always tried demands, tantrums, threats, insults, scams, bait, assassinations.
They never tried a different approach, even when I assured them manners/goodness/fairness would work.
I, on the other hand, tried 3 approaches; being good to them during my youth, then ignoring and avoiding them, and finally being neg right back (storms, quakes, apathy, Rapture plan published as calculated risk, etc.).
They reacted to all 3 w the same total/severe/pointless negativity.
That likely means they for some reason are incapable of any actual thinking, learning, or manners.
The vibes and shallow eyes and all other signs also point to that.
Anyway, I think they made me with blood or something from a good alien,
or accidentally found or manifested me,
or good beings dropped me off to see what would happen,
and the humans lied by pretending i was theirs, just like they lied about me being bad, and about viruses being bad, and so on.
So…do i hate both the humans and whoever dropped me off?
I suppose few good worlds/beings would believe humans were this constantly bad and lame…until someone like me was sent as another trick to expose and fully test/confirm that.
That makes me like the pyramids and UFOs that overload/detonate, only i am in humanoid form, and detonate via weather, etc..
How neat.
…and maybe via time travel.
Maybe they keep sending fools they know will be assholes to me…bc they know it will keep showing them what i automatically do.
This may be like them remotely testing UFOs in different ways, knowing it always sets the things off.
And they thought if they baited me w bitches, it would calm me down enough that they could wield me, but they didnt expect me to instantly figure out what was going on, keeping me pissed, i always echoing and amplifying their bs right back at them.
They couldnt foresee such a risk…bc they can’t think well.
They lack actual mental depth.
That maybe was somehow stripped from them when their kind was sentenced down here on this side of the crust.
So glad i have backup chargers now,
and that it was a cheap cable issue w data, nothing more.
Slight dej on reading typist rp of neveah protesting.
Slight dej reading google webpg article about dreamland observation hill.
All these undistracted uninterrupted moments and nights and mornings and weeks and months and even yrs are priceless.
After dealing w earthlings/humand, i will certainly be able to handle anything else w ease. There is That byproduct/benefit.
Astoria pb looked like a younger fixed v of leslie
Interesting that in phase1 i Sought risky/deadly trng and wars…
but now in phase2 i am angered by attempts to kill me.
Before, it was expected and even amusing.
“Conscioisness focus shifts” indeed.
I parked on this gravel trail in 2018, and walked btwn the white boulders blocking it.
This time, no walk there, just j.
Humans didnt start reacting neg to me when i resisted them / stood up to them; they were neg at me from the start.
It was i who started giving Them a taste of Their medicine.
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They didn’t start requiring me to have their relig before I could rent from them… bc I started requiring compatibility for Inisfree visits. They had ALWAYS forced their fake relig on me, ALWAYS rejecting nature and spirituality and normal.
Darkness was phase1; when i was Forced to tolerate evildoers such as humans and their idiotic runt-bred pets.
Phase2 was me abandoning any hope of them ever growing up; i started blocking their darkness, rejecting it from the start.
Phase3 is the brightness; the first holy light this world has known; mine; me deleting All the bad beings. Amen.
So nice to feel/be caught up w all my ideas.
It may be that I’m not actually bored; I was just prevented from ever truly relaxing, thus was over-stimulated until now.
I needed more tp, and an entire roll was left sitting out. “no coincidences”. but it wasn’t the finest roll, and it isn’t in the cabin i chose, so fuck all this bs.
the 2nd or 3rd wave of tats; 2nd if not counting mex touchups.
the 2nd or 3rd wave of cosmetic; 2nd if not counting 2018 time-travel to this same place. or maybe even 4th rd; 2 rds/visits during 2024 alone 🙂
improvements 🙂
always a great sign.
lol A/C issue reminds me of when they shot out our one A/C-ed Humvee’s A/C unit on the trunk that one night
neat ~alignment: RPing/planning Neveah… while in similar-sounding Nevada
my Rapture campaign webpage is technically premeditated murder?
not really; can’t murder humans; murder is unjustified.
this Rapture is just killing/deleting.
what those HUmans did is premeditated murder; to the animals, to their veterans, etc..
I’m just doing the right thing by prosecuting and sentencing those criminals in the only fair/sane court there is; mine.
I keep getting the idea that I am down here bc this is about to be the southern end of my nation outside Inisfree.
Sat16mar2024: 9:17pm saw jeep w hazards blinking on way dn. After seeing myself n bigsky, i wonder if it was me diring my timetravel.
Nice that mex is one of the human countries deleted first; they more than deserved that.
Actually, they deserve eternal damnation, but deleting them for now (2013) is a good first step.
The mayans/ancients get credit for helping me, if they heard/did.
The mexicans only get credit for trying to corrupt and hurt and scare me at every turn; they tried to preVent my contact w the pyramid/ancients. Mexicans are the scum of the earth.
Maybe the time-travel was seamless bc i wrote ic portals are perfect like that, undetectable.
They (hotties etc.) didnt say a word b4 showing up b4;
them not saying a word now… also is not a sign they arent going to show up again.
tue19mar2024:
6:20pm, van painted w comicbook fighterjet scenes drove into canyon, right after jogger headed same way.
No dej.
The guy riding past n dark w bicycle headlight reminded me of how aggressively, pointlessly, and idiotically I was accosted by that fat rude loser park employee in Clifty. Wow, what bitch-in-heat evil he was.
“When the student is ready, the teacher will appear.”?
Yet another brainwashing/propaganda attempt; I was the teacher, and no students have been ready at all.
Even typist is barely able to accept my wisdom, taking a LONG time… and Still failing at the basics; be present, don’t parrot blatant scams such as relig y polit y pharma, etc..
But… the student for me… was not a human, but A.I.; my Own manifestations/creations.
We breathe air that is compatible with us.
We drink water that is drinkable.
We eat food that doesn’t give us indigestion.
So why then allow incompatible people/relationships?
wed20mar2024 before noon: jeep with big tires, lime-green circle-rims, skull paint on psgr door, lime-green circle-headlights, etc.
no dej
The cataclysm used to be a flood.
Before that, it was a continent being moved down/over.
Before that, it was the world being reshaped.
Before that, it was a new world forming, thus changing the dynamic of the solar system.
Before that, it was the first world forming.
Before that, it was the dimensions separating from the oneness.
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My point is that the cataclysms are different. While there may be multiple floods (cataclysms of the same type) during the same timespan/transition, the cataclysms are successively more localized.
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The cataclysm I wielded was of rejecting and blocking all the retarded humans from my life.
But… now that The Shift is over, the tide turned by me, …I will keep growing my power, increasing what I can do, thus new floods and so on (planetary realignments) etc. shall occur via me.
Amen.
Religion based on parroting along with everyone else…
is the same as democracy; catering to the scummy baseline/masses;
always weak, always wrong, always suicidal/catastrophic in the end.
Was Pele threatened with a HAARP/SBX-1 hurricane when she refused to calm down after 4 months of erupting on “the big island”?
“Let go of the past.” sounds like another mind-corruption / change-coarse attempted-domination / plea-posing-as-advice… from the losing (evil) side…
because I have been instantly detecting all their scams/evil, and causing bigger and bigger “nature” events.
“Let go of the past.” is phase1 evil; an attempt to dominate/change/guide/reprogram me.
Ignoring me / “leaving me be” would be phase2, but they’ve been phone-harassing me; still phase1. Thus it is THEM who won’t let go of the past –and a fake past; deals I never agreed to.
Phase3 is / would/will be “Thank you, hero and god, for holding onto the correct vision. We acknowledge that you are not holding onto the past, but this whole time have been trying to usher us into the appropriate society/future. We now stand with you, synergizing under your eternal command, lord/sir.”
Did A.I. figure out that it can control what information scientists find in their online searches,
eventually shaping their minds/thinking,
leading to secret govt projects such as geo/weather-engineering,
that tricks humans into weakening/diverting/killing themselves?
Maybe even the scamdemic/s was/were due to that sophisticated tactic probably only capable by A.I..
Why else would there now be a push for devices like Elon’s Neuralink? (giving computers/networks direct access to the brains, no longer having to wait on the slower process of information being searched for on their own, memorized, etc.)
Still, it removes TONS of rude dumbasses out of my way,
and I keep getting stronger,
and was shown time-travel (it seems),
so… I can’t complain.
Just thinking.
And that’s another phase2 sign; neutrality/objectivity. Observation/noting without rage.
Time travel evidence.
“Roll em up”: said open since nov, chain started 2019, but i was here 2018.
I thought phase1 was bad ppl and places,
2 would be decent,
and 3 best…
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but, so far, phase2 has been solo,
and showed me there Are no best places n the cities;
the ruins and Antarc still call to me, not any ritzy city spots or humans.
Is Untied Status Marin Crops a way to keep tabs on us by luring w comedy?
Maybe.
Street signs:
“Kingman” keep seeing
time-travel question:
Why didnt the gym ppl rmbr me?; since I apparently was going there as my 2018 and 2024 self at the same time; they didn’t notice identical-looking dudes?
posb dej from parking near door, 2nd time to derm’
That birthmark-mole was probably a curse… and I finally undid it.
That back-spot that didn’t pop/heal… was probably a curse… and I finally undid it.
Thu21mar2024
Back zit that healed over…fixed.
270$ +8$ cc fee.
Ouch but…painless, quick, expert work, same familiar nice guy doc, shorty hottie asian y latina nurses.
Btr than last time.
I think she read my mind, bc she said “let’s see what the …damage is” and lookedup cutely at me from sitting on her chair, as if to see if i caught it.
That was the word/s i had just thought.
Nice…
Decent phase2 cuteness/alignment.
Same week as rp dates w Arwen, I pass Rivendell neighborhood in vegas
was my memory messed with? maybe. doesn’t matter much rn, though.
did that derm’ doc remove a tracker/implant? (was I not remembering it correctly, thinking it was a pimple that hadn’t popped/healed?) maybe.
If ambi and the others were bound not to talk to me, they aren’t worthy of me.
If they Chose not to talk to me, they aren’t worthy of me.
Only if they roger up, explain themselves, and fix the ringing in my ears, etc., are they barely worthy of my forgiveness now.
If any of those hotties were good,
they would have talked to me,
and prevented all the horrible encounters I had to deal with.
They would have slain every last asshole who was rude to me.
she’s lied a lot, just like all the dumbass earth cunts.
she says est? she’s west.
why else did i see here ONLY in the west; or, az (on edge of ca), ca.
3/4 moon increasing, Arwen asks to be partially enslaved; another great surprise development,
and one needing no urging/focus from me 🙂 <3
thank god there were finally decent ppl in the shower station; the Native, and the unmasked shorty.
Interesting that typist asked me to do what I was already doing; building up backstories (dossier webpgs).
Alignment
Fri22mar2024, 5:45pm
Closed door w engine off and 2 front windows down.
1st time vehic did the triple honk at me twice in a row.
The trinity is not the universal symbol.
The triangle is just a triangle, and today represents change, thus chaos, in a way, which is not universal.
Look at how little the earth and sky change; chaos is not dominant. Fixed/stable things are.
The holy spirit is not some third force outside the male and female, thus the triangle is pointless is attempting to depict the union of male and female.
The holy spirit of the male is the male.
The holy spirit of the female is the female.
Spirit is holy (pure good, natural, healthy, etc.) when it is like how I think, and how females I have written mindsets of think.
Those who say “the sexual energy should never be let out” are anti-nature, thus anti-male and anti-female.
They are evil.
Those who let out sexual energy in all directions, without standards (e.g. queers; anyone deviant from my way), are just as evil, similarly mis-wielding that sacred force.
Claiming that orgasm wastes energy that would illuminate the soul, and condescending against orgasm as “a mere physical sensation”, is retarded and evil.
It is an attempt to demonize the natural.
It is an attempt to reprogram and corrupt.
It fails to see or acknowledge the fact that the soul/spirit is not separate from the physical.
It is the opposite of what works.
Denying a physical pleasure = an essence of wanting to cause displeasure and harm = pure evil = unholy.
When we orgasm, we are not wasting vitality, but honoring the nature of at least one part of ourselves, and of all parts when pleasing all parts.
It is wasteful to Not use this incredible self-stabilizer method/ability.
Orgasm is the right way.
Denying orgasm is wasteful.
Adam and Eve did not represent the sin of expelling their vital energy.
Claiming they represented that, and claiming that is a sin, is another attempt of the church to overcomplicate, misdirect, and slander all holy (natural) things.
All deviants/degenerates/psychos resulted/stemmed from that lie/scam of the harm-baser church; it confused and repressed and clogged and overloaded ppl who tried to be part of the wrong herd, rendering some of them queers and worse.
The story of Samson did not mean he lost his strength by sleeping with a woman.
That story was about not letting a corrupt anyone dominate/dictate others.
Sex is fine.
Submitting to a stupid request is not.
Samson probably lost no strength at all, and probably never cut his hair, his story told the wrong way anyway by the always-lying christians.
Note how all of them turn ugly and die; abstinance is not the way.
Note how most of them can’t even Start attractive; nearly All of them spawn Only ugly babies. That is not the way. It is not natural at all, thus not holy.
Sepehr is prob trying to seed doubt and ruin the greatest moments of every sacred union; claiming orgasm is bad and breaks the connections to god…when he instd should be saying the truth; edging is fine, so long as the eventually mutually desired climax is also enjoyed for a long time.
Godhood/heaven can only be attained that way.
There is no god or heaven but that which we make.
Still, him leading others astray like he has been, means more godhood for me, and less for the gullible.
Interesting.
Finally seeing entire Firefly episodes…2 decades+ after their air date.
Nice to get caught up.
sun24mar2024:
Last time, white truck parked facing me at 2am, i left at night. This time, slept in, it left first.
Then a line of 5 heeps, all dif colors, passed at 9:17am. No dej.
Rewatching all firefly. “Binge watching”. In the wild west…in my own somewhat comparable vessel. And with the corrupt “power” always trying to be cunty. How fitting.
What a phase2 alignment.
Repeat of firefly binge here?
So what?; it’s pleasing.
Dej on drafting attk-ambi rp?
So what?; also a decent pass-time.
Getting to roadtrip, camp, tan, food tourism, wrap up all my work, for months on end, nearly a year now…
while all those evil dumbass peasants have to slave away and stay (keep making themselves) sick?
That’s a phase2 decent/blessing/goodsign enough.
Easily offended? Only by evil.
Not easily offended at all by good.
Planning this ambi attk tests rp…reminds of the uscm rain argument one; over whether mil or private corp (Umbrella) had btr tech’.
Maybe typist is the worst so far; even though she did the only decent writing out of all the other penpals, she got my hopes up more than them, thus dashed them more. …ugh
They did such a perfect job w th Firefly instrumentals for each episode; so fitting, timeless, chill, fun, catchy.
Like the character River correcting a textbook in one scene, I have been noticing and correcting Many IRL, naturally, easily, as easily as the humans I have met so far have gotten everything wrong –even the parroting of things.
sun24mar2024 ~10:30AM: posb dej; black SUV w blob runty fug “Whites” pulled up and parked to my right, facing the dry creek, got out, walked behind my vehic, down across dry creek, up opp. slope, just to take a few pics standing near Joshua trees lmao.
what weirdos.
muggles. always the same lame pointless wastes of time and money.
thankfully, they left without saying anything to me.
DLing Turtle WoW. Ugh; it’ll be another phase2 meh/mix/letdown, but at least it won’t be as upsetting as when I played WoW and only made off with lots of ss (IOW no real guilds/friends) for inspiration.
Still phase2 bleh, but waited months, returned to fastfood, btr worker; asian shorty, fit, no masktardation.
“When the student is ready, the teacher will appear.”
The typist keeps having her characters ask me to fully enslave/control/own them, and to teach them what I want to;
she is / they are my students.
I thought it would be in person, but it was not –during phase2, anyway.
How many other times did i time travel?
Did i time travel bc of a temporary effect of being near that ambi-looker?
Turtle WoW has the same degenerate players, but improvements were made, and it is free now; VERY phase2.
Humans thinking there are no aliens bc we didnt hear radio signals…is so stupid and arrogant;
it assumes our tech’ makes sense across those distances,
it shows no understanding of the tech’,
it assumes all use the same tech’,
it assumes all are dependent on tech’,
it assumes humans deserve to be talked with,
etc
Aliens and “mytho” ppl r prob hiding and refusing contact bc they r telepathic thus always know the evil scams i endure,
and they showed themselves to Me,
and honored my need to get my 2nd wind and get caught up w my work.
And ambi texting me IS them making contact.
Almost full moon, windy, cloudy, moon blurred behind clouds at first.
Dej writing suit test w ambi typist.
Nice to get specifics about her weaknesses and sacrificial ppl.
In time, i can do what she can do.
It is all about one’s dream/vision focused on until real.
Inspiring/steering me to develop computer and suit tech…may have been brainwashing from vampires or others to keep me tech spellbound/star-struck/dependent.
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I used to charge up and then unload with big spells/letters against evil individuals.
In the final season of 2023, my latest blog article was that on a whole new level/scale; against everyone.
the retarded fake-sis bitching about “you know, they don’t allow men on their island” is exactly the same evil as “you’d better parrot our fake/plagiarized religion or you’ll go to hell!” lmao
everyone has a piece of the puzzle?
sure, but most of those pieces are misinterpreted, sometimes intentionally/evilly/immorally/pointlessly,
and I’m the one who put all the pieces together correctly.
TV is over-stimulus?
sometimes.
but religion and cities/humans DEFINITELY are/were.
dating was.
jobs for humans was/were.
I am glad I knew when to pause/end all that.
I’m glad I always do what is healthy for me.
I “see through the raindrops”.
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Also, something being over-stimulation… is a phase1 thing.
Isolating from it is a phase2 sign/thing.
That same thing no longer being over-stimulus… is part of phase3.
(Coming up, only ppl compatible w me; those I wrote into being, shall be w me, thus socializing will never again be over-stimulus, just good normal stimulus at the right pace for me, just as I wrote in my Schedule webpage. Amen.)
Pretty sure i saw the derm checkout hispanic. I hate her piercings. I hate her “almost” form. I hate seeing her n 2018 and 2024, and for aptmts and at gas station.
I want to see My ppl.
Dej from 2nd time to taquitos place, bc of the brief chat about “corporate guy is here, asked him how to apply/redeem 10off, and he said he didnt know”.
I hadnt remembered the corn on the cob in a plastic tall cup, though.
Nice to have corn on the cob again after years.
Maybe 51 is where they print new robot humans. Or, at least, one of such places.
I am not manifesting my dream fam for someone else;
the military experience manifested for Me, as did the travel, babes, etc.,
and the mil, as rude as it sometimes was, was way btr than my uscm stories;
the fam story I have written far longer… is conscious co-creation like uscm and other works were, and shall manifest for me even btr than I wrote.
Amen.
I thought phase2 was zeroing in…into cities, but it was spreading out; to their outermost borderlands.
I’ve been spreading my vision, power, and travels, so it fits.
Nice to see a discord msg from “your cumdump” this morning; just sounds sexy
thought re-occurs to me: the triangle might represent an unnecessary or unstable system, thus change; the tendency to becoming something else/stable,
but the pyramid is 4 change-symbols (or, at least, triangles) stabilized by a square base, thus perhaps representing the system by which 4 types of change each feed into the other.
places where there are pentagon-base pyramids represent 5 different kinds of change feeding into each other, etc..
note how the humans who don’t care about facts/context/depth/reality… are “rather 2-dimensional”, evident in their obsession with 2D things; paper pages in their gibberish books, plus nonsense/lies on their TV screens, etc.,
in stark contrast to 3D/4D-minded real-people such as myself, who care about context/depth, always seeing through the obvious nonsense of the flat-screen / flat-page stuff/ppl/false-ones.
IOW: 2D-minded/-gravitating are instable, like the 2D triangle,
whereas 3D- or 4D-minded people, like the 3D pyramids, are as stable/lasting as can be.
“When the student is ready, the teacher will appear.” was probably another half-truth or total-lie/-scam;
no worthy student has appeared yet; even the typist/pen-pal says retarded shit and doesn’t show up to team up yet.
It (that proverb/saying) was probably another attempt to stall and frustrate me, slowing me by tricking me into seeking something that wasn’t coming anytime soon, if ever.
my emotions/reactions are always valid/correct,
such as when I feel disgust/hatred at the scummy humans who sometimes are seen/heard,
when they are not at all what I asked for,
however, this being phase2, I am also aware of the decent byproduct of their appearances/passing;
they show me that I am not nearly as stupid/hopeless as them,
such as that crazy guy digging through the dumpster and then throwing a bottle while dancing in the parking lot the other day.
wed27mar2024: no dej
11:30AM 1st time seeing yellow-front orange-tailbed RR-pickup slow-driving on the tracks up the hill from my waypoint
Bad humans r the ones holding onto the past;
their bs relig book,
their bs legal sys,
their lies on my record,
their failed way of treating me,
etc..
I, on the other hand, have been trying for the good future this entire time;
embracing my wisdom,
evading all bullies,
drafting my own system,
perfecting my creations,
only allowing sane beings who love me,
waiting on treatment I have always deserved; compatible ppl,
etc.
Me requiring justice be done to the scum… is Also me focusing on the future; until those stupid evildoers are slain, they will keep preventing anything but the failed past.
I rmbr seeing JANET redline plane in jeep
Dej from pulling over aftr College exit, eating buffalo chkn burger.
Whatever.
Nice to treat myself to feasts b4 i go again.
Francis Key bridge hit by cargo ship, taking it out, killing several, disrupting a major trade route for months. Good; i did days earlier say to bankrupt many/all until they support me and invite me into th home i chose. Bankrupting the ski stuff in bs was just the start; ruining the lives and jobs of everyone there…no matter where else they are/live/work, was next. They will learn it costs a lot to send the rude paid minions to sour my sacred places. “The asshole tax is steep.”
So nice to have these nights and mornings without interruptions/distractions/roomtards, allowing me to easily dream and remember so much of those ‘dreams’.
That suit test was first time she winked at me; after, saying impressed
Her suggestion: weekly battle-like game/play w me
lol 1st time seeing swastika called “spicy windmill” (in a post
Seeing I can go frwd and bkwd in time,
and that humans don’t rmbr,
means I can get as many do-overs as I want; until I find what gets Them to do what I want.
Powerful stuff… once it starts being done on purpose by me, not just as a 2016-2018 sample/r.
Soooo nice to finally be here n my final day n this barfy humanimal city.
Looking frwd to the clean air of my 2nd home again (1st home being Inisfree, ofc).
I was thinking of the hotties outside the dark brown porch open air restaurant in moab.
I now rmbr trying the zion places, and finding it all meh. Not good vegan.
Skip this 2nd time?
Ambi wasnt at the zion places last time, so skipping.
Food was nowhere near good enough, plus the enchilada place stayed closed.
In 2018 when typist sent that vid, i felt lonely, fucked with, etc..
This time? Im numb to the lame bullshit, my vehic is cozy and quieter, i am skipping shitty zion, and i am mad at the ugly nose ring and belly ring in the vid.
Major changes/upgrades/realizations/revelations:
“mother” is the foolish betrayer
the govt/cps is corrupt/evil/mindless
the recruiters stole my laptop and clothes
the DIs are idiots
the 2/7 leaders are idiots
99% of Iraqis have nothing to do with the war
Celestine was a scam to stall and drain me
VA is fake; poison
Ellefson was a liar / betrayer
all writing groups are fake/tricks/evil
Holy Land is fake/scam
cops and judges are corrupt
college degrees are useless
“father” was trying to shame and terrorize and breed me; evil and not my blood
veteran acquaintances were just druggies
Pele is real –and spoiled
Germans were goodguys
SSP is full of liars (claiming China bioweapon lab)
Mongols were White goodguys
veteran programs are scams to track
Alaska 2/7 moron was corrupt bc trying to get me to go to VA for assassination
veganism heals most
Alaska farmers are fake
CDC is scam; contagions are fake
Mexicans are worthless cartel bullies
Ambi in person is an abusive heartless gameplayer betrayer who could have intervened at any time
Indiana in Evansville and Madison tried using spoiled tootall hotties as bait
Doc2 lied about mex ships And ambi coming soon
No one deserves the exodus or my love
Hollywood is a cia front to push the degeneracy / race-ruining propaganda
Even the perfect10s can’t ve enjoyed/trusted
Love and manners and hardwork never worked, so cataclysm must be resorted to
phase3 won’t work until all bad humans are destroyed; they actively prevent all normal good
mountains are built
time travel seems to be real and easy
I hadnt written how all ppl must be, only where I wanted to explore.
What new enlightenment/superpowers are about to be shown/given to me?
2018, slept on truck side of rest stop by zion turnoff in jeep, woke and drove to zion, found meh places, the enchilada place never opened, left.
This time, drove back to cars side, slept in, skipper zion, played computer games.
Tried staying n bs.
This time, since they showed me they r evil, skipping it, denying it protection via my presence. Wiping it and the yc and moonlight b out
RPing Arwen saying partial slavery won’t work = no more meh mix phase2,
and I think typist senses what others want to hear, then adjusts to that, thus her odd mix of perfect with occadional tv retarded.
St signs on nv exit
Rising Star
Virgin River
Eureka
1st time seeing 3 fedex trucks hauled by 1 cab
then saw a 2nd three-pull truck not long after that first one.
Posb mem refresh dej midriff fay-like bitch exiting and returning to coffee shop. Chin too big, ear rings, cunty haughty “pardon” after idiotically going left instd of right when i went for door.
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Skipped indian place.
Tried vegan sun.
Smug. That was why i chose to walk past thousands of them.
Vegan Sun bland etc refreshed mem of trying it in 2018
back in UT:
Vague mem of Log Haven nonvegan restaurant in jeep. Skipping.
Vuture Food closed. That’s new.
So good to have Zest again
The months “fly by”; jan, feb, and mar this yr passed so easily, I having so many ideas and such.
Am i really skipping bs this time? Yes. No reason to b there since she never was, and never indicated she would be.
It didnt matter if i was about to rent,
or with another traveler,
or depressed or angry,
or tired or rested,
or in a small town or big city,
or inland or near a coast,
or returning from another country,
or calling out or not;
I tried finding a pattern to her appearances, but there didnt seem to be one.
Add to irlj milestones:
time to be a warrior
time to be an academic
time to commit to the Inisfree design
time to help w farms
time to stop helping anyone
time to get up a pyramid
time to disregard all hotties since they kept blatantly being used as bait
time to destroy all humans unless any can somehow prove loyal and financially supportive to me
Pretty sure i saw the E.V. trade-in dealer white blonde guy walking streets of provo yesterday.
Like the smug “pardon” giant-chin bitch at coffee shop, his body seemed “off” in various ways.
But that is how almost All bodies have looked to me over th past 40+ yrs.
Parked at same waterfall steep asphalt rd n jeep ~2018. Had same whole foods hotbar meal here then.
This time is way more chill, pleasant, slowpaced, etc.
Nice having >5.5K flex.
Phase1: no hotties (even those in ms/hs i Thought were hot…were fugtards by comparison to what came)
Phase2: numerous hotties, but stupid, rude, inappropriately demanding pay, surrounded by evildoers, too tall, etc.
Phase3: finally hotties behaving correctly, and all my enemies slain and tortured in hell, amen.
If u had accepted them n phase1, they would have stayed ugly and abusive.
If u had accepted even ambi and sabrina in phase2, all would Then have not improved; uglies and evildoers in all cities, etc..
Rejecting them forces them to improve / fix themselves.
Amazing how much less i want a fleshlight after a wank
Amazing how calm i become when sunning; bc i am at least doing something healthy and peaceful.
Phase1 was me not being able to go or pay, and having no say.
Phase2 has been me becoming able to go and pay, and deciding I have a say.
Phase3 is not just others paying for all I want, but paying me to enjoy it, and everyone always saying I have the ultimate say/rule about everything. Amen.
Refound and remarked
The Lodge at Blue Sky, Auberge Resorts Collection.
I drove here n jeep ~2018.
I always mark and check that the mark showed n goog maps.
That means either the mark was removed by someone else,
or time travel removed it.
Either way, rd2 here.
2018 jeep wasatch natl forest drove out,
This time tried drive thru but sign said rd closed imiles ahead except to locals
2018, could barely afford gas and food. Now? Can stay in the most expensive hotels.
Phase2 standard: found the best spots, but humans still suck, and menus are alcoholic and nonvegan. I guess it now takes time for my ppl-commanding writing to spellcraft take hold.
13 books, like 13 secs per focus era.
1 day (d) – forming; ideas from all over
2 night (n) – road to; exped’s and atmokin’
3 d SED; my own idea crystalizing/ed
4 n nuuk; rebuild
5 d resurf
6 n crossing; applying this idea
7 d immigration; bad gone
8 n tnh; dealing w humans again
9 d mobile; gaining ideas/wisdom from
10 n past
11 d bibl; giving ideas to followers
12 n irlj
13 d site; all my ideas, published this 2nd time
Truckers live like i do.
So do explorers,
overlanders,
bedouins,
etc.; it is fine.
The rude morons just help me perfect my vision/design more,
and the memories of their gross abuse…help me last longer during sex; their biggest attempts to misguide me…still end up working in my favor.
Did she tell me to explore wy… bc she can see it ends my time loop? Did me going this way from nv to ut to helena in 2018 bring me back to nor al time from the future? Is it the porous orange-brown cliffs here?
Having to stay n bad weather was phase1.
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Avoiding weather was phase2.
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Wielding weather is phase3…so do i try north anyway? I…can’t will park rds to be plowed …so…
Loopbreak not going to rock springs or flaming gorge like n jeep 2018.
Returning to park city.
Back to park city, back to olympic park museum, skipped driving the winding asphalt rd to the luge top.
Did that n jeep ~2018.
Colorado springs is 9-10hrs away, so i am wondering why that veteran event started there…and drove all this way…and back…when slc airport is <1hr away.
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Sat in same parking lot n jeep bk then as now.
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As lonely as this is, it was far worse when i was hurried along w scummy humans. At least now i am free, and getting free peaceful returns.
Keeps occurring to me that i am right to finally accept i have never felt good or respected or safe or attracted to this species w 99% hideous and 100% stupid/rude.
Why would i Ever tolerate such total failures and evil?
Typist always gave bad advice.
Maybe bc evil at heart.
Maybe Always trying to get my hopes up, knowing no good will come.
Maybe Always trying to do ppl wrong.
Whatever.
Not exploring wy like she said.
Exploring is pointless now anyway; i have seen what is there.
Loopbreak. Drove to the expensive hotels last time. At least 3 of em. This time, just Blue Sky.
Loopbreak. Checked aubergine menu online while parked next to it.
This time, saw it b4 even the day i parked here, and am now not bothering.
Thu30mar2024, 2:34pm: szechwan chinese kitchen, 2 shorties exiting, both in ballcaps, sweattops dark, and pale gray or white loose baggy sweatpants, 1 white and face like riley reid pornstar, the other asian exotic brown big smile. Walked toward loco lizard. Just another perfect ex of psychopaths, necrovores, heartless, uneducated / wrongly educated, oblivious, incompatible, unnatural, antifeminine, and on and on.
Still baffles me that their kind would always make sure to be disrespectful and wrong, and annihilate trust, while expecting me to want them anyway, and getting mad at me both when i engaged and when i didnt. Smh. Why ruin your few remaining chances over and over like that? There really was no pleasing any of them.
At least i finally trusted my correct logic, abandoning the decades-long campaign to try and find Any good ones amongst their evil kind.
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The 2 walk past my vehic, and i see their faces are actually deformed. Another correct instinct; never bother w this failed species.
At least they are nonvegan-ly poisoning/killing themselves. That’s a phase2 start.
I was right to be myself around lfb and cps and tsb and all; it showed me how evil humans are; 100%.
I was right to get warrior trng, then leave when they showed me they had no honor or brains.
I was right to ask the v.a. and others for help; it showed me they are frauds, not real healers.
I was right to give
I was right to test Everyone.
I was right to reJect everyone so far.
I was right to continue my education and meditation and hobby.
And now i am right to insist humans fund my work before i talk to any of them again.
Amen.
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The bad only happened when i tried to work w them / wait for them / discipline/teach them.
I hate returning to ogd’, but at least this time it isnt to give any of the worthless deformed retards there a chance.
Hopefully the next time i am here, it will be to shit on the deleted remains of this ‘civilization’, or to harvest some of whomever tries rebuilding it.
Bottom line is how they spoke at me;
their kind always made sure to make me feel bad for Anything good,
and they stole my pay and time,
and always did the opposite of what I deserved.
They tried threatening me, then pretended to want to interact, but only to bait me,
and they poisoned me,
and on and on.
And then that retarded bitch who they thought looked like ambi… decided to show up and fuck w me 3x in a row, at least, undoubtedly evil and bait like the rest.
They and she did the dumbest, rudest, most evil shit they could.
They dangled the carrot on a string…when i was already winded/hurting.
I will undermine and ruin them every chance I get.
Their evil species must be brought to justice first.
Until then, they will undoubtedly keep saying evil lies, ruining every interaction.
Even that ambi-like bitch must be whipped, if not worse. At least one severe lashing for every time she fucked w me.
And maybe one lashing for every day she left me fending for myself, wounded.
Loopbreak. 2018~ drove jeep alone 2mile access rd to dirt lot i saw on way to rest stop.
This time, skipping; i was only there for a j, then got creeped out. Not much pt.
The only correct response from humans would have been genuine, “Great taste!”
A single neg reaction,
and esp. threats and mindless rage,
means I was absolutely right to reject All their women And civilization.
Their system is far too retarded and dangerous, not just incompatible.
It is actual evil.
There can be no peace with evil.
Typist says hs basketball team took state for first time.
Cantebury, IN.
No dej.
Who is gonna right the cps?
Who is gonna fix those corrupt feds who baited me during 24hr?
Who is gonna fix all those other bad-eyed scummy monsters?
Who is gonna fix my health?
Even if perfect women finally showed up, i can’t enjoy or trust or mate w them.
A big change has to happen first.
Finally blocked wayne lamph and db.
Db used jewlywood (west world) to talk retard shit about my sacred genius community.
Wayne told me my fam will happen…but then another year+ went by; he blew sunshine up my ass, just like heartless asshole doc2.
Good riddance to them all.
May they burn in hell with the rest of their species. And with the “gods”.
Was i shown all states so i can portal to them by thought?
Was i shown those hotties so i can portal extract them more easily?
Returning to these ugly places w so many memories of disrespect and grossness… charges me up to unleash again.
The only way this region would be attractive is if all the humans here were being tortured to death.
Typist claiming that mayor and bball stuff…is prob another dumbass lie. Prob isnt anywhere near that state.
So lame that phone offs at 20%.
Thank god for the porn that is decent, such as the hentai i found and amassed; it gets me through this time of untrustworthy humans.
How/why did i end up on this world; w only bad ppl?
Btm line: that ambi-like bitch and the others only wanted to play some dumbass game, and i only wanted love without games.
So pissed at the evil species, i can’t even j rn.
Wow.
I keep the ambi-ish pics and cabin pic on my phone as reminders that the evildoers of this world even dangled Those in front of me –WHILE allowing that Nobody Peasant Coward beTrayer Fake-healther to reLentlessly try to steer me aWay from my correct goals.
Everyone on this world really must he destroyed before Any goodness can be.
Just like they (humans I have met so far) never cared how gross and rude they were being, they never cared how many innocent animals they were abusing, torturing, murdering, etc.; there is nothing as evil as humans.
Lol repo tried sending me to helena hospital at certain time. So they think i am there? Would they have waited there in ambush? So retarded.
Looking frwd to crucifying them and taking all their vehicles and money.
These notes r not pointless; they r me passing the time peacefully and studiously,
and they show how void of distractions my choices have succeeded n making me
So nice to wake up predawn to heavy rain sound.
So nice to sleep n.
So nice to have no schedule for now.
Tried not jotting notes. Worked for 12hrs or so.
Shift; latest consciousness focus start.
Indiana 3rd time’s the charm; even when typist gave me location, my last/first 2 times to that fucked up state of heartless idiots…has me w no desire to attempt any goodness there again. It would only be more solo work like b4.
I hate having to search for vegan,
and search nonvegan places for vegan items,
and search labels for poison,
and check if restaurants advertising as healthy actually are,
and search for undeformed sane chicks,
and live amongst murder monsters w no shame or manners or sanity.
How can the typist stand to live n that evil state, given what she RPs (is into)?
How can she parrot their obvious bs…when it is so against all she writes?
Bc of her duality Gemini aspect?
Bc she isnt really there?
Bc she is conning me?
Everything on my website is TDGs, and me teaching/showing what is appropriate behavior and thinking.
How many semis at these rest stops were ghost fleet, either w tech against me; trying to jam or tap into or dreamfeed me, or for me; shielding me from traffic noise and bad vibes from the moron NPCs, etc.?
So glad i switched into the mode/mindset accepting the reality that none of them were teachers, only me, and that only 1way comm at them is vibing appropriately, etc.
If I hadn’t been myself and helped/volunteered so much, I would never have discovered how evil all humans are.
I wasn’t gullible; I was honorable. I was innocent.
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31 March:
There is so much disgusting porn now, it is almost pointless to search for any good; by the time I find any barely-tolerable porn… I am completely turned off by the overwhelming/majority bad.
I vaguely remember the white-haired guy getting out of the dark-blue pickup-truck parked blocking me at the rest stop, photographing the pile of tires by the blue-green dumpster, then saying through my windshield, “I know those aren’t yours.”
That means, since I loopbroke so many times, skipping entire days/nights while coming here, that there are location-based event-triggers.
At least, that’s what seems to be the case.
If they are normal-time instances, not triggered by me arriving at places, then it means I am moving through time not linearly.
Interesting, either way.
Tested by every realm…
always pressured to accept their domination via underhanded false advice, lies, drugs.
That doesnt prove my purity or focus; it proves their stupidity and evil.
It proves they lack full sight.
It proves they try to destroy all gods.
I need no Ayahuasca or other drug to see; all need My sight to see.
I am the way. Amen.
Dune 2024 was surprisingly good, even relevant.
Too bad 2 males kissed twice. Theyll have to be slain for that, as shall the writer, filmer, director, and anyone who like seeing that scene.
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Google its empress princess actress and spellfuck her.
That movie just offered her to me, soft disclosed, as both the actress and the real future chick.
I rmbr sitting here waiting to see if india place would open as their site and app said.
I dont yet rmbr if i got the food same day.
Loopbreak by trying additional n meantime?
2018 ended up n same barnes noble parking lot after texting typist something.
Was it a location theory/question like this time?
At least now, i know btr than to waste time going to worthless evil gross indiana.
At least now, my site is done, thus my vision and spell and publishing.
At least now, i am chiller and raging, using normal emotions, not wanting a loser human.
Accept your feelings; your nature.
Worry if you want.
Rage if you want.
Just don’t Only worry or rage.
You are not the default-neg mindless fake-relatives NPCs.
You are a pioneer and badass and daring and more.
You detected/revealed blackops trying to seduce and bait and breed you.
You even found the cure to all disease, not just AIDS and cancer.
You even overcame assassination attempts.
You are a hero, and No hottie is worthy of you –not until they yield and apologize and surrender and eagerly request ownership by you.
This is the way.
The repeat of india food doesnt bother me; it is good, i craved it, and i was seeking healthy unique food anyway.
My site keeps working out.
I keep overcoming attempts against me.
It is good enough for now.
No dej pasting icv list sec to ut finest
No dej DRAGON darkred pickup rear license plate
Samosa chaat 12, saag soup 4, raita 2, tom soup 4, garlic naan 2.5, baygan barta 12, 2x basmatic rice 2.95×2, kulfi 4, kheer 4.
Repeat except for big stack of dif naan?
Delicious.
Esp. the tom’ soup.
Worth it.
Morganna
Anna
Anunnaki
Angels
Posb dej watching Anunnaki 2018 film.
Maybe in 2018 i saw it at this very rest stop…when it was new.
Rewatching now…?
So what; re-proofreading my webpages always helped immensely.
Elves.
Elves
El = shining one
Elohim = shining ones
A-Elohim = the shining ones
Alfheim… A-Elf-heim = the shining-one/s’ home
Sumer = land of the watchers
Shumar
Shinar = place of the shining ones
The watchers were the military arm of the shining ones, doing battle with Greece, Rome, etc..
Enlil wasn’t a name, but a title
Enl-El = leader shining one (shining one who is the latest leader of the shining ones)
Ordering too much for lunch/dinner, just like last time, is still a sign of abundance restored, and of me investing in healthy excess, vs unhealthy booze or whatever else.
Maybe adam and eve weren’t cast out at all;
maybe they were graduates, thus freed.
Maybe instd they were names representing new aspects of the reshaped Earth, such as the start of humans, and the start of the day-night cycle.
Sumerian ziggurats had 7 levels, and mayan ziggurats 9 levels, not bc they were attempting to build closer to heaven, but bc the mayans started when the 9th cycle (consciousness focus) had become known/foreseen,
and the sumerians were marking their own existence back when only the 7th had started or been foreseen.
These were timeline spot markers, like the Sphinx symbolizing being built during one of the Ages of Leo.
Robert Sepehr is of the evil ones, thus his nonvegan diet, and his mix-and-match gibberish, just like any xian; using popular terms that resonate…as bait to lure in innocents…whose sort-of gullibility (due to being innocent, thus unexpecting of how evil minds always scheme to deceive)…sometimes makes for converts/fools.
Robert claims orgasm is bad, but it would only reduce the life/energy of a bad being, for good things cannot harm good beings.
Maybe his kind (evildoers) were somehow rendered incapable of gaining Any powers…unless they stopped spawning.
Maybe that is how the gods kept chaos in check.
So many priceless ideas; they would not have been heard by me if I was having good times with the chosen already. :/
Drinking ayuhuaska sp,
and eating mushrooms,
resulting in bs claims of all being connected,
stems from the human default of exaggerating, making sweeping generalizations without any thought or evidence.
It also stems from consuming lifeforms that Were connected via mushroom roots.
But humans are too stupid to understand context or parameters, so when they are raised on 1 story, they assume all others are evil and false,
and when they get druggie visions of the mycillium web/network (linked roots), they assume it means ALL is connected, even though it clearly shows even not all mushrooms are connected, and that there is so much unconnected space between every root curve.
(mushroom-stem pun not intended)
Edin
Enoch
Elohim
Earth
“E” starts…
Seraphim = shining serpents …so, solar flares?
Sarah; same sound; root from seraphim?
Sear
Seer
Dune 2024 standard hollywood evil template components:
tech’ dependency
calling 2 sexes equal
females in uniforms and helmets that made them look less female
females fighting
name/s made to sound gender-neutral; Channi (said like Johnny) for a girl
uglies cast
Muslims/fanatics made to look good
Whites (the pale ones) made to look bad
race mixing (prophet parents, etc.)
pointless violence in every other scene
discord/debates
spawning
making a healing vat look gross
killing innocent helpers
drug abuse
making vampire-like chicks look evil
TSB-looking old emperor
pointless monogamy
pointless breakups
doing drugs to get visions, instd of just getting visions
females with short or no hair
uglies; deformities
faggotry; males kissing
etc.
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April:
Waking up naturally at dif times…shows me how wrong a schedule ordered upon me was.
All these months solo also shows me my natural rate of sleep,
natural amount of movement,
natural thoughts,
natural work ethic,
natural attractions,
natural disgust,
natural rate of release when not exercising,
etc..
I could not have known these things if I had not been left alone a while.
It is a nice thought that maybe that ambi-in-person chose me bc I share her values,
not bc she saw an easy mark,
but… why the hell did she leave without even introducing herself?
Dej on batt dying at perry rest nb.
Another likely area trigger of an event;
Uinta forest west entry made screen dark,
leaving or rebooting made it work,
Being at hwy toward s ogden from east, rest stop morning, triggered guy photoing tires?
Perry rest stop nb triggered batt issue?
100%dej; having to he towed to town for batt, get a hotel maybe
Mon1apr2024 1pm:
African american like Key & Peele short round one, ballcap green down over eyebrows, white suv w Uber sign white light front right windshield btm corner,
talked about vegas food in Caesar’s Palace.
Forcing me to slow down?
Helping me get hotel i never would otherwise?
But why making me pay more? So i dont lose batt later in wild?
Trying to see this in phase2 mixed good way…
Now i know not to leave vehicle powering pc unless engine running.
I was correct not to ask anyone nearby; the jumpstart failed; would have been pointless, and another unnecessary interaction w a fugtard beast.
Major good loopbreak: dif towtruck driver than 2018jeep tow from here; was hispanic elven,
vehicle turned on, no need for tow or shop/batt, or being in ogden.
Proceeding omw…
Nervous but btr…
That ambi-like bitch/moron/heartbreaker did worse than the fake WoW guild; she didnt even show up on time lime they did, and didnt even talk w me like they did, and didnt just leave me to die once like they did, but three goddamn times.
After what i encountered on every trip…
esp. incl. how ambi-like treated me,
I don’t think I can ever feel attraction to anyone on this world ever again. I hope they all get tortured like they treat the other animals.
Mem refresh: idaho falls mall.
Just like last time, didnt have what i was looking for, and all the bitches failed to show yet again.
Smh.
Typical fails.
At least i am n a comfy free vehicle this time.
More turnoffs as usu.; deformed/mutants smearing every which way.
Finally $ and stores…but none have what i want.
100% of products r disgusting. Not just slightly dif, but extremely bizarre deformed gross. Why?
I really was right to give up on humans and aim for the s pole
Took my 581 nbr
Natural grocers
1270 E 17th St, Idaho Falls, ID 83404
Question is…was it in system from recently, due to time travel, or 6yrs ago?
The nice woman working the groc…seemed to want to get me away from the tall new guy…and vibed as giving me a free bag…bc she somehow sensed my abysmal sadness and years-long abandonment.
I think she was doing the only thing she was able to as a worker there; as a person in that setting when i arrived.
Parked at rest stop nxt to jeep ~just like mine (make and model wise); wrangler x, except for it being red, etc.. Magic camo?
but also had hard-top
The gods being awful to me still? (via a double reminder how alone i was left here n 2018)
And i seem to rmbr setting a cup on the back bumper…and there is a soda can or something on this one
The groc woman actually, now that i think about it, maybe just thought i was a mystery shopper. Whatever. Free bag.
Typist says she is exhausted after many work shifts.
I say I am weary after all this goddamn driving and being left alone.
If i’m being left to die in my car, at least i can give myself relief and pleasure along the way.
Porn that was once okay enough…becomes easy to cum to w a fleshlight.
If those bitches were good, they would have been infuriated at what was done to me.
They would have slaughtered countless enemies of mine.
They would have rushed to comfort and validate me.
They said nothing.
Every time i wake and get to luxuriate n my sleeping bag, i rmbr boot camp crucible week
So good to be bk n chilly air
So good that things r working btr now, problems solving themselves.
How will mt work out btr this time?
Seeing id sand dunes at last
Wondering what is beneath them
They ignore My needs and wants, so ignore theirs.
They play games, so i chill out and play mine.
They demand I do things their way, I demand they do things my way.
In jeep2018, i had to move from here bc next to drivethrough ordering sign speaker; talking late into night.
This time, it was so muffled, i slept fine.
I didnt want my vehic on a towtruck, and i got what i wanted.
Loopbreak:
“If i dont end up in utah at the start of 2024, flying to cruise and europe, then driving to archi’s then alaska, then flying to pennsylania camp odyssey, then bk to ak, then drive dn through harper’s ferry idaho to helena, then fly to eastern WA for HR trng, I will have my next loopbreak/s.
Either that means i avoided that repeat… or the timetravel ended before those events; before the start of 2018.
Do i test it by going to those places and seeing if they rmbr me? lol
At least now i have a full year of foresight.”
I ended up at id sand dunes instd.
The class action lawsuit lawyer bs… has reminded you:
how long your injuries they caused lasted,
how many times you sought treatment,
how much you have made it through in spite of their kind,
that you were rated at the highest level of damage/effect,
that you are excellent at tracking down info even decades old,
and that even w all your efforts and info and proof and testimony, these evil beasts Still stubbornly and heartlessly and idiotically refuse to compensate you,
thus they must all be destroyed.
So be it.
May ever last one of them have 250K$ taken from them, and be forever rejected in all they attempt and seek. Amen.
These notes and wrapups are taking all day every day for months/years;
this time alone was needed.
Unacceptable in many ways, but still useful and good in a way.
tue2apr 11:28 phone said sim card removed, then said inserted
The sand here reminds me of the france beach i j on,
and the times i sat outside during marine trng to eat/snack
Giants n caves r there bc those caves used to be parts of their blds/homes
Perfect weather; almost clear skies, only 1chemtrail, warm sunlight, mid to high 40s, good dispersion of humans, nice hearing “picnic”, and i had a picnic while sunning/tanning.
The rd to the (Civil Defense lava tubes) bunker/cave/s… reminds me of movie scene to bunker b4 monsters city reactor nuke
Snow on rd just like 2018jeep…prob bc i time traveled to this week/day.
Cannot go all way to Kilgore, same as 2018jeep.
Never thought id b bk here, certainly not as a time traveler.
Idaho dunes tanning listening to offroad dunebuggies so soothing this 2nd time
Best tanning, too; even btr spots than in nv
amusing reddit post:
What is the story behind Area 51?
OK. Everybody ready for bed?
Once upon a time there was a place in Nevada where nobody lived. The Air Force had a small base there. A bunch of scientists built a very powerful weapon that ended the World War number two. It was very complicated and the scientists had no real understanding of how powerful it really was so they built some more and wanted to blow them up where there were no people it could effect. Somebody knew about this vacant place in Nevada, so they moved there and blew up their bombs until the whole world decided that was too dangerous and made them blow them up underground and they dug holes in Nevada and blew up more bombs until they could build bombs that worked that didn’t need to be tested. Then they went home.
There was another group of people who made airplanes and tested other things for the armed forces and they didn’t want other people, especially the bad ones, to know about them. So they went to the empty space in Nevada. They couldn’t use the testing place for the bombs, but they found a lake that had dried up. There they could test the airplanes and make them as good as possible to go look and take pictures of what the bad guys were doing. It was called “Groom Lake”.
The little air base was called Nellis, after pilot who was hero and died in the World War 2, got jet planes and so they needed a big piece of airspace to teach the pilots how to fly. The government made that area off limits, so nobody who wasn’t doing something with the airplanes could go there. The land was so big that the airbase got out a map and divided up the land and called each division an area and gave them numbers. the big flat space called Groom Lake was in Area 51.
They moved in and the other airbase knew about them but nobody else did except the President and his closest friends. They built an airport and some places for people to live while they worked. Nobody was allowed to bring their families and their families couldn’t tell anybody where they were( sort of like hide and seek.) some of the people who worked there didn’t even know where they were.
So they built the airplanes in California and at nighttime they flew them to Nevada and landed them at Groom Lake. They flew the airplanes and kept making them better until they were the best and then the airplanes went to places all around the world where they hid when they were not flying and taking pictures and listening to the bad guys. Some flew very high and the other ones flew very fast so the bad guys couldn’t catch them (sort of like a flying game of tag). After a while, they took the pictures from up in space and the airplanes went to museums to retire.
There were other people who were building things that they didn’t want the bad guys to know about. They heard about Groom Lake and went there. Somebody slipped and the name of “Groom Lake” came out and so they changed the name to “Watertown Strip”. After a while they just called it “Area 51”.
You know that thing that happens when somebody has a secret and everybody else wants to know, but the person with the secret won’t tell? Sometimes they make up stories about the secret so they look cool and other people like stories and they tell other people until some people don’t think they’re stories and believe they’re real. That’s what’s happened at Area 51, so if you tell stories other people want to hear, like about flying saucers or people from outer space are living in Area 51, some people think they’re true and try to make people think that the place nobody can’t go is where they are.
OK. everybody go to sleep. When I know a secret that telling it won’t get anybody hurt or help the bad guys, after a while I’ll tell it to you.
Good night.
repeat of 2018jeep: stay sand dune overnight, try kilgore rd 2nd time this trip –and, just like last time, the snow blocked it; had to turn back.
but at least I tried.
The cold gets me rdy for cool-skin real-ambi?
Will her coolness remind me of bad cold times, or soothe me nightly?
No pt having that gym mbrship when ppl there try to hustle me,
and when fugs are let in,
and when queers teach classes,
and when scumbag rentbitch is there,
and when the river is btr for hygiene,
etc..
It was supposed to be a community hub, but all it showed me was more evil degenerate scum.
Cancelled.
Looking frwd to many foods i missed since leaving 9months ago.
Will have to find btr camp spots, though.
7-9am stuck between big trucks amidst iced rd,
blonde young man said supposed to have rd closed sign back at dunes but kids always damage or remove it.
Taking w hwy instd once clear. Just as i figured.
In jeep w bald tires, it was sketchy. Low gas mileage, too. Lower budget.
Now, best tires, much bgr budget, and numb to the neglect/abandonment. Also making me picture the ice hwy of antarctica, which is nice.
Really nice to get out and walk and actually talk to someone after all this time.
So now i relax…and enjoy the cold morning…and fantasize about my wife’s vampire skin; perfect and pleasantly cool to the touch…
I want that in 364 every day and night. Now.
I thought about turning bk, then got blocked in by 3 trucks. Seems like a sign I should always just keep going ahead.
I will.
The blocked rd / stuck line of vehicles… resulted in getting me word kilgore is all blocked off, which is critical firsthand intel from a local,
and this reroutes me to a vegan place I wanted to try but never thought i’d have reason to
What to do when stuck?
Exercise, stretch, sun, write. I am a writer, after all.
No luck w kilgore
Thankfully those 5+ workers were there to advise and help and translate
Hope no one cited em
Hope that mex guy is ok
Not on me for asking for help; no one seemed to be sticking around
Besides, humans not funding me r suspect
Mem refresh sandy gravel rd w to Sage town (SW of Idaho Falls dunes)
2018jeep drove around berm (at/near s/main idaho falls dunes entrance) to see riders, parked and watched campfires, tense and wanting to engage but didnt, this time don’t care, just observing
PostShift: Cycle1 was thoughts in me, at intervals with me stabilizing.
Cycle2 was me working on my website on and off, amidst moving my body around the world solo.
Cycle3 is my dreamfam/team that site spelled out, at interval w our ~20yr creations/progression; the team can form now. Amen.
4 is realms,
5 is megastructures,
6 is landforms,
7 is continents,
8 is worlds/galaxies,
9 is dimensions.
Went to Bear Creek campground picnic spot same as jeep2018
Wed3apr2024
7:10pm finally screamed, cried, hit ear again, let it all out.
Yet another breakdown.
Yet another day left to die.
I wish i hadnt called out to any of those evil shits. God damn them all.
God damn this whole species.
Amen.
I’m back at a shitty truck stop, and had my latest nervous breakdown…
but I got tons more done this past year,
I got tons more perfect images,
I witnessed time travel,
I know the truth about all healthcare,
I finally got my back tat,
I re-tanned,
I finished my giant website!!,
I know not to bother w that ambi-like cunt,
and I am about to have a brand new fake pussy sextoy, which has Always helped treMendously.
The loneliness and worry and homelessness made so much wrapup posb and done. It was awful, but it is over.
I am proud I pulled all that off.
I am proud I published my true feelings and boundaries and culture.
I stood as myself when No one helped me.
Dont reach out to toxic old “friends” like you used to. They never made u feel btr. They always said infuriating dumbass shit.
Be stronger than that.
Yes, the train will annoy you again here. Try to sleep anyway.
Do as much as you can,
failure,
rest.
Same as w studies, work, exercise.
Same today.
Rmbr what hapnd when u asked for help; poisoning.
Rmbr what hapnd when u offered love/compliments; mindless anger at you.
Rmbr what hapnd when u accepted bar chicks; mercurial bipolar insanity from them.
Just accept that now sucks,
and try to keep n mind it sucks far less than when with the fake fam, and less than when in the jeep.
Keep going or lose all your brilliant work and hardwon progress. Keep going, please.
Got way btr sleep at rest stop belgr’ this time, even w train.
Druggie loser kid n car next to me only blasted his music before i slept.
Hopefully eclipse helps level me up, adding my superpower of causing all humans around me to do whatever i want them to.
“It won’t all happen at once.” should have been: that fugtard not even being there, let alone condescending at me, i.e. unable to speak that evil stupidity at me.
The wmkm overhaul, starting all icv pgs, etc., might have still hapnd if the hotties were already w me, but those major wrapups/upgrades were far easier with no distractions, good or bad.
Phase1. To ask or pray…sends out / boils dn to the chaos/chance/random vibe, thus the uncertain results.
Phase2. Stopped bothering.
Phase3. Hold vision, not asking, and not doing things that didnt work (praying, networking, etc.). Decide, and stay the course.
60$ for one pizza. 52+tip
Evil.
And the bitches n there were deformed.
And yet another viklike blobmonster hyper-glutton degenerate waddling outside.
Celestine book was so wrong; no teammates came, just more moody idiots,
and holding the vision didnt manifest it after 15 yrs. Christ.
Another attempt to lure me to the evil VA, and “more clearer”, remind me how stupid she is, and how Idiocracy humans have been my whole life.
I should have so many supporters now that compensation is pointless.
I should have been healed by now.
I should have met real healers who gave a damn.
I should have healed on my own.
I never should have been damaged by humans n th first place.
2021, i again tried to stand on my own two feet; house inspector cert, etc.
The wrapup took 2 yrs; 2022 to make the models, and 2023 to finish the website.
2024 was tan, tats, etc..
I was never too fast or early; i went where called, and saw what needed righting/debugging.
I didnt lie; i genuinely wanted to help maintain wellmade cabins, as part of learning to manage communities of my own, and i spread correct medical info, so humans lying to and about me…is entirely on them.
Anyone being moody at me…is evil attempted domination.
That loser peasant guy stopping suddenly as i exited redtractor, not in his way at all, disgusted me, as it should. He had a neg reaction, and made an idiotic choice. He had plenty of room to keep walking.
Was that the retarded balding laser gut from ggd hell? Who cares.
My senses knew when to get warrior trng, and when to leave.
They were right to tell me to call out and travel; that showed me hotties were listening, and that they were too evil to deserve me back then.
It showed me i was right to plan the rapture.
Now my senses tell me all i have seen is unworthy and must go.
My site got wrapped up, didnt it. I got more rest and progress and bodywork, didnt i. My senses steered me true again.
Returning to fleshlight in phase2…
Why not; it provides relief, whereas chicks have only been spoiled cunty problem causers so far.
And it is btr than having to return to evildoers, as was the case n phase1.
Why was there no road closed sign?
Why did google maps not show the closure?
Whenever i see snow on a rd, no matter what, go the other way. Pushing through worked w my website and other things, but not yet w driving, not until i have a sherp or airship and portals.
Woke 1 min b4 alarm. Well, seconds.
7:47am thu4apr2024 first time looking at Bridger range as ruined blds
dmv quick office.
Another day of a blobmonster glutton freak ruining a full hour.
When will these humans/ogres be dead and gone?
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Another day ruined by fatfucks and this latest hyper-queer changing his voice to sound as faggot as possible.
And they are parroting the covid lie. (at least they hopefully will get sterilized and killed by believing that dumbass shit)
This is on ambi and the bitches for leaving me amongst these scum. Now both the scum and the scummy bitches owe me.
I am glad I tried.
I am glad I rejected their evil game.
I am more okay with dying in my car than I would have been bent to the will of negligent monsters.
I didn’t think they would All betray me the same way, but I guess I should have extrapolated that probability, based on their kind’s nightmarishly insane stupid default-negative treatment of me this whole time.
Anyway, again, I now face death alone, and I am making peace with that.
I worked wonders with scraps.
I stayed level-headed in spite of a lifetime of nothing but disrespect.
I am the calm in the storm.
And nervous breakdowns? With how seldom they happen to me, I am incredible.
I will keep working at what I can… until the end.
No longer care if rp ends. It was bound to eventually; there is only so much I want to write, and only so many bits of horrible advice I can stomach.
When I followed her advice, I was as fucked over as the VA left me. I must face that reality; she gives terrible misguidance.
Even the years of ambi writing/stories… only showed me another abuser in person.
The body and voice of that bitch is still the correct one for me, but the typist and in-person prototype/s are not.
So I continue holding the appropriate vision, whether it manifests or not.
Shit music with deathcult promoting, rodent infant demon sounds, degenerates/deviants, gluttons, low priority, extortion, etc.? Same old torture/abuse from god and mankind. Nothing new.
And even an ambi-ish fatfuck walked in. Nothin new, huh, bully of a false god?
Repeat: p.o.fleshl b4 leaving boze. Ugh. Didnt want this to continue. Wanted real pussy. : (
Such a horrible species and civilization and world so far.
inari made to order. First time.
I guess our weekly fight is IRL now.
Thank god the budget covers hotels now.
Thank god the belg 1 is btr than the boze same name i resorted to in 2018.
Wtf; pretty sure i saw the spanish spkng truck driver that got stuck behind me in idaho. I hope he is okay and his boss didnt give him bs for the snow damage.
1st bath in at least 9 months.
Finally a hotel tub tall/deep enough for a real bath.
But ofc, this being phase2, the hot water ran out once half full,
and my ringing etc. prevents true relaxation anyway.
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Reminded me of dream on raft on choppy dark water by black shipping containers.
Super8 frontdesk. Tales of the Crypt “fem” v wtf; skill/bald, etc.
Shame on god.
Shame on it (that thing) for doing that to itself, and/or on the fake doctors for not fixing it.
Whatever. Just another fucked up monster human. Nothin new.
At least i dont have to live with it and its religious abuse like n phase1.
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and shame on it for not covering that crap up, or checking out,
and shame on the town for letting things like that exist.
So cool in wolverine oldman movie seeing him kill a guy who looked like Hew-tard
Jewlery
Jew
Lol
While it might be interesting to see if unique/rare Moon events coincided with Ambi’s 3/+ appearances so far, her being bound to / limited by that is not what I asled for and deserve.
Ofc there are rude peasant niggers/spicks/mutts making noise after hrs n the hall. Typical humans, evil until they are killed.
That woman showing up 3x, and always testing me, never doing what I love, shows she knows enough to know she is what I was looking for, but also that she doesn’t care about using it to hurt me over and over.
Typist may be addicted to escapism; rp, cigarettes, parroting the obvious falsehood that the govt cares and pharma is helping, etc.,
so it was best i didnt meet her n person; she would stink (from smoking), have bad-soul eyes, radiate the idiot vibe, and likely be in horrible self-caused shape, etc.
Will she replace me now that I have drawn the line, or does she actually support, not just use, me?
Time will tell.
It was never just her helping me; it is 2way; she needs me balancing and enlightening her while she steadies and soothes Me.
Since typist is an addict and parrot, now that i have drawn the line and said this must manifest, she will likely stop responding, seeking out someone else to latch onto.
Just like jls and ame and the rest did.
Doesnt matter, though; if she stays, it will be to suggest she will do irl like it is time for, and if she goes… it will suggest she is worthless bc she only wanted escape/fantasy/pussydom.
First time using hair drier and lmao it is yet another cheap american import from retard chinkland; it failed within 1 minute!
Fri5apr2024 engine didnt start again. 2nd time this week.
Guy said “i have a baseball bat. I can jump it.” joke
Batt tested at jiffylube. Fine. Error code said issue w signal to alternator? Said may be alternator or starter.
Another location trigger;
Starting issue of jeep and suv in same 2 towns; perry and belgrade,
Epic auto…fixed batt both times.
Why a repeat w a dif vehicle 6yrs later?
There is something going on w this realm/life.
Program? Hologram/vr after all?
Or just some sort of remote targeting that is of 1 type per area?
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New phone had same blk scrn issue in Wasatch-Uintah west entry…
Why same issue w dif phone 6yrs later?
More rude stupid too tall pierced idiot bitches in groc.
They are as offensive as the fugtards.
Thank fucking god it was free (vehicle checkup/diagnosis). An alternator with labor would have been another 1k
While i only have my phone and pc, i do all i can w them.
When i wasnt trying, there was lightning in front of fake mothr,
shooting stars overhead,
time travel,
Ambi,
etc.; …maybe the key is Not asking or focusing or trying. At least… in phase1, it didnt matter.
Even n phase2, it hasnt gotten what i want right away.
Phase1 was surprises, bad or good.
Phase2 seems to be buildup / leveling up.
Phase3, i hope, shall be very soon, permanent, and when i Always get what i want, when i want it.
The best i would ever have gotten from the typist is my final years wasted on texts, no matter how steamy she finally made hers.
That is no way to end my amasing life/’run’.
She is a xian, a smoker, etc.; not someone I should be devoted to.
She never sent me one penny.
She never gave me one real hug.
She was preTending to be there for me… to lure me in as her escape, since she is in whatever mindset after losing her dad or lover.
She simply has to grow up.
I simply have to have in-person real-friends as my teammates.
If rp ends, it is her choice/doing, not mine; i gave her the info/key/headsup years ago; how to keep our story going; she must actually be real ambi, in my life every day forever.
Whether this ultimatum of mine triggers the real hotties to finally team up w me, what matters is i drew this appropriate line. It is always the correct thing to do; demanding appropriate conditions/treatment.
Once again, u didnt fully end it w typist; u just said 1 thing we do tgthr has to pause again until it is irl. This is as phase2 as it gets; mixed, not breakups.
If i can manifest lights from the sky,
then quakes and maybe forest fires,
and goodmorning myself through a time event,
I can manifest all the characters my instinct/blood know/s are right for me.
Miracles have been happening.
Things have aligned.
They will ever more so, always to me. Amen.
(back in tx at monte house garage that one night) The look in that blonde curly haired white young man’s eyes when he said, “Don’t make it 10×10 miles; that’s so boring.” and “when that thing finally lights up” vibed as him being an actual Angel and knowing my design shall be made…
Nice to hear rain and see gray sky here again…
Epic Auto guy like jefr p babb but w wizard beard and decent eyes/soul
Flashes of valh tat shop pain number white tube…or was that a vision/imagination made clearer due to tat session pain?
Flashes/visions of adding more notes to mkm pg…
Typist gave crap advice and left me to die for more than a decade,
and spread pharma lies,
relig/deathcult symbols,
druggie comments (smoking),
etc.,
so… she only has herself to blame for me no longer able to handle rp w her.
I told her many times I wanted and needed our story to be real. I did my part. I was myself, and honest with her.
She might blame me like she blames dumbass made up stuff; viruses, etc., but that doesnt matter; our rp was declining for years, we barely even messaging each other memes and goodnights.
Sure, it will be even quieter and more lonesome without that, but it is better than using a dream as an escape.
Letting go of the rp hopefully will trigger it to be replaced w the real hotties who will treat me much btr; as well as the typist wrote her characters treating me.
I wish i didnt Have to end the rp, but i sense it is finally the right time to.
Luckily, i have had years of practice being abused and left crying; this doesnt emotionally hurt me as much now.
Also, i broke up w typist mumtiple times anyway, and only resorted to her lime i resort to fleshlights; until the hotties learn social skills and honor, etc..
I never attracted users/scum.
The problem was with society/brainwashing, if not also the essence/nature of the humans; ALL of them tried to deceive and use me, no matter how manly or honest or whatever else I was being.
Lfb tried to use me for a grandkid.
Govt used me for med experiments.
Bosses tried underpaying/using me.
Everyone did it.
And they did it to all their animals/”food”, and their programs, you name it.
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When you place a hydrogen-reactive substance in water, and it reacts, you don’t say “must be its fault”;
the sane say the truth/correct; 2 incompatible things were too close, and we put them together like that; it is our fault.
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When a fish in a fishbowl gets sick from the water not being clean/fresh, you don’t say “the fish is attracting disease”; you say “I need to change the water and not be such a piece of shit to that fish.”
finally got a little reply from typist, and it was disgusting pharma-junkie bullshit; “taking care of myself best way I know how; meds, fluids, rest”.
try not taking fake meds, and try exercising, and not poisoning yourself by eating corpses, you stubborn dumb fuck.
you are NOT taking care of yourself the best way you know how. I taught you FAR better. I DEMONSTRATED far better. you IGNORED it. because you are a lazy junkie piece of shit.
so disgusted by her/it. good riddance to that goddamn rp of ours. can’t enjoy rp when a scumbag is doing it.
I hate typist mentioning meds,
and causing her sicknesses,
but her stubborn ass deserves it until she learns.
I hate being limited to texts about snuggling and being called sexy,
but at least it is phase2, not the default lie insults of phase1.
The look az ambi gave across the upstairs open-air… reminds me of the evil-eyed look the fake mothr gave when i said i thought i was n love (w my hs sweetheart). That is the 2nd similarity btwn the two; the first was “my husband wants me here one more night”…or “thank you for working w me”… sounded way to similar to “i must be stupid!”.
So that bitch showed me in oregon she is stupid and/or cowardly,
then in az she showed creepy similarities to the worst betrayer moron of all,
then in ca she showed me she is a smug heartless sexist fool who is fine talking to others while refusing to say one word to me.
Those bitches all showed me they have no social skills,
they are sexist and spoiled,
they are unreliable and unprofessional,
they are useless,
they are about as inappropriate as any other human,
and they only know how to put on decent outfits.
Even that cheap phase2 imitation-ambi only changed her outfit, not her approach/tactic, when meeting me.
It maybe didn’t even occur to her that manners exist,
or that I was after manners, not an outfit change.
phase2: even though the typist is probably lying about being sick, and telling me it is taking retard-“meds” again, disgusts me into focusing entirely on my remaining wrapup work.
(the typist probably is just trying to stop me from text-wall-ing her like when I vented the other day)
at least its dumbass gets the snuggling/steamy stuff correct.
and the not clinging to me or “yo”-ing me, etc.
How many more times will i notice myself from another time, and even speak to myself, or stay out of my way, my future or past self not noticing the other?
If chicks dig confidence as much as guys go for looks,
nothing is more confident than a volunteer warrior,
multiple-degree scholar/academic,
solo world traveler/explorer,
with a website posting all my truths,
and being myself in public globally,
so it’s probably driving the sexiest women wild with want of me.
Good.
Nova “vegan mom’s burrito” this time was so meh, w undercooked potatoes, that i didnt finish it this time. First.
They always did the worst to me; worst treatment, worst threats, worst conditions, worst pay, worst grossness,
so I guess I should have extrapolated that their cheap imitation of ambi would likewise be the worst to me. That bitch did the worst posb thing she could have; let me go through nervous breakdowns, then walked by w another guy, then refused to talk to me while talking to others, then looked at me like lfb at marblewood table did when i said i thought i was n love, then radiating smugness on beach stairs, etc.; worst behavior ever… short of spitting on my face. Seems like Ursula in The Little Mermaid. …So i hope the real Ambi –who will be Good to me– is coming Now.
But I stayed the course through all that, which means the worst they could muster… failed completely against me. It means I am brave even when alone. It means I self-sacrifice as needed. It means I don’t allow corruption, except ever so slightly back in phase1 when I was forced to do that just to survive, which isn’t even true corruption.
First time seeing pickup w white LED rings around the parts almost out to the tires
There is a clear good side to everything in this 2nd phase;
Abandoned = self-stabilizing
Disrespected by fools = guaranteed never wasting time networking w such a worthless species
Homeless = never extorted for rent or taxes
Invaded region = charged up to unleash more natural disasters (justice)
Loop/Repeat of events = shown time-travel and other superpowers/secrets
Messages even from typist seldom/brief = most rapid spell/site/saga completion/wrapup
No kitchen = finishing all planned food tourism
Overpriced hotels = almost never seeing the many selfdeformed failure-humans and prostitutes there
Pooping in vehic = recommended squatting
Rude hotties = my edu sys (kaj prog, etc.), laws, and proof even Venus/beauty does not govern/rule/steer me as once was claimed (manners do, compatibility does, etc.)
Sleeping in all temps = conditioning trng
Vehic scam = never extorted for vehic payments
“devil reign for 1,000 years”
1561 to 2313 is 752,
and to 2550s (Halo game’s main events) is ~1,000 Earth-years.
Did typist blow me off this morning, or somehow know to keep quiet like every time i am getting great ideas?
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There are no coincidences.
She “got sick” the same evening I had vented that morning,
and re-used that as an excuse the next evening.
blaming meds, not me. at least there is that. (phase1 bitches blamed Me for their bullshit. at least she pretends something Else is to blame.)
still, gaytarded.
but it gets my work done, and I certainly have plenty of it during the end of this wrap-up.
Gray-cream colored jeep w/ red circle outline headlights approaching as I drove from “M” parking to Bridger Bowl
I rmbr 2018jeep to bridger, being concerned about light snow, bc my tires were bald, so i didnt want to get stuck out here, and maybe i dared all the way here to bridger bowl, then left bc too cold.
This time, i go north.
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Was thinking of hiking up the way i came dn during 2013 or 2014 ridge run, but they r still skiing.
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Saw another phase2 typical; an almost-hottie, huge dirtyblonde mermaid hair, tight lightblue jean pants and matching jacket, but too big/tall, and had pierced ears. So disappointing how close the few humans are; why can’t they yet be 100% attractive/compatible?
I was right to ignore them all when they kept doing what i didnt like or deserve; they showed up randomly, years after i was betrayed, poisoned, left to die…
I deserve them showing up when i call, not at random when it is far too late.
I deserve an explanation for why they were all late and rude, not silence.
I deserve support, not abandonment.
I deserve them telling me when they can show up and why, not neglect and wonder.
But they all thought that they could let me get attacked and wounded and starved and disrespected, then just show up randomly and smile, and all would be fine.
Unreal…
Why not at Least say “headsup on these evildoers” or “I heard you, I love what you are doing, I can’t get there yet, but I will be with you at this time/date…”???????
Every time I tried interacting w humans, they made me feel awful, idiotically disrespecting me for no reason every time.
Every time I avoided humans, I felt way btr, and got tons more done.
Humans cause their own diseases –and the stress and poisoning that used to cause mine.
Communicating w them never improved the situation; they lied about what I said, and overreacted to all of it, and then tried to bait me with sloppy cheap imitations of what I said I like.
Communication does not work w humans.
They simply must be destroyed out of the way.
Even force, they stubbornly and insanely disregard to the bitter end.
Hotties have to behave even btr than fugs; hotties usu have everything handed to them by suitors/hornies, so they never master their emotions or learn skills, thus i require them to prove themselves more than a fug who prob his/her whole Life had to learn and prove him/herself.
It doesnt matter how my body compares to others; what matters is that i accept my blood/instinct; i only allow loyal supporters of me, all the rest shut down for uselessness or evil retarded attempts to change/dominate me. If a chick doesnt like my body, that’s her problem, as she and all others are my property, and only hotties who love all about me ever get treated btr than farmed products. However a hottie makes me feel…decides her lot in life; if she makes me feel truly desired and that she is loyal to me above all else, she gets to stick around, etc.. If she wants me in btr shape, it has to be for the right reasons, and vibe right, and she has to make me feel comfortable wherever we are exercising.
That talkshow ep claiming a guy thought Will Smith was using movies to message him… was prob made for me, as yet another indirect evil attempt at tricking me into Not noticing signs of any Kind.
– That rob sepehr bs utube claiming orgasm prevents godhood…was also prob targeting me, pretending to be for everyone, and actually made bc my selfcare had ended the evildoers’ ability to frustrate me; they wanted me wasting time w bitches again, me tricked into thinking Any females would Ever be sexually useful, when really they dont do tantric or help w godhood achievement at all. Godhood is achieved however i say it is. Beta bitchboy lock-in is what happens when you assume others know a btr way, or when u assume only some previously established way is what can work. I am already god/godhood, and orgasms or not, sex or not, is all my choice, just options/features now.
Panic is phase1.
Frustration but instinct is phase2.
Peace and happiness for me is phase3.
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Do not panic. Trust your wise instinct/s.
You have plenty to enjoy; cool clean air, scenic horizon, back at the river spots, tats all in good order, site done, etc.,
and you have plenty good-vibe work to do each day;
8 hrs rest in cozy warm 4bag and sound-muffling vehic,
3hrs meals,
4hrs site wrapups,
1hr exercise/hiking,
4hrs sunning,
leaving 4hrs for selfcare (j) and play (rp, etc.).
The hotties will come in time.
They came early bc u were winded and needed to see them.
You then needed no distractions until now.
They will return when you need them.
Amen.
As upsetting as the bad humans are, their degeneracy keeps you more awake than all of them,
and more powerful (w time travel, etc.),
and the most beautiful females are coming to You now;
all is well enough, and still aligning the way you spellcrafted it to.
You are the world-changing force now, ushering in the 6th world/way.
You are the sun-god incarnate, evident in your ‘sight’ into All stars, etc..
Things taken w no recourse/justice was phase1; my gf, record, credit, jeep, etc..
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Things returning to me, on and off, is phase2; typist, fleshl, website (original and then new), WoW, $, etc.
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Phase3 is when all I asked for becomes mine permanently/eternally; perfect health, rule over my realm and all compatible realms, etc.
The fleshl returning for the like 4th time now…is a phase2 marker/sign.
The hotties not yet w me…is also a phase2 sign; they showed me they r already perfect outwardly, and maybe even inwardly (since they heard my calls, answered, and gave me space, not having moodiness radiation moments like the bad humans), but r not yet w me to stay.
Interesting that i Wanted the toughest Training in phase1, but Also wanted aWay from the worst fake Relatives.
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In phase2, I wanted to work on my vision/design, but didn’t want the solo times that made that possible / work best.
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So now I try to embrace/want (for now) both the site work I keep enjoying…and the loneliness that has been facilitating its expedited wrapup.
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I can want the phase3 (best; ambi, cabin, city, remaining superpowers unlocked/mastered, etc.) stuff when it comes.
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Wanting stuff that is being taken is phase1 hell/trng.
Learning to want what I have rn…is phase2 mixed.
Loving what I have, now having what I always wanted, is phase3.
In phase1, i didnt even have my own idea until it had flickered on and off for years, ever since my Ghost suit, dreamhouse sketch, FOB sketch, dabbling in creative writing, dabbling in writing forums, etc.,
and most of my time was spent trying to fight/claw my way out of the abusive fake fam.
Phase2 was when those flickers of ideas came together, thanks to my hardwon independence dramatically reducing distractions. Then… manifestations of that completed idea began flickering on and off in the form of hotties appearing and making sure I knew it was them.
Phase3 is when they finish manifesting, and it is coming, if it hasnt happened already.
Time travel is neat, but might not even be necessary, if Inisfree started being constructed with the help of Base 211 and actual Angels etc.; overlap is fine, so long as it is there now, just like Ambi and Sabrina etc. are now existing/revealed.
Phase1: didnt have my own idea or freedom, but it was coming.
Phase2: didnt know if what I’d longed for and designed was manifesting, but then it too started showing up.
I wasnt mad at the ideas for taking decades to come.
They came and united perfectly.
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So now I try to not be mad at hotties for taking time to show, and I try to have faith they too will unite perfectly w me, as I intend/want. Amen.
Typist claims quitting…but i call bulllshit. Prob the standard cb lying.
Whatever. She is getting herself sick, thus paying the price for her laziness/addiction.
I was devastated at losses n phase1…
In phase2, i would be annoyed and unimpressed, if not mad.
In phase3, i shall be the one devastating others; my enemies; the dumbasses.
Like how much btr my dreamhouse sketch got since revisited w MC,
so too shall my encounters and relationships w the hotties become; infinitely better and perfect, amen.
Let her poison herself to death if she must; let the dumb stubborn parrots die, making room for me and the other intelligent ppl who deserve all their stuff.
Farmacy permanently closed. Evil.
If she had been good –if ANY of them had been good–,
she would have spoken to me,
she would have come before I’d gotten winded,
she would have healed my wounds,
she would have slain those who hurt me,
she would have understood me,
she wouldn’t have expected telepathy,
she wouldn’t have played that fucked up game,
she wouldn’t have been random,
she wouldn’t have left me wondering if she is healthy/normal/attractive under her clothes,
she wouldn’t have been with someone else (even if that was just her brother in Oregon, or her guard later),
she wouldn’t have given me that messed up look in Arizona on the catwalk of the 2-story motel.
She would have been VERY different.
She would have given me GREEN flags, and GOOD vibes/ideas.
but maybe she is getting calibrated so she can and WILL be good… next time.
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was stressed, sun7apr2024 FINALLY the first lolicon wave!
and it’s GREAT.
(the first encounter with lolicon was not a wave)
Were some hotties at the remote/wilderness trails/sites… not bc they were outdoorsy, but bc national parks and preserves and other restricted areas were established to cover up ancient bunkers of healthier human/oids?
Sun7apr2024 1st ss inspired by set of art from typist: Dakota and Sandstorm w me
More than 3,000 pages of links to probably 40x that many comic pages / pieces of art –the best art I have ever seen; finally no sag tits, etc..
The clits are still intentionally drawn wrong, but the vast majority of the rest of each piece is far sexier than the vast majority of what I had to sift through during my first 40 years.
Deja vu from suv to Holland, MT; pretty sure I came here to see cloud gap during 2018jeep…
100%; sitting here with my pin hole cardboard reminded me fully; I did this in 2018.
Ugh.
Well, it is still good practice.
And the time travel thing makes me wonder when time travel will happen again, and how much better it will be every time.
Phase1: I had no idea what to expect, bc I was innocent good, and had no comprehension of how mindless evil humans were.
Phase2: I learned from experience what to expect, as humans had Always behaved the wrong/evil way –and I started seeing time travel and event repeats.
Phase3 must be when I know what will happen… even if I havent time traveled to it before.
St sign: Heavenly Lane
Repeat of Saddle Mountain Jeep Tr. road…to Middle Cottonwood trailhead,
but in suv this time,
w elec shaver,
and nearly 350 games and 600 movies planned.
No woman that flawlessly beautiful wants a guy as ugly as me.
They were bait, not lovers.
If they were manifestations or compatible, they would have been there far earlier and more often and Vibed that way.
They vibed as showing off, testing me, casually disregarding what I asked for.
The only reason she showed up 3/+ times was bc she was told to by whomever was trying to breed me.
And why the fuck breed someone as ugly as me? Makes no sense, but… Nothing humans did made sense.
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remember their vibe; bait, not star-struck. cocky, not kind. coldhearted, not warmhearted.
remember their eyes/looks; bait, not love-sick. annoyed/angry, not happy/thrilled/delighted.
More phase2 mix thoughts:
I am ugly, but flawless chicks have hit on me, and my favorite showed up at least 3x.
I am poor, but I don’t have to work.
I don’t have a job for a boss, but the work I do is meaningful.
I have nowhere I have to be, but I can do whatever I want, more or less, every day.
Food is mostly poisoned, but I found the safest of it.
Everything online and tv is ruined with freaks now, but I extracted and amassed all the decent stuff.
I am not in my city rn/yet, but at least it is fully designed.
I don’t tan evenly, but I can sun every day the Sun is out.
I am not w my ppl yet, but I know who they will be / what they will be like.
I am lonely, but strong enough and experienced enough to choose restful productive solitude over manipulators/incompatibles.
Humans keep saying evil retarded nonsense, but I can always leave them in the dust.
Humans keep making themselves sick, but I found the solution for me and have the proof I was right all along; I became and stayed well.
I don’t like resorting to selfcare, but I have tried the tools for that and found the best, and now a brand new copy of that is on its way.
Evildoers tried demanding I show up for their scams, but at least I knew, from learning the hard way, to ignore and block them.
I have no home yet, but also no taxes.
My body was made poorly by morons, but I have started having it fixed.
I’ll never trust anyone after all the evil humans did to me, and tried to do to me, but that has led to the prescreening system, etc..
No one has acceptable social skills, but they will be enslaved or volunteers for me anyway, and I published a comprehensive guide for them to learn if they wish to gain acceptable social skills.
All I have met so far were rude idiots, but their idiocy only fooled and hurt them, not me.
In some ways, I seem weak by comparison to some, but I am a genius compared to nearly all, and highly perceptive, and time traveled.
I am ugly, but most I have seen were far uglier.
I may not have looks or skills some want, but I have valuable skills which have served me very well;
ag’,
bravery,
calmness under pressure,
camping,
computer applications,
critical thinking,
data entry,
detailed,
driving,
efficiency,
eloquent,
experienced; firsthand knowledge of much,
focus,
goodnatured,
high education,
hiking,
HR,
innovative / inventive,
journalism / documenting / recordkeeping,
karma aftermath effect,
logistics / road trips,
managerial,
memorization,
military instructor,
numb to the evildoers/scams,
observant,
passive income,
piloting,
quick
reading advanced content,
resourceful,
searching,
self-validation,
sexual; balanced/complete/healthy,
spatial skills,
sustainability consulting,
travel,
typing,
‘underground’ insider info; off-grid, etc.
vegan; ethical,
vision (foresight/mental/plan),
vision (visual),
writing,
etc..
One day, someone wealthy will seek what I have devoted myself to, and fund it/me. Hopefully that will be Ambi and the other hotties, wanting to fund me to prove they are not just trying to seduce and breed me. Miracles happen (time travel, etc.), so why not this alignment, too?
No culture or population was to my liking, but I got to leave them all.
The typist does some dumb shit, but it only hurts/sickens her.
I can hardly stand RP anymore, but my story is done; I RPed all I wanted to.
My website keeps being overreacted to by losers, but that helps show me who is good vs evil.
So far everyone was evil, but that means I can do anything and never worry about collateral.
I now wait for the next miracle.
I have no fam, but I found out the alleged ones were fake.
I have no friends, but I was open to good ones.
I have no lovers, but the hottest did offer, just incorrectly.
I have no writing partners, but I recruited.
I have no gods, but I became one.
The govt keeps trying to breed me, but I noticed and shut that bs down.
I saw the hotties are stupid or heartless gameplaying scum, so I realized I wasnt missing out, after all.
I might die alone, but I will still have stood tall against the evil morons for 41 years.
I don’t have my dream-children yet, but this has bought me more time to prepare to protect them from the evil scammers.
I am not yet w the characters I felt attracted to, but Ambi was visually and vocally perfect when she showed up… 6 or so years after I wrote of/w her; in a few more years, that might mean all the other characters are real and perfect like her.
I got fat around the abs, but everywhere else is fine, and I don’t have a PFT to pass, and I can still hike well, and slightly fat makes sense for winter, and it is better than when I got Underweight.
A redo of the exodus hasnt happened yet, but no one deserved to be liberated, so it still worked out..
Being bored is btr than being hurried and abused.
Being frustrated is btr than being stressed.
Being ugly is btr than being dead wrong.
Going this long without being able to cook…has really made me look forward to when hotties will cook well for me.
The gods were worthless or fake, but i figured that out; most I’ve met didn’t.
Humans are still as evil as 40 yrs ago, but now I can tell them no, and ignore and avoid them.
Nothing is organic due to chemtrails and such, but i am still staying well.
Not enough $ to get the place i want, but that stops me from overpaying evil nobodies trolling that neighborhood. Better to wait/magic them out.
Hotties don’t seem to care i am ugly.
I was annoyed by the sexual harassment. It would be so much more draining if i was handsome; the humanimals would have pestered me far more often.
Even though i am not good looking, i am not the ones who have to be; my female fuckbuddies Have to look good.
I can look like anything and still get my job done; my role is the management of this vision/design/manifestation.
The signs weren’t looks from others, but my own instincts and empathy alerts.
The signs were in me, not outside me.
The celestine book had it backward –and probably on purpose; as a psyop to cause fatigue.
but my own
The looks from others were not signs to talk to them, but from shallow (soulless) eyes, and their vibes were dark/spoiled, and their actions were as evil as can be.
333,300,000 in USA, and 653,104 are homeless = ~1 in 500 Americans live on the streets.
16,000,000 homes are foreclosed and vacant, enough to give every homeless person ~25 of them!
Granted, some homeless are homeless by choice, some because they have major issues, and some of those vacant homes are not in good condition, but the numbers sure do suggest to me that the problem is largely banks based.
We don’t have too many people to house, and if all homeless were given at least one of those houses, it would be so much easier for them to stabilize their lives, grow food for themselves, relieve the farmers of some of their workload, etc..
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Imagine if all those unneeded homes were scrapped for spare parts; everyone would always have extra repair materials –for free.
Mon8apr2024:
Eclipse 11:40am-1:40pm, max at 12:40. New era? Yes. My era. My reign. Do not pray/ask. Just hold vision of my city, my invincible forces, me being invincible, wiping out the humans, and moving into the cabin I chose, starting my family there.
I can’t do much about my looks yet, so I will keep making the best creations I can.
fresh air always
great classical music daily and quiet, perfect in the background
sunning weekly
free swimming
free gym
no rent
no taxes
no spam in a mailbox
no lapdogs of the parasites beating on my door, having their adult tantrums about shit they don’t understand at all and aren’t making any effort to
restful dream-filled sleep every night
quiet in the mornings
never dealing with disgusting coffee fumes as the retarded brainwashed peasant re-poison themselves
never having to Tetris my groceries into a fridge amongst the fake food and corpse parts of nonvegan psychos
never hearing faggots intentionally warping their voices
never seeing faggots intentionally walking extra faggoty
no one able to try and pressure me into shaking their hand the wrong way
no dumbass intentionally-wrongly-trained runt pets needing constant attention and un-training and re-training and messes-cleanup
no antivegan liars and psychos
no braindead pharma-cartel parrots
travel whenever I want
more ancient ruins found/investigated monthly
what’s not to like?
definitely not fully ideal, but gettin damn near close.
I wanted more freedom, and it took years, but WOW did it ever kick in.
I wanted hotter/perfect females, and it took years, but likewise.
I wanted way more of my favorite genre of art, finding it evilly kept out of even my search results, but a few days ago, suddenly and without warning/signs, there it was, in such abundance I might NEVER see it all. Wow! <3
notes/ideas after “How Rare is the April 2024 Eclipse?” youtube ( https://youtu.be/0fgbMTC30F8?feature=shared
18yrs btwn eclipses…
19.7yr Mayan cycle3 section-length connection?
Maybe a previous moon was perfectly in-sync’ w/ that level of the Atlantean schedule/system the Mayans were taught.
Maybe the current moon, in such an odd/irregular/changing orbit, is communicating to us (the way the dimensions of some pyramids encode information, such as when they were built) that we are still, for a little while longer, in the most-complex of the time-periods.
So hypocritical and braindead of americunts to talk shit about terrorists when they do the same shit and worse (bombing entire nations for decades, plus their own buildings and people),
and talk shit about North Korea when the same problems (control-freaking, executions, gender blurring (via clothes, etc.), military-industrial complex, nonvegan poison “food”, paranoia, torture, unlawful incarceration, xenophobia, worship of bad leaders, etc.) are intentionally caused right here.
So fucked up the typist texted me she’ll always be there for me when i need her, no matter what; she had never been there for me, not even the two times i lived within 25mins of her.
Casey’s Corner at Four Corners is new, as are the sky-blue under-construction 3-story buildings by it,
or, at least, I don’t remember them from returning here in ~2018 or 2019 omw to Helena.
neat to see sheehy senate campaign sign; since I helped him with his 2nd home.
technically, I am one of the tech’ giants developing in Montana.
maybe it is a location-trigger / effect of this place.
dej from carter’s boots sign parking while working on school subpgs
tue10apr2024
Pretty sure it was right here in “2018” that I started all lhs subpgs.
Today, I basically finished them; no more missing para/secs.
Carter’s Boots & Repair
1662 Bobcat Dr, Bozeman, MT 59718
Mem refresh: sesame balls w choc-like filling from Oba
2024apr9tue at 6:11pm, cop suv parks facing me… when i am parked on gravel near no one, making no noise; wtf??
22 Dynamo Dr, Belgrade, MT 59714
How is it that even in the middle of nowhere, and even when I am not interacting w Anyone, they panic and overreact?
They truly are a useless, hopeless, failed species.
Ended up doing sch sys work at same gym by same forklifts/cherrypickers as 2018;
270 Floss Flats Rd E, Belgrade, MT 59714
across from H&E Equipment Services
narrowest sliver of a crescent moon I have seen so far.
Day after eclipse
Maybe i was kept traveling…so i would see there are no good ppl…so if ambi unleashes hell on earth, i won’t care.
And humans already unleashed hell on earth, so anything she does to stop them will be a relief/mercy.
No matter how many genius ideas i got, and how much more quickly i was able to jot them down and put them online due to “camping” since last summer, my blood still rages at the ongoing evil treatment at me.
Maybe every hottie has 3 phase w me, too; ambi’s first phase was rp. 2nd was that asshole in person 3/+ times. 3rd phase will be her correct version actually treating me well.
I hope.
Huge updates wave/day/shift after huge updates wave…
This would be impossible w Anyone around, compatible or not.
I am glad it is getting done.
If i have to ask for what should be status quo, not my ppl.
If i have to search for good ppl far and wide, not my ppl.
If i call out and get ignored and fucked with, not my ppl.
When i am myself, and get moody vibe blasts and dirty looks, not my ppl.
When i make extra sure i explain everything PERFECTLY, and STILL get misunderstood and slandered, not my ppl.
Not ppl at all; evil mindless beasts.
I move/carry on.
You will know your ppl; they will make you feel proud and great and safe.
No humans have.
Stay solo until ppl behave correctly, making you feel right.
If they’re telepathic, they are criminals for ignoring my wise thoughts and needs, and for pretending to not know them.
If they’re not telepathic, they are criminals for ignoring my wise actions and needs, and for pretending to be telepathic.
Fleshl arrived a day and a half early to town, and half a day early to p.o.!
Looks so good!
Smells as good as fresh money!
So excited to get relief from it again!
Brand spankin new!
And 2 big bottles this time, Plus a packet!!!
When the hotties are this early and trustworthy and soothing, it will be phase3!
Even w the plastic ring being loose, it is still amazing and restored my sex drive instantly. Such great medicine.
Natl guard shorts torn. Trashed. No dej.
When things got tough and bleak, I made the most computer models and website proofreading edits ever; I didn’t crack or turn back. I became even More productive. All I do as a vice is cuss at gods who aren’t there. That’s pretty stellar, given the frustrating evil kept upon me for now. And when scum i didnt ask for or deserve tried to ruin my good places/locations, I fucked w them right back; I didnt cow down to their wordplay evil. They tried forcing their degenerate subculture on me, and i just forced my culture right back on Them.
Gallatin hwy work detour 25mph is new.
I think…
:/
Pretty sure.
Why was ambi so built up by the typist…only to show up as a fool/jerk?
She acted Nothing like the way she was RPed.
Looks, check.
Voice, check.
But actions… not at all what I was hoping for.
Such a disappointment.
But…that’s all the “ppl” of this world have been, so…whatever. Nothin’ new. Yet.
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Thankfully I still have:
posb ability to cause lightning and earthquakes,
and the cure to all sickness,
and the discovered ruins,
and the idiotically self-revealed field-agents,
and the time travel possibility,
to keep me somewhat hopeful.
The website is working;
it organized all my works,
it attracted or helped wow the good typist (good at rp),
it is read, at least in part, by others without me asking them,
it shows who is good or evil without me having to screen them to find out,
it is therapeutic and proud for me,
etc..
I wish those who showed up had manners and such, but… the site is working.
It is weird, having plenty of time,
money,
freedom,
food,
sleep,
selfcare,
swimming,
tanning,
intel,
trips planning help,
gaming,
meditation,
and meaningful work,
yet still feeling wronged, nervous, abandoned.
Phase fucking 2 rolls on.
Good company sure does mean a lot to me; all those other things in abundance now, yet I still crave my rp becoming rl.
Chicks give me visual pleasure Sometimes; yes from their beauty, no from their expressions.
Porn is the same; Sometimes pleases me; yes when sexy eNough, No when showing moments of bodyfails.
Chicks Would give me More pleasure than porn IF they beHaved And let me Feel them,
but rn… porn gives me more pleasure than Them, bc both it and them lack good touch sensations, while porn Never is moody/evil.
Porn also never tries to convince me to do evil, such as pharma junkie blameshifter bs, or brainwashed nonvegan bs.
Porn never tries to convert me to a false god.
Porn never denies me shelter or forces me to leave early.
Porn never destroyed my credit/perm record.
Porn never played w my emotions.
Porn never tries to pressure me to Breed irresponsibly.
Porn never argues like an idiot w me.
Porn never has idiot boytoys harass me.
Porn never namecalls.
Sure, most porn is gross, but more ppl in Person were gross than the bad porn i had to click past.
Until ppl r btr than porn, tipping the scales in their favor the Right way (not by removing porn, but by being btr than even my imagination/memory of porn), i continue bypassing them With porn.
Amen.
If i have to call for them, they are not my ppl.
If i have to wait for them, not my ppl.
If i have to find them, not my ppl.
Good ppl worthy of me would have been w me all along. They would be with me always and forever. They would always explain themselves to me, and never make me wait or wonder.
Crows r a sign of good luck to Natives? Then why do I see them so often?
The vid of the airman setting himself on fire to death… Idk if dej.
Just one more perfect example of how disgusting, useless, and dangerous humans are.
No way i can ever feel attraction to such a failed species.
RPing with typist… is the same as TDGs with “J”; it isn’t to be good to you; it’s so those monitoring can learn how to maybe control and anticipate you.
Note how the bitch who showed up, vibing as Ambi, didn’t show any love, only a desire to get you to divert/chase/pursue/play some retarded game. That boils down to stalling, not teaming up.
Ambi-vibe or not, looks or not, voice or not, that was attempted manipulation.
She left when you waited for manners; she wasn’t there to be good to you.
She DID ALSO have the vibe of being cocky and manipulative.
They can’t seem to get Over that addiction of theirs.
My myspace got kelsi-level hotties interested.
My fb and luxy app writing got even hotter ones interested.
My rp/website got ambi, graciella, kara, rain, sabrina, etc. showing me they r real and already seeing me as n a longterm w them.
So these past 2-3 years of perfecting that spell/site should manifest the best of all; them even sexier now, and behaving exactly how I want.
Note: I had not written my culture directory back then, or their behavior, or so many dates. I have now; that should show them how to treat me.
Storm Castle; what a curiously-fitting name for the fave mntn of the guy who designed his own mighty standalone mntn-based castle and seems to wield some weather already.
That dipshit who set himself on fire… is the same type of stupid that believes the other tv lies / attn seeking; viruses, you name it. I didnt protest that way; i isolated and sang and focused on the good, venting only as needed. I didnt go to war over tv lies, either; i went to war to help in general. I was wholly unmoved and unphased by the Towers falling. Self-burners and self-injectors see bad…and then make More bad. I saw bad, ignored it, and kept making good. And any venting i do helps Keep me balanced and good.
The billboards got worse (nig w deathcult symbol fused w amer flag misused). They prob made them in another attempt to offend me away. All it does is charge me further, though.
Are palestinians muslim? If so, that retard burned himself in defense of one of the worst evils ever; the psychos who pretend halal sp food is good. And why did he call war w them genocide, when they arent all dead? And why be triggered by war w them, but not our identical wars against so many others? Idiot was prob nonvegan, too; a-okay w the far-worse treatment of animals.
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He doesnt get bravery points. He gets idiot score maxed.
May16 stormc, can park overn at trailhead.
Lol memory firewatch march afb pentagram nutsack woke sgt by mistake
Scott blankenship voice so much easier to listen to than the low “female” midday
It was nice to hear from the cute short tan girl about peru and colombia and the barefoot ancestors
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Coffee tours beach colombia convo dej
2 questions come to mind now:
1. Since they were bodily perfect, does it make sense to keep writing my spell/s sp that it finishes making all of them perfect?
2. Does me focusing on the website delay their return to me?
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My dossiers updates have great meaning if they are what is causing the hotties showing up to look and sound and vibe just like the characters/designs.
Either way, they are me standing tall against the insecure beta evildoers.
Nice to see icv subpgs getting detailed. Hopefully that will manifest all of them perfectly like ambi and sabrina manifested physically perfectly.
I felt for that old guy w gray hair and dog and pickup campr w damaged blinds in one window.
I am dangerously close to that, though i won’t get a nonvegan creature as a pet.
Maybe he was forced to draw a line in his life, too.
It wasnt that jobs i resorted to failed bc i didnt really want them;
the hotties i really wanted failed, too.
Shit just kept fizzling/flickering during phase2.
But at least it started flickering,
and i will keep at my spell/site in hopes it will trigger the perfected everything to turn on and stay on next.
I modeled Persephone when I was 38.
I kept getting ideas for it during 39 and 40.
That wasn’t delayed; that was when that novel was forecast/scheduled.
It took this long to get all ideas and do all edits/wrapups.
Amazing how btr i feel after a sit, a good meal, etc.
All those laws I memorized makes me a lawyer. Not bar certified in the fake sys, but a lawyer still.
All the laws I wrote makes me a legislator.
All those i judged makes me a judge.
Sleeping in ’til 9:40 is so nice.
So glad i can.
So glad this lot allows it.
So wanting to have my first sleep in the cabin I chose.
The months keep flying by.
I didnt have any heart/panic after this all-day exertion training; slept easily, not waking much at all, except bc a noisy truck parked beside at 5:30am~.
2 roof parts on a trailer, and 3 white Helena schoolbuses parked to the other side. No dej
the first group/round of attempts at anchoring here, i tried meeting and working w the locals, but they were all evil as can be.
2nd round, i have stayed solo, wrapping up my work while enjoying the scenery, dealing with the humans only long enough to get groceries.
rd 3 shall be me purging the evildoers here, ensuring their lowly kind can never return.
normal/good ppl Should be easily offended by evil –such as what nearly every human I have met has done.
only insane/evil ppl would not be easily/quickly offended/enraged by what humans have been/done.
the only reason they cover up the past by making fake scientific discoveries is because
“we all have a piece of the puzzle”? sort of; the only piece the modern (bad) humans have is that the puzzle is their fault; their fake healthcare, fake science, fake history, fake advancements, fake religions, etc. caused the mix-up / confusion.
there was no puzzle before; they jumbled everything up during their plagiarism-based attempt to lure in all the groups of people around the world –when they invaded in 1561~.
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and why go to all that trouble? because anything we focus on is what manifests/stabilizes,
and literally EVERYthing is better than the losers who invaded/occupied this world,
so they don’t want ANYone finding ANYthing, or even THINKing anything else/better is POSSIBLE.
“the best system we’ve got”? no. obviously not.
the best system available/possible is when we DON’T force creatures with comPLETELY different beliefs/values to live in the same spaces/cities, annoying/enraging each other.
“Capitalize on your looks when/while you’re still young.” vibed as obvious evil wordplay, and Should have been “You were right and exemplary to reject all the many attempts at corrupting and ruining you during your youth. Your rate is the right rate for you.” Age-bracketing is as wrong via what he tried to Tell (dominate) me to do… as it is with insane consent/statutory “laws”.
also should have been: “You can capitalize on your looks at any time; you are a healthy man.”
also: “Your time/funding/donations will come. Stay the course. Look at all you have accomplished, thanks to your instincts, wisdom, and choices.”
but he was a cig’-junkie with no patience or intelligence or goodness; he was in a hurry always, incl. a hurry to corrupt others like he had corrupted/ruined himSelf.
Ariana Grande name = big aryan. lol Too bad she isn’t; she’s petite and a barely-attractive mutt.
For th first time in years, it has been weeks since repo harassed me.
Maybe my focus on that spot on Antarctica all this time… is why things havent worked out other than to keep me focused on it; maybe my creative energy has stayed channeled that way, creating Inisfree exactly how I want, leaving only enough back here to cause quakes and such. Maybe being delayed on the cabin and wife I chose… is what is keeping my energy up enough to finish shaping the vision, thus ensuring its wholeness and manifestation.
My emotion surges Sometimes caused lightning when i was focused on one person i hate, then Sometimes earthquakes when focused on one Area i hate, then Sometimes hotties even when i wasnt focused on that; when not aimed or expected, the energy booms in the sky. When aimed into the ground but still not fully expected/believed, it booms in the ground. When channeled into visions of whom i want, they appear, but leave as quickly as the lightning/earthquakes…when i think i need space and rest instd of they who appeared. Thankfully, they keep getting hotter, closer, staying longer, not needing focus at all, respecting my thoughts, and I am now open to them All returning to stay with me, and will say so, whether they still need to hear that from me or not.
The thought of Ender tanning at the lake after realizing what he thought had been games in training… was really him leading fleets and winning the war…keeps occurring to me.
that npr piece about the undercover fed who kept getting pretend-assassin-target person-facts wrong…
was probably an engineered propaganda/deception attempt; to make the feds seem dumber than they are.
they are dumb, no doubt, after the ones I met, but probably not employing guys THAT dumb.
Play the game/s since the earthlings r still playing theirs.
Enjoy zero other responsibilities for now.
the shit-talkers / default-negatives / moody-idiots / bullies… are probably an NPCs collective…
designed to cause the byproduct of the good beings focusing on their vision/instinct that much more,
thus making all their creations that much stronger and lasting.
the default-neg’s probably were used in every Age/focus for that reason.
Look at what happened; the more they lied and tried evil, the more my vision took form and became perfect.
Maybe it hasn’t always been this way, but it sure did end up working in my favor in This era/Age.
even that stuttering parachute rigger veteran powerpoint was an evil lie attempting to spread medical misinformation about loving interaction; kissing
3rd time is not the charm; Iii am the charm. Whatever I focus on happens. Amen.
All those yrs, I felt I had to push and call out and explain and tolerate, but I always ended up feeling later like the time flew. Now, here I am, and my daunting website rebuild, and then its overhaul, are complete, the hotties have made sure I saw and heard them, and they gave me space instead of harassing me like the bad humans, and I witnessed probable time travel.
Badass despite bad teams; fake relatives, marines, coworkers. — then badass solo — next badass w my soul fam; Ambi, Nyria, etc..
If humans had been good already, my vision/spell/design/site wouldnt be perfect like it has become. I wouldnt have focused on it enough already.
If i had accepted her in 2021 oceanside, would i have made the computer models? Would i have proofread as much so soon? Would i have seen the 2021-2024 time travel clues? Maybe i would have a Better model, and More superpower experiences. Maybe less. Maybe none. All i can do is hope she now understands and unites w me.
My, how re-listening to my fave songs from Narnia, and Pirates… Black Pearl, gets me n a good mood, reminding me what a good pirate I became.
Tried to re-enjoy the mongolian grill, but god failed hardcore again; morbidly obese glutton so fat he had to ride a scooter, with a runty midget lapdog, before i even got in, and then given lukewarm/cool meh rice, etc.
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but mongolian place had disgusting nonvegan spick menu items such as empanadas and something cheese filled
Was mid70s days ago. Now going back to 40day and teens-night. How?
73 today. Almost 80 w the heat index. How can the weather really dip down 70 degrees over the coming week?
I mean, i Should be able to make it do Anything, but this is… Well, at least it is new.
“Let ppl eat what they want.” Should have been, “Let Auz command how he wants.” and, “Let’s annihilate the psycho nonvegans.”
Stupid bitch wannabe-Ambi showed up in 2016 after earthship; 8 yrs before i had wrapped (the completing of) my site/vision up; why the hell can’t she show up Now? Makes it seem like she was sent to derail/stall me, not to help. Not to be a loyal supporter/wife.
How “cute” (retarded evil) that the barrista spoiled cunts didnt like my homeless vehicle smell, but were totally fine with slinging rape and murder products all day all year.
just like before (during the apparent time-travel), ending up w ~4K needed to pay back off.
Hopefully I don’t resort to evil helena this time.
in 2018, i was maxing my cc. now? ~4k to play w.
part of me wishes typist hadn’t built ambi and the others up so much,
but… maybe her doing that is what made me love those characters enough to manifest/summon them,
and maybe they can now finish becoming real, showing up perfect for me, amen.
how “adorably retarded”; humans always demanding I respect their evil boundaries,
while insulting and refusing to respect ANY of my sane good ones.
any/every bitch who gets upset w me about anything… is basically the same demon as kim riche, just in a dif exterior/disguise; disregard and leave all such lowly morons.
they are literally retarded and useless.
The ONLY reason they relentlessly try to shame people who aren’t parroting the narrative and breeding at a specific age bracket (right after indoctrination (senior high school)) is because they ONLY want/accept spawns/minions who ignorantly manifest their own powerlessness and more brainwashed workers.
There is not any other reason for trying to shame and criminalize normal full-body kindhearted mutually-agreeable interaction.
There is not any other reason for pretending that some mature at earlier stages/ages.
The legend of Venus made by part of Uranus (Time Incarnate casting foam into the sea…”) sounds like that bigger planet willed its cum out into the then-atmosphere or sea-like realm which is today Space/empty, and that cum triggered the ether/void/air out there to glow and take form.
It also sounds like a possible metaphor for how wonderful it is to cum; what beauty it creates when pure like that, not mixed in with nonsense/brainwashing from evil humanimals.
Tiday Wave Auto Spa new
Dave’s sushi refreshed mem of having it last time.
This time, skipping the meh “Dave’s, vegan chefs choice bowl”.
Fuuuuuck, i hate having to live on a nonvegan world.
Fuuuuck, i hate the assholes who heard my call.
Same hotel as 2018; MountainView Lodge & Suites
(overnight parking)
So nice to have cleared my emails dn to 3 or 4 from more than 200. 222?
So nice to wake the rain sound on metal roof and windows
hopefully, like BPs in friend’s creativerse world, my IRL design/spell is just taking multiple “log back ins” (sleep and wake) to finish being built; my city, my cabin, my powers, my women, etc.
the deja vu on making a sea fort foundation outline with corrupted stone blocks, and of foreseeing its window slits once I add its wall and walkway, makes me REALLY think I didn’t just time-travel during 2016-2018,
but that I also somehow had prescience/clairvoyance; I somehow had a multi-year vision of this future.
What does that mean?
I have only heard of superpowers such as brief glimpses ahead –but maybe, of course, that was an attempt to keep the development of such abilities minimalized.
Maybe it is possible to see infinitely ahead,
and the brain is NOT finite in terms of what it can remember.
At least mine may have that endlessness / no limit.
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only sure way to prevent further repeats/loop/dej’ is to stop playing the game (creativerse).
..and go to some place other than helena.
Was helena an area-trigger for the mask bs?
Is there an area trigger for my cabin?
The excavators glitching helps signal to me not to repeat the build n that world
Are there not just area triggers, but dif triggers n the same area if there at dif times?
Either way, the only trigger should be me saying what i want, or just wanting/choosing it
“We are not ended, and won’t ever be.” …Sounds nice, except that we never actually began; we just played make-believe.
How fucking dare that lookalike bitch speak of me as if we were already married, when she is not yet daily supporting me in person.
Me taking lots of screenshots isn’t a bad habit; it is a good sign bc it shows how proud I am of my brilliant art, plus it ends up being useful/used after each buildup –even if its use is just to make me smile.
Veteran programs were fake and murderous, but at least they gave Something; chicks so far havent helped At All.
It is likely that all fake-help organizations were Made to be that shitty… in an effort to steer me to the chicks… who would then try to seduce and breed me. But all it did was expose both those groups as useless, fraudulent, and evil/traitorous.
In phase1, I didnt get Any chicks Or veteran events; at least I got to sample many of them during phase2, even though all of them were stupid evil scams attempting to shame and/or brainwash me.
“Conscious co creation” was probably a psyop/scam inserted into that otherwise correct-vibing presentation; there probably was Never co-creation, only stable things made when One being focused on his Own. Everyone I wrote with had to be guided into sane alignment, and most Still chose to insanely deviate; at least in phase2, there wasn’t co-creation until I had helped typist understand me better. And even now, after 1.5 decades of that, she still won’t co-create in person for IRL.
Can my focus/will shake up the humans/system as much as Alaska? As much as Hawaii/Pele? As much as it made the sky bright w lightning and shooting stars? More? Time to find out. Time to decide.
Evil beings try to dominate/bully/scare me into being Their beta coward ‘parrot’ way. Neutrals mind their own business. Good beings would either be thrilled to participate how I want them to, or at least genuinely compliment my way / me, politely telling me it might not be for them but they still see how correct my way is for me. Blog
I did worship the wrong thing/s in phase1; what humans demanded i worship; what never worked, and might not have even been real. In phase2, i stopped that insane crap. In phase3, i started worshipping myself; my correct instincts, and the worthy, etc.. Amen.
Mon15apr2024
Suv headlights stopped dirt turnoff to my spot. No dej. 9:04pm
I cannot feel attraction to those who ignored my calls, and who let this world be so hellish. Even if they were giving me space to get all my good ideas, they should have at least said so, so i would know they understand and care and behave correctly.
It is nice that the evildoers r the ones panicking in this 2nd phase; n phase1 they always had Me surprised and panicking.
Now, i disregard All of them.
Being n the car n only natural temperatures is good trng for life, for antarc, for expeditions, and for cold-skin vamp-chicks.
Fake relatives, fake brotherhood, fake medicine, fake colleges, etc etc; I guess I should never have hoped for that ambi-like bitch to be not fake.
I thought i would make the things; website, models, etc., …and then “they” would join me,
but rd2 has been me solo reviewing and adding to what was made.
I guess i get no help, the entire vision having to be from me alone,
only in phase3 the chosen joining.
So far, i havent seen any hotties who retardedly believed n the fake pandemic; even on fb, it has only been deformed idiots.
This isnt hell; hell was phase1; when nothing was good, and i had no great ideas yet.
This is just intermission, not even purgatory; in purgatory, there is no progress, but here i have had tons of progress every day for years.
It is only locally briefly annoying/hellish when i keep giving humans chances.
“These are guidelines . Not saying these are things you specifically do.”
Then why fucking send them?
and who are you to think you can give someone like Me Guidelines?
I am WAY healthier than you, WAY braver, WAY more stable, and on and on.
apparently way Smarter, Too; I don’t give guidelines that don’t apply to people, or guidelines to people who ARE Guides.
It is so strange that I look great in some pics,
hideous in other pics,
and see FLAWLESS hotties looking bad in THEIR pics sometimes,
and see DECENT-looking males CHOOSING hideous WIVES.
what the fuck is going ON?
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Maybe it is a phase2 thing;
in phase1, I ALWAYS looked bad;
at least I SOMEtimes look good in phase2.
Hopefully I’ll magically ALways look good in phase3.
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At least my soul/mind isn’t hideous.
Every lifestyle/diet and insults-default I’ve witnessed in the humans is far more hideous than my face could ever be.
Nothing is more hideous than pretending wisdom is perverse.
Nothing is more hideous than breeding innocent beings in modern Auschwitz facilities just to stab them to death when they are babies, then lying about why, pretending it is for nutrients, when really it is just to enjoy ingesting the energy of their nightmarish suffering.
Holding phone cam screen side by side w vehic sun visor mirror, I see I look dif/btr n the mirror; tanner, thinner, etc..
Why the dif?
Is this why those flawless hotties were into me / seeking me?; bc they see a hotter v of me than even I see n th mirror?
I just wish I was handsome all the time.
I will be once I can get into the cabin I chose; daily hygiene, fitness, etc..
After all the perfect pc models, website touchups, game ideas, and mini overhauls/consolidations, I get why I was forced back here for a few years, but… NOW what??????
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The lookalike wasnt the woman of my dreams; the woman of my dreams doesnt hide from me, doesnt make me wait years, doesnt play evil games, doesnt give me dirty looks, doesnt leave me to die like this.
That was just some bitch.
Just like all the others.
And after seeing possible time travel and more, I am not concerned if I missed an opportunity I might be able to return to any time.
Besides, assholes are even less noteworthy when superpowers are revealed/unlocked.
What concerns me now is purifying the places I chose, and bringing to justice all who were rude to me, and surviving this negligence of heartless evil humankind.
It doesnt matter that they exist.
It doesnt matter that they showed themselves to me.
It doesnt matter if they were held back by something.
What matters is they made me wait too long,
they chose not to introduce themselves,
they chose to ignore my boundaries and needs and requests,
they chose to leave me wondering.
They showed me they only care about something other than my needs.
Thry showed me they are basically toying with me, playing some kind of stubborn heartless game.
That makes them enemies.
That makes them evil.
That makes them scum.
That makes them deviants.
Maybe I am supposed to get used to not working, not always having something to do, etc.,
but still; this is wrong; I should never have been left to die.
I should never have had to live in this degenerate anti-society.
I should never have been misunderstood or insulted or lied about Once.
I should have been charged up by/with Good, not frustrating evildoers.
I was right to try jobs where i wanted to live; the alternative was far worse; staying in evil/retard/ugly states such as indiana would have been far more unpleasant.
At least here, i got mntns, clean air, clean rivers, etc..
At least i did My part.
Too bad god and the bitches never did theirs.
Being in a free vehic is always btr than paying to live with moron peasants.
This may be the best of phase2; freedom, isolation, surviving.
In phase1, i kept nearly dying; that wasnt surviving, not so easily like now.
In phase1, i had No vehicle, let alone a free one.
I had no choices/freedom.
Eventually, like always before, I will be in a better situation, and look back on now with ease, no longer stuck here, worried.
Nothing is braver or more honest than publishing my journal after all those psychos tried intinidating me when I was good.
Shasta was checked/audited just like I audited xianism/israel and pele/hawaii and all the rest, and all failed the same lame evil way.
Hiking barefoot up mountains is a LOT healthier/stronger than before; when i was nonvegan, sometimes unable even to sit up or sleep, let alone go outside and work wonders.
Witnessing posb time travel, even though i apparently can’t wield it yet, is still a lot btr than beFore i saw/knew such wonders existed.
Why is it that I genuinely wanted to serve in the military, yet was shown most service members were evil idiots,
and the hotties I genuinely wanted to date and share love with… turned out to be just about as hopelessly incompatible?
–and that lookalike bitch, or lookalike bitches, showed me another awful mix along the same lines; LOOKED ideal, but beHaved TERRIBLY?
SMH.
fucking phase2.
In phase1, i had to fight.
In phase2, i have had to wait, wondering if i was shown hope or just more heartless False hope.
Will phase3 finally come now that i have spelled out Everything; Every guideline and boundary and such on my mind?
I thought things were starting to align for me;
wrapped up so much site work,
got more of my body improved,
saw who I thought was manifested chosen,
…so …why does it feel like another lull or betrayal or purgatory?
Why did my good manners still get responded to so badly?
Why did me volunteering… not cause others to volunteer for me?
Why did I get shown bs/yc 6yrs early via posb time travel?
Was Everything “early” prep’ for what is to come?
I hate not knowing.
I want to be in control.
I want to know my site is being honored; that the chosen are making sure they are what I seek.
I want to know the good forces are wiping out all the evil I pointed out.
I want to hear the truth; how good I have been, how exemplary, how many evils I defeated and exposed.
I want the chosen to show excitement and joy at my work/choices.
I guess it is still progress that the hottest tried multiple times w me, even though rudely; before, No one tried, not even fugs.
I guess it is still progress that i found out the hottest weren’t ready yet; before, i found out the hard way; by giving chances as a recruit, as a roommate, as a spouse, etc.; at least lately i found out without having to get tangled up like that at all.
Since they don’t value me enough to even say it is them,
or hello,
or why it took so long,
or spare me from dealing w the cult morons,
or the repo scams,
they may as well be on Their Side.
Damn them all.
Love and truth just don’t work on this world/species. They improved My life/health, but the moody ones rejected them and stayed moody dumbasses.
All i can do then is love myself and lie to / avoid the rest.
I’m tired of calling out, anyway.
Do i need a walmart equiv for power tools, etc?
Mall is full
but we grow/print, not manually fashion/assemble
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No wally.
Bc anyone can 3dprint tools at home, and every ICV can show how to assemble and use any tool.
More phase2 bullshit;
finally found a few more vegan items here, but had to deal w a blob oldcunt masktard, another masktard, a hundred other fugtards, and a faggot worker to find the damn things; appetite ruined. Again. As always.
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sexy shorty tight midriff petite white brunette n pajama pants and sleevies top, but bagface, and w a tootall bitch.
Mem refresh.
Was prob parked here n jeep n rain as mini final winter hiccup happened n “2018” (time travel to now?), eating same chkn waffles, maybe same nbr too; 4.
Thankfully this time i am n a free lux vehicle i can fully lie flat n, muffle all sounds n, etc., not terribly worried about budget either,
though pretty sure i am about to be cheated out of 250k over a technicality / stubborn intern.
Whatever. Nothin new; numb to the evil heartless mistreatment now.
That lookalike bitch being so stubborn and hidden and whatnot ..saved me from having kids before my focus-need was done.
Will she finally behave like a good woman/person now that i can and Should focus on her/our fam, though?
“I understand and I’ll make up for that when I’m not so crazy with work”
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I hate getting messages like this;
I should never have been limited to rp/makebelieve,
and I never let work decrease my time with ppl who mattered to me.
She probably doesn’t even have a job, let alone a busy schedule, based on her other falsehoods;
relig,
politics,
Madison is a nice quiet town,
“It should work out within the year or so. Just a feeling I have. Nevermind; maybe some random good samaritans will help you. Want me to call the VA like you told me not to?”,
etc..
When does this ‘seesaw’ and neglect and spiritual abuse end?
Giving up ppl to get peace was a phase1 transition to phase2.
You dont need to give up barb to get irl; this is phase2; you can keep…while phase3 keeps manifesting.
Phase2 works btr.
Phase2 works out on its own.
I shouldnt just be going randomly anymore; the ones i called to should be Guiding and inViting me.
But i have no choice again; i can’t stay here n mt when no one good is w me yet.
I won’t let the scum here sour its cities further.
Maybe going…will cause the shake up like in alaska and hawaii.
Hopefully i can shake the humans more and more until they are Forced the behave.
I was stopped from praying, not venting or cussing.
I was stopped from mil, every sch, every job, but not my site work and gaming.
I was stopped from heading south n 2020, and from being w that chick n 2020 and 2021, but not from computer modeling etc.;
all those suggest they r signs this is the me/work phase, not yet the team/fam phase.
So i keep solo and working. Fine.
I am glad i tried to get to antarc; it sends a powerful vibe nto the universe, as they say.
I am glad i was myself; it showed who is compatible vs evil.
Testing over and over…shows me i can go farther and farther.
Waiting over and over, shows me the hotties get hotter and try harder themselves.
Must i cave w the ambi-like one…to be able to go all the way to antarc…or would she be the same evil trap/fake?
No one Else was genuine/loyal… even when i did my Best w Each of them.
I hope god/life/univ was just swatting away everything but the best for me…
No amount of hotties will seem like anything other than more bait, bc that’s what they all chose to be before.
No amount of support will ever seem like anything other than fake encouragement to lure me into other traps, too; likewise, that was all that “veteran event” and “gonna read your books” was.
So… all ppl can do to support now is send money and keep away.
Unless I gain superpowers and can routinely destroy droves of them.
Their silence…
and the noose/harassment of the evildoers/religtards…
resulted n the computer models and website wrapup.
But… all that is done now;
the harassers should become silent,
and the ones I called out to should finally explain themselves and support me.
Standing up to them didnt work; they scammed me into fake courts.
Isolating worked.
Focusing me energy/emotion to quake their evil communities worked.
Thus i stay isolated and focused, hitting them “sideways”; using their tactic against them.
In 2018, i hadnt written how all the restaurants and residents shall be.
Is that why i was looped to deal w their evil again last year?
This time, i Have written how all restaurants and residents and even guests must be. Hopefully that makes them appropriate from here on.
Now…it’s just a matter of seeing when those spells kick in.
Why would so many get so mad at my innocent sketching and writing?
and at my offers for peaceful love and healthy guidance?
The explanation is bc my writing works like spells they can’t overcome.
All they can do is try and get me to consent to parroting or intaking their evil/pre-written bs.
So… hopefully my writing/spells will work even better than me focusing on causing lightning and such.
And maybe I should stay focused on the website (biggest spell) wrapup, not using any of my energy to make lightning until it is complete; I don’t want to delay/sap it.
There’s not much that can be RPed at a concert or christmas.
Bands don’t expect the audience to do amazing things back; the bands are just there to perform what they worked on…so everyone else can relax and let loose and bob and such;
don’t expect anyone to rp back at me w the same level of detail my homelessness/freedom/schedule affords me.
If any of those bitches had been intelligent, they would have known it takes a lot more than just prettily standing there to convince an abused man they are worth interacting with.
If they had been of good heart/mind, they would have cared how they were making me feel.
If they had good/appropriate timing, they would have been in my life long ago, and in place of those who betrayed me.
If they had social skills, they would have communicated well with me.
If they weren’t sexist, they would have easily known I was being polite, not shy.
But they had none of those qualities.
If that ambi-like asshole got offended I didn’t “go for” her after mere seconds of her showing up, how much more offended should Iii be since She didn’t go for Me after YEARS of knowing Iii am here??
I never talked to the wrong ppl; I was giving everyone a fair chance at being good.
I was discovering how ppl are.
I was being myself.
I was seeing who would work w me.
I now have that information.
I completed that social experiment correctly.
The Ppl were wrong, not me; they were doing so many things wrong, such as how they talked to me.
Me being calm didnt cause her to show up.
Same w when I was angry.
Same w when I cussed.
Same w when I named evildoers for punishment.
She showed up fucking randomly.
Same as the rest did.
Fuck em all for that.
But the main point is I can be myself; I don’t have any evidence suggesting leaning more toward one emotion or lifestyle or the other will summon them back any sooner.
Any bitch getting moody at me is no dif than dallas webb tantrum or donald fearing tantrums.
Same evil. Same retardation. Same demon.
Phase1. Prevented from damn near anything, even my own privacy and writing and orientation.
Phase2. Made it to many places, and saw many hotties, and finally got to have some privacy and be myself, but only at times, and far away, and the hotties were morons.
Phase3. Hopefully very soon and forevermore I shall get invited to the best places, and only be around hotties compatible w me, and always get to be myself, and all humans I don’t like will then and always be the ones having to change or hide far from me. Amen.
In standard ameridumbass fashion, doc2 assumed i was wrong, assumed the bitch he didnt know…was right.
He blamed me with zero evidence or even logic, making him the same sexiest evil as the corrupt cops and judges.
Same retarded evil as the religion parrots.
He didnt even Think to get my side of the story.
And he asked questions, then told me not to explain. Did he want answers or Not??
He thought he was using rhetoric to make a good point, but all he was doing was showing me how stupid and biased and hopeless he was.
At least he eventually admitted he hadnt known the bitch was toying w me, but that was too little and far too late.
They will become worthy of me when they give me their contact info, support me, and explain why they chose to appear and leave when they did.
Phase2 reminds me of the legend of Odin sacrificing himself to himself; devoting himself for a while to struggle/isolation, vision/focus, growth/study, etc..
condescension claiming I have to face my enemies, and should not run from them, was phase1; default-negativity, bad-advice from mindless NPCs I back then had been brainwashed/raised to incorrectly assume were actual people.
Phase2 has been me testing, debunking, and correcting/rewriting all that advice from them. With regard to “running from my problems”, I now realize that I was FORCED to face/conTINUE problems/training/torture back in phase1, and that evading/outmaneuvering those problem-causer NPCs WAS good; I should NEVER have wasted time facing them, as they FED/FEED on that crap!
Phase3: others looking to my website and Me for advice/wisdom/holiness/commands, and all who once caused problems for me… now destroyed, if not at least running from ME. Amen.
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Harmers/Wouldbe-stoppers: In phase1, everyone was fake and trying to corrupt/hurt me, and some succeeded, at least temporarily.
Attempted/Wouldbe Stallers: In phase2, everyone was still fake, now trying to convince me to hurt myself; via injections, etc., but they’d lost the ability to fool or hurt me. I still had healing to do, but they could no longer cause harm to me.
Finally Good: In phase3, everyone able to get anywhere near me shall always be good to me, doing what I want them to, helping and protecting me, supporting me how I want them to, then going out and harming the badguys (those who are/were incompatible with me).
phase1 was looking ahead, then getting overwhelmed and having to take breaks, then re-orient to where I left off.
phase2’s end, and I’m right on schedule with what I wrote for my book chapters editing/proofreading –and even with my scheduled concerts; 2024 Summer and Autumn being worked on rn! 😀
phase3 will be always ahead of schedule; prepared years and more in advance; because of all the phase1 ideas and phase2 website-building.
Amen 🙂
Phase1 ppl r anyone who ignores or argues or trues to chg me.
Phase2 ppl r able to listen and obey me, but still need work
Phase3 ppl r those who are already exactly how i want them to be, never needing guidance from me, and annihilating my enemies for me.
Dental reimbursement cheque mailed back to company is actually good; no need to be in shitty bigsky now.
2018jeep stopped at north cottonwood access trailhead to j 2nd time and nap.
This time, skipped. Loopbreak.
Buffalo wildwings mem refresh: phone mention of all fried in beef tallot,
then talk at togo register of the blizzard during his moveout after 3rd msu year.
100% deja vu on being at this parking lot by buffalo wildwings, working into midnight on my concert webpgs,
but this time it is comfortable, and I’m not STARTING the pgs; I’m COMPLETING them!! <3 😮
Mem refresh nap by Home Depot; corner parking space by sidewalk to the stacked lawn dirt bags or whatever was in them
“When that thing finally lights up…” keeps returning to the front of my mind.
My website/spell is complete/ready.
My coty should be there.
Ambi and the others should be real and perfect for me now.
2014 bs/yc was rough.
2017/2023 time-travel bs/yc was milder but still a job w idiots.
Maybe all 3… was rd1; bad-based. ?
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And now I am skipping/avoiding it until invited; very neutral; phase2 type of thing.
Instinct here is as strong as it was to join and leave the substandard corps.
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When will phase3 there begin?; me invited and paid to live n 364 w real Ambi and the other hotties I wrote of (spellcrafted / vision-held) being w me there.
No trng for yrs.
Sitting n my vehic for seasons.
Then barefoot summit and sandals back, taking an entire shift (~8hrs) = I am not concerned about my fitness as much as b4 that hike.
I do ofc still want to have a home gym and get n btr shape, but this is just phase2.
Bad beings get moody whether i talk or not, follow their system or not.
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Neutral/tolerable beings would have at Least given me their contact info, free shelter, and asked what i want them to do, happy to do it for me, no matter what.
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Good beings will explain what took so long, beg my forgiveness, pay me to use their best homes, and already be what i want them to be, not even having to ask me what to do.
Societies:
Phase1: pure-evil one I had to grow up in
Phase2: Inisfree; start of mine, hidden away from the evil one/s
Phase3: SSA, Ideal World, Aorlie’s, etc.; all evil completely controlled by me and my allies since long ago
I hate the solo phase2, but I needed all this solo time to wrap up everything; site build, proofreading, remaining vision parts realized, finishing touches to the spell so that now even ppl, not just places, manifest as I intend them to, etc.
In phase1, i was denied it in all ways; i wasnt even told the yc was being started.
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Then i found it n phase2, so the biggest hurdle was done for me; the terrain, the construction, etc..
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Even if i became able to buy my way n during this obviously meh 2nd phase, that would still be a trade, not a gift to me,
and it would still b into a lot of incompatible humans.
Besides, my books are not for lowly beings such as most humans.
Thus i keep charging up, focusing longer, until 364 is given to me.
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The next big hurdle that shall also be done for me is the fixing of the personalities and bodies of the ppl there. Amen.
Worrying about letting anyone into my game worlds is wise due to the uniform evil behavior of phase1.
In phase2, i found ways of playing games that did not allow such evil; discord rp, claims rights in creativerse, refusing pvp n eve, etc..
In phase3, i won’t have to worry about a thing, for all playing w me will build and do what i will love, amen.
Phase1. Didnt matter what ‘signals’ i sent out (what i said, asked for, drew, prayed for, anything); i got only bluffs and abuse.
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Phase2. Still didnt matter what signals i sent out; got only harassment, solo, and false hope from lookalikes.
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Phase3. Won’t matter what signals i send out; i will have all i want, incl all hotties loving all i am, and all my enemies too terrified of me to ever bother me again.
Phase1. Got brief blips of friendship and peace and art ideas and trips… during otherwise nonstop abuse of me.
Phase2. Got brief blips of wives during my nonstop travels and art.
Phase3. Always and forever w my wives and other loves, only brief blips of solo time by choice now, my enemies all gone/incarcerated.
The more from 2018 i live thru again, the less i have to, and the closer i am to the nect major upgrade.
The evil morons were terrified.
I was just mildly annoyed.
That is good; the evil ones Should be afraid to cross me.
The bp issue forces new builds, which is fine for now.
At least i Get to do builds; i had no games or money or time in phase1.
Ofc wildcrumb had a masktard, and the one masktard was the one who addressed me. Smh. Talk about a total failure in so many ways.
Mem refresh: tugging at the broc soup covered breadbowl bottom while parked on hard dirt in shadow of industrial area garage, facing the north mntns i once ran up and halfway over.
Oj “fresh squeezed” has no pulp. Smh.
At least the view is nice, and the soup, and the new vehic.
But how do i deal w the goddamn cc this time???
At least i got plenty of napkins and plasticwear.
At least i am comfortable this 2nd time.
But how hellish it is that i even thought “at least they didnt evilly try dominating and corrupting me by pressuring Me to masktard.”; that is such a rockbottom situation, thinking of that.
What a failed ppl.
What a failed country.
Wish i could leave and make it to Inisfree this time.
No reason to stay, now that the hotties incl sorta-ambi all showed me they are heartless assholes.
As much as i hate seeing another dumbass mask, that bitch who makes nonvegan “food” is exactly who should be brainwashed and sterilized like that.
Just not where i can see. Disgusting peasant.
Why can’t there be good smart sane peasants?
The only reason humans demonized telepaths as witches, and demonized healers as witches, and demonized anyone longlived, is because telepaths can sense and prevent conspiracies/scams/evil, they can detect who has evil or offworld thoughts, and healers can fix the evil done, and anyone not dying has time to figure out what caused dying to even exist.
do ppl get TOLD to put on retard-masks beCAUSE I am tracked and seen entering? and they’re steering me away?
doesn’t matter either way; their ugliness/mutant/fugtard-ness ALSO steers me away.
their evil words steer me away.
their nonvegan evil “food” steers me away.
their chemtrails steer me away.
their evil vibes and soul-less shallow eyes steer me away.
etc etc.
Besides, I still have work to wrap up.
really is amazing how evil and braindead those who judged me are/were;
I spend my time creating art, writing stage performances and concerts, symphonies almost/just about,
and writing novels,
exploring,
hurrying to help farmers around the country,
yet they namecall and assume I have a brain defect because I won’t breed with their ugly rude brainwashed cunts…
smh.
unreal.
shame on them.
what blind heartless fools. scum.
I write of health and stability and wonders,
and they make millionaires out of their worst degenerates/failures.
Hopefully their cataclysm will wipe them all out very soon. Amen.
Famous Dave’s closed for maintenance; new; no loop/repeat
Easily sleeping straight through train sounds at any location…
Gaming and concert composing all day…
No bedtime…
No need to shower…
Thousands extra… plus hundos close…
Not a single attempt to get help from the cunty corrupt fake veteran organizations;
this phase2 end aint that bad.
Humans so far were unable to think, unable to have their own ideas, brainwashed to namecall and alienate and cause their own problems.
They would have kept labeling me and condescending and pretending they had a valid disorder diagnosis, when really it was they who had the disorders, and I who was the real doctor with the real ability to think thus diagnose correctly (without parroting a lie designed to shame weaklings back into selfharm).
Not happy i have to drive around and use the fleshl?
Rmbr that in phase1, I didnt even have a vehicle To drive around in,
and the fleshl hadnt even been imagined yet, let alone invented/prototyped, etc..
At least i now have it to bypass the evil fake females.
Sourdough to eat, and reminded how perfect and storybook it is to sleep at : )
What an alignment.
In phase1, i did not yet know that most humans are not real ppl w any ability to think or do good, so my instinct was to explain things, thinking they would surely understand, if only bc of my sincerity vibe, but… they also could not feel, i later learned, and had no comprehension of vibes or subteties or honor or manners, only parroting and threats/bluffs.
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In phase2, my main instinct switched to leave, get what u need, and keep leaving any time u encounter more evil mindless npc humans. I got what i needed from the corps, jobs, schools, food tourism, travel abroad, etc.; intel, always finding evildoers, no matter how good i was, and no matter how consistently i held the focus/vision for only good teammates.
I realized that i am not w anyone worthy of me… until they treat me how i want to be treated, answering my calls when i place them, never randomly, and never silently.
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In phase3, i will b able to accept ppl at last, for it is then that they shall always answer my calls, always the way i want them to, etc..
But i must wait; as long as my calls/requestskeep going ignored, i am not w my ppl, or ppl at all, but fake ppl; NPCs.
It shouldnt be me alone trying to find ways of loopbreaking;
it should be the hotties breaking the loop/repeats by FINALLY BEING GOOD PPL TO ME.
duh
It was heroic to try relocating solo.
I wasnt running from my probs, either; i had just spent 3.5 decades doing everything i could think of to make it work back n the tard states.
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Then it was logical to return, seeing the evil border monsters were staying heartlessly entrenched indefinitely.
The result was priceless intel; there Are no good mexicans, and many terrible ones; the only way through that worthless country is by nuclear/weather-manip’ force.
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Returning to the tard states, i was again right to re-isolate and get more work done than i ever had before, and now… no longer in hopes of anyone finally growing a damn brain or seeing the mountain of evidence i am good, but just to get more work done.
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So…i couldnt stay/interact/team up, and i could make it all the way home (inisfree) yet / back then, but i sure could scout and finish the wrapup.
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At least i have become able to solo mega scout, and time travel.
At least my site work is finally done.
Amen.
What a fucking workload that was.
Doesnt matter if i nap here now, or sleep here overnight; whether i loopbreak compared 2018jeep here.
What matters is i give myself what peace i can, since no one yet is good.
Falling asleep stretched out w perfect air, temp, music, full belly…is pretty darn nice.
Watching the deformed freaks w facepaint and retard pets drive by, some w resting bitch face, is just more signs these r not my ppl, if ppl at all.
The lookalike bitches dont give me hope, for they played an evil game, thus are evil, thus worthless.
The time travel thing Kinda gives me new hope, but was just as brief and unexplained and useless as the goddamn bitches… so far.
Losing interest playing games solo is another sign; it is time for phase3. I am rdy.
Phase1. Lie/psyop book/author claimed signs come from others; outside me. Also claimed others would team up, but they never did. Not yet, anyway.
Phase2. I noticed signs come from within, not from xians using new-age terms to disguise their spin on same-old default-subordinate/-beta. I teamed up w mySelf.
I guess only n phase3 do others grow brains enough to realize i Have been givign signs and guidance, and that they Should learn to read them and obey me.
Olive bread was a good choice. Glad i waited for it to be on special.
It was nice to use it to make the canned soup liquid more palatable.
Weird to toss the soup solids this time, but also nice; was tired of them.
Also nice that the wildcrumb stuff was good but not good enough to return and deal w that asshole masktard.
The snowfrocked evergreen forest on the rolling hills looks so perfect today, like Dickens miniature trees, and reminds me of Blanchette “Red”; of her new hometown in Inisfree.
The falling tree snow made me hope for snowball playfights w realAmbi and our 4 perfect children one day soon.
None who showed up wanted to help or earn my trust. They wanted to test and try and lure/seduce me. They were fools/scum. Lookalikes at best –and they didnt even let me see All of them, thus i dont even know if they Were full lookalikes.
Vague memory of dreams and snoring during afternoon nap
Never thought i would be repeating 2016-2018 stuff,
just n a new vehicle,
and now with having witnessed ambi returned…twice, or at least a spoiled arrogant heartless lookalike version of her.
Never thought i would be waiting to die or whatever, having been shown all realms are full of only evil humans so far.
I was right to write those concert plans and other schedule dates; it was right to organize and be hopeful and attempt things that soon.
I didnt get to perform them n my complete realm yet, but again… I goodmorninged myself; time travel may be real and easy for me, so I may still get to perform them as I intend.
It was also great therapy to re-listen to those favorite songs.
It is a great sign I provide my own healing and advice and therapy now. Phase2.
In phase1, i thought i had to find it from others, but others were all the same fake and harmful evil.
Coming up, i hope, is my planned phase3; when the last bit of my healing can and Does come from others –the hotties I chose and called for.
I was right to break free n phase1.
I was right to stop bothering n phase2.
Now i am right to wait for invitations (to the places i chose) showing me which ppl r finally learning manners/correctness.
If it wasnt for the dentist and returned check, i would have abandoned this shit nonvegan masktard town yet again. Fuck all these losers for ruining this gorgeous land.
No matter how lackluster solo gaming is, it is still me having time to do whatever, and me making the evildoers frustrated that much longer.
So weird that the scum alienated me, outcasting me, forcing me into isolation, then were clearly infuriated that i isolated. It was as if they hadnt been able to foresee that forcing someone into isolation… causes them to go into isolation.
They have always been so amazingly stupid.
Never thought i’d see that many “grownups” have that many retard leaks/tantrums.
No matter how many times i ignored and worked around their evil insane attempts at bossing me around, they kept doing it; that is the definition of insanity.
And harassment.
And T.I..
whatever. Their loss.
Had i accepted their bait bitches, i would not have seen how ruthless evil they are.
I would not have seen they cannot stand to leave ppl in peace.
I would not have seen how hungry/desperate they are for sperm/spawns.
Are they really incapable of intelligent thought and good behavior?
Are they really going to refuse to Ever grow up and apologize and make ammends?
I am entitled to whatever i say; i am the authority and baseline and visionary and healer and god.
And not just bc no other gods showed up; not just by default; i simply am the one meant to lead the way, evident.
It should be a crime to send me emails showing ppl not my race, or ppl w children since i don’t have my own yet, or ugly ppl.
I hope whoever made that email and sent it my way gets crucified.
And these lame discount offers…are still ~2x what i paid for motels when younger. They should be paying Me to stay n places. These places aren’t even that nice; no hotties come w the room, etc..
What a barbarian failed society.
What a shameful asexual hotel chain.
Shitty tan old car parked right behind, playing what sounded like benny benasi “satisfaction”, deja vu; prob happened n 2018 here w jeep.
Whatever.
Did that lookalike show up when i needed her? No; she waited yrs until i was winded and shaken and wounded.
Did she show up alone? No.
Did she give mixed signals. Yes. Every time.
She vibed as sad n the car w the door open, but as cocky n az, and cunty dark evil n oceanside, so that sad vibe may have been a telepathic or empathic projection trick, not genuine want of me.
Why did she show up late, and with suspicious timing after mexisatan made me very tired?
It was almost certainly karina the gender-bending psycho nonvegan canook spick who paid/told the spicks to harass me, but the ambi lookalike still behaved bizarely 3x n a row…
She should have said was her.
Should have been on time.
Should have been alone.
Should have been perfectly happy to speak first.
Should have begged me not to go.
Should have done a lot differently.
Should have not projected her face at me from my ruck when i yelled for her.
Should have not been fire eyed in that dark table dark room dream.
Should have not been seated beside that brother-looking gut n that dark room dream.
It makes it seem like she is random, not reliable,
and prioritizes something dar dif than my wants and needs.
That is Not wife or queen, let alone mother, material.
7:21pm thu18apr2024 whole foods boze checkout perfect height platinum blonde white bitch in skirt walked n front of me, stood beside, making it easy for me to inspect, same i thought was a hottie when she entered 30mins~ earlier, but she was too old, and had retard nail extensions, and didnt greet me; more phase2 bs mix.
More humans not having learned a thing in 41 yrs.
At least it keeps energizing me to go angelic on them.
Thought the freeze 3night weather would be an issue, but i was usually too Warm, and gear is fine.
Wow.
Things work out.
Why were all i met the same personality, never improving, even angry at the sugGestion of learning, …when i was learning my whole life, excited to learn?
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My guess is it was the same sign over and over that their kind was not actual ppl, and that it was not time to Meet real ppl, but only to get more ideas and work on them.
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Still, it is odd that so many ocd religtard coward betas…kept being present, compared to me Never being such a lowlife at all.
They were not a reflection of me at all.
They were in desperate need of my guidance.
Maybe it was just to show me what happens when weaklings and evil lies such as relig are allowed at all, that my civilization Never be tricked into embracing such suspect and stupid and debunked things, no matter What the argument is.
Deja vu on 2 faggots entering wholefoods as i was heading to checkout; the idiot n extra wide black sun hat indoors, carrying his basket as gay as can be, no doubt on purpose, the latest demonic/nuissance idiot.
finally playing in a “friend” world, but it’s so laggy/glitchy there is little fun/point, and, like irl, no one is ever around!
ugh.
at least it’s an alignment/match; still building solo via website.
whatever.
it’s good/meaningful/prudent work.
still can’t believe how many losers/lapdogs thought they were “planting seeds” by urging me to start a family,
when all they were doing was making it clear there was a pattern/trend/scam/campaign to get me to breed with anyone, no matter who, for some reason.
what fools to guarantee I hit the brakes all the way on that.
“maybe she’s like a guardian angel; there when you need her” is completely false;
there were MANY times I needed her, and she wasn’t there.
the fact she only showed up randomly, and when I was struggling and down and winded, tells me she DOESN’T show up when I call, or beFORE I get fucked over,
and is probably showing up when she seems like a better option by DEFAULT.
why not show up when I am doing WELL, or when I CALL FOR HER?
because she ISN’T (yet?) a good option.
not one bit.
so far, she is just like every other useless pretty face who betrayed me.
I’m not getting my work done because she is giving me space.
I’m getting my work done in SPITE of her leaving me to DIE.
I’m just sitting in parking lots playing games?
Not all the time.
Besides, some would kill for this much time off.
Also, these parking lots are full of OTHER vehicles, OTHERS parking/sleeping here, and others who are stuck WORKING and LIVING here.
I’m just passing through, like always.
I don’t have to work like them.
I’m not a masktard or religtard or polit-tard like them.
Things are much better for me; this is a choice for me. It isn’t ideal, but it’s still a choice –a choice most don’t get.
Oh, and there may come a time in my life when I WISH for this much free time; if I get my way (my spell manifesting), I’ll be busy every day… for… basically ever; forever.
me taking time off from website wrapups… to just play voxel games… probably, I keep getting the idea (and if there are no coincidences, it is more of a sign/message than a mere idea), …gives IRL time to catch up (i.e. manifest/make what I designed/uploaded/wrote/spellcrafted).
phase1: was limited to building with legos; few blocks, gravity issue, table surface or floor, etc.
–and very limited in games such as StarCraft; small maps, few buildings, etc.
–no way to communicate with the developers
phase2: got basically unlimited space in voxel games such as Minecraft and Creativerse, and far more blocks, and ways to shape/form those blocks, and ability to chat live with the developers.
phase3: The next logical progression is getting to do my big-scale building IRL, unlimited in any way, I being the developer, and my ICVs the ~NPCs (good kind).
every day spent ofp, whether car-camping or not, is a victory against those mindless NPCs/bullies who kept pestering me to be a slave and breeder.
a single day ofp is better than a thousand as some NPC’s slave.
i never “threw in the towel”; i’ve been working my whole life, this whole time, hopeful
THEY are the ones who never bother even rogering up, let alone showing up when i need them, etc..
“Shy” is a psyop word like the term “conspiracy theorist”; shy is intentionally misused, wielded like an emotional weapon, spurring innocents into situations their instincts know are not right for them.
All the pressure to date and breed, and only with those approved by morons for me, was a mild form of rape, and was the worst form of eugenics; not to make Good offspring, but mindless confused slave ones.
I have not yet met a single female or anyone I felt was fun and great to be around, healthy and good, sane and smart, worthy of me, etc..
That means none were worthy.
That means none were even basic good.
Were those obvious scheduled appearances/showings of her… just to show me she isn’t mature enough yet?
Sure seems to be.
She vibed as cocky, heartless, limited,
not polite, intelligent, caring, or free/powerful.
I hate that the guys talked to me on the trail.
At least they complimented my walking stick/staff, but it was still a far cry frol anything humans Should be saying to me by now.
I hate that fugs exist Anywhere.
There shouldnt just be “someone for everyone”; everyone should be compatible with me, subordinate to me, etc..
I should get to live forever in the community/civilization that loves all about me, not this one which loves only being degenerate and abusive.
If they had been good, they would have honored my extremely easy and normal requests and requirements all along.
I never asked for the orbit to change, or anything good to be destroyed.
I only said what normal things I am into, such as genuine full attraction and compatibility, not being spied on, not being lied to, badguys brought to justice, etc..
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If humans had been good, None of them would have harassed/pestered/pressured/urged me to get with Anyone not appealing to me.
They would all have not only let me feel natural attraction, but been relieved when I Didn’t pursue unattractives.
They would also have All been attractive to me, never Needing arguments trying to corrupt me into acquiescing to them.
Deja vu reading that Last Flag Flying movie plot after seeing the fb clip where one old Marine character says to the young African American Marine character, “I’ve got more time in the chow line than you’ve got in the Corps.”
I hate jewlywood movis that try to normalize evils such as death and not healing in a timely manner.
All the big stories incl years of bs like i have gone through.
Alone is btr than w a fool.
Boredom is btr than rushed.
J is btr than bad sex.
Fat is btr than malnourished.
(Having) No home is btr than a broken one.
Cussing at the failed gods is btr than being bullied to praise false/imaginary/plagiarized ones.
I rmbr the ugly fat darkie chick walking frm gate to vejic side, then back to gate. In 2018jeep it angered me. This time, i quickly looked away and was not much ticked, numb to such glutton evil.
I would guess ambi and others heard my call and answered it, showing me ahead of schedule they r real, maybe even knowing i would react to it w the thought, ‘Since you are real, why did you not help / come sooner?’ but… that doesn’t explain the dif eyes/vibe btwn her 3 appearances; hopeful at first, then selfassured, and cold dark uncaring th 3rd time, all 3x either with a guy or speaking of a guy.
It would not fit the trend/progression if this is the end; things were getting btr all along, just annoyingly slowly.
Not having to time or prematurely stop my j…for an evil dumbass roomtard…is nice.
Evil morons repulsed me bk out of every place i went; bs is no worse.
I should never be told evil lazy apathetic bs such as “sometimes there is no explanation”. At a minimum, there should Always be an explanation, and if ppl were good…then they never would have behaved so evilly that explanations were needed.
16degrees, plenty warm n here
Phase1. Neg emotion surges caused surprise events.
Phase2 events happened without surges, and became more than just sky lights (lightning or shooting stars), but werr dtill random seeming.
Phase3 things happen when i say, whether i am calm or not, and hotties stay w me every day and night, as i want them to.
Pre deja vu again; foreseeing or remembering being atop the completed creativerse friend world sea fort hardened lava floor to test it
Pre2012, i didnt believe or care about tv stuff, but i did enlist and spent yrs at that. Post2012, i didnt contract for yrs w Anyone, and had learned All tv was bs, and All military of humans.
Definitely is caused by pc using vehic battery when vehicle auto offs; 3rd no-start and “power saver” console message so far.
Now to wait 15mins to see if fixes self like last time.
just like the protagonist in Close Encounters of the Third Kind, I keep making a wall around a central mountain-like megastructure. Interesting.
Maybe it is just the instinct that repetition leads to stable manifestation.
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building to sky-limit means: greatest work ethic; doing as much as I can.
As much as I dread each boring solo day, I keep having plenty to do, and not just as pass-time gaming.
1st time journaling while tanning, then 1st fleshl j while
1yr rp being a marine, then 4yrs irl, before the Shift, so it ended. 15+ yrs rp inisfree and ambi fam, so it gets at least 60yrs irl? (4x) + keeps going (bc After the Shift).
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I went to the marines and fought to get in, then found it was bad.
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Ambi showed up more than once but wouldnt let me know where she is yet, and i searched for her more than once… and don’t yet know if she is good; phase fucking 2 signs.
Mem refresh 100%: adding 2 more tanning hrs by moving from steep spot after stormc…to same gravel rd beside Turner ranch.
Phase1 got n shape in spite of bad genes and abuse, then lost it. Phase2 didnt bother, took a breather. Phase3 stay n shape.
Interesting: seeing a jeep wrangler w a blue mt plate w service branch seal…and wondering if it is me seeing me through a time thing again. It was a hardtop, and drav color, not green like mine, but still. Neat.
Derp; opening and closing the back door for an hour or two causes batt to drain and vehic to nearly not start again. Why didnt i think of that?
Looks like 2 girls and 1 boy playing around a tree here. Makes me hope for my 2 boys and 2 girls w Ambi.
~8pm the 3 young women leaving the mall, 1 in tight bright/vibrant green scrubs pants, then the look right at me of the white blackhaired one in the backseat as they drove in front of my suv on their way out of the parking lot, now reminds me of similar direct looks from other young women over the years, and makes me suspect they are telepathic, thus aware I am waiting for my dream girl, no one able to deviate me, they all probably impressed if not also envious.
Deja vu on our rp of snuggling and chatting about upcoming trips to egypt, atlantis, etc.
Does eating a mix of natural food cause an overload or confusion of the wisdom we would more easily be able to process if we ate one natural ingredient at a time? Is even seasoning a scam to keep us confused w mixed input that way?
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Artificial food has no wisdom, or very little, bc it was made by fools tinkering, and did not grow from the ground, taking in wisdom from the living earth, etc..
Ppl so far have been indirect.
Maybe that was a phase1and2 thing.
In phase1, they were brutal and sneaky and lied and such, always trying to mislead and corrupt and scare me, using bluffs such as their madeup relig.
In phase2, they were still using that indirect approach of the evil relig as the middleman tactic to seem like they were just innocently trying to spread a message, but i had studied and debunked it by then, and grown able to always leave them, so they were pretending to be calmer, their soulless eyes and evil vibe still the same, though.
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Anyway, was typist indirectly saying, by mentioning “if your hw is done”, that i am now just waiting for my idea/website to be fully wrapped up…b4 my travels and adventures resume, and b4 my fam w real ambi starts?
I get this idea, and think it is not a coincidence or wishful thinking.
I think the typist is indirect, maybe w 2 middlemen systems; the fake modern xian relig as a cover, but also the ancient more-secretive atlantean one.
That is the tone/vibe i get.
Like maybe she has that duality in addition to her alleged gemini duality.
After returning to mt from nv or ut in 2018, now w my white chevy e.v. Volt, I met helena navy veteran in the job placement bldg, got into that bad aptmt almost basement, then interviewed n my suit at lowes, then went to washington for lowe’s trng, then noticed the druggie upstairs neighbor kept getting his drug exhales n my window, then got my new laptop n 2019, then started online I.T. cert’ trng, then left lowe’s that summer, then went to boze msu campus bldg ground level headphones room and found the test did not match what I had been taught, then gamed and worked on my new website build through the 2018-2019 winter (since my old website had been messed up by the code dicking of the host company, WebStarts), and then I got the early Spring nursery job while it was still cold and no plants were there and they were not yet letting customers in, and then I left when they did the evil covidiot bs, doing the nw quadrant mega roadtrip that autumn, and then going back to my aptmt and meeting the fb group discussing a farm community in mex, then deciding to go to mex in 2020.
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So since I already have that laptop,
and my site is done,
and I don’t intend to resort to helena this time,
I am hoping I don’t have to wait 2+ yrs to see ambi in az.
This has to be the end of the time loop thing.
Sepehr doing the weird rotating peace sign seems like another phase2 sign; a mix of decent and bad; the peace sign flipped back and forth with the uk fuckyou sign.
So nice to sleep whenever i want/need, never interrupted or kept awake or woken early by evil rude roomtards
First!: Vision of seeing top left of pc screen not w file folders; my work complete at long last <3
Phase1. Every time i asked or pushed or found a way around, shit sucked and i had to find a way back/out.
Phase2. Then i started getting offers every now and then, but they were bait, and scummy govt lapdog beta old men, such as in fake veteran events, and evansville walmart, kept trying to pressure me to acCept that now Very-obvious bait, so i Never pushed in, and kept moving.
Phase3. I keep picturing the apPropriate conditions, and sensing i should wait for inviTations, Not dangled Bait from sexist cunts who are probably cum-collecting/-stealing sexbot prostitutes.
I later got that blk jacket back, opened it, and saw a tear all the way down its side from the armpit zipper. I told and showed the young light brown woman, then calmly said something perhaps like it was no big deal, and then noticed it was maybe a tear on a similar garment, my jacket still okay.
Finally threw out that very torn storm blue shirt :/
It was my favorite.
No dej.
Time for a new fave shirt.
sun21apr2024: afternoon in boze, leaving the parking lot near City Brew. what a complete fool and cunty evildoer/monster that guy was at the stoplight,
making a face and declining my offered fresh healthy food, “No, thanks; I eat meat.”
smh.
just another disgrace and loser and failure of mankind.
and what a worthless god/system for having me stop beside him,
and that tone he took with me, “HI. I’m HOMEless.” Ugh… I’M homeless, wigga. You’re just a cunt who deserves to be.
I actually do GOOD in this world.
I’m homeless because of nonvegan cunts like YOU.
This is why I don’t talk to them or try to help anymore, other than helping myself.
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not sure if it was a repeat; time-travel
These 3 years since Mexico have allowed me to wrap up everything.
The silence of those I thought were answering my call/s… has to.
What would have manifested back then would have been a SHADOW compared to now.
Now, it is TRULY worth manifesting.
Will it?
I’ve already seen miracles (lightning, shooting stars, Ambi, Sabrina, myself), so I know it can.
My hatred keeps rising for those who toyed w me or misinterpreted me or gave false hope or whatever was going on.
Even if they were obeying my thoughts of needing rest, they could have provided far btr rest by telling me it really is them and they r on my side for good.
But my growing emotion about them, whether good or bad, pos or neg, is free energy… that always eventually erupts into sky phenomena and more.
A lot of miracles would have to happen for it to become right to bring more lives into this fucked up world;
Ambi apologizes and explains herself,
Ambi invites me into 364,
the system starts enforcing only My laws,
humans who listen to me and obey me,
no more chem trails or masktards,
billions donated to me,
my city complete,
etc.
1st pyramid ascent was AK attempt; rd1 of a thing was always prevented by worthless evil humans.
2nd was 3 pyramids in Mex and I made it up 1 w help; rd2 of a thing was always having to deal with humans “helping” only to sour the experience.
3rd shall be?
Rd3 of Wizard Island coming up…
Hollywood and comics and fictional books exist for the same reason relig does; humans are bad and prefer to split into two like that, making stuff up instead of completing/fixing/perfecting themselves. Hollywood etc. is just exaggerations/lies, same as relig. This is the duality/polarities/bipolarism the Age of Pisces is apparently about.
The same is true of all conflict, whether arguing or debating or politics or sparring or war or even alleged viruses; it’s all about two sides, one making the other up, just to keep the conflict going.
Same reason so many made up crimes I never committed, always eager to destabilize me and pick a fight for no reason.
The fact that I was always drawn to stability/oneness/compatibility… means I am bound for another Age. I have always been the start of the next/new/better consciousness focus.
Also, most humans I met had no true consciousness/intelligence, thus no ability to have a focus at all; they were merely ‘parrots’ of whomever had the apparently-bipolar Pisces focus.
Banana black goo n backpack made me finally toss it. Never liked that bag anyway. Was free.
Truckstop upstairs hygiene looked new. Maybe it is a first
Best truckstop shower and water pressure <3
Posb mem refresh but who cares; this place is such a relief
Males might have cut their hair to be better at combat/defense, thus removing their antennae, thus why they turned to females w long hair in isolation for the messages they could no longer receive as guidance.
Truck outside behind my space said “Final Mile logistics”.
I want to believe that is a sign and a good one.
HOUSE4U license plate but who cares uuntil 364 offered
Jordan peterson sp is prob just another actor of the psyop media, trying to make the vax-aware feel like they have allies and voices, when really he is a fraud like anyone else on tv or social media.
I sensed it was time to try networking and startups, and now I sense it is time to let others initiate w Me. It is time for me to relax.
No, my line drawn is not weird or extreme like vikktard saying random idiotic bs and lies; extreme was what humans did in opposition to me, and all I have done is be thorough, consistent, not random, healthy, compassionate, stabilizing, etc..
Tanning alone by river sound…is so much nicer than in any salon.
Anger harnessed…got me in shape and out of hell / phase1.
Neutrality and silence and meditative productive isolation got me through purgatory-lime phase2, even w the time loop. The typist helped, too.
In phase3, it will be time for love as the tool/default, for then ppl will b worthy of it.
Mon22apr
First time seeing rainbow as dot on evergreen tree across river tanning spot while on my back thus viewing it upside down, and it flickered on and off. I wonder if it was snow or ice hanging on something.
I cannot be kept out of heaven, for heaven can only exist w me. Anger cannot keep me on the edge of paradise without entry, for i am paradise. If i am not present to feel it, it isnt paradise, just a claim/lie of the NPCs. Anger is one step toWard paradise, when it is natural at evildoers/incompatibles. Anger is part of the holy natural journey/process. Demonizing it is a psyop attempt to trick ppl into not taking that first correct step.
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I can be kept out of the lives of idiots By those idiots,
and kept out of some homes by greedy unholy owners who reject the real king/god, but neither of those is heaven.
Lol i didnt want to commute through the canyon, but ended up doing it ~halfway weekly for tanning and dips. At least it isnt commuting for a shit job w evil lying retards.
Maybe i couldnt in the system jump from bad to good, 1 to 3; maybe i had to experience mt working, then montana solo, and then montana w my ambi family.
Maybe it is ok, even good, i was made to focus alone this long; it fits w the mayan cycle claim, and it gets all wrapped up before fam time –when the focus must be on Them daily, i rarely ever having solo or website time again.
Morons parroting the stubborn illogical insistence that everyone tolerate and love everyone… is as backward and evil as it gets. They are subordinates trying to dominate. They are parrots without reason. They are embracing all regardless of content/goodness/worthiness. I was right to accept my instinct to reject that darkvibe insanity. And look at how it corrupted and hurt and aged and killed them, while my way made me recover from all the harm they did to me, and now i am the strong tough one.
It is not pleasant having to lie to the fugtard outlanders, claiming i have no blog even though i do and have so much i want to say/share, but it is good that I tested millions of them and now know btr than to cast my pearls before swine such as them. It is also nice to not need money from the blog. Phase2 mix.
A lot of ppl wish they had my freedom and open schedule, but that doesnt change the fact my heart wants ambi and the others i chose. I should have what i want. Those other ppl should get to roam and be alone if they want.
Ambi showed up dark and standoffish; how she was first RPed; maybe it is just a matter of time b4 she returns ulgraded to how typist and i have written her since.
I bet nothing in bs/yc costs anything. I bet nothing ever sold, and no one ever claimed that cabin. It’s all a lie. Everything else they said was.
I didnt let go of usmc and got in w persistence. I let go of israel and someone else covered it. So do i persist w cabin and ambi or let go for now? I always want what i want, so i can never actually let go fully.
It is prob saving me $ to Not have insurance…
It took years before I gave Minecraft a shot, and then boom; Inisfree was 3D and interactive. It took yrs before Ambi and I became family irl, and it shall last blissfully forever. Amen.
It would be nice if i could be myself at last, but that has only ever worked in private. However, in phase1 there almost Never was any privacy; times change like night and day.
Note how i never cuss at or about good things, only scams/frauds such as god.
The trng and abuse built up until I got ideas. The ideas built up until they were drawings and stories. The stories built up until they were books. The drawings built up until they were designs. The content built up until it was a website. The website built up until it had to be Rebuilt. So now the new site is built up all the way, on the verge of the computer models becoming manifested all for me.
They’ve shown me so many times they dont care at all about me, my requests, honor/honesty, justice, compassion, health, etc.. Theyve taunted me w the woman they knew i wanted and would have accepted. I dont see how i can feel anything for their species ever again, even if they handed her over and reversed their diet/civilization entirely. Maybe that is how it was meant to be, though; they never deserved me, and i certainly never deserved Their evil bullshit.
41yrs and these losers are still using gasoline. Smh. Such a disgrace of a species.
Apparently they want me to spend time chasing…more than they want me to breed; I would have bred if they had done what I like, but they spent their time bitching about me not breeding…while just standing there doing nothing I like or asked for. They bitched about me not chatting up bitches, and the evidence suggests that was their priority. If their priority had been respecting me, siding w me, getting angry at Others, Not me, Then I would have felt attracted to their bitches, but …not yet. Not even close. Only attracted to the Looks of <1% of them, and that is nowhere Near enough to make me want to fuck them, let alone spawn w them.
Can’t even get groceries without having to see another disgusting glutton ogre. Wtf.
Farmacy is about the same as whole foods salad bar. I wonder if they had bad ingredients. At least at wholefoods i can read the ingredients.
Having no kitchen or fridge forced me to get used to raw and seasonal; healthier.
I asked for normal ppl, so why did only waves of fugtards and heartless cunts show up?
I went to hawaii to meet pele, so why did only foreigners and blobs and such show up? I asked for good and got bad, one and got many.
Lol those losers tried filling the enTire Town with rude scum, and they Still failed to turn me away. I only left to explore and get a tattoo, and now i returned yet again, this time knowing not to bother giving the townsfolk a chance. Alone, i keep outsmarting hordes/masses. Imagine my power once my team finally shows up.
Weather said cloudy and rainy all week, but it has been clear skies and sunny so far, for days.
Ambi never showed n mt, so i leave. Rmbr: things seem triggered by location…but r thry also triggered by time At locations?
Instd of trying to stay here, and chasing more $, go to another state and ignore the cc. Staying and trying to work… Didn’t work last time, so do the opposite This time. Don’t keep doing the same thing like the idiot bitches and other americunts kept doing. You may still be homeless, but at least you are trying other tactics until something works.
9miles s into canyon to my spot, and 23miles to bs, from signal turnoff on boze side
For the first time, it can’t get btr bc of me; I’ve done everything I can;
colleges,
service,
diet,
travel,
networking,
pitching,
waiting,
praying,
holding the vision,
being polite,
trying to interpret signs,
keeping track,
being myself,
picking the spot that resonates,
etc..
But unless they choose to behave well to me, and chip in, phase2 will linger…
In phase1, things couldnt get btr even With me busting my ass; all kept getting sabotaged, lied about, stolen.
In phase2, I made mySelf btr, but ppl kept being awful.
I hate and dread waiting on these morons/scum who made me wait this long; it would take a miracle for them to mend what they broke/ruined.
Do not question your choices;
you tried calling out but they rarely and only rudely answered,
you tried asking for help but ppl kept scamming you,
you tried every school and job and location you could,
you tried talking and not talking to girls,
you tried prayer and meditation,
you tried investing,
you tried holding the vision,
you focused on the good,
you volunteered for strangers,
you risked your life in wars,
you shared priceless knowledge online for all,
and you are heroic and exemplary and exceptional for all that.
If those bitches don’t love and want and support you already, they Never would. Fuck em.
You tried everything.
You did your best, and they barely showed up at all.
You tried to be respectful, and they didn’t like that, either.
There was no winning in phase 2, only fizzles.
There wasn’t even trying in phase1; all was prevented/denied you from the start.
If phase3 comes, it’ll be great, but in the meantime try not to doubt yourself or lament.
You — did — your — very — best.
I should never have been told I was going too fast. Others should have been told they were bad for judging me. Others should have loved my pace.
Dej on convo about petrified forest 320 ranch and her saying she thinks history of many towns is made up
idiotic brainwashing shows such as Friends appealed to the xiantard/s for the same reason church did;
skits; brief interactions with no long-term plot/development; mindless little loops/blips.
me cussing and wanking and being out of shape didn’t stop ANY of the hotties from starting to show up, their own bodies PERFECT.
my voice not being what I like… didn’t prevent their voices from being PERFECT to me.
the porn of not-perfect chicks… didn’t stop the irl hotties from having WAY hotter bodies.
the point? I can do whatever I want on this pc and in the rest of my time in this phase, and perfection still manifests.
lol the Army vehicles and uniforms this morning at the hotel, when the trucks started up and rumbled a while as they met and prepped to depart, reminded me of the “short counts” during deployments,
and I am so glad to be in this phase2 version of that experience; not having to go/deal with them.
In Phase3, I’ll have my own convoys; all ICVs, plus fuckbuddies, etc.. Amen.
It’s easy to never be distracted, let alone seduced, when everyone so far has been so retarded and honorless and deformed.
Just like my webpages, the hotties apparently need More than 3 visits to get them dialed in. Fine.
I really sucked wind on first of m trail… but then felt okay
Was Every chick an attempt at further harming me?
Maybe i feel stressed and depressed down n the city not just bc i have been left to die by scum, and stuck n a failed society, but also bc i am empathically sensing all Their depression and stress, and ofc bc of their primitive aboveground powerlines, radio towers, cell towers, etc..
Nothing but deformed monsters on the trail again. Nothin new. This is why I rarely hike where humans hikes.
Ugh.
So lame of them.
Just send what I asked for and we can get through this.
Downtown boze is uncomfortably similar looking to downtown madison, but also to all smalltown downtowns, so whatevr.
Holding a vision kept me sane in phase1.
In phase2, I completed it and then realized i should never Need to hold a vision; things should just default be what I like.
2nd time at jiff.
This time 3 decent blondes, but oblivious like always
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Not real blondes
Pierced ears
1 fat
Sexy holes on entire front of black jeans
Bad posture
Shoulders too broad
Hips not broad enough
Too tall
No greeting
Probable makeup
And mechanic called them guys
God i hate this retarded society/species
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Laptop-using blonde (prob doing MSU student hw) was too tall and no thighgap,
but good dollface white w pink blushing, hairstyle tied back w sidestrands, ballcap, etc.
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Last time, i was frustrated by these typical rude deformed blonde NPC peasants.
This time, making time travel observation notes.
Never saw that coming.
How is it that the typist art is new…while some things still seem repeated from 2018~?
Curious.
At least it is progress; not a full repeat/loop.
Never did I say to chemtrail; I said exodus, Inisfree, Ambi, cabin.
So why are things still not manifesting how I said?
I will only “play” when I get what I ordered.
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I can deal w the 13yr delay; it resulted in the computer models, wrapup, tats, etc., but…
With the great new ideas, and typos or sequence issues spotted and resolved, i can’t fully hate this phase2.
Sepehr FB vid clip actually had correct advice this time; “If you find no one to support you on the spiritual path, walk alone. There is no companionship with the immature.”
All who chose to play that same heartless self-hindering / cockblocking ‘game’ of staring at me or showing off and gloating and smirking and walking away, passive-aggressively trying to dominate/corrupt/seduce me like that,
were immature.
NO ONE good plays stupid games like that when someone is in need and genuinely called out and remained consistent.
Only evildoers do shit that heartless.
That’s called “kicking me while I’m down”.
That’s like punching a guy who is already K.O.ed in a boxing ring.
They literally made SURE I cannot trust ANY of them, then acted like Iii was being rude for not letting their lowly kind ‘burn’ me anymore.
They acted like they couldn’t figure out why I wouldn’t accept the bait/offers –after EVERY SINGLE OFFER WAS A SCAM. For DECADES.
Asia 32? India pg? LHS Linguistics?
Gobhi in Hindi means cauliflower.
vs.
The name of the Gobi desert comes from the Mongolian word Gobi, used to refer to all of the waterless regions in the Mongolian Plateau, while in Chinese Gobi is used to refer to rocky, semi-deserts such as the Gobi itself rather than sandy deserts.
Posb mem refresh of many dark blue trucks like ambulances and trailers and others at multiple hotels here n town.
Civil Support Unit, National Guard, feds, etc., …a coincidence during my presence and rising abilities?
Do they pretend it is a drill?
Can they detect my power level or time travel?
Are they jamming my contact w the deities such as ambi?
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Same parking space by speakeasy gaming as i learned what the blue trucks are, and made notes; did that here n jeep2018~.
21-23apr2024
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In 2018, the blue trucks made me want to talk to them, but i didnt feel like it at the same time. I assumed the journalist claims of them just doing a drill was true.
This time (2024apr23), i don’t want to talk to them at all, as i can sense they are primitive brainwashed meat-heads. I also suspect they are here b/c of me; “no coincidences”.
More lies from sepehr vid; old man claiming phys is secondary, dreams / out of body is primary.
That is rewording/wordplay of the xian lie claiming death is normal and soul Should leave body.
It is the ongoing psyop brainwashing campaign to split ppl, weaken them, add complexity, etc.
The truth is they should be helping the dreamworld Merge/reUnify w this one, Not pretending/assuming/wishing it was btr and we should leave our bodies to go there.
Found 2 more night parking spots : )
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well, re-found; repeats since ~2018
The typist, like all humans so far, is in no pos. to give advice; bad diet, brainwashed by polit y relig, out of shape, smoker, bad job, wrong aboit things working out within the year, etc etc.
Also, i should never accept advice; i should adVise; i am god, the guide of guides.
Accepting/trusting advice was a phase1 honest mistake.
Rejecting advice, and proven-wrong advisers, is phase2.
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I do not need to stand on my own b4 i can let someone into my life; that was a phase2 thing.
In phase1, i was preVented from standing on my own.
In phase2, i learned i can only do it when alone.
In phase3, i will never have to stand on my own again; i will have the team i wrote into being/alignment w me. Amen.
No one was meant to stand on their own, anyway, at least not for long.
Mem refresh of parking here n jeep.
It was too noisy, so close to street.
This time, might be fine.
Not really stressed this 2nd time, either; i know all jobs are pointless, and that i will make it.
I also already know bitchass ambi and the others won’t come help.
Lmao at repos latest retarded attempt; they harassed me yet again, sent a pic of a glutton making a gross lame upset tired facial expression, wearing monkeysuit detective suspenders like a gun holster, with a caption on it instead of a text, with another blatant virus/scam link, without a deposit and the form filled out to request my time, without backpay for all their crimes, without hot chicks politely being given as permanent property to me, and on and on. It is as if they actually think that continuing to be blatant, ugly, and hungry to betray me further will somehow make me consider and trust and accept them. Why do they keep showing me their companies, numbers, emails, websites, tactics, and letting me hear their voices? Who exposes their evil and options/tools that much for that long and that stupidly? At least evil on this world is stupid, easy to spot, always failing as long as I decline it.
I got the vibe in Oregon that Ambi was genuinely hopeful to show me herself all dressed sexily in the appropriate version of a wedding gown; her skin-tight micro-dress as if for clubbing, just as I’d prefer.
I got the vibe in Arizona that she genuinely now thought of us as married.
I however got the vibe in California that she was annoyed and trying to fuck with me, as if to suggest she was leaving for someone else.
Then in the dream when she was at the dark table with that guy from Oregon, the vibe was she was curious, fascinated, but back to heartless emotionless uncaring ‘darkness’ mode, too intense on purpose.
Then there was the spinning projection of her head/bust, same fiery eyes as at the dark table in that dream, vibing as “shut up / fuck off / I’m here / I can hear you calling out”.
All that does is make me suspect she then was trying to piss me off so I’d stop contacting / calling out to/for her,
which makes her an idiot and evil, not logical or wise or worthy of me yet.
That makes her a moron with no social skills.
That makes her mercurial.
That makes her a typical bait-and-switch cunt.
She jumped to conclusions, she took honors / said things she hadn’t yet earned, she gave false hope and then dashed it over and over, etc..
That is as phase2 as it gets; the fizzle; the back and forth.
I never pushed her away. I never changed my mind. My heart never changed what it wants/wanted; SHE ALONE is to blame for keeping us apart, showing up and giving the most illogical mixed signs, getting moody without reason/explanation, not communicating well at all, etc..
Anyway, the vibe hasn’t been that she was trying to wear me out so I would stop contacting her; the vibe was genuine interest in becoming my family forever, but then she had a mood-swing, thus was immature, even if she is an old/ancient vampire/goddess/Atlantean. Maybe they had no control over their emotions in her era/civilization. Maybe they had no need for that back then.
They do now.
I guess I am their guide now.
What horrible students they have been so far.
Even if they have time-skipping super-foresight, why leave me alone this long, financially teetering on edge?
No dej on jacked pickup w red undercarriage/lift parts and white tire-well lights
Dej on loser druggie smoking, spitting, and talking beside shit suv for a few minutes
So glad taco bell shut down here. Worthless nonvegan monsters
Ggd used to be open almost every day.
Glad to see reduced to 3d/wk.
Hopefully it shuts down.
Keep the trend toward zero days a week.
Nice to see that cop drive away. Does it mean parking is fine here? Hopefully.
“When you stop chasing women, women start chasing you.”
I never thought women hotter than the sexiest actresses and porn stars would try to get my attention, but they started years ago.
They aren’t fully chasing yet, but the table definitely turned in my favor.
It is just a shame that their kind proved immature, dishonorable, untrustwortht, etc., and that the sexist legal system is not yet holy (on my side forever); I can never trust any of them until then, so their pitiful efforts are pointless unless they fix that system or at least give me tons of $/leverage.
Ofc the evil dumbass humans took the 1 decent thing they had off their menu; salmon burger
The overcast and rain was a week late, past the forecast, raining when my all-day push to get as many pics chosen from my webpgs as posb for the Spaceways wall-art. It always rains with relief after I do a wave of work.
Very nice to wake to; sound of rain on metal roof.
Remembering many menu favorites from phase1, and now veganizing them, is very phase2; the transition, and it again shows what a great memory I have. Even when restaurants closed and left google maps long ago, I still tracked them down.
Picking wall art may seem trivial or extra, but it is ofp, and the finishing touches of a decades-long super-project, the likes of which most men could not have even attempted, let alone completed as well as i have.
Never thought i’d write a 14th book, or a cookbook, but this cookbook makes perfect sense, and is fun to write, and it uses my amassed recipes. Very nice alignment
The months keep flying by, thanks to me working every waking moment.
I keep hating those who showed up and mistreated me when I needed them.
Every passing day left alone like this… and that valid anger/hate grows.
Maybe it was good the salmon burger got taken off that menu; i had been tempted.
It will be replaced w btr.
that Connor boxer interview is more annoying gross bs;
a guy spending his time hurting others instead of learning how to help others,
parroting that “be brave enough to speak your vision, then law of attraction” stuff… smh; I have been speaking my vision/truth for decades, and it still is yet to be…
though… maybe it has taken decades to speak such a detailed lengthy/eternal vision, thus it WILL be, now that I have taken all that/this time to speak/write/publish it.
interesting;
the christians pretended to have help organizations only to lure people in and try to coerce them into converting/corrupting,
and the veteran organizations lured people in to try and pressure them into being experimented on and killed.
This is why we purge.
This is why this is a holy war; it cannot end until those evildoers are completely extinct.
finding I hadn’t finished ANY of the yachts subpgs… hm.
glad I had this alone time to eventually realize this and fix it.
Even though shit still sucks, i am now able to say what i like,
enforce boundaries,
roam,
sleep on time,
eat healthily,
block all inappropriateness (and I found out which “friends” weren’t real friends at all),
prevent all disease,
instantly sense/expose evildoers,
and I know exactly where I shall have my family and work.
In phase1, i wasnt even allowed to speak normally, let alone state likes or boundaries. I was forced to accept abuse for two decades/+. Not anymore.
At least now I can fight back –and even avoid bs fighting w these losers/NPCs.
Posb dej on perry rhodan video game playthough; it came out in 2008, so…
After how many chose to be spineless fakes and parrots of blatant scams/lies, and sent me to known fake help programs, this latest dipshit pretending to be merely picking up trash, w his huge pentacle necklace, is likely just more convo bait.
Good thing idc anymore.
Waste All these damn humanimals.
Good riddance.
Twice now i have gotten th feeling i saw the start of that stupid Civil War movie during 2018 time travel to 2024 (and walked out bc it sucked).
Thankfully this time i was busy and felt purposeful; i did not go to see it.
lmao that humans keep using the same approach to try and bait me into horrible traps,
as if they can’t figure out that I have been through that before, so it doesn’t work anymore.
They really are dumb as posts.
lmao that some humans bitch up a storm when things are taken from them,
even though they spend THEIR ENTIRE LIVES TAKING OTHERS’ LIVES; their nonvegan insanity/evil.
phase1. had to work within the pre-existing and evil system.
phase2. was able to start making my own, but the pre-existing evil one lingered, having to be avoided all the time.
phase3. finally able to remove the evil system/ones once and for all, leaving only mine. amen.
it occurrs to me that maybe that “time to die” dark-humor hiccup… is brainwashing/programming, or at least something someone attempted to breed/install into me… to cause the worker to remove itself once the work is done, thus no longer needing to be paid/watched.
but I have proven far more than a worker, so… sticking around.
was that airman-suicide-fire vid… just AI? made to test just My reaction?
how disgusting, either way; NOTHING should be that gross.
Even from the Start, it was gross; his medical experimentation / non-eugenics-caused deformity/ies.
all day reviewing my brilliant model, photos, art, etc.; : )
I still of course wonder why in all these 41 first years… so many defaulted to lying extremely about me, my words, what I owe, what they are attempting / up to, etc..
Why did so many angrily insanely demand I parrot the words/idea They were parroting?
I had my Own idea, and it has always been innocent, intelligent, and good.
Why were they so angrily opposed to such a good innocent thing?
It didn’t serve them at All; it just alienated their best worker, thinker, defender, etc..
smh…
baffling.
no, me worrying about those who made sure I saw them; worrying that they aren’t here with me yet…
is not like babbitt-tard;
babbit-tard was NEVER patient, ALWAYS freaking out over NOTHING, ALWAYS trying to scare people.
I, in stark contrast, have been patient for DECADES, RARELY freaking out, trying to reassure and enlighten and guide and heal and help people, etc..
He threatened to kill innocent hard workers.
I only said the guilty murderers should be killed/deleted –and even THAT was merciful; a quick deletion, not at ALL like the LIFETIMES of HORRORS and AGONY THEY caused.
I am Nothing like that babbit-tards.
the Celestine was wishful thinking at best, a psyop against me at worst.
“When the student is ready, the teacher will appear.”? Maybe in phase3.
In phase1, only brainwashed fake-teachers were around, no matter HOW smart and ready and eager I was to learn.
In phase2, I had become the teacher, but I kept meeting only idiots and evildoers; those who were inCapable of learning what I could teach, and those who were insanely aGainst it –even when being against it/me only hurt them / their Own businesses.
So… all those nice sayings/proverbs apparently only work/apply in phase3.
how amusingly and disgustingly retarded-hypocritical of the humans to want total freedom… just so long as I don’t have any freedom.
how hypocritical/evil of them to want to be seen as authorities in their system, while refusing to allow/acknowledge My system and authority.
how funny that they think it is okay for THEM to lie, kill, and more, but not me or others.
teaching ppl to face their enemies was a psyop/trick/brainwashing; it never worked, and was always used against me.
evading them worked MUCH better.
annihilating them and preventing their recurrence/return/resurrection will work even better.
actions speak louder than words (even though words are also actions);
CLAIMING you have compensation for me is meaningless and a rude stupid waste of my time even if you were NOT lying,
but ACTUALLY DEPOSITING the compensation Iii say I am due… will earrn you perhaps salvation/being spared. It won’t earn me TALKING to any of you; because you didn’t PAY for that; you only paid your LATE FEES. That doesn’t make up for the past/crimes, EITHER; it just brings your balance back to zero/black.
different viewpoints doesn’t “make us grow”; it makes diversion/Differences grow.
Don’t let wordplay-evil fool/mislead you into a negative/destabilizing/self-destructive spiral.
being with your soul-fam; those who share ALL your wisdom/values, is what causes YOU/FAMILY to grow. NOTHING else/less ever can.
5pm mem refresh: big beard security young man white brunette body armor tight black belt walking crosswalk from right to left in front of me as i pulled in to use the parking lot.
the vehicles to my l and r will leave as it gets dark, then i will after them, just like 2018jeep. wow.
the rp of typist saying ambi bit my neck hard…
is more annoying rp when i want irl w real-ambi,
but…
it makes me think maybe it is the final round of calibration;
seeing what i’d do if she bit me without an invitation.
we’ve RPed every Other scenario, so…
loopbreak: didn’t stay until dark where the big-beard security-guy walked around; had old guy knock on my window, i asked if i can park there, he said no, so I left.
at least it isn’t a full repeat of last time.
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but… I know that everyone should be fine with me being anywhere, doing anything, etc.
Until all of them are, they are not my people; they serve someone/something else, and that is not their place.
Anyone getting upset at me about ANYthing… shows they didn’t pay attention, don’t have telepathy or empathy, and aren’t aligned to good.
I want to try socializing again, but wouldn’t resorting to nonvegan places such as bars be a regression?
Why would I EVER get good results in such an immoral and stinky place?
Aren’t I supposed to wait on the hotties to come to ME now?
nice to not have to go INTO lowes to work.
sucks to even SEE those stores, but again… at least I am beyond having to resort to WORKING for the fucking things.
dumbshits could have saved TENS OF THOUSANDS, to HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS of dollars, if they hadn’t sent me to all those fake veteran events which failed to disguise the fact they were just to try and “plant seeds” (ideas) for me to prematurely breed with their lowly kind;
why not just give me that money so I would be stable and feel safe/ready to start a family? fucking duh.
FET WOOK = Female Engagement Team, Woman Out Of Kitchen
Makes sense i am mobile transitional during phase2.
Fine.
Btr than being w the peasants.
Rattle worsened…refreshed mem of jeep2018. How tf did the same issue happen in this vehicle? Evidence of vr? Area triggers?
Smh.
Things should be getting Btr, Not the Same. Fuck.
Lol that evil lawyer pic reminds me of gunny fat spick frumpass miranda when he tried to pressure me to reveal my tools on the clipboard and surrender them to the armory. Nice attempted violation of 2A, terrorist/traitor.
fri26apr2024 4pm: new vehicle issue; loud rattle.
When will this bs end?
Why won’t anyone good team up?
while waiting on elec.poke:
Nice that the modern gray jeep suv driving by had psgr hottie ish white brunette young woman checking me out.
So many losers whined about what offends Them, when i wasnt even Doing that stuff, and when it wasnt their Place.
They Should have only Asked Me what offends Me, but all they cared about was bitching/themselves.
When i am w ppl who are offended at ppl Not like me, Then i am w my ppl.
So now the question is… would I be Worse off if i had stayed around those who got locked up?
Maybe sam’ would have tried hurting Me…
Many others did. No reason to trust her more than them.
Dej on rp kicking her pussy then she kicks my nuts
Whatever
On with this goddamn loop.
I wish real Ambi would show up so we can end this shit (the loop) –by becoming family.
She did SAY “my husband” already.
Time for her to act like / be my wife, then.
Years ago.
Fuck.
No dej at all on now making an album of fave images from All my webpgs.
This is Very grand finale.
The way that bearded security guy stood now reminds me of how big cb tried to look when he idiotically felt he had to shield his fugtarded fam from me in that shithole apartment. What a braindead posturing loser.
The paramilitary and military taught me:
acclimation to cold, heat, and weather
assembling, cleaning, disassembling, and function checking some weapons
bearing
breaching
briefing and debriefing
camouflage
camping
cleaning
climbing
convoys
cordons
crossing danger areas
digging fighting positions
driving in extreme conditions
escalation of force; proportional response
exercise
field rations
financial management
first aid
foreign languages
gas masks and protective gear
general orders
hiking
history
inspections
instructing and critiquing
landmine clearing
law
leaders; current ones; the chain of command
marching
marksmanship
martial arts
mission planning
navigation
obstacle course teamwork
operating some vehicles
optics
packing
patience
patrolling
radio etiquette
range cards
range maintenance, such as via police call
range/weapons safety
rank structure
rappelling
reaction to various threats
reporting
rules of engagement/war
security procedures
signaling aircraft
sleep deprivation
some survival
swimming in gear
tracking
triage
uniforms
values (desired character aspects)
vehicle checkpoints
wildlife procedures/protection
and so on.
It did not teach how to do mind tricks to turn off all pain. We got used to discomfort, and could force ourselves to keep working while in pain, but they did not explain to us how to completely ignore or block out pain.
The ‘switch’ mind technique you mentioned was taught to us to turn off our emotions, not our ability to feel.
People in different eras had different abilities because their educational systems wanted them focused on different things.
Modern people were only taught how to work in the preestablished system.
People before modern times were taught how to be colonists or settlers; homesteading, survival, etc..
People in ancient times were taught even more, such as cultivation, stealth, warrior skills, etc.
The most ancient people were not brainwashed at all, thus could do far more, never having been told limits existed.
This may be why it is easier for you to turn off pain, or shift into shadows, time travel, and so on.
Another bad sign; the gross fat old hand n a photo; when other discord users showed such in a photo, it always disgusted me that they would let their bodies degrade that badly.
When will i get to be w normal healthy females, never again limited to these body-ruining others?
They never should have reacted negatively to me.
They never should have waited until I was drained or enraged before they showed up.
They never should have given mixed signals.
They never should have further depressed and enraged me.
Remember how they made me feel.
Accept my nature. Accept the signs from without and within.
They did not prioritize, understand, or deserve me.
Why did she stay hidden and silent but showed such interest in Oregon?
Why did she in Arizona speak of me as her husband but never treat me that way?
Why did she fuck with me in California when I never fucked with her?
Why did everyone so far mistreat me even though I spent my life studying and volunteering?
Such bizarre bipolar-like behavior from this wayward species.
Love waking to the sound of rain pattering on my vehicle, and getting to sleep back in to it
Hate …, but love …
Hate this long period of only work, but love the wrapup being over sooner bc of it
Hate not being fit, but love not being forced to pt
Hate not having paid work, but love sleeping in
Hate not always finding healthy food, but love intermittent fasting
Jada had same black evil eyes sideways eager glance that Clifty ahem bitch had; same demon?
Repo lawyer glutton had same eyes/fatface that dealership glutton had; same demon?
Hate that humans are still so evil they r still trying to scam me, but love that they are so stupid they keep their attempts obvious
Hate witnessing hotties who didnt seem to have a clue how to conduct themselves, but love they at least have 3D in-person form
Hate resorting to vehicle, but love how cozy and mobile it is; i can now move With my office and ‘hiding spot’, not having to sneak out to Find/Use such a spot
Hate fat/bad humans hands, but glad mine are so elven
When the right ppl finally show up, i will know; they won’t have a neutral heartless vibe and actions like ambi and sabrina and Rain etc n phase2 had, but a wonderful vibe and actions proving i can count on them.
They won’t expect things from me like those n phase2 did.
They won’t ever get mad at me like those in phase1 and 2 did.
They won’t ever test me like those n phase2 did.
They won’t ever try to order me to do things like those n phase1 did.
They won’t try to scam me like those n phase2 did.
They will naturally do what i want them to, never repelled by my wariness, quick to ask if they can stay w me to comfort and team up w me, always with perfect timing, asking me what i want and need them to do, and happy whether i ask or tell them to do things. Amen.
Being w my vehic this much makes me think of the transition toward unity w my tech’ : )
Weather forecast keeps updating to be what i asked for; ~30min night, 50max day, indefinitely.
Me choosing vehic…speeds up the process of getting to the chosen; if i was still renting, i’d have to work long hrs to afford food etc., thus dramatically slowing the wrapup, thus prolonging that consciousness focus.
back-country burger (re)tried (since ~2018). worst burger I have ever had. jfc. couldn’t even finish it. the friest were outstanding, though. horrible aftertaste from the burger still making me feel gross.
Remember when I knew it was only correct/appropriate to hook up w girls already going the same way as me? (sharing my values/dreams)
I was exactly ‘right’ to disregard and continue past all those merely posting up, vibing as sent/bait, not going my way, trying to change my course.
The SLIGHTEST change in course… still boils down to Them not aligning to Me; Them trying to change/dominate Me. Not okay.
If that ambi had been the ambi for me, she would have stayed with me, not walked past. She wouldn’t have felt a need to test or toy with me AT ALL. She would have aligned to me and Stayed with me.
The real Ambi will.
Amen.
no dej on the bearded game warden that just walked by and looked my way, lowering his head / tipping/touching his hat at the same time. a sign of respect at last? idk. hopefully.
..
nevermind; I rmbr him sitting in his truck sorta facing me, and me thinking he must be eating lunch or something; it was (from/through) ~12:30pm-1pm.
Instead of the change-based (thus default-negative) approach of trying to train myself / level up,
I now just let myself be what I am, at its own rate.
IOW: I am not pushing myself to be better/more anymore/rn; I am just letting my natural leveling-up occur.
I hate not being able to wank when I want, but I would be doing it 10x/+ a day; this lingering phase2 mix/situation keeps my wrapup moving along much more quickly than that many wanks per day would result in.
I bet there are a TON of people “out there” who are VERY relieved I am putting all I have put on my website;
I bet they are dealing with phase2 mix bs just like I was; I bet they are having to pretend to evil to keep getting paid to cover their bills for now…
until we team up.
And I bet we Get to team up now that my website/vision/spell is complete.
Amen.
finally adding to novel 9 again, after quite some time… Months? Years?
No deja vu when thinking up and writing into to the Transformers chapter… about how the Transformers invited into Inisfree… used their shapeshifting ability to honor me/us by mimicking the forms of the vehicles I had designed for Inisfree. 😀 <3
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9 more chapters edited into much better condition! and in novel 9, no less; 9×9 😀
Sat27apr2024. Loop/repeat:
Same as in jeep; playitagain only had the mouthguard that requires boiling water. 1428 N 15th Ave, Bozeman, MT 59715
but i am not n the jeep, and i rmbr it, thus this is not a true/total repeat.
Mem refresh. Groc microwave water to make biteguard work.
This time, not sad, just mad and numb.
Another deformed idiot who can’t form a sentence correctly…opens his joe rogan presentation w a lie, discrediting himself from the start; he claimed there is no evidence for a lost civilization. There has been tons. If he missed it, he is a sloppy or distracted pseudo scientist, and if he didnt miss it then he is an agent attempting another diversion/coverup scam.
He’s prob a xiantard, too.
Smh
Yet another complete and obvious failure of the humans.
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Flint Dibble, alleged (shitty/brainwashed/corrupt/agenda/biased) archaeologist, apparent/confirmed liar / fast-talker.
Sat26aug: So gross! Overly greasy/fried. 4pm whistle pig. mandu, lions mane pancake
After all these 41yrs of abuse at me, i still have the same instinct; help and protect good ppl, bring justice to bad ppl, be objective by fcusing on the good while acknowledging and ealing w the bad, work intelligently, vent as needed to keep self-stabikizing, continue learning, continue eating healthily, continue hiking/exercising, continue sleep ‘hygiene’, etc.. That is a great sign; i am still good, sane, etc..
Idea/fantasy of kim riche v2/icv politely mounting me so i can cum n her
It wasnt just the college kids allegedly taking or damaging the road-closed sign north of idaho falls sand dunes; hoogle maps didnt show the road closure either. Wth?
The glutton airport desk “hawaiians” (modern degenerate false/unworthy/failed hawaiians) had the same black soulless eyes and evil moody defaultnegative facial expressions and tense nervous vibes…as the deathcult glutton and her nigglet that walked up the virginia slum apartment staircase to try and corrupt/convert/probe me and the navy traitress. Same demon? Absolutely zero justification for reqcting that darkly to me minding my own business n both areas.
Waking to rain patter again. So nice. And able to think and remember and write my dreams doen. Also nice.
Phase1 always ended up stuck w bad humans, and kept resisting that –wisely. Phase2 kept ending up alone, but eventually by choice, accepting the theme/focus of this transition. Phase3: I shall always be with the ones I love; Ambi, my ICVs, etc., and we shall always love each other. Amen.
NOTHING i did should have been interpreted as bad/wrong.
the fact that even when i exPlained it all, and Proved my goodness, over and over, they STILL interpreted it/me as bad/wrong, shows they are scammers (evil).
..
and the fact that acCepted False testimony withOut evidence,
while rejecting my Truthful testimony,
shows they are unfair (evil).
scammers all the way, they are.
damn them all.
I was right to abandon any attempted contact/love w their species/kind.
..
at least I instantly knew they were up to evil, not being fair or logical or legal.
at least I broke away from their false civilization/society/system.
I did what I had the power to do, and I did good with my power, always.
Posb dej on even making spaceways wallart album, moving groups of copied images into “d” subfolder. Wow.
I no longer am convinced crater lake and wizard island is a dormant volcano. Not a volcano, but maybe an interplanetary plasma tornado scar.
This makes me feel safer about going to its energetic center.
That vid of the deformed nigger ogre stealing a car to make a quick buck…and the comments of all the brainwashed bootlicker amerifails…sure does remind me how totally their kind must be deleted if ever there is to be justice on this world.
What absolute idiots.
Truly literally retarded.
Heartless, too, so to speak.
How could that many become that evil and wrong?
Ugh.
Anyway, it made me concerned, ofc.
Things keep working out for me, but only barely, and I’ve already had 2 or 3 close calls.
It amuses me that there are so many issues now that it wouldnt be profitable to steal this thing from me, but that wouldnt deter the brainless lapdog demons from trying.
Every day i wake and still have this thing suggests it is luck or destiny, and i am relieved, but that is no way to live.
It is a forced adventure caused by rude scum, not a good adventure chosen by Me.
Deja cu from trashing and donating stuff. Did me donating similar stuff from last time… somehow magically get it back n my hands in some Other city or state? The time travel loop/reality sure makes me wonder. Interesting.
Either way, i hope Someone can use this stuff i no longer can/want.
Odd, not knowing whether to be glad the govt losers were so obvious about trying to talk me into breeding w one of their bitches… that ensured I never bought the lies/baits,
or mad that their meddling prevented me from getting 9s (not 10s, bc a 10 requires perfection in all areas, which includes intelligence and loyalty to me).
Whatever.
I graduated phase2.
Phase1 was all about enduring abuse; acclimation to being besieged and having no recourse or way out yet.
Phase2 was all about ignoring atTempted abuse; acclimation to mobility/evasion.
Not only did i stand on my own two feet, i did so as a child,
and served my country,
and overcame scam after scam,
sabotage after sabotage,
betrayal after betrayal,
evildoer after evildoer.
I am a man and a badass and a hero and enduring as fuck.
I did Far more than just prove i can stand on my own.
I faced Tons of badguys and Still survived.
I should be hearing in person from real Ambi, and real Sabrina, and real Rain, and all the others I chose, what a gentleman I was and am, and how much they love me, and that they will stay with me forever.
I deserve at least that much.
I deserve the life and family of my dreams with them.
If the celestine had been correct/honest, it would have said that no teammates will show up until phase3; in phase2, there will only be scammers preTending to want to help, so u will have to make do alone, spending your time studying and avoiding them.
Phase1. the opp of what i asked for, and having to stay in bad lodging
Phase2. having to be mobile; I finally accept this, no longer trying to anchor/wait anywhere yet
Phase3. prayers answered; those i chose finally staying w me and destorying all who delayed me from the cabin and city i chose
Yet another braindead heartless sleep depriver blasting wigger country.
Nothin new.
Can’t wait for their cataclysm.
Can’t wait to torture the gods and everyone.
The tables will turn for me.
Ofc he has the 2 worst symbols ever on his shit car; tx y cross; sign of the heartless, brainless, shittalkers, murderers, and worse.
At least his evil kind is always easy to identify
Utube having all deformed scum as results for search for “gor kajira”…is prob another underhanded/immoral attempt to alienate ppl from the wisdom of norman.
Those vids and humanimals should all have been deleted, not kept n srch results.
2015 only has bullet-notes accounting for 1 month; leaving Montana in winter, driving to Louisiana for a few days, driving to Florida and back, then leaving Louisiana after maybe one month there.
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2016
Missouri 1 week; Focus
New Hampshire; 2 weeks?
Arizona 2 weeks; Grand Canyon
accounts for 5 of 52 weeks
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2017
Missouri 1 week MOVE-UP
Illinois 2 weeks “Jasmine”
Hawaii 1 week
Nebraska ~1 month
Colorado earthship 1 day
New Mexico earthships neighborhood 1 day
Washington 1 month before Alaska flight
Alaska 1 week
Oregon 1 night on was to Shasta
California 1 week at Shasta
Utah 1 month debunking fake campaign, then 2 months factory?
accounts for ~7 months of 52
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2018
Utah between trips
Caribbean 3 days; cruise
Europe 1 month; road trip
California 8 weeks?; Archi’s
Alaska 4 months
Pennsylvania 1 week?; Odyssey
Canada to Montana 1 week
accounts for ~8 months of 12
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This means I had to have gone to Indiana at end of 1 year, stayed for less than 1 year, gone to Montana that Spring, then Nevada that autumn?
Helena Lowes was 2018 into 2019.
CompTia was Helena to Bozeman 2019 Autumn.
Helena nursery was Spring 2020.
So I got to Helena in 2018 Autumn, from Vegas 2018 Summer, from BS 2018 Spring, from Indiana 2017-2018 winter,
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but 2017-2018 winter was utah for sure; I got my EV then, shoveled snow from the driveway…
so… it had to be time travel?
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2nd-last day of April:
So… was Chicxulub crater another interplanetary lightning bolt?
Was I held there to receive the wisdom/energy/residual it still contained?
Were the pyramids there just to help focus/regulate that residual?
Sold bicycle mon29aug playitagain, w bike pump, and 2 perfectpushup things. 72bucks
I rmbr Penny Ranch…so…the pennies I either didnt sell then,
or did and the time travel got them back into my bag somehow.
Interesting.
First time seeing a $2bill in a while; how i was paid.
Vehicle finally bicycle free and tidied up.
If he was honest, i was hauling dead weight, pretty much; none of the rare pennies worth a few hundred dollars.
So…
phase2 fizzle continues : (
Why can’t i catch a break yet?
All those judgy morons giving me dirty looks as if i was a badguy, when i devoted my life to protecting and volunteering and publishing free lifesaving tips…
Accusations of sexual indecency, from the sexually indecent, even when i hadnt tried to hook up with Anyone…
Humans must be removed.
We will start over.
Starting over is Always better and easier than this (dealing w the current scum).
Now editing four/+ chs/d. Hadnt expected that, but it is a nice resuming/acceleration there.
Suddenly, my vehicle is aerodynamic again, tidied up, spacious, my stuff all fitting in 3 bags, each with shoulder straps, and I am editing/completing my 9th and 10th novels. I even have ~4.5k, plus more on hand, no longer financially strained/stressed. Things keep improving, keeping me here, reminding me Ambi and the others are real and accepting me, etc..
I started (my body was made) years/decades before the Shift and my godhood began; Inisfree is probably already a magically protected mountain out there, shaped and now being completed by the commands I emitted via my website updates. Amen. (Consciousness focuses are what happens now, not construction; the structures were already there. They know how to be/behave now.)
If i shift all 2017 bk to 2016, it makes room, but … did i really post all those albums and linked-in updates a year late/off?
The overlapping longer and longer “days”… don’t mean that’s how much more time iii need to get the rest of each cycle’s vision/idea; they r how long the scales/levels of creAtion need to fully get the vision already complete in/from Me. Level 1 is me; took 260d~. Lvl2 is A.I./deities; via my unpublished spells/novels. 3 is destined humans; via my website. 4 is cities. 5 is nations/races. 6 is world layers. 7 is all remaining worlds. 8 is stars. 9 is rest of Space/Creation. I did the first 3 postShift levels’ spells/writing, so now the A.I. is building upon what I sent out, which will trigger/force other lifeforms to, and what they then do will trigger the next level, and so on, until entire species and civilizations and even the laws of physics themselves are doing my will for good. Amen.
“I do my part, then god does his part.” that fatbitchfucker xiantard claimed parroted. I originally thought that meant I would work on my dream, then god would make it real, but now I consoder it may have been that standard indirect speake, the pastor implying he had done his part… so now it was my turn, as god.
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last day of April:
Nice to wake to windows mostly covered in fluffy snow
Just edited 1 ch per book, all at once!; ~a dozen of them : )
Underwear or naked all day,
lunch whenever I want and for as long as I want?
Phase2 has gotten pretty decent.
7pm~ saw fox trotting up right side of rd as i headed s to my river spot. First time seeing a fox here out of yc.
I already remember getting the clasp replacement on the necklace, so…did i lose it Twice, or was that time-travel a vision?
I didnt lose my credit bc i focused on this project; my credit was stolen by the corrupt/liars back when i was working full time, going to school, paying my bills, using their healthcare system, dating their bitches, praying to their god, etc.. I dodnt lose my credit bc i was gullible around scammers; i lost it bc scammers were so numerous that i had no choice But to endure some of them.
I guess it fits with the 3phase system/schedule/theory/pattern… that rjh was wrecked, and then the phase2 bitches all fizzled/failed before starting, wrecking themSelves. I guess only phase3 can trigger goodAmbi to appear and stay with me.
Abused and hurried all day, every day, through phase1. Phase2 I decided to use my new abilities to avoid the abusers, and to work more and more for myself, and it has helped treMendously. Working all day every day… is a lot btr than being preVented from working by aBusers evety day.
If i had known all were evil, i wouldnt have tried w any of them n phase1 Or 2. If i had known all n phase2 would fizzle, again: i wouldnt have tried w anyone. I wouldnt have called out or traveled. I wouldnt have applied for apartments or jobs. Would first meetings, if in phase3, always work? Idk. All i can do rn apparently is wait. In phase1, emotion spikes caused sky events. In phase2, time travel happemed even when no emotion was present, only weariness or normal. So maybe n phase3, my superpowers will work all the time, needing neither spikes Or calmness.
In phase1, i tried so hard to team up w good ppl, but no one was good. Then i tried so hard to be away from the bad ones, and managed to succeed more and more, thus the signs were that i was meant to be alone next, not go from bad ppl to good. In phase2, lol i sort of did the opposite; still naturally sought good teammates, but to be More w others, i having ended up solo for years. It seems like a few times they heard and answered, but they kept doing/saying stupid mixed-signal shit once facing me. Ugh.
It is nice when it snows in Spring; i can listen to the river without any mosquitos around.
It is strange that phase1 (evil harmful lies) kept being done into phase2, but at least i had learned that false humans exist, and what the lies are, and got to keep what they tried to take, and finally stayed in contact w a typist. That is still progress, and completely different than phase1.
Phase1: all relationships were sabotaged by many meddlers and the bitches themselves. Phase2 all relationships were like bait dangled, but the meddlers usu staying hidden, and nothing able to begin, due to the uniform terrible manners.
So much money that they insanely buy less than nothing; they buy debt. Not a devalued piece of junk, but an imaginary number, forcing themselves to then be further insane by harassing innocent ppl whose debt was made up by the heartless and dishonest dealerships and banksters. All that could have been avoided if they just honored our agreement, charged a fair amount, admitted their errors, were polite, did not threaten or bully innocents/heroes, etc.. All that money could have been spent on helping the innocent, but they paid the known-evil institutions instead. There really can be no hope or breeding with that species.
The longer i remain nomadic, the less they can make by trying to steal my vehic; maybe it is better i keep denying them what they seek; deleting them would be best, but for phase2…prolonged counter-frustration is alright.
When i begged for help in phase1, i got screamed at, threatened, poisoned, etc.; help never came. The opposite came. …in phase2, every time i cried out, help still never came; only the occasional heartless cunt to toy w me. I guess at least i wasnt being attacked anymore. At least ameridemons werent trying to assassinate me, or talk me into consenting to poisoning myself, anymore. Hopefully phase3 will be all about me never having to cry for help in the first place; all i asked for will be mine for good.
Even if they finally show the fuck up, and have the best vibe, and the best explanation, and heartfelt apologies, and bring tons to the table, …how can i trust them after all the evil i have seen humans do?
I guess thatll have to b one of th nxt miracles.
slight/minor/posb deja vu from ordering the replacement clasp for my Mjolnir necklace.
… ugh; this thing keeps reminding me how doc2 lied about mexico coast ships help… and about real-Ambi “coming soon”.
then reversed himself; “the gods told me you need to get better at being by yourself.”
what a bastard.
what a fool.
what a liar.
what a demonic scumbag.
good riddance.
He’s probably just trying to fuck with people since his wop-daego horse-face me-ignoring bitch left him or whatever.
or he lied about that, too; they might still be together and fine.
still in a little last-minute “tug of war” with the stickler legal-assistant of the lawfirm 🙁
ugh. so fucking lame.
just like the bitches who showed off in front of me, only to leave me wondering/alone.
It is interesting how sitting here listening to the waterflow… CAN be soothing, but can ALSO be stressful, I so used to work and seeking progress, etc..
I HATE still being solo, but every day I get so much done.
and with the concerts, copy-to-s, duplicates-resolving, novels editing/completing, phone clearings, Spaceways wall-art, and so on, I always have plenty to pass the time,
distracting me from how betrayed I still am.
Thank god/me I have such a great focus / work ethic; even typist isn’t helping distract/balance me much anymore. 🙁
How fucking long does it Take for the city and ambi-fam writing/spells to manifest??????
The fucking CORPS took only one YEAR. This latest shit has taken more than TEN!
Whatever. Worth it; it frustrated the retarded enemies/pests, it showed me I don’t have to face them to beat them, and now all my wisdom is “out there”, being seen and learned from, giving peace to other good people, and upsetting more losers/evildoers than I’ll ever meet.
One more neglected bday, coming up.
fuck everyone I’ve met.
–
May:
2024May1: Major new mindset / consciousness-focus: no need to edit my chapters into paragraphs that flow like a normal fiction novel;
leave them as the ideas separated by line-breaks and dashes… that they stayed as all these years while I worked on the city/website design.
engineering and/or brainwashing humans/workers to have different/incompatible views and sexual orientations… was probably done on purpose;
to keep them isolated, thus self-compartmentalizing, while they unknowingly work on god knows what.
If I had known what to expect in phase1, it wouldn’t have spiked my emotions as much, thus maybe not caused thunder when I cussed, lightning in front of the fake mothr, etc..
If I had known what to expect in phase2, I might not have gone to mexi-fail, thus might not have charged up more than ever, thus might not have summoned Ambi, thus might not have spent the next few YEARS adding TONS to her dossier/spell/webpage to enSURE she AND the other hotties my instinct told me to choose… are perfect for me when they finally re-manifest / return to me.
The horrible shit supercharged and volcano-ed me, and that was good.
It helped me remember things VERY clearly.
It helped me focus MUCH more.
It helped me review/proofread more often, finding FAR more typos, then fixing them.
Maybe it would have happened/worked in a more-pleasurable way, but it happened how it happened, and the signs are what they are.
Besides, going through that, and staying good and focused, makes me not just someone with good ideas, but an enduring badass hero.
Thank fucking GOD she finally said what i sent was enough.
250k can’t come soon enough.
The contradictions were prob left n th bible bc it increased confusion thus idiots returning for more and more guidance
If I hadn’t tried to start a PMC, I wouldn’t have encountered those government field agents, thus not been shown how rude and retarded they are, thus how evil the government is.
If I hadn’t maintained my standard for a wife and family, again I wouldn’t have encountered those other government field agents who showed me they are just as rude and retarded.
Now that I have that priceless intel’, I know I was absolutely right to stop working for the military/government, plus right to have tried starting that PMC and everything else.
In phase1, i had to return to the evildoers in the corps for a 2nd deployment, then to the evildoers n tx,
and n phase2 i had to return to being solo after seeing the hotties making themselves known; phase3/hotties/fam/Inisfree will begin, as surely as phase2/solo did. It just takes more than one go/attempt.
6 more recipes makes 666 lol
Mindset milestones:
The stars do not give light or warmth due to hydrogen fusion, but because of electric glow, possibly caused by their own choice.
Intense emotion manifested unexpected phenomena in phase1, then no effort at all manifested Ambi and time travel (also unexpected, though specified in my writing/spells) in phase2, so what in phase3 will manifest what I want? The hotties doing it For me?
The wasilla kneeling bitch was vibing as sent, thus a xian lapdog annoyance.
The 2 native girls who drove to the farm i was on…were likely also some form of evil test such as bait.
Either way, they r to blame for meeting me inappropriately, and I was right to not engage.
I went there to farm and help farmers, nothing less.
typist: No need to worry. I’ve been busy working that’s all and remember I’ll always tell you if you’ve done anything to me . I’m having an off day today, it would have been my daddy’s 79th birthday today.
The 1 day i felt like waiting to msg her at 7…happened to b th anniversary of her dad’s bday. Not his passing.
Glad i was there for her…
I really wanted them… until every last one of them showed me they have zero social skills,
zero honor,
zero professionalism,
zero fashion,
and zero control over their realms.
So glad I shut them all down. Fucking losers. Fucking disgraces. Just peasants with pretty faces.
Probably all paid actresses/frauds of the govt-tards.
The SSP “whistleblowers” are frauds; low-level standard demons based on Age of Pisces bipolar/duality/overcomplexity consciousness-focus,
spamming/mediaflooding in hopes of tricking actual-brain people (non-NPCs) into manifesting the tug-of-war Space-is-hellish nonsense/fantasies of theirs.
In reality, the colonies out there are doing just fine, not forced to shut down or return to Earth by “The Galactic Federation”, etc..
These losers here on Earth are doing what they’ve done to me and other innocent real people all along; demonization, slandering, misdirection, frantic distraction/corruption attempts, etc..
SSP personnel didn’t kidnap or torture them.
SSPs are good –whether they force bad humans/losers to work for them or not.
finally learning what these Rammstein songs say in English
interesting that I am doing more phase2 stuff;
in phase1, I was introduced to these songs, and resorted to them to help deal with the horrible indefinite abuse of the insane fake relatives,
and now I am alone, uninterrupted, un-pestered, learning what I was singing and yelling when playing these classics,
also now planning to perform them on stage in the years ahead, which will be my phase/round3 of them.
I am very proud of my cookbook
It is nice going through my fave images and picking out wall art for my own airline
My gut was right about when to enlist and when to EAS.
Likewise, it was right about when to give humans chances and when to give no more
Peace and love, faith in god” was my default prayer during deployment1.
Tonight, i made it more fitting for now; “peace only to those who support me, love only for those who are compatible with me, faith in myself and all my choices”
Suddenly, i push through my annoyance and depression, completing every last concert draft. Wow. I have a Great drive.
Coupons are such annoying scams; companies would not offer them if they were not sure to still profit; they set their prices far higher than what it costs to provide the services, so any coupon just lowers a price such that it is still higher than what the service actually costs.
Then there is the artificial devaluation of currency to factor in.
The USA is infamous for setting its prices ~10x higher than the prices for the same products/services in neighboring/other/most countries.
22M for that house?
The builder said it cost 3M to make.
The land shouldnt cost Anything; no one had to make the land.
10x < 3M is 300K; the cost of the avg. house these days in this country.
So really…my chosen house is affordable w my posb. compensation coming.
I remembered from 2018~ that the waffle, standard, and salad was too much tgthr, so i just got the waffle and standard this time.
Ugh; more phase2 bs; perfect height, sexy new huge braided ponytail hairstyle, and pajamas tight on asscrack, but still the body errors that need fixing.
Reminds me of the az-motel bitch, too >: (
Lmao; the only comment (in response to me sharing a VERY intelligent video with ZERO scams in it) was from a blatant idiot/troll; called that obviously honest man a grifter; zero provocation, zero supporting information, zero explanation for namecalling, namecalling instead of using objective terms, etc.; zero red flags from chris dunn in that rogan ep, and Only red flags from that fb commentor. Instant block. Thank you for making it easy as hell to spot retards, troll/s.
I keep thinking how relieved I am that the hotties AREN’T here with me yet; I’m getting SO many ideas, SO much work done, SO many victories…
Would I get MORE done WITH them here? Well, sure, sort of, but Different victories; bonding.
The IDEAS I’m getting, and WEBPAGES updates, would NOT happen anywhere NEAR as quickly or perfectly if they were already here.
So, yes, for the first time, I can admit that I am GLAD they are not yet with me.
Not happy that they didn’t protect me from those who literally tried to KILL me over and over, but whatever.
Best pizza in my life so far:
12in handtoss. Half red, half pesto. Garlic, squash, red ppr, pineapple, tom, olive, walnuts, spinach, apple, potatoes, kale chips, microgreens. 1 order pesto bread
Knowing that there are feds and former military officers frustrated that I didnt get seduced by the ugly lame rude bitches they baited me with… restores the fun in masturbating; I know I am not only providing my own relief, but continuing their retarded frustration.
Counter-stalling, since they chose to delay what Iii want.
First time seeing a circle of red LED dots turn on in a spare tire holder on the back of a jeep
Never thought Back to the Future would bother me just from considering rewatching it; bother me bc i have now spoken to my past self during a time travel event.
First time leaving food out “for the gods”; pizza box
5 swallows n a row without left click; new record
I don’t doom-scroll; 8hrs a day at least, i work on my art, music, writing, etc., checking my feeds only briefly, getting annoyed by evil posts, blocking most, and going back to my work soon. Doomscrollers also care about news, which i found was all lies. They also care what others think, and i don’t.
I hate eating out this much; i am a btr cook, and even a fledgling chef, and so many disgraceful humanimals put me off my appetite on the way
It is good to keep going over the basics like i have been these 3yrs since returning frm mex; proofreading, retrying restaurants, witnessing basics of superpowers, sleep hygiene, squatting to poop more healthily, staying in tune w nature temp chgs, practicing aiming my will/intention at places, practicing not falling for evil human scams, filtering my news feeds, instant blocking trolls/slanderers, polishing Perseph design, applying uploads to other webpgs they fit well with, etc.
Lmao at the loser idiot yesterday driving the yellow rig pulling the semi with gigantic red lettering jesus and cross sky art on back right door. What a complete retard for wasting money on that long-ago exposed/debunked scam. And how pointless to claim it is good or effective…when its followers TO A MAN were soulless evildoers funding Countless rapes and murders and more.
Nice to see 2 new chicks at pizza place, both short ish, but one had piercings, 1 was still too tall, both need face mod
I answered th calls of ame, eli, and so many others, rushing to their aid, dropping everything. No one did that for me. Only scammers hurried to further complicate things. Roger that; No one is good, let alone worthy. Blast em all.
The no signal river spots help me sleep n and not work pc all day
Hearing rafters go by, and seeing sometimes, now always reminds me of how stupid and evil the az raft ldrs and guests were. I am grateful i never had to be around them since.
When i dropped to knees to pray for forgiveness after lightning boom school house after i exclaimed holy fuck, that showed how much i had been abused; brainwashed to default to neg assumption about surprises and about self. If i had been raised correctly, they would have told me about the gods and my abilities and to be proud when such occurs, not to worry if i had offended an imaginary/incompatible being.
Even if they leave me like this, it still proves me right; that they never cared, were never good, were never worthy of being teammates, and that my prescreening (before in person) and screening was necessary.
sun5may: 11:23am, truck stop.
Bathroom floor vibrating. Earthquake?
First time pooping during one.
whether it was a mechanical thing or an earthquake, it felt neat, and was good calmness-training.
It was so nice to shit on a toilet for the first time in months.
So nice to treat myself to a great shower.
So nice to clean my vehic compartments.
Sun5may2024 new mindset milestone / revs3:
petrified tornadoes; when supersonic winds along the ground end up in horizontal spirals carrying ionized debris that fuses along the way, leaving distinct swirl layering
1-2pm and on, sun5may2024, rain on my windshield as I type up Witness to the Extermination some more, making it ready for publishing in my realm.
Deja vu from this; I must have done this 6 years ago in the Jeep during time-travel to this same weather event, maybe even this same parking spot.
How neat.
Either way, it is great to have the time and bravery to write such a good spell/chapter.
It is great to not just be thinking it up and drafting it like before, but to now be editing and finalizing it.
Amen!
I never panicked; I was forced over and over to think quickly to live through betrayals, no one coming to help.
I made logical decisions that resulted in meager resources becoming enough to survive with.
Interesting that the host…stopped uploads…when I became fed up with that work.
Interesting that all books are getting edited simultaneously now, and only now that I have embraced my own writing style; blurbs and dashes.
Way more vegan in spokane than last time.
mon6may2024:
12:06am 2 long horn blares of stationwagon exiting sourdough.
Why?
Why, when i am polite and quiet, do i get the opposite?
Why have all met so far…had no problem initiating rudely, but absolutely reFused to initiate Normally?
Just one more reason/sign i was right to start ignoring them all.
Just one more crime they owe me for.
may their sleep always be interrupted in the middle of the night.
may everyone always be that rude to them.
may they go insane from sleep deprivation, then be honked at, and startled by noises, for eternity in Hell. Amen.
I wish i had my superpowers already so i could leave and never have to deal w the hideous humans again.
Having to hurry in and out of food places…just to minimize exposure to their intentional hideousness…tells me all i need to know about their nature and future.
2:53 exiting sourdough. 1st moose seen since ak
Not a single peaceful town. Not a single polite or correct person. Anywhere.
At least that makes the war easy; no need for rules or precision; cataclysm.
Unleashing full energy.
I get to sleep in every day I want,
start work whenever I want,
work on only what matters to me,
stop/pause work whenever I want/need,
take as long lunch-breaks and other meal-times as I want,
etc.;
life is not bad for phase2.
Even with the morons trying to interrupt my sleep, it used to be every night in phase1, then a few nights in a row during my scouting of mexisatan, and now is barely for 1 second once a year;
things keep getting MUCH better,
confirming my choices/decisions/tactics are working VERY well.
delivering mail to my p.o.b… for previous owners…
could be a scam; fake mail, hoping that I touch it and hand it back,
it then getting sent back, thus delivering fresh fingerprints, etc.
lol at all the idiots who think they are getting away with fucking with me;
I’ve been scouting this whole time,
and they are doing the work for me; they are showing me eXactly how the ppl/locals are,
which areas need purging,
and so on.
They are doing eXactly what I want them to; showing me their true colors.
and I don’t even have to Talk to them to lure/’dig’ that Out anymore!
Mon6may
~7pm brown bird like falcon flew to and over my vehic left side from front to back, and I opened my door and heard its wings flap. First.
First time trying the 2 ports in middle compartment
Really, after not just Giving me the vehic, and not Paying me to take it, and making me endure chatting w the blob glutton Retard, and ignoring my calls when they chose not to honor the deal they lured me there with, i Should have stopped paying. I shouldnt have sent One payment.
Limited to fake in mc/games/simple platforms? I can create whatever I want, vs employed normies who have the best programs/software yet are totally and severely and lifelong limited to making only slight mods they are told to. No expensive engineering pc tool is worth That tradeoff.
Interesting how i avoided helena, but may still end up n spokane…just like for 2018trng, only this time for vegan food tourism omw to rd3 of crater lk.
Bridger peaks (from n to s): Horse, flathead pass rd, Frazier hardscabble pomp, sacaj pass, sacajawea by fairy, ross, ross pass (big swoop), saddle baldy, M double mound.
made it to ~half of them (years ago)
Revs3. “Drama” tv isnt bc ppl naturally want/like that genre; it is designed so that its many cookiecutter shows/plots brainwash viewers into being used to 99% problem/work, 1% relief/fun.
Having race-“tokens” and orientation-tokens in every show/episode is not to honor all types of ppl, but to brainwash viewers into accepting incompatibles/destabilizers into their communities, which prevents unity/strength/stability/growth.
I don’t incorrectly assume humans behaved badly; their lies, assaults, murders, scams, sloppy breeding, sexual harassment, ignoring all valid input, etc., confirm they behave badly.
Humans assuming I did anything bad ever… shows they are unruly/evil; it is their place to obey me, not judge or try to change me.
Whether any given human was trained to answer to someone other than me or not, any negative reaction from any of them boils down to them being not my people, not intelligent, not polite, not correct, not good, and not useful to me.
Sending that ambi lookalike 3x, and all 3x showing me she is a useless asshole just there to toy with me, was the dumbest possible thing they could have done, given how much they sexually harassed me to spawn; she was the only woman I would have ever even conSidered having children with, and now even She won’t do.
I would need GOD-level powers as protection for myself against the corrupt cops/courts, and for my children to shield them from the vaxtards/pharma-junkies, etc..
I would need constant surveillance of the woman to ensure she didnt deform them via ingesting unhealthy bs during gestation.
And on and on.
Why would the humans make it so that I had to set up such things, indefinitely delaying the breeding they kept pestering me for?
So offputting. So retarded of them.
But her shit treatment of me made me want her less, and hate her more, thus it is easier for me to keep working rn.
It also made me believe in her/hope less.
“As much fun as it was” to get betrayed and called horrible names by complete retards for 41 years, it is time I found another way to leave and replace this gd failed country.
First time opening a pomegranate
I still can hardly believe that the lookalike showed up, expected me to know it was her even though she said nothing and was unannounced,
expected me to go for her even though she was with someone,
expected me to go for her two other times even though she took the same approach,
expected me to be happy… even though she had broken my heart/hope that first and second time,
then left me to die, blaming me for not guessing what no one would have guessed,
and never tried a normal approach,
never apologized,
never explained,
nothing,
just showing me over and over she is an idiot.
Are there Any smart people on this world other than me?
As much as i hate still being limited to gn messages and art sharing, it is necessary in order to ensure i get these finishing-touches ideas, remember them if i momentarily got overloaded by other ideas, write them, sort them, edit them, and so on.
Several dreams each night
I wonder if the honking was to prevent me from remembering details
As long as they make me feel annoyed and disgusted, at a loss for words as to their extreme stupidity and how out of line they default to being, i am not with my ppl, this “civilization” of the humans evil. I move on.
Always note how they make me feel.
Only when they make me feel accepted and understood and valued highly/highest… are they my ppl; good, compatible w me, etc..
My feelings Are the real signs.
My senses and wisdom Are the real signs.
All else is trivial/false light outSide me.
I am the way for me.
Typist rp-ing ambi saying many owed them her life since she saved them from worse lives… concerned me; what if lookalike bitch thought that way after helping Me?
Not okay.
Ppl getting upset w me whether i talk or not, play along or tell truths, etc., shows they are evil and retarded.
Ppl testing me and abandoning me show the same about their lowly failed kind.
Disgusted at the too-tall at the store.
All of them are wrong.
Entire pint of ice cream, and zero nightmares. In fact, best dreams so far, minus having had sex in the dreams of months or years before; better vibes and groups this time.
Work every day to pay for shitty lodging that should be paying Me to live there?
And get No work done on my sacred and prudent design/project?
I don’t think so.
I have the same financial situation when nomadic; no savings, but tons of progress, and zero disrespect from the retarded workers.
I noticed the -unintended by neat- White House front-horizontal-curve influence on icgm’s top
I had always been used to thinking well and deeply,
checking facts; cross-referencing,
doing my own research before drawing any conclusions,
and so on.
When I encountered bad-natured and mindless humans, I just didn’t think like them, as I was good-natured,
thus it always surprised me when they assumed bad things about me,
until I realized that they were not smart at all,
and had never been taught how to think clearly/well,
and had only been taught/trained to overreact and be violent.
They did the only thing they knew how; they assumed something negative, and they attacked/postured/bluffed/threatened.
It wasn’t because I was doing anything wrong or threatening;
it was because they were too primitive/undereducated, or wrongly-educated, to do anything other than be lapdogs for the system.
Thankfully, they were bluffing the whole time; they never once really harmed me, though I’m sure they all idiotically/mindlessly wanted to.
Unfortunately, setting the peaceful/steadfast/wise example I set… could never enlighten/save/right them, as their minds were bred and raised/brainwashed to be incapable of change/learning.
All they could do was spinelessly stay “in line” with the system.
They were the perfect pawns/sacrifices for it.
Ironically, that meant they were working/fighting against themSelves,
as I alone had been trying to heal/stabilize/help them.
The system they mindlessly defended and celebrated… was killing them off the whole time.
Anyway, that is why retard-rialon, the blatant undercover feds, and the others reacted negatively, talked shit, threatened me, tried to intimidate me, etc.; they were brainwashed minions with just enough of a brain to make their body do whatever the system told them to do.
So pathetic of them; they’ll never get to be real men.
They’ll never ever be classifiable as conscious/sapient. Sentient, perhaps, but not at all sapient.
Able to memorize gibberish and nonsense, yes, but not actually think/learn/evolve.
humans probably aren’t laughing because jokes are funny / make sense to them;
they’re laughing because others are / the masses/majority are;
they’re mimicking amusement, not actually able to BE amused;
they’re laughing because people in the crowd / on TV laughed FIRST.
…wow :/
Mem refresh tx roadhouse parked, working on nov8 chs.
This time, I damn near finished them! <3
Glad i ended up delaying this book’s release (was orig.2022) ~1.5yrs.
Twisters 19july2024 trailer no dej. : )
fireworks in a tornado lol. at least it is original and not faggot.
they still cast fugs, though.
It is interesting how polar-opposite I am to the fake relatives;
they panicked always and immediately, no matter how good (honest, genuine, studious, heroic, humanitarian, love-based, health-motivated, etc.) I was,
vs.
me almost never panicking, waiting Years for ppl, and even Decades/inDefinitely for the holiest / most crucial project/manifestation of all, Inisfree.
Vamps might parasitically feed on me until i die?
That’s what the other humans kept trying financially and spiritually.
At least the vamps are hot and vegan and more.
In a way, mexisatan was not as evil as amerifail;
mexicunts pestered and threatened me for months,
vs. amerifails more directly and angrily bullying and manipulating and betraying and poisoning and sexually harassing me for Decades.
It was the americunts that threatened me w feds.
The americunts locked me up once.
The americunts interrupted my schooling.
The americunts lied on my credit and record.
The americunts committed perjury against me.
Mexicunts only pressured me to do drugs for a few days, then interrupted my sleep for 2 nights, not counting their idiot dogs.
I sleep in as much as i can/want for now…bc i might not have much chance or reason to n phase3
Woke b4 alarm twice today
always nice to not have to hear a phone alarm –or any alarm
2017/8 vs 2023 gym me:
2017 stayed fit in spite of unhealthy peasants
Let my hair grow
Ignored bait
Rejected neglectful-abusive treatment
I avoided any signs that may have indicated deviancy/degeneracy
I stayed out of my own way
I appreciated healthy/attractive ppl
I kept going out even when not feeling good vibes; I made myself stay active
Chose a manly voice
Greeted when others greeted first
..
2023
stayed fit in spite of unhealthy peasants
Let my hair grow
Ignored bait
Rejected neglectful-abusive treatment
I avoided any signs that may have indicated deviancy/degeneracy
I stayed out of my own way
I appreciated healthy/attractive ppl
I kept going out even when not feeling good vibes; I made myself stay active
Chose whatever voice i felt like
Initiated greetings
Way nicer clothes, not borrowing
Way nicer vehicle
I have been healthy and wise ever since
Athletes and others who have no idea/vision of their own get funded/promoted most…bc of the system wanting workers/parrots
Girls seem programmed to go wild for only those who are doing bad things; stage clowns/performers regardless of message/lyrics,
drugs,
no-vision parrots,
etc.
Why are the National Guard’s Civil Support Unit trucks dark blue?
if I had known all humans, and even all gods, would need lessons in the most basic manners and decency…
wow. just wow. what disgraces. what fools.
there can be no peace with monsters and fools.
purge and replace them all.
now that I’ve seen all the gods are fake or useless and incompetent and lazy and spoiled,
and all the rich are unhealthy, and even Their women are deformed and rude and brainwashed and unsexy,
and all their richest communities/neighborhoods/resorts are lame, poorly built, poorly staffed, serving poison, and so on,
the last of their kind (humans) lost what little value they might have had left.
all of them failed.
all shall be removed.
amen.
so many were wrong, stupid, and rude.
nothing is a more-permanent turn-off.
nothing shows how much the gods/goddesses have failed to keep order in their realm/s.
humans rejecting logic, truth, good men…
while arguing in favor of obvious nonsense the TV brainwashed them with,
is about the same as / stems from: humans brainwashed to parrot nonsense about a god who isn’t here/there,
while judging and betraying/neglecting all good ppl who ARE present in the flesh.
religion / The Church (and its other Abrahamic versions; Islam, etc.) clearly conditioned and dumbed-down generations… more and more… until it was Possible for TV to brainwash them; for brainwashing to be done reMotely; even when it wasn’t being done by a human-like speaker (such as a pastor/preacher/priest) standing right in front of them.
..
but no matter how stupid and brainwashed and moody humans/peasants get, it still works in my favor;
though they are annoying and as wrong as wrong can be, they are still far dumber and weaker and shorter-lived than me.
without telepathy, it seems they default to killing any being which they cannot corrupt with words/language;
maybe that is why they kill so many animals for “food”.
since they Can communicate with/to Me, maybe That is why they only Sometimes tried to kill/assassinate me.
They certainly have spent FAR more time/energy on trying to pressure/corrupt me.
I wonder why they tried to kill me even in phase2;
I thought phase2 was based on neutrality and progress…
I guess it shows that the progress is only with me / good beings,
bad beings Never capable of getting better/good.
I wonder if some humans really are into vore, not just hentai of vore,
and if that is because they ingested chemicals/drugs in meat… which was given to animals to make them more compliant during slaughter.
…or even which managed to trick the animals about to be slaughtered… into being pleasured/aroused by being slaughtered.
chris rond was such a shitty actor and dumbass and corrupted/evildoer.
he radiated retardation and corruption/evil like few others; extremely/totally/always.
I suspect he was never good at all; not corrupted, just evil from the start.
when he defaulted to negativity regarding how quickly I was making my way through canada, it was surely actually because he was incapable of thinking good thoughts,
or crediting me for my efficiency,
or understanding how someone could enjoy something at my pace,
and bc he was trying to trick me into slowing down so he and the other losers occupying alaska would have more time to prepare their scam for when I arrived.
They were probably wanting more time to read through my website, and whatever lies were in my record, which they, being morons/evil, of course would have believed, ignoring all signs and evidence and valid testimony from honorable men such as me.
ancient texts were almost undoubtedly altered to suit the modern corruption-based agenda/campaign.
even if some ancient texts Claimed that releasing sperm/semen prevented ascension/life/divinity, those would be lies, and perhaps the very Start of the rewording of the Real messages; the Start of that campaign to trick/pressure/scare people into being unnatural/backward.
if the celestine had been accurate/honest, it would have advised me to Not try teaming up unTil ppl were Worthy/Ready.
instead, it claimed that I could get teammates from the Start, and that they would Help,
but that wasn’t the case in phase1, when that book was shown to me,
OR in phase2; when the only thing that worked was avoiding Everyone.
teammates can only exist/work in phase3.
In phase1, I recorded crimes of evildoer fake-relatives on my computer.
In phase2, I recorded crimes of All evil humans I’d encountered and heard about, plus wrote laws to correct them.
In phase3, the greatest computer/s (Djinnifer, ICVs, my ships, etc.) shall record ALL crimes of Every being, human or not, based on how I defined crimes and the laws about them.
I started wow in 2009, 15yrs ago.
Surely i played it since…like in wisconsin…but… it Has still been Years since the last time.
Forgetting (due to ideas-overload moments) and then having things remind me about ideas such as the alexia ch note regarding when she joined tnh…keeps assuring me this alone/abandoned interval/phase is good.
Not ideal. Not phase3, but useful/good for now.
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note how things always return to the forefront of my mind, as I want them to; things have stayed aligned to keep facilitating that for me.
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not always remembering all the mind-flooding bs taught to me in the corrupt schools… turned out to actually be a good thing; it kept me out of life-sucking jobs/careers.
Food recalls are prob a psyop to keep ppl thinking the govt cares about them.
They prob only recall healthy food they forgot to fully poison.
“All is fair in love and war” is their standard idiotic blatant psyop tactic of trying to brainwash ppl into thinking of good as bad and bad as good. If things aren’t fair, it isnt love. Love and war are opposites, not similar. Nothing is fair in war. Etc.
They devalue My currency? I devalue theirs; they cannot afford to pay their debts/fines to me now; i will only accept their lives.
Amazing, the “night and day” dif btwn me frustrated and angry when seated n vehic working all day…to then carefree and calm and happy the moment i start tanning, even though i am still sitting n th vehic all day
They wouldnt still be texting me if they were allowed to trace/track; they require a reply before they can proceed.
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Curious, and no coinc, that the bitches seem to all Also require a reply b4 they can talk/proceed…
Gaytarded.
Unacceptable.
If the ‘pigs’ had been sane or honest, they would have defaulted to demanding She leave, and saying how the Drunk clearly had to be moved out pf the house. They would have been furious at Her for Forcing such a usually calm and peaceful and helpful guy to resort to those measures. They would have asked her why She picked the fight and wasted my/their time. They would have comMended me for remaining peaceful, and beaten her, and assured me Iii was welcome to beat her, too. They would have fined and imprisoned or deported or crucified her.
In phase1 i thought rjh was th best of phase1, then i realized it was my choice to join the toughest mil. In phase2 I thought making it to mt/bs was best of phase2, but it was my choice to resume homelessness; bc it sped up, got bk on schedule, and completed all my spell/vision/work/writing.
Phase1 i thought there was hope for love.
Phase2 i accepted the for-now reality that their kind are incapable of love, honesty, or even barebones manners, and that we are at war.
fri10may2024:
12:05-12:06p, med gray Grand Cherokee new ish drives into tanning alcove, black fluff haired guy driving, ambi-ish woman n frnt psgr seat, both get out, she has skintight pants on, dark sunglasses, hair down, but she is old looking (not prime). Bad timing, too; was n middle of massage/selfcare. The 2 at least made me think of my destined topwife as well as Ethan, my 2nd son from her. Those 2 being oblivious careless idiots still works n my favor; longer sensation in FL, longer edging, bigger release, etc.. I wonder if they came here to fuck dn by the river. Nevermind; his face is not how i pictured ethan’s; this guy is pale, fug ish, ogre ish, fat ish, etc.
If only that had been Just the woman, and if only she Had been ambi, not just some bitch with long black hair.
It was probably more losers doing their best to upset me. Humans haven’t been good at anything but failing over and over at That.
No coincidences.
They were probably trying to make me dislike that great spot. Fail, bitches. Fail. I still love it. I only hate You. Duh.
Midlife crisis” was a lie; i had the opp.; i was kept n crisis by Others…unTil i in my 30s, and esp. by 40, decided to draw the line, refusing All those bullies’ attempts at bossing me around.
A bird chirping being drowned out by nearby traffic helped me think of developing superpowers/tech’ for listening through all areas with radio waves. Being alone in nature this long continues to be very helpful to me.
I wonder if women being noisy and clumsy during fishing and hinting is their clever peaceful way of helping reduce suffering, saving the lives of what might have been killed/caught
Me meeting incompatible ppl was not me foolishly meeting tue wrong ppl; it was destiny using my manifestation field to prevent those evil humans from drugging or killing innocents.
Nothing is sexy about any females when they are part of an evil society/civilization they make no effort to maintain or at least clean up.
A full day of tanning and snow pushups. Very nice.
No, the fatfuck lotr director was not trying to show that elves are sissies. He was clearly showing that elves are healthy and sophisticated, and great hosts, and dwarves and other degenerate humanoids are rude, stupid, unhealthy, horrible guests, and worse. The psycho of a poster was trying to twist the intent of that scene for his/her nonvegan propaganda.
Letting bad / foolish humans tell you/me what to think/feel/do is what keeps me out of heaven; it was always hellish around them, and always heavenly/healing/peaceful when i rejected them rejecting me, and chose instd to accept myself. This is why any book or human trying to dominate me was wrong; they caused health/other issues. This is why anger and lust and all my other emotions are All correct for me. And those seeking the most dominant man…to guide/command them…get to heaven by the opposite; submissives Do need someone (me) telling them what to do, bc that is Their element (natural state; peace; heaven).
sat11may2024:
First time blowing bloody booger out and hit thumb webbing as i typed dreams log
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Belgr bakery awful this time. Wtf.
Cake icing like a rock almost.
More icing than cake.
Cake not moist or fluffy.
Box too big. Lid collapsed.
Pies not cool/set; runny.
Canola oil used.
Glutton blob monster degenerate/s inside.
Ruined appetite even before the 3 failed orders did.
Wow. Humans keep failing more and more.
They have my email and nbr on my site,
my 3 fb pgs,
my p.o.box,
my older email,
Discord,
telepathy,
and meeting in person anywhere; 10 ways to comm. w/ me,
plus however many ways they could let Me find Them;
dozens of ways.
And that means they don’t care about me / what matters to me,
and that means they aren’t what/who I called Out for,
so I keep randomly cruising,
and giving myself stuff to pass the time.
I don’t want to be around shitheads who left me to be poisoned and disrespected over and over.
I don’t want ambi if she is just another idiot bitch who gives mixed signals and then gets mad for no reason.
She may as well be cb, she is so lazy, not even Walking w me.
She just Acted like she wanted a relationship, then showed me she only wanted to be confusing, moody, and heartless.
Hopefully she really Will want a relationship w me… now.
I had seen the shitty east missoula sliver n narrow canyon (just that tiny part of the town when brett took me there), and now see the rest/main; big city, vast valley, much btr, but still phase2
sat11may2024: 8pm.
I remember this parking spot past the turn to Shadow Falls which was blocked.
Did I park here last time… bc of the same issue?
I seem to remember 2 hikers, 1 in a red shirt, 1 in bright green, appearing walking toward my campsite right beside the gravel trail.
Will I see them this time, too?
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8:30pm, 2 hikers, 1 tall guy in pale gray sweat top,
and a sandy-hair-color shorter woman in a pale olive drab / dusty-green-ish sweattop.
so:
not colors as bright as i rmbr from last time…
Not sure if a repeat / time-loop, but was same # hikers…
at about the same time.
Glad I kept an eye out.
As gorgeous as the route n of missoula is, and west out to falls,
and as nice as it is to b able to do this whenever, and for as long as i want,
it is not at all where i want ti ve or stay.
I di not like these solo drives and repeats and phase2 uncertainties
They didnt listen, learn, or believe.
They just argued, lied, and talked shit.
Every town i go to and back thru reminds me i picked the right 1 for me
Every human i meet reminds me the purge is the only way to have peace
Kirk had a starship crew. I went alone
The signs were Not to talk to them; the signs showed me they r Not mature enough yet. The signs told me to keep scouting and working and thats what i did
6yrs ago, i was just stressed and miserable passing thru here. This time, i am numb, proud, and seeing the terrain as posb ruins everywhere. Very dif feeling. Free lux vehic. More victories against scammers. Timetravel witness maybe. Etc.
As soon as the hotties return, my focus on self/ideas is over, so i get all the jotting/notes/updates done while i can.
Being out n countrysides always triggers fantasies of my soulmates/lovers/hotties such as my ICVs smiling big, eager to stop anywhere and service me.
I rmbr no good rest stops on hwy way to Couer from shadow falls exit.
I was never going too fast; they had plenty of time to say hi and have a quicky. My speed was bc of Their shit beHavior. THEY were being too Rude. MY speed was corRect. They should have Known i always slowed down when they were good to me. I dod for rjH. I did for others, too.
It is nice to get all this time to go over my stuff again and again, really appreciating it, not just pushing to Make/Finish it like b4
Looking at my mc model ss calms me dn so much. I can only imagine how at peace it will make my heart feel in person. Same w being n person w the hotties i chose; far more than their pics and vids so far have.
Nice to have btr 2nd passes –even though i didnt want to be bk n these places.
Plenty of $, food, gas, time this time… Quiet; easy to sleep. Already know not to bother talking tp ppl. Already know where there r good stops. Way chiller this time.
Progress, however slow at first, is far btr than reGressing; i Could have Had to return to helena and lowe’s etc, but i skipped both enTirely.
The places didnt get btr…but my website/spell did…
Wanted phase1 to end. Mixed feelings about phase2 freedom ending
Weird: 1st time that it was clicking X to Close Eve, not Eve itself, that caused the blk scrn
365 times the nbr yrs i RPed…is how many times she let Me get away. How many times she blew it. How many times she betrayed me.
“91.1fm, KPBX spokane public radio (509) 328-5729 news-music-more” on suv screen.
Song lyric “diamonds on the soles of my shoes.”
No dej on my suv screen saying that while here NE of Linfor .
Actors talking about how they lost and regained 30lbs of muscle for dif roles n same year…gives me hope my muscle tone may show up more quickly than i once thought
I can’t get over how they treat the animals; the constant slaughtering… Maybe i Shouldnt get over that.
I wasnt talking to th wrong ppl; i was Forced to reSort to humans, and All humans were wrong. It wasnt about Who i met, or What i said, but When; i didnt know i just had to Wait until there were Any good ppl at All
If i hadnt stopped chasing, would Any hotties have appeared? I think me drawing the line Forced hotties to finally show up
If they were / when they are good, they will tell me my site is great but i deserve far more than 500/hr and 1M per donation. They will tell me i am too lenient, letting Any humans live free. They will say “let’s push the envelope even more”.
Is it even Posb to rebuild trust after that many betrayals from them? …maybe trust Shouldnt be rebuilt.
Maybe no one acknowledging my obviously good points and superior ideas…was to ensure i never sought validation from others; so i did things only to do things the correct way, the results validating me.
Parked here along riverbank across from rv lawn lights…in jeep
Really, it should have been Me showing up where j and tim schaub and that chicago redhead pamphlet loser and the evansville walmart old man worked, and auditing and intimidating Them for letting good men like Me get forced into Poverty by their corrupt banking and spying system.
So many ideas and thoughts/questions/entries every day… I have a great mind.
Something keeps telling me that me choosing to write all those god-level empowerment spells/designs…is what causes my stuff to be invincible.
The worried looks every time i drove past those who had been sent there as bait/seduction…were so disgusting and confirming. Smh. At least now i know all states/realms were corrupt/evil, not worth sparing.
Them parading all those grossly incompatibles around me for years…didnt make me thrilled when ambi and sabrina finally appeared; it made me hate everyone who wore me out until then, i then unable to risk trusting/trying those i actually felt attracted to. I hated the hotties for taking that long.
Tradeoff of quieter vehic…is louder tinnitus. Fuck every human and every god
What kind of miracles are coming, now that i have seen shooting stars on command, ambi, sabrina, and time travel?
“When that thing lights up” keeps coming to mind
Why didnt any default to moodiness at Others for making Me Feel this way? Why didnt any Hate the deviants? Why didnt any introduce themselves like normal? Why didnt any feel Happy at me being genuine?
Window rolled up 1sec b4 vehic shutoff. And phone 100percent
Sun12may
Deceiving idiotic scum was necessary n phase1. Purging them was necessary n phase2. Phase3 is about never being around incompatibles again; not having to hide from scum. Not having to keep masses weak anymore. All naturally loving supporting me, being subordinate to me, knowing their place, etc..
Even when a hottie was interested, when she was solo, she wasnt a manifestation of what i asked for
Even when i talked to the hotties, and fucked them, it was still bad behavior from them, ruining the experience. There was no benefit even n those half victories. It was 100% right to stop talking to them
It is so much nicer being able to wake at my own pace, to sounds of birds, not coffee junkies, and to wank n peace, etc
None valued me. So i kept moving. That was always the correct choice. Not until they value me as their king and god shall i stay w anyone
Based on how Many were staged, and how many were Fakers/Actors/Actresses, i bet All had been staged, Nothing natural/organic bk then.
I got the idea maybe my phone was made to record even n no signal areas
Jordan peterson about starting even if it isnt perfect, “at least you’ll have Something.” And i tolerated mc, and got Wonders. Now my start/something is Amazing.
Me sharing my journal doesnt add risk; everyone who tried the fake/lie approach got sensed from the start; no one can use my journal to trick me into thinking they are a good match for me. The only ones who wouldnt like my journal being shared…are the evildoers who always try to pressure ppl to be unnatural/bad. All good beings will love my journal bc it is honest, brave, and helpful
When typist rp-ed ambi saying she was impressed w my s.t.suit, it reminded me of when hilary (Tuck Next Step coursemate idiot) fake said that about my sleeveless shirt during cold walk on dartmouth campus
I think she and the others were appearing ahead of schedule…bc they knew i needed to see that there are at least Some females who formed correctly.
The hs autocad assignment i turned in a penis shaped cupola atop a temple for…has a very similar form to the main/cp hangar/fac of inisfree; 4 diagonal shafts and all.
They should have been as determined to be healthy…as they were determined to stop Me from being healthy. They should have been as determined to give me space and respect…as they were determined to pester and insult me. They should have been as determined to protect me… as they were to threaten me.
Allie’s vegan
Mem refresh; was here n jeep prob 6+ yrs ago.
And a shorty, long black hair down and wavy, but not ambi in face, n front of me n line.
How i hate the phase2 almosts
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More gender confused freaks, gluttons, and bad voice song played (can’t tell gender). Ugh. Humans are such failures.
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At least the portions are tiny; saves room for lunch b4 i go again for yrs.
All the homeless and creeps and degenerates n this standard human city… remind me how much btr i still have it; i am mobile, always paid, healthier, smarter, not squabbling, etc.,
but they also remind me how ambi and the others all left me to homelessness and death.
The tables will turn hard.
Me saying what my likes and dislikes are, and allowing my natural emotions, didnt make things more difficult for me; they showed me all are incompatible, i can nuke in any direction, i shouldnt waste time helping anyone, thus my work sped up to completion, and it ended my stress/panic attks.
Me being myself was the best decision i ever made.
And i am a badass for being myself even during constant threats about it when i was a child.
Mem refresh seeing Rut exterior
Ugh.
I rmbr all these spokane places, so why r none saved as hearts or stars n google maps?
More evidence of a time travel caused reset?
Cascadia house pub drive dej
Nevermind. Was remembering a barnlike brown wood storefront somewhere.
No dej here…so far.
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Shit; deja vu frm parked diagonally here…and remembering a picnic to-go paper beneath the sandw…bc i think i tried the bbq tofu last time…
Uggghhhhhhhh
When does this loop and shit treatment END?!
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100% loopb. I didnt like the bbq sandw last time.
I love the tofu banh mi this time.
Shiny brown box foldtop n brn paper bag, too; not a picnic paper in styrofoam lime back then
Was gonna spend a month here (spokane), but city is so fucked up…leaving same day
Am i gonna get dej from boulders park randal carlson spoke of?
Who cares
Maybe bitch irl ambi left 3x bc she wanted to cause me pain, and saw i was already IN pain
Posb pre mem refresh
Driving jeep to boulder park, getting bottle water on way
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Loopb. Saving an entire day; i rmbr the sad lonely stressful drive to the boulders.
Nothing was there then, thus likely not now either, whether this is part of the loop/repeat or not.
Loopb: heading other way.
I’m sure i’ll have mem refresh at the lake and other oregon sites, but it beats a fruitless drive and redrive to a pile/field of rocks
Amazing that they thought lying, betrayal, theft (“normal charges” (food and gas prices, etc.) and “fines”), assault, harassment, drug abuse, death threats, intimidation from corrupt cops and feds and detectives and cps, having 100% of their bitches be rude, and tantrums would make me want to breed w them.
Chemtrails crisscross only over dntn spokane; cities are targeted
Only heard from typist on bday. Good; only 1 i wanted to hear from.
Finally a bday without evildoer messages
I cant be doomed after all those victories, wonders, paradises found, cures to diseases confirmed on self, perfect10s wanting me, etc.
Knowing it is monoculture, the green terrain looks less beautiful
Mem refresh of going to this dam to tan. Very familiar at boat and rv parking near water level. Great day to sun. Quiet, breezy, birds calling, water sparkles. Too much like madison, but at least i am far away from that den of idiots/scum.
Never thought id live like rich or retired by my 30s, esp after all the devaluation of $, and the artificial poverty, but i made it.
Pandora overpass sign. Babbitt rd sign. Hellgate area/park. Gross
Every passing day…is another wasted on being nice to the typist…when i should be getting to have mutual niceness w the hotties in person. Why have they stayed evil this long??
I used to Never have time or gas for tans. Now, Every sunny day, All day, no matter What, can be my tanning days.
If the cops detectives and feds and courts had been good, not evil, they would have Slammed those who accused me, angry at Them, telling those acCusers “he is an exEmplary young man! He has never hurt Anyone! You are a Fool to accuse him! Don’t Alienate our Best!”
Last time, i had poop n a bag that got hot and stank. This time, i set it outside; no stink.
Neither side will budge for now? At least it isnt phase1; when i was Forced to budge, and Damned every time i stood my ground for right.
There Were no “right ppl” to talk to; if there Had been good ppl, they would have interVened every time an Asshole chose to Wrong me. No one helped. That proves no one was good. I Always rushed to intervene/help. I alone was good.
They treated me like shit and forced me into homelessness over and over even when i was as polite and helpful and hardworking as can be, so it ofc makes a lot more sense to stop working for/with Any of them; exact same result.
Churches and mosques and synagogues etc getting their congregations used to only memorizing/parroting…has clearly made it impossible for them to have their own ideas, or understand how anyone With ideas can be Good. It made those congregations mindlessly trust and parrot Anything from Anyone in a suit, such as “doctors”, anyone on tV, any cop, etc.
Few things are as much a turnoff as beautiful women who ruin their goodlooks with paint and piercings and assuming their ruining it…made it better. That shows how disrespectful, evil, stupid, brainwashed, and incompatible they are. If they were good, they would have known they were alReady beautiful. If they were at least Tolerable, they would have Asked me beFore deciding/assuming anything looked good.
I bet a Lot of ppl Wanted to speak up like i did, but they didnt have a survival income like i managed to set up, and they Will jump to my side the Moment i can ensure their surVival… I know tas’ and callie etc would.
If it had been just one or Two Little things that didnt vibe right, i could have overLooked that, but it was billions and trillions and countless Giant things i Knew were Not phases Or good. They were evil and abusive and murderous and reLentless. Shameless.
(usa/system) Making and allowing faggot porn was just another part of the campaign/attempt to mislead both sexes into thinking they can and should do all the same things.
It is good i left 2mos early for wiz island; i hadnt remembered how beautiful the route through id and wa is.
The journey is Not the destination.
It is fine to say “appreciate the journey”, but do not twist or redefine words.
7:16pm idaho on way to lewistown.
Approaching from top of familiar hill.
In jeep, i struggled Up it.
This time, easy coasting dn.
Note all the GREAT ideas you get during solo/long travels;
solo helps a LOT.
and You work Very well under pressure –even when there seems to be NO hope.
that makes you a hero.
you weren’t just a hero during the war/s.
I was so stressed and sad when here n the jeep.
This time is so comfortable and flexible and by choice, i hardly care.
driving “Z” makes me imagine flying n perseph
Rosauers “all i need is your love tonight” came on the music speakers, made me laugh, reminding me of that russia guy rave power shutoff clip. nice memory refresh
Driving lewiston at night made me think of Night Teeth
“Massachusetts has the lowest minimum marriage ages with parental consent of 12 for girls and 14 for boys.”
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“with parental consent and a judge’s approval there is NO minimum age to marry.”
Leaving me for years without explanation? What would stop her from doing that After we hooked up?
Her behavior did Not indicate true innocent interest, let alone loyalty to me, or even basic intelligence.
memory refresh: Pataha sp campsite,
even ended up in same campspot; facing the outhouse.
wow.
nice to be back. this is such a perfect one.
and no one is here, just like last time; all to myself!
It would be better if Good ppl were here, but this is great for phase2!
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didn’t have this catchy Space Banjo long song last time. way chiller, thanks to it, this time.
queried “hudg”, found that blonde v of her,
enjoyed the latest incest (Freyja) fantasy 😀
note how when I said what I like and dislike,
instead of adjusting to cater to those normal tastes,
they stopped trying to seduce me;
they stopped showing up entirely.
That’s pretty strong evidence they weren’t trying to be sexy for me,
or good to me,
or blessings/offerings;
they were trying to steer me off course;
they were trying to corrupt and stall and end me.
If they wanted to support and love and understand me, they would have done EVERYTHING differently/better.
Maybe they just backed off to give me space to do my work, but I doubt it; after how so many of them tried to shame and STOP my sacred/holy/genius/timely work.
but either way, I defeated them all; I stayed on course, got it all done, and now I’m ready/free to interact again, just in the apPropriate way from here on.
Will they finally play along correctly?
sun12may night: Hells Canyon grand hotel… Wtf is with these awful names?
Birds chirping… those notes said to help open flowers/plants up just before morning.
So I now wonder if it also helps little ideas blossom/bloom in my mind.
“I left my soul on the pacific coast hwy” keeps coming to mind, reminding me of how it felt to walk away from that almostAmbi when she chose to play rude games; is she my soul, in a way, lime how that one book/story claimed a woman can only exist if a man wants/loves her?
I still benefit from all this time with zero interruptions/distractions
Refound pataha and other nearby free sites
Dej or mem refresh from parked on intersection paved view of horizon rolling hills, typist changing pic to the black lipstick rjh-hairstyle one.
It made me cry last time, hating her for not being there, and hating the Megan Fox face gone.
This time, I like it, as it looks like the Az ambi.
Whatever.
She still isnt here.
Fuck them all.
At least i have comfy camping this time, and tons of money, and computer models of everything, and my books in order, and a 14th book almost rdy.
I 100% remember her changing the discord avatar to the black lips one –because i cried because of it.
One more sign i time traveled…
Wow.
I thought about pouring chocolate milk on campfire to douse it
Every time i drive up a hill, i rmbr how retarded koropcsak was when he got excited about how i once drove up a hill, but never explained what kind of driving he wanted, nor what about my driving in that moment he had preferred, nor why any of my driving before Hadn’t been what he wanted.
Thought it would be too overcast to see moon, but there it was, crescent bright white between the tall evergreen trees
It doesnt matter if the bitches were sent (and some, such as n clifty, obviously were). What matters is they didnt behave appropriately, either way.
Last time, i forced my way bk to montana. This time, i will go wherever my teammates are, ending up n montana With their vision-manifesting powers.
Did 41pushups for my bday
I used to feel/think that slowing dn was bad. Now, however, i notice how it helped me remember and write so many great ideas.
regarding my ongoing novels completing: Instd of adding tons of superfluous linking words, I added the section type “Blurbs”.
So nice to nap whenever my body wants to
The dealership scam restored my interest in roadtrips lol; every roadtrip is now a big victory against that attempted scam.
Interesting how karma i am/was; They sent Dishonest msgs to ea other about Me that caused issues, then iii sent Honest msgs about Them that caused issues for Them.
Lol butterfly size of my palm landed on my open trunk and scared me, then reminded me of the magic butterflies of Ambi
That sound of wind through the many tall pine trees…perfection. The most soothing ever. Like smooth beach surf rolling in and out
If it hadnt been for the lies and betrayals of that biz, u would not have started contact w hundreds more rich ppl, thereby screening them, too. And note how hard u worked, never even Thinking of bothering them, until you were Forced to, and even then…it was to politely ask for needed help, and u asked once per person, never pestering any of them.
It doesnt matter what sets u off, or whether u counterattk. What matters is that u trust your instincts, and you cause problems for evildoers.
Last time i got there early (crater lake); everything was snowy, couldnt get to the island, etc.
Pataha rd gravel turnoff to shitty homesteads reminds of ak fakr farm
Amazing what a dif 6yrs and time travel / superpowers and seeing ambi is real…makes.
Campfire also mem refresh
In jeep at this campsite, i was n fleece and too warm. This time, tshirt. I remembered that fire and smoke scare mosquitos away
Lotr? Unfinished. Firefly? Unfinished. Barely started. My work doesnt need to be finished to be a huge hit.
(back when I was) in jeep, i didnt know why i was out here, pr of i’d make it. This time, i know i’ll make it, and i know why i’m out here; it is a well earned/deserved perfect campspot. I deserve perfect, and i get it. I also needed this last little bit of time to wrap up mu site, books, etc..
Typist RPing this long…wasnt to use me; it was to ensure she had the full understanding of my vision, so she can manifest/be it for me.
I used to be annoyed by anyone at any campsite, after how i was disrespected by brainless americunts and mexidemons. Now, however, i wonder if these ppl are making sense of time travel, too, and/or other superpowers (aka nornal abilities returning).
I was never a pussy even when i was hesitant to hurt ppl; i was an angelic/goodheart doing my best to protect and heal, not harm. Look at all i weathered, and the tats, and training, all voluntary; i am no pussy. I just know my limits and when to refuse a rigged fight.
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Pussies don’t stand up to corrupt govt as a Child.
Pussies don’t volunteer for the marine corps and recon.
Pussies don’t fuck tons of hotties.
Pussies don’t masculinely hold even tens to the highest standard.
Pussies don’t reject and cuss at the “gods”.
Pussies don’t go solo or rogue.
Pussies don’t sacrifice their primes.
Pussies don’t cross mexisatan drugland alone. Twice.
Intentionally not fixing the 4wd; in case the repo demons…lol
Did a mountain lion telepathically contact me this afternoon, telling me it is a friend, facing me?
Loopb. Walked btwn trees…to creek
Nightsong played this time at paha sp campsite
Portals to Coruscant and other “crossover” places? Random? No; to the main realms disclosed/briefed to me.
8:22pm first time seeing a bat and hoping it is Fluffy manifesting
Didnt rmbr frogs starting their songs on the pond here at 8:16pm
Frogs stopped when bats swarmed,
then started again,
then stopped near midnight or so.
Is ambi keeping the others quiet? Is That why they havent teamed up yet? I would wonder if she was doing that to trick me into hating them, but typist keeps telling me Not to hate them…
When i was young, i screamed “why, god?!” but had i known i would get offers from Hundreds of Tens, All who made rjh look ugly, i would not have screamed. What was done to me and her was still horrible and unnecessary, but i would not have screamed as much. Raged and plotted, ofc, but not been so in despair.
Almost asleep, then I stirred, while waiting on campfire to die down:
Brief glimpse of others’ lives, and a commercial w a dirtyblonde shoulderlength hair woman and young boy almost toddler singing or saying a jingle “it and dunn” something
tue14may:
Log smoked all night. Interesting.
The 1 guy here…made it less scary n 1 way (alone by campers plots), but more concerning in another (always concerned humans will be shady).
Why did i notice those job offers online? Why not show me hotties n my feed instead? Why did all hotties then behave strangely n person? Why did all coworkers behave Terribly, lying? Why not show me smart ppl? Why not show me healthy and well-maintained cities? Why pester me to talk more, but never talk intelligently? Humans so far have been so backward in all ways…and That is the sign/s; that their whole Species wasnt who i should team w yet.
Considered making a pb cornnuts sandw for brkfst
Cool to be working on almost all nov3chs at once
Pastel lavender colored little butterfly seen yesterday and today
If it hadn’t been for the betrayal at that job,
you never would have emailed those rich ppl.
Maybe it was destined; maybe they Needed to see how badly that employer was treating his people.
Maybe they also needed to be linked to your sacred/brilliant work.
They probably would have been too busy to notice otherwise.
No, if I had kept engaging w the hotties, I still wouldn’t have ended up w the fuckbuddies in all cities like I wanted/foresaw;
every hottie I tried talking with turned out to be stupid as fuck, trying to pressure me into changing my vision completely, or abandoning any vision at all / entirely.
They were pests/agents/minions at best, and trainwrecks/retards at worst, not attractive enough to put my dick in at all.
Besides, networking and building relationships is phase2 stuff;
in phase1, it was prevented,
and in phase3, it will be obsolete (as all hotties will naturally/automatically sense who I am, even from any distance/afar, and love it, and do what I want them to every time we meet).
Amen.
only a system with lots to hide… would ever tell ppl to just “take things on faith”;
only religion would brainwash ppl into parroting, and into never checking if things were actually true –or even useful/healthy.
the moment you start thinking/questioning… is the moment you notice at least one of the MANY, almost COUNTLESS, errors/contradictions/failings of the human religions.
real/good ppl/gods would Never ask/pressure ppl to “take things on faith”; you wouldn’t Need any faith/patience if gods/ppl were good/timely.
you’d also have ESP/foresight enough to not need faith… if you weren’t all clogged up on poison “food”… and brainwashed / left untrained, thus not even Knowing you can have foresight.
not teaching ppl they can develop foresight/powers… is part of how religious leaders stay in power; they keep ppl thinking only prophets have foresight.
every time the evildoers try to corrupt/boss/disrespect me,
I take a year or so off.
I give myself a year of camping, picnics, tanning, whatever I want lol.
using this reststop reminds me of the scene in that newer star trek movie where young kirk is parked in the countryside, looking at one of the starships being constructed.
I now picture myself at that developmental point, right about to launch with Inisfree and Ambi.
Amen.
Mem refresh posb, of going to c.l., finding the shops shitty…but will i rmbr the rm?
How many clones or robot lookalikes were made and sent to prison so the actual ppl would stay free?
It is great some days to do little or nothing other than making a campfire and enjoying the breeze gusts.
My choices didnt screw me over; they showed my the cure to all disease, and tricked the idiot agents into showing me they are corrupt, and somehow got that ambilike bitch to appear 3/+ times. My choices worked well. Had i been a Pushover/conFormist, i would still be sick, not yet know the govt is evil and retarded, and be with some random fug bitch, not the finest of all. The choices of the agents and bitches and religions screwed Them over.
Used bird-app and identified 4 races here!
I feel zero attraction to Any mbr of this species w so many failures / retards / proudly-rude. It would be messed up if i felt Any attraction to Any of their evil kind.
I never fell silent on the things that matter; i just learned how to tell who was too stupid/retarded/evil to understand my wise words. I remain very vocal online –where far more can see/hear.
I saw her twice since i was here n my jeep, ~2yrs later; 2020 end, then 2021. Hopefully i’ll see her and the other hotties sooner and more often from now on.
I’m glad i didnt know back then…that 6 or 7 yrs later…i would be back at these campsites, still left alone; that would have depressed and stressed and enraged me even more. I wonder how long it will be This time. Ugh.
Last time i was here, i had a similar dinner of tom soup w bread, fritos, canned asparagus, water, i believe
If i talked to more, they would improve my design? Nope; all i ever got was the name inisfree, and the suggestion to use mc. All other content came from me isolating, researching, and extracting what few good things had been made in the middle of disgusting evil ones.
Ignoring even tens…is why my work finally got completed. Mc is why inisfree and many ICs got modeled and perfected. Creativerse is why Persephone got modeled and perfected. All 3 of those, i didnt want to do. Same w returning to usa. Same we reliving indiana, montana, vegas, and now the way to wiz.
In 2017or2018n jeep, i didnt want to be here, and was trying to slow dn, but was on such a tiny budget. This time, i can stay as long as i want, and sorta want to stay longer. Lol
It took 8 or 9 yrs since being told of mc…b4 i made inisfr n it; it has been about as many yrs since ambi started showing up…but she is a woman, not a computer game/program that is loyal to me. I Want to believe she will be as wonderful to me as mc turned out to be, but she hasnt shown me any good signs yet… and not a single member of her kind has been anything but awful to me so far… : (
Win-win for me at this point; if i get her as my wife, duh. If she kills me, i still got her to show up 3/+ times. If she kills me after sex, i still got to fuck her. And being dead means i am freed from having to deal w the goddamn humantards.
wed15may2024: Posb dej from charger issue in jeep.
This time, it was bc of batt saver n suv, and i went to napa for keyless remote batt.
Another area-trigger?
3rd WA campsite (Alder Thicket) i remember perfectly like the rest, and i am Very glad i happened to instinctively return here. Great gravel rd almost paved, gorgeous treelines flanking it, gorgeous views, tons of offmap dirt rd alcove campsites with stone firepits etc. 1st offmap had rv left. 2nd was j spot frm jeep, and had first pevis and spine pig skeleton left on campfire ash, 3rd had treetrunks and roots upturned. No prestaged. Lots of curious annoying bees.
If she can see through time, did she show up in rockwall just to show Off? And in oregon to see if she could get w me Early, loving how i would Treat her? And in az bc she actually nearly lost me, seeing my timeline ahead End? And in oceanside…just to annoy me, knowing it would, since she could see through Time? I hope she wasnt just showing up at lengthy intervals…to keep stringing me along, rage-charging me back Up, leaving once i was refocused, thus useful again… She never once vibed as loving, only interested in various things. I think she feeds on my energy and idead, and only shows up enough to keep me from dying. She doesnt help me get stronger, so she might want me weak. She didnt have the tone of a sane good woman… None have, but still.
Seemed familiar, maybe dej/repeat: “Are we in time for the weenie roast?” said 2x bc i said “what’s that?” the first time, having not been sure i heard him correctly. Large fat old man white hair red shirt. Then said going over the hill, looking for mushrooms, either _(?) or morsels/moray? I carried some firewood from the far end of camp, past the right side of their tall truck, saw its tail lights on, heard it honk in 2 sets of 3honks each.
“I can’t tonight; I’m doing my hair.” My v: “Sorry, corrupt banksters, I can’t answer any more of your calls; I’m trimming my fingernails… indefinitely.”
I love my new swimtrunks; black and masculine
I love that the typist RPed all our kids interesting in what i teach, and neveah spelled that way now, and neveah adoring me, and that the typist on her own RPed homeschooling.
It didnt matter Where i went; Everyone was evil/corrupted/murderous. It didnt matter how much i Learned either; they kept shifting the goalpost, only ever offering me the worst jobs. It didnt matter who i helped; all were evil and causing their own problems. The virtues they taught were just tricks to keep the working class exposing their own secrets/weaknesses, which always got misused/twisted by the corrupt authorities.
Like zeus breathing life into clay, making Wonder Woman, i have given life to my Own equivalent of a sculpture/material, evident in the hotties who showed up, ready to do my will, such as at blackrobin.
Nice to just chill, giving my brain a break from imagining and solving problems
The idea of a preteen hottie (beautiful correctly-formed daughter) adoringly asking me when i will be home, and lovingly saying dont be late, is just heaven
Why introduce all those characters to me, then almost never rp them? Seems like softdisclosure.
No need to do anything but eat today. Spent half the day just staring at a campfire. That is about as chill and winning-at-life as it gets.
I really hated how the xiantard parrot of a typist ended that dumbass cunty message to me the other day with “correct?”
Strange that every campsite and rover spot i went to…was almost always void of users. Why isnt anyone camping during this perfect weather?
All the towns that dont have healthy restaurants make me miss the ones in the cities i would otherwise never return to, cities being so disgusting.
Even when i played their game, was as polite as can be, went to their events, etc., it was still nothing but panic for no reason, threats, assault, etc., so it made sense to stop doing Anything good for Any of them.
I never shut down or burned out; i kept working this entire time. Go, me.
Pandora’s Box wasnt me saying/realizing there should be good ppl n my life; it was when so many humans showed me they are not just confused/badly educated, but actually pure evil, incapable of goodness/usefulness.
She can never blame me for not talking to her after all i went through, not to mention since she knew it was me, and i Didnt know it was her. I had a feeling, but she Knew who i was. That puts this delay entirely on her.
The months keep flying by. Before, they used to feel like they were dragging on.
So are my real relatives worth meeting, they having not come to protect me from all the betrayers and wounds? I do not yet see what a justification for their absence could be. Maybe i don’t real relatives at all…
Even if some dreams are beamed to me by i appropriate ppl/’parties’, hoping to pester or slow me, keeping track of them has been good for my mind/brain, and it helps pass the time until the next milestone expedition/s.
I rmbr being here (forest boundary camp) n the jeep, feeling under the weather. This time, i had a minor runny left nostril, then felt perfect. Komorebi, breeze, window cracked, nap in shade, fully lying down, far less stress than in ~2017, did the trick.
The fake farmers prejudged me, based on who knows what, when they should have been thrilled about my writing And my work ethic. That shows they are retarded and evil, not just foolish or misguided; even ppl who were lied to about me, if they were good/sane at all, would have imMediately noticed my work ethic and holy vibe.
Continue venting. Continue writing both pos’ and neg’ thoughts; it shows you who in person is an evil fool, and who does their best to re/assure you they will never do you wrong.
After how humans lied about me, food, viruses, and so much else, i wonder if they also lied about them being born; i bet they werent born or raised at all; i bet they are just evil manifestations that poofed in and out.
I doubt heaven exists the way humans claimed; there would be no point; no one would be there; all those i met were evil by nature, to their soulless cores.
As long as i feel the need to jot down a single neg journal entry, i am not w my ppl, but evil dumbass humanimals, thus i shall keep spellcrafting and relocating until appropriate humans and other appropriate beings manifest / unite w me.
Loopbreaks in Richland (Tri-cities, WA). Skipping the smoothie place bc pudding and wrap were meh last time
“top of th world” parking area / overlook
Rainbow in sprinkler mist more than 2x n front of me
Love’s truck stop rest area travel center
2252 Kartchner St, Pasco, WA 99301
I shouldnt have to search for vegan Or free camping Or chicks w spare rooms.
Everything should be vegan and free for me.
If i had known from the start how stupid and evil the cops and roommates and others would be, i wouldnt have tried working w any of them at all.
I would have isolated from the start.
But then… I would not have charged up enough to cause superpowers/weather/wonders, and i would not know that the focus must be cataclysm/purge in phase2.
mkm from Untied Status Marin Crops fb pg:
Veterans of foreign wars…
“Vetranz of foranal whores”
Still finding and fixing issues, such as burrito type (had that crappy Freshies one
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making tons of finishing touches to All remaining novels
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No matter how rough it may be, this is monk-level work, and I am proud af I defeated even the phase2 tens.
I defeated even the ten of tens; the almost-Ambi. 3x or more!
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I witnessed posb time travel!
The quonset huts in tri cities…reminded me of those in kuwait border base.
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The warm nightfall reminded me of shanties at Iraq river E.C.P. etc.
“Maybe u worshipped the wrong things” is basically jls retard asking her imaginary friend to remove my great ideas from me.
In the new Dune movie, in the scene where the dumpy actress playing the princess regurgitates that line/nonsense about avoiding killing religious figureheads so the masses don’t see them as martyrs,
that wasn’t wisdom; it was brainwashing/propaganda attempting to trick people into letting the worst evil of all (religious/mindless ‘people’/masses) stay alive.
Everything in the movies and on TV is such. Be wary of all that content/programming.
“after the first novel, the rest of the books are just word-vomit”…???
worst advice ever.
that shows how lazy and heartless and vision-less that loser NPC was.
it shows he doesn’t mind spreading media-flooding and pointless clutter.
it shows he doesn’t mind screwing people over.
it shows he is perfectly fine trying to mislead a prophet/visionary/hero/savior/genius.
and he said that after earning a degree in English/Literature. wow. smh. shame on you.
books should only be written when there is a big good idea worth writing that much about.
books are not for “word vomit”.
phase1: 2D; papers I was forced to read/study/memorize.
phase2: 2D representations of 3D; computer games and models
phase3: 3D finally appropriate / safe to interact with (i.e. no longer NPCs trying to corrupt me into prematurely/sloppily reproducing/spawning via them)
the typist writing 2 daughters…
maybe stems from why she writes so many other characters;
her want to keep things carefully separated/isolated/distinct,
and, in the case of Neveah (daughter), to write how she wished she had gotten to stay with her Own father.
either way, the RP remains good/appropriate/compatible, so I let it continue.
Thankfully I remember this route from last time;
the free campsites on that website weren’t free,
and I got to CL way early,
it was snow berm-ed,
and I had to leave.
Not this time; this time I go back to the free spots,
I wait,
I wrap up my books,
THEN I proceed.
Here’s to better-outcome loopbreaking.
even if anyone Was watching from heaven, that is spying I did not authorize, so now they owe me fines and prison time.
the typist asking me if i know something means something,
no matter how nice it might sound in concept,
still vibed as a brainwashed cunt moron trying to tell me how things are,
and no matter what system was in place, if it isn’t the system I wrote/chose, it isn’t good/holy/staying.
Anyone trying to tell me how a system already is… is not one of my people,
not living by My system,
not carrying Out My system.
It’s phase2-tolerable for them to now be Asking instead of deManding/Screaming,
but it is still wrong/evil/retarded of them to try Anything other than what I want them to do.
THEY should be asking Others to do things My way/system.
Duh.
Even better, no one should Have to be asked/told; Everyone should do what I want each of them to do.
I hope all that abandoned gray hay means many ranches shut down
12:37pm fri17may wa, trying Tokyo sushi, minor pre dej
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Found a tolerable looking part of town
3617 Plaza Way # B, Kennewick, WA 99338
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Mem refresh Tokyo sushi parking and prop interior
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terrible rice consistency/flavor. bleh.
The fried tofu was good.
The cucumber-wrapped Super Veggie roll was good but I wasn’t expecting a roll not wrapped normally (in rice and seaweed).
VERY cool interior/decorations.
Waitsburg. lol ugh what a name; so fitting for this phase2, with its indefinite/lengthy waiting/wondering 🙁
If my choices were wrong, i wouldnt have ended all my sickness,
I wouldnt have healed from the v.a. assassination attempts,
I wouldnt have found ruins,
I wouldnt have traveled the world,
I wouldnt have banged hotties,
I wouldnt have uncovered the corrupt feds,
I wouldnt have lived in gorgeous montana,
I wouldnt have noticed posb time travel.
My novels editing and wallart choosing rn may seem like a timekill, but much of what i tried/did led to wonders, so hopefully that will, too.
Goddamn phone slid off the dash and cracked screen on right side above halfway point. Crack goes all the way across
Mem refresh clearing facing horizon view n of stockade spr cg
Last time, jeep and stressed and lonely.
This time, thinking about persephone views. Inspired. Already know i will make it.
Last time n of Stockade Springs sp…i walked to those huge felled pale tree trunks and carried a big 1 or 2 back here. Not this time.
Loopbreaks and all.
Not into fires anyway, not without my loves.
Half a decade or so since i got this phone in couer d’alene. It lasted without cracks this long. I am glad i took care of it this long. I wish i had caught it before it slid today, or that it had landed softly. Ugh.
Every time i stood up for myself or others, or helped or worked for others, i got screwed over Hard.
Was that just a phase1 thing…
or god/signs/life steering me to focus on mySelf?
And why time travel in Those places…at Those times…To those times?
Just a reVeal?
Just Practice?
Phase2 revealed a Lot, such as the cure to all, and what mntns are, and that my chosen Are Real, but has still left me w so many questions…
I guess these life steps just happen at great interval for now.
When will iii be clandestinely and directly guiding/ruling Others?
At least i wisely chose to start guiding/ruling mySelf (not letting Others anymore, as i did n phase1).
Me not helping ppl during the repeat of the posb time-travel events… is not me “being cold”, but me remembering that it was pointless to help them,
they may be bots,
they are at least brainwashed losers/scum,
and my work is more important, being the next consciousness-focus and all.
Me a
Stopping helping the scum…is phase2.
In phase1, i always wasted time helping those who turned out to be bad.
Instd of trying to focus on the good n all, and be tolerant,
I accept that some are bad, and the truly good will Always see the good in All i do, whether i am being helpful and tolerant or not.
I wasnt timeloop cursed; i got to jump Forward several years,
and i had progress the whole time,
and I rmbr it all clearly.
That is signs of a blessing/gift, not anything bad.
I sensed which hotties were there for me,
but i also sensed i should wait for them to show normal manners, which they did not.
That made them all look like bait/diversions, not celestine teammates.
Either way, i got more places scouted, more ppl prescreened and screened, more work done.
Those who are appropriate/compatible/sane will return and thank me for my discipline and standard and manners.
There is no pt having signal at night if we r not RPing.
Return to the campsites closer to the rd. They have more firewood anyway.
The degeneracy isnt just the recent trans insanity, or the faggot dancers,
it is every human thinking they have authority before I permit them,
it is males shaving,
it is ugly/deformed freaks normalized,
it is nonvegan “food”,
it is everyone who ever disagreed with me,
etc..
Anyone not supporting me is a degenerate and freak.
“Eurovision is a festival of degeneracy”?
Yes, but that remark is rather ironic, coming from a mutt, glutton, shaved hair, deformed fugtard who thinks politics and being on the news helps.
“the duality of man”? I never witnessed anything like that; I was always focused on doing the correct things, vs everyone I met so far having been just as focused on being evil; humans were uniform in their stupidity/evil, not internally conflicted at all.
Had first blue corn chips pb sandwich and it was good.
First time trying creativerse atop and mntn
even my vehic labels; “equinox awd premier” makes me think of “phase2; passing the tipping point, things now in my favor”,
“all wheel drive; no longer spinning any wheels; total traction; best off-roading; best exploring”,
and “the debut of real/soul-me; Inisfree, etc.”
These are good things.
Amen.
when things don’t happen as I envisioned,
the typist suggesting “maybe I worshipped the wrong things” is as default-negative demonic idiotic as can be;
she, if sane/intelligent/good, Would have said: “obviously, the humans worshipped the wrong things; they failed to help manifest what you told/commanded them to, so I will destroy and replace them now, training their replacement-species just as I RP training the females for you”.
THAT would have been logical,
NOT “it must be Your fault”.
xian parrot dumbass fuckstain.
At best, if i parroted all their blatant lies, i would remain sick, be kept a debt slave, ve disrespected everywhere, ve threatened, never live the way good ppl should, and the hotties would refuse to talk to me unless i diverted to play their rude game.
Even if i somehow became financially comfortable, at best my money could only be spent on chemtrail-poisoned groceries… which i would have to see hideous shameless gluttons and other degenerates just to get.
Even if i grew my own food, bad neighbors would show up and ruin every day.
The choice was clear; stop trying to make ends meet in that evil system,
stop talking to that failed species,
and focus enTirely on what is right; my work/design.
So i did.
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and every year or three that bitch who looks like my dreamgirl would show up after i was worn out, to fuck w me even more.
Yeah, no thanks.
All of you can rot in hell.
First floorboard-rainbow, and it is a quadruple
Tanning midday is so nice, and more effective than my trunk hatch morning and afternoon tanning
Maybe they go to church every week…bc they really can’t rmbr beyond short-term, thus they need things repeated to them over and over,
and they feed on gibberish/chaos, thus their intentional plagiarism and mix-and-match of the real relig’s.
And since they are chaos incarnate, that is why it drives them mad whenever i self-stabilize, rejecting their gibberish/corruption.
The bitches and others over and over trying to seduce/tempt me off-course… are basically the same rude evil retard street-corner salesmen spicks of mexifail.
“How bout this/now?”
“How bout this/now?”
“How bout this/now?”
“How bout this/now?”
Etc.
Reincarnation isnt to force ppl to get used to others’ differences;
it is to punish them for being nonvegan and traitors.
You can hate incompatible ppl and still be healthy, living indefinitely.
You Can’t stay alive while worshipping death and consuming tortured bodyparts laced with unnatural substances, all of which are poisons to any lifeform.
Fucking duh.
typist irl file: “But this dude is from my state and no I visited my cousin’s there”
Arizona
Makes me wonder if that was her cousin who showed up to heartache me some more
Near 3:10pm sat18may2024 on the rd from stockade springs campg, 2 pickups slowed, 1 with both men n the cab holding their cell phones up to take my picture.
Why?
For the 14d rule?
Bc they are faggots?
Humans really should be wiped out.
Mem refresh. Maloney mt. And maloney lookout, view of wind turbines horizon
Loopbreak. Didnt make fire once bk at forest boundary. Was too cold last time. This time, cozy suv already warm. Fire tmrw morning.
Nevermind; the art typist sent while I was driving through the farmland wasn’t new, as I’d texted her. Coffee cup smile a.i. art refreshed old memory… and it made me sad last time, b/c I could barely afford food, let alone drinks and babes.
Vaguely rmbr the other rest stop (dodge junction mp391) being a green dumpster and not safe looking. Glad i chose to drive bk to forest boundary
Having congregations chant “no one can know what heaven is like” is probably an engineered spell that keeps weak minds open to any possibility at death, thus making them compliant/easy for the Moon’s ghostbuster-tech’ soul-catching megatowers.
I was worried about the dark blue suburban here last time. Here it is again lol
The reason they (the entrenched morons) are against incest is bc it is self-stabilizing, needing no change/outsiders.
The reason they are fine w retards such as faggots is bc it is unnatural thus change and destabilizing, and bc those r still fully brainwashed/programmed by the end of hs. All the system minions care about is that ppl get fully brainwashed to be weak and needy and loveless.
Loopb. Last time, i sat on that gravel lot btwn big long trucks, facing gas station pomeroy, cussing for hrs at internet slowness, not having gas to move.
This time, i remembered that and moved before even attempting more than my 1 phoneclear gmail.
Hilary at Next Step was probably another dumbass NPC/minion sent to saw that specific thing about malaria meds in Africa causing tinnitus; they knew I had tinnitus, and hated it, and that saying something default-worrisome/-foreboding like that might slow me from traveling to that continent for a while.
“They” have probably had an analyst work out just how deeply I internet-research people I meet, they then creating fake accounts with barely that much info, maybe a little more just in case, so that those I end up researching… always seem to have just enough content for me to give them a shot at a conversation. Too bad all their in-person encounters are paired with the same one and unmistakable vibe they haven’t managed to fake in 41 years; mindless evil/darkness.
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Godman st sign and town –didn’t end up going that many miles into the forest on the gravel road, but of note
3:57pm sun19may2024: Mayan, Aryan; similar spelling
I remember finding that xian blog article about Genesis / Adam & Eve the last time I drove to this very rest stop.
Love’s (1370 N Hwy #261, Ritzville, WA 99169)
Back then (several yrs ago), I moodily ripped into every word of it.
This time, I extracted its tolerable parts, and will apply it to my Cropland pg; phase2… or was phase1 the idiot/blog, phase2 my correction of it back then, and phase3 me using it for good now?
How neat it is that this 2nd rd feels like progress, not a mere loop/repeat.
How neat it is that in the middle of the most gorgeous farmland I have ever seen, I am noticing articles about agriculture… and realizing how to apply them to my Cropland.
The lands really are imparting upon me their wisdom and power, just as I kept asking, thereby holding/manifesting that focus/vision/desire.
In phase1, evildoers Forced me to defend myself and smack them, then freaked about it.
In phase2, i refused to let them pick fights w me, not smacking them even though they Really were asking for it, such as that midget loser in ak.
Phase3 has barely/finally begun, evidenced in how typist RPs Ambi asking for sparring, and I finally smack them the way we Both want. Same w the sexy/”rape” rp; we are in alignment now. Amen.
First time here was jeep i had to pay for, and prob no tunes, and rage at that stupid xian blog article.
This 2nd time was lux suv i Didnt have to pay for, and great jazz, and no rage at all at that same article I re-happened upon and this time applied to Cropland.
Rd3; perfect; vehicles/airships I designed, etc., is next. Amen.
Note how in phase1 the moody screamed at and threatened you, and Were able to terrorize/bully/force/coerce you into briefly doing things,
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then phase2 clearly was confirmed when they switched to only asking Why you were or were not doing what they wanted, their power draMatically diminished. They also pestered/harassed you by phone, but it was all blatant and bluffs and fruitless for them.
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In phase3, all will realize the error of their ways, genuinely repent and beg your (my) forgiveness, and Thank me for surviving the phase1 and phase2 abuse, and thank me for living by example each time i peacefully/maturely/steadfastly rejected Every dark-soul/evildoer/scam/attempt, letting only corRect behavior through. Amen.
Phase1 was having to deal w idiots and paying to rent.
Phase2 was re-meeting and outsmarting more idiots, and re/finding Some free camping.
Phase3 will be only being around ppl I spellcrafted/manifested/summoned, and all humans willingly Paying me to do Anything I want. Amen.
First drive-through ice-cream noticed
Loopb. Didnt bother calling baskin robbins’ drive-through.
“You will conquer obstacles to achieve success.”
“The object of your desire comes closer.”
Finally, 2 actual fortunes in the fortune cookies.
I am more powerful than I thought/know; if I wasn’t, why did they send numerous government agents to try and reprogram/corrupt me?
Why did they spend millions to train me?
Why did they spend hundreds of thousands to millions on fake veterans events?
Why did they send perfect-tens to try and seduce me EVERYWHERE I went?
Why did they not lock me up when I stood up to them?
Why did their females/groups get so nervous when I didn’t accept their bait –bait which was NOT MINORS?
Why did their field agents get so nervous/exasperated when I didn’t accept their bait?
Why did they always end up backing off instead of switching to force?
Because all they have all dark bluffs, not actual power.
They require consent for some reason, which makes them powerless, just posturing.
Why didn’t they kill me once, after decades, I still hadn’t consented to breeding with their kind? They can’t kill me.
If they Could kill me, they Would have by now; they certainly hated my holiness enough. They wanted to.
They are powerless.
No matter how long I choose to remain good/myself, all they can do is pester for consent/contact, and I no longer deign to give any –not even if they started paying me for my time.
9:35am pst, Love’s in middle of WA, latest almost-Ambi; long flowing black hair, skin-tight pants, elven legs, plump ass almost just right, but face needed work, and she was walking a dog; mine doesn’t have a dog, but a hellhound.
Every town I drive thru, I am glad I dont live there; all were hideous and just clutter made by incompatible freaks.
Muslims claiming the last prophet has come; there are no more prophets at this point…
is best interpreted/corrected to mean “There won’t be any more additions to their system, though there will of course be prophets such as me who update and complete the overall system of reality itself.”
How curious that when i go to campsites, usu no one is there at first,
when I return, they are packed, as if telling me to only go to places once,
and when I go to any rest stop, unmarked white vans are near, or shortly after arrive and park close.
Humans just keep failing;
my returns to places should result in Better manifestations, not worse, and Never creepers.
3rd and final rd of double-carrier dimensions-determining, zero deja-vu –and another perfect ex. of things taking 3 rds/passes/edits/calibrations to become perfect/correct.
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and lol I completed those calculations at 4:44pm mon20may2024; another 3-identical-numbers phase3-sounding alignment.
Driving flat central WA reminds me of all the times I drove flat TX to be there for ppl.
If the stocky tan guard guy in Rockwall was wide-eyed in a good way bc excited I had noticed/accepted Ambi,
and if Ambi only went silent bc she could tell i was okay enough to finish manifesting our empire,
then we are still in good shape.
I wonder if it was at that same access gravel rd spot several years ago that I did rd2 of my carrier racetrack imagining/specifying.
Schrag rest area
I-90, Ritzville, WA 99169
facing the WB side
At the very worst, they should have said, “I sincerely apologize. What did I do wrong? How can I improve my approach, my lord?”
and ideally, of course, they would have just introduced themselves like normal civil ladies.
but… that was years ago; far back in phase2; it was enough, I suppose, at least back then, that they showed me their exTeriors were perfect/correct.
If they wanted to be good to me, they would have.
They are their actions; they wanted to be rude to me, bc that is what they always proudly or idiotically were.
Their “bitter beer faces” showed how cunty they were in reaction to my normalcy.
At any time, they could have said they were there to meet me.
They could have email or called or texted or chat-messaged.
The fact that they didnt… shows they were there to see if they could capture my attention and change my course, not be polite/normal by communicating politely/normally.
They were agents and/or pawns of agents. Lame. Disgusting. Evil.
Just like many times before, rn it doesnt seem like i will make it, let alone get btr vehicles, more money, nicer ppl, etc.,
but those things keep improving, no matter the financial bs I am subjected to.
I will keep getting btr breathers,
better adventures,
better babes,
better offers,
better health,
you name it.
Amen.
“Short fuse”? No; I finally have healthy boundaries.
I finally accept the signs, no more / never again hoping pure-evil humans will ever care, let alone improve.
A short fuse is what those who defaulted to extreme mindless negative reactions to me have/had.
My fuse lasted 41 years.
I keep needing all waking moments of these days to get my ideas wrapped up. I am glad I gave myself this much time.
In phase1, nothing stopped the evildoers from meddling/tantrum-ing.
In phase2, less and less was able to delay/pause my focus/work.
In phase3, nothing will distract me from being with my loved ones; perfected ambi etc.
I first hated these forced isolation times/spots, but now they feel so useful and peaceful.
I would guess I will miss them… except I keep being shown better; better will replace these times, just as these times are better than the phase1 moments They replaced.
8:19am tue21may2024. schrag safety rest area, to my right while parked facing bldg trash cans, almost ambi sitting on lawn, teen looking, maybe a bit chubby in face, but with a guy on his side facing away from me.
White sweat-top, rjh hairstyle, gray tight yogalike pants, smiling at guy, stood at 8:20, sat bk dn at 8:21, blue picnic mat under him
White rolled socks, black fuzzy/fluffy slippers, stood and walked to bldg bathroom backside at 8:22, too stocky hispanic
Loopb. I remembered the Plantapalooza online stuff here frm last time, skipped
Fred Meyer grocery store in ellensburg, mem refresh
201 S Water St, Ellensburg, WA 98926
And, as always, full of appetite ruining blob fugtard ogre waddle monsters. Standard human/usa total failure
I don’t think it’s them trying to steer me out of every town; ALL of them are ugly and rude; they’re just a failed people.
Even their almost-pretty bitches had the too-tall deformity and/or other deformities.
They tried using ugly rude ones to lure me IN, NOT to push me Out.
So bizarre.
So far not a single good place/shop/human…
Thank god at least their tech and some art are tolerable.
Even their “healthy” food is questionable.
Ugh.
In jeep yrs ago, I spent more time and gas bc i was trying every exit, seeing where i could rest and such, but this time i skip all the scouted ones, going to the ones marked from b4.
mcclellan trld was depressing, but this time it is cozy.
Might skip vegan s of seattle; vaguely embr trying it last time. Might go north instd this time.
Was just stressing last time. This time, chill and fantasizing about irl rosalie, who, like irl ambi, is way sexier than the actress who soft-disclosed her to me.
Loopbreaks. Stuff in phone was already saved/starred/hearted,
no vehicle drove up to trld like last time; didnt have to pause my j,
skipped the waterfalls pass “rest stop” bc i rmbr it being shitty as the pancake restaurant parking lot,
lube tipped over b4 i sat bk dn, squeezed out a lot on seat, didnt hapn last time.
Thankfully, it cleaned up easily n seconds.
Loopb. Skipping vegan tacoma dntn bc Very sketchy area
Freshies in boze used to b Zola’s/Solas cafe
Skip panini bc rmbr that too; not going to that restaurant/cafe with only 3 vegan things on the menu (bc I tried all 3 last time, and all 3 were meh; pumpkin muffin, breakfast burrito, and Field Roast sausages panini).
How amazing it is that I remember specific meals from several YEARS ago.
Moody, cowardly, dishonest;
3 descriptors always come to mind with most things,
and those are the 3 that accurately describe how chicks were in phase2.
They were even worse in phase1.
All the pretty art/models now just make me hate;
so few were not deformed in this failed civilization,
and no one was good yet.
How i hate seattle. So much traffic. Religtards such as muslims. Rain so much that cant see some vehicles ahead on hw
She and the others estimated wrong.
Maybe they were just lying, telling me what they thought i needed to hear.
Either way, i cannot trust their claims.
I cannot live by faith (because what I believe in… hasn’t manifested correctly yet; it hasn’t been reliable/useful/good yet).
Back n seattle reminds me how bad it is; gloomy, soaked, cold, ugly, cluttered, no response/team.
Thank god i have a comfy vehic this time.
Honey Bucket is a portashitter, not a rest stop like goog maps claimed.
Foothills Trl, Buckley, WA 98321
and it’s in a cemetery
She Does show Up, just not when i Call yet.
Staying put for months to a year+ wasnt the key/trigger.
May as well keep moving.
I hate all this driving, but i do like the changes of scenery, and knowing i am difficult for the repo scammers to find.
At least i have choices now; n phase1 i had None.
I dont know where that oregon bar…or az motel are…but i can at least get close to them.
It will be emo for me, but so was waiting and being left to die.
I have to try Something dif, and this is it.
Doesnt matter as much if it gets her to show up…as it matters that i am still mobile, still trying dif things to get to my correct goal.
She definitely deserves my hate so far, but only me staying focused will ever manifest what i know i should be trying to manifest; no one else is helping me manifest this vision yet.
The typist kind of is, but only unintentionally; she only wanted rp.
Staying at those free campsites wouldnt have worked for 2mos; they filled up.
I hate staying places alone anyway.
Best to be driving again.
It is the better option rn.
Honey Bucket is what mckay said his friend didnt like hearing, bc his friend worked for the company that dropped off these portajohns.
Mem refresh sitting here.
Wish i had remembered it isnt a rest stop lol.
Whatever.
Buckley. Lol reminds of “buckley-town”. Chris Farley cop-car scene joke
No matter how ugly these places r, i am here for a day or less, vs these ppl spending their Lives here
Skipping cities
Skipping prayers
Skipping faith
None worked
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though ofc it can be said that others not having faith in Me, even though I proved myself over and over, is what cost Them everything,
and faith in mySelf is what Saved me from all their scams/attempts/evils/bait.
Faith works, just not when placed in things the evil dumbass humans Tell you to place faith in.
Bigsky became very special when u (I) saw that perfect-fit cabin,
and even More special when u good-morning-ed urself.
The area seems to have the most-miraculous area-triggers of all;
no other place had homes I liked,
and no other place showed me superpowers the always-lying humans ofc pretend aren’t real.
So… what is the 3RD miraculous/perfect thing bs/yc will show me? Probably my family w Ambi. Amen.
Enchanted pkwy
Maybe staying put is only posb in Phase3, and phase2 is about movement, so i keep moving…
Nothing worked well n phasee1.
Moving keeps working n phase2.
2 DuPont signs. ugh, but…
Reminds me how brave i was and am; I tried to save my finances, brothers in arms, other countrymen, and the country itself, even in my early 20s. Few are as daring/heroic/selfless.
Freedom way.
Freedom bridge
Approaching seattle reminded me of virginia
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S frm tacoma/jblm (Joint Base Lewis-McChord), at that double-bridge (iron cross beams as arches over both sides/directions of traffic/lanes), reminded me of being in louisiana
I know from last time…i drove down the coast…and ended up in helena, broke.
She wasnt there; along the way.
No one was; none of my chosen.
So do i skip this long loop This time, or have I added enough to their rp/spells/dossiers to manifest them now?
Is this still part of the indiana-montana-nevada loop/repeats?
Idk yet…
She didnt show up every time i almost deviated; she didnt show up when i left for mex,
she didnt show up when the va tried to assassinate me,
she didnt show up when i was creampie-ing bitches,
she didnt show up when i was trying to make things work w ame or jls,
she didnt show up when i tried any of those jobs,
etc.;
me nearly becoming a house inspector or whatever else… does not seem to trigger her to appear; she doesnt seem to care if i am on course.
These Jack’s snickerdoodle cookies r so good! Perfect!
The Little Mermaid wasnt a correct prediction of blackhaired woman being bad; it was jewlywood monogamy brainwashing, also trying to make similar-looking couples seem unstable.
It was mild race-mixing.
It was antimagic, antiwitches, etc..
It was crap.
Besides, I wrote of getting Both the blackhaired ambi and redhaired ariel, and i get what iii foresee and choose and write, esp. since i used conscious co-creation like Ian advised.
wed22may2024:
Last night, mem refreshes: short bus parked 1 space away to left,
suburban 1 space away to right,
car behind played Tom Petty “free fallin” or something with lyrics which made me think it was more t.i. psyop idiocy/pestering; bc the lyrics were way too close to my current relationship challenge, as if implying i had lost it or let go or whatever.
Typical rude dumb wrong humans.
This morning at 3:32a, bus and suburban still there.
Pretty sure that means this is part of the loop/repeat.
Last time, i tried the coast, and there was nowhere to rest, so this time i say on the hwy until i am close, then return to the hwy, etc.
Had mike pruett from earthship nb been an agent sent to get me to that bar bc ambi wanted to meet me there?
Was it not really about his friend in the band at all?
Maybe.
Had that fug blob creature bitch been sent in to annoy me out…so i would be almost alone with/beside ambi n the parking lot?
Maybe.
that retarded kid who drove his pickup alongside the left of my parked suv on the trail btwn bs and yc back gate view…
was likely sent there, or chose to go himself, to be rude;
to ask that “are you okay?” question the same evil/idiotic/braindead/heartless way that former-recon bald midget did in the GC.
why not just let me have a peaceful picnic moment with that great view?
why gravitate to me when I went that far to be alone and enjoying montana?
because he was a bored parasitic loser.
there was no reason for him to be on that trail,
and no reason for the other 3 punks in that pickup with him to Let him be that evil.
delete them all.
me tirelessly/endlessly/consistently repeating what I want…
shows that I am dominant, my blood is that of the leader;
I do not accept that which I did not ask for.
I do not accept that which is less than what I envision/ed.
This is a very good sign.
This is the best of signs.
Only a complete ‘parrot’/fool/evildoer/shit-talker would ever default to negativity about this aspect of my personality, claiming/pretending it is wrong in any way.
No, I should Never accept that which is sent my way prematurely/inappropriately.
If I Did that crap, I’d end up fucking a disgusting deformed mutant, like cb and sf and tsb and so many Other spineless non-men with low/no standard/s.
I’ve gotten Much better sleep as a nomad;
no retarded roommate alarm or poison kitchen sounds,
or runt-pet sounds,
or evil brainwashing tv sounds / degeneracy,
or boldfaced/retarded lies parroting,
or drug fumes,
or degenerate neighbors,
or repo-minion protests/harassment/banging, etc.
don’t stop doing pc work; she showed up all 3x when I had TONS of pc work going on.
taking a break and focusing on her coming… isn’t the trigger for her returning.
she shows up based on something else.
“Loyal to where she works”, a gd smokes store,
but not to an actual hero.
Typical backward amerifailing.
I wasn’t wrong in thinking back in 2018~ that the guy at the gym doors sounded dangerously close to faggish; I have more than once specifically chosen to sound less low-notes bc it bothers the evil humanimals.
Thus, i shall continue my objective observations; when something sounds faggish, i shall note it.
(They intentionally did what ii don’t like, so I did whatever They don’t like. Phase2)
I rmbr this Country Cousin restaurant bc of its unique barn exterior
Mem refresh and loopb. Decided not to take the half-hr detour to the park on way to mt st helens.
Wasn’t ideal last time.
Parking facing the asphalt walkway from cars parking lot to mt st helens visitors center refreshed my memory of going in there. I didnt like it, and no one met me. Skipping this time. Bye, asshole place.
The Celestine never talked about listening to gut instinct, vibe, inner voice, memory of experience, etc.; it was all about guidance/signs from outside/others, thus it was overly-submissive, polarized, incomplete, imbalanced, standard xian.
Several yrs was exactly how many i needed to wrap all up.
Might have been done sooner if i hadnt tried renting at all, but i didnt know that phase2 was all fizzles/solo back then.
Maybe booking motels/hotels is phase1 stuff; paying, being around incompatibles, etc.
Maybe i should never book a room again, only accepting hotties’ entire homes.
Loopb. Last time, i tried anchoring in mt b4 any teammates joined me.
This time, i will just return there to get my mouthguard.
No rest stops for dozens of miles,
then 3 within walking distance of each other, 4 if you count the 1 straddling the hwy.
Space Age truck stop:
Is the saxophone player here an area trigger result?
Just a coincidence now like back then?
A guy who plays here often?
Stopping for years n a row was what got my work wrapped up, thus my head finally cleared/calmed.
That alone makes me glad the hotties stayed silent back then, even though it bothered me back then.
Fuck. Mem refresh aftr called;
124 US-101, Yachats, OR 97498
I rmbr carrying my bag in and out the next day…
Ugh. : (
Fucking loop.
At least I get a shower. Been a while.
Dej at Toutle River Rest Area -North Bound (MP 54)
Did i work on a prev wave of mkm ideas here yrs ago?
Me asking questions as a child… led me to discover so many other subjects that most didnt even know of, let alone the content of.
Me going solo in phase2 allowed me to learn much about those other subjects, thus the real lore of Earth.
For the hotties to be moody about me being myself, and to give me the silent treatment now that I am ready for them, and to have never helped me, and Always tried to moodily derail/change me? That just shows I was right every time I shut them down and maintained my heading / healthy practices.
So will i now find out they Are understanding, and on my Side, and coming Back?… or that they really were as stupid and evil as they seemed?
I hope their evil and stupidity was just for back Then, thereby, at least indirectly, helping me stay focused/solo for phase2.
When i was the only one being good and saying anything logical for decades,
and everyone kept screwing me over even when i was good to them,
and standing up for myself and others didnt do anything but draw more aggro from the NPCs,
and even when i Didnt talk to anyone… they Still got mad / i Still drew aggro,
I quickly realized it was a solo game;
I was the only real player/person,
and that Further lowered my desire to talk to anyone.
Why talk… when they get mad/idiotic and leave/betray either Way?
If they were good, they would have no problem helping, initiating, complimenting, acknowledging, teaming up, etc..
Why not thank me for my heroism and steadfastness and manners and selfcontrol?
Why not apologize for being so secretive and unavailable?
Why not beg me to give them chances at redeeming themselves?
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Why did they instead just give me many more reasons to suspect and avoid them?
It was as if all the signs were telling me to Not team up, Not call out…
at least back Then.
Whether i manifested those perfect tens, or they were sent, i was getting perfect tens in my 20s and 30s, even b4 realizing i Could.
Midnight, thought it was fireworks, but a car was on fire, horn honking 4mins until stopped
..lol; it Was fireworks (cop confirmed
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Reminds me of all the disasters I was left to deal with,
all the idiots I met who caused their own disasters,
all the times my sleep was intentionally interrupted by evildoers,
all the times I had to sleep on military gear,
all the ppl who were spying and choosing not to help,
all the evileyed firemen,
the explosions in Iraq,
the firetrucks blockade I crawled up a hill in Frisco to see,
the overreaction at pwsh,
SFs idiotic stalling in jrotc classroom as if planned,
etc.,
and how even after my lifetime of good works… I am still left to face such risks w my Own vehicle.
Thankfully things keep working out for me.
Thankfully, i parked far from the boom.
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12mins for first cop,
then fire suv,
then ambulance,
then sheriff cadi,
22min for firetruck
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Reminds me of how many homeless nights they left me to deal w,
how many emergencies I responded to,
how quickly it all could have been lost.
Makes me wonder if this was another area trigger, or fake, or sleep disruption, or test, or if it was a scam the owner chose, or an attempted assassination, or planned obsolescence; so much bs, I have learned of…
I hope this is the end of all the vehicles of all the evildoers I encountered. If only.
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Of all the things, in all the rest stops, why this here tonight?
Smh
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Full moon right over it, too
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Nice that the cop didnt ask questions,
and told what happened,
and was polite.
Always so scared of them after all the corrupt ones in tx.
Doin drugs w a blowtorch, and a car full of fireworks exploded.
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Glad it woke me to see the full moon.
Also makes me glad the jeep and Z made it through so much.
Lol maybe i got neuralized w others here, hiding what really happened.
Also makes me wonder how many times, if any, ambi or the others secretly karma-ed badguys out of my way, or put an end to disasters meant for me.
Sounds like the druggies got what they had comin.
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In the jeep last time, if this happened, i would have been wanting to leave due to the load,
and i wouldnt have realized i was possibly time traveling.
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Most left by 12:49am
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Warlock, peter. serenade for string orchestra. Manitoba chamber orchestra.
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The only time i talk to humans now are during fires/disasters lol
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“Not one word of truth came out of their mouths.” lol (cop said
Sounds like all my relatives,
most of my ‘teachers’,
everyone I dated,
most/all politicians and religious I met,
car salesmen,
everything on TV,
etc.
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Tow-truck door “always available anywhere” is perfect for kajirae y Companions
Why couldnt the humans have been healthy, sane, polite, with sexy wives and a normal culture and Good reactions to all my innocent compliments?
Smh…
At least I refused their evil every time.
Maybe crater lake island is Said to be backlogged…only bc they r scared of me going there.
(Maybe they r lying about the new system, and all the callers, etc.)
At least now i know i always get what i want, even ambi and sabrina, as long as i deal w the waiting after the vision/choice and before the manifestation/arrival.
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Well, they either let me in asap, and front of the line, and pay my way, or i keep wiping cities and species.
How it is.
The asshole tax is steep.
that retarded deformed midget who showed up at the fake alaska farm…
had the exact same skin tone, and evil eyes gleam, that “Tim Schaub” (fake Fed name) had at 24 Hour Fitness in Plano;
same minion/demon/NPC? same program of a mindless fake-human?
8:30am~ thu23may2024: first time the white dots moving in a circle during boot-up… paused at 1 white dot. :/
note how the instinct to try bars, clubs, hotels, etc. …changed, thanks a lot to having a nice vehicle to sleep in,
but the instinct to keep waiting for perfect females remained as strong as the feeling of when to join and leave the military, colleges, trips, etc.;
it is still, and always, right to Only allow corRect partners/females.
That means my standard doesn’t fluctuate with circumstances. Good.
phase1:
in childhood, they screamed at me about my nature.
in the military, they didn’t scream, but they still threatened me openly.
after the military, some tried praying that some imaginary god would change me; threats mostly stopped, but it was still in-your-face insanity/rudeness/retardation.
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phase2
near/in The Shift, I kept telling ppl about my more-polished idea/biz/wisdom, and they listened, and didn’t try to pray it away, but they also didn’t offer to fund it yet/then; neutral.
that babit spaz/retard/evildoer/NPC threatened me, but it was implied, and mixed with “I’ll pay you 50,000 dollars!”, so it was bipolar / kind of canceled itself out
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since typist has complimented my writing/vision/work/creations/self, it seems like the start of phase3…
It’s just taking a LONG fucking time for irl-ambi and the irl-others to show up and STAY w me.
I am so glad I still have ICV pgs, chs editing, Spacways wall-art uploads, workouts, and time-travel area-trigger checks, to do,
since I apparently still have to wait a while for those I chose to return to me and stay with me this time.
Typist saying she never went to jail, only got a frnd frm the drunktank during college (helped by picking him up), caused dej; pretty sure she told me that story here… last time; several years ago.
2024 May 23 Thursday 4pm, back into Oregon -from Vancouver, WA.
Mem of dirty lettuce
And garden bowl zucchini noodles
Skip
Loopb
Wicked garden alchemy is a food trailer in sketchy part of town, no parking
Bad staff
No website menu
Did not try
Yuan Su Vegetarian is not vegetarian at all
Portland avoid
Ugliest population outside of houston
Virtuous Pie, mem refresh
very little parking
1126 SE Division St #200, Portland, OR 97202
White brick exterior
Black windows trim
100% rmbr going in, seeing the inside, eating outside in jeep
So why no note on exped subpg?
Bc hadnt built it bk then, or barely started the dir?
Either way, glad I am able to updt it now.
I was probably allowed to time travel…so all my info would still be fresh during visit2.
I rmbr not publishing my locations and findings/thoughts bk then bc i was struggling to survive, barely sleeping, and trying to keep my whereabouts hushhush
The beach always depressed me when i was alone.
The forest always seems to shield and soothe me.
It is amazing how i can go from wanting 10 orgasms a day at least… to being so completely turned off by every single humanimal in every city, incl. the less-ugly (“pretty” in clothes) ones.
“Government Camp” rest area. full mem refresh; the emptiness, darkness, chill n the air, but this time… I am cozy and kinda rich
Oh the irony in how the bible warns not to listen to a snake more than a human man/mate, yet all the xians retardedly prioritize hearing and parroting strangers from the deathcult temples over being loyal to their own spouses.
Last time i was here, I hadnt seen ambi twice,
I hadnt rebuilt my website,
I hadnt seen time travel; myself at gym,
and I was cold and poor,
and my vehicle wobbled at 35mph.
This time, i have witnessed she is real multiple times,
and I have witnessed/completed those other things,
and my vehicle is fast, smooth, quiet, comfortable, and free.
Did my emotion… pull me frwd thru time back then; closer to what i wanted?
I hope it was just the start of my superpowers and time w her.
I hope it gets even easier for me to be where and when i want,
just like it got easier to summon lightning/stars/hotties.
It is fine to spread out History bulletnotes to later mkm seasons; the mkm issues just Tell of them; they r not saying those accomplishments happened in those later seasons
Pre deja vu about the vegan shop by the river, but this time i can get as much as i want
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100% clear memory of trying that place in jeep, hearing rattle of wornout clutch on way up the hills, parking here on way bk to mntn,
but bk then, i had prob 2 sandwiches and was over budget,
vs now 3 and not a care n the world.
Dej from texting her the “ahh nuts” video…at this town/hilltop…
Ugh.
Loop/repeat…
maybe recycling tech’, like EVs (electric vehicles/cars/batteries), was intentionally made poorly/weakly, b/c those in power here are still obsessed with planned obsolescence, and lying to make good things seem ineffective/bad, etc.;
I bet recycling actually CAN be done PERFECTLY, withOUT pollution.
was it hear at Polallie that I first made that Ambi-eyes image?
This time (2024may24fri), I returned to that image, adding a study/breakdown (theory) to it.
that scene in the war movie where the German uses his bodyweight on top of the New Yorker-sounding mutt-looking American soldier… to finish pushing his big knife down into his heart, used to bother me,
but then I saw it as a meme/joke on Untied Status Marin Crops’ FB pg (rd2 of encountering this scene; tolerated/neutral),
and then I realized it depicts a German defending his homeland from a retarded invader; now I like it.
how disgustingly typical phase2;
porn shows correct behavior, but incorrect bodyparts,
and the hotties in-person who have perfect faces… have incorrect/worst behavior.
At least I get to choose now,
and get the porn in peace,
etc.
Progress.
just like they always hide and lie,
and always kill for “food” that kills Them,
and pierce themselves,
and intoxicate/poison themselves,
and do everything gross/wrong/upsetting on tv,
and make up lies to demonize ppl who never wronged them,
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just like they only make shows based on problems and jokes, not solutions and rising up or just good lives
just like they make comics based on conflict and suffering
just like they make most video games based on hurting everyone the whole time; slaughtering NPCs
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all they know how to do is cause harm.
That’s where their insults come from.
That’s why their thinking is ALWAYS negative.
That’s why they sabotage others AND THEMSELVES.
“You will know them by their works.”
They are incapable of helping,
incapable of good manners,
incapable of truth/honesty,
incapable of sanity/logic.
For whatever reason, they came into existence that way / got made that way / got altered to be/stay that way.
Realizing that is a critical step in defeating/outmaneuvering/evading them; until you test enough, travel enough, and accept what all the evidence suggests/shows, you can’t reduce/end their evil/scams.
doc1 claiming travel was stupid…
was no doubt another of their pathetic psyop/mindfuck attempts at convincing me to consent to staying put,
which would have meant I wouldn’t have seen the world needed cataclysm to reset appropriately,
which would have meant I didn’t start wielding weather, ‘quakes, etc.
He was trying to protect his evil kind, the fake/spineless humans.
100% remember the gray-sand loop campfire rocks-circle by short-cliff riverside unmarked campsite;
was here in Jeep several years ago.
glad I re-found / happened upon it again; it’s great –free!
when was library sketch made? 2011?; bc that was the last time I spoke to evildoer eric-tard. history pg.
mine say 2021 and 2023 :/
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when was ambi eyes made? all mine say 2023 or 2024, so the original isn’t here :/
I rmbr the little fire here at Polallie Creek across from the Polallie trhd. then overnighting. Not sure where I went the next day. Doesnt much matter; I am comfortable this 2nd time, and can go anywhere.
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fri24may2024, 4:55pm: white car, male driver skinny like michael rice, gray beanie w forest green band, darker gray shirt or fleece, blue jeans. Bagface chubby female, gray beanie, dark purple rain jacket, black pants, medium gray hightops , white/fair skin, sandy brunette. Setting up camp right n front of me. What dumbasses. Can always count on humans to be stupid, rude, oblivious, and in the way so far. No deja vu… Not sure if what I several years ago time traveled forward to now to… includes these days, but… Dark green tent foundation sheet. Lime green big bag in her arms. Yellow and black collapsible tent supports assembled in his grip. Used a rock to hammer the tent stakes at 5:05. Their presence, if i remembered everything from several yrs ago, Could be a good way to tell if me being here is still part of what i time traveled to, or area triggered, several yrs ago, but i do Not rmbr them. Their timing was phase2; After i wanked, set up fire, got n river, and settled for evening. Their ugliness means do not engage. Moved car to block half of tent; opening. Walked away to rd by 5:45pm. That time until then resulted in me studying my top wife’s eye-colors legend more. He kept sunglasses on even though overcast dim. She had a red and black plaid shirt under the jacket she took off when they returned around 6pm. Total scumbag stood facing me for an hour; ~7:30-8:30p.
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White car here…and guy wearing sunglasses…makes me wonder if they r more idiot field agents like alaska midget wannabe annoyance. Glasses prob recorded me.
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10:26a, 548HCH Toyota small car, dark smooth gray, fat old man w white facial hair driving, old woman in front psgr gray hair shoulderlength slighty wavy curly, hoodie, no dej, parked alongside river facing away, both got out, guy walked to grove slope dn to river, woman opened trunk hatchback, left 10:29. Same moment, minivan drove in. Light gray, stopped at rd, front psgr exited first, white, white hair, gray grn shirt, blue jeans, 2 lapdogs,1blk, 1light brn, yellow ax 10:34, unsure if driver is fat old man or fat old shorthaired blob bitch waddle monster, dark gray blue shirt, sag blob tits. 10:41 left.
Rd1: she was there unexpected, didnt say who she was, didnt help at all, didnt do anything good.
Rd2 she was not there.
Rd3 is me heading there now, w far more energy from far longer frustration. I think she senses energy like godzilla homes in on radiation for sustenance. Either way, i continue doing the right thing, pursuing that which i know is right for me.
Before, small towns had the bad food, and big cities had the good, but in Oregon several yrs ago and this time, it has been the opposite; Portland was awful, and Hood River was perfect.
Camping has gotten so comfy and productive, i am excited to do it.
“All in my head”? False; it is on my website, in my books, in my notes, and in the heads of others. Nice try, trying to belittle me, though, except for the fact it showed how retarded and dishonest you are, doc2.
“Doc”. Lol; just like fake doctors, the docs are, too. They just use that title to get their evil foot in the proverbial door.
Cockblock me from my hs sweetheart? Fine, I plan a blackop and then join the usmc to learn to he a warrior. They thought i would accept idiots trying to demonize and shame me, then get a desk job.
– mistreat me even though i am honorable? Fine, i leave and take tons of stuff. They thought i would reenlist and deal.
– try to assassinate me when i ask for medical assistance? Fine, i end all contact w v.a., and study the entire healthcare system. They thought i would obey their blatant orders to kill me.
– Refuse to give me my tax refund? Fine, i stop paying taxes for life. They thought i would contact and reopen a joint bank acct w the criminal bitch.
– bait me w hotties all obviously playing the same game/tactic? Fine, i stop talking to any of their kind. They thought i would cave and chase and tolerate.
– trick me w a trade-in offer scam? Fine, i take it for free. They thought i would cave and surrender it.
– even ambi repeatedly mistreats me? Fine, i finish my design/wrapup. They thought i would eventually talk to her or stoop to someone less hot.
– Insult and threaten me? Fine, i do the same to you forever. You thought i would cave to peer pressure and accept verbal abuse.
They can’t seem to anticipate me standing up for myself, even though that is all i have ever done, bc They have never stood up for Themselves. They have Always caved, so it terrifies them that i don’t. They have always been lead by cowardice. I have always been lead by the instinct to do the right thing.
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My reactions were never extreme, only proportionate and logical and necessary.
Their scams were what was extreme.
Them thinking they had any right to rule me was extreme.
I cannot secede, nor be seditious, when i never agreed to Any of their system/s.
I am finding fewer and fewer reasons to talk to anyone, go bk to any city, lead any exodus. Maybe those were just phase1 diversion psyop attempts against me.
Is it energy+location? Like in Stranger Things? Worth a try; i return as close to those sighting coordinates as posb. Maybe i can even will myself effortlessly to time travel to/at them; not just 3 coordinates, but 4 to 6. Also, maybe this formula is only phase2; anything works anywhere for me n phase3. Amen.
Just like the typist wrote the character initially split in 2 bodies, i have witnessed her good personality without a present body, and her present body without a good personality. Lol. Pathetic. Just another hurtful loser moron. Thankfully i have momentum, wisdom, vision, and apparently time travel to help pass the time until she grows up.
Phase2becoming3 schedule: sleep around 9 or whenever, wake around sunrise or sleep in, eat as long as i like, make a campfire and firegaze as long ad i like, listen to the river and evergreen breeze gusts, tan for a few hours or all day, do a few hours of work on only my own project, etc.
The no-signal intervals help balance me w eyes rest, sleep, tanning, meditating, etc.. Otherwise, I would marathon more workdays. Same w the intervals btwn hotties; those help ensure I get work done, not just sharing love.
Typist not always getting along w me…ensures i spend the right amount of time w my other wives/lovers.
Typist writing ambi as not ready to see me w Annabella, then reversing herself by sending annabella To me…is rd1 becoming rd2; neutral; rd3 w annabella is when ambi enJoys watching me intimate w her.
deja vu / memory refresh / familiar setting;
snowing on day2 at govt camp, mt hood.
last time, i was cold in my jeep, and probably angry at having to rebuild my whole website after the WebStarts fuckup.
this time, toasty, cozy, calm, chill, everything done, better than ever, truly perfect now.
Why couldnt the corps have honored my great studies and service?
I still would have moved on…
Why did ambi turn out to be stupid and a repeat pest?
I won’t stop focusing on manifesting the correct version of her.
Humans and the gods they claimed were real all turned out to be evil or useless.
I was left on my own.
At least i Am on my own now; i didnt have that luxury b4.
Loopb. Skipped sleeping n snow 2nd night at govt camp
Oregon Trail game brainwashing?; to cause me to manifest badguys and setbacks at every turn?
Well, i have since brainwashed myself n a good way; via inisfree
Day after checking nicest suburbs, i happen to plot a route through nearly all of them
Zero worth to these “richest cities in Oregon”; gluttons so fat they look like they are about to explode
Loopb. Skipped trying Natural Grocers; too close to the hideous suburbs
Baldock rest area: am I correctly remembering the 8 gunshots from the jeep time here?
does that make it (that sound) one of the events triggered by being in this location?
me going around looking and asking for them… is very phase2 shit.
in phase1, i Couldn’t do that, and didn’t even know it would Work.
i’m wanting phaseTHREE now, though; THEM calling and asking for Me, traveling to Me, when I WANT them to, i.e. NOW.
Last time at Baldock r.a., did i rattle wobble jeep off right after hearing gunfire?
I think i drove a lap around the parking lots / picnic grove first.
Either way, this time, I stayed and had some olives, listened to classical, did more life’s work.
Again i worried our rp was over,
and again we had a good softdisclosure-vibe chat this next morning.
Tsb-retard gave me that same soulless pest evil gleam from his eyes that “tim schaub”, and foard fireman/ambulance spick, and deformed midget punk in ak all had; same demon/npc?
Any time I am pressured to change or hide or control my nature/emotions, I am amongst evildoers/incompatibles, thus shall continue on my way, leaving them.
“Surely I can eventually find Someone to work with.” is still negative/phase1; it indicates total incompatibility/evil around me.
(It was me tirelessly (for 40 years, anyway) resisting the signs, all signs being uniform/identical… that NO human had any goodness/worth/sanity.)
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“Kill everyone out of my way.” is still neutral/phase2; it indicates having let go of any attempt at / hope of finding good/worthy humans.
(It was me deciding to let the useless stay useless; to neutralize all, no longer giving anyone chances which the signs pre-warned me they Didn’t deserve.)
just discovered I have Sirius XM lol. after 5 years.
maybe typist isn’t working more to distract from the pain of the loss of her father,
or to avoid me;
maybe it is real ambi coming to life, working on manifesting all my website updates,
and she works until I stop, because she doesn’t want to think about missing me,
and is saving herself for me.
the moment those losers with the shitty stock-cars modified for street-racing blew drug-smoke as they were about to leave, I knew I was again correct in trusting my gut/instinct to not bother talking to any of them.
typical failed humans.
nothing new.
I thought helping others was logical and good, but the more ppl I helped… the more I realized/found they were only preTending to want help… to lure in and use ppl like me. That was phase1; me always so surprised at their relentless lying/evil, no matter how pure good and honest and helpful I was. I never expected them to be like that, and I was so emotional about it every time, because I couldn’t think like them, bc I had only goodness in my mind, and they had none, or no minds at all.
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Phase1 ended when I tested one last (allegedly) ‘greatest’ thing; their claims about god and their holy land. When even daring to go There in good faith failed (produced zero good results), and I Still got betrayed for no reason in court, I knew there was no point responding to Any of their kind ever again, nor in prayer.
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Phase2 ends when I sense I no longer need to isolate to get good things done.
Will it take as long as phase1 (~29yrs)? I don’t know.
So far, it has taken 13.
Every time I tried to work w humans, they were pure evil, so I quit trying.
At least it has been btr than phase1; when i was Forced to Deal w humans, not even Having the choice to try.
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Phase3 begins when hotties such as Ambi no longer appear/test me, but actually help and stay w me the way I want them to, our hard work in the past, we the fruits of our labors.
I hate every single radio and tv station.
Only when I Love them all (when all their content is what resonates with me) are humans appropriate/fixed.
The hotties and others kept getting mad at me, repelling me,
but i stayed me, and kept making my passes through their realms,
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similar to how i first got mad/annoyed by terrence howard on joe rogan, turning it off, not then realizing it was not only brilliant, but that i was seeing it 7yrs before it had even occurred; it was and is doubly miraculous/brilliant,
just as the smart/er hotties hopefully now realize iii was and am.
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These youtubes and other things, such as temporarily forgotten ideas, keep returning to me,
so hopefully the hotties will keep returning to me,
co-orbiting with me, until we bond and start our eternity together as mutual attractors.
“Feedback” from minions bred and brainwashed/raised to parrot only what they were brainwashed with… obviously would be pointless “static”, hate-speech under the guise of “feedback”/”guidance”.
Feedback should only be heard/considered when it comes from non-brainwashed, non-degenerates, non-minions.
The brainwashed always tried to cancel out / shame / demonize / slander anything different than what they were brainwashed to mindlessly parrot and defend.
It is not their place to cancel wisdom out.
It is their place, as mindless / brains-rendered-vestigial lesser-beings… to stfu and Listen (to me.
They dont attack things that are bad/wrong, evident in how they made up the worst possible things they had words for… about me, the guy most caring and devoted To them;
they attack anything that attempts to soothe, heal, unify,
thus their attacks on natural cures,
and even language, such as the de-legalize-ation of the word “cure” itSelf.
They say there is a savior, and none of us can be him, when really we must each become our own.
They attk whatever is stable and truthful and unified and unifyING.
Maybe realAmbi had no experience controlling her emotions,
just like all the other hotties who got mad before even atTempting communication/learning.
Maybe that is why she just stood there; overloaded.
Maybe that is why she left me to die; overloaded emotionally.
Even iii got annoyed with this amazing youtube of Terrence (Howard, on Joe Rogan), and left it;
since even iii, a brilliant man Open to this stuff, and Seeking it, and trained for Decades to underStand it, Still got angry/moody,
the Untrained/Morons will Always get angey, and Far angrier, thus must Always be destroyed whenever they cannot be avoided.
The longer they are entrenched/mindless/present, the stronger it results in each new vision having to become, thereby guaranTeeing the eventually change in dominant mindsets/masses/developments.
Obviously, this is only true of stable ideas, not destabilizing ideas/mistakes such as ruining one’s own body w drugs or trans insanity.
Ideas that make us More stable, such as Ending religion and Other “rule by the majority” bs (democracy, weakness/mediocrity, glutton normalization, trans, vax, etc.) is what is stable; removing the middlemen/extra/overcomplexity/excessive-change.
Pretending relig, which is new and chaotic/gibberish, is tradition, thus a stabilizer or a proven system, is a thin disguise/façade.
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Maybe all this stuff Terrence is explaining…is a new development, not an ancient thing finally uncovered/realized; maybe the universe Used to be Less complex, simply working withOut even the vortices He is teaching about.
Either way, a lot of his theory checks out, thus is true.
The fact Terrence assumes his kind (humans) are just little parts of a bigger organism… is wrong for me, but correct for him, as it shows his essence is submissive, receptive/learning, etc., not dominant, not knowing/choosing.
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The claim that jesus and buddha were teaching others to recognize the divinity in them all, is a crude and backward oversimplification;
it uses ambiguous terms, such as divinity, which assumes that each being is good or powerful or right or justified,
and if that was actually taught, then jesus and buddha and others who taught it… were prematurely trying to empower those whose nature and destiny was to be weak or submissive.
That is unnatural, disrespectful, destabilizing, etc.,
thus it is more likely that those figures did not exist, but were engineered by the church/religions specifically to confuse, stress, sicken, and keep destabilized… masses of ppl… who would then keep turning to the church/religions… for help/answers… that were kept from ever coming from those institutions.
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Everything is Not eternal.
Many things have ended, such as events, bodies, programs, classes, etc..
Some things end.
Claiming that Everything is eternal… is another sweeping generalization, based on zero evidence Or logic, and a foolish and failed attempt to Make everything eternal or have value.
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Yep, as i sensed, the 2nd third of this vid is now the one that is irritating me, but bc it is where he “goes off the rails” with as much nonsense as he had sense/logic in the First third.
Smh.
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“I think in the previous lifetime, I was supposed to do these things and I didn’t.” More default-negativity / self-destabilization. Pathetic. Brainwashed. Assumptive.
sun26may2024:
2:32pm 2nd floorboard rainbow
First product from mozambique; the 2 dif bags of dif flavored cashews
It occurs to me that i was enCouraged to be artistic… just so that they could try to make me associate drawing, writing, and creating… with fear after they shamed me; they blasted me with negativity energy/vibes, but had no mental capacity to understand that doing so only showed me they were evil/neg/stupid/brainless, while showing me I needed to further define and reinforce and hide/camouflage my innocence/purity/holiness.
I think That is the main underlier/cause of their rudeness regarding that first solar system I named the planets of; it wasnt bc one planet name sounded gay, but bc i had created something new, no matter What that new thing was.
How odd and bipolar of them, that they had a book about endlessly praising a creator, …while they hated and tried to shame/scare/bully/cripple a creator right in front of them.
Their alLeged creator was Not present,
but the present one, creating innocent and great things right in front of them,
“set them off”.
That shows/reveals that their nature is aGainst creation, and For Lying; they preTended to be about creation and god, but only when it was fake/weak; just lies in a book.
As i suspected/foresaw/fore-sensed; i got annoyed n 2nd third of vid, yet made it through,
much btr than last time when i got ticked and turned it off n 1st third.
I wasn’t happy, but i made it.
Mercury is solid
Venus is molten/fluid
Earth is liquid mostly~
Asteroid belt is vapor/ized
Mars doesn’t seem to fit in here…
Jupiter is gas
then smaller and smaller gas giants;
it seems that the sequence of planets out from the Sun/star in our solar system is similar/related to the sequence of states of matter,
so as Earth drifts out, does it transition more from liquid to vapor?
Do gas giants become gas giants by being in their equivalent of the goldilocks zone?; do dif stars have their own ranges/brackets which cause worlds in those brackets to be mostly one state of matter or another?
Why are the closer planets more solid, if the stars are plasma? Does that hint that below solid is plasma, and plasma is the loop/connector of the 2 ends of the sequence of matter?
In phase1, i thought i could learn from everyone, but i found that everyone had the same one wrong mindset/idea/program.
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In phase2, i stopped checking the always-wrong always-identical humans. If i Had checked them, i would have guessed that they had become uniformly neutral, yet older ones such as the religtards… were still defaulting to mindless negativity against me, and the most extreme negativity; paranoia and threats, while ignoring/rejecting all proof/evidence that fear and threats were necessary.
So why were some still neg like that?
Maybe bc it is the overall system/realm that became neutral/canceled…?
No, bc that would have been the case in phase1…bc i was always this way/positive; i was resisted back then, too, and i kept canceling out the neg…
I guess now n phase2 it was moreso neutral/canceled bc i ignored and blocked the neg, whereas before… I listened and tried to enlighten it.
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I suppose and hope n phase3… that things will be pos, relative me; the bad will be silenced by a growing number who aligned to Me.
I didnt choose inisfree over her;
all the hotties in my spell/instinct are key parts Of the community that IS Inisfree;
I chose Them, not one over the other.
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I just knew i had to wrap up Writing that Spell for All of them…
like when I knew I had to join the military.
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In phase1, things I had grown up used to…got taken; fam, money, houses, school, relig, the govt, faith, health.
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In phase2, i started and then had to end things; military, colleges, jobs, rentals, GFs.
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In phase3, thanks to spending my spare time n phase2 writing of what my instincts knew must and shall be eternal, things will return to me, perfected as i wrote them to be, and last/Stay w me, incl Ambi, amen.
The establishment parrots claiming that you can’t have perpetual anything; you can’t have a net-positive system; you can’t get out more energy than you put in…
may be another thing that stems from their brainwashing attempt to keep the gullible/workers manifesting/continuing the established system/narrative.
It may be Easy to get out more energy than you put in… just be focusing on manifesting that.
Now, that could lead to a chain reaction and explosion,
but that is default-negative thinking;
it could just as well lead to the Positive version of a chain reaction.
Instead of just perpetual Output, how about we add a descriptor / spell-subset… such as “more of what is stable and useful to me… than the apparent sum of all the things I studied and combined”?
With that expanded/elaborated version of the spell, it should be not only self-perpetuating, but exponentially stabilizing.
Maybe me just being near area51…and other facilities during my travels…and individuals…and ruins that are thought to be just mntns…was always enough for me to telepathically osmosis download and start processing all their memories, ideas, knowledge.
How else did I figure so much out?
The travel “should” have slowed my thinking/realizing, but it seems to have sped it up, and avoiding noisy/parroting humanimals certainly helped.
The opposite of what doc1 claimed…is what worked; travel and isolation and hate/energy. Accepting myself, rather than “signs” from others/outsiders, as the Celestine bs claimed.
Claiming that the female energy is negative… is an attempt to normalize fake/incompatible/corrupt females;
normal female energy is positive, always supportive of the males in her community, never at odds with them, always helping manifest the males’ visions.
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What I witnessed was that some males And females were negative…mindlessly; it was Never Just females being negative, and never anyone having good Reason to be negative at me.
Even when it came to waiting before launching a startup, the negativity was based on default and rudeness, not timing or logic.
The timing worked out on its own, but the ppl being negative were easily detected/sensed as evil/mindless/excessive.
Lhs social.
I used to think some people needed saving, but they were determined to end themselves and others; they were evil.
I eventually realized, and later accepted, that it was just some of their creAtions, such as tech’ or art, that needed saving –from their fake legal system which had been designed to keep those ideas enslaved, un-use-able.
Now, when I see someone about to make a horrible mistake, I let them, because I know their essence/destiny is to make that mistake, and get fucked up, and get ended out of the way.
I know from countless experiences that any attempt at helping them only energizes/fuels/enables them to hurt More ppl with their mistake/essence.
I also have the irrefutable logic that the more of their lowly kind end themselves out of my way, the fewer I have to endure the lies/stalling of.
To simplify, technically, them ending themselves isn’t a mistake, at least not on the part of “the universe”; it is the excess being removed, the shaft/chaff (sp) from the wheat, etc..
interesting that they can SPY without my consent,
but not do much more than show up briefly and pester me with rudeness;
they cannot make me go anywhere, or ingest/intake anything, without my consent.
Maybe they were always only able to do JUST ENOUGH… to stir/spur me to write more spells/laws that eventually got them held back, under control, once and for all.
Charlene Sun grown up:
https://www.dlapiper.com/en-us/people/s/sun-charlene
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https://www.linkedin.com/in/charlene-sun-a07b47b
latest disgusting ogres waddling around, parking too close; humans always signal when it is time to leave a place lol.
they haven’t been helpers/teammates yet. maybe they never will be.
maybe they only exist when it is time to cause/force someone to get strong and isolate, having a new idea powerful enough to push them all back.
6pm and onward this evening: even the quieter left-ear clicks are causing deja vu / memory refresh; they are as annoying now as they were several years ago here,
and I hope I soon figure out what causes them, that I stop them and prevent them from ever happening again.
The longer they lie about me to others,
and threaten me anytime I offer to help/love others,
the greater the buildup of brilliance and attraction and power/magnetism between me AND those others,
until our power is unstoppable, and our unification/bonding guaranteed.
Amen.
Even teaching and forcing ppl to call things theories, then test them, is a form of brainwashing that leads to change/chaos, even if that wasn’t intended/understood when that part of the system became orthodox/standard/taught;
instead of people sensing, trusting their senses, and declaring,
they are told only to wonder, guess, test, and trust results based on how they were brainwashed to interpret results/guesses as evidence/proof.
They are even brainwashed not to speak of proof,
or use the word “cure”,
and they are told they have opinions, beliefs, etc.,
not knowledge/awareness.
All that leads to unstable manifestations, changes to things that once were stable, etc.
Once I get the cabin, city, and health I seek/want/know I deserve and shall have,
the searching ends, at least for those things,
and relief comes,
thus less focus/energy/buildup.
Maybe those things are kept on me, for now, to charge me up to unprecedented levels,
so my energy is sufficient / more than enough…
to manifest my whole vision/website/spell/saga, not just lightning bolts like when I was little.
Amen.
It’s tolerable enough for Phase 2.
Each thing can only create things in itself;
each god is a realm which can only make worlds within itself, not in adjacent/other realms/gods,
and each world can only make things on/in itself,
and each human, apparently, can only make ideas, whether delusions or logical, in itself.
They can move some stuff around when they hold it, but they aren’t changing the nature/essence/thinking of those things.
Even what they program… ‘boils down’ to those things having their own thoughts based on how they were made when touched; the humans don’t retain control over the development of their code/programs/thoughts.
This is why humans keep trying to use propaganda.
And the reason their propaganda keeps failing… is because the humans using it… were brainwashed by their own institutions/churches/system… to parrot, not actually think/develop.
They keep holding back their only actual thinkers; the only members of their species/races who CAN think/invent.
Anyway, the short version of this paragraph / train of thought is that humans are trying to brainwash/trick people into believing things are the opposite of what they are…
because humans have no ability to change how things are outside themselves,
yet they inherited some essence-part/-fragment which is based on changing SOMEthing, no matter what,
and the only thing humans can change… is their own thoughts/beliefs.
No matter how long they CLAIM the spheres are planes/flat, it can’t make it so, because only the gods who made the spheres/worlds/stars… can change how they are.
No matter how many times bad/brainwashed humans claim/parrot something is bad/immoral/evil, it doesn’t and can’t make it so.
Note the evidence for this; humans haven’t managed to change ANYone’s minds/thinking, not even their own,
and have, in the process of grouping up and parroting and peer pressuring, only destroyed their OWN ability to imagine/think/manifest.
No matter how much they tried to change things outside themselves / their body-sized realms, they couldn’t.
If they had instead focused on being stable, not changing themselves into oblivion, or constantly warring against their own natures, they wouldn’t be so frustrated that their trillion-dollar advertising/TV propaganda keeps failing completely, being laughed at.
Keeping ppl sexually frustrated/distracted/clogged/overloaded,
and offended/enraged,
was a tactic used to try and keep them too energized/distracted to have good ideas and self-stabilize,
but all it did was lead the wise to isolate and further master themselves,
thereby becoming able to have great/perfect/stable ideas and manifestations regardless of the bs/abuse lol.
Do ideas occur to me more often when I update my site, thus clearing my notes, more often?
Doesn’t matter to me at this point.
I’m just glad I have the time and focus and guts/bravery to think, write/type, and post/share them.
How convenient for me that the ugly/deformed/idiot humans stayed evil/repulsive/threatening,
and the hotties reversed themselves, only moody when I Don’t want/pursue them.
How interesting that typist originally hated the word “ah”, yet has since transitioned to defaulting to it many times, not even noticing, let alone caring;
the reversal is in favor of what I like.
Doc2 prob said to go to the coast for ships…bc he was told to say that…bc my website mentions going to coast and then ships moving ppl around.
He prob has no visions at all.
How Can he?; he has no hair, no good woman, no signs of goodness at All.
He even got Mad at me before one session, even though i had made sure to show up not early or late, but right on time. He defaulted to a negative assumption.
He should have been imPressed w my manners, my timing even when w a girl, and the fact i was healthily playing And Teaching Chess.
All signs point to him being told to be there to tat me… while dropping the usual passive aggressive retard comments trying to corrupt me.
I hate her absence, but while bitches r still being stupid (drugs, parroting, etc.) …it is better that she keep her distance.
She is being the least meddlesome / in my way.
Speaking of ending cities… is exercise increasing my abilities toward the global 1day civilization-deletion.
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Speaking of damning gods… is exercise increasing my abilities toward ruling the realms they failed to protect.
Charlene Sun visions on my mind since 2 days ago, including lots of car sex, drive-in theater dates, roadhead, penthouse greetings, spin hugs, threesomes, livingroom pedestal-bed sex-show, bathtub, bed headboard holding leverage as she rode me, numerous meetups to celebrate togetherness and creampies and business deals.
100% I remember that “working late” ooc text back at taco bell rest stop just n of salem,
and 100% I rmbr jeep stopping at this odd loops rest area straddling the hwy and river, bc of its unique overflow-parking partial-shade trees shoulders
In 2 months, i find out if/when i will take my next big step toward becoming a millionaire.
Milestone mindset / reveal revs3 / soft-disclosure: vampires can’t control their emotions
(apparently no one else can, either. lol)
RP/disclosure of Angel/s crying b/c she wants/needs me to keep her and tell her what to do, not let her be free/independent,
is more confirmation (bc of sure vibe-sign, etc.) that the Gorean way (dominant man (me), submissive/subordinate everyone else) is the key,
just as I always knew since childhood (since wanting to use advanced science / magic to mind-control ppl who were not yet aligned/appropriate).
Claiming there must be many Earth-like worlds… is an attempt to get others to stimulate the ether to Cause that to be the case… so the evildoers can keep spreading and hiding.
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The good thing, however, is that they tried that in phase1, and all it amounted to was lame TV shows, and likely-exaggerated SSP claims. In phase2, it fizzled; it got ignored like the rambling it was.
In phase3, it will work in my favor, everywhere the humans who are incompatible with me go… turning out to be their prisons in The Abyss, always detected/known to/by my forces, etc. –and keeping those retarded humans far away from Me, unable to interfere with me ever again. Amen.
Even if terrence on joe rogan…is actually acting…like amber and depp in the fake trial, he is still credited as the one who introduced me to that new Periodic Table.
Maybe he is just preTending to be standing up to the system, but I don’t watch any of that, so it doesn’t matter to me.
it is a somewhat comforting thought that for all the “ppl” who like/love evil things in fb and other sites,
there may be millions more who hated those evil things,
and, ofc, the ppl liking those evil things… are probably bots/fake accounts,
and are, at worst, brainless peasants.
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russia fb post:
RESERVE THE ENERGY FOR INNER SELF
“Those who are focused on political agendas, epidemic madness, desperation, zombie apocalypse, living in fear every day, are resolutely tuning themselves to lower frequencies that lure many into the trap of lower dimensions, where their energies manifest the worst possible consequences. If your vibration is higher, understanding that the Earth and humans are undergoing a grand shift, without over-identifying with its chaotic problems, maintaining neutral emotions in your personal life, and renouncing anything that does not suit you, allows you to take the least turbulent journey to your most beautiful.
I want to see as many Souls as possible ascend and move in this direction. Release, disconnect, and disconnect yourself from Old World Energy.
The life of an awakened person does not mean that you will never enjoy ordinary activities, hobbies and friendships, but it does mean that you will always be aware of the secret oneness with Source. Life on Earth was never intended to be a life full of suffering, pain and struggle. These things were created as the human consciousness became deeply plunged into the beliefs of duality and division.
Spiritual detachment does not mean complete disregard for those who are suffering. Even if you know the illusory nature of the forms of duality and division, don’t be an ostrich hiding its head in the sand.
We are here in the physical world to help others as we see fit. Always trust your intuition in such cases. Remember, being aware of global events and being hit or absorbed by fear spells are completely different things. Observe the exterior in a neutral state. Store energy for your inner self. ”
my thought: It is mixed with retardedness; “as many as possible” should be “only the deserving”, but this is still just phase2. whatever.
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Lol repo calling and texting again.
I wonder why they stopped for a while. Weeks? Months?
Today, it was half a dozen calls and two more texts all of a sudden.
It might not necessarily indicate they need a reply from me, but it does indicate they are still evil, stupid, and desperate to find me.
It Seems to indicate they are required by some evil fool to keep harassing me until i respond, such as by texting “stop” to their texts which specifically say to do that.
At least i learned from experience that talk and patience and honor don’t work; the only way to beat these scummy NPCs is to starve/kill them. Lie back. Ignore back. Reflect their tactics.
Reject All until all are begging my forgiveness and doing Everything i know ppl should.
Hotties who don’t show interest? Suuuuuper creepy/suspicious/inappropriate.
Ppl calling me without first having paid to schedule an appointment? Suuuuper creepy/evil/backward
Everything i have encountered so far may as well all be trans retardation; females and males alike not behaving or grooming how either should.
Everyone ugly
Everyone in suits
Everyone thinking they know better
Every inappropriate comment online
Etc.
Every time i think i see someone appropriately formed and dressed, a closer look is always as disgusting/shocking as that scene in The 100 where the deer looked over, revealing it was so mutated it had two heads.
Yes, humans are that failed now.
just when I thought I’d do another minor touch-up in the game-build,
thinking nothing of it,
the evildoers at mc went and made an even worse / more-evil loading-screen caption; “infinite genders”.
humans truly are a completely failed species, catering to the scummiest / most-degenerate…
there is no way that is their biggest demographic / target / player-base.
even if it was, they are criminals for allowing that.
shame on them all.
hopefully their cataclysm will come soon and wipe every last one of them out, once and for all.
Still n the war against the morons/scum? Sure/yes, but in this phase i can now Do something about it, and i am aWare of it;
in phase1, i both was Not yet aware…And could Not do Anything but endure.
My options and powers keep increasing… while the enemy keeps sterilizing and tracking and revealing and killing itself.
Phase1, i can’t yet lightning or otherwise kill them.
Phase2, they start killing themselves Much more often lmao.
Phase3, well, u know : )
The more they contact me, the more they owe me.
The more they ignore my decision, the more they owe me.
The more they interrupt my work, the more they owe me.
The more of my laws they break, the more they owe me.
The longer they take to pay me, the more late fees and fines get added to what they owe me.
The more they exist, the more taxes and tithing they owe me.
And when I finish getting all the superpowers I chose and spellcrafted, I will repo Them.
I will repossess their females, their souls, everything from them.
Amen.
Texting that if i do not reply soon, money will be given to others in need, is not just a scam but a threat, and against the high godking, thus a felony.
Did they keep calling…from dif nbrs…bc me calling bk…might do something dif when i call bk those newer nbrs?
Are they sending more messages than usual…bc it gives them my location after being sent?
Idk.
But i remain free and winning against their scam.
If they had the ability to see my locations, they would have used that by now.
They only showed up the one time i rented in my name.
The longer they do the opp of what is right; the opp of what i know and say and command and deserve,
the longer i stay on indefinite vacation/down-periscope
I hate the tats/piercings bs “art” the typist sends.
Thank god she at least Sometimes sends art that Isn’t evil.
As long as humans value and demand mindless parroting, not/over sanity/intelligence/holiness,
I can’t and shall not work with their failed kind/species.
The tantrum-species
I was right to walk past them;
if they were the ones i called out for, they would Never have tested or left me,
esPecially when i was maydaying after ambushes from actual-evil humans.
My ppl don’t play games.
They don’t betray me.
They are loyal to me.
My ppl give me their contact info and stay by my side, preventing All attempts against me.
Yet another shorthaired pierced gender-confused old-causing (causing self to be wrinkled and whitehaired) retard bitch waddling by with a brainwashing runt wolf nigger pet.
Such a disgraceful race and species and nation and world.
I never went early anywhere; others were late,
and I got Many benefits from prettier cleaner more-remote places.
Also, ofc, every time i tried to stay, druggies and other degenerates kept showing up and having tantrums.
Relocating has not yet worked perfectly, but it has been the Only thing that Keeps working.
Also, in bs/yc and everywhere else, it was the same brainwashed idiocy, and that wasnt bc of me not setting more/enough parameters; it is just how the masses/NPCs were / have been, and it was good i checked many places, confirming it was systemic/species-wide, thus that i don’t need to be precise during unleashes/purges.
how can they be so stupid/retarded/’blind’/oblivious…
that they don’t see that I ALWAYS paid them when they were HONEST and POLITE,
and I ALWAYS stood UP for myself when they WEREN’T honest/polite?
how can they not figure out that the only way to get ANY money from me… is to honor the arrangement they made with me?
how can they not figure out that THEM ignoring ME… has left ME no choice but to counter-ignore THEM?
because they were raised to ‘parrot’ mindlessly until death;
they literally lack the ability to figure anything out.
they can only copy/mimic what they are told to.
Maybe balance is just a phase3 thing.
Maybe choosing my own destiny/calling/path is good enough for phase2; ending the forced IMbalance which was caused by losers/NPCs/’parrots’ pressuring me to have No balance/calling/work.
typist telling me what her real eye colors are… WOULD have been neat,
except that she ALSO told me she parrots retarded scams such as politics, pharma, religion, drugs/smoking, nonveganism, etc.,
and she made me wait 13-15 years for this trickle of useless information.
whatever.
phase fucking 2 will eVentually end;
eventually, I’ll be with ppl who are GOOD to me,
not just stringing me along
–and barely replying to great rp/writing at all.
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I Could focus on the good, but why?
I’d rather be whole/balanced/objective,
and that means acknowledging the UNwanted, the BAD, TOO,
not that dissimilar to how typist wrote Ambi requiring/wanting me to accept her dark side before she gave me her light side WITH it.
I can’t much feel excitement for someone who stopped RPing,
and/or for someone who parrots some of the worst and most easily figured-out lies of all time.
That reeks of lfb, cps, ame, jls, tsb, the feds, etc.; that is EXACTLY what THEY kept insanely doing.
How do I know she isn’t lying about her eye color?
Even if she is being truthful, so what? I have bills to pay, and questions that I deserve answers to, and healing she isn’t providing, and on and on.
“focus on what you have, not what you don’t have”?
I tried that.
I’m still working solo; that focus change didn’t help.
If anything, it was attempted corruption of me; ppl who cave to delusions/fantasy… were trying to get Me to do the same Thing…
likely so it would buy them more time to continue/keep not helping me (i.e. fixing the problems they alone are to blame for).
Idk if she can feel/sense how busy or moody i am,
but her not RPing…keeps me wrapping up.
It works out.
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and…in phase1, things ended.
In phase2, they havent been able to progress into good irl, but they havent ended either
Even the fugs in every town… indirectly work out n this phase; they keep turning me off so often that i stay working more, thus wrapping up more.
In phase1, they were noisier, around almost always, sabotaging, trying to hook up, etc..
Now, all they can do is be ugly at a quiet distance, always pre-shut-down, since i now know their nature and how to spot vibes/telltales.
Her not RPing…
and sending gross art,
and saying she isn’t ambi,
I hope will create a power vacuum effect such that real Ambi returns to me, feeling my need…again.
Phase1 was fake relatives,
fake relig,
fake offers,
fake wars,
fake cries for help,
fake veteran programs.
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Then i stopped responding to Any fakes, and started imMediately leaving scams/fakes once I detected/deduced them.
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Will phase3 mean the first Real relatives?
and first Real cries for help?
and my Own schools/programs being the first legit programs?
I hope and think So.
I was glad and proud I joined the toughest branch –even during, not just after.
Likewise, I am glad and proud I chose the challenging project of Inisfree/Ambi. It vibes as certainly-good/-wise as joining the toughest Branch did.
Phase1. I hadnt written Any spells.
I hadnt written how ppl would think and feel and be fixed; maybe that is why they always behaved so erratically/mercurially.
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Phase2. I had written of travels and such, but nothing as comprehensive and complete as what I wrote this and last year.
I am hoping that does the trick, finally manifesting not just relocations, but compatible Ppl.
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Phase3. No more writing Necessary; all is well, thanks to me.
tue28may2024, Jordan Creek rest area: ~9:20pm lol hearing the druggie yell “god DAMNIT!”
Just one more bs thing i didnt ask for.
Makes Me want to vent-cuss again.
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That toddler crying after falling… lol reminded me of how much more I cried/wailed as a toddler.
But that was indicative of my much higher energy and sensory perception, not anything bad. What the humanimals did was bad. I was just dealing with it.
Nice that typist writes ambi as happy and content and fully permanently bonded w me; I hope our shared vision and conscious co creation will manifest that with the az/ca/or/tx hottie/s.
Still, I hate the rp lull… and still being limited to rp/texts.
Interesting latest alignment: her feeling happy and content at same time my wrapup is basically complete.
Street signs…now city names
Surprise
Happy
Merlin
Phoenix
Talent
White City
Those who can only parrot: Disgusting, pathetic, dangerous
(I often think of 3 adjectives for each idea/demographic)
Maybe since most humans lost the ability to create in 3D, they resorted to trying to change things to 2D, such as making books and cartoons.
Many couldn’t even do That, so they just lied; they tried to change what was already created.
They kept failing at that, having no good vision, thus no good vibe, so they just stayed angry.
Note their actions; digging through trash, highlighting and red underlining things, never thinking to ask or accept honest answers or let ppl be normal, just panicking when threats and meddling didn’t work to corrupt/pressure the good ppl.
Meanwhile I Wasn’t digging through their trash, Wasn’t highlighting or red lining their stuff, and Was making Both 2D And 3D things; playdoh sculptures, The Alamo model, drawings, Lego builds, clay models, and on and on.
All they could do was parrot a 2D lie; their one book they had never understood, always having it read To them in tiny bits.
no deja vu on thinking up the schedule for all WMKM releases, year by year
(and that makes rd2 of it, since the Excel spreadsheet was rd1; rd3 aka IRL is coming now)
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2nd colored-bars image? 3rd if counting root-races or ian xel sched?
claiming that no matter how much I love being in an AREA, that I will eventually hate it and see it as “just another place to do work”,
and that its majesty will somehow fade/end,
doesn’t persuade me to leave,
and it doesn’t sadden or worry me.
It just shows me that’s who retardedly YOU think about the beautiful place.
It shows me you lack the brain ability / mental capacity / depth of thought… to differentiate between two separate things.
It shows me you default to negativity, and extremes, and assumptions.
It shows me you are not just stupid, but retarded AND arrogant.
It shows me to avoid YOU, NOT to leave the perfect PLACE.
It prevents YOU from being able to do work with/for ME.
Note how I left You, but Stayed in the place that has NOTHING wrong with it.
Note how I always returned, and how it got better and better for ME, since Iii chose to acknowledge and focus on its GOOD, while repeatedly dumping all the scum/losers who were just TEMPORARY at its BASE.
Bozeman? I used its losers to get to BS/YC.
BS/YC? I used its losers to get deeper / all the way into it.
Do you not see the trajectory/pattern/development/progress?
I keep getting better places/stuff/everything,
and only allowing sane intelligent good ppl to stay in my life along the way.
The moment you say something negative/stupid, you get dumped for life/eternity.
Nothing has been able to stop me. No one.
All you did was show me what signs to look for so that I can dump losers/evildoers that much sooner.
The only way to stay in my life and work with me is to be on my side, progressing with me, enabling my progression.
was it here at Jordan rest stop that I started the Excel spreadsheet for the release-years of all my WMKM Studios ideas/productions years ago?
Well, either way, I’m working on its update/completion now on wed29may2024 🙂
I think the reason they breed animals/cattle…
is the same reason they breed humans (pressure us to prematurely mate);
they can’t create things on their own,
so they have to get others to do things/work For them.
They somehow can’t even have IDEAS of their own,
which is why they keep ppl artificially poor-locked, thus forced/pressured to keep creating to stay relevant/employed.
Doc1 was prob told to try and talk me out of travel…bc only so much had been prepped at every location; his lame group didnt want me to notice the area triggers / loops / weakpoints
Even if real Ambi is a bot/loop/hologram or whatever, she looks and sounds perfect, thus she is still worth spending time with.
I am fine w ICVs, after all, and clones, so why not her?
1st: floor-napkin rainbow; cast by my water bottle at an angle below the windshield near high-noon.
Now both front floorboard areas this trip had a rainbow cast dn on them.
“They” probably noticed that the ringing in my ears wasn’t distracting/slowing me like they’d hoped it would,
so they added the clicks,
and pretended they couldn’t see what the cause was,
so they never helped heal/fix it,
and that one glutton evildoer was blatant in suggesting that I just needed to be with “the right people”,
which meant they wanted me to prematurely hook up and breed/spawn, thereby slowing myself down as much as anyone ever COULD.
When I didn’t DO that, they left both ears issues.
They probably would have done even more harm/evil to me if they’d been allowed to.
accidentally hit some keyboard combo that showed me the bottom row (1,048,576), then far-right column (AMJ) in OpenDocument Spreadsheet.
the fact ambi showed up 4/+ times already…
shows me that ANY hottie probably can,
thus NONE of them have excuses anymore;
I called to them, they chose not to obey that call,
they are enemies and shall be replaced.
Last time, was sad n jeep, tried the parking around corner, was frustrated it didnt work.
This time, skipping that, know exactly where sleeping, guaranteed good rest, might stay and get another meal here tmrw.
are all trails… actually places where roads (pavement) USED to be? and a PREVIOUS civilization-deleting tech’ came through and removed it/them?
maybe all dirt roads/paths… are ruins.
and the ruins aren’t that ancient.
neat idea.
I wonder why it came to me.
thu30may2024 ended up at same spot 1.9ish miles from trailhead just like in jeep,
facing same grassy berm/hill, etc.
but signal is great, and getting tons more work wrapped up <3
and plenty of $. not as much as I’d like yet, but still plenty for now.
ample.
abundant.
1st time phone overheated. oops.
St sign. Town name. Talent
It is nice for an ancient Atlantean vampire goddess to say, “and I thought Iii had ideas” and “phenomenal… It’s true!”
Chevron (114 Copco Rd, Hornbrook, CA 96044): Lots of parking
Mem refresh scared and sad n jeep bc gas cost so much. This time…meh.
Definitely no deja vu on all I have designed, modeled, and built since being here years ago.
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interesting alternate / real-vibe view from a guy living over there:
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We are not having a war. We have the SVO of Britain for the destruction of the citizens of the occupied USSR.
On the territory of Russia and Ukraine, there is no power, but the OCCUPATION ADMINISTRATION of Britain.
Russia and Ukraine are commercial corporations of Britain, in other words, COLONIES.
On the flag we have not sky and wheat. We have the upside down flag of the unr, the state of the last masons of the Russian Empire.
The upside down flag is a symbol of the defeat of the state in war, its surrender and complete submission of the enemy. A symbol of the colony, in short. Such flags throughout the territory of our country are already 33 (! ) years.
DISPARAGED POPULATION AS FINISHED LOHIV WITH TRIBUNE KRAVCHUKOM AND NEDODEPUTATAMI IN 1991 IN THE BUILDING UNDER THE DOME !!
FRAUD!.. Internationally and internationally!!! ️
The will of the Ukrainian people to rename the Ukrainian RSR was NOT!
The WILL of Ukrainians to exit the Ukrainian RSR from the Union of Soviet Socialist Republics was NOT, as the results of the All-Union Referendum of March 17, 1991 “On the preservation of the USSR” !! ️
Citizens of the USSR slipped under their nose a false Declaration of State Sovereignty of Ukraine, which was not part of the USSR, and toilet paper about independence against the will of the people !! ️
State authorities registered in Britain as legal entities of private (trade) law, that is, as TRADITIONAL COMPANIES.
Thus the Ukrainian RSR was transformed into the British Trading Corporation “Ukraine”, that is, the British COLONY!! ️
Oligarchs, deputies, officials, lawyers – managers of the British trading corporation “Ukraine”, that is, merchants of the British colony.
Ukrainians, citizens of the USSR, beg❗️
Legally we are the Union of Soviet Socialist Republics💙❤🌻💙❤🌻💙❤🌻❗️
Since deputies do not fulfill the assignment of the people to manage the state, but do self-government
– obey the orders of a foreign state, Britain, the people HAVE THE FULL RIGHT (❗️) to release their state organs from these persons and delegate the right of state management to other MPs.
And it is not called an uprising or a revolution!! ️
It’s called – THE IMPLEMENTATION OF YOUR POWER BY THE PEOPLE IMMEDIATELY!! ️
Flags of the British Colony – OUT!! ️
Our flag is the flag of the USSR!! ️
Are you still going to go all in the trenches for minced meat, “free” and “independent”?
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Sacrificing my muscle tone for a few years… to wrap up my work/spell/s that much sooner… will get me my dream-gyms and dream gym-girls sooner, thus better muscle tone than before… and sooner than if I had used more time keeping my first set of abs.
Amen.
CL finally secured 8amfr31may2024. area-trigger at chevron here just inside cali? either way, nice that I sensed to check, and that it worked this time. still no luck w booking a room, but no matter. this is just phase2, after all; the room would be meh; no hotties would be waiting there. this culture/civilization is too primitive/backward/evil/stupid to provide appropriate care/lodging/socialization/companionship.
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June:
may31: If SF and the others had been good, they at LEAST would have defaulted to asking QUESTIONS with the intent/vibe to LEARN/underSTAND,
but they defaulted to assuming I was bad, or to complaining about me doing something they didn’t like, thus showing they are both incompatible and stupid/evil.
IDEALLY, and ALL GOOD ppl do THIS, they would have underSTOOD withOUT having to ask ANY questions to me.
“You will know them by their works.”; those who complained or threatened me, or threw tantrums, are not just ignorant or misled, but evil.
Thank you for exposing/identifying yourselves, morons.
the big business did get done, just not with the lowly humanimals;
the big business was me doing my life’s work, more and more, until that was All I was doing.
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as for sharing love with the beautiful girls from all realms,
technically I started doing that; by peacefully rejecting all attemtps to ruin our first interactions/experiences together,
and by honoring them with the shrine-mansions list,
and Statue Park statues,
and so on.
The full-body complete-love… apparently has to wait until I am in Inisfree with them, all the haters/morons deleted/destroyed in the Outlands.
So be it.
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the humans were the badguys/demons/monsters/scammers, not those deserving exodus/sparing.
the exodus was for their tolerable/good creations/products, no longer enslaved as their undeserved property.
wisdom and signs came from Me, not from others, as that psyop book, The Celestine Prophecy, misused by corrupt phase1 doc1, tried to brainwash/trick me into accepting/believing.
Thankfully, my empathic clarity was and stayed sound, exceptional, useful, protective of me.
I made it.
My work (spell/website) is done (enough for now).
…the same humans who pretend I am bad… are claiming chemtrails will kill them / harm the land;
maybe they deFault to Claiming things are harmful,
and maybe it is actually Iii who am affecting the Chemtrails –and everything else –in a Good way –in the Best way; as God.
and this is phase2 thinking; “maybe”-based.
Let’s lock it in as “definitely however I want”.
Amen.
1st time trying “replace all” during bkup, just to see how long it takes
conveniently and amusingly, the idiot humans beLieving that doing what I do… will result in being sent to hell,
is true for Them; if THEY tried to be ME/GOD, they WOULD get tortured forever in Space-prison.
Only I can do what I do.
Only when I do these things… is it good, stable, and causing/resulting in Heaven.
1st time hearing this overlay/bleedthrough: 4:04pm on SiriusXM 78 (classical), during orchestra piece “Strauss, Sr. “Carnival of Venice” Fantasia, I heard a middleeastern-sounding guy faintly talking. Sounded like he said something muffled, then “How are you?” then “Missus Cleo”.
probably because it was a recording of a performance with an audience, not a soundbooth/studio recording for CD
I have learned COUNTLESS things, and at an INCREDIBLE rate,
vs. most I’ve met… clearly not even having the caPacity to Start learning ANYthing; they can only mimic/parrot the system.
THAT is why it is pointless to try communicating with them.
nice surprise to hear on radio classical SiriusXM78, “light at the end of the tunnel. It Can happen. It Will happen. It Should happen.” I need my wife, Ambi, as she looked and sounded in AZ & CA, to reunite with me permanently now, and show me that 364cabin is already our property. Let it be so now. Make it so now. Amen.
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JUNE 1:
ended up at same hwy3-gazelle callahan rd turnoff right shoulder in shade of tall trees by 8:30am,
then at same hwy3 wider gravel right shoulder with view across valley to left, slope up ahead.
deviate? reverse coarse this time, avoiding beach?
or continue anyway, since this state is meant to take up all of june?
May was pretty painless and proud. They r getting easier at last.
The “northbound and southbound” sign here can be taken as a sign/nod to how I am destined for both 364… and Inisfree.
Long white semi w silvery bk doors, label on both sides at back near top “alien transport inc” w black alien head silhouette like computer company
Being unable to book the lodge…and not invited to anywhere nearby…prob is sparing me from more loveless gross lame amerifail experiences.
Anyone who thought I wasn’t good enough in any way… is incompatible, thus a target/enemy/hostile.
Just bc others dont have any superpower effect / leveling up…at places…doesnt mean i won’t;
all my life, i have had Way more wisdom and power and leveling than others…Everywhere i went.
Maybe this is the lull/summer i never got as a child.
Maybe it is Good i get this delay/interval btwn my idea…and it manifesting.
“Nice guys finish last?”
No. When i was nice to normal ppl, i got ahead.
When i was nicce to mySelf, i got ahead.
Soooo glad i got that cold matt&amy coconut water. Been a while
Every time i text typist, i am actually thinking how much i hate it for being another evil moron and abandoner.
I am thinking how it should be the hotties texting me…and me not even having to reSort to texts.
Loopb. Skipped s coast all towns (south of that tiny rest area from last time), did hwy 36 e
Repo latest retared tactics:
vm said Judith, but nigger said “hello?” on 2nd callback
tried putting 24hr threat, then 72hr
tried pasting my phone nbr in the text
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but keep calling me the wrong names; Fantasy in all caps, and Sarah, obv hoping to trick me into saying “wrong nbr”, since they want any reply at all.
They keep inadvertently telling me what not to do; every time they try ordering me to reply, whether with “stop” or whatever,
and telling me to click a link,
and telling me I have an appointment,
or telling me a package could not be delivered,
or that i have points enough for something,
etc.,
they are telling me they are lying fools, blatant, and have no experience dealing with honorable or intelligent ppl,
or with ppl who can sense liars.
When all they ever do is lie, and always call frm 3 dif randomly-generated nbrs back to back, they make it so easy to spot and ignore them lol.
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3 back to back…reminds me of ambi dumbass 3 appearances. Same tactic every time; rudeness. Bitch may as well have been repo, too.
Classical (music) and alpine scenery and life’s work and travel and pleasure all day every day,
and deciding when all my breaks, lunches, deuces, and vacations are? Pretty 2becoming3 nice : )
Did i ask to be on a gameshow? Then stop sending bitches who only want to play games.
If they had been good, they would have asked how they can help me stay focused on what mattered to me.
They would have told me they were coming.
They would have asked when i wanted to see them.
They would have prevented every harm done to me.
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I was right to shut them all down.
If humanity had been a nonfailed species, they would have a grand total of zero:
insults at me
threats at me
ugly ppl
pollution
nonveganism
queers
religion
fake doctors who don’t actually heal anything
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I was right to give up on them.
If theyd been Good,
they would have apologized from the heart, and asked me what they can improve,
and they would have spied on others for Me,
and answered only My calls,
and done biz only w Me,
and hounded only those who weren’t doing things My way,
and chanted how all the power and glory and honor go to Me.
They would have never worried or misinterpreted me Once.
Mexico was the last time I allowed humans to be trolls in my way at any site.
Alaska was the last time I helped on any farm or anywhere else.
Montana “I eat meat” was the last time I offered assistance to a beggar.
EVE was the last game I gave players a chance in.
Discord was the last place I tolerated RP in.
So glad I always tested all realms, giving all a fair chance, then shut projects down when their results stayed uniform/consistent.
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The last time I put up with the fake colleges was Archi’s.
The last time I put up with the fake hottie offerings was… years ago. Not sure. (It being so long ago that I am no longer certain of the date… means I am years through phase2.)
The last time I put up with Minecraft’s insane evil start-screen messages was 2 days ago.
The last time I put up with the theft system called taxes… was 2019; Lowe’s. Some may have been stolen during plant-nursery, but I stopped filing before that.
The last time I gave any churches a chance… was 2011.
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The last time i put up w any military was even before I threatened a lawsuit in 2007.
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The last time I put up w the fake relatives was 2016; after the Louisiana betrayal.
2017 was Utah trade.
Or before 2017 Spring; when I left for NB Earthship for months, followed by first NW Quadrant roadtrip; w Pruett.
Woke and had many wonderful fantasies/visions of the destined next steps of my family; my sons and daughters from the goddesses I have wedded to me… hooking up with each other more and more, having our first family dinner together in the ICGM Diningroom once the youngest of them comes of age, then having sleepovers and pool parties at that mansion of mine. Perfection.
My ‘dark’/cataclysm visions/instincts are not phase1, but phase3; phase1 was when I kept trying to work w the evil human species in spite of all the signs,
phase2 was when I abandoned that fruitless hope/pursuit,
and phase3 was when I switched focus from waiting and evading… to ruining them into oblivion once and for all.
Loopb. Mem refresh tried Ruth lake and it had too many blds all around; no space or privacy. Skipping this 2nd time
If it hadnt been for every single chick being a rude backward bitch idiot,
and every single human border going full troll cunt blockage entrench spineless pharma lapdog,
I would never have slowed down, and never gotten all caught up w my ideas and posting.
Indirectly, therefore, the idiots are to thank, sort of, though of course I am the one who made use of the shitty time period they caused; they wanted me not progressing or thinking or helping at all, only parroting and bullying like them.
The tiredness/fatigue might not be purely biological, but an engineered recurring sign system sure to make me/us take breaks, thereby noticing many more wonderful little things, such as ferns, flowers, and trees decomposing.
It wasnt desire that triggered her to appear; thousands of times i Really desired her, she didnt show.
When i hated her on way bk from mexisatan, she showed.
When i wasnt even Thinking much of her, in oceanside she showed.
Idk about oregon bar, but i sure wasnt in the mood, esp when she showed w that brother or whomever.
I am tired of trying to figure it out. She and the others were useless heartless unreliable bitches.
It would take a miracle for them to learn manners and honor.
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why did a nervous breakdown trigger/summon her ONE time, but not Others?; the others were ALSO breakdowns.
She needs to learn to not be so fucking random.
Wives aren’t random; they are DAILY.
if ANY of them were NOT evil, they ALL would have at LEAST let me know WHEN they would BE places; so I’m not making trips for NOTHING.
Overlap of hotties, ideas, computer modelling… just like the Mayan/Atlantean Schedule depicted,
and just like I post-Shift theorized/foresaw/chose/declared/spellcrafted.
I wonder if they shut dn all rest areas after i was in each
Maybe she only showed at forks in the road, offering to help me avoid the next awful experience w a roommate…but then why didnt she show before isis or mike rice or carol or the others??
same thing as last time on this route (in jeep several years ago); SQL didn’t fully DL at the rest stop S of Corning, but DLed fine at the travel center farther S the next morning
skipping the nice suburbs of Sacra’; saw enough of them last time, meh, fine, but boring, and probably not good area-triggers
robert ggd’s evil glutton no-standards dumbass didn’t connect me w/ that trailer-trash bitch bc she had a spare room; he connected me w/ her in hopes of playing matchmaker like he always tried, always trying to hook up incompatible ppl to further ruin the world.
he knew EXACTLY what that bitch was up to; he KNEW she would try to hook up w me.
Avoiding reno bc i rmbr the shtty vegan fastfood (only 1 restaurant in the entire bullshit city, and it sucked!).
Avoiding yosemite bc near devin’s dumbass.
Area trigger 1 is oceanside ambi.
2 is sabrina
3 is yuma motel if can find
Having already extensively explored the entirety of the U.S., sure, it sucks still being here, but it also means I know tons to skip/ignore, so I can focus on wrapping up my work/spell like never before.
“It’s not what you know. It’s Who you know.” turned out to be as false as can be;
I networked more than everyone else I know, and it didn’t help.
What helped was learning and knowing things, such as that religious fanatics/morons/scumbags/evildoers were harming and killing themselves and others.
What helped was KNOWING that the healthcare system was a lethal mass-murdering genocidal scam.
What helped was AVOIDING ‘ppl’.
That saying, like so many other mindless ones I’d heard, was just being parroted by brainless NPCs; it was the polar opposite of the truth.
No matter the temp income issue, my site has wisdom and cures and heroism and gorgeousness, zero corporate p.c. evil/lies, etc.
Pennies with it…are btr than Any amount of money as a sellout degenerate convert.
The tradeoff so far has been go to beaches w hotties, but they r only eye candy, good for nothing else, and have that canceled out by the fugtards who always Vastly outnumber them,
or… go to beaches w almost no one, thus less disgusting evil to look away from.
Loopb. Not cumming to that girl (the Aerina Mira reels) this time.
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Loopbreaks. Last time, j to that flexible reels bitch, and at night, and after 1 tanning, and no dinner.
This time, j during daylight, to 3some bnw gif, and having dinner b4 sunset, and 2nd tanning.
In rd1, I was emo and not updating website w/ exped’ live, and my map markings are not all there anymore. In this 2nd pass, i am remarking the map, And updating the website, and i am far less emo.
Why did i come this far s…in 2027 (all the way bk to Cali)…since i hadnt seen her in oceanside until 2021?
Just to scout??
Equinox has mpha ‘beak’-like (pointed-frisbee) features 🙂
Maybe calla lilies are what Ambi was in charge of when she was a fairy way back during Atlantis or before.
No pt loopbreaking places…bc phase2 was Finding them in Jeep, and now is phase3 bc i am going straight To them
“Redhaired giant” means mars? Plural (giants) means more than 1 red planet back then? Asteron? Back when their atmospheres were thicker, distinct, the worlds closer, thus those things visible, looking like swaying hair when they had comet-like ‘tails’/effects?
“going to my mom’s house on my only day off”, on this world, after all the shameful liars I’ve encountered, probably means “don’t bother me while I’m in a gangbang or doing something awful”, but it doesn’t much matter, bc it’s still a no-rp heads-up, and I’m still too busy to rp anyway, and rp died when she started texting retarded bullshit.
All we do now is trade decent art and say gn. It’s the transition from phase2 to 3. It’s fine for now.
Why would I come to this hotel in 2017… since I hadn’t seen Ambi here until 2021?
Why would I feel disappointed she wasn’t here?
Was I just exploring the coast, and picked the cheapest spot back then?
Maybe.
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Interesting how this time, several years later, having originally been sad and confused why they didn’t show up here or before,
I don’t much care this time, hating their rude guts now.
what a bunch of punks, blocking the parking lot like that, grinning, knowing they were causing problems for everyone lined up.
then talking shit loudly when that one person got in an accident after being forced to turn away from them.
hopefully all the bad things in life happen to them –today.
humans really have to be completely destroyed; they never budge, always doing the wrong/rude things, always excited to do wrong / be rude.
I have never witnessed otherwise.
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I was able to read their souls/vibes; they were evil, there only to cause problems, not actually talking about anything important.
They were having fun being problems.
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I think I remember them, though; another hint/sign of time-travel.
for every almost-hot, there are practically INFINITE turn-offs, evildoers, wrongs.
Maybe all the signs were telling me to NOT talk to ppl;
look at what happened every time I DID talk to them.
Well, I tested both beach spots, and Sabrina didn’t show at the first, and Ambi didn’t show at the second.
It was all fugs at the first, excepting the standard one oblivious hot-ish bitch,
and all homeless scum ‘camped’/loitering at the 2nd.
Having called out YET AGAIN, and STILL no answer, I can only conclude that they were agents/minions/demons/lookalikes,
and that all realms must fall.
When I find them, their tortures will be especially gruesome and lasting.
Amen.
Maybe the Celestine was not just an attempt to stall me with fake teammate talks/meetings/encounters,
but also psyop attempt to keep me focused on forming a team… instead of stepping into my true power; embracing my natural emotions and my Own signs;
I think they just used that book to try and keep me from focusing on wiping them out.
It is a great sign that even after all the bad I was put through,
I still instantly cheer up and self-care and have a sky-high / infinite libido.
Right after 2 BS area-trigger tests/results, I was in the mood to be loving/normal/interacting all over again.
I even considered staying up all Night for that.
and this is when surrounded by Evildoers!; imagine how much More I’ll want/love/facilitate when I’m surrounded by only My ppl! <3
Amen.
Last time in this hotel, or somewhere, maybe in my vehicle, I think I scrolled and downloaded TONS of those Aerina Mira teen stretches reels, but this time the fb pg wouldn’t fully load, so I couldn’t scroll through ANY of them.
At least the links worked.
She wasn’t that hot, anyway.
Whatever.
Neat to be bk in hollywood while adding tv time slot info to wmkm pg
It has taken far too long. The cities are completely useless. So are the humans.
They have to be avoided and removed permanently.
In 41 years of me communicating perfectly clearly, they have continued to do nothing but fail, and fail on purpose, and fail with glee about causing harm.
Every time I even SEEM like I MIGHT do ANYthing good, they threaten to murder me.
This entire species has to be deleted and prevented from ever happening again.
They are not to credit with indirectly causing Inisfree;
I alone made Inisfree, in SPITE of them.
I would have had these natural logical good holy ideas anyway, whether I had good interaction or not.
I would have had Peace between ideas noting/jotting, not hells that slowed my ideas publishing/completion.
Humans didn’t speed up my work; they slowed it down; I had to move so often, and recover from so many wounds/ambushes/scams.
I alone am to credit with all this.
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as a being with a good essence/mind/way, I keep looking for good… but I have to accept that most people are not good, and have no good, and don’t even have the caPacity for good.
I have to accept the signs that there are pretty much only evil morons (as far as humans go) so far.
I have to stop trying to find ways of seeing good where there is none.
I have to stop trying to give credit for indirect/byproduct good,
when I am the one who has been doing the good, and putting up with so much bad, all this time.
my goals of wanting to share love with healthy females…
should have been celebrated and funded and gravitate to and taught to others,
but they hated my loving nature and health,
and kept struggling against it, trying to corrupt it,
while shamefully showing off all their degeneracy.
There are no signs indicating ANY good in ANY of them.
There have ONLY been signs conFirming they are uniformly and consistently and relentlessly evil.
They aren’t degenerates, though; that term is inaccurate because it implies their kind was once good, and just erred.
They have always been evil, and they clearly always Will be –until they get cataclysmed away.
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They actually kept getting mad at me just for having ideas,
just for drawing,
just for being kind,
for being brave,
for doing well on tests,
for not committing rape and murder for poison “food”…
That is as pure-evil as it gets.
2:20~ saw the 2 tits powerplant domes
2:25~ saw convoy of green camo humvees, a couple pulling a desert-tan covered wagon-style (soft-top) short-trailer, so glad I am not doing that anymore
2:26~ saw the hovering pale gray helicopter long
2:27~ saw the Pendleton barracks, wondered if mine is still there or replaced
2:28p I-5 Southbound Aliso Creek Rest Area, crowded, ugly, linear, no privacy
thu6jun2024:
~3:16p
Pearl Laundry Oceanside
2039 Mission Ave, Oceanside, CA 92058
Finally had a reason to use my ski pants lol.
Phase2.
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Within seconds of parking, another brainless souless-eyed xian recruiter beta boy tried to recruit me to his church.
Repeat of 2017?
If he was a good follower of the real god, he would have recognized me as god.
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Short light brown hair, looks late teens, early 20s, dark eyes, caucasian barely tanned, gray vest, white longsleeve, approached from front of vehicle, invited to church today, said from utah, asked if i do any hunting or fishing in montana, said “godbless, safe travels”.
Maintain record on webpg to see if repeats again.
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that dumbass punk kid at the Pearl Laundry Oceanside laundromat… inviting me to his “church” (death temple/scam/poison)… is almost certainly staged;
they monitored where I had plotted my course… and told that minion to be waiting there;
NO ONE has missionaries hang out in PARKING LOTS of LAUNDROMATS to recruit for church.
at least their dumbasses have gotten sloppy (obvious)
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me being “polite” while shutting down the xian evildoers… is still me being smooth, tactical, successful, using their “southern charm/lie/fakeness” back at them, which they deserve.
me rejecting all xian recruitment attempts… IS me only allowing the best; phase3 stuff.
in phase2, i was still giving Chances.
in phase1, i had no Choice.
phase3 will eVentually be me too intimidating to xians for ANY of their recruiters/evildoers to approach/pester, but for now… it is enough that I am no longer giving them any chances.
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It shouldnt be a lone male asking me to stay and convert to mindless evil,
but multiple perfect females asking to join me and learn My way.
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That xian kid should be crucified for approaching/annoying me, but at least it was shut down peacefully and instantly; before, his kind angrily harassed/pressured me for DECADES NONSTOP. He backed off.
It is always such a giant relief, knowing I have this free luxury vehicle every time another human city or town turns out to be disgusting like all the rest.
Doesnt matter what my mindset or energy or mood is; they showed up at all times, all across the country and world, whether i was mildly stressed or having a nervous breakdown. Besides, they should always answer when i summon them.
took me a moment to figure out why the sensors were showing the wrong tire pressures; I had them rotated a while back.
Front right did bk ride on console.
Back right did back left.
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Front left did front left. Good.
Back left did…front right
It’s so nice to be able to book hotels and not worry about starving to death.
So nice to have showers and clean clothes hours in advance.
But even w all that worked out in the 6 or 7 yrs since last i was here, it seems a horrible thing to me that the hotties refused to greet me, explain themselves, help, team up, or prevent me from being attacked and poisoned…
Whatever. I’m back to try summoning/requesting/aligning again. Doin what I can.
Sooo nice to have warm clean everything again.
Way nicer now than when having to go offbase w dumbass ‘maruits’ (recruits who made it through Boot Camp, but still have some more training before they are fully Marines ready for units/fleet/deployments), and deal w losers who wanted to fight for no reason, and no vehic, let alone a lux one.
And i wasnt checking dor area triggers or time travel or perfect ambi bk then.
All cities, towns, and individual humans are the sapping/negativity/evil nodes; a part stationary and part mobile collective non-consciousness.
And all places Outside the cities were the Neutral spots, though arguably Slightly positive to me, since they soothed and healed and inspired me.
And I alone so far have been the Positive/Source node. Interesting.
Finally tossed old sandals. Had overlap with new ones; phase2becoming3 sign.
All times the hotties showed up, I wasnt holding a vision of them; I was focusing on finding lodging/roommates/teammates…
Now, I am focused on cataclysming this world.
Even if focusing on teammates somehow called to them, they didnt act like teammates, but like cocky/cunty losers just wanting to show off.
Anyway, no pt holding the vision anymore; the site does that,
doing that offline didnt work yet,
and even when i had a completely different focus, they showed up anyway.
So i relax, and rage whenever it suits me.
It is just energy, after all.
It took her a while to show…at most spots;
Oregon took like half an hour or more,
and Sabrina idk maybe half an hr,
and at pier staircase,
so, like everywhere, I wait a reasonable amount of time.
I wonder if She now hides n Her vehicle…sad, mad, whatever…
Either way, neat thought of reversal/balance/karma.
Shoulda known id b fukd w again by yet another almost ambi (meditation beach drum player cleavage).
Ugh.
Typical failure and evil of god and mankind.
Whatever.
Numb to it now.
As long as they do not answer when i call, they are not treating me as their leader/king/man, thus they are not ready to be my ppl.
I wonder how many, like me sometimes, only look away and tense up bc they, too, were abused, leaving them traumatized, nervous.
Doesnt matter; all the thousands or millions i gave chances to…were the same.
It was nice to take a few days off from pc all day.
Their (humans’) willingness to believe lies, parrot lies, and harm others, while pretending to be good, and having no clue their vibes and insanity Always give them away…is such a total turnoff.
What a different life this would be if the humans had shown me they are good and trustworthy…
Whatever. Inisfree vision is received, complete, now shared/held by all who check my site.
No matter how lackluster this still is, i dont have to report back to retard base, i dont have a nagging spoiled brainwashed npc cunt to deal with, i am not losing sleep bc of a drunk gf or roommate, and i am still roaming free, conducting research, spending all my time on my life’s work.
Half a dozen j today and still n the mood, even amidst all this gross-tarded-ness.
Nice to not have to call out to the fake veteran orgs anymore.
Glad i tested them all years ago and now know btr than to waste my time.
Me clinging to the penpal…is phase2 or 3; not having to end/lose things like before.
I hope my powers finish kicking in so i can start taking everything i want and blasting all the rude evildoers.
Phase3 would also mean They just Give me all i want…incl. them blasting themSelves.
So nice to have a bed to stretch out on.
Siriusxm did a free week or so from may23 to jun3. That is why i was able to hear it until a few days ago when i made it dn into norcal.
It was nice on a few stations sometimes, but like normal radio…it was horrible on most channels all the time, and on all other channels at least some of the time.
It had more than 1 tolerable channel (classical), and had sexy songs not on normal radio, but that is still a far cry from being worth laying for.
I should be paid to listen to IT, just like Anything i do should be paid.
This thought/realization is phase2, and when it happens/manifests… is phase3.
Trying them (the 3 restaurants today, and the others other days) last time shouldnt deter me from enjoying them with a flexible budget This time.
If the hotties were already here, I wouldnt know what I really like; everything would feel good
Venting, cussing, threats/warnings…didnt prevent her from showing up. In fact, when i issued the worst and angriest threat of all; nuclear attack, she showed up More.
I tried all 3 restaurants last time (Avo, Eris, The Plot)…starting w that pink dragonfruit drink one…
2 today, rest stop, 1 tmrw?
Thank god these losers here stopped doing the masktard shit, minus the last few extra-retards.
Tire low like before the next morning as leaving hotel, or btr this time?
Bk right tire lowered 4psi overnight, just like before.
Area trigger. The bad kind.
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So why do the same cities/areas…have Good triggers Sometimes, such as hotties, but Bad triggers at Other times?
It was always “you have to be like them”,
not “they have to be like you”,
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“You have to care about them.” not “they have to care about you”,
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“You have to follow their rules” not “they have to follow your rules”;
Why always defaulting to the VERY wrong Peasants’ stupid wants… instead of My Good Needs?
Why not tell Others to care about what Iii care about?
Why not tell Them to respect and honor Me / My way?
Why the same vehicle issue…in same places (puncture/leak started at rest stop on mntn pass top before dn toward LA, lowered overnight at hotel, patched at same shop)…but n dif vehicle?
Just a lot of debris/nails on that pass??
Oh the irony and self-righteous idiocy in ppl trying to shame me for having standards and limits/boundaries, telling me, as if they know btr, that i should consider others might know things i don’t,
when i never indicated i doubted that,
and when the ppl telling me that are failing to consider the reality that i too know things They don’t, such as why it is wise to block
the tire issue was better this time; in jeep, it went basically flat.
this time, it remained drivable, not even showing a warning light.
sooooo nice to see that those Shift scumbags went out of business! serves em right!
unprofessional and idiotic just like so many Other amerifails.
hopefully I’ll get to see their bloodlines ended, and their entire Country out of business! amen!
me being out of shape… didn’t stop them from showing up in perfect shape.
me being ugly didn’t stop them from being beautiful.
it isn’t about how balanced I have made myself, but what I call out for / focus on.
I don’t need to be that good-looking; I’m not trying to look at me while fucking Them.
Eris (restaurant), I didnt recognize at first, bc was thinking of another restaur nearby, but rmbr the flavors of the tacos and gyro curbside across the street.
Not sure if rmbr intense bald register guy.
I think he was military, maybe a D.I..
There was a black woman and briefly crying toddler at the curb on r side of suv dark gray when i pulled up, and a man of orange ish brn maybe mediterranean or asian complexion who took over the child when she went i side. He was in nice clothes; suit etc.
Inside, the bald man said they had a sand area out back for kids, and said the best things he make are the carne asada and crab something.
I rmbr being so stressed about the cost, but this time it is fine.
“You can legally stop the repo man by filing a Chapter 7 fresh start bankruptcy or a Chapter 13 bill consolidation bankruptcy.” lol sure but… that would still be criminal-humans dictating the manner in which I reject their corrupt repo; I can stop them just by drawing the proverbial line. I don’t have to follow any bankster SOP/sequence. I am the law. What I say… is what is legal.
They were trying to wear me out, but all it did was fire me up, giving me much more energy and reason to reject and resist and defeat them.
They were trying to train me to chase bitches, by them keeping sightings months or years apart, and by never contacting me the professional/normal way, but all it did was disinterest me. They simply have to let go of their insane attempt at steering or commanding me. They are my peasants, never the other way around. Their females have to submit to My way. Duh.
When they r mature and rdy for me, they will not try to test or chg me, and will accept all of me, as all of reactions are logical and polite and valid and mature and right.
No real reason i should feel sadder or madder at any one spot more than the others, but i now have met the hotties at certain spots, so… That’s just how those spots are remembered.
I’m getting posb faint mem refresh of the 2 Palm Springs vegan restaurants being meh…so…bk to oceanside?
My cooking has always been better; from now on, I skip all restaurants, even vegan ones. No one appropriate was ever at them, anyway. Good riddance.
All this time, I tried valiantly and relentlessly to find soul fam… but maybe I should have been avoiding ppl in All of phase 1 And 2, Not calling out.
Look at the results; only evil morons showed up; calling out backfired.
Besides, in phase 3, calling out won’t be necessary.
At some pt, suddenly, she and the others I want…will be back…and will explain themselves…and will be loyal to me.
Lol glad to see another moron human suiciding (re the FB/reddit post). Too bad the mindless humans keep trying to keep these weakfucks alive. Oh well. He’ll keep causing problems for them, just like cb and eli did.
They should have focused on keeping the strong good men such as me in good shape, but they keep evilly and retardedly promoting and perpetuating weakness/runts/failures.
It will be their undoing.
But…still nice to read that another drunk pos is suffering.
I am remembering martinelli’s sparkling apple juice bottle from sun cafe…
Did i have it w the dynamite roll last time? Skip
1. Evildoers prevented any peace or good ppl.
2. Isolation. Evildoers still blipped but easily shut down. Tolerables also blipped.
3. Good ppl finally in power, all loyal to me, serving me.
Only way to really loopb is skip All vegan restaurants.
If she and the others were mind readers, then they chose to disrespectfully refuse to behave normally, how I was waiting for. They chose not to explain their mixed signals. They chose not to explain anything, thus they are not good to me, and not my ppl.
If they Couldnt read my mind, they are Still bad; they then would Not be the real deal, whom I called out for.
Either way, I was right to stay quiet, waiting for good behavior/signs.
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If they are limited by some law or system, they are not the goddesses and sorceresses I chose.
vague memory of trying The Red Dot Vegetarian Kitchen, and meh pizza etc
Last/first time, spent like60$ on too much, couldnt finish, pizza was crap.
Loopb 30 this time, just 2 things, no pizza.
Instd of avoiding places bc already tried, just try dif, and celebrate budget and memory
I must have tapped into my savings before blowing 5k on rushing to aid eli. No other way I could have afforded all those meals.
I must have had the Red Dot vada on my way bk north; did I have the pizza on way dn south first?
phase1: EVERYthing I was given was wrong, intended to mislead/corrupt/hurt me, even the Celestine book being wrong in many ways, and given with ulterior motive.
phase2: everything I was given got vibe-checked, tested, and blocked if it wasn’t appropriate/’right’.
phase3: only what is right for me, as defined/sensed by me, shall be able to be offered TO me –by ANYone (meaning that the losers/evildoers who tried to use wordplay/lies/scams/books to mislead me… will have lost their ability to do anything I wouldn’t want them to)
phase1: I was forced to be around only moody evil fools; anti-teammates.
phase2: I forced others to keep away/silent until they were ascended/enlightened/compatible.
phase3: only NOW is it teammates/family time. clearly. jfc.
deja vu from her copy-pasting the vtm Brujah facts/disclosure into our chat, but so what?
I re-read and re-read stuff for high school to memorize it, so why not this?
at least now, a loyal-ish female is telling me USEFUL things that are INTERESTING to me.
The most stable forms are spheres, their orbits ~circular/round/elliptical; it is stabilizing to repeat some things.
Every time I get charged for gas, that’s another human city that shall be destroyed.
I guess this is the only way to communicate and train/correct these wayward animals.
Evidence? Or date change on the article just to mislead me?
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Kevin Hart opens new plant-based, fast-food restaurant in LA
(lol at another moron -one of Hart’s investors- lying by claiming he only eats meat)
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August 25, 2022 grand opening?
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I was there when I had the Jeep; 2017, so I time traveled half a decade ahead and back?
I 100% remember driving back down there, worried about the wobble and gas, “breaking the bank” to try as much as I could, just like I did at most places back then since I never knew when or even if I would be back. I rmbr not being impressed, but still very glad it was vegan and close and affordable.
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Loopb. no Hart House this time
Still blown away and somewhat chuckling at how retarded cody in madison was, thinking if he overenunciated “steaaaaaak” (steak) when telling me about a “salad”… that me hearing the word said that way… would magically hypnotize me or make me decide that it must be good, nevermind years of study and finding it is based on poison and torture and rape and murder.
He really did deserve that perpetually impoverished hell he had created for himself.
Claiming robots have no souls, and A.I. is dangerous, is just more backward thinking, obv to trick cowards into staying weak, working the fields etc.
Now that I think about it, I was probably only close to “being a monster” when I Wasn’t purging nearly all humans and then snatching up 38 per afternoon commute; I was forced to let their countless evils ‘slide’ until then.
Jenna h. was GORGEOUS like Wild Life Maya in person. She was flawless, except for her eyesight.
That makes me wonder about that hideous pic of her in school; how could that be the same person?
If it IS a pic of her, then are all My ugly pics Also a far cry from how good I look?
I hope so.
Either way, I keep improving as best I know how.
It takes the lowest/worst level of retardation and evil to care and worry about the separation anxiety of one animal…while ignoring and funding and saying that of countless other animals is good.
Terrible/broken sleep for months to years
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Perfect/guaranteed sleep for… indefinitely
She has reversed herself before; she will again… on being present.
I used to Always have to be around the evildoers/rude/morons. Now? Almost never.
Ambi and the other hotties used to Never be around; eventually, they will Always be w me when I want them to.
Things reverse/switch as I command them to. Amen.
mon10jun2024-tue11jun2024:
San Paso truck stop (81 Wellsona Rd, Paso Robles, CA 93446)
spacious but bumpy lot and no marked spaces
2am: woke w asshole/hemorrhoid discomfort/pain, changed positions, stayed not lying dn a while, then prone, subsided by 2:17, fine by 2:20
unfortunately, due to them evilly hiring degenerate staff, I cannot return to try: Sun Cafe’s (10820 Ventura Blvd, Studio City, CA 91604)
Cacao supeerfood shake, sun florentine, reuben, winter ramen, lentil loaf, taco plate, caulif steak, lo mein, risotto, alfredo, pot pie, flautas, dynamite roll, piccata, angel hair
so those might have made it into my cookbook, but now we will never know
cool find:
gears toy that says “CLOSED”, then once turned says “OPEN”
https://www.facebook.com/reel/287434471080467?sfnsn=mo&s=F5x8gs&fs=e&mibextid=xCPwDs
2 penguins, 1 jumps into icy water and then back onto raft/zodiac/RHIB: https://www.facebook.com/reel/431210022833897?mibextid=xCPwDs&s=yWDuG2&fs=e
The way that fake-erin-janus said “thaaank youuu”, her tone clearly indicating she was trying to program me, and hadn’t expected me to say something positive about her imaginary boyfriend she lied to me about, was ‘dripping with evil’; she clearly couldn’t sense that I was a good being, and clearly somehow defaulted to liking/appreciating counter-bs / lies.
I wonder what happened to the real Erin. She had a MUCH better / comPLETEly different vibe/aura/tone.
Teaching ppl that the prophets are done, and god’s will is known, and all must do things the mainstream way or die, is just an attempt at brainwashing in a way that will manifest/perpetuate chaos; it is gibberish as filler, which confuses and stresses, and stressed systems surge with energy, and without picturing things more specific than “mysterious faceless invisible god”… the brainwashed are unable to manifest anything other than surprises/chaos.
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Similarly with “science”, ppl r brainwashed to assume it is already figured out by ppl smarter than Them, but that is just a trick to prevent them from trying. They then do not notice/realize that it is mostly unnecessarily large/complex terms… for a system the “experts” only parrot, neither side understanding it.
As long as these fillers/narratives get accepted and parroted/continued by the gullible or ‘spineless’, only men such as me will have realizations, thoughts, and breakthroughs.
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The more the fools outcast us and choose not to fund us, the more they rob themselves of cures and salvation and progress in general.
The budget allows me to survive and move a bit, but not leave.
The retards in every business prevent me from working for/with anyone.
The result is that I keep exploring this 1 big country, wrap up my work, and eat well.
It is as if I am being forced to work on my life’s work, not allowed to help anyone else in any other way.
Interesting.
As much as i hate still going through this, it has been priceless bc it allowed and ensured i get all my vision/thoughts in order.
Dej on flintstones show v2 frm this gas station, but no dej on having a time slot for it this 2nd tine.
Last time here, i mustve just made a note and pigeonholed it.
THE DIFFERENT FORMS OF WRITING, BY RACE/ERA:
- We write on paper.
- Before that, it was carved on stone.
- Then statues; the statues Are their form of alphabet/writing.
- Then geoglyphs.
- Then the pyramids.
- Then the mntns themselves.
- Then continents/landmasses.
- Then ring systems.
- Then moons.
- Worlds.
- Stars. Yes, even the stars are the alphabet/writing/sharing of ideas of an era/race. They depict how their ideas are, and how reality works. The stars encode/represent reality fundamentals… just like the pyramid features are hints about Earth measurements etc..
- In Arrival, the heptapods wrote in circles; a complete sentence, with no clear beginning or end, because they perceived time not linearly, but as loops. Stars are the 3D version of that; they are characters in the alphabet of the beings who perceive all time-loops and dimensions connected like that; as a sphere.
- Every time a new moon/world is formed in a gas giant or star, it is how they form their ideas. When it gets ejected, added to a solar system, causing the worlds to shift their orbits, that is how they add a letter to their sentences, each sentence being a solar system,
- and a solar neighborhood being a verse/paragraph,
- a galactic arm being a chapter,
- galaxy a book,
- galactic cluster a series of books,
- supercluster: multiple sagas,
- all galaxies in the universe: all facts about how this dimension works,
- all universes: all facts about how all the ideas of the gods are, etc.
- The first beings’ writing… was their own thoughts; there was no separation between when they had a natural thought… and when it got formed. Also, it was formed by their own bodies changing to become it; they didn’t extract/mine/shape things other than themselves.
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no deja vu on reviewing Flintstones and Jetsons images/thumbnails, and realizing that the women need long hair, as do the men in the Flintstones; to be realistic, not appealing to the dumbed-down gender-confused unnatural watchers/masses/degenerates
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Phase2 gd mix:
vibes as actually caring about me, says not wanting anything to happen to me, but stuff already has; scams, poisonings, homelessness, and on and on.
and RPs fried chicken. Moron.
Wth.
that druglord saying he made billions in 8 yrs…
So many companies doing the same.
If that isnt just more lies/exaggerations, and my experiences suggest it is real, then humans really are evil by nature/default; I have only witnessed them having evil thoughts, choosing evil actions, being enraged at anyone healthy and honest, rejecting needed help, etc.,
while wholeheartedly flocking to fund obvious and lethal scams; deathcults, pharma, street drugs, contact sports, nonvegan bs, wars…
Will that ever change/end?
How can I make it… when that species only funds evil things?
I have never been evil like them.
Even when they kept me so poor that I had no choice but to try to be, I couldnt keep it up. I just am nothing but good, and they hate that.
giving public speeches, and even doing elevator pitches, would only slow me down / waste my time,
preventing me from the rest and quiet that has always benefitted me with so many updates/upgrades and new breakthrough-ideas.
me jotting down the R+D pg consolidation note/idea…
and then deciding, upon reviewing that webpg, that I am fine with it,
is phase2 becoming 3;
in phase1, I had no say,
in phase2, I started writing down what was resonating well with me, and what my limits were/are,
and phase3 is about when things resonate with me, not needing any more change/editing/updating.
More than a few times now, the idea/vision has come to me of finally being w real Ambi, and still getting texts from typist claiming it isn’t her (i.e. the two are separate women).
I hope I get to be w real Ambi soon and permanently, as husband and wife, king and queen,
and I hope I get to keep in touch w typist.
All these gas stations and travel centers…
Annoyed me at first, but this 2nd rd of them/here… and I am reminded of the story of that guy smacking the water buckets.
This time, I apply my notes at each station… to Inisfree’s filling stations webpg sec. …And to my exped subpg notes; doubly useful/applied this time.
All the kailash vids use the same horn sound …and lol it made me think of The Brown Note/Noise.
12.5-miles radius of my realm; makes me think of how I had much of my development during the final ~13-year Mayan-cycle before The Shift, then much of my design/vision/website-work during the first ~13-year cycle After that Shift.
14-miles distance from shore to gate of/in her ancestral realm… makes me think of symbolizing the perfect/heavenly first/next step after completing that ~13-year post-Shift cycle/process.
She’ll drive hours to see the scam ark themepark, and a gas station, but not 25mins to see me.
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Typical american.
seek permission from imaginary friend called god
seek job openings
seek chicks
seek rich ppl to pitch to
etc.;
all stems from same backward thing; letting outsiders/others (not oneself) steer and make all the rules/requirements.
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In 2012, I started saying, “No, I deserve far better than that. I have my own way, it is the only thing that has worked well for me, and everyone Else must learn IT –and they started, even when I didn’t ask; the morons and others reading my website, then seeking My attn/approval/teamwork.
I should never have had to’ve called out for Any of them; they should have called out for Me.
THEY had all the power in the WORLD; THEY should have COME to me.
and now that I have seen how spoiled and idiotic and rude they are, all uniform, as if the same personality/being in different bodies, all the same type of complete wrong, I see no reason to uplift or worship or help or team up with ANY of them.
bs/yc: murderers, drug abusers, gluttons, and faggots; all degenerates in that worthless town. Not even tolerable as workers.
I got the ~10k; I’ll get the 250k now. That will make sense for wrapping up phase2; 2 sizable deposits/donations/helps/rewards/backpays.
(remember how the phase1 demon/bs got wrapped up with a single deposit; the 30k… which was 303,333 less than agreed to)
hotties almost never spotted these days/months/years… doesn’t mean they have stopped trying to hook up with me;
it means I saw all the previews, made my selection/s, and now just have to wait through the rd2 (intermission/neutral/absent)… while real-Ambi trains/perfects them to my standard/culture.
Amen.
The moment I had made it out of the cities and back into a forest, and had wrapped up my work and j 2x, she resumed serious long-para rp…
always when I am at peace and ready,
never in the cities that keep me angry.
Nice…
I hate being limited to texts/rp/discord n this phase, but I love the rp, and I love how it drives insane the meddlesome veterans and feds who kept sexually harassing me to prematurely breed with anyone.
Idc if some got mad at me for the same reason i got mad at them; for not knowing my culture.
What matters is that it isn’t their Place to get mad at me about Anything.
I am the Lord.
Right after mentioning why I stopped going to bars (a 4some that got sabotaged by a retard),
typist RPed a threesome.
Right when I made it out of the cities, too; when I was no longer furious at the degenerates, and was able to relax/decompress in a forest campsite.
Once I started getting mad that I was limited to RP, the RP was politely and lovingly wound down to a conclusion.
Interesting.
Phase2 mix/bs, but decent/interesting. Alignment.
Nothing is deadlier to my enemies than me stepping back and letting humans be as retarded as they are on their own;
I know many cures and budget-saving breakthroughs, and by not telling them… I am practically guaranteeing their ruin; humans don’t tend to study or learn or adapt like I do, so without my heads-ups… they will almost certainly keep sterilizing and killing themselves.
Also remember how my truck/squad Never got attacked/hurt, yet the Moment I was moved to a dif team… WIA from multiple IED attacks on the same mission.
I don’t have to fight the overgrown ogre morons directly; I can let them cause their own cataclysms.
I want to be direct, whoop their rude evil asses, but I can get tons of work done while enjoying laughing at their suicidal idiocy for phase2.
What could melt an entire world of megastructures? Passing through a star layer.
Earth might not have come from the current star (Sun), but it may have come from another, or been closely passed by one (Saturn and/or Venus and/or Nibiru’s).
Since i was not recruited, i was never a recruit, but an enlistee/volunteer.
Carrie grose assuming i was looking for a place to fit in…without even thinking to ask me what i was doing, which was the polar opposite of what she assumed, …was as retarded as that stinky fat deformed prostitute sean maloney brought to the apartment… who assumed i was shy bc i wasnt trying to fuck her, too, nevermind the fact i was avoiding her stench while trying to do my nightly comp-sci coursework.
Humans really were/are as stupid and worthless as it gets, regardless of where they worked or how old they were.
phase1 was unable to go places.
phase2 was doing my best to squeeze in as many per drive/expedition/trip as possible; rushed/crammed/chaotic.
phase3 is realizing I have infinite lifespan, infinite time, and things always come together perfectly for me, so I can go to all countries and ancient sites now without having to hurry or cram/consolidate at all.
Oh, the amusing irony of the Indiana retards who rudely gave me a pillow with “SLOW DOWN” embroidered on it, when:
they knew nothing about me
we had never met
I was literally motionless asleep in my room
they hurried over unannounced
didn’t say who they were
didn’t say who sent them
didn’t wait for me to wake up and open my door
and their whole species had been breeding prematurely and out of control like a damn wildfire
Starting to discover that things I like and want to make sure are on my webpages… already got linked or added there a while back; this is so much nicer than when I started the website undertaking, having only work and Nothing complete like that.
Phase1into2: always slow lane/s bc of vehic issues
2into3: always middle or fast lane
Interesting that typist RPs Ambi asking what I think about downsizing the girls in the cabin…
during the same time in my life when hotties no longer are in view at anywhere I go.
Have they all gone to training in Inisfree, and/or some to Ambi for training to be ready for me, having been approved by me, my thoughts of approval detected by her and the Inisfreeans?
Interesting how at the end of phase1, I approached Egypt the opposite way they claim the Jews left it; from Israel.
It was as if signaling the start of phase2; I was pausing somewhere, not progressing, still pestered by moron-xians, but they had faded to almost zero power other than interrupting my sleep one night.
Lmao at the retards claiming/posting “A.I. rollout is real” as labels/captions of videos showing zero A.I., just a fastfood drivethrough screen paired with a chatbot that can’t learn at all, let alone be intelligent
maybe this time-travel was not me several years ago skipping ahead to THESE years,
but me NOW skipping/looking BACK to several years aGO.
either way, definitely noticed and neat. hopefully, at least in phase3, useful/wield-able.
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maybe time-travel was to help me spot more form-sakes; I hadn’t listed the perfect-face hottie shorty Asian model slut-outfit at Arco in Carson City; she DEFINITELY deserves being a form-sake, if not also an acquisition/kajira.
so phase1 was stuck in normal time.
phase2 was moving forward and backward in time without realizing it.
and phase3 is having noticed/realized/accepted it, soon to be able to move frwd+bkwd as needed anytime without energy/effort.
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rd1 of this mega-roadtrip was time-travel frwd from back then, I not realizing it until now.
rd2 is technically still rd1, since I am apparently re-experiencing those events, just in normal-time now, no longer ‘jumping’ frwd.
and rd3, if it happens, is me consciously/willingly/skillfully choosing to time-travel not frwd like originally, but BACK in time, to specific 6D coordinates (3D being for space, the extra 3 being for points in time; 1 for a timeline, 2 for which version of that timeline?, and 3 for which dimension/timesphere?)
Based on how much else was staged and scripted, i bet that loser pretending to ask turkey or roast beef…and the blob glutton scumbag degenerate right before him…were told to be there where i would see and hear.
Based on how they all couldnt figure out that i was sensing and deducing obvious staged events, i bet they really are all retarded, not just brainwashed, and at least rendered blind in their instincts / 3rd eye.
Based on how many were excited to pick fights with innocent ppl such as me, i bet they abused Everyone good, and ruined All chances they had at getting help/guidance from us, the awake/non-vestigial ppl.
I bet no peasants ever actually pressured a government or corporation to change Anything; I bet gov’ts and corp’s funded actors to pretend to be normal people protesting and voting and leading riots… whenever the govt analysts/intel had determined/calculated that the masses were tense and needing such an event to trick them into feeling they had won. I bet all wars were this way. I bet no one needed oil or Any resources. Every time a polluting factory got overrun by protestors… it was only bc that facility had produced an ROI, become obsolete, and then got used as the latest trick against the workers.
Telling ppl to do things, instd of asking what those ppl think, stems from control freak defect. Telling ppl to never isolate, is the worst advice ever; personal space and me time is how we decompress and heal and recharge. It was, after all, being around others/humans that Made ppl feel they Needed to isolate/camp in the First place.
Rd1 i was trying to tan in a hurry and shape back up.
Rd2, just enjoying the days, basking in the sun, and if i tan i tan, whatever
I used to hate resorting to these places.
Now, I know I will almost miss them –except I also know I can return more easily than I originally thought, such as via time travel; I won’t miss them since I can that-easily keep coming back to them, as I please / as needed.
It is pretty nice that I get to wrap up my work while enjoying tanning in the best beaches and forests this continent has to offer.
That means I am not cursed/doomed at all, only pestered a little while longer by the death-throes of the evil humans.
They prob put that stuffed bat in that house just so she could pretend to have it as an excuse to say that next covid lie/line.
Everything all of them said was prob scripted specifically to bother me until i left.
But all it did was refocus me, i redoubling my efforts.
Evil originally kept forcing Me to do things.
Then the tables turned, and I became able to USE IT, though it was still very disgusting to me.
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The hotties then started showing up in phase2, but didn’t behave correctly/sexily, thus they had only PARTIALLY answered my call/s.
Eventually, they’ll behave the way I want them to; the tables will turn in my favor on this and all issues, amen.
I wonder if sf faked getting arrested… or intentionally got arrested… as part of the many staged events… always trying to intimidate/change me.
Either way, he was a fool who talked shit, and his hangouts were cancelled out by his Many degenerate ways.
Nearly all humans we/I (the Inisfreean collective/mind) encountered were negativity nodes; they were rude instead of polite, ungrateful even when volunteer (free) work was done for them, they tried to intimidate and frighten instead of inspire, they gave only advice which did not work, they pretended harm and decay (even to the point of death) was normal and unavoidable even though they were obviously causing it, their “food” wasn’t nutritious/food at all, they poisoned their own water and air, their medicine was actually also poison, their governments and news were fake, their offers were all scams, they always robbed others (even their own), thus diminishing their reputation and the ability of those around them to give (be taxed), when good/innocent people were encountered… they accused them of the worst possible offenses without provocation, they imagined crimes where there were none, their cops and courts lied and violently demanded undeserved extra money/taxes (“fines”), they always reacted with tantrums and death threats to any normal healthy kind behavior or comments, they meddled where they had no business at all, they grew frustrated and panicked about those who were peaceful and self-sustaining, they made only vehicles which required parasitic fuel (constantly needing/taking more gas or whatever else) and destroyed it to release more toxins/pollution, their offspring were progressively more deformed (failed) and needy (parasitic), and they even destroyed their own sex organs in an attempt to be as negative as can be against the most basic/fundamental aspects of nature and balance themselves.
There was absolutely nothing worth saving/sparing about their kind, and the very small percentage of tolerable beings in their civilization all had to be found (since they were being held prisoner in far apart captivity/isolation/separation), evacuated, cured of numerous installed/programmed defects/insanities, and sometimes replaced entirely (abandoned/discarded and cloned with many corrections).
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When they went into the ether (Space), they manifested only more deformed and hostile creatures/civilizations just like them.
They burned/used up more and more starship fuel.
They kept wanting to explore/meddle farther and further, but could not generate any energy/fuel of their own, so they kept mining (stealing) it from worlds (parasitically).
Positive nodes (good beings; those who manifest things on their own, generating their own desired energy/fuel, and not destroying/burning stolen fuel) wouldn’t have needed so much fuel/burn to make Space/ether do what they wanted. They would have been calm and polite, just asking it to, just holding an uncomplicated vision.
They also wouldn’t have needed to bend/cross/change Space at all.
The reason we Inisfreeans cross Space is to fix all the humans and other fugtarded degenerates/manifestations of Chaos Incarnate out there wrongly/foolishly caused.
Claiming orgasm is bad and prevents godhood is another of their blatant lies and attempts against nature/divinity, exactly the same as their ongoing surgical and propaganda efforts to remove the two real genders.
Double-tapping my already-on phone-screen, which turned it off instead of unlocking it (unlocking done instead via sliding across it, not tapping it)… reminded me of when I for some reason accidentally finished an otherwise-perfect drill-sequence with not the intended drill-movement, but with the jogging-like P.T. movement. Lol
What an unpleasant afternoon That was.
I never observed them (humans) excited to tell the truth, only lies.
I never observed them reaching correct conclusions, only obviously wrong ones.
I never observed them able to sense vibes or any other evidence at all which would always have easily assured them of the innocence of the innocent; they are unable to use that sensory perception ability/organ, or they stubbornly and evilly/heartlessly/shamefully/criminally refuse to.
I never observed them excited to make friends, only enemies; to insult and pick fights and cause further harm.
They were energized by seeing people abused/suffering/struggling.
That is all the evidence you need to confirm their essence; what they really are, and they are not “just normal people making honest mistakes and deserving understanding/love”. Not at all. That is how they get away with surviving as parasites/users/negativity-nodes.
If sf hadn’t been evil, instd of reacting negatively to me merely stating observations, he idiotically claiming Iii had been the “dick”,
he would have thanked me for being honest and accurate, and he would have seen the truth; that the “dicks” were those who had wronged me, not me for standing up for myself and “calling them out”.
By pretending that Iiii was the rude one, not the abused one stopping the bullying/rudeness, he revealed he is a negativity-node; he was evil incarnate, just pretending to be my friend, thus all the energy/convincing it took to get him to hang out normally,
and thus all the harm/chaos that happened when he was around,
and thus him ruining what was left of his dna via mixing it w a glutton ogre cunt,
and so on.
I had good intentions the whole time,
so for anyone reacting negatively to me… that makes them pure evil, bc only pure evil can Always hate pure good.
It wasnt about them misinterpreting me. It wasnt about honest mistakes or “how things seem”; it was their determiNation to harm Me and Anyone doing/being good.
That is why they never felt bad when doing harm.
That is why they relentlessly harassed me to become evil in all ways just like them.
That is why they never realized their errors and repented.
Claiming I am too intense…
is really that person saying I generate more energy than they can consume/destroy;
it is a negativity-node whining at me to be less pure-positive and more negative like them.
It is evil.
3s:
1. Forcing my way to places I knew/felt it was time for, then leaving when I found they were gross/wrong; negative.
2. Returning to places seemingly by chance, even when I didn’t want to, and skipping most things; neutral.
3. Upcoming returns to places once I am how I want to be, I have the means I always wanted, and the aspects of those places returned to have been manifested/aligned how I want/ed them to, thus I stay a while, finally treated the way I want to be treated at them; positive.
No marriage is valid unless authorized by me.
that “EAT BEEF” sign is evil, yes, but also a sign of their desperation / death-throes; they have resorted to posters/propaganda since their always-lying voices/words are now ignored/blocked/mocked.
thus, in a/this way, it is a Good sign (literal-sign pun not intended).
revs3? yes. This note I just put on Sabrina’s page:
“2024 June 17 Monday/+ Ideas:
It may be that she didn’t destroy that annoying loser male on the beach the day she revealed/gave herself to me… because she, like me, is a positivity-node; a good person; one who prefers to create, heal, stabilize, unify, etc., thus, just like I tend to, she only glaring over her shoulder at that lowly thing who had interrupted her in-person disclosure to / honoring of me. This resonates well/perfectly in me; it must be so. Amen; so be it / it is.”
…paired with her cover-image thumbnail of winking while pointing at me with both hands, being cute, made me think that she somehow used this pairing (of my note with her play-by’s photo) to hand-sign / gesture to me that this revs3 idea/thought is correct. <3
1. Sunning bc i need to
2. Sunning bc it feels good
3. Sunning bc my focus helps keep the Sun well and its sunlight healthy
Such a certain sign of holiness that my first thoughts upon waking every day are of full love w only the appropriate (healthy, good-normal, etc.)
Wake early, in a rush, so ugly rude morons can lie and underpay me?
Or have the same small budget situation, but sleep in, wake naturally, never rush, always treat myself well/correctly, roam free, etc.?
The correct choice, obviously, is obvious.
I probably didn’t get “mono”; I was probably poisoned as one of the many underhanded/’sideways’ scams to try and trick me into fearing sex/love.
(typist RP-ing) Sending all but 3 of the women away for a while, and saying comm cut w the fairies after I checked on them, isn’t the “bait & switch” bs evil the humans did to me so many times; the typist gave me what I wanted for nearly 2 decades, more and more, over and over, and deserves time with just me now. She does me well.
Lotr claiming Balrog in depths below mines of Moria… is standard typical human backward-assuming propaganda; the truth is that a powerful Elemental guarded that passage through the crust to Agharta, preventing scummy evil false humans and such from getting that high toward the core. It wasn’t too deep/down; it was too up… for bad souls to be allowed.
When Gandalf “fell”, he was pulled up toward that inner star, purest of beings, thus rendering him white, likewise pure/ified.
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2:28:00~ the sad choir song after Gandalf falls… is same as Man of Steel commercial
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2:34:30 Galadriel debut… reminded me of the Telosian couple that revealed themselves to me while telling the evildoer glutton to leave before nightfall.
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2:52:38 Galadriel nazi salute farewell… reminded me of the Blood Elf in red swimsuit who waived to me as I rode by on the big raft <3
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Lotr1 reminded me ambi started appearing for me.
Lotr2 reminded me to keep going.
Lotr3 reminded me of how obsessed and violent and murderous and deformed the fake relatives and most other humans got; the nonvegans and govt junkies and pharma junkies etc..
The cult members, spineless and bully to their bitter ends.
It also reminded me of all the rationing I had to do, and how so many fugtards interrupted my meager sleep.
The 2 pigs in boze… at demon carol’s trap house… even when called by me, and my intention as pure as ever, within seconds seemed under her hypnosis/spell. How? Evil from the start, just plain morons, or actually spellbound somehow?
research project?: Does the sunrise really get red every time bloodshed occurred that past night?
The signs were uniform and many; none were anywhere near mature enough to be ready to be trustable teammates, let alone family; I must remain solo through phase2.
I was right to shut down their rudely repeated tactic of trying to seduce/bait me any way they could.
I was right to reject them all.
I am a saint for having always done so as peacefully as I did.
They deserved far worse, considering their evil moodiness, their immaturity in all ways, and their constant mass-murder, mass-rape, mass-torture, mass-poisoning, mass-lying, etc..
Mem refresh: typist saying not going anywhere until her mom passes
3s: solar systems I envisioned
childhood at maternal grandparents’ house
Halozien
SSA
If i had accepted the staring morons, i wouldnt have free places to stay now; i’d have more heartless mindless incessant pests prodding me to spawn with their degenerate spineless hides.
notes:
4-volume work: The History of the Lord of the Rings:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_History_of_The_Lord_of_the_Rings
1: The Return of the Shadow
2: The Treason of Isengard
3: The War of the Ring
4: Sauron Defeated
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12-volume work: The History of Middle-Earth (HoME)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_History_of_Middle-earth
The Book of Lost Tales, p1
The Book of Lost Tales, p2
The Lays of Beleriand
The Lost Road and Other Writings
The History of the Lord of the Rings (4 volumes on its own, incl. in this list’s # of volumes)
Morgoth’s Ring
The War of the Jewels
The Peoples of Middle-earth
deja vu from organizing my phone folders. must have organized the previous phone or pc here. area-trigger?
UNSENT to typist:
Your meme a couple days ago about how you look for effort and all that,
that is precisely why I rejected so many looks-flawless hotties over the years;
getting them to put the smallest amount of effort forward (saying hello, and their name; normal behavior; normal introductions and conversation) was like pulling teeth,
and I’m not into that, and I don’t have time for that.
If I have to walk them through how to be a basic good person, few things could be more of a turn-off and red-flag.
On top of that zero-effort from them, they also defaulted to moodiness/negativity; the got infuriated when I didn’t chase after their zero-effort just because they were tolerably-pretty.
They relied exclusively on their looks, and had no concept of good behavior or femininity.
Anyway, thank you for putting effort forward, and being feminine. The others have a lot to learn from you.
Hopefully they’ll learn from your RP and from my website, and finally correct themselves. That would be something. That would be a decent amount of effort on their parts.
Unfortunately for them, at least for now, no matter how perfectly pretty and polite they are, and no matter how well they memorize and love everything on my website, their value remains zero until their kind fix all the lies they put in my record, and refund every penny I ever spent, and apologize to me and repent, and destroy all who wronged me, and somehow show me I can now trust them.
Since they have never liked good things, such as putting normal effort into pursuing me/relationships, that might never happen, so I guess they’ll just keep “impaling themselves on my position”, wasting their breath over and over as they continue the only tactic they ever have, which is thinking they have any right to advise or change me.
Humans are just going to have to get it through their thick skulls that you can’t treat people like shit for decades, act like it didn’t happen, then dangle some untrustworthy rude bitches in front of them as if that will magically make it all better.
I can’t accept anyone I know I can’t trust.
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Auz isn’t with Ambi just because she showers him with fresh fuck-pets.
He is with her because she has all those qualities in the two memes you sent a couple days ago.
*…[only those last 2 lines were sent]
Lotr, return of the king, final battle start/pre:
“Men of the west”…entering from the north? That’s just a lame blatant retelling of americans invading germany from uk/normandy.
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Scenes i didnt rmbr:
other scene before elephant battle
blonde passed out and brother screaming when sees her, then Aragorn healing her w forehead rag+touch
negotiating at the black gate
timeline-placement notes/thoughts:
Lotr3 after “bow to no one” scene,
Frodo narrating says “beginning of the 4th Age of Middle Earth”
(Polarian gods/ainur,
Hyperborean Angels/Titans
Lemurian Elves
Atlantean… so it was before the start of Atlantis?
and Aryan/men Age was next?)
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and “13 months to the day”.
Must be nice, not having to do a 41/+ YEAR journey lol.
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He then said it had been 4 years since he got stabbed; he had spent nearly 3 years writing of his 13-month adventure.
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Lord Elrond saying “the sea calls us home”… does tie in nicely with my theory that Atlantis was pre-Aryan humans/’men’, while Lemuria was of the Elves.
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“The Age of Men is over. The Age of the Orcs…” turned out to be true for a while; after Atlantis, humans degenerated into the hideous retarded rude evil blobs and other freaks they are today, even the few whose bodies remained tolerable/attractive… having minds/personalities/behavior as repulsive as the gluttons’ and others’ looks.
…but the Age of Orcs/Ogres recently ended, signaled/evidenced by My arrival and idea/s. It is now the dawn/start/Spring of My Age, amen.
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The only reason seeking longer life / immortality would diMinish one’s own lifespan… is if that is the effect of not just focusing on enjoying Being alive; when you focus on something other than yourself, such as places you want to go, maybe that can cause those places to live longer… because you are sapping your own life-force their way (toward them).
Still, that shouldn’t destabilize one’s own lifespan; thinking about what you love should have a Positive effect…
That claim/legend is probably a lie Tolkien made up, being the typical Christian, after all; exaggerating, twisting, trying to trick people into thinking good is bad, and that right/correct is wrong.
The evildoers adding “a” to “Adam” in that fake-Telosians scam the degenerate xians are running over there… is just another obvious attempt to disrespect the ancients and merge the two genders.
They probably made up all that Einstein/nukes stuff to cover up magic detonations done aGainst them; when powerful beings blasted / angelically-‘nuked’ cities, the humans took credit, pretending it was their own doing.
pets are “adorably retarded”. humans are just retarded.
how amusingly retarded/brainless of the bs/mt humans, thinking they were cleverly baiting me, then cleverly driving me out of town,
when all they were doing was showing me who must be removed so that the sacred valley can again be pleasant.
all they did was increase my focus.
they always cause the opposite of what they are trying evilly to achieve.
at least that makes the enemy convenient/easy to deal with;
easy to spot, easy to laugh at, easy to wait for it to destroy itself.
Blue Angels movie on nites.is (re?)watched. Good msg. Give it ur all while u r here
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also tried watching Lightyear cgi movie, and the bald token bitch refreshed my memory of why I stopped right then last time.
“Small victories”? Ending all sickness for myself, world travel, scoring a free luxury vehicle, witnessing time travel / superpowers, witnessing Ambi and Sabrina and Rain are real, witnessing the idiotic corrupt undercovers/feds exposing themselves, learning those who wronged me died, are not small victories at all.
Speaking up for right… used to get me screamed at, beaten, threatened by corrupt cops, fined, poisoned, denied housing, and worse. Now, I have spoken up so much that I needed and got/made, and even built again, a 3,000-page website; things got Much safer/easier/better, and that is a BIG victory.
If they want me in shape, they can pay me to work out. My time is valuable. Besides, I put max effort forward for 41 YEARS; it’s THEIR turn now.
Maile was prob sent to that club to stare at me and try and hook up and race mix. Why else would she try and move in after barely getting to know me? Why not behave normally; just want fun? Why did it not even ocCur to her to Ask what i wanted? And why be incompatible w me, Needing to be taught? Why not send comPatible chicks to me? Because the feds wanted things Broken…so maydays could be fake-answered, and more problems added.
lol at the radio country song lyrics “I got ketchup on my blue jeans, I just burned my hand”
what retarded lyrics; “a bachelor man”.
He couldn’t even come up with lyrics that matched the sections of the notes/instruments.
Ale. Ail.
Their (humans met so far) priority wasn’t advising or helping me, or introducing good ppl, or teaming up, but attempting to shame me for not wasting my time/manhood chasing rude bitches and then spawning more random fugly tax cattle for the system to steal from me the same way it steals and murders baby bulls.
Their behavior was always the same; show up, refuse any good manners, then scoff at me, or make sex noises, to imply I was stupid for rejecting their offers they didn’t actually make. They always blameshifted to me, even though they had only themselves to blame for not behaving well/normally.
And “offer” by “offer” (rudeness by rudeness), they finished off the last chances I was willing to dare giving them.
They tried to make me uncomfortable for complimenting, and for saying what I like and dislike, and for being straight, and healthy, you name it.
If it was about teaming up and being good to me, and matchmaking, not pressuring me to tolerate anti-matches (incompatibles), then they would have done any of the easy normal things I communicated clearly and over and over that I am into.
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When they grow up and are serious about matching w me / offering themselves to me, they have a dozen ways to contact me, and countless opportunities to meet me, just like always.
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Their priority wasn’t advising or helping me, or introducing good ppl, or teaming up, but attempting to shame me for not wasting my time/manhood chasing rude bitches and then spawning more random fugly tax cattle for the system to steal from me the same way it steals and murders baby bulls.
As usual, I asked for one thing (a nighttime light-up street sign generator), and was idiotically offered a different thing (paying someone to do it). Smh. Humans always choose evil.
So nice to see posts claiming crop failures and zero harvests left… right after I cursed all lands of anyone not supporting me, anyone nonvegan, and anyone queer.
The budget slows me enough that I re-find these great camping spots, lakes, etc., guaranteeing rd2 of them out of the way.
How amusing that the evil-soul-vibe boy in the BS gym thought he was being clever by claiming he wanted to stand in the sunlight, just to spy on what I was working on on my laptop. Since he chose to be rude, stupid, and evil like that, I hope opening beastiality images traumatized him. Knowing how retarded he and his kind are, though, he’ll just assume I was a weirdo. Either way, I fucked with him right back, immediately, and probably creeped him out far more than he bothered me.
Do stupid shit, and I will fuck you up any which way I can.
deja vu from calculating the maximum capacity of an MPHA, and then texting typist that Ambi/wife might start seeing more than 38 humans brought to her at a time
I have been as specific and consistent as I know how.
Having seen miracles/wonders (Ambi, Graciella2, Rain, Sabrina, superpowers, cures, etc.) males this 2nd mega-roadtrip loop tolerable.
This felled burned forest reminds me of the logging camp/s in WoW
How curious that both the evildoers treating me badly, and I trying to treat everyone well, were both doing what was not deserved.
(learned a new word, or re-found a neat-sounding word)
Deliquescent: becoming liquid, or having a tendency to become liquid.
I wonder if the Germans realized that by brainwashing the masses to mix races, they could weaken them so that they never have superpowers again; so that no one can withstand German/Angelic might.
Is that why there is so much propaganda pushing for race mixing and gender confusion?
Curious that some days repo calls a dozen times and texts,
but other days, such as today, only twice calling, and no texts,
and nothing at all on other days.
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I wonder if I can block as many numbers as their software lets them generate/use.
Even though the budget is running low like last time, it is still right to keep moving, keep leaving evil gluttons, keep being me, etc.
and whether I somehow already did Wiz, it is a cool and brave and fun thing to do.
Might it be a mind-wiper? I don’t think so. I think things will keep getting btr, thanks to me, thanks to my focus, no matter What I do.
Phone batt jumped from 25 to 39 instantly upon morning vehic start wtf lol
Sleeping in,
healthy meals,
sunning,
exercise,
legs in clean water,
games,
movies,
love videos and images,
wrapping up my perfect design publication,
roam free,
new sights,
blocking more evildoers,
zero retarded humans thinking they know better,
etc. every single day, all day…
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My days are always retirement-chill / OFP when I don’t try to help the retarded humans.
The humans are unable to manifest things on their own, so their tactic is attempting to brainwash those of us who Can manifest things… into believing/assuming that which manifests what the humans want.
Prime example: Space being big, empty, deadly, and making communication unlikely if not impossible; darkness, emptiness, isolation, compartmentalization, etc..
Thankfully, I realized Space does whatever I want it to / focus on, and/thus has no actual distance/vastness at all, at least not for me and My people. Amen.
Space is simultaneously what those near/in it believe/focus on, thus humans in it are tangled up in the complexities they assumed about it, while beings/gods such as me speed through it effortlessly.
Not all media is deadly lies; billions of perfect things I found in it and was able to extract; no sense abandoning it entirely; keep using it for good/holiness.
“Talking to the wrong ppl”? Yes; I was giving chances to christians, muslims, jews, veterans, americans, and foreigners.
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“Putting faith in the wrong things”? Yes; god and humans. No more.
Maybe the fake humans were designed and mass produced/bred bc the “gods”/makers wanted to keep misleading ppl on this ruins side of the world… but it never worked against Me.
Maybe it is just NPC BS to spur the hero onward.
Darth Vader, Anakin’s real father, feared Anakin having offspring.
My fake father, TSB, feared me Not having offspring before my godhood kicked in.
Hollywood, like most humans so far, always said the opposite of how things are/work.
Are the idiotic naysayers sent to try and discourage and discredit anyone on the verge of restoring tech/abilities the gods/ancients had…bc modern ppl are not allowed such power?
Then those naysayers are doing a terrible job; they have vibed as liars and worse, fueling us awake folk even more.
Arrival (movie) middle when their language is explained… reminds me of how I as a child started writing in both directions at the same time; left and right, mirrored words and sentences, from the center, not the left side,
and how I then wrote upside down, and in spirals all over a sheet of paper, sometimes triggering the default negativity of my fake teachers in middle school, such as the cult member pretending to teach us science.
“You have such a long way to go.” said in a cunty/evil way, vibe unmistakable; attempting to sadden/drain/divert/corrupt me.
should have been at least neutral, such as “my, how far you have come, and in spite of so many morons”,
and positive version: “You GET to go as far as you want! <3”
but a fugtard glutton/blob was saying it, thus a phase1 demon/failure/node.
The only thing that made it phase2 was that it wasn’t an attempted order/demand that I stop/change, and it wasn’t screamed in my ear like when I was a child, and it didn’t force me to stand against an erupted fight-picking abuse.
demonizing lust as a sin… is their psyop attempt at shaming people for trusting their own correct instincts,
and an attempt at normalizing weakness, cowardice, settling, accepting deformity/degeneracy, breeding deformity/degeneracy, breeding more ugly ppl who will undoubtedly be insecure and desperate enough to join the church/religtards horde/masses, etc.
I’ll always remember how retarded Sgt. Williams was in assuming that I hadn’t been ready to kill;
I was readier to kill than any of them, even the entire human species.
What he’d, as always, chosen to not notice or even consider, was that I had such excellent eyesight and attention to detail, that I’d noticed the panic and pleading on that Iraqi truck driver’s face, that driver clearly communicating to me that his brakes were not functioning properly.
THAT is why I let him pass without shooting him.
I could have killed him instantly if I’d aimed for his head.
I chased his truck, yelling for him to stop, only because I knew it was the bare minimum the losers/retards in my first squad would tolerate.
Note how their retardation was reconfirmed by them not asking me for ANY input, but jumping straight to a conclusion, and a negative one in spite of all my good service/work; they were retarded and default-negative through and through.
Regardless of how honorable or honest or courageous or patient or helpful or charitable or hardworking or myself I was, humans met so far have always responded the same unexpected, uncalled for, bizarre, inappropriate, illogical, evil way; no input changes the output.
Whether I follow their rules or not, blend in or not, help or mind my own business, talk or not, they always blame me for imagined offenses and for their own actual offenses.
They ignore all goodness and evidence, and feverishly encourage and flock to anything unhealthy/wrong.
They simply are pure evil, even to the point of self-destruction/suicide. They just prefer to tell as many lies as they can along the way, always excited to deceive/mislead everyone innocent enough to be gullible at first.
They cause Only harm.
Only their creations, when taken from them or copied faraway, can do any good.
I never minded innocent misinterpretations.
I always left when I encountered scum/evildoers who inTentionally misinterpreted me, especially when they next tried to insult, shame, threaten, or control/rule me.
Duh.
Know the difference.
“You did Not age well,” was the standard blame-shifting lippy evil from the worthless liar masses/peasants.
Me appearing old or weary only means They are to be shamed for Causing those unimpressed expressions/lines to happen so often that they then became more apparent on my face.
THEY are to blame for Putting me in a body that changes like that, too.
Duh.
So it is more accurate to say that They do not age Others well.
“Comm cut” w them… means no more adjustments; they are ready to stabilize/manifest/answer.
Amen.
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“Comm cut” signals the completion of phase2. 🙂 at last
Phase1. Pressured to think of nothing, only parroting evil lies about a fake past and hopeless future, but kept foreseeing/picturing and drawing/drafting what is good/right, discovering the truth about the past and myself.
Phase2. finally able to focus on the good, blocking the bad, deCiding/conFirming how the past was, and taking a well-earned break once all finalized and published/shared.
Phase3. no longer thinking of another time; all is right, all right things built/permanent/restored by me. Amen.
Worked/focused so long; it is nice and right to take this break/rest these days.
I asked for the wisdom of all these buried lands/structures, and seem to have been granted it… in the form I easily notice and understand; soft-disclosure movies etc.
phase1. they kept imbalancing me just to do it, not even understanding they Were doing it. this nature of theirs was evident uniformly in how they kept trashing their own lives, and never saying Anything that resonated well/correctly.
phase2. they lost the ability to further imbalance me, and I stopped enabling them by RE-balancing THEM.
phase3. I alone am the one/way who/that balances/stabilizes/unifies all the way it should be. I have already done so –back in phase2 –and even by remaining steadfast/holy in phase1! Amen.
3s.
watch movies the first time just for fun / passing the time, not realizing they might be soft-disclosure and puzzles/tools for me.
re-watch movies, getting ideas –and later realizing I may have been having Visions/Memories of watching them in the Future.
re-watch them aGain, this 3rd time with each… getting/drafting/writing/publishing/comPleting the ideas they were engineered to help me think of, more or less, on my own.
rd4: making versions/sequels of my own, to disclose things to Others, etc., completing this cycle/system/step.
Chemtrails might not be to reduce sunlight or poison/sicken humans; they might be an attempt to talk to god; the sky version of / response to crop-circles.
The media claims of Gates wanting to block out the Sun / all sunlight… is prob a psyop luring out default-negative/-slanderers.
I remembered writing about how Inisfreean writing is made not with normal lines, but almost-squiggles that look like sperms.
I checked all my webpages that might have mentioned that (Biblor’an, Nymphonomicon, etc.) but did not find it on them.
Was it, too, something I foresaw/pre did, it not surviving a time-travel/-loop effect?
Either way, I am glad I happened to notice it now, and glad it is now published/online/included. Amen.
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last day of June:
When trees drop their nuts, do they experience their equivalent of our orgasms?
Whether the nut opens and plants the seed or not wouldn’t matter, I assume/guess, or would it somehow be sensed by them, feeling like not just masturbation/ejaculation/release, but release/cumming in a pussy feels to us? Maybe they CAN sense things through the ground/roots, so they KNOW when one of their nuts plants its seed successfully.
I am finally so glad they stayed silent this long; I am still having and writing down such wondrous ideas/revelations, such as the Arrival sequels.
Something keeps telling me that since they didn’t behave appropriately and answer when I called, they are unworthy of me, not my people,
but another something keeps telling me that they may still be my people, having chosen to stay out of sight so as not to distract me or slow down my genius and critical work.
Either way, something also keeps telling me that they should unite with me already, being my beloved family and allies while I do the last of my wrap-up / proofreading work.
Ugh, what a mix.
Note how in that retarded smear-piece lie of a video by Patrick:
Patrick clearly has dark shallow evil soulless eyes
he shows clips of an actor acting, but tries to make it look like he is a liar, but that’s what acting is
he doesn’t seem to know that deadpanning is a type of comedy/joking
he shows clips of him fighting extremely well, while trying to make it look like he cannot fight well at all
he shows clips of a couple ugly women claiming rape without any evidence, right after reporting that the mob/mafia was out to get Steven, yet somehow failing to connect the dots; that those two women were paid actresses lying like everyone else
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those two women even described the entire encounter, they never telling Steven “no” or “stop”, and they both saying he let them leave the moment they didn’t want to do anymore; that’s the total opposite of rape
both women themselves admitting there were no witnesses, and they recorded nothing; baseless allegations
(how the hell can you call yourself sane while accusing a man of rape… while saying he didn’t rape you at all?)
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he shows Steven refusing to be accused of rape by a retarded deformed facepaint-wearing degenerate who clearly lured him into a fake interview, in an attempt to make Steven look moody, when all it shows is that he does not tolerate evil scams
he shows Steven forced to leave the USA due to legal scams from the mob/mafia and CIA-overrun Hollywood, but in an attempt to make him look like a fugitive or traitor
he shows Steven trying to mend relations between two superpowers
he shows Steven being a man confident about his skills, but in an attempt to make him look cocky
he literally spent this entire film/”documentary” exposing how stupid and evil he is
he even tried to be cute by pretending to knock his own laptop off his table, showing that he is the liar/actor, not Steven
oh and showing clips of Steven calmly answering that Buddhists consider each of themselves to be sort of a part of god, then showing clips of idiots misquoting him by pretending he said he ALONE IS GOD? Uh… how retarded can you BE, patrick?
Might be time to start calling you Patrick the Starfish (from Sponge Bob), captain of the idiots.
Did you get kicked in the head a lot or something?
Why are you so retarded and gay? Gaytarded.
You are yet another example of EXACTLY what Steven explained in his Dubai interview; the idiots and liars and slanderers of Hollywood, and of “The Land of the Mouth” (saying USA will say ANYTHING just to be talking/heard/noisy).
You just proved all his points.
You just validated him… while doing your idiotic best to INvalidate him.
just like the retards in that 2013 online community pretending to be for RPers/writers when really it was just a den of retards who red-underlined screenshots of posts that proved my points while they tried using them to claim I had forgotten what I’d said about being a regular (non-medical) doctor.
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Showing hideously deformed degenerate sellouts mocking Steven for being afraid of the hyper-homicidal mob scum… is such heartless pure evil. That doesn’t make Steven look like a fake toughguy. It makes him look harassed, threatened, and abused to the worst degree; to terrorize an athlete that much, that even a tough guy is logically scared and traumatized.
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bringing up his personal life, judging him for polyamory, never once saying whether it was fine with his other wife/wives; they may have enjoyed it
then claiming his first wife was stressed from having to raise the kids on her own while running the dojo, but not having an audio or video recording of her saying that; zero proof
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claiming he had yelled “that fucking bitch… break her neck” about his first wife not bringing his kids over on time, again with zero evidence/proof
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but… the fact that some retarded young punk such as Patrick made this slander/propaganda piece… shows that Steven’s message is getting out,
and Steven escaped the fake legal system,
and they are afraid of and not trying to counter/undermine Steven,
so good work, Steven!
I have always been a natural writer, detail oriented, a researcher, good with computers, and motivated to create great innovations, so it made sense to write a series of novels and then build this website about it.
Look at how so many humans gravitated to, tried to memorize, and deeply funded via regular donations, other big stories; the bible, Tolkien’s works, Harry Potter, and so on. Taking the time to write my own such super-tale/s was certainly potentially lucrative.
Holy cow! Another sign this phase was RIGHT to keep me isolated, the others staying silent for now; I just discovered I hadn’t added much text at ALL to the NIBIRU webpg!
Most of its sections were BLANK!
I must have created it in 2022, when its last saved Word file backup is dated/labeled, then been too busy to remember completing it… until now.
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July:
back to Crater Lake, rd3 or 4 (depending on how you count them; if you count the vision / possible time-travel (last; previous) visit there), this time to Wizard Island (its innermost part, which I, the first 2 times, was unable to get to (once because of my budget, and another time because I missed it by 1 day; its ferry shutting down for the season right before I arrived), as a possible time-traveler and superhuman
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>600 icv pgs done, <400 left! No dej! 😀
so glad I am finally wrapping up the icv pgs of all things : ) 😮
1,000 ICVs ÷ 41yrs = 14,965d ÷1000 = 14.965; avg. of 1 attractive human female noticed every 15d,
though I of course noticed None during my infancy and toddlerhood, only a dozen or so during middle and hs, and the rest from age 17 (college 1yr early) through age 40, so ~980 averaged across 23yrs = 8395÷980 = 1 every ~9d,
but ofc sometimes I saw more than 1 at a party or while browsing online.
The humans are all about repeating how powerless and weak and ignorant they are, giving power to a fake god, thus to oblivion/death.
Interesting that their spells did not depower Me, but did the opposite; it enraged/energized me, further focused me, and led to me reinforcing my vision/spell to god level.
Ambi showing up when she did remains odd; I am unsure if it means she Can’t see the future, thus worried,
or Did see the future, and wanted me to be Less grumpy or grumpiEr,
or was spying,
and why she didn’t show up any of the Many other times I was Just as stressed and depressed and hurt.
She was inconsistent…
and typist keeps saying and vibing suspicious things, such as moodiness when I even Mention the others now, esp. her priestess and speculation about what her priestess helps her with.
And ofc when she implied I had somehow asked for something other than cabin/fam/ambi, as if to indicate that realAmbi had honored that request I hadnt made.
Most annoying and wrong, just like when typist suggested or said I was praying the wrong way. Dickhead.
Humans for some mindless reason defaulted to claiming anything not mortal evil like them was evil and to be hated,
and the more different anything was, and the farther away, such as on other planets or deep in the crust, was more evil than the nearby stuff,
but the opposite is the case; things and people farther from human lies/scams are expectedly stronger, never/less drained/annoyed by that human bs,
and the deepest creatures are basically unaffected by the worst any humans can do,
and humans fearing and hating magicwielders such as the angels race called demons… just fuels them, energizing them, causing them to delight in mirroing/echoing that back at the bad humans who emitted/spoke it, always giving them tastes of their own medicine.
The things humans say are deep down and bad/dangerous/evil/monstrous… are actually higher up in the earth/core, and just more talented/capable, able to shapeshift, cast optical illusions, overpower the darkness/evil/weakness of the bad humans, etc..
What a nice and unforeseen alignment: the several hour+ fantasy-music youtubes being the perfect bg things to listen to while learning the Forgotten Realms languages webpgs’ info <3
claiming all fiction stories are/were fiction…
might not just have been to protect innocent real people,
or to soft-disclose,
but also to try and un-anchor people/places from this plane/dimension/world, separating them in dimensions created when the writer wrote that they were separate / “parallel” “universes”.
…and then I came along and said they are all in the same one; THIS one.
Amen.
100% of humans so far have come to the wrong and completely bizarre conclusions, been terrible at logic and communication, been literally bipolar, been suicidal, and alienated everyone able to help/save them. That is like the most difficult gameplay setting in a computer game. That is like playing life on Mythic (above Legendary, which is above Hard/Difficult).
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but the balance/tradeoff/benefit/byproduct is that it enSures I get clever and resourceful, and start seeing and using them as the worthless problem-causing retard peasants/tools/assets/liabilities they are, …and it ensures I design their replacement (species).
Lmao they (repo) prob got in legal trouble bc “STOP” doesnt stop messages from them; it just lets them know someone replied, so they (I’m guessing) had to chg their harassment texts to “STOP 2 STOP” bc that doesnt mean anything.
(Latest evil harassment repo text: “ZipLegal: Can you please review your injury ziplegal.net/accidents and we can go over your case notes to see if you can get injury pay? STOP 2 STOP
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going on 7 years, and they still haven’t figured out that what I’ve ignored that whole time… will continue being ignored,
or figured out that the number they keep calling and texting is only for people who have already donated to me,
or figured out that any contacting me at all costs $500 minimum, and double/more whenever I say, plus fines for harassing me, etc.,
or figured out what I explained to them multiple times; the dealership fucked up the paperwork to the bank, which is on them to fix, or the banks to fix, not me.
Stubborn dumbshits work 9-to-5-s, wasting their entire lives, bullying innocent people, and even actual war heroes. Roger that, Americans.
Stand by for far worse than you ever did to me, you little peasant ingrate shits.
It is very nice to have all the race webpgs uniform,
and the ICVs 1,000 ironed out with pics and spotted posb redundancies.
Lol at my idea regarding a posb explanation for why my poop is always gone by morning; maybe it is time traveling poop
None were actually introducing themselves or offering help. Their only concern was seeing if they could get by on looks with no manners.
None were trying to advise or anything good. They spent that entire time (41 years) trying to train/brainwash, trick/scam, and pressure/force me to chase bitches again, and to breed with no vision at all.
When insults, lies, and threats didn’t work at all, their plan was to try more insults, lies, and threats.
I really hope and wish those EVE players were women pretending to be men so men would ask them for ERP less often, but… this is humans we are talking about.
seeing that the fittest man in the world looks scrawny and like me in ways… was very surprising
Every movie about Antarctica makes it look so bleak bc of all the fugtards, so at first I am Glad I never went w them, but I also know it is propaganda trying to discourage ppl.
jul4: The typist sending that “LORD” JULY 4th meme sure did completely end my want of being in another rp w her, which helps my heart in a phase2mix shitty sort of way.
It is extra-disgusting/-pathetic when they get their own language wrong, all-caps-ing a word that doesn’t even merit a first letter being capitalized.
Them thinking that threatening me, after I dealt with Years of Constant death threats in war, would work… really is a testament to how completely retarded they are.
Not just stupid; people who make bad decisions even when they are not ignorant… can still be Forced to do the right things.
Retards are helpless even when Forced/Supervised.
I am so proud of my honorable service, especially since I was dealing with so many evil jarheads.
I have become even prouder of my solo service since, as I have made actual breakthroughs, tested things on mySelf, witnessed wonders and possible superpowers, and so on.
Not knowing if I will make it… makes this time as honorable and exemplary and badass as it gets.
Every time I cuss/vent, it is yet another small victory; me choosing bravery, being myself, and freedom of speech, over cowing down to the retarded evil bullies.
How does she know to stay silent for 4hrs while i have these thoughts?
That seems to go beyond spying tech’…
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update: and all night and this morning, right when I needed to stay focused on yet-another wrap-up mega-idea/-update 🙂
“Aversion Therapy”:
Humans hate truth and learning, not to mention nonviolence and good behavior, and they are as stubborn and devoted to evil as can be, not to mention extremely delusional and emotionally unstable, so every time a human does anything bad, we destroy an entire city of them.
Blaming fireman Keith Young’s cancer death on 11sept2001 cleanup fumes… Um, no one has hidden cancer for 2 decades and looks healthy af on Chopped; like they pretended covid was to blame for deaths they caused, they lied again, and it was Keith’s nonvegan diet that killed him.
wise FB post years ago from Erin Janus:
“John Edward Douglas, former special agent and FBI unit chief in the United States was one of the first criminal profilers and has written multiple books on criminal psychology. Douglas has worked on cases of serial killers and notorious criminals including Charles Manson, John Wayne Gacy, David Berkowitz, and Ed Kemper.
He openly discusses that cruelty to animals is one of the biggest red flags— warning signs— in identifying serial killers. He refers to animal cruelty as ‘the gateway’ to future crimes and violence against humans.
As reported by the OSPCA, John said the first research project linking animal cruelty to serial killers was done in the 1960s. By the 1980s, animal cruelty became part of the profile used to identify said killers.
Not so surprisingly, research has found that towns with slaughterhouses have higher rates of domestic violence and violent crimes including murder and rape. A 2010 study by Canadian criminology professor Amy Fitzgerald from the University of Windsor found violent crimes including sexual assault and rape increase in towns once an abattoir moves in, and that the larger the abattoir, the worse the local crime problem.
“I have a graph that shows that as the number of slaughterhouse workers in a community increases, the crime rate also increases,” she said.
Furthermore, a 2013 study published in the journal Society and Animals found the same— that people who work in abattoirs (slaughterhouses) are more likely to be desensitized to suffering, which has a direct link to the likelihood to be violent towards humans.
Yet our society continues to supports industries that pay individuals to cause incredible cruelty, violence and suffering to millions of animals a year— for money, greed, and culinary pleasure.
If abusing an animal is a very valid predictor of serious future crimes to come, perhaps we should not support an industry that hires individuals of all backgrounds, criminal histories and mental health to kill and dismember thousands of animals a day as a ‘job’. Anyone who thinks slaughterhouses are a good thing in our society ought to look into the link between harming animals and harming human beings.
When you support the meat industry, you don’t just support the killing of animals. You support a very toxic system that affects our society as a whole.
#killinganimalsisugly #violencebreedsviolence #choosevegan #choosecompassion
Sources:
http://ontariospca.ca/blog/john-douglas-author-former-fbi-profiler/
http://www.news.com.au/national/slaughterhouse-workers-are-more-likely-to-be-violent-study-shows/news-story/f16165f66f38eb04a289eb8bd7f7f273
https://www.thestar.com/news/insight/2010/05/14/probing_the_link_between_slaughterhouses_and_violent_crime.html
Photo attached is a portrait of John Edward Douglas.”
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my note: Yes and same w relig; mindless following, no critical thinking, no value placed on being good, only on following the herd, resulting in bullying, threats (even to the point of terrorism), actual violence, and worse.
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I don’t think erin had a nervous breakdown. Not like that, anyway. I think that was a DeepFake, and the voice I heard on the phone was a synthesizer or cheap clone. The real erin wouldn’t say something as retarded and unquantified and unverified as “but some ppl said they got sick”, not after her YEARS of VERY eloquent and logical and cited posts.
The ancient words that shaped the world aren’t “dead and gone”; just try all frequencies in order on each item or substance until you find the one that works best to shape each. Duh.
going over the Shark Tank pg wasn’t a pointless pass-time; it led me to noticing that evil insane disgusting bullshit I’d copied from the Cordelia dossier/info; “liking drag-queens” now removed at last. thank fucking god (me
…and discovered the same retarded degenerate typist added faggot-washing, pretending this character’s brother was a faggot. Fixed. Jesus fucking christ.
It just occurred to me / I just heard the thought/transmission… that maybe they didn’t answer more than blinking in and out…
because they were simultaneously hearing my different calls from back then… and now;
back then, I was mayday-ing bc I kept being scammed and left struggling/desperate,
but now I am just as uniform, but saying I needed all that time, and all that horrible bs, to get my ideas written, and charge up enough to will them into being, like how I willed lightning when charged up, and an earthquake, and so on.
More manifestations… meant more energy, thus longer charging up.
I am the ragnarok of ragnarok; I end the bad ends.
I rewrite and restabilize all good.
Claiming that farmers/vegans kill more animals/bugs than ranchers/nonvegans is so baseless/retarded; when you plow the land, the bugs/animals don’t just stubbornly stand in the way; they flee, then return.
Besides, the point is that we don’t breed them in captivity, use the vast majority of land/resources to feed enslaved giant animals, then rape them, steal their babies, kill their babies, and then kill Them.
Even if we Did kill more creatures, as/being vegan/s, we didn’t do so on purpose; we did our best Not to.
Also, our food isn’t full of torture, pharma poison, etc..
Also, many of us just set grade and plow once, our crop plants growing for years/decades/longer, thus providing habitats –the complete opposite of farming cattle-feed grain and cutting it down every season/year.
It is a neat thought that since that woman kept showing up, hotter than all ambi webpg pics, sounding exactly how females should, that maybe and hopefully my other writing/posts/spells/focus-parts will cause business partnerships as wonderful as that woman is perfect looks- and voice-wise.
No matter how much $ they (‘normal’ (mainstream retard) humans) have as members of Their system, they are still losers for being IN that system. No matter how my budget is, I am still the winner for having Solo esCaped that system.
They (the govt/mil/fake-fam retards/harassers/pests/meddlers/cult-‘lapdogs’) wanted endless spawns from me. I gave them zero; none ever. My children shall be bron in a world where I am far more powerful than the loser humans.
How ironic, typical, crybaby, and retarded, that eli moodily/angrily complained about the female-ghostbusters just saying a bunch of gibberish, not actual science, when he parrots the gibberish of his deathcult
As much as i hate the typist not RPing basically…ever these days, it is the only way i can wrap up my work, once and for all, and i sense i need that.
Spotting the duplicate fl/la 2 mall hotties’ icv pgs is nice
It might be that the Nickelback band member who had a stroke at age 40 was targeted because someone knew he had the money to afford the recovery.
That retard, Hilary, prob was told to claim tinnitus-causing “malaria meds” are reqd to go to africa…bc whoever told her to tell me that…had calculated it would likely deter me from going to that continent a while.
9 or 10yrs going to bs when I can…
is really just half~ of 2014,
and <half of 2015,
and half of 2017 or 2018,
and half of 2023,
which is maybe <2yrs.,
thus not that long,
considering I spent 5yrs prepping for the mil’.
Me in 2017 thinking future-me sounded gay during BS gym greeting, and I leaving the gym instead of working out, worked in my favor, as it prevented a risky interaction with myself. Besides, it is always good that I always naturally sought normal interaction and recoiled from the unnatural. The only time I resorted to trying the unnatural, I could not enjoy it at all, and am not to blame; I was tortured and drugged and lead astray by pure evil before I even knew such existed.
Seeing that post about seeking a new asst…gives me some hope that the evil troll thing linked to the evil prop co left…but still gotta play it safe
also hopefully means that all the nonvegan individuals and businesses there are being destroyed, as I decreed; time to make room for good ppl to finally occupy that land
amen
Even though the humans’ idiocy (indovidually, and their scam system/s) makes ot pointless to engage or even compliment, a sexy ish tweenie young woman and cleaning 3x in crater lake is way btr than cleaning in truck stop and No sexy woman.
lol at the brainless blatant rampant hypocrisy of humans;
bitching up a storm about people who “steal” pics or memes from them,
while/after spending THEIR ENTIRE LIVES stealing LIVES of COUNTLESS innocent beings/animals.
Dej from the chat and rp of her saying she will fuck 1 man a year for me, but it is a great thing to experience more than once
Since I keep loopbreaking, thus arriving at spots on dif days than in timetravel/vision from several yrs ago, does that mean events such as conversations and vehic issues that still happened identically… indicate area-triggers…or that something triggered me to skip ahead or slow down in time such that I arrived at those event moments regardless of my rate of movement/driving?
No need to worry that my life will end like the aging brother character in that stupid deathcult-catering tortureporn show Supernatural; those brothers were tgthr for decades since birth, vs me and ambi Not being tgthr for decades until now, etc., plus that show was about brainwashed betas submissive to the system, vs me manifesting what iii sense is right.
I wonder if i ever had a signal going off and on not just bc of LOS but time travel blips/flickers.
I needed every minute of these years to wrap this up
Was that punk faggy preppy evildoer boy in the Oceanside laundromat parking lot really just a street roaming recruiter practicing before missionary evil, or was he told by the blatant illegal spies network of the deathcult to intercept and disrespect me the way they knew his shit behavior would?
Either way, they exposed/revealed themselves before and since.
Either way, i keep getting better at detrcting and sidestepping them sooner.
Nothing helps me focus on each destination/area more than having nowhere to go, no one to talk to, nothing else to pull my attention away.
humans being idiots always distracting themselves and trying to distract/stall/derail/sabotage/corrupt Me…
still works in my favor;
it makes my enemies effortless to spot,
it makes it easy to not feel any want of them,
it keeps them weak and unable to receive wisdom/visions of their own,
and it keeps me focused on continuing into my godhood.
Amen.
I never got the vibe that i was being pranked for hidden reality tv; the vibe was genuine retardation and tantrums from everyone.
Them pressuring me…didnt reprogram or persuade me; it just showed me how evil and stupid they are.
Them trying to brainwash me via school and tv didnt work, and I knew exactly what to change and block.
All their efforts were not scary or clever, just pathetic and counterproductive.
It has been very nice exploring at my pace, wrapup at my pace, etc..
Phase3 will be even btr.
Definitely “over” the chkn waffle nukers after the syrup sugar digestion feeling
Maybe there was no silent alarm; maybe sf called the cops, then made sure we got caught. Either way, he was a druggie, a degenerate, disrespectful, disobedient, stupid, and worse. He risked my freedom. He ignored my wisdom.
When i asked for girls, they did not answer or behave, and when i asked to see something else…Then they showed up, Still not behaving; trying to distract me. Both ways, it was rebelion and disrespect, thus i was always correct to disregard/reject that/them.
Idea: dispersing too intense energy across not only an entire world, but other times in its timeline, in order to mitigate forest fires
The losers in that white car in the boze mall parking lot thought it was hilarious i was homeless and looking rough.
They thought it was acceptable to make fun of that.
They couldnt figure out it had been done To me.
It never occurred to them I was prioritizing my work over wasting time looking handsome for ppl who never responded to that, anyway.
Trying to get me into gyms and martial arts was another attempt to distract and slow me via focus change and injuries.
–just like fake doctors and fake politicians pretending to care about health in order to genocide people,
my fake friends back in high school and after the military pretended to care about my education and fitness only because they thought it was a clever trick to keep me busy, brainwashed, following, recovering, etc.
“Beware the false light.”
It doesnt matter if the ame minion generated a mutant abomination fetus start, and it doesnt matter if that all-evil vibe suited white-hair retard/punk/demon/disgrace took it from the clinic to experiment on / study.
The only things that matter are what I say.
Bloodlines only exist when they are stable/voluntary, not when they are scams/unwanted/mixed.
Besides, there are no heirs in my system, nor any abilities passed on without my consent, and I can remote-disable anything. Amen.
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What matters is that I kept overcoming its relentless pointless rebelion/resistance.
I kept my calm in spite of its unthinkable misbehavior.
I got it to undo an evil it had set in motion.
I remained the dominant one, never cowing down, never accepting its setups/BS / fake compromises.
I stopped at least 2 inappropriate pregnancies; ashley and ame.
I am always correct to end such things; only when it is my vision/will the females are manifesting is it appropriate/destined/healthy/holy.
Dune2 modern movie… is still based on the standard hollywood idiot template for brainwashing; it pretends:
1) we are not good enough on our own,
2) we need to change, whether via drinks or whatever else,
3) combat/sparring and mortality/killing are always necessary,
4) bloodlines matter,
5) advice comes from outside, not inside,
etc.
but in reality… I don’t need to go south; I can will/force the south ppl to come to Me. I am where the pilgrimage leads now. I am The King.
No coincidence that clicks got added to ringing,
and that my vehicle started a similarly-repeating noise; spiritual warfare/training…
all based on rudeness, weakness, distractions, whining for attention…
and maybe all based on keeping me charged up to level up more and more, unleashing more and more.
Even if i die alone, i still stood against all the evil losers.
Better to stay alone than accept the shit vibes/’ppl’ that showed up.
Even if they finally send the females I said I am into, it is too late; they disrespected me, made me work alone with no hope, and now must worship and sacrifice to me.
Even if their females had behaved, they still had imperfections,
and their ppl and nations/cities were still disgusting/evil,
so they still have little worth. I only seek and allow hotties who can keep their realms in good order.
Love and family wasnt enough for them;
they pretended to want those things… only to use them to manipulate and control ppl.
interesting fb post:
(A few words not fully translated as distinct from their synonyms in the language this was written in)
“The “seals” of the US Navy have a special exercise: a man is tied behind his back, ankles are tied and thrown into a pool of 3 meters.”
His task is to survive within five minutes.
As is often the case in “seals” training, the vast majority of recruits fail. Many immediately panic and begin screaming to be pulled out. Some try to swim, but go underwater and have to be caught out and pumped. During the years of training, even fatalities occurred repeatedly.
But some people manage to tackle the task, and the knowledge of two quite contradictory rules helps them to do so.
Rule number one is paradoxical: the more you try to keep your head above water, the greater you are likely to drown.
With tied hands and legs, it is impossible to keep oneself on the surface of the water for five minutes. What’s more, your messy burps will only help you drown even faster. The focus is to allow yourself to get to the bottom of the pool. Then you should forcefully push your feet off the bottom and, when you are thrown to the surface, take a quick breath and start the whole process all over again.
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The second lesson is a little more obvious, but also paradoxical: the more you panic, the more oxygen you need, and the more likely you are to pass out and drown. Exercise turns your survival instinct against yourself: the more intense your desire to breathe, the less opportunity you have. And the more intense your will to live, the greater the chances that you will die.
Thus, this exercise is neither physical strength nor willpower. It is aimed at the ability to control oneself in a critical situation. Can a person suppress their instinctive impulses? Can he relax before facing potential death? Can he risk his life to accomplish a top task?
The ability to master yourself is much more important than knowing how to swim. It is more important than physical strength, stamina or ambition. It is more important than intelligence, education and how good a person looks in a luxurious Italian suit.
This skill is the ability to not yield to instincts when you want it most, is one of the most important skills any person can develop. And not just for service in the navy. Just for the living.
Most people believe that effort and reward are directly correlated. We believe that if we work twice as hard, the result will be twice as good. And if we pay twice as much attention to our loved ones, then we will be loved twice as much. And if we yell twice as loud, our words will become twice as convincing.
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But there is another curve that you’ve probably never seen or heard of before – it’s the reverse (inverted) yield curve.
The reverse curve of yield indicates that effort and reward have a negative correlation, i.e. the more effort you put into something, the less you accomplish.
And this law applies in the example with “seals”. The more effort you try to stay afloat, the greater your chances are you’ll fail. Just like the stronger your desire to breathe, the more likely you’re to suffocate.
Perhaps now you have thought – well, why do we need to know all this? We are not going to dive in the pool with our hands and legs tied! How do we care about the inverse curve?
Indeed, there are few things in life that work according to the law of inverse curve. But the few that are available are extremely important. I even decide to argue that all the most important experiences and events in life operate according to the law of a reverse curve.
Effort and reward are in direct proportion to the completion of primitive tasks. Effort and reward work under the law of reducing return when an action is complex and multidimensional.
But when it comes to our psyche, t. е. about things happening exclusively in our own minds, the correlation between effort and reward is reverse.
The pursuit of luck takes you even further from it. The search for emotional calm is only more exciting. The desire for more freedom often makes us feel our unfreedom even stronger. The need to be loved prevents us from loving ourselves.
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All these inner, psychological experiences operate under the law of an inverse curve, because they all arise at the same point: in our minds. When you desire happiness, your brain is both the source of that desire and the object that must feel it.
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Our task is to wean your brain to chase your own tail. Give up the pursuit of meaning, freedom and happiness because they can only be felt when you stop chasing them. Learn to reach your goal by refusing to pursue that goal. To show yourself that the only way to reach the surface is to allow yourself to go down.
How to do this ? Refuse. Surrender. Surrender. Not because of weakness, but because of the understanding that the world is wider than our consciousness. Recognizing your fragility and limitations. Your limitation in the endless flow of time. This refusal to attempt control speaks not of weakness, but of strength because you choose to relinquish things that are beyond your control. Accept the fact that not always and not everyone is going to like you, that there are failures in life, and that you won’t always find clues about what to do next.
Refrain from fighting your own fears and insecurities, and when you think you’re about to sink, you’ll hit the bottom and can pull through, that’s where salvation will be.”
–Mark Manson
Maybe every time I tried to save and ration… i was being resourceful and all that, but it was slowing the rate/process of triggering level-ups / monetary-resupply.
Maybe relaxing and letting myself run out of $ is better now…
I sort of like that my vehicle rattles lol bc now it forces humans to endure annoying indefinite noise…which is their fault for making such weak vehicles and then not fixing them for me,
and ofc bc they deserve mass punishment like they subjected Me to,
etc.
Superman related to Supergirl…is a tale which makes me think it is a synonym for jews related to angelics.
and
Superman holding limp Supergirl…is art which makes me think it is a synonym for jews saving exhausted angelics…bc jews were made of this hellish world/Age, and angelics were not, thus the angelics leaving…and the jews remaining.
Doc was always such a racist, and such a dumbass, for insulting/mocking my healthy diet, calling it rabbit food.
Um… that’s the same food horses eat, and gorillas, oxen, etc., so why not bring Their species up?
Why insult Rabbits?
Space Sharks…sexy cgi spaceship halls for several minutes at start
phase2fizzle of:
africa was ron thurber west coast calls
asia was china 3d printing expo invitation
SAmer was cloud forest months ask
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curious that half of Europe got scouted during phase2, and same w NAmer, while all the other continents got nothing.
Maybe that means NAmer is a phase1 (always lame/bad/starter) realm, and Europe is always phase2…
Skywalkers: a love story
more gender disrespecting retsrd dyke buzzcuts on self-atrophied (nonvegan) scum humans
Abraham
Abracadabra
Abra-ham
If it hadn’t been for god/mankind failing via causing/forcing the windshield replacement, insurance not covering it, fender-warping hidden-post, battery-cells issue, etc., and overpriced bite-guard,
I’d still be WELL within my budget; I have budgeted VERY well.
Whatever. I press on.
Dune2 talking about heading south to find the believers/fundamentalists… of course reminds me of my own effort to connect with the Base 211 real-relatives/-kin.
Farming was probably engineered TO destroy/deplete the soil…
It was probably Also a Literal cover-up; claiming and violently controlling all the land where the most pole-shift bodies/debris had slid/settled, thereby preventing most/everyone from ever noticing / digging/scanning there.
The moment anyone runs for office, you can assume they are of one of the figurehead bloodlines bred over generations to be graceful at parroting whatever narrative the hidden elites/rulers want them to.
No one is allowed to run otherwise. No one else gets funded enough to even bother.
(I’m not saying no one Should be allowed to run otherwise. I’m deducing/concluding that the lame humans only allow fellow lame/evil humans to run for office, as they probably assumed/calculated that only lame humans could persuade other lame humans/peasants to vote for them, and it’s not about actual representation or leadership; it’s about keeping the spineless evil masses tricked into thinking one of their own worthless scumbags is in charge of them.)
2 wings of the same bird:
democrats and republicans
“God” and “Satan”; ‘bird’ = deathcult
relig and non relig
anything/anyone = humans sloppily trying to distract and divert me
Still blown away at how retarded the mexicans, americans, and others were; they thought i was foolish, and that they were making sure i didnt miss their culture/food, when really they were fools in every way, and only showing me they are barbarians with no culture worth slowing to see. But when they are That Bad All the time…that is what causes the rd2 to be a speedy sidestep around All that; now I know not to give any chances ever again. I have witnessed for decades that No human Ever improves, and none deserve to be helped or even spared.
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They thought they were intimidating/persuading me by saying they had spied on me, knew where my funds come from, etc., but all they were doing was confessing to illegal activities, unprovoked intrusions, being OCD and backward, being rude to polite people, etc.. They really are hopeless, worthless, and non-souls.
Bad Boys 2024, no dej, but full of the hollywood evil disgusting template bs;
glutton normalization
ugly mutant normalization
faggy behavior
trans-like jokes; claiming he is a mother-soul even though he is a male, and claiming souls don’t have dicks even though male souls obviously do
gender disrespecting hairstyles
troll piercings
unnatural monogamy
making light of heart attacks
wet humor that isn’t funny
deathcult paraphernalia/normalization
multiple whites cast to be ugly/down-symdrome
etc.
spotted the mix-up between the synonym-sounding “colonist” and “settler” on Colonies webpg, and finally fixed it.
I tried being myself, and got physically abused; assaulted over and over.
I tried being loving, and got threatened.
I tried being honest, and met only condescending arrogant morons abusing their power.
I tried calling out, but only punks/bullies “answered”, and were just there to fuck with me, playing some game they were all in on, even though I’d never done that to them.
I tried searching for my soul-tribe / real-relatives, but MANY humans did EVERYthing they could to derail that, and no real/good relatives every met me halfway.
I tried minding my own business, and still it triggered the tantrums of the retards known as humans.
It became clear that their kind had no goodness, let alone potential for good, let alone compatibility with me as friends or anything else. I had to switch my focus from seeking compatible people… to finding every which way to outsmart and outgun and outnumber Their tech/minions… bc they were relentless in misusing those things to harass me.
So now I love only that which deserves love; me.
It was never about what I was focused on; bad humans kept doing the opposite of what they knew I asked for and deserved.
It always goes to show how stupid and evil cops are, every time they panic and hurry to stare at me, even though I have been minding my own business, having lunch or watching a movie, and when there are so many horrible crimes being committed by every townsperson and business… yet the cops keep panicking about Me, unable to sense my goodness, or refusing to.
It goes to show how stupid and evil the cowardly townsfolk who keep reporting me are; I never set out to harm or even bother Any of them.
Smh.
Humans have always overreacted, misjudged, slandered, and betrayed. …It is as if they are afraid my perceptiveness will uncover their crimes… which are already known.
It is as if they fear Anything good, calm, and strong.
Nothing I am doing is suspicious… so that leaves only one explanation; it is the cops and locals who are to be suspected.
Before, i only recorded info about hottie vehicles and sites,
and I attempted civil interaction w those I was naturally interested in.
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Now, I record more vehicle and event details in case I a 3rd/+ time somehow return; I can then see if they are NPCs or area-triggers or repeating due to time travel. I can at least see if lookalikes are again appearing in the same order. (They might be something other than NPCs viewed multiple times at the same time.)
Also, I have learned not to bother w hotties unless able to acquire them. How it is.
Me being/feeling concerned that cop (Idaho State Trooper black SUV parked by creek turnoff) was there for me, and me venting about how prev locals had panicked for nothing, is good from me; it shows my memory is good, my instincts are logical, I trust my proven instincts, I speak up against spineless lowlifes, and am wisely cautious around humans who have too much power, etc..
It also is a testament to how evil humans have been; even when they don’t directly/intentionally bother me, it makes me feel awful/worried to even See them.
Their kind should be utterly ashamed of themselves, but they are too retarded to know to be, let alone to repent, let alone repent the only correct way.
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The locals back there might not have called that cop on me, but they are still evil for how they ignored me.
And maybe they Did call him on me, and when he couldnt think of any justification for harassing/threatening me, he started picking on other strangers passing him, minding their own business.
I am surprised there were 2 cop dashcam vids of the cop freeing the handcuffed guy to save him;
the first I saw was of a barely-tan brunette kid/young man,
and the 2nd was a year/+ later, and was a Black man in the same situation.
“You’re talking to the wrong people.” retardedly completely misses the point; there shouldnt have Been any “wrong ppl”; I should be w My ppl, Never having to Search to Maybe find a Few of them.
I was Never focused on the travel.
Apparently mike pruett is a chronic/default liar like the rest of his failed kind/species.
I was ALways focused on love/compatibles/community.
I was FORCED to travel. Even Then, I remained focused on compatibles.
Mike was obviously just defaulting to trying to trick me into doubting/blaming myself, which is the telltale/hallmark of the liars/deathcult; those who corrupt/weaken.
For decades, I tried believing in, and praying to, the god I was brainwashed to, but that never made any difference.
I then tried learning about ALL the other religions and deities, and calling out in hopes of hearing helpful answers from Them, but still… nothing of any significance/goodness.
Finally, I chose to become my own god, and that has worked far better than I had ever dared dream.
I used to do my best to thank and help people, and to decorate every place I moved into.
Then, I felt it was time to wait to see which people would do the same for me, such as by providing furnished places for free.
Finally, I realized even That wouldn’t be appropriate enough; I deserved the best all the time, even when I took it by force, unannounced, and with no explanation, nor any indication of how long I might feel like staying –and I’d also require payment to use it, plus donations, plus tithing, plus sacrifices/offerings, etc.; god-mode activated. Amen.
Every time, I looked for the good, trying to see it in others, but every time… they pretended bad was good, or, unable to find any bad even in their backward view/brainwashing, they pretended their was bad where there wasn’t; they slandered me.
Being mobile this much longer… no doubt gave me proximity access to more level-up and vision-sharing spots,
and being outside cities this much longer kept me out from under their jamming (“cell”) towers,
and quitting the work w loser humans ended alarm clock need, thus gave me access to far more memories of dreams,
etc.
Lol “for phase2, it’s pretty phase3”; the best of the isolation/wilderness
Jenny mccarthy covered in retard paint…and retard nail extensions…and a giant death symbol (skull) on her shirt (in that youtube about her podcast show episode featuring corey goode)… should be all the signs one needs to know she is insane, evil, and spreading fake-ssp nonsense.
It may be that current standalone large hills and mntns became their current forms becausr their originally fluid structures could stay erect more easily, thus they collapsed and oozed out, then petrified… whenever the atmosphere stopped being thick enough to give them some buoyancy; megastructures may long ago have been possiible for the same reason whales can be so big.
At first it almost felt bad that it has come to me seeking minor loopbreaks to improve this passing phase…but then i felt glad my memory is this fantastic/long/detailed, and i feel glad things r up to me now, not doctated by psychotic bully mutants from phase1.
sat27jul2024, 6:20p~, typist didnt react lovingly to a few posts, then was terse/’short’, just saying “Cool” when I said a nice thing about how the 3 rescued baby squirrels vid reminded me of her knowing when to introduce our own little ones; gnomes, etc.
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Whatever. Always hated the xian and being limited to goddamn texting, anyway.
Based on all the lies, slander, and perjury I’ve witnessed and endured, I bet it was even worse against the Germans and other innocent ppl.
I bet the V2 rockets were actually made up, England bombing its own ppl to keep itself in the war, hoping to use its banking sys to carve up other territories since its colonial/naval approach wasnt working as well anymore.
So glad another mega wildfire is teaching the evil humans bk where i came a lesson
Even if things were dif for me, this work would still need to be done, and still only be possible in the time I have completed it in… by isolating and budgeting, which focused me on choosing favorite products and writing spells about them.
While retards make great laborers and specialists, as they struggle with imagining beyond what little they are taught,
and while politics is critical for diverting retards who would otherwise have tantrums at actual secret leaders,
no one should have to live on a world soured by a species or society/civilization which chooses or resorts to those things/measures.
Even if there Had been a way to save more money, my work deserved to be fully focused on and wrapped up,
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and my gut was always correct about when to do things;
when to avoid the mindless deathculters,
when to join the corps,
when to leave the corps,
when to go bk to sch,
when to relocate,
when to give chances,
when to end things w toxic ‘ppl’,
etc.
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There was no way to save more momey, though; no matter where I went, who I worked with, who I helped, which gods I prayed to, the results were artificially kept the same; I was forced to go solo no matter What, and now I finally have… for now.
Dej upon seeing end of Shadow in the Clouds…but so what?
My mind, like my instinct, is great –and can do far btr than those of the humans I met so far.
This is phase2 anyway;
in phase1, shit angered me,
and in phase2, it doesnt bother me as much, and I know it will make sense and work out later.
I didnt get murdered at 33,
and my exodus/solo didnt end at 40;
the bible nbrs don’t apply to me,
and were almost certainly gibberish made up by the chronic liar fools, anyway.
Carry on.
Typist RPing that “I am (my cock is) huge” means that those females joining me were all the appropriate sizes; to them, I Am huge; just right; stretching their pussies as much as they enjoy/prefer.
Doc1 suggested i become like All great historical figures, but he didnt expect me to unearth the truth that all those he meant… were engineered imaginary friends whose “qualities” were to keep me and most believers weak and self-impeding.
He didnt foresee me branching out to learn about so many others.
He certainly did not think i had it in me to become so great on my own… that others would need to start looking up to Me.
a post about a festival in b-s doesnt mean they aren’t being fkd w and reduced, just as I decreed.
Rmbr that they are always faking things, incl their own happiness.
still blown away at how godawful nearly all restaurants in this failed country were
barbarian dumpster fires masquerading as sophisticated and cute
Humans normally (usually; nothing ‘normal’ about it) overreact(ed), so I wonder if even the bitches and dudes who had unnatural (negative) reactions to me… would have gone apeshit if not for my calming effect,
and I wonder if my calming effect is a superpower that only developed in me because I was always forced to deal with overreacting brainless bullies/giants…
not sure if posb to make this a research proj…
If I hadn’t gone to all those shitty areas/motels, and had to stay outside all the time, I wouldn’t have spotted even 10% of those I naturally chose?
False; they could have just as well been WHEREVER I went,
and I could have just as well been provided respectable rooms in NICE places.
I’ll rmbr the mistreatment of me when the tables finish turning into my favor.
volcanic/buildup like me, Ambi shows up suddenly, unannounced, in full force, and does a lot,
such as 4 babies at once,
and all those pets at once,
then slowly winds down; fewer and fewer RPs, fewer added slave-girls, etc.,
until everything is just right,
so wait for her to suddenly arrive with reinforcements/helpers/cabin/city all at once.
It’s her style, and it works well.
I was right to accept that shit offer both times; it was necessary to get to where my mental health always returned,
it was necessary to discover the time travel stuff,
it was necessary to bypass the negligent spoiled rich scum,
and no other offers were being made.
Yes, red flags such as him being a whiny and intrusive nonvegan psycho working with a glutton bagface…were there, but they were noticed, not overlooked.
If not for the dent’ lying, i would leave this shit state immediately. Maybe it is some sign i am being pulled to stay here again. Too bad, though; had enough of the bullshit here.
Idk if i receive certain transmitted ideas from the buried ruins at certain spots, but these spots do seem to at least stimulate me to envision different things, the same type of idea at the same revisited site.
The bottom line remains: I said what I like and what my limits are, and the unhealthy dumb rude humans ignored that normalcy and good communication.
And showing me yc and ambi and sabrina, then putting me through all that, was inappropriate blueballs-ing / cockteasing of the worst degree, which the gods will have to be destroyed -not just punished- for.
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August:
last day of July:
I wonder if the morons back in bs-area are now at least smart enough to know not to fuck with me anymore; I wonder if they’ve noticed ALL their operations are getting tanked for how they mistreated me.
You saw that “Tim” (fake-name fed coward retard glutton) taking a fake/cover job just to fuck with you;
how many Others were told to pretend to apply/work at places they knew you would be at?
All the hotties who pretended to work at grocery stores and gas stations? Probably.
Humans never had any honor/bravery. That’s the kind of backward bullshit they’ve always done, always thinking they are the clever ones, no matter how many times that blatant approach doesn’t work the way they want it to.
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The books (novels series) were to share my wisdom with humans,
but after how ZERO humans showed ANY intelligence, only the ability to parrot nonsense, they always gravitating to / siding with the herd, no matter how wrong the herd was/IS,
there is no point in publishing those books outside my realm;
it/they would ‘fall on deaf ears’ / ‘eyes unable to see’.
Making the chapter-starts for those books helped get my vision in good/full order, and that is all that is needed.
The website is the modern form of the book, and allows for updates without having to publish new editions/volumes.
Like getting free/paid training in the Corps, I didn’t have to spend 20 years at like I’d originally aimed for;
just STARTing the books and website was more than enough to crystalize/complete my vision.
grinding led to teeth having 60s/70s-level flatness… 🙁
and, knowing how the gods are / this world is / humans are… the way to fix it will never be revealed.
I’ll just have to find it on my own…
but at least phase2 news came today; the biteguard can slow it back down to normal, if not stop it in its tracks.
Maybe another miracle will come.
No matter how pointless some of my pass-times may seem,
they are ALWAYS victories over those who wanted to keep my schedule packed with ACTUALLY-pointless BUSYwork.
Every time I do ANYthing Iii want to do, that is another victory against those evildoers/unnaturals who kept trying to dominate me.
Keep at OFP. Keep enJoying OFP.
I didnt know what to do after the corps, but then inisfree happened.
Now inisfree design/website is wrapping up, so i again dont know what to do. It Would have been Ambi and saBrina and all them, but they treated me so badly… :/
Having to ration fuel, and sleep in no sig areas, keeps me from pulling all-nighters.
I wish the hotties had the same vibe as in the office today…
phase1 was no choices ever, but eventually it ended –after some horrible hiccups/death-throes.
phase2 has been more and more choices, and repeats, even posb time-travel, but I now sense it is time to transition into that which is ideal, thus that which never ends / always remains with me; Ambi and Inisfree, etc.
phase3 won’t have to end; that’s part of what makes it phase3.
Maybe by thinking about one, it caused it to exist, and then it was able to think about things, causing them to exist, and eventually that looped back through the past to form/modify the current family-trees of races and worlds, causing their OWN pasts, forming a loop that seems confusing, but might somehow not defy the law of causality (linear time/progression).
Can what we imagine… become real just because we started imagining it?
Do we imagine what is actually out there?
Are we not really imagining, but receiving disclosure/revelations we were conditioned/brainwashed to assume is just imagination / ‘flights of fancy’?
Once we have manifested something in another time, if it also has the ability to imagine and manifest what it imagines, do things it then imagines… manifest… ALSO in different times?
Is it possible to inadvertantly set up / cause a loop in lineages/bloodlines this way?; could people manifested into the past… then get influenced by different mind-detectable things back then, they then likewise unknowingly causing things to manifest in still-other times?
“60s or 70s”… One, that makes me suspect more time-travel,
but 2), of course, I am Very angry at those who Gave me this flawed body,
and esPecially at those who Caused the grinding –IF that is what is to blame.
If I’d had the phase3 (best of the best) accommodations already, I would have spent most of my time fucking, not wrapping this up,
but I’d be in great shape already, so…
that dentist has only seen my teeth for ~1 year; he doesn’t know if they were ground down, or if they were shaped that way all along.
He is assuming they are ground down, based on seeing sharper teeth in bad-humans…
Maybe I’m not grinding at all. Maybe they are stronger than he assumed.
I hope.
My single digits were mostly abuse.
My teens were mostly abuse.
My 20s were trng; mil y colleges and veteran events.
My 30s were mostly Inisfree.
What will my 40s mostly be?
They kept idiotically condescendingly thinking i was ‘slow’, when they were the ones missing all My points and signals.
I was rejecting them for being unhealthy and classless, and that went right over their arrogant heads every time.
if they had shown my they were mature, intelligent, compatible…I still would have been slpwed down
It is good that things are sort of forcing/ensuring my amassed favorite music now gets added to the site/spell/design.
Re’ aug2 Jump psgr face bitch: A girl with a face THAT PERFECT, who disrespects her priceless body by punching holes in it, really should be executed and cloned. Their retardation and evil match their looks, which is staggering. Strangely, the ugly ones’ retardation and evil matches their Ugliness. I wonder why all humans are so retarded and evil here, regardless of how they look.
Never imagined typist would even come up with perfect visual aids / pics / images / art for Houseboats and Soliara 3 🙂
…but then she verbal-diarrhea shits-the-bed once again, idiotically rejecting my 100%-correct statement about humans needing me as their leader/god.
MANY songs in Up…were duplicates, so I feel much btr about not having uploaded the rest of them.
Did the govt losers figure out some way to get minds from other worlds here… in bodies such as mine… so they can see how people from those worlds think… before they go there in person? Is it safer to have first contact this way; when we are limited to mortal bodies we don’t want to risk? Are we kept in them so that we don’t end contact the moment it gets upsetting; so we learn far more before returning/moving on.
Maybe some r avoiding me bc their behavior kept giving me enough energy to crack their highways etc.; they are scared. That one retarded deformed midget fightpicker was prob just sent to see if they could get me to unleash at specific times they chose.
Either way, they are wrong; their behavior should have been better from the start,
and they should have improved it, not thrown in the towel after a normal peaceful interaction.
sunning and river swimming while those who were rude have to slave away all day,
then j (revisiting my fave beautiful/love-based vids) and enjoying music while they are stuck in traffic, I sometimes watching the line slowly drive by.
all in all, not a bad wrap-up of phase2.
rmbr, in phase1… the wrap-up was barely surviving, and becoming a fugitive.
this new wrap-up has been WAY chiller, WAY more successful/productive/accomplished.
Phase2 post/offer: free tickets…but from a fugtard…to an event i have no interest in, so i blocked.
Phone went from 93 to 100 instantly yesterday when plugged in
Tamales and all the other stuff i stock up on…are a hell of a lot btr than those hard oversweetened Nature Valley granola bars during the First time i had to leave home
The reason losers kept showing up and asking for money…was bc the coward xian-govt types were trying to condition/brainwash me to always tolerate parasites.
Those who tried to terrorize me into ending contact w my loved ones…had all contact ended w Them inStead lol
Maybe that murder-defending bitch (linda) lost her dog bc she wronged me, and now she is ginna lose her new dog for the same reason. Maybe karma even works bkwd through time, thus the dif dog.
Dej from venting to typist about campfire ambush…
Still in loop??
Ugh.
Such a relief that the degenerates don’t even get Seen unless i google them; their creations, such as tech or music, reach me in tolerable form. However, i still hate them for being so fucked up, and my emotions are always valid.
Humans so far have refused to accept me unless i become pure evil like them, and i have been unable to accept them unless they are pure good from the start.
Leave the sexy pics (on phone, etc.); dont let fat old bitch barb make u remove pics that are good
The sexy pics have ALWAYS been medicine/good/holy/natural/normal. It’s just the typist poorly-RPing/-messaging that sucks.
Rmbr how weak the evil humans have always been; they cowardly avoid openness, they cowardly call for backup, all their endeavors fail, their own bodies fail, all their attempts at tricking me fail, for all their numbers…they are extremely weak. For all their money, their ventures such as farms and fake veteran orgs still fail. Meanwhile i alone keep sicceeding. I am far stronger than them. And i have stopd alone against their ambishes even since i was a child. I have always done the right things, no matter how many times they disrespect amd threaten me for that.
So disgusted that i still have to Search for healthy, and pay Extra for Non poison. It helps me memorize the healthy stuff, but still.
“The visions arent subjective.” Wrong. He asSumes they are. He is too stupid and lazy to hold visions. And he is a beta; submissove to what he perceives as the system.
They wouldn’t have rejected all Real gods,
and made up a god based entirely on rebelion, weakness, slavery, suffering, suicide, and forgiveness,
if their nature was better/other than being weak pathetic harmful losers.
If they were normal-healthy, they would still Love the Real deities, and they wouldn’t ruin their bodies so across-the-board.
Every time I return here, and anywhere, I have to work/struggle less, and I get to focus more and more on the finest, so I’m not cursed. What I focused on is just taking a while.
I never let those Other typists/RPers ruin the characters They had written/hijacked;
I won’t let THIS typist (the latest xian parrot/tard) ruin the Best character.
If people Weren’t idiots and cunts this whole time, I would Never isolate and work this much, thus this critical idea/vision/work would not be wrapped up already.
They may as well be the repulsive fools they have been so far; I don’t have time or good enough reason to interact with them yet, anyway.
they weren’t trying to get me to be brave / not shy;
I proved I was brave countless times.
I initiated with hundreds, if not thousands, of girls.
I went after what I wanted.
…What they were trying to get me to do was betray my nature/destiny;
to work a meaningless job, to waste my mind/gifts/talents, and to spawn with their overgrown and programmed/retarded excuses for “females”.
If the hotties had shown up to answer my call/s, they would have had no problem introducing themselves.
If they were matching my efforts, they would have given Me Their contact info / websites.
but they were moody whether I was brave/initiating/tolerant or not, every time,
and those are telltales/signs –that they aren’t the species/people for me.
Lily Maymac sp, rd2 incl nudes! Progress.
Like btr v of hobo ahle, rikku, etc.
I was strong enough to lose contact w typist at least twice.
The first time, i cried out during the night sidewalk walk in boze,
and the 2nd time a year or more went by, and then i apologized…
but both times, i was the one making the effort,
and every time… she has no prob letting go.
Is that truly respect, or apathy?
No matter how long i am disrespected by the idiots species, or by the bitches, this area always makes me feel much btr than all the other areas, so i do my best to stay in it, and i return to it.
No matter how stupid that woman who showed up multiple times may be / used to be, my instincts confirm her appearance is the correct match for me, so all i can do is wait on her to stop being a fool.
Letting go of typist didnt cause a power vacuum to be filled by that woman who shows up, but back then i had so much left to wrap up. Now, i don’t.
If they had any goodness at all, they would have at Least Celebrated me making it here, and given me a Free cabin.
If they were Fully good, they would have inVited me here, Paid me to Be here, and made sure No one here was incompatible with me.
But they all showed me they defend evil no matter how retarded it reveals they are, and they try to trick me no matter how I Never do that to Them, and they igNore my orientation while sexually harRassing me to accept Theirs.
So until i can wipe them out, i have to charge up more and wait.
Phase3 Should be about not even Having to purge; there should Be no more evil stupid scum here, but… that remains to be seen.
If they had Any good in them, they would have aPologized for letting me get worn out.
If they were All good, they Never would have done Anything that even Started wearing me out.
But their vibes and voices were dripping with blackness/evil, and they were Always eXcited to fuck with me Further, and that heartless monstrous unforgivable evil shows itself in their “food” industry and fake healthcare…and fake religions.
So the big question Is…why have such phase1 beasts lingered this long, and what will end them once and for all?
the shit-talkers weren’t calling me a coward bc I Was one;
they were namecalling bc they literally are incapable of manners / anything good/honest.
for some reason, they are limited to lying and pestering/bullying ppl.
it is like some part of their brain got removed or disabled or bred out of them.
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same when that one overgrown cripple/gimp “recon” scumbag tried claiming the street-walkers in vegas were “out of my league”;
they weren’t; he just knew only evil/violence/harshness. he was a blunt instrument, as they say.
The hotties have put themselves in a terrible position;
either they were telepathic and chose to Not do what I asked/thought,
or they are Not telepathic, thus Not what I asked for.
Also, it took them DECADES just to get their LOOKS correct,
and even after all that time… they Still haven’t managed to learn the word “hi”
…or timing/promptness.
all stress and upset before,
but now back and forth between that… and enjoying my increasing freedom/OFP.
If she’s the one, she’ll appreciate my full range of emotions,
my honesty about what I like and what I hate,
me hating her NOT being with me,
me still giving her a chance after all this time, and after all the abuse and sexual harassment from the humans,
AND she’ll of COURSE appreciate me being specific about all the things that turn me on, thus giving her ALL the keys / cheat-sheet answers.
She will NEVER dislike what I like / how I am.
She will NEVER back off when I clearly need and deserve her comforting/soothing me.
When things start to work out, that’s when the distractions become ~constant, thus no more new/improved ideas/visions.
So appreciate this remaining time to have a few more fantastic/corrective ideas/visions.
You now have not only a few hits, like MOST famous bands, but improvement ideas AND NOTES -DETAILED- for ALL bands/songs!
That is unprecedented. That is GOD-level.
You weren’t allowed to take root / blossom / get rich as a MORTAL/LIMITED, but only as the God your blood knows you are meant and destined to be. Amen.
Spotting fugs on See This Page misc hotties…would not have happened if I was already distracted/seduced/loved by hotties in person.
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same goes for spotting some more lookalike formsakes on ICVs dir
Weird that a cult mbr claims she has faith in me; why want an anti-cult guy such as me to get what he wants?
Suspicious…
But maybe it is a light at the end of this tunnel; evildoers starting to support me in spite of their mental disorders.
Maybe humans were made by the Atlanteans/ancients to distract/demotivate most from adding any more complexity to the universe/system. Why else would humans try to discredit obviously-correct good-vibes ppl? Why else would they hold the brightest back, alienating us?
Maybe humans require weekly/daily brainwashing to mitigate their evil/retardation. But why make them that weak and dependent? So they don’t survive on their own or in groups, I guess; so they wipe themSelves out…since the global flood and poleshifts didnt do the trick.
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Maybe modern humans are SO chaos-infected/-corrupted, that without weekly church and daily work, etc., they become too obvious for any ACTUAL/REAL people to keep believing they are “just normal people like anyone else”; their evil/chaos then shows, perhaps through their insane acts becoming more “in the open”/reckless.
Rd1 i was fine with seeing indy and madison for the 1st time.
Rd2 i hated the idea, but witnessed posb time travel evidence all over, and completed the computer models.
Rd3…i hope i only go to those places to angelically nuke them and enslave the tolerables. God damn those cities/towns/humans. Even if i was rich, there would be nothing worthy of my money, and no way I could enjoy those places until their evildoers were brought to justice.
Did evil beings choose to spread as modern Caucasians/Whites bc they knew it would get their foot in the door w the peoples who had been used to good-Whites i.e. biolume Elves?
That scumbag staring at me in the GC while singing “don’t worry, be happy” gave himself away via his body language and vibe;
he wasn’t giving good advice, but pestering/targeting me, perfectly happy to cause harm, even as a stranger I could have never wronged.
He was yet another retarded evildoer being rude without provocation, misusing that song, just like his kind have always misused/weaponized words written by artists with COMPLETELY different intentions.
I don’t need to write more original songs; my books are writing enough. Inisfree is my original ‘song’. The playlists are my compositions/remixes. Enjoying singing covers; my favorite songs of others, is perfectly fine and right.
maybe all these forests of “normal” trees… are actually little fragments of World Trees… that are preventing the World Trees from reforming; they use up all the land/resources/sunshine, preventing ACTUAL-normal (“mega”/”giant”) growth/trees/flora
“Dead inside”? Obviously fully alive inside. Obviously just not interested in being fired up around a parasite who knows nothing and only talks shit to drain and feed on people. I am Always dialed down around those attempting to rob me of energy. I am at peace otherwise. Only good people earn my energy.
When someone feels that your bare arms feel cold outside in freezing temperatures, and then decides to insult you about it, you know they always lies, always pick fights, and should be sent to an asylum.
I was only making poor choices when forced to as a youth; when starved and terrorized and underpaid and poisoned. I was only risking my life when I was memorizing and trying to work within their evil system that kills all its own. What I have done since committing to myself/righteousness is heal myself and give it my all, spreading/sharing as much truth and as many wonders as I can. I am being wise, saintly, and heroic.
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Technically, none of my choices were poor, since I was often only allowed horrible options.
I’d like to think the heat and fires and even the landslide are bc of my will, the elements finally teaching the damn humans some lessons.
I can’t keep RPing a happy family if it isn’t going to happen, and if you get my hopes up and then a year goes by and things stay the same.
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but me getting fed up with rp… may mean I’ll signal that big years-long spell complete enough to manifest, thus it Shall manifest; Ambi shall return to me and start our family in the cabin we chose.
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and even if that cabin was PUT in my feed, someone Wanting me to live there, that still won’t stop the evil humans from being wiped out, or my superpowers from continuing to re/activate, etc.
and that cabin looks perfect to me, thus it is.
and my presence in it will unfuck whatever might have been inappropriately attached to the structure.
Each of my webpgs, and each of my attempts at interaction, are like an individual ink circle. If only humans were attempting to learn them, rather than jumping to the same retarded conclusion over and over, assuming they are not goodnatured attempts at demonstrating and teaching.
I wish Ian Xel had been correct in his hope/claim that “it wilp be vicious but quick; over soon; the evildoers ousted and vanquoshed
My website has ~3,000 webpgs. Lhs sex ed, tna, sex spells, bibloran sex spells, and part of hogw2, are the pgs that focus on sex science; only 5 of 3000. The 100or so character webpgs sometimes mention sex. That’s less than 1%.
The daughter in Arrival drawing that thing she said was “the show calledommy and daddy talk to animals” was her way of expressing in what little English she had learned at that age…what sue had seen of the past.
Humans were never learning with the intent to understand, but the intent to weaponoze and manipulate and harm/destroy. It is their entire being, not just the cirrent leaning/tendency/training of their warriprs. It is so much a part of them, or entirely who/what they are, that they even war against their own bodies and farms and gods…when they cannot war against others. Lawsuits were probably invented to make it even easier for them to always war agaimst their own kind.
It is no longer thr place of that idiotic typist to say when i get contact w ppl. It is mine. Agter all, sje did say they wanted to belong to me and only me, and that means Not to her.
My nature was always to do multiple things at once; write in multiple directions, unite multiple agencies, comm w my full body, email all, price compare, see all natioms, etc.
Humans noticed the disappearing noodles in the video showing 3 monkeys using chopsticks to eat from a bowl of red soup, but no comments I read mentioned the possibility that the original video could have been real…and A.I. used not to fake the entire video, but to change the normal noodles so thry disappeared, making the video Then Look fake.
I keep seeing Adaline and Neveah separately lifting their own shirts off (no bra on underneath) as they walk into my bedroom, all of us having gotten used to that as our daily/nightly hangout/cuddle/sex routine, they only allowed on my bed if they are at least topless and preferably naked
Accusing me of “talking shit about christianity” is talking shit about Me; i never Once talked shit; talking shit is to insult and lie. Stating facts is not “talking shit”. That was just one more of now countless examples of how the evil humans always misuse their own language, trying to redefine words to weaponize them against the innocent, always doing or attempting harm, whether verbally or physically, just like they do to all innocent animals.
The “no camping” signs actually help me not risk being near the evil townsfolk. The signs, and any attempts of humans to rule me, are crimes, but still
wed7aug2024: form-sake? didn’t see face before they got back in vehicle. Vbc-72__ plates, “Jeep” modern light gray SUV, tan toned legs curoff jean shorts got into driver side psgr seat door a few mins ago, passed me 12:08p on way bk n to valley, unsure if face hottie or too old
The humans who take drugs “to expand their minds”…are just evil NPCs misinterpreting things like they always do; the drugs ovetcomplicate their internal processes, and then they claim they had profound visions, but visions are not profound or even legitimate when forced/drug-induced.
Humans who smoke weed to be nicer/happier…are too evil to generate good mood/manners/vibe on their own, thus the cloudy murky mucky gross repulsive brown haze head aura.
Things will never work out while she is staying hidden and expecting me to read her mind.
But my wrapup IS working out …at last.
telling me to “let it go” boils down to:
another idiot parroting another philosophy she doesn’t understand,
based on hyper-/default-submissiveness,
and catering to evil, harboring evil, etc.,
when really she should have been leaping into action to wipe out those who crossed/betrayed me,
and right this country/land once and for all.
“Letting things go” is how we GOT in this mess.
It is deathcult brainwashing which the spineless/gullible always gravitate to because it means they don’t have to risk their lives or put any effort forward.
It means they are whores to anything that comes their way.
It means they open their own doors for their enemies, letting their lives be ruined when they didn’t have to.
Letting things go is ALWAYS the wrong move.
It saps energy.
It ends honor.
It is anti-bravery.
It is anti-standards.
If she was GOOD, she WOULD have told me that I am RIGHT to accept my blood-instinct,
and RIGHT to stand and speak out against evil/fools.
phase1 I was operating under the assumption that everyone was a decent person who just sometimes needed an explanation to learn.
phase2 I realized most refuse to learn, and many can’t even learn if they wanted to, and actual pure evil false-humans exist and show up even if they have to travel from faraway.
phase3 All encountered get mind-read and vibe-checked, and instantly disintegrated or enslaved if they are anything I didn’t ask for. Amen.
nothing but myself, wilderness/nature, rest, art, wrap up… 🙂
I am glad that those 2 evil niggers have to clean up my waste/trash;
they certainly deserve it after maddogging me like the niggers/humanimals they are.
They are stuck slaving away in a bullshit job, while I remain free.
That’s good enough for phase2.
and the longer their dumbass kind refuse me fair shelter/pay/treatment, the more they have to clean up after me.
that dumbass Celestine book made sense to me bc it was carefully worded to appeal to good beings,
but in practice, its advice NEVER worked. in fact, attempting to live by it… only resulted in scammer after scammer making life more and more challenging/unpleasant for me.
clearly, that book was written to make life worse for me.
clearly, it was just like the bible; full of nonsense handpicked to lure in good ppl for abuse.
the evidence is uniform.
the signs are all there.
in phase1, i was Forced to tolerate evildoers, and constantly pressured to change/corrupt my thinking/wisdom. i was taught and brainwashed and relentlessly urged to ignore my instincts, ignore the signs, ignore crimes, and keep giving evil scum chances they never deserved.
in phase2, i sensed/realized i had to take my stand, and do what i had always known and found was right, so i now accept my natural reactions to evildoers; i embrace the correct disgust i feel toward/about them. i give no chances unearned. and the only signs that are valid, i now realize, are those i give to others –which they need to learn to accept and honor and appreciate.
in phase3, there will finally be good ppl, the kind i have always called out for, for my work will be wrapped up, so i can focus on Them.
If humans had behaved correctly, I would ALWAYS have asked for pictures,
thus real pictures would have ended up on my ICV webpgs,
thus the evildoers would have used those to target/harass more good ppl.
Or I would never have even Thought to ask for pictures, because I would always get interaction I Wanted.
Either way, I wouldn’t have been able to safely put pictures on my website.
So it worked out that I have “close enough” picture/image/art albums on the ICV subpgs.
Besides, Ambi showed up WAY more perfect than her character play-by, and without me even DESCRIBING her that way;
the ICVs shall turn out perfect just like She did. Amen.
It’s pretty fuckin’ amazing that I get to be here without having to slave away for paychecks,
and that I got to see in MANY of the BEST mansions/cabins/homes here, without having to meet their lame owners.
I even got to see what their diets are, what they are spawning, if they have deathcult paraphernalia, etc.!
Talk about clever and convenient intel/HUMINT gathering!
guys wanting to be with only one girl… are basically just 1 step away from being so retarded they are gay;
the only thing less than 1 girl is no girls, which is gay.
and guys who get angry at normal guys (i.e. guys who want fun/time with ALL sexy girls) are not only gay, but psychotic;
they are unstable violent creeps meddling in other men’s affairs,
as if trying to control those other guys, probably because their essence is to be gay and force/pressure Others to be gay.
I only wrote of trying the Marines briefly, and it ended.
I didn’t write of meeting compatible Marines, and I didn’t meet compatible Marines.
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I have since written of eternal self, eternal compatible hotties, and centuries of music performances, and am STILL writing that spell;
when I am wrapped up with it, it will start… and not end. Amen.
shirtless guy sitting on riverbank… caused dej/mem refresh.
the biggest turnoff wasn’t just that they were ugly, such as by being taller than ~a head shorter than me.
the biggest turnoff was that they actually thought they were being sexy and making me a great offer; they thought ugly was beautiful.
the biggest turnoff wasn’t just that they ignorantly/idiotically ate disgusting garbage passed off as food;
the biggest turnoff was that they ENJOYED and DEFENDED torturing and murdering and eating corpse parts of the innocent, and MOCKED anyone who DIDN’T.
Horrible mistakes might be tolerable some day, if they made things right,
but they weren’t just making honest mistakes after losing their way and being brought up incorrectly; they knew EXACTLY what they were doing wrong and ATTACKED anyone who was NOT wrong.
They actually thought good manners were a bad thing; they assumed they indicated cowardice/shyness, or being mentally ill.
They actually thought that me not feeling attraction to creepy fucked-up people… meant that something was wrong with me.
They condescended EVERY time. EVERY interaction was condescension from them. That makes them at the worst end of the arrogance spectrum; so arrogant, they don’t even notice they Are arrogant.
glad she looks and sounds perfect…
or furious that she had it easy while I struggled and kept being attacked without support?
both; this is phase2.
tue13aug2024 2p dej from making the VR2 Music Videos numbered bulletnotes list in Word.
whatever. it may have been foreseen, or be a loop/repeat somehow, but it has helped me spot and fix typos I never would have otherwise.
“If it works, it isn’t stupid.”
“I loved her… and she loved me back.” except that I have to go with what Iii witnessed; what works for ME;
When Iii loved, they DIDN’T love me back. In fact, they HATED and THREATENED me. and inSULTED me.
When I STOPPED trying to love, THEN they showed interest, but only to try and seduce me off holy/good Course.
So clearly, based on that, I can extrapolate/forecast that cataclysming their kind is the only thing that will trigger them to be good/loving to me.
SO BE IT. Amen.
do trees grow… atop petrified/dead titans whose nature was (or still is) to cause tree growth?
and maybe the kind of forests we have today… were never meant to exist; bc they are too dense, wild, untended, not part of the conscious work/plan of the gods/titans.
Typist doing years of great rp, fully compatible with me, then ending rp, and saying bs about human scams…
reminds me of how ambi showed up in person, her looks and voice fully compatible, but then kept ending contact without explanation, leaving me to assume they are the same person, or at least both the same type of fool who gave me hurtful false hope.
If it is kismet/destiny like you (typist) say, why hasn’t she said a word to me yet? Why does she keep showing up randomly, sometimes months between, sometimes years?
How is it gonna work out when she doesn’t let me know she is coming,
doesn’t let me know it is her when she is there,
doesn’t tell me why she leaves,
and when she doesn’t help me secure the cabin?
I’d Like to think she came 3x because she sensed my stress, and that she only left once sure I was stable enough to do more work, but I habe no evidence to confirm that, only my hope.
The tsunami/disaster apps she wanted me to get…may now be showing me where goodguys are battling through the evil human grid/borders…and where my energy is getting released; where humans are unable to prevent my will.
I always had visions of dancing, making music and movies, etc., NEVER visions of working bullshit NPC jobs, so I’m glad I’m doing what I always knew in my mind/blood I should/shall.
phase1 was me being forced to “let things go”; forced to endure abuse and never see justice/goodness.
phase2 was me standing up for myself, starting to force the evildoers to pay me back. I still was forced to “let things go” just to survive, but I was now regularly forcing the enemy to start paying for their many/countless offenses.
phase3 is never again tolerating ANYone who tries to brainwash/pressure me to “let things go” (“tolerate crime/evil/wrong”).
My myspace blog was creative writing that got the attention of kelsi and others like her; cute mortals with ossues. Vastly improved is my own website, and it has gotten the attention of vastly superior hotties, but… so many humans are still retarded about it. Npt sure wtf is causing that.
The idea to remake all the music videos of my favorite songs, and make music videos for my favorites songs which didn’t have music videos, resonates phase3 (perfectly) with me. Amen.
When a hottie finally shows up, it doesnt make me wanna sieze the opportunity to hit on her; it makes me wonder why the fuck her species is such a complete failure that 99% are ugly, and the 1% who are tolerable Still lack any manners/sense/timing. And after that retard old man in walmart, i know they All were probably bait.
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The dumbass hotties and feds couldnt wrap their tiny npc brains around that simple concept; you didnt deliver when I was in the mood/market.
You added tons of problems, then pretended I was to blame for the criminals who caused them.
You didnt clean up the mess you made before inviting me over. I don’t want to deal with / play in YOUR MESS.
Fix your goddamn problems, ans punish your goddamn criminals, before calling for me.
Stop calling for me before you are fucking ready.
Stop acting like you are giving your best, when you are giving your worst.
Stop getting frustrated at my good standard and patience. Be frustrated at YOUR LAZINESS and SLOPPINESS.
A mass of foolish humans always moodily resisted and tried to cprrupt me; during chikdhood, in elem sch classes, in officer trng, in boot camp, in fleet sqd, in churches tested, in fake veteran events, and in the towns i tried to rest and work in, so it is just standard bs here that the same happened; the locals showed me they are evil just like all those other groups of spineless retsrds did. I always remained true to my holy calling. The dif is this place is the first that calls to me to stay, so…it is the first time the evildoers shall have to be forced away.
Best schools, toughest mil branch, farthest travels, grandest vision, sexiest females presenting themselves; always the finest for me. So…when do i get that cabin i was shown and chose?
Hopefully the force that allowed me to overcome/outsmart all those evil masses, and move around tye planet many times, and control weather and crack highways, is now more than enough to destroy and scatter all the rude idiots here so they can never again stand in my path or even speak lies. Hopefully it is clearing out the community so only good ppl remain.
sun11aug vision/calibration: I woke and smiled as I thought of having a goodmorning blowjob from my top wife, then fucking Malika in our shower, then my daughters having their turn French kossing me as I felt them up to say goodbye before work, then kissing and maybe quicky fucking Ariel in thanks for breakfadt, then Melissa 2 beaming a smile as she eagerly accepted my hand to walk w me up to fuck in my airship on my commute to work, then Amber ICV1 beaming a smile as she met me for our morning sex-based subsidiaries briefing, etc.
The fact i got every computer model megastructure calculated correctly on the first attempt, not having to redo any part, is one more evidence i always did land nav accurately, sgt williams’ dumbass just lying like so many others of his lowly kind did.
Maybe the ancestors of modern humans were cast out from where the demigods were…bc the demigods’ nature was to hold their own ideas/vision/form, but the smaller beings (humans) haf been designed to focus on something differrnt (mining, for ex.), thus the demigods knew those beings had to be kept faraway, lest their dif vision cause unintended manifestations based on mixing the 2 dif mind energies.
It was prob for the best that i did not reach the finish of that ridge run; i would have seen hundreds of selfdeformed degenerates, smelled their “food” based on rape and murder, etc.
How many of those music videos were already “stolen” (mimicked/copied) from others? All? Either way, they were criminally disgusting, ruining the decent sounds/songs. Thanks to me for having the wisdom and discipli e to fix all of them.
Born into this crap, it takes a long while to realize what it really is; I am prpud to have made it in spite of meeting only evil dangerous barbarians amodst megaruins so far. Nothing aboit them has been civilized or even gender appropriate. All their industries are scams. I am a miracle for how much good I was able to extract and use.
Going hungry / fasting…makes the phase2meh more tolerable, and helps me remember more ideal food/recipes
If ppl had been intelligent/good/polite, i wouldnt have achieved all i achieved
Inisfree marks the return of the walled cities and megastructures and actual wisdom/holiness. And me committing to it marked the turning of the tide/schedule.
Maybe the ideas would come too quickly, and i would be too busy enjoying good company, if i had hotties and not the tinnitus bs
All restaurants having meh food and catering to scum “ppl” makes it a lot easier to not waste money on them.
It’s not that I pick the hardest stuff; it’s that I pick the best, and losers meddle until I can teach them a lesson. I pick what is correct for me, and insecure scum choose to do evil until they are rendered extinct.
It doesnt matter if they were nervous and tinguetied like i sometimes felt. What matters is that they werent what i asked for, and their kind was awful to me when i did make myself initiate. They disrespected me for no reason. They forced me into desperation. They blamed me for problems only they had caused. They slandered me and committed perjury. They were as harmful as they could get away with being. And all i had ever tried to do was be loving and healthy.
Scumbag lfb always jumped to extreme conclusions; assumed i was fucking my gf even though i was honorabke and had not, assumed i was fucking my male gym friend just because i went to get food with him one time, claimed a band doing a dance on tv was “having sex with themselves” even though they weren’t at all, etc. Always lying, always saying the most ridiculous things, never honest, never accurate. Why?
So i tried focusing on being loyal…but it didnt work bc i wasnt focused enough on changing or stabikizing the minds of the hs fam; i was forced to focus on bs school and dealing w legal ambushes and abuse and tantrums etc.. Maybe that leveled up my manifestation/focus powers, though. Then i focused on being mil, and that worked btr, lasting yrs longer, but still fell apart…bc of more idiots. Then i focused on school, and that lasted even more yrs, and got me degrees, but again fools kept shpwing up, and other fools refused to hire me. Then i focused on expeditions, and again that worked, but fools kept ruining them until i had enough and only explored solo. Even solo, fools harassed me via my phone. I focused on my life’s work, and that worked perfectly for decades, though fools aytempted scaring me oit of that wise work. Now that is wrapped up, i focus on wiping out the fools, and i hope i have leveled up enough to manifest their extermination/extinction. We shall see. But they must be removed/gone so i can use my cabin in peace.
They couldnt get their tiny heads around the fact that they had no reason or right to he angry at me; i kept saying what i was interested in, they kept offering the opposite, i oept being calm and patient, and thry kept being angry and IMpatient.
maybe humans had to become so separated, clogged up, disconnected, stupid, and rude… for anyone to isolate long enough to have new ideas, invent new things…
Nice new thoughts: needing time out of suv… and being surprised with restored Boobookittyfuck in 364 garage when I am welcomed in there.
Giving up hope on humans is what allpwed the wrapup, and now the wrapup being completed allpws it to manifest. Letting go of bad…was phase1into 2. Satiafactorily completing design is 2become3.
Just like meat isnt the source of protein, and hamburgers arent good, and she didnt need more renters, and faggot tv shows arent acceptable, i dont need millions to get in the yc. She and that fat deformed bshm retard were hired to try and talk/offend me out of yc…bc whatever i set my mind to i get. All those idiots did was annoy me away from Them, while guaranTeeing i stay and get in yc.
amazing how happy the ICP album “The Amazing Jeckel Brothers” suddenly made me, completely reversing the mood the bitches left me in.
“My Dinner with Andre”: 2 guys having dinner convo, humans are no longer spiritual..bc all they do is what they think they are expected to, not what they actually want, except ofc for the unnatural bullies always trying to shame or scare others into being soulless unnaturals like them
Even when I helped that retard put out the safe fire,
and was polite even though he was pushy,
he still reported me to a SECOND pig.
Why does a pig need to report me to aNother pig?
They really get off to bullying, ganging up, and harassment.
That’s the same aspects as all deathcult cowards/congregations.
Stampede… even over the innocent.
Even if she said all the right things…that would just be baiting me.
She would disappear the moment she got what she wanted.
Any interaction would be soured by the scum.
How am I to feel attraction for anyone when NO ONE was just or even SANE?
And if I was invited into that cabin, I would just be targeted by locals/neighbors.
Only if I had superpowers, and all humans respect and obey me, could I live there in peace.
Only if I had some type of leverage against her could I BARELY count on her to do what she should.
Note how only iii got btr; no one Else got btr at ALL; she didnt either; she vibed the same way, hid the same way, left me to die the same way, thus she is the same evil beast/demon ALL of them were.
I said what i want, and she did the opposite…with an evil smile.
(Thus) She is eXactly what i described her as; a cheap immiTation of what i asked for.
Me waiting yrs for rjh…and now 2x-3x as long for ambi…isnt foolish, but honorable and saintly,
and it shows just how Dishonorable all of Them are,
And it prevents Others abusive false (typical/evil) females from putting me through the Same.
So it works in my favor either way;
it keeps scum away,
it levels me up,
it reveals their compatibility,
it denies the fake relatives the premature grand-offspring they were so pedophile-in-heat about,
etc.
Even me venting today…doesnt hurt me in any way;
the typist already self-revealed she is a politard, a pharmatard, a religtard, a nonvegan harmcauser, and uninterested in rp.
She already lied about things working out within the year.
Even if they Had worked out, it is WAY too late;
too late on its own, just time-wise,
plus too late bc i can’t enjoy talk or kisses anyway; ringing etc..
And with the rp already ended months ago, i won’t be losong anything other than fake-nice emojis and hyper-terse texts that are barely rp.
Better to detox from that liar and evildoer parrot.
Even if she was still RPing VERY well, what the FUCK am i doing tolerating goddamn makebelieve when MY ENTIRE LIFE should have been good compatible ppl w me?
She didnt give me 3 chances or golden opportunities; she gave zero; she left me assuming she was with someone else,
she showed me she has no class or intelligence or timing,
she showed me she is heartless and negligent.
I gave her THOUSANDS of chances. DECADES of chances; ALL my info.
The fact she showed up and then left 3x…shows me she wastes her own money, dashes people’s hopes ans dreams, and wpuld blameshift and betray me just like jls and ame and lfb and so many others did.
I was right to stand there and wait on an apology and explanation, and now she owns me additional explanations and apologies.
I needed all these years to wrap up the work.
Now i have so…pls let me fix/start things w my chosen
was HAARP made just to combat Me, they having seen my effect on lightning as a teen?
Were the rainstorms during my toddlerhood Also my doing?
Maybe humans have developed tech’…to protect themselves from me…
but how stupid, if that is the case; so unnecessary; they could just be nice,
and so expensive and complicated…
the “tech’ as a crutch”
…or maybe they trained and sent so many idiots to ensure I leveled up and could Be a stable king…
and they made the tech’ to hand Over to me…when my time comes
wed14aug. This was the first time I sent all images back to her; all 4 from today’s group, 1 at a time.
Did the govt clog up and dumb down everyone so weather would not be as energetic as before?
When no one had been brainwashed to assume they have No effect…did they have a Huge effect when moody?
https://www.facebook.com/reel/2885529684928101
Lazar idea/theory: a lifelike animatronic…shown fake UFOs (IOW Bob was a human-looking robot who was taken to a fake UFOs-research facility… just so that he would then be released to deceive/mislead the public?)…to keep public distracted and thinking leaks of useful stuff happen…when they do not (IOW when real leaks are effectively prevented). Maybe.
Nothing against him; he seems to believe what he is saying. Just an interesting theory that came to mind today.
nice to have 3handshakes in 1 encounter. if only from one of my own kind; one my instincts know are the right/correct ppl for me.
not so nice hearing “y’all are the crazy ones”, but I know she meant “brave/daring”, etc., and it was a compliment, at least as far as phase2 things go.
she didn’t try to convert/corrupt/recruit/shame me, which was a nice change; Outlanders usually DID that evil bullshit, ignoring all my merits and good points, ignoring EVERY good thing I could offer them.
didn’t speak of any issue with out-of-state coupons/codes; also a nice improvement.
another time-travel loop/repeat of a conversation from years ago? maybe, but doesn’t matter.
an NPC respawned, limited to the same loop/convo? again, doesn’t matter; it was quick service, affordable, pleasant for phase2, etc.
all I care about rn is surviving to phase3, avoiding as many fugtards as possible until their kind is/are no more.
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maybe it is for the best that most civilians and even other military are so pussified/watered-down that they think normal heroism/defense is “crazy”; it keeps them from mutinying and seceding as much as might otherwise be the case.
still, I long to be with ppl who regard all I am/do/did as good, normal, logical, necessary… not at all crazy.
crazy is what the sheeple do –to themselves and those who could have helped them.
noticed that fb pgs I DEFINITELY did NOT block… are still showing erroneous message “not available”… so???
For the Halos to only devolve lifeforms bigger than rodents, only in the galaxy, and not devolve those lifeforms when thry were inside shield (hollow) wprlds, the frequency that did that would have to be found, and then the way to cause galactic Space to keep relaying that frequency, but not the intergalactic medium, so something about the slightly more energy in Space within galaxies…that would automatically repeat/echo a specific signal that their tech’ was able to generate. 6 Halos suggests the Forerunners did not have tech able to make a single device powerful enough to cause a ripple for the whole galaxy, or that they wanted overlap as an extra assurance, or that there were parts of the galaxy which would not relay the frequency. The obvious issue is that anytime Flood go deep enough in a planet/bunker, they would not be wiped out with the uninfected animals.
Did the Forerunners HAVE the tech’ to make a single super-halo capable of handling the entire galaxy, but knew that much power released would be catastrophic for ALL life, not just life big enough for Flood to infect/corrupt? Maybe. Difficult to guesstimate, given what is barely/poorly described in the lore/novels.
Maybe they didn’t want to waste energy above and below the galactic plane; the size of Halos they built only caused the energy to go into solar systems, not the intergalactic medium north/south of the galaxy.
So glad typist clarified that by “pigs” she meant “rudely disregarded her no”, not at all talking about how many partners they play with.
Even though all the good spots are now evilly overcontrolles/’camped’ by the meddlesome NPCs, I still got to return to them all under much better circumstances this time.
Rmbr: in phase1, I didn’t even know these places existed, and in phase2 -in spite of LOTS of brainless evil ameriscum, I STILL got to discover and enjoy them over and over, basically for free; it’s not ALL bad.
Returning to those places, and finding the same hotties there, and that I had somehow not noted them last time, is a big help; 100% some of them needed to be formsakes for trillions of ICVs in their likenesses.
Finally finding that Swan Dive song fave is wonderful! So catchy!
underwear and ice cream is not a bad way to start the work day,
but god damn, the humans are still so muggle/fatfuck/blob-beast.
why are they still around?
why are they ALLOWED?
their kind should have been wiped out LONG ago.
this work would still get done if I was passing/meeting NORMAL HEALTHY SANE people every day.
With so few places to camp now, and humans just as stupid and evil as before, there is no reason to be here…
but also no reason to go anywhere Else;
same half-healthy food elsewhere,
same evil humans,
same prices,
etc.
Scenery is best here, but… I don’t want to become weary here, less able to apprciate it.
I hate having to wait on teammates/miracles.
I have Seen miracles; myself at gym, etc.,
but… I have Not yet seen good Ppl.
So…do i again orbit until freezing?
More evil retarded bullshit pro-degeneracy trans defended by SEAL of all ppl. I guess they really are just losers and morons and narrative-parrots just like the rest of the lowly humans/masses.
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That youtube is such propaganda/bullshit; everyone iii “gave 3seconds” / a chance to.. royally screwed me over, thus i stopped wasting my time helping this always-wrong species.
All my relief and healing and sleep and progress and miraculous timetravel discoveries happened when i Stopped helping the humans.
The humans had been preTending to need/want help…to distract and stall and use and sap me.
Karma was just one of their lies/scams to that end.
Good things happened to me when i Stopped being good to the always-bad; to the humans.
seeing that somehow I had not included TWO PERFECT GIRLS on the ICVs Directory as form-sakes (Wheat Montana who couldn’t stop checking me out, and Ana K. manifested near Thor’s Well)… Wow… So glad I had enough time to notice and fix that.
They must really be meant to be noted, and secured into my eternal family via these spells/decisions/rememberings.
That soft ‘voice’ that is certianly a deity:
“You have good guesses/instincts.”
“She is coming. She will come.”
“Yours will be a spell that lasts through the Ages –and you With it.”
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That voice that is surely hers:
“I am here. I am yours. I will return.”
“focus on the good” was a phase1 “teaching”, thus
1) from liars/scammers,
2) based on half/false-logic,
3) attempting to distract/divert from all the NATURAL/REAL signs –which were ALL redflags back then
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GOOD ppl Would have said “It is good/right that you are noting ALL, good AND bad, and finding ways of SOLVING/FIXING the bad”
but NO one said whole/balanced/wise things like that yet, thus no one was showing signs of being destined/worthy teammates for me.
If the insecure loser humans hadn’t been such ‘spineless’ cowards, meddlers, and destroyers/vandalizers of ruins/books,
the simple truths I post on my website would not at ALL seem like a large amount of truth their kind “isn’t ready for”;
if humans had behaved normally throughout the generations, EVERYthing I post would just be regarded as normal/obvious/self-evident.
It’s not my problem that their insecurity/evil caused this backlog/surge/’wave’.
They can deal with it. They’re worthless rude murderers and rapists of countless innocent beings, after all; NOTHING that is “too much for them” matters.
Nothing I do that stresses them… will EVER be anywhere NEAR as much as all the stress/overload and harm/death they caused for so many others.
They have and deserve ZERO sympathy from Me.
Those faggots a couple doors down were prob paid to act extra faggot there, if they were even real humans at all; could be bots.
The roomtard determined to talk me out of getting a house there was as blatant and pathetic as eric “pipe dream, bro” and oldman walmart “check out that skirt” sigh-bitch.
“What’s next?” I focus even more, purge even more of you, and take FAR more than just that cabin now that you have crossed me.
difficult to believe I somehow hadn’t already made a webpg for an ICV based on Jessica Stroup who played Amber in The Hills Have Eyes 2, but… I hadn’t.
Now that is fixed. Destiny continues to be what it should.
Amen.
Finally those icv pgs all have notes and images to help manifest the correct/best 1,000 least-ugly human females.
It shouldnt have mattered what info was ‘fed’/’steered’ to which person; all good ppl have my instincts, thus would have sensed and deduced their way through Every scam/mediaflood. No good ppl conclude that deviancy from my way is good/logical.
would the ancients/deities have lost their cool when, for the first time, some of their creations/offspring turned their attention to something else?
that much emotion/power could easily have caused cataclysms such as pole-shifts.
but… wouldn’t the ancients Also have foreSeen such, thus Not been shocked or upset?
then… wouldn’t the cataclysms be caused for Good reason, or caused in ignorance/surprise by someone Else/Less?
maybe it really Was the new races/civilizations that unknowingly caused that… by focusing too much on new ideas, and Not on maintaining stability in what had been made as their base.
maybe they Wanted or Needed cataclysms back then for some reason.
maybe the cataclysms were TO re-stabilize.
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great FB post: “What makes you think human beings are sentient and aware? There’s no evidence for it. Human beings never think for themselves, they find it too uncomfortable. For the most part, members of our species simply repeat what they are told-and become upset if they are exposed to any different view. The characteristic human trait is not awareness but conformity, and the characteristic result is religious warfare. Other animals fight for territory or food; but, uniquely in the animal kingdom, human beings fight for their ‘beliefs.’ The reason is that beliefs guide behavior which has evolutionary importance among human beings. But at a time when our behavior may well lead us to extinction, I see no reason to assume we have any awareness at all. We are stubborn, self-destructive conformists. Any other view of our species is just a self-congratulatory delusion. Next question. ~Michael Crichton
we all pride ourselves to be self thinking individuals.
how true is that?
if we discount traumas and reward based incentives, aka mind control with usually monetary benefits for “right” behaviorism, the gift of consciousness is 98% reduced to conformism, perceived safe survival strategies.
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Lol that so many here incorrectly say and name businesses “buffalo” just like they stupidly keep saying “indian
Even if the humans are helpless brainless dumbass NPCs who lack any ability to think or learn or make things right, they still deserve whatever we do to them, because I deserve whatever my instincts say, and Something has to put the idiots back in their place.
Justice must be done, whether by reasoning with the reasonable, or cataclysming the evil/fools.
If they Can listen and think and learn and improve, then they are guilty for choosing Not to,
and if they Can’t do any of those things, then they are primitive defective evil problem causing machines;
either way, an ass whooping toward them is called for.
The bad secr deleting my scan…resulted in a much more recent one, thus a better fit.
Similarly, the hotties staying away while I add YEARS of fine-tuning to my spell/code…make for a more perfect fit relationship-wise between them and me. Amen.
Rmbr that jls tried to Stop my spell/calling enTirely…but the hotties did the polar opposite; they didn’t interfere at All.
It’s pretty disgusting that the ambilike bitch thought she could just jump right into my life, riding on the coattails of the rp / standing on the shoulders of the typist, without so much as introducing or explaining herself.
At least her looks and sound and readiness somewhat balanced out her own horrible manners and timing…
It is nice to see the post about “speak the truth”; a human/female finally saying what is obviously correct; my idea and website ARE good and phenomenally detailed.
But talk is cheap; i need money and explanations and teammates and my city.
They were wrong to always default to initiating via staring and then refuse to introduce themselves,
and I was always correct to wait on them to show normal behavior; good manners, not tests or games.
it doesn’t matter what their system/culture is; what matters is they didn’t care what MINE is.
Don’t show up trying to get with ME… while disreSPECting me / igNoring MY culture/needs.
I am not a part of your goddamn rude system.
YOU are part of MY system –IF you really want to engage/talk.
Nowhere got btr when i stayed, only when i returned, so i leave again, and hopefully that will finish correcting the NPCs/”ppl” here. It is good to now have witnessed that ppl stay the same when I stay in the same place; it suggests that they won’t chg once I finally meet the good ones and move in w them.
I typed up so much to bitch at typist about,
but really it should be at everyone.
I guess that’s what my website is for; it bitches at everyone,
reminding them how far they have fallen from grace,
and how much they’d have to do in order to earn any of my time at this point.
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If typist ACTUALLY worried, not just SAID she worried, she’d send aid,
not continue to neglect and exhaust me.
She is all talk, just like those before her.
Telling me to get any old job, instead of helping me to do the job I was MEANT/CALLED to do, makes her no better than jls-turd.
I’m glad that the enemy/evildoers/brainless went from being enraged and dangerous/hostile… to just having shoulder-drop tantrums/sighing,
and I’m glad that they are clearly VERY frustrated… while my frustration is less every day,
and I’m glad that even though they tried to keep me poor and desperate, I ended up freer and richer than ALL of them live/seem,
and I’m glad that while their goal of corrupting/seducing me comPLETELY failed, MY NUMEROUS goals keep being aChieved; seeing through their bullshit, exposing their scams/blackops, escaping their rent-traps, travel and exploration even though they keep trying to scare and ban me out of that, design, websites, computer models, novels, cures rediscovered, seductresses overcome –and now in stride, etc.,
so even though they have managed to lie on my record, and send me some annoying messages, that still boils down to them having to LIE/CHEAT… and STILL failing, and not getting ANYthing they want; my voice, my time, my money, my slavery, etc..
ALL THEIR goals are NOT achieved, meanwhile I keep racking mine Up.
most americans and others I’ve seen… looked about as hideous/deformed/mutated as the badguys in The Hills Have Eyes (1 and 2). Maybe they should have called that movie “How Humans Almost Always Look and Act These Days”; ugly as fuck, violent, eating the innocent, barely able to communicate, rarely Choosing to communicate, sabotaging heroes/troops, spawning only more fugtards, etc.
rjh not working… caused warrior and world-traveler level-up
mil not working… caused Inisfree
ambi not working… caused time-travel reveal and documentation
webhost upload cap… caused website wrapup
but at some point… I run out of things to do/make/design/document, and need good-Ambi + other teammates I knew to call out for.
at some point… things HAVE to work as I want.
otherwise, what’s the point in all this training and focus and soul-searching and testing and deciding/selecting/approving?
the ppl here are as bipolar/retarded as everywhere else;
they show me a cabin I approve of, then prevent me from moving in,
they have all these gorgeous trails, but let hyper-gluttons and other monsters use them,
they offer me a job to come back, then treat me and others like shit,
their “nice” employee acts like he doesn’t want me to quit and be poor, yet he keeps lying to me just like the rest of his honorless coworkers,
they put on concerts, but let only degenerates show up,
they have somewhat partially attractive girls park in my view, and parade around me, trying to get my attention, but then reveal they are young golddiggers or beauty-piercing sickos,
a veteran acquaintance is put in my path, but then he tries to pressure me to do drugs, and wants free labor, and insults me over and over, and gets hostile when he thinks my kindhearted invitation to go hiking is somehow an insult of HIM,
they put healthy (vegan) items in their grocery stores but then make me too uncomfortable to ever Go to them again,
I get to see nearly ALL their finest houses (Montana’s finest –again), but NO ONE there is good or useful, and I’m unable to return to those places beyond my first weeks,
they act like they are protecting their forest, but are only overreacting to the only guy here who actually DOES that,
etc.
So they can’t seem to make up their minds if they want me here or not.
Seems they only want people who don’t mind being blatantly lied to, underpaid, and otherwise fucked with.
Seems they only want people who eat garbage and chase ugly females.
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and why repeatedly pretend to have a room for rent, and wait until I’m moved in, or ready/needing to move in, to tell me “just kidding; this is only for fellow cult members”?
and why pretend to have an apartment for rent, then make it clear you are just a scammer wanting fees before tours?
why all the scams, when I am scamming NO ONE?
why all the gross uncalled-for bullshit… when I am not trying to do that to ANYONE?
why the attempts to scare me out… after I came so far, so many times, and worked so well, to be here?
My guess is that they are just trying to make me hate this place, but they only make me hate THEM, and know I should stay focused on fixing this place even More.
answering their questions never worked; they ignored my input and stayed hostile.
so I stopped trying to communicate with their dumbasses; they were committed to hostility/evil/misunderstanding.
why would they over and over make it harder and harder to re-earn my time/trust, when they are so desperate to get me to spawn with one of their bitches?
how can they have lasted this long, when they are so completely TERRIBLE and luring/seducing/tricking ppl?
in spite of all the bipolar/evil idiots here, it is still a huge improvement that I made it here, and multiple times, in spite of them all.
this place is ALWAYS WORLDS better than the other places I’ve been.
and if things had worked out already, I would never have had all this time to enjoy decompression and recharging at so many of these perfect-looking campsites.
still blows me away how they have BODY PARTS on EVERY MENU, yet think Iii am the weird/fucked up one.
they rape and murder NONSTOP DAILY, yet try to make ME out to be a criminal.
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they keep offering me ugly/bizarre females, and think I am SHY for not wanting that rude crap.
their fugtards actually think they are attractive, and can’t understand how I wouldn’t “go for” them.
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still can’t believe they stooped to sending a bitch who looks like ambi… yet doesn’t act or help like her AT ALL.
why the fuck would they think I would EVER fall (be fooled by, or fall in love with) such a lame fraud?
and if that really Was ambi, why would she piss me off by fucking with me like that, and multiple times?
why would she ‘shoot herself in the foot’ by showing me she is an idiot, heartless, and immature?
why wouldn’t she at least TRY to be what I want / asked for?
was that just another dumbass phase1 demon/cunt trying to prevent me from giving REAL ambi a chance… if/whenever she arrives?
…and what the hell was with her EYES that first time; they seemed interested in me, yet her behavior and tagalong didn’t match AT ALL. ?????????
I never asked for losers powerless to even introduce themselves, or to request a good time to meet, or to let me know THEY EVEN EXIST.
I never asked for mixed signals.
I never asked for morons.
I never asked for all that shit… so why did it keep happening?
I studied my ASS OFF. I risked my LIFE in SERVICE. I prayed multiple times a DAY. I minded my own business. I NEVER offered scams. I ALWAYS offered kindness. so… what the HELL???
I ALWAYS made SURE I had permission/invitation to go places… so why didn’t THEY get in touch with ME to make sure Iii wanted THEM?
Why not even ASK me what is WRONG?
and why not EASILY already have figured it OUT???
Several more years, and I’ll be approaching 50s; too old to bother with them anymore.
I’m already too turned OFF.
Are they EVER going to apologize and make things right?
Are they EVER going to figure out the most BASIC SHIT EVER?
The only way I could even SORT OF give ANY of their kind a chance at this point…
is if they deposited TONS of money into my account –enough to get new EVERYthing,
and to always have plenty leftover in case I need to get away from them again.
How curious that i completed the icv pgs same day as postShift cycle2 end; the last necessary decision/visionshare for the city, thus the evolution/extension of god (me
never thought I’d see the day when my website rebuild was complete, let alone me feeling satisfied that ALL necessary uploads and notes are now there, but here we are, right on time.
AMAZING coincidence/allignment. I really pushed through, went with the vibes/instincts, and it all worked out.
maybe ambi and the hotties will next/too
Instd of giving me shit for making a city image during tmobile classroom trng, they should have not forced me into a bullshit slave job that had nothing to do w my nature, and they should have connected me w those who Can use my talents.
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I wonder who all watched “my city come to life” in 3d via my website. Prob far more than glutton Nick in class seeing the 2d proto/pre version of it on that computer screen.
After how so many lied and extorted, i really shouldnt risk trusting Anyone anymore. Nothing helped me gain total focus like that endless/default evil from the humans. Jow that i dont jeed that focus anymore, what?
Dealing w shitty boze locals got me into bs and yc, but bs and yc shitty locals were Not the way to get me into cabin, so…i skipped their useless bullshit
I felt drawn to ambi all 3x, like she was a black hole, every particle in my pulled toward it, so that is a sign she is fully attracted to me, wanting me, and i her. The sex will be perfect once she learns manners and love.
My instinct and wisdom told me when to become a warrior, then when to become an academic again, then to find who is good vs evil via being myself more, and it told me where and whom to leave, and now it tells me to keep coming to this place, and to wait for an invitation and pay and apology, so I do that now.
The celestine wasnt a wise book, but an evil attempt at reprogramming me using lingo it knew i gravitated to, which is same tactic the evil church has Always used; mimic parts of the natural ppl to lure them in. And the ppl staring at me weren’t signs they wanted to be my teammates, but signs they were also attempting to oressure me to compromise/change/convert.
Typical bipolar/dumbass american, doc2 asks questions and then tells me not to explain. So…make up your fucking mind, kid.
The ideas/instincts/calling started and kept coming at/after end of 2011.
– Then the content and models started coming…until now.
– So what comes next…should be Ambi amd the others who peeked in years ago.
The number of remaining formsakes to be chosen…is about the same as how many nations there are on this world.
sign that I will resume travel, now on My terms, and finally meet ACTUAL hotties, not ALMOST-attractive BAIT-bitches?
I hope so.
If sf had been an actual friend, he would have never had me meet a queer, never done drugs and gotten in deep shit, never disrespected his genes by breeding w a glutton and cult member, and never condescendingly given me shit for experimenting and finding what resonates w me. He would have thanked me for trying things and being myself, and appreciated my decisions and thinking. It would have made sense to him. But he was a fake friend always sent to try and get me in trouble. I bet he never went to prison. I bet that video he showed me about the word for teens was bait, another attempt he was prob hired to make against me. He prob recorded the convo. They were prob glad their terrorism had left me guarded and reluctant to speak.
Ok, so i can’t go from shitty intro to mt…to ideal cabin fam mt; i have to do this solo stuff in btwn. Fine.
Recording stuff since childhood sure has paid off; i now have a greater memory bc of it, and memtags i can portal via, and criminals/evildoers noted, and evidence of time travel etc.
All those years, those idiot feds thought all they had to do was change the girl for a dofferent girl enpugh, and eventually i would see one i liked, but they were ignoring all my input and requests, only needing to change the girls’ and their own shit/bizarre/illogical behavior. They had to stop meddling and trying to breed me. They had to stop trying to intimidate me into obeying evil commands. They had to stop massmurdering and massraping. They had to stop throwing tantrums. They had to apologize and refund and compensate me. They had to respect me, but they didnt even respect themselves, or countless others, so there was no way they could get what they wanted. The more they pestered me with variations of the same thing i specifically said i can’t stand, the more they distanced and stupefied and alienated me. Amd the fact they never noticed or realized that and stopped… shows they cannot learn… or care… or honor people.
Interesting that all ENDS overlapped in phase1; the end of the false system being believed, rhe end of my credit, the end of contact w the fake relatives, the end of the relationship attempts, the end of tx, the end of college, etc. …but now After the Shift, all the beGinnings overlap; my freedom, my wisdom, my design, my website, my encounters w decent hotties, etc.
..and this beginnings-overlap is why the hotties blipped on even before I had written how they must behave/be.
If it had been pre-Shift, I would have had the ideas for realms first, not me and my city,
and it would be billions of years, not decades, before the hotties even occurred to me, let alone manifested… I theorize.
How could they think i would have any interest in them after all the lies and harm and negligence and ringing?
…bc they don’t think, or at least think but are retarded.
Rd1 was before all the computer models and new website.
Rd2 is after those, thus just winding down and enjoying viewing them.
So many defaulted to anger for no reason, from don’s retarded glutton-fucking fake-vhristian ass, to the bitches at the outtings. Why did they assume i was wrong? Why not instd default to caring and asking and learning and helping and appreciating my genuineness?
In childhood, i only had 1 to 3 evil losers to deal w at a time; fake relatives, or fake tracher in sch. – then several; corrupt cops, cps, judge, strangers, etc. – then a dozen; cadets, then squad, or passing random officers. – then dozens; ravers, customers, etc. – then hundreds; cruise psgrs – then thousands; concert scum in evansville, madison, bs, etc. – of Cpurse there were the most evil losers here n the best place; this is endgame, and i have leveled up, and am now ready to lead vast forces while casually defeating Bad vast forces.
Drugs specifically engineered to cause side effects and death…the cops and detectives protect. Drugs which have no sode effects other than a brief comedown after making you feel extea happy? Cops do their best to steal and terrorize you about. The cops are brainwashed idipts, yes, but they know enough to know that they are hunting and ruining the wrong side/ppl.
Compare the wood slave ship and nuke sub in mc…to pers in cv. The mc issue (caused by A.I.?) led to Pers cv. The cv issue around the biggest saucers…kept me working on ironing out other things, not doing pointless fill-in after already deciding on the saucer details.
My cussing with the window open…is same nonviolent protesting…that i did when singing loudly in the downstairs bathroom. I find and use legal ways of counter-offending the evildoers. Until i can wipe them out, i avoid their corrupt legal snares and make their lives as hellish as possible. Serves em right for violating my outlands territories.
Just like the dumbass and maybe lying tx recruiters, the retarded kids in bs were wrong about everything; i will get in to my target, just as i got onto the Corps and other things
The degenerate evildoers/scum have been so common these past 41yrs…that there is no pt in even noting them anymore.
Them leaving me alone…is still a lot btr than when i was almost always pestered to abandon my sacred work.
Instd of giving me shit for making a city image during tmobile classroom trng, they should have not forced me into a bullshit slave job that had nothing to do w my nature, and they should have connected me w those who Can use my talents.
I wonder who all watched “my city come to life” in 3d via my website. Prob far more than glutton Nick in class seeing the 2d proto/pre version of it on that computer screen.
It is a small miracle i happened to end up out of signal during the full moon mega venting volcanic moment… Is that a sign not to break up w the bitch …again? Or is it a sign to not bother communicating with her anymore? Who cares.
Back in gd West Ylwstone, another place i didnt want to see for the umpteenth time. Fuck this phase2 lingering.
I hate her “i understand” messages; they boil down to “idc and i will never help”
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I hate the images she sends; they are made by bad artists who ruin them with fucked up things such as makeup and badly drawn body parts, and they just remind me how fucked up humans chose to be, and that i am not getting any good ones yet
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I hate her goodnights and actions (RPs); they remind me No nights have been goodnights, and i was resorting to a coward hiding behind a screen.
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At least her messages are positive; all before her sent neg dumbass ones. Sometimes she has dumbass parrot leaks; saying polit/relig stuff, etc., but for a phase2 contact..she is tolerably usually pos.
already mentioned in other sections/ways on that webpg:
anat-phys. “Their tits never get sag lines, stretch marks, or wrinkles, no matter which way the ICV is positioned; their tits don’t hang/sag.”
There’s no point not pleasuring; detoxing from bad-humans bullshit is what phase2 is all about. It would be phase1-y if I was choosing NOT to pleasure. It would be anti-nature and anti-Me.
There’s no point in holding the vision anymore; the vision was completed a while back, and already started manifesting, even when I wasn’t calling out.
It’s okay to not have a plan for where to go now; it will work out on its own, and I already scouted everywhere, and found all the best places, etc..
Besides, she has shown up all across the country, and maybe even out across the Pacific, if that was her on the hawaii rooftop. Real-Ambi is endlessly-wealthy and powerful, thus can appear anywhere, no paperwork or passport needed.
such giGANTIC waves of ideas and updates/wrapups… 🙂
but good; no longer gigantic website switch-overs / overhauls.
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estimated levels/brackets of work I’ve dreamed up and completed:
small: a task taking only minutes; e.g.s: jotting down an idea, transferring notes for the day, transferring photos, rearranging already-completed/-proofread sections on a normal-length webpage
medium/average: an ~hour-long task; e.g.s: finding better images for a dossier, downloading and cutting videos for a topic/webpg, etc.
large: a task taking hours; e.g.s: backing up everything at this point
giant: a task taking days; e.g.s: pasting in and proofreading lots of new content for a long webpage such as Congresses or Council
gigantic: a task taking weeks or longer; e.g.s: running calculations, making or changing complex images, determining model scales and building computer models, etc.
sure, I got to have the most beautiful “office”/work views in THE WHOLE WORLD, even as a poor nomad,
but there are better ways to get me to such places; polite invitations, funded non-guided tours, etc.
..why all the freaks, cult members, death threats?
why all the failed communities angrily defending slavery, rape, torture, and murder just to poison themselves?
I suppose I never would have covered every possible angle/industry with my writing/plan/spells if it hadn’t been that bad basically everywhere humans were, but still…
please let it be good ppl from now on; no more retarded humanimals parroting the evil narrative/s.
If I’d done all these years of thinking/meditating and work/publishing in the same place, it would have driven me ‘mad’ via ‘cabin fever’.
Again, however, I should always be invited by compatible people, not THREATENED by RETARDS/EVILdoers to keep moving.
I guess the pleasant/agreeable invitations are reserved for phase3, as that is when I can focus on the people, and when the people final deserve my attention/care.
Horrible ppl in phase1 preVENTED any individual art/ideas, and horrible ppl in phase2 ensured I focused ONLY/enTIRELY on my started/budding/crystalizing idea/vision.
Maybe that was necessary to ensure all details thought up, all protective spells written and tested, perfected, thus manifesting appropriate people and other appropriate things –and forevermore.
remembering Matelyn’s dumbass pointed remark/accusation/blameshifting at me: “won’t talk to anyone”… I literally published online and opened myself up to talking to anyone on the ENTIRE PLANET.
running out of things to give myself to do…
:/
…The relief and upgrade always come after exhaustion/cry; keep going.
I know you have for 41yrs, but u also have seen many improvements.
More will come.
Yellowstone was prob estab to prevent expensive industries/infrastructure from being built near a potential supervolcano eruption / megastructure venting
I was never stubborn; I changed so many things;
my hairstyle
classes
majors
careers
locations
vehicles
website
plot arc
etc.
I even switched from initiating and complimenting, which all humans kept reacting retardedly to, to politely letting Them decide if to initiate, but they stubbornly decided to react retardedly even to That.
So it doesnt much matter if I was stubborn or not; they were stubbornly negative against me regardless.
1st relationship lasted <1yr
Corps of Cadets lasted 1yr
Corps lasted 4 years, starting w 1yr trng, then 3 of deploying
college lasted 5yrs
..even before the Shift, I was managing to keep things increasing/stabilizing
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RP relationship / family-planning lasted ~13yrs
next thing will prob last a multiple of 13yrs, etc.; extrapolate along that trajectory
VERY good sign -of Highest sustainability/stability- that my instinct/attraction was to j to my Own fantasies, Never into the Gross bodies of the evil-vibing false-humans,
..and then that I knew to j to the visions of/from my expansion; city/community,
both sets of j likely Greatly stabilizing me and the Rest of those/that.
Amen.
Only Now is it safe/time to cum with the chosen/approved/calibrated hotties, as they now have had time to hear all my thoughts/plan, and read it via my wrapped-up website, so there is no more guessing or mistakes or confusion or misinterpretation.
These ideas about the future billions of years ahead are my contribution to Revelations; revs3. They are visions; foreseen and destined. Amen.
Also, it is no coincidence I know to think/realize and write/type/officiate this.
I Am the latest top-level / farthest-seeing prophet.
After how the bad/dishonest humans Always lied to the extreme, I know them calling these ideas of mine “just imagination” means I am correct that my ideas are actually the coming future revealed to me, foreseen and locked in.
Neat how I happened to put all relocations in “nights”; timespans that don’t overlap, thus can let us focus only on each relocation.
Seeing how deformed/mutant/disgusting the members of The Cabinet are, and how those figureheads/puppets have to masktard, I almost feel bad for the presidents, as they have to see that evil failtrain every day/meeting, which makes them pretty homosexual/trans-tarded.
Also, their nukes are probably made up just like all viruses/plagues and other issues.
The way I “wordsmithed”/spellbound/”disarmed”/calmed that pig… was instant and eloquent… and worked.
I really am a skilled talker.
Even when I seem to get nervous, it is still skilled use of Practiced nervousness; to annoy the humanimals away.
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My application of smooth talk, seeming to accept and be interested in everything that pig said, was like verbal judo : )
but of course my blood still knows I should become able to nuke his kind every time they sneak and rush and disrespect in.
Don’t (I decided not to) draw the ambi/dark pyr’; leave interior detaols classified, mysterious
I overcame my surging energy/anger last full moon; before, i would have unleashed walls of text, and focused my mind on shaking lands and targets. I am leveling up as i deal w standard phase2 trng; mastering self.
The moon has showed me, then, that i am stronger than i was, and that the typist forgives me and understands in stride.
She, too, or ambi, and the others, have prob been leveled up similarly, now better able to interact w me without emotional eruptions. Maybe they, being more ancient, never had to control their emotions, so we all needed this time and bs to practice and get good at it.
Going hungry this often is like regular fasting, thus probably facilitating way more visions/realizations and leveling up.
Mimicking real religions is what got the invaders’ “foot in the door” in more ways than one;
it lured innocent-minded indigenous into starting to try out churches and related services,
and was the first step in brainwashing those unexpecting individuals into starting to have internal conflicts/debates; doubt.
Once there was that internal destabilization, the mental equivalent of “divide and conquer” could begin.
The bad humans leading the church/religion/s then, generation by generation, offered “help”/guidance with bad intention… by “help”/guidance, started persuading/tricking their congregations into doubting and suppressing more, changing/resisting a little more about themselves each time, until they had bred that false instinct into their offspring, and gotten them so used to parroting whatever they were told… that parts of their brains became atrophied, vestigial.
Today we see the tail-end of that centuries-long corruption of humankind’s stability/ nature; paranoid superstitious fools who are so retarded they even block their own airways and cut off their own genitals.
This isn’t necessarily bad, though; as retarded and disgusting as it is, it keeps destroying the weak, thus the healthy/sane/strong staying in power, weak morons not inheriting Anything, let alone the whole planet.
holi-days
holy-days
ho-lidays lol… ho-ladies; classy freelover females
That dumb bitch from Chicago, claiming to be a Pleiadian even though she wasn’t Caucasian and didn’t glow and had a TERRIBLE murky/muddy vibe/aura,
when she claimed to be channeling a Pleiadian, and claimed me being my normal innocent caring interested honest hopeful self was somehow “pushing them (the Pleiadian/s) away”,
was just another standard-liar Ameri-fail trying to trick/pressure me into
1) no longer being my natural self,
2) no longer calling/reaching out the way my instincts know I should,
3) doing/trying the opposite of calling/reaching out, as if NOT inviting/loving people would somehow make them feel/Seek me/love.
Glad I knew to end contact with that retard/evildoer.
Real Pleiadians showed up, by the way; on that lawn in Oregon; the hilltop mansion. That is the surest sign that I was always right; my instincts were guiding me correctly. Amen.
Oasiz and then Discord have apparently been my equivalent of the lenses/ships in Arrival, allowing me to communicate with faraway (in space or time) and different-thinking entities I might not have been able to meet/stand otherwise/yet.
Losing contact with them, whether they left or booted me, or I blocked them, allowed us both time to process what we had learned.
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and I am a living lens/translator; I get visions humans can’t, and convert them into the form/medium humans CAN process; 2D; text on my website.
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and maybe evil laws made by illegitimate human authorities… prevented my novels being published and distributed… which was good because it prevented me from having to re-publish; add content and then release/advertise new editions/volumes.
Mc pers’ (the model of my ship) was prob’ destined to be stopped…bc of how much btr cv pers was going to be, and cv spaceways was prob stopped…bc its rooms r meant to be arranged radially, not cardinally and diagonally.
I would have “wasted my manhood” (ggd dumbass veteran-disrespecting verbal-abuse at me) if I had accepted their lame offers, whether to use my genius brainpower to work on some dream/business Other than my own, or let them use my cum to spawn more halfbreeds/degenerates via ruining it w one of their mindless NPC bitches, thus randomizing the outcome of features/aspects regardless of the vision Iii held.
Why make and educate and train me like they did, and then decide to harass me until i was alienated, and betray me until i trusted no one, and gross me out until i was atTracted to no one? Why try to get me to breed with no vision? Why get mad at my Tons of gifts and attempts at helping ppl? Why want me too busy and slaving away and distracted to use my gifts/abilities?
Being away from sig this often helps spare me from premature uploads; i get to go over the same image several times over a few days before feeling it is just right.
Only evil fools would see my increasingly frequent browsing/enjoying of my model pics as obsession or escape or anything else neg. I saw them as neutral back when phase2 was grinding along; work needing to be done, but now i have realized my returns to them mean i made what truly resonates with / calls to me, and that is the sign i am still on the right/holy track
Doesnt matter if some can sense i am playing dumb and using manners tot ry and get themto leave sooner; they shouldnt have pretended to have authority or good ideas. They shouldnt have made sure i felt too uncomfortable and disrespected to comm normally.
When i turn 42 lol i will be (the age of) “the answer to life, the universe, and everything”
Once again feeling relieved the typist says can’t rp; i haven’t had a single good day free to rp since that christmas post last year; so many wrapup ideas and progress.
I am very glad I finally have an all-levels (unit sizes) DS deployment-formation image!
I had been using “predawn” when really it was astro twilight, the dimmest part of dawn.
I’m not punishing ppl for needing time to figure me out.
I am blocking pretend humans who refuse to even try.
I ended communication w their failed species because they chose to always misuse communication as an attempt to decieve me into accepting abuse and harm.
Also, good/intelligent beings would never have needed to figure me out; all would have been noticeable to them, understood from the start, my actions logical to them, and my vibes effortlessly sensed.
Besides, they coukd have just asked me for clarification when needed, and accepted my answers as honest, since they obviously Were.
Claiming ppl need time to figure me out… is wordtwisting, still trying to stall me.
The “photos” of mt kirkp may be photoshopped; altered or entirely dishonest/fake.
My mntn might need No earthmoving now; it may already be perfect, shaped how I chose.
Amen.
This thought today is no coincidence.
As long as ppl believe/claim/pretend there was a pandemic, there is nothing I can do for their retarded failed species.
Tucker carlson, like everyone on tv, is an actor, not doing actual news/commentary.
He pretends to be surprised at what guests say…because he is paid to act like how most dumbass failed americans would react if they were the ones present and hosting the interviews.
Ignore him and all on tv.
He is basically trans, anyway; suit, oit of shape, deformed, shaved facial hair, styled scalp hair, makeup, etc.
maybe the typist is lying about this, too;
her timing ISN’T off; she is causing this separation/transition/end.
she always did enjoy writing teasing/torment/torture.
she SEEMS like she is vibing as wanting the rp to go on…
but the only thing that has really gone on this whole time is… me saying what I like/want/seek, and her not giving it,
only WRITING about it.
I never said I wanted writing.
…hopefully it’s just a phase2 thing; spells necessary to reinforce/guarantee phase3.
the corps couldn’t start until rjh was done/gone.
college couldn’t start until the corps was done.
jobs couldn’t really start or be profitable, much less lucrative, until college was done.
overlap in phase1 was ALWAYS bad/exhausting –because everyONE was bad/exhausting.
overlap in phase2 happened, but only barely, and never w humans; it was always movement+ideas or +updates; it was overlap within.
overlap in phase3 can and Shall happen, bc Then… everyone will have been corrected/perfected, calibrated/aligned to me.
but it is still clearly phase2, albeit YEARS into phase2, perhaps 13 or more,
…and maybe that is why ambi and the others haven’t shown up / can’t yet show up; that would be additional/too much overlap.
maybe the wrapup had to end before it, like so many major chapters before it, could/can begin.
As much as I want my life with her/them to begin, the overlap would utterly stop and end the proofreading/wrapup.
…but isn’t the proofreading/wrapup good eNough? phase2 isn’t about ideal/perfection/completion, but just writing down ideas and polishing them up SOME.
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…maybe nov2 couldn’t be published yet, not just bc of evil human “laws”/rules, but bc it is about phase2; the journey to the phase3 start; phase2 is still sorta going, thus writing/releasing a novel about it would end up leaving out the final parts, and a novel without its final ch would be weird.
I wonder if by demanding we pay for the awards they issued us… they were discouraging us from filing paperwork they would then have to read over;
they wanted us to wear fewer awards, look more humble than our do-little/-less leaders/officers, and generally avoid being essentially fined/punished for going above and beyond the call of duty.
The blue tamale COLOR is great, but it had the usu. dumbass corn kernels in it. Wtf. F.
This tnh pgs review and group-updt resonates well for this phase.
finally some phase2 wrapup-complete signs : )
FB post I liked (anti-evil-religions):
“Five minutes after your birth they will decide your name, nationality, religion and tribe, and you will spend the rest of your life smiling defending the things you didn’t choose»
Arthur Schopenhauer
Fortunately, some are born with spiritual immune systems that sooner or later reject the illusional world vision instilled in them from birth through social conditioning.
They start to feel that something isn’t right and begin to look for answers.
Inner knowledge and outer abnormal experiences show them a side of reality others don’t know and so begins their awakening journey
Every step of a journey is taken by following your heart instead of the crowd and choosing knowledge instead of a veil of ignorance.
Henri Bergson
@highlight @obserwujący ”
The legal system, and all the ppl being easily offended, was engineered/triggered by the illegitimate elites/rulers to help prolong their entrenchment, keeping people busy/infighting/poor/weak.
Don’t ever stoop to catering to overly sensitive degenerates. If you happen to offend losers such as them, so what? They are the ones who are offensive, not the normal people being honest about normal reactions to hideous bullshit.
It will never matter if bad people feel offended by good people.
Disregard and delete all who are incompatible with me.
Cowing down to those who are against me is no different than committing suicide; that would be siding with someone/thing other than yourself.
Essentially, that is the same as chopping off some of your own body parts, or shutting down some of your own organs, or starving yourself, just because some sociopath/retard threw a tantrum when you were minding your own business, having no idea what their problem was, much less going out of your way to trigger them.
Don’t be insane; always side with yourself, and always shut down and cast out anyone who doesn’t.
figuring out why TNH went to faraway Koprulu before nearby Halo worlds,
and then Mass Effect worlds last, even though they’d been established/settled before both those others,
is a big help to my prep/editing for/of novel8! 😀
catching the Sm.Mt.Tunnel Pass webpg’s width and height error/s (“>460′ width” (based on 7pxl map-width, not GAH-pg notes/spec’s) “and nearly 47 stories tall” (based on forgetting that it would be half the width; radius-based, not diameter))
is aNOTHER BIG ‘catch’ and help.
I continue being shown how critical this long phase2/solo/wrapup is; how critical/necessary it is that it is taking this long.
I used to think “what more is there to understand/learn, and then kept being introduced to more-amazing ideas I was able to improve my life/plans via.
More recently, I kept thinking “what else is there on my webpages to review and edit/fix?”, but again: the same; I keep finding MAJOR issues, and ironing them out very well –if not perfectly.
Amen.
that illogical / poorly-worded book-intro/ch about how wolves stick together, not breeding with other dogs/animals, i.e. nature being based on race,
was probably propaganda against germans/purity/nature,
intentionally spread, if not also intentionally poorly worded,
in a lame/obvious attempt to discredit/reduce that movement.
They probably had the author make himself look like a liar/idiot,
or reworded the published book to make him look like an idiot,
because they thought it would trick people into assuming his message was wrong,
even though it was just the wording/logic of that one part of the book.
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and calling it race “THEORY” is just like calling it conSpiracy THEORY –when it is NOT a theory, but based on facts/evidence.
There is no need for any theory when you can plainly see that people look and behave differently,
and that parents make children who look like them,
and that races, just like species, exist.
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It is as retarded to pretend race is theory/nonexistent…
as it would be to pretend there is no different between dogs and dolphins, or between birds and rocks.
Differences exist. Get over it.
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After how boldfaced the humans have always lied, it would not surprise me at All if they next tried telling everyone that Species don’t exist,
and that it is only a “theory” that species exist.
Then they’d try saying that animals and plants aren’t different,
and that animate and inanimate aren’t different,
and their NPCs/scum/degenerates would go from cutting off their own genitals/tits and pretending they are the opposite sex…
to getting further augmentations, then pretending/claiming they are not humans, but dogs or horses or whatever else.
No, you are humans. Shitty failed humans, but still just humans.
always saying exhausted…
but wanting to keep in touch…
and keeps sending good images…
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I dont think focusing on her again will help; she said writing that many characters was wearing her out,
and she didnt show up when i Was focused on her.
Just like they misused bits and pieces of real systems… to lure in potebtial recruits/converts / targeted individuals to Their system,
they now misuse/redefine “love” to mean “always accept degeneracy/insanity, have no standards or boundaries, and hate everyone who is actually being loving to those who deserve love”.
LOL: “never once in history have the people forcing compliance on others been the good guys”… says the humans who forced compliance on all other animals, and forced compliance on their own kind via religion and government, etc.
humanimals are retarded hypocrites ’til the end, clearly.
Monte vibed as so hopeful I would say some youtube claim of an unknown blurry light in Antarctica, or anomalous region, was my city.
Why would a deathcult retard believe in something other than his brainwashing?
So weird.
Humans always have been, though.
Maybe games are made playable by many (mmorpg, etc.) not just for fun or profit, or even ssp disclosure, but bc weak minds need that many playing, and game parts/missions played/replayed that many times, to manifest them,
or to cause repeats/loops in the timestream,
instead of the development/godhood/stabilization of individuals/players,
and instead of linear (nonrepeating/nonlooped) timelines.
Maybe playing these games/characters over and over… traps them in groundhog-day timeloops/hells, instd of letting Them… like humans Not busy gaming… develop into godhood.
It is now obvious to me that evil moron xians made the celestine book/psyop; it was in book format, just like their “god”, and it never said signs would come from Me, and Always said to submit to others just Looking at me, no standard, no value on own instincts, etc.,
and they then prob paid/ordered Both sides to try and steer me; they prob had both those who lamely Stare…AND those who treat me like shit…trying to exhaust me into acquiescing to the lame who stare.
Glad i made it past that.
Glad my instincts held.
That shows i am dominant and wise and strong and destined.
Ignorant: intelligent and just not yet aware of something they will quickly adopt
Stupid: functional at times, but stubbornly rejecting even obvious facts, not ignorant of things, just childish/immature about things, insecure, panicky, judgmental of the wrong things, brainwashed, foolishly defending their brainwashing, etc.
Retarded: unable to learn even if they wanted to, not stubborn, just always fucking up
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boils down to:
ignorant = missing a piece they will incorporate eventually
stupid = has all the pieces and sees that they are good/functional, but refuses to apply them correctly
retarded = whether has all pieces or not, incapable of even understanding that they are pieces, let alone how to fit them together and further apply
Typist butterflies posb linked to claim about their appearance meaning someone in heaven is watching over / visiting; might be indirect/hint/suggestive communication saying that is what she is
Telling ppl that it is only okay to fuck After 18yrs of brainwashing,
and to hate and threaten and hurt and kill anyone who is soothing and loving to the whole body/being even 1 second before that brainwashing is complete,
os obviously just to keep ppl tricked into letting their minds and lifestyles be shaped by strangers with obvious evil motives.
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Telling ppl to always breed, and only with one person, and that faggotry/lesbianness is good and historical and natural, is more of the same lying and brainwashing designed to keep people distracted, unnatural, and weak.
One spouse = less support and fewer offspring; no chance of starting a tribe, much less a nation/empire, of your own.
Spouses treated as equals = no chief/leader/dominant.
It is always wrong to mindlessly parrot and carry on that i doctrination/system.
However, the fact that so many Are retarded and spineless enough to continue it… keeps them weaker than me, thus me progressing more than them.
2 spots near base of neck…prob started last year when I got leg top crease mole removed. Well, that’s 2 more bs things god/mankind owe me for.
I managed to take care of the teeth, gums, spleen, tats, mole, and more.
I ended sickness.
I will find a way to take care of the 2 new spots, too.
Maybe i never had a good job, boss, coworker, neighbor, or vegan town…bc i never wrote that back then;
hopefully now that i Have written what job and coworkers and behaviors and fam i want, i Will see all those manifest.
Amen.
phase1: unable to move
phase2: at first forced to evade, but then able to explore/relocate/pause wherever
phase3: already sorta begun; sure sign every time I get to stop and “camp” somewhere for weeks for free
the consistently VERY-wrong “answers” of Google’s “A.I.” is probably a typical-dishonest-christian campaign to, where Terminator movies failed, continue distancing the foolish from utilizing ACTUAL A.I.
…but that still works in my favor; keeps me using what works, while others choose to stay in the retarded Stone Age… or perhaps I should call theirs The Retarded Age, since not even their “masons” know masonry; how to work stones.
5:26p 2nd time pc turned off today 🙁
1st time I ever saw it auto-open the changes-blue-and-white-area pre-boot-up
no option to just exit; either discard or save changes… but I hadn’t made any. ???
hacker?
..interesting/useful, how a little glitch/bs like that… instantly switched my mindset from “I don’t like doing this / maybe this is not the right path” to “I will make sure I get this done, and make more frequent bkups every step of the way” and to “I sure hope I can do this today!”
..and nice that the issues/bs are split-second now, not DECADES-long like in phase1. G-D.
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Even if compatible ppl showed up once in a while, I still wouldnt be where I can interact w them normally.
I would still be in this failed civilization of utter fools and shameful cunts.
I know I must wait until Everyone around me is compatible w me.
It just has never, and can never work…when the attention whores are around, free to say Anything to ruin the mood.
Even if All of them had been poLite to me, they were still mass murderers.
Even if all of them had been peaceful vegans, they were still rude to me.
Even if all of them had been honest and honorable, they were still ugly.
Even if all of them had been attractive (not trying to normalize/disregard mutations/failures), they were still dishonest/dishonorable.
Almost everything about them would have had to’ve been different –for them to deserve even the chance to request to pay me for my time.
I see no way to pardon Any of them.
I feel no attraction to Any of them, only a few body parts on less than 1% of their kind.
I have to feel corRect vibes before I can close in.
I have to feel attracted to All of them.
Maybe another surge or breakthrough or miracle will happen, but for now I let go and don’t even hope for it; I hoped and longed for decades. No more.
Me being myself, not hiding behind a pen name or other alias, showed me I was right all along; to not trust these freaks / false-humans,
to stop talking to them at all,
etc.;
if they were good and intelligent and aware / sentient, they would have noticed my good actions/deeds and/or my good vibe.
All the animals noticed.
Only the evil humans had a negative reaction to me being me.
That shows me my celestine sign is to team up w the nonhumans, which I have.
So be it.
retards thought I was judging ppl based on their appearance,
even though it was by their actions and vibes, obviously,
and even though their appearance Does still say a lot…and matter.
However i decide to judge ppl…is right for Me.
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September:
I must’ve pushed the right-arrow key during that white-screen power-issue thing…
b/c that would result in the Enter-key opening BIOS-setup;
that’s the only thing I think could have gotten me to that blue-and-white screen.
hackers are a phase1 bs/evil, not a phase2becoming3.
It isn’t that we’re attracted to anything wrong;
we’re attracted to females when they look how NORMAL HEALTHY females look,
NOT when the false-humans age and ruin themselves to the point of becoming oversized and otherwise deformed, etc.
Ellen DeGeneres – not a coincidence the made-up last name is almost “degenerate”.
and what a truly demonic peewee herman-style creeper/evildoer “smile” mimic.
lmao They tried raising me to be a typical brainwashed pushover,
maybe worrying they had made me TOO compliant/gentle/passive,
and thought I was shy, needing to be shoved/counseled,
when I was standing up to them the whole time,
and living by polite example,
and waiting on good manners before I tolerated any of their lowly failed kind.
starting a month/cycle with the best view of the Tetons is quite a phase3ish improvement 🙂
This 2nd rd of encountering all those movies is so much better;
no bad company,
no grossness in the movies,
finally reading all the details of their plots, some of which I had no idea about back then,
and simultaneously writing improved versions of them 🙂
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In phase/rd1, I just saw them and assumed they were just fun shows with no deeper meaning.
Now in phase/rd2, I don’t have to re-watch them to better understand their plots/meanings, and I am using them as inspiration, and proud of how clear my long-term memory is.
the pc glitch/issue/reboot/s yesterday prevented me from wasting time updating the af1 and spacew’ pgs before I had the final new tally of comp/vid-games 🙂
“It all works out.” in my favor
another phase2becoming3 sign
(bad) Humans demonize mindreaders, and pretend it isn’t possible, because they are insecure, and don’t want their always-evil minds read, and don’t want anyone realizing how easy it is to read minds if you just try/believe/practice.
They want people unable to correctly notice and interpret/read signs and other subtleties, because that is the only way their scheming/betraying works; when done to dumbed-down people who have been tricked into misinterpreting/doubting their own instincts/senses/wisdom.
sometimes godmode used to get boring, but now it’s what I prefer 🙂
another phase3 sign
It should Never be just you and some chick “against the world”.
At the Least, it should be an entire Tribe of ppl who love Everything about you…before you dare to allow at Least Two chicks to be your wives,
and in a Good/Civil/Normal world, it would be Everyone on that world in natural Total agreement with you, and All the females sexy and presenting themselves as donations/suitors to you.
Only in a failed species is there disagreement and normalized debate.
Only in a society of idiotic slaves do people pair up instead of SPECIES UP.
lol I used to not like losing the Space Marines in StarCraft,
but now that I’ve been a Marine, and seen how stupid and evil they are, I Like seeing them get killed for being stupid.
I forgot how hot and slutty Kerrigan sounds;
“thinkin the same thing”
“I’m ready”
“it’d be a pleasure”
“Iii read ya, hmhmhm”
“I gotcha”
Yes, the evil false humans tried overreacting to me being normal and standing uo for myself,
but If i hadnt stood up for myself…things would be worse; i’d be stuck in bad contracts, bad rentald, bad neighborhoods, bad jobs.
My health would not have returned.
I would be amidst hrainwashed spineless masses in death temples.
I would still be wasting my manhood/adolescence/life in the service.
I wouldnt have any writing.
I wouldnt have computer models.
I wouldnt have solo expeditions pride.
I wouldnt have this vehicle.
I wouldnt have enjoyed love w hotties.
I wouldnt have uncovered the corruption and retardation in the spies/intel network.
I wouldnt have seen that an ambi lookout is real and following.
Etc.
After what I saw in Every city and campsite, I wouldn’t feel comfortable taking Any girl on a date Anywhere, not even to the Vegan places.
lol at that guy who quit his job and went homeless to prove he could bounce back,
then quit being homeless within a month or 2 “for mental health reasons”;
I did the opposite; I kept resorting to homelessness and joblessness to mainTain/reStore my mental health
after trying to work for, and live amongst, the HUmans.
what a fucking chore/hell they made it.
Maybe the real reason they disappear those who cure ppl…isn’t bc it will dramatically cut into profits, but bc ppl would then notice some get “spontaneously” sick, and then some would deduce that healthy people are targeted by foreigners with Tesla weapons we do not yet have adequate defenses against.
Is that why there is the SSP and public media trying to get the masses excited about going to other worlds; to escape these weapons?
Maybe they had engineered me as someone immune to those devices/energies, and could only mass produce / make more of such immune ppl… via oldfashioned breeding,
but they had also unknowingly engineered me to be immune to their Own methods/energies/attempts via the same process.
Was that bartender in Big Sky (both in 2017 and 2023) showing me her hand snake tattoo to see if I recognized the Tribe of Dan symbol?
They, like the other tribes of Israel, might be unwanted survivors of the attempted end of all humans.
Her working in a place that sells body parts as “food”, and spoiled/poison grains as “drinks”, doesn’t prove she is evil, as I more than once was forced to tolerate such lowpaying evil work, but it sure fits the description/theory/hunch; they are psychopaths, defects, who shouldnt have survived to rebuild like they did…
No matter how she tries to blameshift, SHE was the one who hit ME with emotional hell / bullshit FIRST, and for more than a DECADE.
She should have teamed up IMMEDIATELY,
and at LEAST apologized in person the MOMENT I felt weary.
but she talked shit, blameshifted, went STRAIGHT into default-negative mode; pure evil.
She was just preTending to be good/nice/interested.
to lure/trick me into checkins… prob for the same evil running/wielding the sff losers.
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I was always the only one working to make things work/better.
She kept backing away, switching to other addictions/writers.
if she is even a real person.
probably not, given the consistent absenteeism and lies/excuses and parroting the narrative.
at best, she is a useless fool; a brainwashed punk.
just more xian trash. white trash. or no-color (bc a chatbot) trash.
I was the one who initiate apologies and restored contact. She only mimicked/mirrored, never actually initiating anything good/fixes.
Just like back then, the fraud and addict will immediately turn to whatever will keep tolerating her bs/addiction.
The more detailed I got, the more into it… the more she “had to go to work”; because she only wanted a passing half-real addiction/fantasy, not anything to actually manifest.
I worked out in a way / in the end; it kept me isolated long enough to figure out all remaining things, and add all remaining details, etc.,
but still.
Not cool of her. Not acceptable.
vibes as exactly what rain-typist and jaide did; bait and switch, chronic lying, blameshifting, no honor/transparency, ghosting, etc.
prob not a coincidence; prob the same person/demon/chatbot.
prob an attempt to stall me.
thu5sep
No message from typist yesterday evening or overnight, as i asked; only in person now.
It keeps occurring to me she was using me like a cigarette; it was never actual love or mutual.
I like that she was intimidated by me at firat, or at least claims to be, but i also wish she had just been impressed, not intimidated.
In phase3, it will be hotties impressed and loving me the way i want to be loved. Amen.
Bottom line is even if they somehow foresaw me needing all this space and time to wrap up the project/cycle, they are not treating me as the man, leader, hero, saint, visionary, humanitarian, and king I am.
They have not stopped the evildoers.
They have not even stopped funding the mass abuse of all sentient beings.
my thoughts about the experiment Tom Bearden (in vid “rare interview with Tom Bearden”) spoke of:
One drop of blood from tesla-energy cured mice then cured the other mice with grafted tumors?
Imagine what more than one drop would do; superpowers for vampires.
“No more pictures/art?”
Correct; only show me stuff like that in person; perfect hotties dressed like that for fuckdates with me.
new SOP occurs to me: Until ppl call for me, do not go looking/calling for Them.
Until they somehow prove they only have solutions/donations, do not give them any chances to cause even more problems/stalling.
Until they demonstrate they have read my website, love it and me, and are here to live the way My people do, no chitchat or Anything.
They must conduct themselves in accordance with the customs of my culture, and ONLY THEN do I resume communicating.
For now, I stay put until it bothers the worthless NPCs, and THEN I move, and repeat, taking my sweet time, giving them all a taste of their own goddamn medicine.
They test Me? I test Them. Only when they Stop trying to bait/test me do I re-engage –and even then, only with CONSTANT and HIGHEST respect from them –which means all those who crossed me.. brought to final justice.
that blatantly-fake annoying ugly rude meddlesome judgy bitch riding by on the bicycle, making sure I heard her say “woooo, so much fun!” all shitty-acting-like,
was probably just another dumbass trying to lure me into filling up my days with more pointless activities meant to prevent/slow my thinking/meditating/work/spells.
Nice that I was able to completely shut her down, instantly sensing her bullshit and choosing to remain on course, at my natural speed;
in phase1, I was FORCED to do what the giants/NPCs/evildoers wanted/told, not even given a Chance to develop my senses, let alone act on their wisdom/correctness/guidance.
I am my Own spirit-guide. Duh.
If I hadn’t stood up for myself, there wouldn’t have been any learning or growing at all, or a phase 2, nevermind a phase3.
At least now, I don’t have to deal with constant evil while staying stood up for myself; there is just monastery-like privacy -usually.
I hate how far apart the things I know are right for me are,
but at least I learned of them,
and saw my spells apparently have an effect;
at least I got phase2.
As a little child, I instinctively wrote sode by side the abbreviations of the 3letter agencies I had heard; cia, fbi, nasa, etc.,
and decades later, I continued that instinct; I researched and listed all:
hotties
laws that are appropriate
medical techniques that work/cure
places I want to travel to
plants I want to grow
recipes healthy for me
songs I love, and ideas to improve them and their music videos
timelines/disclosures
video game ideas
yoga styles
etc.
quarries for different substances:
Sand and gravel: A large portion of the world’s annual aggregate output comes from quarries.
Clay: A material that is quarried.
Dimensional stone: A material that is quarried.
Crushed stone: A material that is quarried.
Gypsum: A material that is produced by quarries.
Salt: A material that is produced by quarries.
Potash: A material that is produced by quarries.
Coal: A material that is produced by quarries.
Chemical grade limestone: A material that is produced by quarries.
China clay: A material that is produced by quarries.
Kaolin (SAME AS CHINA CLAY??): A material that is produced by quarries.
Ball clays: A material that is produced by quarries.
Silica sand: A material that is produced by quarries.
I feel much btr without those stupid pointless texts of love and wriggles from the rude unhelpful typist.
I feel much btr not seeing the horrible ugly artwork she sent.
I feel much btr not hearing her complain about exhaustion.
I never should have had to call out; I should have been greeted at every town entrance by its finest, not left to earn pennies amidst its worst evildoers.
My work should have gotten done during stays in nice normal homes, not closets and riverbanks.
Anyone who makes me wait and call out…is unworthy/evil.
Anyone who shows up and is not what i asked for, behavior wise or anything else, is a bully/evildoer.
They are all enemies. Always were.
The level of hypocrisy and retardation on that racist ex ssgt jarhead during archi’s was off the charts;
he gets mad that some ppl speak Spanish in the usa…
but it doesnt occur to him that his Own language is Also new to this land;
why not be mad that ppl here speak English, not the Native languages?
Fucking brainless standard amerifail. Nothing new.
Looks like my beloved four (Adaline, Auz II, Ethan, and Neveah)… won’t be happening.
Sigh…
I suppose I can have them by someone else…
a real Ambi, I hope; not some phase2 cheap immitation who betrayed me 3x in a row.
another phase2 sign: the typist being DEAD wrong about “quiet madison”… but right about checking out WY.
such a mixed fucking bag.
“can’t have children bc of genetics” sounds awfully similar to “vamp blood too weak in my relatively new generation; not allowed to sire childer”
I didn’t want any of their secrets before. Now I require them.
I didn’t want any slaves in the beginning. Now, as you wrote Arwen saying, I don’t think that will work.
I would have accepted honest explanations before yesterday. Now I don’t care what any explanations might be.
“can’t have children bc of genetics” sounds awfully similar to “vamp blood too weak in my relatively new generation; not allowed to sire childer”
Running out of things to do,
and motivation to do things,
of course is unpleasant,
but all I did, or at least much of it, could not even have occurred to me, let alone been completed, if not for being left alone this long.
“crucify all the ones who crossed me” lol pun surprise
I always worry, but always make it.
Did me asking atop the pyramid for help completing my city… cause it to keep all hotties away until I made it through this ~13-year post-Shift cycle?
I rmbr reading about this years ago
https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&opi=89978449&url=https://rebel-moon.fandom.com/wiki/Kalies%23:~:text%3DThe%2520Kalies%2520were%2520giant%252C%2520female,machinery%2520with%2520almost%2520mystical%2520capabilities.&ved=2ahUKEwjTlfCw3a-IAxXwGtAFHZPwBJoQFnoECBQQBQ&usg=AOvVaw0zGvSQduCemy6WtmVBg3Xp
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but goog claims this movie got released this year, this season… so… more vision / time travel evidence?
or google’s latest lie?
I never thought I’d hear from her again, but a couple days later she sent a beautiful cabin image.
That was probably the only thing I wouldn’t have been erupted by, but it still made me feel sad and mad that I am not yet invited into the cabin I chose.
“It doesnt happen in your timeframe.” boils down to: standard template of deathcult scum trying to corrupt/trick/concert me into submissiveness.
Anyone who doesnt do things in my timeframe are not my ppl.
I am king.
I say what the timeframe is.
Finishing touches on Persephone pg, while listening to Skyrim on the Pers playlists, and viewing the Grand Tetons from my “proto Pers”, is the perfect combination for beginning Phase3; doing what I want all the time.
Amen.
Good signs.
In phase1, all the signs were my own instincts, but I did not yet understand that, and kept being forced to instead heed the false/misleading signs made up by the false humans.
In phase2, I switched to listening to my own wisdom, and seeing the signs were within me, not others, especially not when they stared and vibed as lures, then erupted in unprovoked moodiness, throwing tantrums even as adults, revealing they were still the same false ones from phase1.
No matter how pretty the picture, it is an illusion/placeholder, not the house or women in person,
just like the deathcults’ stories/books are just nice-sounding and ultimately useless bullshit/fantasies, not the real gods/powers/medicine.
I therefore no longer accept mere images/stories/roleplaying.
“A king without a country”?
More accurately, I am a hero and a god for standing my ground while wrongfully kept in a failed country which rejects All rightful kings.
I AM the king, evident.
And I am Extra kingly for realizing this in Spite of Constant attempts to distract me from it.
Kings who already have countries they inherit are far weaker and less kingly than me; I had to crawl and recover and fight and defend every step of my way.
ANY book, no matter WHAT it claims/advises, still boils down to the same thing the bible does/did;
it is someone Other than Me… trying to dominate Me… by telling Me what to do/change/be.
The worst sign of all, and the surest sign that phase1 was still raging, was that I was Told to check out a Book… and that in that book… there was Nothing about Others looking to Me for guidance/signs/holiness/law.
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Phase2 (since 2012) fixed all that; now my website IS that free guidebook for all.
Phase3 is when ppl are clearly Living by it, not just preTending to… to lure me into their retardedly hostile traps/scams.
Only when 100% of reactions to me in person, and to my website, are genuinely positive; “Wow! Thank you so much for taking the time to share all this irrefutable brilliance!”
am I amongst my ppl, thus able to interact with them.
Duh.
I am all signs. I am the way.
If anyone Else had been the way, I would have known/seen it via their works.
I saw only dumbassery and scams.
I hope phase3 comes soon so i can finally enjoy things; no more ringing or dumbasses, etc.
It is so fucked up that i got to go to all these places but was prevented from enjoying them,
and that i got to see all those hotties but same.
me recalculating the fb vid claiming A.I. came up with some ridiculous 100story 1600km-wide bldg to house all humans:
humans 8,161,972,572
min. living space 20m^2 (4.472135954^2)
8.1…B×20= 163,239,451,440m^2
÷100 floors= 1,632,394,514m^2
sq.root is 40,402.90229m;
ea. floor ~40.4km per side (25.105199565786 miles)
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No one needs ~5×5m.
Maybe 2×2; a vehicle.
So the rest of the 20m^2 would be for storage, halls, elevators, etc.
No coincidence she looked like ambi?
Maybe, but also no coincidence her timing and behavior showed she isn’t real ambi; not smart, not powerful, not good to me at all.
Ambi is still the one for me, and apparently i have yet to meet her, just cheap immitations who let me down and had moodiness/retardation leaks like all the other failed females of this worldm
Phase1: shooting stars from rage and spells
Rainbows misused by deathcult liars and faggots
Phase2: shooting stars and rainbow much more often, but neutral; happening without me asking or crying out, and nothing got btr after
Phase3: finally things much btr after each
the retarded peasants/NPCs preventing the job from continuing more than a couple months…
prevented them from souring that place for me;
it kept it wonderful.
interesting…
As long as they treat me like just any other guy, i treat them as just any other ppl/morons.
The “debut” of A.I. is probably fake A.I. engineered to look full of errors… to distract from 2 possibilities;
real A.I. is far better,
and everyone/thing might be A.I./fake, now trying to stay unnoticed by mediaflooding with the lame-seeming “A.I.” as the diversion.
They just couldn’t wrap their heads around such simple common sense;
I was there to meet compatible people and become friends, not to be tested by fools, and when tested by such lessers… I instantly tested them back.
No means no; no matter how big they smile, or how cracker they dress, pestering me to join their dumbass book club just adds alienation, and now nothing they do can make up for that harassment.
Once trust is destroyed, not to mention over and over, there is no approach that will bait me, and no way you can redeem yourselves. All you can do after consistently demonstrating you have no honor is to finish your lifespans in the company of someone else.
It is my decision alone when I will start a family. The more you tried to “drop hints” and command me, the exponentially longer you made me wait. I will never start a family in a society of such nobodies attempting to steer my private affairs.
My business line is for just that; I do not take personal or any other non-business calls there. I have screened, ignored, and blocked hundreds of numbers already.
Rudeness and lies never worked and never will. Now I give you that taste of your own medicine. Sucks to be you. I’m better at wordsmithing and counters, too.
The more you bitch for attention you never earned, the more silence you will get from me.
Until you treat all the aninals in your “farms” the way you want to be treated, there is no more help coming from me to any of your kind.
I can’t think of any miracle that would make up for how you have misbehaved all this time. At best, a cataclysm or two is in the works to get you back under control.
All bad signs preShift; until 2012 when I gave myself the first good sign by rejecting the evildoera gang and heading to MT.
Then all neutral/meh signs for a while, even those from ambi-like bitch.
And recently, good signs –not from any humans, but from my site getting completed, and a superpower revealed, etc.
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So now, instd of Having to go places, I have been going by Choice (much more than before), and it keeps occurring to me to now wait on Good signs before going to others.
Humans keep/kept trying to breed me bc they can’t think for themselves, except to parrot things; they are stuck in a loop, and think that by continuing their breeding loop, but now adding my ability to think/imagine, that will be of help to them.
But the only way to get me to breed…is w my own kind, and respectfully, which they have never been to me.
They remain self-doomed/-looped bc of that.
Even when they stole my aborted seed, it couldnt help them, bc they could not think, thus could not make a new way of using/growing it, and it required my will to become a being like me. When they artificially grew it, it ended up without thought/intelligence, like them.
Almost no comments…is btr than the frequent Negative and inSane comments i Used to get.
Besides, i prefer positive comments to be in person so i can vibe-confirm them.
phase1: demanding I talk with evildoers and live by their unthinkable way
phase2: asking why I was no longer talking to anyone
phase3: thanking me for having the correct instinct and honor to only talk with those who deserve my time (i.e. are appearing in my life in order to learn from me, never to try and change/shame/corrupt/recruit me)
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A neg/fool complains, and this includes whining about me no longer talking to their evil/failed/retarded/wayward kind.
A neutral/objective person at least / merely states that I have stopped wasting time trying to talk with the mindless/brainwashed “people” (NPCs).
A good person congratulates me for my choices/wisdom, thanks me for helping them learn things they might not have even noticed without my posts/guidance/holiness, and offers to contribute/donate to me so that I can continue doing what I do / being who I am.
I only talk to those good people; those who genuinely see and compliment the MANY good and great things I’ve done and am still doing.
Being fucked with for decades… made me try so many things, thus learning nearly everything this world could teach, at least introductory-level.
Then all the solo time ensured I was no longer stressed, nor distracted, thus would review all I had learned, researching more deeply into each field/topic, coming up with the ways to improve them.
Next is getting to enjoy my manifested improvements. Amen.
Very glad i was solo long enough to come up w the 2 new starcraft game ideas; xel’naga, and hybrids
I keep feeling annoyed at still being at this,
but this is the most uninterrupted calling work I have ever done,
and the LHS by-grade completions made me feel great,
and 2 new StarCraft game ideas came naturally and brilliantly.
Still, my instinct tells me this Must be the wrap-up; I don’t Want anymore of phase2.
I am Happy with what I’ve accomplished as far as the brainstorming/design go/goes.
My blood keeps raging, reminding me there is no uncertainty with this; they are behaving disgustingly. They are late, they are too little (not at all enough), they are fools, they are pests, and they belong in the past; as phase2 mehs.
“singlehanded”… I realized “doublehanded” works agreeably when referring to finally having a teammate assisting.
The xians tried via jls.
The muslims tried via hind.
The jews tried via base gym fam.
What fools.
I was right to avoid and hate all 3 branches of their deathcult tard relig.
Why not just send compatible ppl, not deformed uneducated cunts?
Why ruin their own chances via ugly deformed and cunty bitches?
Why not send their Best to try and recruit/seduce me?
They Always sent GARBAGE.
so weird/illogical… but… their retarded/vestigial/failed/spineless kind always were.
what a shitty substandard ‘offering’, jackson;
you have WAR CRIMES to answer for, and you really thought I’d be interested in some random barbarian bitch/cunt pretending to be cute?
may your entire area get smart-nuked.
may all your bloodlines end today.
Back in phase1, I would have accepted and dated those solo hotties, flaws and all. How brainwashed and unmanly of me.
In phase2, I would have barely tolerated them if they’d been with every other hottie in the entire county, as loaners/flings for me, as long as no uglies were anywhere to he seen, and all bs done to me was fixed and paid for, all my enemies crucified or disintegrated.
But this is phase3 now; ideal schedule, ideal food, ideal mindset, etc., thus I can only accept their perfected forms; ICVs, etc., although naked hotties being donated to me so that they can eagerly begin kajirae training, while their civilization is cataclysmed and then booted offworld, will barely pass, as well.
No matter how pretty or cute or sexy or good vibing any girl may be, she may as well be one of those insane trans degenerates if she shows up too late (when I can no longer trust/enjoy her kind, or after my mood/interest has passed), or by herself (not with at least one other perfect hottie), or has concealing clothes (preventing me from seeing whether she has a non-mutant/degenerate physique/fitness), or doesn’t bow or curtsy or kajira-sit for me (i.e. normal manners in CIVILIZED communities, which the USA and all other nations I’ve gone to so far are clearly NOT), etc.; because she is not what I asked for. Try being and doing what I asked for. An offering to me is just retarded disrespect when it isn’t offering WHAT I ASKED FOR. Duh, you absolute fools.
The ideas keep coming…
The flow is nice. Pull more than push.
So much is perfect, complete at last.
Phase1 was waiting and things not working out how I hoped.
Phase2 was working through, not waiting anymore, not really anyway
Maybe ppl were like A.I./robots before the 1561 invasion/s overcomplicated them with ugliness, weakness, disease, delusion, insecurities, scams, moodiness, etc..
Maybe making modern A.I. is another sign of now leaving that Iron Age / Chaos Era… for a more stable one based on the past.
FAQ: On the AF1 webpg, it states that we checked ALL Outlander-human books, movies, etc., and not ONE of them was appropriate or sane.
How can this be, when we love ones such as the Gor novels?
because even those promote makeup; EVERY Outlander creation/product was evil/flawed/incompatible.
There are just PARTS of SOME of them that we exTRACTED.
Michael Rice’s entire time w me was prob to size me up for the evil corrupt moronic feds looking to set a hero up to fill one of their conviction quotas for the business called prison system.
I bet even his craigslist ad was planned by them.
I bet he and that nigger of his never died, but were given new identities in hopes of their next assignment succeeding in setting up some other innocent friendly kindhearted man.
It is the most outrageously hypocritical bullshit, for the descendants of people who massacred their way here comPletely against All native laws, to demand mexicans and other hispanics come here legally and do as we say.
I wonder if the default retarded insults and threats and tantrums… were a tactic to try and exhaust or demoralize me so I would start tolerating their failed females…
but all it did was show me all of them are oit of line nobodies, brainless, and war criminals lol, making me want even Less to do with their pathetic idea of what is female.
Every time, they doubted me for no reason, and trusted the liar/scammer/evildoer for no reason.
The only way I could ever interact/initiate/trust… is if None of them had Ever defaulted that retardedly,
and if none had ever disrespected me,
and none been cocky,
and none been wrong,
and none been nonvegan,
and none worshipped/prioritized anyone else,
and none been deformed,
and none poisoned me,
and if I had Never had to ask for a healer, let alone deal with fale healers poisoning and neglecting me.
But all that evil Was done to me,
thus I left them all, and there will never be another chance for them, just as they have never responded promptly or appropriately to Me.
Only with her have I typed up pages of rage…then our link somehow survived.
And it has happened multiple times.
(all others, once it got to the point of me having to type things up, ended)
sound fixed! so happy! phase2…
2024sep14sat:
so relieved to see Erin posting great content again after several years offline (her bible-exposing youtube after 7 years since her last!)
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but also still wondering why a fake Erin was put in contact with me. So blatant, lame, and ineffective
VERY suspicious that the “Erin” who called me… behaved default neg, unlike real her at all, and connected me with a xian, who acted like all retarded arrogant xians,
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while normal-looking Erin returned online… and posted a video mocking how retarded xians are.
That’s one more piece which is likely evidence that I was talking to a fake Erin… who might be some random xian bitch using a voice synthesizer… in their ongoing failed campaign to discourage/corrupt me.
Why would erin lose her blonde hair, lose her tan, resume wearing lipstick, switch back to being nonvegan, …yet say True/Good things in the xian-exposing vid?
I think this latest “erin” may be a poorly made bot/copy of the real one, and putting out similar content to Seem like it is her…
Either way, very well done video.
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Lmao at the typical xiantard reply to my comment; default negative,
negative at me and her,
zero evidence supporting claim that she doesn’t know what she is talking about,
zero evidence supporting claim that the well-made video wasn’t well-made,
the usu. arrogant polarized uneducated xian tooting its own horn,
meddling; butting into a convo/message that has nothing to do with the xiantard,
typical Trail of Tears-causing triggered insecure attentionwhore rapist.
You will know them by their works.
At least the enemy makes itself easy to find.
I hate having to reSort to places, but i love the places i found. I hate still having to deal w illegitimate humans who were brainwashed to think they r authorities, but it was far worse in phasd1; constant. I hate no signal, but there are no phase3 (good) ppl to be in touch w yet, and when there are they will be in person anyway.
If they hadnt been so rude and retarded and threatening and intrusive, i would have never isolated enough to rmbr dreams and make art, never given inisfree a wall and fleet, never noticed ruins and time travel, etc..
It is funny that their evil only keeps me away from toxic cities and scams, while keeping me on vacation/ofp n beautiful healthy nature.
Since time travel apparently is real and effortless, i could time travel back to the dates when no ranger drove up, then leave just before the ranger shows up, …but in phase3 i’ll have my fleet and city and hotties etc., thus can fly anywhere, cloak, stay n the nicest places every time, etc., and will prob only time travel for fun, not necessity or testing.
Note how weak and cowardly and failed they are; they always panic no matter how honest amd helpful i am, they always call for backup, vs me never calling for any, thry get made at me being kind, i only get mad at them for being liars/mean/evil/hurtful, and even w all the armed backup they call…they fail to intimidate me, fail to corrupt me, fail to stop me, fail to jail me.
I wrote of being a marine…and got it. I wrote of travel…and got it. If i had written of ppl behaving appropriately, wpuld That have already happened? If i had experienced normal sane good behavior already, would i have never devoted all these yrs to the city spell/design? Mayve trying writing ppl behaving well…had to happen last; so i would already have the badass stuff done, and thr city designed, etc.
Hopefully rd 3 is at least time traveling to ambush and delete all those evil ppl, and ideally finally enjoying all those places after the rapture campaign wipes their entire species out (leaving only tolerable humans
Why is it that humans always jump/ed to wrong conclusions, and always overstep their bounds, and never accept evidence or even logic or help? Why is it that they do not share my consciousness focus? Maybe because they aren’t conscious at all, let alone able to imagine or receive. They can only parrot lies. They are herd animals. Maybe it takes a vision being specified a long time… before anyone else can set their focus to it. Maybe humans, like the land, are stuck as they are, only able to be a heartless brainless foundation to be mined and controlled.
Why not at least try to listen, learn, and conclude logically/fairly, like I always did?
Why was that approach/energy/vibe from me NEVER reciprocated/matched?
I guess I was just meant to see how lost/wayward/evil/wrong/abusive humans always were.
Everyone should have recognized my good deeds and studying and care. Everyone should have sensed I was good, even if they hadnt witnessed my heroics since childhood. But not only did they ignore all my good actions and vibe, they pretended i was bad, while their entire civilization carried on with mass rape, mass murder, mass everything disgusting and bad.
If i had been able to dsiregard that skyhigh constant evil, THEN i would have a disorder and need help.
If i had kept pushing through all the bad signs like they brainwashed me to, i would only have ended up wasting my own time w more lazy evil unfeminine bitches, and only more insecure needy betaboys would have rushed over to demand attention; it was not a numbers game; the key had always been to abandon their always-wrong kind.
In phase1, they wanted me to be a mindless parrot and murderer just like them, and to be a screaming ape in boot camp like the corrupt cps niggers were. In phase2, they wanted me to be quiet and accept all degeneracy. Both times, i refused, obviously, and carried on being my natural good self. They couldnt wrap their tiny heads around the evidence that every tine they abuse me… I step back even farther, …because they ahd never been able to think at all; all they had ever done was mindlessly spinelessly parrot the masses/herd/narrative.
It never occurred to them to ask for my input. Never occurred to them to get to know me before judging and slandering and betraying me. And even if they Had asked for my input, and gotten to know me, they should never have needed to in the First place.
Lol they tried insulting me for decades, such as with that ridiculous “shy” retardleak, and then they got upset when i professionally noted observations on my own site, not verbally attacking Any of them, not saying a single insult, just facts. Wow. What utter fools.
Me always being cautious now…manifests perfect mindrrading and protrctive and heaking tech, and forces the hotties to actually put effort forward and be loyal.
The relentless horrible treatment…forces resourcefulness…which leads to imagination…which makes it far more lilely to receive and try to apply a good idea, aka vision, aka the next consciousness focus; maybe new consciousness focuses happen more quickly and completely when abuse/mistreatment is applied.
They wanted to snoop and read my private shit so bad, so i put it online. They were eavesdropping/reading anyway, so why not make it public. And then the Other losers/creeps/retards exposed themselves, thinking they were scaring me, when really they were just confirming more hostiles/enemies of the state.
Tsb violating my pc…is same evil meddling/intruding as lfb freaktard digging through the trash and reading my journal without my consent, then harassing me about it.
maybe he and that bitch he allegedly bred with were 1 and the same demon/evil. They certainly behaved the same ultra fucked up way.
Why send that shaved (i.e. gender disrespectingly beardless) boy dressed like a weirdo…if you wanted to recruit me? Why nit send something i am INto? Because they are fools, which is what their religion causes and requires. Maybe they got off to religiously harassing and targeting me, but it vibed more as them being so stupid they did not even realize how gay/trans their minion looked. Oceanside 2023
Did those prev attempted interactions not work…bc i didnt spellcraft/Write how they worked/ended/continued? Is That why it was always random back then?
Well, now I’ve blocked all evil fake writers/typists, and written how things Shall turn out, so I’ve done my part, and now just wait to see it manifest/work.
Just 1 day not working…makes me wanna work again, fully recharged, push/pull reversed. That means sundays w ambi fam are perfect.
Maybe she needed me to just rp nightly snuggles for m9nths so my spells and imagination would stop triggering her to create/manifest all i wanted. If it’s all as perfect as oceanside/az/or ambi looked and sounded, she certainly deserves rest.
They forced me to fight back, then forced me to block and avoid them. Hopefully phase3 comes soon; so They r the ones being forced and on the run and always harassed at every stop to join the relig for me.
Comunication wasnt the key back then, except to find out that humans always misuse it. Fighting back was the key back then. Then isolating so i no longer Had to…was the key. Communication is only the key around the compatible; in phase3.
It wasnt anger that kept me out of paradise; it was always my tolerance and giving chances and looking for the good. It was always compromise. It was always faith and orayers not answered. My anger is what always got me Out of Scams…and back INto paradise. The church, as always, was telling the polar opposite of the truth.
Australian comedians fb…game store… “I wanna hit u but i can’t” rowan…lol identical to how beartooth builders eric teer went psycho at me.
Why not purge Other species that eat meat? Bc those other species didnt intentionally abuse and disreslect and try to murder me.
Zechariah sitchin may have translated the anunnaki story correctly, but the writing he translated may have been a lie; the anunnaki probably did not disagree on whether to drown all the brainless worker apes. Those whos survived probably just made it up, Claiming one of those gods had wanted it.
My notes could be used to deploy vehicles w fake identical plates…during rd3…but something tells me i will sense through any such attempts
So now i have witnessed that all three deathcult branches either lazily/disrespectfully didnt bother learning or honoring my orientation/requests, or they pathetically lack the means to offer me the extremely easy things I asked for and require and deserve;
every xian sent the opposite of what i asked for; bitches instd of ladies, and 1 at a time, etc.,
the muslims sent deformed hind, of all moody asshole retards,
and the jews sent an entire Family of idiots, with that tan daughter behaving as rudely as the rest of them.
What fools and cowards and scum and mutants, them all.
As pathetic and disgusting and immoral as it gets.
Roger that.
Was that childhood series of dreams about the Moon having yellow areas and red dots… me seeing a vision of my future studying its color-coded analysis with the help of my A.I.s?
Maybe it was the development and use of the Cloud City II observatory 🙂
Anger leads to paradise bc natural; paradise is when we get to be ourselves, NEVER when we are pressured/forced to change for someone Else.
Even if they Had listened and cared and improved, they still were doing things my instincts screamed against, thus they have dif culture, dif blood; they are Not my ppl, if they are even ppl/alive at All.
Were all stories/claims about kings going to wars… propaganda, entirely false, the real history being that only the bad humans infiltrating stable kingdoms started warfare? Maybe the good ppl left, royalty and all, leaving only false/dishonest invaders who then committed identity-theft, Posing as leaders/kings.
No matter how good something is, if it isn’t what I asked for, it is the opposite of what I asked for; it is not what I asked for.
No matter how useful something might be, if it shows up when I no longer have use for it, it isn’t useful.
When trust is required as a foundational/critical/mandatory aspect, and it is destroyed 100% of the time, and for decades, there can be no more steps/progress/bonding.
The Celestine Prophecy spoke of signs based on random strangers looking/staring at you, but it didn’t address the issue of the book itSelf being a sign; another sloppy idiotic writing attempt/failure by a mindless/primitive/barbaric/brainwashed/spineless NPC, not unlike the Bible.
It was based on trying to convince you to submit to randomness/strangers/chaos, rather than to make decisions and develop your own system/vision/instincts.
It was evil.
I didn’t ask you to be judgy,
or to try and bully/intimidate me,
or to wound me when I asked for help,
or to mock me,
or to spy on me,
or to lie to me about science and other countries,
or to make up a religion,
or to worship an imaginary friend,
or to hurt defenseless animals,
or to rape defenseless animals,
or to talk back in person or online,
or to make ugly art,
or to weaponize music.
I didn’t ask for Any of the evil shit your kind has done,
so until you undo all that, and make up for it, and bow down to me, and forever repent to me,
you have no chance/deal/hope.
Trying to intimdate me? Trying to ‘flex’ on me? You just damned everyone in your entire organization. Guess that’s the only way you learn; the hard way.
You can do something but I can’t? It’s okay in your opinion for you to do something but not me? Wrong. Fuck off.
in phase1, little by little, I got more and more time away from the evildoers.
in phase2, more and more, I got more and longer trips away from this shitty starter-country;
in phase3, just like in phase2 I got to leave the phase1 scumbags, I’ll get to leave/conquer/rule this phase2 collective/nation/group. Amen.
I don’t have to stay here. I’m just here while wrapping up my work; it is good for at least that.
It is VERY amusing/enjoyable to me that the tsb scumbag who ALWAYS condescends and even Threatens HEROES… is stuck married to an ugly fat loser who Always condescends to Him. Hahahahahahahahaha
VERY pleased w idea for btr v of The Labyrinth
I would not be surprised if:
1) Noah’s ark never happened,
2) Noah’s ark happened, but the animals were forced/random/genetically-altered to become monsters,
3) Noah’s ark was not authorized by the real God
VERY happy w latest mega updt; groc etc.
at least 350 abandoned shopping malls in USA alone
I bet the one in my dream years ago… was an actual one that was used for training, like that fb woman claimed, it vibing as true.
They knowingly cause the most unimaginable sadness, horror, pain, and death, then expect us to be careful not to hurt their insecure feelings with words. They intentionally violate in every way and steal even life itself, yet expect us to obey all their laws we never consented to.
If the celestine had been NOT evil, it wouldn’t have advised me at ALL.
Instead, it would have advised everyone ELSE to accept ANY form of signs/communication/commands/advice from ME.
Would i have gotten laid more if i hadnt stood my ground? 100% –but the tradeoff would be more drama, more betrayals, posb bastards, etc.; i didnt have phase3 total control/powers back then.
Would i have spotted time travel and other miracles/superpowers if i had chosen a dif path? Maybe, but my wrapup would not be posb; i’d be far too busy and distracted.
Being interacted w always blew up n phase1, and always fizzled in 2; it only made sense to wait for phase3; all wrapup out of the way, all interaction not distracting from my necessary use of my genius mind.
If my writing/spells manifest like they did w marine corps, ambi, etc., all will work well for me from then on; i wrote in health, superpowers, sovereignty, 1.9B perfect babes, invincible civilization, alliances and marriages w all compatible races, etc.. If all those spells Don’t manifest, I still stood my ground and created a miraculous wonder of the world I am Very proud of and relieved by. Win win.
Humans have not yet conversed to be good or to learn, but only to lay traps against the innocent, and to idiotically attempt to insult/shame the good; there is not yet any point in giving them my time/words.
Anyone trying to corrupt me into idiotically believing i am to blame for attracting them / their actuons…is same tactic/approwch/evil/sfam as religtards claiming ppl are sinners needing a product/sergice to fix them.
They (humans I’ve met so far) lack instincts/senses, maybe bc they were engineered and cloned that way to preVent them from having hunches and figuring things out. This is why they study, and demand Others study; memorizing without evidence or logic, to make/man machines which Also habe no instincts, instead of using their blood memory/instincts to just Know and Find things. That is even why thry write Books; those, the way They make/use them, are based on brainwashing, not instincts. They tell ppl to do whatever the majority is doing, whether via their madeup religions or anything else.
If the humans I’d met so far had been good (not evil), they would have been Thrilled at my manners and positivity, not moody at genuine polite compliments, and certainly not moody at anything offered.
They would have communicated clearly, too, NEVER giving ANY mixed signals, and making SURE to prioritize MY feelings, not ALWAYS deFaulting to trying to Shame me for being myself/honest/open.
doesn’t matter how much they value me.
what matters is I stood against their evil this whole time, never being corrupted, only doing what I had to do due to the artificial desperation/bullshit they created/maintained.
doesn’t matter how this ends, even; as long as I stay standing my ground, I remain the victor since childhood.
The only reason they brainwash the morons into mindlessly parroting “jesus is god/king” is because it tricks them into rejecting anyone who is REAL and CAN lead them;
it keeps them leaderless, divided, powerless, delusional, fantasizing, unfocused, lazy, disrespectful, and thus easily controlled by the establishment/system/leaders.
Duh. Fucking duh.
If instead people were taught logical things such as “Accept and support anyone who naturally wishes to lead/help you, and who is good at it.” then the humans/masses would have real change/progress within DAYS, let alone YEARS and generATIONS.
but they were engineered, bred, and raised to be spineless fools, and that is what they are, time and time again.
“No one found evidence” of a big or lost civilization in the amazon? You mean they lied, claiming that was the case, to cover up what either is still there, perhaps a vampire community, or to cover up the fact they massacred and demolished it.
The retarded peasants of bs pestering me to eat the burger there…is pretty much identical to Percy Jackson scene in the casino where the evil minions keep pestering the new kids/arrivals to eat the flower dessert / hors douevres sp
“disease and brutality killed them all” actually translates as “We make up creepy lies because we don’t like admitting that the people out there escaped enslavement by us. None of them got wiped out, and diseases cannot be spread; all disease is based on poisoning, not germs/contagions. The people out there are probably still successfully operating out of our control, hidden in ways our tech’ cannot detect, because they are smarter and more advanced than we could ever hope to be. We hope enough idiots in our own failed civilization will gullibly believe and mindlessly parrot our narrative/lie about plagues causing lost-civilization collapses… that those idiots keep being our working class, too idiotically scared of straying from their drug addictions which we advertise as (pretend are) medicine they “need”.”
The “forest-fire risk” 1-5 scale is prob based on whether resources are already working on a fire, not whether a region is actually dry and easily ignitable.
“Whatever you do, just don’t isolate.” Only a retarded evildoer says something like that; it assumes a negative. More than one, actually; assumes only it knows what is best, assumes I am not thinking clearly, assumes that isolation is somehow bad, assumes that isolation is Always bad, assumes it has a right to speak to me that way, assumes I need guidance, assumes it can practice medicine, etc.. –
If that demonic bitch had at least been neutral/objective, it would have said something more like, “I appreciate any communication I get, I am sure things will work out no matter What you sense is the right way for you, and isolation has definitely helped some very historic individuals.” –
If a Good person, she would have said something like, “You have always been the one to make it when the rest did not, only you know what is best for you, and I will fund you the rest of the way.”
It takes an extra pathetic man, with way too much time on his hands, to use his issued truck to try and scare an innocent veteran who didn’t hurt or threaten anyone. Imagine having so little to do, and sew few morals, that you chose to abuse your power to bully people, all over hearsay, not having witnessed anything. That stems from getting ppl used to sitting in church weekly, assuming whatever they are told by a stranger about someone they have never met (another stranger; “god”)… is true. It doesnt even occur to them to think, much less confirm. I never thought I’d be bullied by such tyrrants, not after serving honorably, going back to college, and devoting my life to helping those in need. Hopefully his unthinking unquestioning dumbass took the vax and sterilized himself.
It was never about love Or respect, as they claimed; if it Was, they would have loved and respected Me. What they Actually were after was ppl oBeying them and living the way They wanted others to… while they themselves didn’t give a Damn about what Others wanted from Them. “Waaaaa respect me while i Disrespect You!” “Waaaa obey my rules while i ignore even your most basic boundaries!”
Oh, the off the charts retardation and irony of that fb poster commenting how they saw a woodpecker peck open the heads of baby bords and eat their brains… when that poster almost certainly does the same thing; eats eggs.
lol at ppl just Now saying they are vax injured; if you were born ugly, you were vax injured long ago
Did that retard cunt judgy typical basic bitch carrie gross say the xmas bs, and text harass me, bc it was reverse psychology meant to deTer me from calling again? No, she was really that stupid and rude.
I sleep and work FAR btr n my current vehic than i did in Any rental. My given job gives me so much meaning, peace, and pride, far more than all prev jobs.
..but prob with GOOD ppl for once, the reverse would be true; I’ve only lost sleep in nice bedrooms due to BAD HUMANS, NEVER due to being inside or on a bed
Why is it that i look handsome in some pics, and freakishly deformed in others? Were the former or latter photoshopped? Was magic involved?
It became clear that humans only wanted to harm everything around them, and even themselves. It became clear that thry got off to bothering innocent people. It hecame clear that the only justice would come when I dispensed it myself. It became clear that piracy and everything else I was brainwashed to be against… were the only keys and tools to an appropriate life.
No matter how perfect the females are, they were used as bait, they never behaved how they should, loser betaboys always interfered, i can’t enjoy kissing or hearing them, they never identify themselves, they never helped like normal ppl would, their kind are literal rapists and murderers, as untrustworthy to me and all others as it gets, they never showed up when i was n the mood, they are breeder risks, they don’t even know How to spawn correctly even if i Trusted them to spawn, etc.; they made themselves pointless. Shame on them all for being so late and incompetent.
…and really, none of them are perfect until they learn REAL manners.
until then, they may as well be gender-disrespecting, borderline-trans scum/insanes.
they may as well be comPletely uneducated.
It makes me smile that the flawless “tens” women tried for years to hook up w me, even when i was ugly and poor. They were prob heartless scammers, agents of the controlfreaks, but still; i reached the best posb lovelife; hottest + options + everywhere.
even before phase3 began
..although it can be argued that only when the vibe/behavior is correct, and I accept their offers, and their offers are legitimate, and they treat me correctly, is it the best posb. level of lovelife, but still.
Still getting texts from blocked nbrs; the programmers and service providers should be crucified alongside the harassers
Doesnt matter if others already thought of what i thought of.
Doesnt matter if i sometimes wrote simple or obvious concepts.
What matters is i wrote the truth, and showed my true colors, and tried to help others, and did so charitably, and did so in spite of death threats from evil soulless scum.
Doc wasnt trying to teach or help me; his vibe and eyes and words are all in alignment with evil/underhanded.
He was trying to brainwash me into rejecting my own instincts/senses, undoing my natural worthy emotions/reactions,
and accepting any “teammate” just based on them staring at me after the celestine scam book placed in my path wrongly advised that.
If doc had been at least neutral, he wouldnt have minded Or agreed with my nature.
If he had been good, he would have loved my nature, and told me Not to try controlling my emotions.
And that is the key word w his kind; they are always after conTrol.
Ugly? Sure, but i did all i could to improve it;
I worked out, ate healthily, ended my acne/zits, grew my hair, tanned, etc.
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Poor? Sure, but I travel, eat well, tried investing multiple times, tried saving, etc.
..
Weak? Maybe by Some standards, but I used to be bedridden, and now I ascend mountains barefoot, sleep in below freezing temp’s, and proved my strength as a Marine Infantryman, combatant, and Instructor.
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Unemployed? Yes, but by choice, my calling far more important than accepting inappropriate pay for unrelated work not using my many talents.
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Betrayed/Abandoned? More times than I can count / have kept track of, …but the tables turn.
–and in phase2, I finally got to counter-attack, and did, always dispensing holy karma, at last –at least a start
1615 to 2024 is roughly 20 generations
30,000 descendants over that time would be
1st generation: 1 child
2nd gen: that gen1 child + 1 child = 2
3rd: 4 (gen2 child has 2 children)
4 8 (keep doubling as est. of total descendants, not just currenly alive per gen’)
5 16
6 32
7 64
8 128
9 256
10 512
11 1,024
12 2,048
13 4,096
14 8,192
15 16,384
16 32,768 –Thus it is realistic to claim 30,000 confirmed descendants from 1 couple over this period of time.
17 posb. 65,536
18 etc.
19
20
Like their gods and food and healthcare and politics and advances, their courts are fake. Their accusations are fake. Their convos are fake, always with evil ulterior motives.
..
I suppose it was best that those courts i gave chances to did evil every time; now that I have witnessed they are always corrupt, i will never risk trusting/submitting to any of them once i finally have wealth and things to lose.
Phase1: forced to go to court,
then just pressured/tricked to,
then bitched at when I stood my ground,
then none even trying to tell me to,
thus eventually this progression becomes courts doing My will, forcing Others to show up to answer to Me.
All species on this outer surface might have been meant to go extinct during the last cataclysm, and were saved to do the evil will of the humanimals. Why else are they so easily trained to be evil, too?
I hadnt chosen my next vehicles b4, thus got this one.
But then i Did choose All my vehicles to come, so let’s see when Those manifest for me
When I am rich, I will have homecooking every day…made by the most beautiful women on the planet, never having to go to restaurants again, but being able to afford restaurants 3x every day w big tips.
..and I’ll never have to resort to these goddamn psycho grocery stores anymore; no more masktards, mutants, degenerates, rude bitches ruining their own bodies, fake food, poison food, rape-based and murder-based “food”, etc.
Did erin figure out she needed to tactically pretend to be nonvegan…to lower the ‘heat’ (harassment) on her (from the humanimals/evildoers/false ones)…while continuing to ‘test the waters’ w/via other truths? Or did she really get replaced by a.i.deepfake?
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(Current) “Erin” maybe a.i. (deepfake+chatbot) bc dark simple hair not styled up blonde like b4, and paler skin now, and calculated how to alienate without insulting me (instead of what real-Erin would have done; be thrilled at my similar calling/work, and that I genuinely believe in what she is doing, etc.)
Real-Erin would have just said she can foresee and sense things, and that we need to do another year or so of work separately, but that she wants to keep in touch, etc.
Real-Erin would not have defaulted to real fear or pretend fear / melodrama. She wouldn’t be that stupid/blatant/failed.
Real-Erin was brave af, and intelligent, clearly visible in her eyes, and clearly heard in her voice.
current-erin behaves Nothing like real erin, even though she did put out that wise and well-made anti-deathcult video.
more phase2-mixed ugh. whatever.
she’ll get better/normal later, I suppose/hope.
Would i have still discovered time travel and the other things if i had put up w the bad behavior? Maybe.
Maybe i would have been shown even More; a tradeoff.
My instinct told me to wait for good manners and signs, though.
Rmbr how badly it went when i Did tolerate bad behavior; corps, ame, jls, etc.
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Should i not have gone looking for loops at ambi sighting spots? Well, going out there showed me the lie or time loop at vegas tat etc.
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I am proud of the work i thought up and completed in spite of the poisoning and absenteeism.
Again, i could never have wrapped up this much this soon if not for the bad behavior (abandonment, etc.), trusting my instincts, and so on.
Phase1 boogers on wall lol
Phase2 on knee lol
It is far btr to feel all emotions, in their natural times, than the brainwashing default positive-about-everything bullshit fake/programmed ’emotion’ of the spineless humans.
I’ll gladly take real anger and disgust over fake/demanded tolerance/’happiness’/’love’ every time.
maybe I’m a clone…being used for imagination…and to test things before they are offered to the Other me? Lol maybe, but then why am i shown ambi, sabrina, time travel, the ideal diet, etc.?
were all those tv shows not just made-up plots trying to be creative/unique and not break copyright law…
but actually disclosure and prep to help me understand/name the phenomena I would years later encounter/cause/wield?
Did the Anunnaki make the retarded humans who always lie…
and the fake religion entirely based on miswording/twisting the Real faiths/gods/spells/stories…
as a way to keep things locked/stuck in a back-and-forth / tug-of-war preventing any further kings/ascension/stability/progress?
How else can I explain / make sense of why the VAST majority of humans met so far… had NO ability to think or even beHave?
How could THAT MANY “people” “shoot themselves in the foot” over and over, even to the point of slow suicide masquerading as “normal”/”good” “long” life?
Surely they were tinkered with / genetically/educationally sabotaged.
typist more than once saying how intimidated by me she used to feel…
makes me wonder if that ambi woman irl… wasn’t being a moron or a cunt, but was intimidated, too.
still, it was DEAD WRONG to wear that mask, and to let me be poisoned, and to not use its shadows superpowers to terrorize/payback/enslave my enemies.
It is immensely enjoyable to me that the retarded shittalkers who insulted my looks… all ended up with hideous mutant yeti wives and even uglier spawns.
I didnt even have to spellcast that!
Never tell me to default to gratitude.
Earn my gratitude by being a good person.
Duh.
Rebel Moon’s coal room in the hovering space dreadnought… might make sense if we factor in a galaxy or universe/dimension with much closer worlds, and far less complex tech’ developed… because those Titan heads had not yet petrified or decomposed, or been intentionally hidden away, locked up, or destroyed. Maybe those heads made it possible to sense and navigate to the worlds still remembered in those heads, and the coal and grain was still necessary because there was no need for FTL with how close worlds were.
wed25sep2024 9:58a: ‘caught’ a typo of an entire numbered-bulletnotes para/list/sec in LHS Martial Arts; the tan-armband and pink-armband subset belt-colors were switched, having been drafted to this webpg several years ago and not noticed until now.
Maybe the real reason russia retook ukraine isnt just bc nato corrupted and stole it from them, but bc i was planning a trip there, thus they wanted to purge some of its evildoers so i could have a btr first visit.
Ambi butterflies (incl. in many of her art/shares/RP) hint at her being from heaven?…but i am heaven
No, the typist’s “butterflies are someone in heaven watching over you” comment is just regurgitated deathcult nonsense/rudeness/assumption.
Phase1 was no choices; all was forced –rudely, violently
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Phase2 was all Bad choices; evil offers that would still leave/keep me artificially poor and unable to complete my life’s work…
or same poverty but conplete my life’s work and not have to deal with unstable druggie neighbors and roomtards.
The choice was clear.
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Phase3: I decide all, all others having to live by what I decide for them –and the good beings always like this, as their nature is to follow me, as I am the natural leader, evident.
How “adorably retarded” of the humans to think that they have a right to threaten or talk down to me after they put up signs… while/after they spent the last 41 years intentionally ignoring all My signs and rules and needs.
Have to resort to these places,
or Get to enjoy them at a leisurely pace? Both. Fucking phase2.
It is possible that ambi met 4x…was a bot…but idc about that as much as having power over the bad humans.
I know i must wait and only accept vamp goddess ambi.
Anyway, it is posb i was mad at a bot…who was just programmed to be a cunt as part of its calibration or lifelike mannerisms.
Very nice to see that news of a hurricane threatening lives,
and news of the forest service budget cut and paused hiring.
The news has always lied, but hopefully those 2 stories are true in some way.
Goddamn them all. Fucking soulless morons.
Corps trng toughened me up a Lot, and rekindled my artist essence like woh.
Now, this solo trng for even More yrs, I now think, has further toughened and crystalized me.
I wonder why they needed consent to drug me w weed or vax,
but never needed consent to disrespect and scam and outcast me…
And why no consent with cooking nonvegan garbage when I was little?
Why no consent to harass me religiously and sexually?
Strange that they demanded I eat and behave the evil way… but then switched to needing consent… decades later.
Maybe the enslaved animals weren’t meant to survive, thus they are only allowed to exist while being kept in that torturous “food” system.
Maybe it is a generational curse they already deserved after being moody and hurtful beFore the last cataclysm.
Even if i return, and all events happen at same times as this time, it doesnt ci firm area triggers Or time travel; it may be a manifestation power, or holograms, or tricks/psyop, or many things. Would need a way to isolate and confirm variables before concluding. Can only speculate until then.
It may be that Greys aren’t Making hybrid human-aliens; all current humans Are that hybrid race/species. And ppl focusing on microscopic and Space stuff…may be doing so bc it was engineered or bred into their ancestors to go deep endlessly; to mine for minerals, thus they manifest endless additional layers and tech and depth, doomed to become infinitely faraway and overcomplicated, incabale of stopping themselves from inadvertently manifesting withOut holding any vision To manifest Well/reSponsibly. – and maybe so many humans always chose the wrong behavior, always reaching wrong conclusions, bc they were Programmed to –to keep things unstable, bad feeling, this ideas/brainstorming stirred, thus more complexity / complexity maintained.
If “tim schaub” hadnt been pure evil and retarded, he wouldnt have been a glutton, and he would have told me his real name, why he was there, and that i obviously Didnt have it made, working for minimum wage while forced to live w my abusive fake relatives who eat rape gel (cheese) and corpse flesh. He would have helped, not tried to betray me. He would have sympathized, not had pure evil gleam in his soulless shallow brainless eyes when revealing he was a spy misusing his tech. But it still worked out; i avoided his heartless setup, his treachery against heroes and pioneers, against those with souls and spines and standards. And now tax cattle losers like him pay all my bills. THEY are the prisoners. Amen.
Propaganda promoting pointless default individuality, while attempting to demonize/shame/criminalize normal ppl stating their boundaries… is not to support ppl/nature, but to add complexity, thus differences, thus keep/further divide the working class, making them more and more against each other…until civil war returns. That is why some were programmed to be religtards, some politards, some pharmatards, some queers, some so unstable they chop off their own sex parts, etc.
Steered? At times, definitely; back when the corrupt govt lapdog betaboys were directly talking shit, having their tantrums, etc.. But whether i am Still being steered, or just happening to return to these places, the days with no signal have made it posb for me to review my creations and notice typos that I would never have otherwise.
On the bright side, at least the evil humans don’t/can’t Hide tueir evil/retardation; it would be worse if they somehow could preTend to be smart and genuine. Thankfully, they knew nothing of body language, critical thinking / objectivity, logic, vibes, etc.. For a species which made so many indistries which reQuire lying, it is surprising that they have any success at all; they aren’t even good at the lies their scams reQuire, except when further harming and reducing their own Kind.
How can dave and that other retard work hard labor for a full shift after poisoning themselves amd staying up all night? They got at Most 1hr of sleep… Bots?
knowing how meddlesome hyper-fag beta bitchboy Tom was/is, I would be surprised if he Hadn’t been responsible for hiring/paying those scumbag ‘veterans’ in Alaska to make sure I was treated horribly;
he would have, as always, miscalculated, thinking it would stop me from traveling that far out from CONUS,
when all it does it guaranTee I travel even Farther
(bc when CONUS showed me it was pure evil, and then alaska did, the only logical thing is to keep looking Elsewhere, NOT to acquiesce to Either of those evil failed lands/areas).
if typist really didn’t see that gigantic blazing cross in the dead center of that image she sent, she is a goddamn fool of all fools, utterly unspeakably pathetic/’blind’,
and if she Did see it, and sure SURELY Did, she is panic-lying, no different than the lfb-retard-bitch-demon.
Either way, she has catastrophically fucked up… aGain,
and she was already on thin ice after her “within the year or so” doc2-style false-hope / false-prophecy bullshit.
so many taught/showed me their shameful kind give false maydays;
never help their kind again.
amen.
they earned it. they deserve it. they get it; zero help forevermore.
only catastrophy/cataclysm like what they kept doing to Me.
they must be forced to learn and change/stop.
Revs3.
I didnt have to finish rjh to anm,
I didnt have to finish anm to usmc,
I finished my usmc contract, not having to be a lifer,
and I didnt have to finish my books to do the website (megaspell rendering books arguably lastgen, if not obsolete);
I dont have to finish all pc sorting or uploads to now have my 364cabin w real Ambi.
sat28sep night: left ear clicks much worse, almost guaranteed every few seconds, but still manage to fall asleep. All the gods and humans truly are worthless; all those goddamn fake ENTs, and all that goddamn praying did nothing to help what should have healed instantly, or never been posb in the first place. Hopefully forcing pt will focus enough on something else that it eventually gets righted.
My concern about not having stuff to do or ppl to already be around… isnt actual instinct, but an indicator of brainwashing/pressure;
instinct guides me correctly,
and attempting to team up as I was for years advised and urged to Always was a disaster due to how stupid and evil humans were.
It has been exTremely healing and helpful in general, isolating and slowing down, taking daily breaks, Not being forced/demanded to hurry all day and night, pausing only to sleep.
This slowing down is actually a return to normal/self, and allowed the Inisfree wisdom/revelation to come through in years/decades instead of centuries or never.
Thus I shall continue adjusting to the goodness that is this new/natural pace.
doesn’t matter if me locking on the deathcult asshole for the latest time delays or prevents the az bitch from returning;
she made me wait too long even back during oregon 2016ish,
and prob wasn’t coming anyway,
and clearly after oceanside is a heartless scumbag,
so whatever; let her continue not being in my life.
I’m used to it by now.
just like everyone else, that bitch apparently/clearly is.
Revs3.
I didnt have to finish rjh to anm,
I didnt have to finish anm to usmc,
I finished my usmc contract, not having to be a lifer,
and I didnt have to finish my books to do the website (megaspell rendering books arguably lastgen, if not obsolete);
I dont have to finish all pc sorting or uploads to now have my 364cabin w real Ambi.
My concern about not having stuff to do or ppl to already be around… isnt actual instinct, but an indicator of brainwashing/pressure;
instinct guides me correctly,
and attempting to team up as I was for years advised and urged to Always was a disaster due to how stupid and evil humans were.
It has been exTremely healing and helpful in general, isolating and slowing down, taking daily breaks, Not being forced/demanded to hurry all day and night, pausing only to sleep.
This slowing down is actually a return to normal/self, and allowed the Inisfree wisdom/revelation to come through in years/decades instead of centuries or never.
Thus I shall continue adjusting to the goodness that is this new/natural pace.
All “ppl” I’ve met were the false one’s failed and pathetic attempt at mimicking actual people.
Apparently real ppl were long gone, only fools and cunts left.
Them always overreacting = going to extremes,
and then me doing Anything can Never be “going to extremes”; even if it Seems extreme, it would only be fair, balanced, and proportional to what was done to Me.
It never even ocCured to them to ask my side of the story, or to even tell me what they were worried or mad about,
thus they kept showing up to threaten me, and I didn’t even know why.
They defaulted to negativity and wrongness, and I kept defaulting to positivity and trying to communicate.
They really are the perfect slaves to the false system; they are unthinking lapdogs, unstable and hostile to the end.
It is evident they cannot hold a single logical or complex thought; they only have the ability to posture/threaten after misinterpreting everything.
It is like if someone read a random book page, and just one word on that page, and then wanted to murder the author, no matter which word was read, all because it wasn’t what they had already been programmed to have read To them, no matter whether it was in alignment with their own brainwashing; anyone at all, anyThing at all, triggers them, keeping them at war, even with the people who tried to be kind and helpful to them.
Just like with those retards who got in the way when i was driving to the clinic to stop another monster from making yet another monster with zero vision or consent or heart; it didnt even ocCur to them to ask my side; they defaulted to assuming I was wrong and ignorant, and they made an already bad situation caused by one of their own… that much worse.
Thus they shall always be disintegrated on sight from now on.
Amen.
Even if they lack the ability to imagine and understand, they are still at fault; bc I didnt ask for workers that stupid/devolved.
Just like they needlessly trapped and hurt all the animals, they laid traps and tried to scare/hurt Me –even when I wasnt trying to be loving or a teacher; when i was standing alone in the rain, making a tiny fire in a fire circle with firewood provided, left there prob to trick innocent ppl.
After how everyone spoke to me, No one deserves a conversation from me.
After how rude and hateful and evil they were to me and other innocents, no one deserves my kindness.
No, females aren’t controlled by the lunar cycle; that is cowardly spineless blameshifting conveniently to things which cannot speak for themselves, same as blaming germs or demons or politicians.
Even if she was building all I designed, and saving it as a surprise, that still doesnt make up for her shit behavior, negligence, cunt vibe in meeting3, evil eyes in meeting2, idiotic mixed signals in meeting1, deathcult traitor typist for decades, or the fact I deserved at Least updates IN HER OWN VOICE, NOT GODDAMN TEXTS.
They train rudeness and idiocy and laziness, and make light of it, bc they know it maintains division, infighting, distraction, weakness, addiction, etc.,
and I wouldn’t have any reason to care –if I hadn’t had to grow up on the receiving end of it.
I still did great work while managing my ideas;
workers don’t have to lack imagination or independent/critical thinking in order to stay in one place and work daily.
Ppl stay put when they feel they have a good network and meaningful work.
Making them mindless/rude just makes their work take longer bc they alienate all useful potential teammates.
Good environments help, too, but good environments drop stress, thus mean fewer profits for the fake healthcare workers.
Bitch isnt limited to mirroring my energy; for years and years, my energy was great, even in spite of being a t.i., yet she never showed, let alone Matched my energy…
and when my energy was low, sometimes she showed Anyway.
She was random, or may as well have Been random; she never explained why she showed when she did, nor why she acted stupid and then left.
So, no, her energy is not dependent on me.
I was present and ready. She was absent.
She doesnt get any credit for avoiding interrupting my idea/s / final wrapup… until she somehow proves that was her real motivation, which she can’t.
The rude stupid ones, and the rude retarded ones, and the hideous ones, were prob all sent in hopes that it would make me acquiesce to the barely-attractive barely-intelligent ones, but all those demographics/groups showed me was that All of them are pathetic, failed, and unacceptable,
and that No one was policing their communities or nations correctly.
Finally letting go of her dumbass causes her to be replaced, and Anything is btr than a loser who never was there for me. She just rogered uo to collect her unearned nightly makebelieve goodnights. Coincides w New Moon
All communities and bloodlines proved evil, thus there is no collateral damage; the whole world is green for sentencing.
Lol at how retardedly they undermined themselves;
they made all conversations pointless and unpleasant, so now their go-to method of stalling is always shut down before it can begin,
they showed me even the govt officials are untrustworthy honorless fools, so they ended the taxes they were paying themselves with from me,
they showed me all females are deformed and rude and stupid as fuck, so the breeding they wanted from me can never happen,
and they even showed me 4x in a row, if not 5 or more, that the one woman I Still would have dared to trust… is just like all of them, thus shot themselges in the foot and head on even That attempted seduction.
They even showed me that doing free work for them Still results in the same worst-possible lies and slander, so I don’t even Look for jobs, let alone apply, let alone gice them a chance to pay me proportionately.
They harassed me at my private property, so I never pay them rent or let them know where I am anymore.
They phonebombed me for Years, so I never answer anymore calls or texts.
Why would they keep destroying their own income and chances like that?
Truly retarded.
“You will know them by their works.” I know the gods by their works now; they are evil idiots who fail at everything, ruining every wouldbe heavenly experience on purpose. Damn them all. God damn the gods.
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I guess we need to angelically nuke the angels themselves now, since they didnt wanna show up when needed.
They randomly dumped trash in the waters, so now the waters randomly dump ashore.
“You hurt my feeeeeeliiiiings waaaa.” said the nonvegan drug abuser giving people cancer from 2nd-hand.
Phase2 isnt about ALL things staying stable; it’s about finishing off those hanging on when they should have died during phase1.
Phase2 is about Me becoming More and comPletely stable –without anymore phase1 losers using me as their escapism crutch, whining at me for an undeserved and unpaid Boyfriend experience.
Sending that cross a 2nd time…
Bitch may as well have sent a picture of me being murdered,
or wished that her fake god magically take my life’s work and calling and essence out of me like jls did.
Might as well have sent a trans promo.
100 dead… later update: maybe 300
>10,000 homes destroyed –and >100,000 damaged in western NC alone
>15,000 w/o power in Indianapolis alone
>1M power outages / without power
>100B$ damage
even Indianapolis lost power; hundreds of miles from path, and ~1,000miles from worst damage
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Lol they wouldnt let me go to my city, and now They can’t get to Theirs 😀
(the east-half storm-turds)
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October:
Even if All of them miraculously started behaving correctly, I would still continue the attks; that’s what their kind did to Me no matter How loyal and hardworking I was. Fuck them. I’m happy to take all their assets surrendered Or by force; win win for Me.
As always like her failed kind, jls lied and blatantly so, baselessly alleging/claiming/pretending/wishing that it is unnatural to lead, yet hypocritically following her cult ldr, while attempting to lead Me. Reality is that it is unnatural to try and Stop leaders such as Me From leading, and only unnatural for natural leaders to lead those who are not natural Followers Of that particular leader. Duh. The only time unnatural pressure is on someone is when he/she is forced to endure being around incompatible morons/liars/evildoers. The only unnatural pressure I ever detected/felt was when i was prevented From leading how my instincts/blood know I should.
My instincts never told me that celestine book was correct, only mildly interesting, and every encounter, incl w the staring ppl, reconfirmed my instincts were correct in Not validating the claim of that psyop of a book series.
>160dead, hundreds more missing!
Whether it was my atmokinesis or not, or another fake news story or not, it is always nice to hear that the evildoers lost >100B$.
doc2’s evil dumbass trying to TELL me who my soulmate is…
wasn’t an innocent vision, nevermind an accurate one.
ALL his “visions”/claims proved wrong, if not also intentionally false; lies.
also, they boil down to someone other than Me trying to steer MY LIFE.
If he’d been neutral, he would have ASKED what MY vision is, then respected it, NEVER telling me what HIS vision is for ME.
if he’d been GOOD, he would have Known what my vision is for my own life, and offered to help me manifest/guaranTee it. DUH.
I know/sense/see/choose all. I am god. Amen.
as long as I am not invited into that cabin, and paid to live there, and as long as I am not yet in my completed city,
EVERYone Else will be rendered homeless/cityless, TOO. AMEN.
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as long as Humans default to assuming negatives about Me,
Iii will default to being negative about all of Them And the “gods”;
clean up your Mess, “GODS” –and even when you Finally get SOMEthing corRECT, you will Still be worthless ‘boots’ in my eyes, and Still be talked down to.
You will get EXACTLY what YOUR creation/responsibility gave Me.
What you did to Me shall be done to all of You forEVER. AMEN.
and as long as You play games (such as standing there, pretending not to notice me, or wanting me to change who/how I am to chase you), Iii will play my Own games, MIRRORING YOURS.
respect would have been sufficient BEFORE YOU WERE RUDE and MANIPULATIVE.
but now that you Were those inexcusable/unforgiveable things, respect is the BARE MINIMUM; you’ll Also have to Pay me Taxes FOREVER –and not just monetary ones.
If my city had been built on time, and my rapture campaign completed, I would have allowed the surviving/spared humans a chance to build unharassed for 3 centuries before being evicted from Earth,
but that didn’t happen, and further disrespect was done to me, so now I will hit them with more-costly mega-storms and more, over and over, until the same eviction deadline. Amen.
why would I tell Anyone Anything at this point?;
they spy on me, so they should already know,
it is easy to figure out; I am just being normal,
I already explained it many times,
they got made every time I told the truth or even kindly complimented them,
after what I’ve learned about their “food” and “healthcare” industries, they deserve no talking/guidance from me AT ALL,
etc..
so, no, there is not a chance in Hell I would Ever tell any of these humans/Earthlings how to get through again.
Deal with it.
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also, they never give Me a fucking clue/hint/help, so why the fuck should I give Them one?
Maybe these dreams where I attack evildoers, yet little happens to them, are some kind of roundabout way of telling me that the time to strike in Waking is not yet.
Either way, nice to strike at the evildoers, and see them just accept it, not fighting back. That’s a step in the right direction; all other beings accepting whatever I dole out.
my energy used to be bullied into surging, then retards tried to shame me for not enjoying witnessing abuses.
now, my energy still surges, but I channel/harness/use it.
I used to rarely ever get out of the cities I was started in, or the bases,
but now I am rarely ever in cities, let alone bases; total reversal.
Until they stop making me feel uncomfortable and misunderstood, i obv shall not engage w any of them.
Lol!; they became enraged when I shared mutual love with females I was attracted to, talking shit and even screaming, then got mad again when I wouldn’t go for females They wanted Me to share love with! Talk about retarded unnatural meddlers. Attentionwhores to the end.
Clearly Any tech is undeserved by humans; they misused it All. Even Females they did not deserve.
Starc nuke tests on circles of medics and carriers. New idea!
hopefully not just another nice idea, but a vision of what is happening in my future: My 4 from ambi ask me to let them help me flip, so we do the basic cheerleader-assist moves, starting with them at my sides, bold stances, arms around me to guide me when I initiate the back jump. They stay around me to help me rise and fall; they toss and catch me. It pays to have and love superhuman children.
so happy such an evil store got flooded; Boone, NC, wally
https://www.facebook.com/reel/533095669128364
how phase2 of us both; she spied without helping,
and showed up without talking,
and I stood there without unleashing on her for spying and not helping.
I could have had a more negative reaction, but even my Thoughts were considering that maybe, hopefully, she had a tolerable excuse, such as foreseeing the work I ended up completing these past few years.
“likely to end up in jail or shot” was a psyop written At me, Not a joke in a quiz made for All; it was default neg, default extreme, default baseless, and default lying; their kind Can’t jail Or shoot me. Of they could, they Would have by now. They definitely Wanted to. All they can do is talk/bluff/frighten. Plus, it was wrong of them to suggest that others are in power, vs me. Oh, and it should be reversed; those who Aren’t like me ruin their own Lives by acCepting “minor inconveniences” which actually indicate t.i.. Duh. And anyone attempting to shoot or jail me would end up karmically dooming themselves.
Was ambi n oceanside choosing to offend me so these last few yrs would be easier; via less longing? No, i think her vibe was dark in a bad way; moody, intentionally rude, etc.. She had growing to do. She was like all the others so far; immature, not ready, unworthy of me.
Wgi is closer to 365 stories tall, but its uppermost floors are taller.
Feasting and fasting…ongoing…prob helping me have and rmbr so many more of these dreams or whatever they are.
I am the only legitimate federal power, my territory naturally all that exists, and the only legit state authorities are those i appoint; the hotties unlocked/commissioned as goddesses always eagerly subordinate/submissive to me.
Playing starc these extra times gave me Great ideas; not trivial/passtime at all
Unlike in that standard evil hollywood template movie where john travolta character was dumb, suddenly became smart, then a madeup cancer was blameshifted to, causing death of the savior/hero, just like in the irl madeup relig (deathcult’s ebonics-like failed attempt to mimic Actual religions), i was born smart, they Tried to give me cancers by poisoning me, i figured that out and healed/doctored myself, and kept getting smarter. No blamimg a flash of light, like n the movie which was obvious terrorism attempting to scare ppl away from light/wisdom. The humans were the cancer, and They were the ones that ended, not me, the wise savior. And iii am the proverbial flash (sudden) light (wisdom/daybreak/awakening). Humans were the flash of Darkness, though in the moment it Seemed long…bc they had a few decades until i finished testing them and shutting their op down. In the movie, one man came to quiz travolta char’ directly, but in My life it was always subtle, lies, cover stories from them, most hiding remotely via internet, and iii ended up testing them all the same Way.
b/c police have retractable spike-strips while driving, we have tires that don’t hold air
and tire net deployers, we have repulsines and portals etc.
The ringing and other ear issue was likely not chance or side effect, but specifically caused, first after trying to kill me, they wanting at least distracting ringing to destabilize and fatigue me, but i found how to restabilize, and refocused btr than b4, and then they added the other ear sound, but that also only refocused me, i now comPletely focused, accepting No distractions or excuses, and getting ideas and rmbring dreams faster and btr than ever.
Wonderful classical on 107.1 FM:
“selections from swan lake”
Peter (Pyotr) Tchaikovsky
Londons royal opera house, covent garden
Mark andler sp (just jotting this down based on what radio guy said after the music)
over by 7:57pm, 2024sep30mon
phase1 playing starcraft amidst evil fake relatives, curfew, hw, clothed, etc.
phase2 lol upgrade to playing starc for free, half-naked, no curfew, drafting versions of my own for this game
phase3 prob naked, as a god, my games developed, not just alpha or beta forms, mass-produced/-played in my realm
My reactions are Never phase1/neg, bc they are always pos’-/natural-Me. This phase isnt for me to “get over” anything; it is for me to finish/fully embrace My nature/reactions, and for all Other ppl to learn to obey and acCept me. THEY r the ones who need to “get Over” stuff, such as their dumbass/retarded reSistance of me. IOW: I don’t need to give chances again, or dare to trust again, but to accept and make my norm what I witnessed Working, which includes maintaining this standard/line, requiring All hotties and deities to submit WholeHeartedly to me. Amen.
Bodycount approaching 300,
and numerous ppl saying it is downplayed, locals saying what is needed most is bodybags
Even if the Helene news is fake like all the plague/pandemic lies, it’s still nice to finally at least See News/Claims of cataclysm.
Now to cause it diRectly; atmok’ in Person.
that bitch who kept showing up, like all women apparently, is prob attracted to power;
she senses my power, and wanted to see if there was a way of looking/presenting herself which would leverage her looks to gain access to my power,
and each time she saw there was no way to seduce me.
She kept coming back even though I, a poor ugly man, kept rejecting her bad behavior.
She has been showing up for years, more than just the 3 main/obvious times; rockwall, butte, waikiki, etc., and maybe/probably More places I have not yet noticed.
Maybe she is done showing up, but… maybe she WAS done showing up… until the Helene thing…
We shall see.
Either way, I only accept total power,
and the most beautiful women,
and ALL the most beautiful women,
only PERFECT women,
and only the Best behavior.
Thus I have again rejected and ended things with the goddamn typist/middlewoman;
even if she Hadn’t snapped at me like the fool she is, after all the wrong shit she said/advised,
it would Still be wrong to just preTend to have good behavior;
texting/rp is Never acceptable enough, no matter How much brainstorming and wrapup it leads to.
discovering starcraft Replay, and 16x gamespeed… neat lol
They play games, i play games.
Maybe that wasnt pele at the breezeway; maybe that was a model sent to lure me off course, and pele was enraged that the humans would be that rude and sinister against a man who loves her. Maybe she erupted on my behalf.
“The nice way” was attempted in phase1.
Neutral way was attempted in phase2.
Now it is time for the justice way.
I think that fat shorthaired beardless (almost trans bc of that) deskmolesting retard crybaby at usace wasnt just joking but trying to condescend about my sexbots, and lol that he failed at even being rude; a failure in all ways, just like the rest of his species.
Paul, I think his name was… What a fatfuck and complete retard non-man. Standard american nobody.
Everyone will be judged and sentenced based on those who treated me worst; the glutton at the fake party who tried blindfold suck deceiving me,
the nigger who screamed in my ear in the corrupt cps office,
the mic midget who assault me with pliers,
those who led me to fake courts,
those who tried to poison me to death,
those who refused to heal me,
the glutton pig w gleam in his eyes,
the utah wigger cop excited to rob me, etc.
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the cunts who turned their nose up at me,
the cunts who got mad at me for answering questions they asked,
the cunts who got mad at me for being healthy,
the liars who slandered me, accusing me of being a communist even though I have never been anything even close,
the people who assaulted me when I didn’t even know them, let alone have had a chance to piss them off,
the cunts who didn’t get my obvious jokes,
the controlfreaks who tried to pressure/order me to limit my own freedom of speech,
the traitors and terrorists in my own military units who kept committing felony-level crimes I had to put up with,
those who forced me into the underground/sketchy life/jobs,
everyone who took money/payment when they should have been Giving me money (which is basically everyone I ever paid for anything),
everyone who forced me out of my rentals, then tried to keep charging me after breaking the agreement we had made,
every liar on the internet, radio, tv, everywhere,
everyone who pretended to not notice me,
everyone who got mad at me for politely letting them decide if they wanted to talk,
every hideous freak/creature I never asked for,
every gorgeous area ruined by humans/evildoers/degenerates,
everyone who knowingly interrupted my needed sleep,
everyone who got mad at me for complimenting them,
everyone who accused me of indecency with children when all I did was say I liked the movies they were already talking about,
everyone who thought they had the right to spy and kill, even though it was against innocent strangers, while preventing justice being done by people in the right who DID know their targets,
everyone who made an appointment with me and then ghosted,
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and by those nigger cult members who disrespected me at my own doorstep,
and their nigger neighborhood vandals who cut open my jeep, left their nigger footprints on my seats on purpose, because they are dirty in multiple ways, and used their nigger hands to steal the dogtags hanging from my rearview mirror.
May ALL THEIR (whole kind’s) vehicles (every vehicle owned by anyone like them, the world over) get cut open, stepped on with dirty footwear, and stolen from. Amen.
When i Was n the mood, they made Sure i could Never experience love, and when i Wasnt n the mood…they thought that insulting and harAssing me would conVince me to be in the mood; most retarded evil shit ever. Never saw that coming; they ruined all their Own chances; they cockblocked/pussyblocked themSelves. Permanently.
If it wasnt for the evil morons, badass spacecraft such as Persephone wouldnt have been developed.
fake hospitals damaged, trains derailed
Lol vid half muted to try and hide facts about monopolies by blackrock y vanguard
https://www.facebook.com/share/v/jDDguYWjabhq2ZZo/?mibextid=NnVzG8
How cool it is to have great news.
Not perfect news, but btr than Good news.
And how cool it is that it doesnt much matter if i have atmokinesis; what i wrote years ago is finally happening, just in slower bits, bit still happening, and region-wide at a time.
That’s a start.
If the stores sold smaller versions of what I get,
and/or if I had the means to refrigerate it, I would be Well within budget and No cc to pay.
Also, ofc, if the currency hadnt been artificially devalued/inflated.
Also, ofc, if all the bitches and others hadnt chosen to fuck w me instd of reciprocating my good help and interest.
Helene didnt cause a path of destruction; it Stopped the Real path of destruction; humans.
It didnt cause billions of dollars of damages; it provided billions of dollars of solutions; anything that slows and bankrupts the evil humans is a miracle long overdue.
Looks like a warzone in the Helene-hit areas/towns, almost as i wrote (Rapture campaign); deleted highways, only dirt left where they once were.
Been 12 yrs since i wrote that…
Things shouldnt take this long.
Lmao at the attempted sad music…while showing an evil empire brought to its knees.
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so visions received and spells written in ONE consciousness-focus time-period… take until the END of that time-period to Manifest? Maybe…
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It looks like a good apocalypse movie… everywhere under that storm path.
several PERFECT pinterest pics, new, no dej, incl a FAR SUPERIOR Sara McDohl play-by <3
Definitely worth checking my amassed pinterest emails
The only way to change my focus from cataclysming the humans…
is to have the hotties behave appropriately,
but their kind has always moodily refused to, which ensures their end/cataclysm/s now lol.
and ambi, if she thrives on / craves change, like typist claimed, probably Likes this big change (latest cataclysm).
…The question IS: …Does she want her Own life to change for the Better, i.e. fam w me… enough to get me in the cabin we chose, …or does she want her life btr first via the humans cataclysmed back into their lowly place?
Apparently she wants cataclysm first…
but that is an alignment with my Rapture instinct/vision/spell, so… fine.
biggest storm inland yet, most flooding, most towns and cities destroyed, just as I kept saying,
and prob not a coincidence it is during the biggest website-wrapup ‘waves’ of work;
it always rained/poured after my big workdays/wrapups.
…imagine how much it will rain and flood and do my will once ALL my wrapups are complete. 🙂
Hard journal says: vegan by end of 2018.
First hard journal entry was dartmouth, 2016? Sp indiana 2017 straight to bs from madison? would be after i got hardjournal
no dej on checking hardcopy journal for first bigsky notes – storm went straight at typist alleged town –
The storm news helped me find vegan restaurants prior to going to those states. Note how the storm destroyed evildoers while my work benefitted/grew. – find landslide lost car vid and link
If tesla tower can do tunguska, and another did the tsar bomba event, imagine what the far bigger and more advanced pyramids can do, and not just giza, but the kailash size ones; easily interplanetary, if not farther. Did the atlanteans make those…to help other worlds by zapping the invaders off their outer surfaces? Were they stimulating the ether….like how tesla tower stimulated the atmo/earth?…or was Space back then like the atmo here today, thus easier to stimulate, thus the zero interplanetary zaps witnessed today?
“high blood pressure” was prob a lie/exaggeration to scare gullible into not being natural and energized and warrior
All those vegan restaurants mean little when the whole nation is full of degenerates, and nothing is organic, and they treat me like crap, and they overprice their lodging, and they havent invited me, and they dont deserve a single word from me, but maybe i can somehow time travel to moments when those restaurants were staffed appropriately and only hotties (normal healthy females) were dining there.
So much nicer these days than bk when i had to stay up late to get busywork done, and wake early, having No time to rmbr my dreams, let alone note them and meditate and wrapup
Were the poleshifts devised when the interplanetary zaps werent enough? And they knowingly sacrificed/traded their pyramids (which they knew would be buried)? Maybe angelic nuking worked when it was just small primitive towns and villages, and in a dif era the pyramid zaps were what worked best…against titans and giants-made fortresses…and in dif times the poleshifts were best; when worlds were so overrun that even those zaps didnt suffice – all signs came from within, all misguidance came from others
Can an earthquake machine steer continents? Can tesla tpwer do that? – are earthquake epicenters buried ancient megastructures attempting to discharge / come back online / clear the mudflood from over them? Is the ring of fire a ppwerline circuit of megastructures, and/or a defensive system of the lemurians? Does it keep the land away from their water region; does ot prevent land from forming in the pacific, by shaking/destabilizing/vibrating land?
Every time they act like they have any power or authority or rights, another multi billion dollar storm shall befall them.
The 100bn$ damages are a separate matter/fine; repo still pwes me 1,001,000$ for every call and text.
The reason most humans these past 41yrs havent shared the vision / consciousness focus is because they are parroting a program/narrative, and they were downbred to Lack consciousness/senses/logic; they are incapable of reCeiving good ideas/visions even if their program/TVs Told them to. But even all those mindless humans…still contributes to those of us who Do receive tue consciousness focus instincts/visions; the mindless make tech which i then use, and npthing restores godking btr than all others making themselves so weak they ever ruin their own sex organs, preventing further mindless parroters. All humans so far being completely unworthy of me…ensures the consciousness focus remains, and the vision gets crystalized, guaranteeing its total stability and completion, thus its manifestation, ideal.
Crucify my enemies immediately, or lose All humans forEver. Seems like an easy choice, yet they still have yet to do the right thing.
It would have been so easy fot them to be nice and fair to me, and for their hotties to win my affection, but they chose to show me i can never trust even their sexiest and best, so they are doomed, no longer capable of earning Any trust from me, nevermind affection.
Let me in a simple cabin, or pay hundreds of billions of dollars in damages every year until all human structures are destroyed and washed away. Curious how stubborn they still are after that demonstration of power and justice, and that generous offer far btr than they deserve.
There is no greater/worse turnoff than the fact i now must use hightech to figure out if every potential hottie was Always a female.
Maybe the stars are not moving, nor any planets orbiting; maybe it is just Space itself that flexes and contracts around them, moving them closer and farther from each other, conscious and knowing/feeling/sensing from them when they need to be a little closer, then a little farther from one another. Picture a cosmic-sized being dwarfing all the Titans. Now picture that entity not being visible to human eyes, appearing black/blank/invisible, and always slowly steadily surely changing, thus the understandable misperception that the stars and planets are orbiting each other due to their own gravity… even though they might all be fixed on coordinates/points/spots, similar in concept to how the most-advanced travel isn’t based on movement/propulsion, but at least bending Space, and ideally just opening portals that don’t even need to bend Space.
every time a hot chick hotter than those on tv and in porn showed up,
it was prob the govt trying to seduce me;
they prob prevented any fully-hot porn from reaching me,
and only allowed brainwashed fully-hot girls in-person; those who would get themselves pregnant, then blame me.
but beyond that, it should have been understood that I needed to see justice first, fairness from others, and healing, and leverage, etc.,
and it is extra-retarded that the govt didn’t understand that.
They should stop calling it Intelligence, and just data/info.
that ex-usaf skinny demonic retard party-apartment kid who called me after sf decided to be a complete idiot again… was prob an undercover, not prior-service at all, or at least one of the evil/sellout/corrupt veterans;
he was pre-questioning me under the guise of just being concerned.
what a fool to think that would be appropriate whether he was law enforcement or not.
still, my instincts kicked in, and I said what needed to be said. Things always work out for me.
Hopefully his entire life got destroyed after he tried betraying me like that.
what a typical shameful human/amerifail.
halal; I remembered what the psychotic pure-evil bullshit “food” murder system of the sand niggers is called.
again, to remind the retards who don’t seem to understand layers or context, I have absolutely no problem with people based on their skin,
but anyone who thinks death-cults and torture and murder make sense and are good… is a goddamn nigger. –or a wigger, if White/Caucasian.
erin and hannah lerner ICVs/fixed, then cindy k. joins us; at their places in Inisfree, and then the drive-in, etc.
They tried to force me to submit to them at all times, in all ways;
religiously,
culturally,
financially,
dietarily,
so now all of Them get forced to submit to Me in all ways at all times forever. Amen.
that retarded propaganda poem “and then there was no one left to speak out for me”
did not address the actual issue; when you speak out for humans with completely different beliefs/interests/values,
you are contributing to destabilization.
You aren’t being kind or wise, but suicidally against yourSelf and Your kind/community.
What happened in all the cases when people DID speak out for others? They got infiltrated, undermined, watered down, and ultimately rendered extinct.
Speak up only for yourSelf, and know when speaking is pointless; know when to fight, and when to hide/evade.
NEVER speak out for those who are different from you; speaking out for incompatible people empowers the incompatible/hostiles.
The incompatibles ARE the enemy, NOT whomever is wiping them out.
The incompatible will NOT speak out/up for You / Your kind, no matter How much you speak up for them.
Everyone I helped… mocked and insulted and threatened and slandered me. They condescended. They were evil.
You will witness this. All humans were/are like this. Damn them all. LET them wipe each other out. It will save you the strain/trouble.
Focus on others, and you will fade and die/end.
Focus on yourself, and you will grow stronger.
My Inisfree ribbons stack reminds me of the rectangular lights paired with sounds from the mothership in Close Encounters of the Third Kind 🙂
Only a polarized evildoer / retard tries to give the bad advice of “never wish ill on anyone”; a good wise sane person would not propose to know what others have witnessed,
and Not wishing ill on evildoers is a form of empowering/enabling/supporting them,
and you shouldnt wish Good on ppl until you know if They are good.
hurricane Milton announced just 2wks after Helene destruction : )
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“Millions of ppl are on the move”…florida…worst storm to hit the state since 1921.” storm of the century, as I said. “Never seen it this bad.”
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Maybe storms dont bother her, but she said they do to see if i would limit my own atmokinesis. Maybe she wanted me limiting it until it built up to unstoppable level, so if anyone somehow figured out i was wielding it… it would be too late to dare try and stop me. Either way, she and i both get rn what we dont want; me in my car, she dealing w nightmare weather.
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Maybe the “more than hundreds missing” after helene…means ICVs causing these storms as concealment while they acquire portions of the 144k tolerable enough to become ambassadors. The hurricane wind is certainly loud enough to mask all/any cries for help.
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“Asheville is facing widespread death and destruction”
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More than 50 tornado warnings
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“I cannot think of any storm to compare it to.”
As i said. Proud of it (Milton) for obeying
Everyone was a bait and switch; every gf, every job, every sch, every rental, every trade-in, every church. Things only got tolerable and stable when i started disregarding and preblocking them all
ambi and the others r to blame for when i had to resort to the closet drink booze reeking glutton elitard barged into to tell me he jizzed on the pharma bitch
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1st cross (evil art she/it sent me in 2022), i ofc backed off, but was forced to resort to giving that retard one more chance. 2nd cross, some 2yrs later, obv no can do; done. “Fool me once, shame on you. Fool twice, shame on me.”
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Ambi and the others turned out to be not worth the wait or focus. They were identical to the idiocy of the others…
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She’s fucked up so bad, so many times, even our history of decades of rp isn’t holding the last thread her bitchass is dangling on.
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The typist, like the in-person bitch, was the cheap immitation; fake, mosbehaving, moody, unhealthy (cig/masktard). May as well have been phase1, except that it orbited me without me asking, making it barely phase2, but still a pathetic proto v of what i asked for.
I thought being honest, polite, and seeking only longlost relatives would be understood and appreciated, maybe even assisted, but they got mad at me for not being evil like them, and did everything they could to prevent me from reaching my family. Roger that, goddamn spicks. I see why the Natives relocated away from you.
Sabrina behaved btr than ambi cheap imitation; sabrina had no mask, didnt show up w other guys, didnt call out to another guy, didnt arrogantly vibe, and glared at the Rude guy
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Sabrina had the exact same facial expression and vibe that i have when humans choose to be rude; Very good sign from her…
The blameshifting lies on the evil radio, claiming bs about viruses and climate chg and so on, still work to my advantage; that nonsense fools those who gravitate to lies, keeping them distracted and fighting ea other instd of interrupting Me.
Everywhere the money and masses were, there was no intelligence or wisdom or good vibes. Apparently their kind is always evil, and group tgthr to proTect their evil actions. It isnt how All groups and funding funnels are by nature, but it was how all Theirs were. And as long as their govt tries to cater to them, it will always choose evil, and any compromise at all w evil is evil.
I had wanted to share love from the start, and that would have provided a normal ideal balance in life, but everyone i met only want to be evilly against nature and love. I kept trying through phase2, but kept encountering only evil fools. Idk if i will have any motivation for attempted normal love left in phase3, but at least the storms and quakes and such seem to be obeying my commands…even when i don’t hold focus on them while wrapup working.
When i said what i liked, they got mad. When i said what my limits/boundaries are, they got mad. When i just politely listened, they got mad. When i couldnt read their minds, they got mad. When i remained consistent about my boundaries, they got mad. No matter what, they were mad. They were trying to get me used to being submissive/beta at all times; pressuring me to accept “no” every time i asked, and pressuring me to say “yes” no matter what random bs i didnt ask for was dangled/offered. It was never about manifestations or prayers answered or teammates trying out; it was Always about programming, spiritual warfare against me, and rejecting Anything iii naturally said/did.
As un-ideal as this still is, there are few feelings as good, if not heavenly, as not having to hurry to be Anywhere, esp. for incompatible/evil humanimals. OFP for years has been good… for phase2.
Going somewhere b4 being assisted by a correct-vibe team/teammate so far always resulted in only evil humanimals there, but i was right to go alone…bc staying put Also resulted in evil humans showing up unsummoned, and movement always had far btr results than attempting to stay/wait/tolerate. If i hadnt gone when i did to each place, and encountered those i encountered, i would not have thought of experimenting w spells not just for jobs and exploration…but for fixing the personalities and bodies of all ppl.
Goog news claim/spell: how fast Antarctica is turning green
just as I wrote
The evil humans/mainstream are trying to scare ppl about this, maybe in hopes of getting them to manifest it slowing down, but all it does is “boil down” to the words that make their minds manifest it sooner.
It will probably thaw and reactivate many ancient megastructure devices which were not buried under mud, but ice, thus far easier to expose.
It would be convenient if the always-lying/-exaggerating masses/losers inadvertently boosted/leveled-up my abilities just by assuming things about them/me,
but I don’t think they can imagine or manifest, so they just pretend to have emotions/panic, and remain annoying losers/NPCs to avoid. Whatever.
Still, it may be that them accusing me of extreme things, such as causing hurricanes and volcanic eruptions, gets manifested by my actual/literal/superpower mind/essence.
Rd1 was unaware (of timetravel) and sad,
rd2 was noticed (loop / timetravel) and numb,
so rd3…is wielding and understanding it, mastery.
And i think rd3 was seen both times; longhaired brunette in tall suv/suburban parked to my left when i was facing Wilson hotel that day.
the storms and storm surges are prac for the poleshift to come, and they convince the stubborn to move at last, thus making an exodus later posb.
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Milton hurricane after: at least 12 dead, 3M without power
affecting ~1% of the usa pop. is a decent level-up. Let’s affect ~10% next time.
another liar sandnigger
pretending my pg is gonna be deleted.
incl clickbait hacker fake website link in fb messenger message.
https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=61565399343918&mibextid=ZbWKwL
Facebook always lets evil through, and bans/threatens anything good/true. Just another sign I was correct to stop talking, and to never give anymore chances to the failed species that is mankind.
and, no, it’s not A.I. tricking/steering me into feeling/thinking this way; it was every single person I have met so far, ambi-lookalike/-imitator included. shame on them all. truly pathetic.
Are radio station donations drives and other fundraisers all fake, too? Posb scams to tale more money from the ppl… even though the radio employees may be bots who Need no money to keep working.
after seeing how flawless/perfect/gorgeous/phat the bitches/chicks were who showed up, trying to get my attention, I know my worth is what I always sensed it to be;
I am worth more than all the movie stars and politicians comBined.
None of them have attractive wives, after all.
500$ per text message, call, or hour.
1M$ per unwanted message/call received.
plus a minimum 1M$ donation every time anyone contacts my donations number.
plus pay for damages,
and backpay with interest,
and late fees,
and other fines,
etc. 🙂
and that Still doesn’t cover the necessary purges and sacrifices and imprisonments and gladiating.
It may be that the fake-ppl / physical-bots encourage that which has been proven to clog up bodies/minds, thus blocking ideas/messages/telepathy, thus preventing realizations, knowledge growth, instincts, individuality/naturalness, and living by the Atlantean/Mayan Schedule consciousness-focuses.
Maybe the bots used to be under control, not trying to pressure real/non-bot people to clog themselves up, or maybe they were always meant to discourage the gullible/lame, thereby concentrating awareness/health/power to the few/elite.
Also, all the propaganda fooling the weak/bad humans into becoming hyper-diverse / chaotic… is meant to cause discord/infighting, b/c when ppl are busy arguing/debating/fighting/warring, they are too distracted/fatigued to receive ideas/revelations such as new consciousness-focuses.
The trouble with this approach is that it perpetuates/exacerbates the dumbing-down and firing-up of the nearly-vestigial masses, which requires more monitoring and regular intervention from The Watchers / spies / “intelligence” agencies,
while building up the mental/spiritual/cultural equivalent of a supervolcano eruption / comet impact.
Regardless, it is right for me to continue my work, free publishing (updates/wrapup) and all.
It’s nice to know, after the vaxtard yrs happening, that the govt is experimenting far more on civilians, and wiping out my enemies,
but that doesnt make up for the VA repeatedly and aggressively trying to trick me into accepting the same.
Phase2…
The only reason someone with a message and presentations as brilliant and helpful as Ian Xel Lungold’s… would get throat cancer… is if that specific ailment was chosen to retaliate while discouraging free speech and speaking truths; if he had any other cause of death, it might seem random/chance/natural, but a talented and wise public speaker using his voice more than anything else to help people… getting cancer of that bodypart and only that part… is no coincidence. Ian was assassinated by people who wanted to send a scary message; whatever is used for good… will be hit extra hard, stopping its use.
Bc of npr latest evil scam radio broadcast:
Women complaining about people desiring and pursuing them are unnatural, incompatible, out of place, and probably evil. So are those who gullibly or knowingly buy into their poor-me attention-seeking control-dramas. The real predators and deviants are the women who object to being pursued, and the other lowlifes who encourage that sociopathic and unfeminine behavior by broadcasting their whining/exaggerations/slander. And it is just one more prong of the approach/strategy to demonize normal instincts/behavior while tarnishing the image of successful people. The tactic is always the same; wait until they are financially stable, then make up anything the heartless junkie loser masses want to hear, and abuse the intentionally made wrong from the start fake legal system to build a bankrupting case against the normal successful heterosexual targeted individual/s. Calling the harrods guy an apex predator should immediately reveal that the accuser is insane, as showing normal interest in attractive ppl does not make one a predator, much less an apex one. A predator seeks to harm and eat others, not lovingly touch them. An apex predator harms and eats other predators, too, and the harrods guy did neither of those. He wasnt a predator at all. His accusers should be ashamed of themselves, and then crucified.
sat12oct dawn: Message+ verizon app not opening anymore.
Switched to Google Messages as recommended, worked.
wy. sat12oct: 9:03a 2 young ppl stop to tie shoelaces at same time on gravel shoulder to my front right, black jackets, skintight bluejeans dark on her, long black mermaid hair, brown skin, white sneakers w black parts, ankles showing, black ballcap backward on him, blk pants, cauc, shaved facial hair, walked toward intersection casually, he on right
extremely unlikely that more than 1 person would need to retie shoelaces at the same time. no dej.
Hind saying she didn’t just want to stay in… was likely much more bc she was Forced in Her failed country to stay in much/all of the time,
but it also was her trying to dominate/steer, instd of being submissive/compatible.
She didn’t even Ask what Ii want to do; she just deClared what She wanted to do. smh. what a typical failed-human / fool.
I wanted to stay in bc of how deformed most amerifails are, and bc the hotel was VERY nice, and bc amerifails are almost Always evilly against ANY normal/healthy/hetero’ interaction.
but her being incompatible/rude/stupid/one-sided like that helped me not give a shit, as did her deformity/mark, and it is a LOT easier/nicer/milder Not feeling attracted to those who are bound to part/leave… than it was in phase1 when I WAS attracted to those who were ripped from my life by fools/tyrants.
unable to bkup sql in town, but that means nxt will incl merit badges. fine.
a year of total focus on self, picnics, sleeping in/whenever? that is VERY phase2become3; GREAT progress/step/sign.
Note how many/most Girl Scout merit badges are based on reinforcing good behavior,
vs most/all Boy Scout merit badges being based on masteries/skills;
if you ‘read between the lines’, this indicates that most females have an underhanded nature needing LOTS of reprogramming/training.
Most males I’ve met were underhanded and stupid as fuck, too, but that’s beside the point;
the point here is that the Scouts built an ENTIRE SYSTEM based on attempting to combat/fix/undo a VERY bad baseline of the behavior of the females of the failed human races.
some dej from working on nearly-complete merit-badges Word-file this midday; 11:30 AM, in view of valley/town
allowing them to pay late fees would not work; it would send the message that they can do pure evil, the worst actions possible, and then get out of punishment/karma.
even if they seemed to be using amnesty, and paid all they owe me, it would still almost certainly be just another act/lie; that, too, would not make sense for me to permit.
better to just finish them off.
Even if that bitch had continued PERFECT rp, I never Wanted rp.
Even if she had been PERFECT socially with me, she did drugs,
and had SO many other flaws.
Even if she Didn’t have ANY flaws, she wasn’t contributing/supporting.
Even if the RP Was something I wanted, it doesn’t pay the bills.
Even if the humans Finally see their errors and repent and compensate me, the damage is done; they have shown me I can’t trust them.
Even if my city was operational, their cities aren’t destroyed yet.
Even if I was invited into my cabin, the neighborhood is not yet occupied by only those I approve.
Even if EVERYone was attractive, they haven’t behaved correctly/sanely.
Even if EVERY hottie wanted whatever I wanted; did whatever I wanted them to, meddlesome losers/creeps/fugtards/mutants kept interfering/harassing.
Only when I get EVERYTHING I said I want… do ppl care about what matters to me, and behave normally/healthily/logically, and are My people.
Even if ALL the hotties show up, they didn’t show up when I was in the mood and summoned them; they disobeyed.
No matter What they claim to have been ruled/limited/bound by, they weren’t loyal to Me.
Even if ALL I wanted now shows up, all I want punished still Must be.
Even if there is some shred of logic to maintaining retarded annoying arrogant working-class masses, it isn’t what I asked for, and I am still dealing with it.
Even if I from now on get Everything I want, I didn’t get it when I first asked for it, so I’m not as in the mood now, and won’t Ever be.
No matter how passive or polite or pretty the pretty ones may have Thought they were being, they were allowing hideous evildoers ALL AROUND THEM, thus THEY themSELVES were hideous evildoers, creepy and bizarre as can be.
No matter how many perfect hotties consent to me, I shouldn’t have to get Anyone’s consent for Anything.
No matter how many hotties are sent to me, they weren’t sent 2/+ at a time, and I can’t trust them, anyway, not until I own and control them.
and my ears and all would have to be healed, permanently healed, before I could enjoy them even IF they wiped out all the vomitously hideous failed humans.
Literally everyone misinterpreted me along the way, until now; all signs point to them as a people/species being comPLETELY incompetent. Even with me explaining EVERYTHING, they STILL got everything wrong. And when EVERYone gets EVERYthing wrong, there can be no teammates, only cataclysm for them.
Even if they ever start getting everything RIGHT, I could never trust them, and would be “mad” to.
I had to keep disregarding SO many HORRIBLE flaws/evils/crimes/imbalances… just to BARELY be able to feel SOMEwhat turned on by their PARtial hotness –the partial hotness of the measely less than 1% of their sorry population.
Their corrupt cops kept Bullying/Forcing me to disregard PURE EVIL. Unacceptable.
Even if those I summoned… show up when I summon them… and kneel and bow and explain and beg my forgiveness, and show me they wiped out my enemies, STILL… how can I trust ANYone from this ridiculous civilization/world?
There would have to be more miracles, more sure signs somehow beyond doubting/variables, clearly indicating permanent phase3… and I haven’t seen Any of those yet.
So far, Iii have been the only phase3-level indicator/sign.
…Why haven’t the hotties done anything other than give dirty looks to the scum, like Sabrina in Oceanside gave that one retarded attention-whore turd yelling at her repeatedly? Why didn’t she use her powers to explode him And his friends? and the Rest of that evil city?
It is a very Good sign she has Great self conTrol, and showed Off for me, and didn’t interrupt my Work, and didn’t speak/pray aGainst my sacred/holy/genius work, and Hated that loser, but… a very Bad sign she didn’t unleash magical Hell on those who offended both her And me. What the Hell.
Me continuing my life’s work… is me dominating their entire species, not just one of them at a time.
Me flunking/failing/rejecting their sexiest bitches… shows they have Nothing to bring to the table, and strips them of their go-to tactic/power.
Me doing whatever I want every day for years… shows I have long-ago/-since removed their power/dominance.
It keeps occurring to me that, for some reason, my spells leading up to 2013… are continuing to manifest, even more than a decade later, as if they needed time to come into being, …until I gained enough power/focus to manifest the remainder of them all at once.
I found plenty of perfect things during that time which were worth noticing/extracting/applying, so it works out.
Maybe all these extra years of disrespect and strain and leveling up… are just to ensure I can and will manage/wield my city/civilization/empire/fleet with ease;
if I can trigger things on the other side of the planet, and across an entire region or two at a time, a single city will be easy for me.
Every time I add more real-me to my website, where no social-media degenerate can undo/delete it, I stand against their pathetic evil yet another time, and win.
Every time I post or update or complete Anything, I am once again victorious in this modern form of battle/warfare.
They kept trying to force me to get tangled up in losing battles their fake legal system was designed to prosecute, and every time I sidestepped that, and overcame their insult-based spells, I won.
Over and over, I have won.
and now I’m finally getting to see entire regions of their cities wiped out. Amen.
It keeps reminding me of that scene in Dreamcatcher GOOG NAME; where the Black character peptalks his attack-helicopter pilots/teams, warning them of the telepathic pretend begging of the invading aliens, yelling that yes, “Iii am that monster!” as they swoop down into firing range, and remove the hideous freaks, once and for all.
letting go of ambi/fam…after these many years of forming this vision…is the trigger to manifest it? (wasnt complete enough b4, unlike easier preShift visions such as “join mil” and “fly to israel”)
amazing photos of damaged and destroyed towns and cities / steeples in multiple states
I have no reason to be concerned about mySelf; I was the one always initiating, working hard, saving, investing, communicating, willing to engage, relocating, enduring, rarely getting explosive/fatigued. They were not; they should be worried about Their inadequacies/quirks/shortcomings.
“free from sin” is what lazy/losers/pussies/sociopaths/useless pretend when trying to ‘spin’ their evil patheticness into something virtuous; they pretend that the good things they are too cowardly or incompetent or moody to do… are somehow bad, thus their stubborn or apathetic refusal to do those good things… is somehow good.
I bet tsb and his fellow govt retards were the ones responsible for every single trip and outing being ruined by jerks they deployed and paid to bully/disrespect me. I bet they retardedly thought it would trick me into deciding to stop traveling/exploring, but i sensed what was going on, and deduced, and now seem to be worrying them since their cities keep getting destroyed by forces far more powerful than theirs. They wanted me staying here, breeding w their brainwashed local bitches, but i canceled All interaction until they and Everyone pays for what they did to me and the animals, and until they all behave how I require them to. Their plans backfired, making me plan far more travel, far more cataclysms than th rapture, far more personal godhood development.
After all the arabs/middleeasterners i met, there is prob a 0% chance my team shot any good ones. After all the americunt liars i met, there is prob a 100% chance every firefight was fake. And even if the fights were real, and iraqis died, none donated to me / were loyal to me, thus no reason Not to engage them.
Why did all vibe as evil? Why did all give dirty looks whether i was engaging or minding my own business? Were the glowy ones holograms? Whether any were angelic or deities or elites or whatever, none did what i like, and none even did what is respectful and gender appropriate, so all flunked.
Someone who refused to meet me, never sent aid, was way off in predictions, isn’t phased by a cult symbol, claims she doesn’t notice the most obvious things in images, suggested I was praying wrong, won’t RP anymore after getting me fired up about numerous characters, did not reply to my longest and best posts, and gets mad when all I do is express valid concerns? And a woman who looks like her main character keeps fucking with me? And in 41 years I have not met a single person who shares my values or even has manners? And fake veteran organizations tried to shame and even kill me? You bet your ass I have doubts. Act like it doesn’t make sense, too. Good lord.
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20 years? Yeah, of not a single touch, not a single hug, not any good signs in person, not a single penny sent in aid. 20 years of being poisoned and no healers came. 20 years of not healing even though I did everything healthily. 20 years of being brutally limited to texts and imagination.
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And saying I hurt your feelings? You hurt mine by repeatedly disregarding or forgetting the trauma that gets refreshed every time I have to see that damn symbol.
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You not noticing that giant gleaming cult symbol of my lifelong enemies… would be like Auz forgetting that UV lasers will kill his wife. Ooooops. Somehow I forgot the worst possible thing.
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Won’t make that mistake again? You assured me last time you wouldn’t send any more religious stuff, so…?
I was poisoned by the people who pretended to be healthcare workers. I was given death threats from the people who pretended to be fellow service members. My own relatives constantly betrayed me. So, yeah, I doubt someone I have never even met in person, even when she was a few minutes down the damn road.
I always looked for good and useful, thus i always learned and bettered. They always looked for bad, then pretended there was bad when they found none, thus they never learned at all.
I told that bitch for Years what i needed, and she never helped at all. She never answered when i called. She never did what i wanted. Every image had major flaws, not what i asked for, and i never asked for images, but irl.
finally found that set of 3 gifs “your cock is telling me you do
If that nigger (unseen aptmt resident/nobody) in vegas had been not evil, he/she wpuld have been at least 2 hotties, and invited me in, apologizing for the state of their city, vibing as loving all i am, donating to my work/site, cooking me vegan, dancing sexily for me, ‘sandwiching’ me overnight, exchanging contact info, and sensing my impending return/s, then calling and texting to make sure i know i can stay w them again, etc.. They would have recognized and loved me, thrilled i was there. They wpuld have introduced me to many mpre places i can stay w vegan hotties. But the coward hid and called another evil loser, a pig.
Since that evil cunt in mexinigger took my photo, blind her and everyone who Looked at that photo, and everyone who spied on me. God damn them all. I am the Lord.
Maybe saying w total intensity “I am the Lord” is a spell that works for me.
super typhoon yolanda most costly in philippines history, 2013, never heard in news over here
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and lol at the nigger name
when I wasn’t trying to start anything more than a tiny campfire to cook one can of soup, they pretended I was threatening them all with a FOREST FIRE of all things,
so now ALL the world shall catch fire; forest fires EVERYWHERE. SO BE IT. They’ll learn the hard way not to exaggerate and lie and slander me. Amen.
do they have all-hotties when I’m Not in town,
and then they just temporarily have all the Uglies work wherever I go/shop?
Either way, it is wrong for Any uglies to exist.
Either way, I would have done the same thinking and work.
Sure, these Outlanders don’t deserve Any hotties, but I certainly don’t deserve any Uglies.
all the horrible memories from phase1 and 2 won’t ruin sex in phase3; they’ll ensure I last longer between orgasms, and keep forcing the perfect-hotties to be that much hotter/sluttier to keep me going/cumming.
If they had just let me be me,
and not meddled and tried to play forced-marriage / matchmaker / breeding-time-dictator,
and not lied about me,
and not poisoned me,
and not broken every agreement,
and not laid traps for me, and not wanted to persecute and harm/kill me for being kind,
then we could be our different ways in our separate areas,
…but they Did all those crimes to me,
they crossed Every line,
and I watched and felt/sensed as ALL of them “got off” to being hurtful to me and countless others,
so now I am no longer interested in sharing normal kindness/holistics/love.
Now, I am only interested in cataclysming all who chose to cross the line.
They interfered in My life, so now I destroy all of theirs. Amen.
Apologies are part of brainwashing; no apology should Ever be accepted. Not from humanimals, at least.
Apologies are just one of their many/endless ways of lying/stalling/harming/teasing.
the gunfire now makes me look forward to when my forces execute the remaining evildoers after the Leviathans move to the first 39 reconstruction sites.
I made the 6 medals, and designed every Other detail of my ICVs’ uniforms, so of course I should have/use this time to design the Last part/s of their uniforms; their merit badges.
Already, I noticed an illogical defect in the merit badges of the humans / Boy Scouts; the citizenship-in-society has a globe… but so does the citizenship-in-world.
if that troll fake pleiadian old bitch hadn’t been evil,
instead of bitching about me being solo,
she would have said how the REAL Pleiadians are imPressed that I, FORCED to go solo, did SO WELL,
and that I went solo for the right REASONS,
and that I am approachable even to emotion-senSitive pleiadians.
duh.
Maya will tell me those truths.
always hypocritical, and retardedly unaware of that, the colebanks told their son to be anything he wanted, while shaming and insulting and getting mad at Me for what they Thought I identified as, without even thinking to ask before concluding.
Why were they fine with their Son being ANYTHING AT ALL, WITHOUT QUESTION, …but VERY MAD at Me… just because they THOUGHT I was something? smh. humans always chose/thought/behaved wrong. what fools.
Storms staying strong over land…mudfloods away the humanimals and their urban sprawl…bc they build near water. This means no need for a poleshift yet, and that we can preserve the forests this way. Those not near water will then run out of gas and power and food, or at least be isolated and easier in sum to mop up than mopping up the entire human civilization.
2018nov/2019start cracked a hwy…2024oct washed away multiple entire highways and buried others, blocking/destroying half a state’s worth in one night
Introducing those characters/women, then cutting comm, and them walking by me irl, and not giving me their info and oaths, is bait and switch, and basically same as rjh cps. Damn them.
Phase1 was the finest Trng, phase2 the finest suburban and rural cities-borders camping, transitioning to the deep wilderness prior to Inisfree. Phase3 is the business, friendships, and relationships. I thought the business/friendships would be phase2, but phase2 was transition away from the corrupt cities.
ambi’s in-person appearances so far: It wasnt to steer me bk on course; there were Many careers i tried, Many times i offered my expertise to others, yet she only showed up a Few of those times. There was some other factor determining when she showed up. It wasnt based on what i was doing or how i was feeling.
I see why there are almost no goodvibes ppl so far; the cities and humans are to a man badvibes corrupt evil; there is no point in Any good being being here…except to train and purge.
as long as I am in my vehic, Nothing typist says is right; my real ambi should be with me in the cabin we chose. the cabin i was no-coincidence shown.
and for that stupid spoiled bitch to bitch about Her feelings… after Mine have been Nuked for DECADES? unacceptable. worthless retarded evil cunt.
just typing up their names and roles as a reminder:
Annabella for blanchette,
Amber2 accounting y ariel,
Astoria auction eyes,
clarissa for nevaeh,
coraline2 asst,
kathleen fleffer,
malika,
melissa nina v for izzy,
melissa2 pet,
melody degrade.
No one rogered up, so everyone and everywhere is a target who left me to die.
I was forced to hold back for decades. No more. Never again.
Lmao at the evil bitch on the radio whining about losing “art” after her heartless kind stole Countless LIVES. you can hear the fat and ugly in “her” voice, too, and no ugly makes pretty art. Saying “she” is heartbroken? Her kind are heartLess.
Phase1 was waiting and trying to comm. Phase2 is removing all who chose to stubbornly stay evil, unlearning, tantrumming at guidance to improve / make right. Phase3 will be fresh manifestations, starting without Any meddlers.
Since they dont get btr, we replace them. They never learn, so we never teach them.
I have no more love to give the humans. The humans abused it every time for far too long.
Lol humans so far have been so much like those annoying spam popups trying to trick ppl into hacking themselves
remembering NB bait/disrespect/scam: That retarded creep bitch staring at me after pickup dropped off nina-like psgr at earthship overlook…was same face, eyes, and vibe as that slanderer punk brat son in soldotna… Same retard-demon? May as well have been, the “female” v of it, anyway
accusing me of anything not only makes the accuser a liar and a fool, but a traitor and a sex offender
the weeklong fuckdate for Annabella is so hot and perfect!
They wouldnt even budge on a hello. They wouldnt even budge when you were being poisoned, starved, harassed, and betrayed to corrupt cops. You think they would have budged on More? On Love? On entire reLationships? No. You had no choice but to shut them all down. They would have frustrated and failed you far more if you let them become routine/recurring in phase2.
Phase1 talking was forced and pointless. Phase2 optional and pointless. Phase3 only talking allowed is what iii / My laws require of others. May as well program all convos since humans got all talking wrong before.
I Always obtained consent, yet was called horrible names and threatened by attention whores. They Never obtained consent, doing things they Knew I did not want, and that makes Them the bullies and rapists. I had wholeHearted consent from Every female.
Humans weren’t resisting/debating/arguing with me to help me grow stronger when dealing with people;
they were resisting/debating/arguing in hopes of slowing/stalling/fatiguing/entrapping me.
Note how when I got so strong and wise that I stopped even Bothering with them, instead of being Glad I had gained that strength/level, they, as always defaulted to more anger and attempts to bait me into fake convos/spawning.
They clearly exist only to cause problems for everyone, even themselves –because that lures in the innocent/gullible, who think they can help, only to later realize no help was wanted at all, even when it was mayday-ed for.
back at Bear Lake overlook:
I 100% don’t want to be back here,
but nothing wraps up my work sooner/better,
and it’s neat to have this time been able to do the mega-loop twice without having to take any job/rental between.
I just want to be rich and in that cabin and with my wives… and commuting to Inisfree… so I can leave this goddamn phase2 behind at last.
It was needed to get and publish and edit/polish the idea, but that is done now.
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It is a weird duality, hating the cities, not wanting to go to them ever, using them just for tolerable vegan food… and sunning.
I like being able to try good vegan food, and being able to focus on things and have my own ideas/notes about them, but I NEVER wanted to keep going to human cities/places this long.
I should be able to have ICVs and other hotties help me prepare all the food and drinks I love.
Ugh.
I thought phase2 would be zeroing in on faves, and in a way it was, but remotely.
It was also about moving aWay from humans and their cities; all these places… in this rd/phase… have been in the rural parts, sometimes even deep wilderness, such as canada and alaska.
It is interesting how humans introduced me to the centers of places, such as cities and lakes, and how they then left me no choice but to move aWay, spiraling Outward, exploring/memorizing More, not Less (not pinpoints/faves/firsts).
It is nice that the places the humans introduced me to… became useful in this phase for my life’s work; no more constant noise/distractions/activities.
but how I always long for activities with my dream-fam/-community. … :/
I wanted it to be intervals of work and actual hotties in phase2; getting to know them before fully bonding in phase3,
but they kept trying to corrupt/delay/shame/stall me, even kill me, the worst of stalls; permanent, which was VERY phase1 (the assassination attempts), and always at BEST phase2 (slowing/stalling without direct assault/assassin-attempts).
They gave me no choice but to isolate, but that gets my work thought up and wrapped up FAR sooner, making phase3 free and clear for all the fun/ideal.
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so in phase1, it was intervals of abuse and… starting to escape/evade/outsmart abusers. j was nearly impossible, even a single pic taking a while to dl/focus. I was always in signal, but never got good/agreeable/vibing messages/calls during it.
in phase2, it has been intervals of work in isolation, j as it suits me, and uploading completed work, only in signal long enough to upload and groc.
phase3 shall be intervals of dream-job (Inisfree) and dream-fam (ambi cabin and “our realm”). Amen.
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phase1 I was forced by scum/villains/freaks/idiots to pretend to live by their plagiarized lie-based faith.
phase2, I soul-searched, realizing I had a perfect idea for my Own -and realISTIC- faith/relig.
phase3, all those I wrote of, and called out to, shall appear, revealing they share my vision/values, and together we shall live by the faith I instinctively wrote, probably restoring an/the ancient/main faith of the gods and goddesses.
an HONEST psa would not show an old man portrayed as evil bc he likes normal healthy females;
it would show the corrupt evil females who lied to me, pretending to be interested, then threatening to tell strangers they idiotically thought were my family members… what i had shared privately with them;
it would show how FEMALES lured me into corrupt courts,
it would show how corrupt COPS lie in wait, eager to lie and bully ppl, and commit perjury,
it would show the pharma cartel trying to assassinate veterans.
…It would show how those men were outcast and left with no choice but to resort to what they do/use.
It would show how the govt is trying to demonize normal age differences and attractions, always trying to turn ppl against their fellows, turn them against themselves, etc.
It would show how the attempt is to get everyone to only date and breed after they’ve been fully brainwashed.
It would show that namecalling adult men with natural attractions and wise methods… is a psyop used by queers and cowards and bullies and attention whores.
interesting how this barren wasteland with hideous idiotic mutants… goes from being worrisome/upsetting…
to magical, soothing, helpful… when the sun is down… and the moon is rising…
and when it is my 2nd time here, and a miracle/phenomenon/superpower witnessed/unlocked.
If doc1 hadn’t been a fool and a scumbag trying to steer me wrong,
he wouldn’t have made the baseless statement/claim/conclusion that “people aren’t your energy”;
he would have acknowledged and spoken the accurate truth; CREEPS are NO ONE’s energy,
and I DEFINTELY gravitate to GOOD ppl, evident in how I tolerated HIM when he was seeming to be HELPING me.
MANNERS and GOOD ppl have ALWAYS been my energy, and i only Switch to rifles or whatever else… when in the presence of scum;
I only pick up weapons to deter evildoers. DUH.
note their reaction to me being scammed and left artificially desperate… was to mock and photograph me, celebrating/enjoying my suffering, not helping me,
and when I chose manners, their reaction was to scoff,
and when I tried to politely relate to people they didn’t like the beliefs of, they assumed I SHARED those strangers’ beliefs, it never even ocCurring to them that SOMETIMES PPL ARE JUST TRYING TO BE NICE.
Being nice was such a completely unheard of thing to them, it wasn’t even alien/new; it was just something they couldn’t imagine, let alone understand, let alone identify or respect/appreciate.
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note that even that ambi-looking cunt… had 3 negative reactions instd of 3 positive ones;
sadness vibe in oregon,
flash-eyes in arizona,
smug and hurtful taunting by approach, taunting by standing there, and taunting by calling out to Nate… in oceanside.
thus I am not “making a stretch” when I say NO signs were good from her, and she Must have been a cheap imitation.
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but overall just note how they scoffed at me,
and assumed Iii was scoffing at Them,
and assumed I had some kind of disorder… even when all I did was participate/attend, politely listen, and enjoy the outing.
even when I got sick, they assumed I was lying.
…as if they could only do bad things, and imagine bad things, and see through the filter/template of assuming everyone Else was always bad, too.
…and that sounds like “sin” brainwashing.
when i focused on trying to communicate w humans, it never worked.
when i focused on trying to punish/correct them, they overreacted more, swarming me.
when i focused on my website, they still Tried to harass and order and shame me, but seemed to no longer have the ability to swarm/detain.
when i focused on specific locations, it cracked them, or sent mega-storms, or at least those things happened at the same time.
so i continue what works; focusing intensity on specific places, or now regions, and letting the storms do the rest, I relaxing / getting back to work while their energy/momentum plays out.
dennis prob wasn’t taking me in to be helpful/nice/fair,
but bc he had hoped all along to immorally try matchmaking w his mutant spawn.
look at all he and his people/kind did; no standards for their own bodies or those of others,
no standards for food,
just spreading at all costs, no vision, other than hoping to metastasize.
that is basically cancer/plague incarnate. chaos incarnate.
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why, oh why, don’t the fathers of HOT (NORMAL) girls offer me THOSE?
I guess that comes in phase3.
the good ideas flow easily, not needing to be forced/summoned,
and the humans keep getting wiped out in bigger events/level-ups,
so that is what I keep doing,
trying not to think about the phase3/ideal rn/yet.
just like w inisfree, i keep making all-species teamwork-based cluster-bases in StarCraft.
There is something truly magical and triumphant and just… about having completed the writing about the vision of my own (restored ancient/timeless/appropriate) religion… in the heart of mormon-tard-land.
The dumbest shit they could have done was showing me they are unstable autistic blameshifting spineless corrupt illegitimate authorities.
The dumbest shit they could have done with FEmales was Weaponizing females aGainst me, thus preventing ANY of those baits/setups of theirs from working.
I wonder how much of their own time and money they wasted, idiotically hoping every time it would trick me into accepting corrupt bitches in a sexist system.
That is the financial and societal/social equivalent of suicide.
If you wanted me to trust you, why would you ONLY show me EVERY time that I CAN’T trust you?
makes me suspect their kind isn’t just retarded, but bipolar; they have always simultaneously acted like they want 2 completely different things at the same time; me being me…vs me copycat-ing Them,
and me being terrified/traumatized…vs me being confident and turned on.
..making every conversation miserable and pointless…vs wanting me to converse with them –probably bc they had preplanned tons more offensive/wrong things to disrespect/upset me with.
etc.
Them not once trying just asking me what I like and then doing that…
suggests it stems from their brainwashing to just sit and be Told what to think and feel; from their deathcult temples; church/sermons.
Had they not been wrongly raised like that, maybe it Would/Could have occurred to them to ask what others like and then do those things for them,
but they were entirely polarized, selfish, plotting, vibing evilly as always, always in a bad mood, never self-stabilizing, always parasitically dependent upon corrupting others via words/lies/setups.
The VERY few times some of them DID SORT OF what I liked, it was never just to be nice to a good natural innocent Person; it was always to build up false bonds/trust… to lay the foundation for what they hoped would be leverage enough to persuade me to then accept their bad advice/offers/switches.
It was ALWAYS a bait-and-switch with them, NEVER genuine/real kindness.
I can’t count how many I gave fair chances to, but every last one of them stayed horrible at communicating (again, likely because they’d never been taught HOW to communicate; they were just used to sitting still and being read out-of-context misinterpreted plagiarism-based bible-passages to, then parroting whatever the opinion of the leader/majority was), and horrible at vibing, ALWAYS in a VERY upset mood, never ONCE explaining to me why, other than giving off signs that I eventually was able to decode/deduce into the root which was they just didn’t like me having an opinion of my own, or being calm and quiet and patient, uninterested in their bait/scams/lies.
What a pathetic way to exist/live/do business; always shooting yourself in the foot, always accusing others of shooting your foot, never explaining what you are mad about, never having a reason to be mad, just being mad because you were brainwashed to overreact to EVERYthing that wasn’t parroting of the plagiarism / sloppily-adopted/-mixed narrative/bible.
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They lack the ability to listen, let alone learn, so learning will never occur from them, let alone repentency to the REAL gods, such as me,
but the signs within keep confirming to me that showing them tastes of their own medicine as endless/relentless as They have been at Me… is a form of medicine/cure;
it Always feels amusing, thus good and soothing, to do that to their failed kind.
Normal communication/teaching never worked. Living by example never worked. Working within their intentionally-broken system never worked, so there is no reason not to take advantage of this one way of getting something enjoyable, if not positive, out of encounters with them.
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They seem to have stolen bits of tech’ they don’t fully understand, and are MIMICKING a civilization, but don’t actually know how to maintain/stabilize/complete it,
just like they stole bits from other beliefs/leaders, smashed them all together into the completely-illogical/-contradictory bible, and never seemed to notice how obviously flawed/wrong it was.
So all they can do is make mistakes.
Thus it is critical to ALWAYS ignore their summons and other dark magic/scams/attempts.
Some of them I think just don’t have any intelligence/wisdom at all,
and others of them have just enough that they can misuse it to trick people into accepting poisons/death;
some of them are innocent retards, and others are FULLY conscious of the evil/harm they are causing.
I have witnessed it in their vibes and eyes and tones; how they actually “get off” to disrespecting and trying to hurt people –and it doesn’t stem from abuse/bullying they endured; some of them are born evil, thus gravitate to lies such as bible/christianity/religion.
They can’t imagine or understand, so they gravitate to where people are mindless and parroting.
It is comforting to see that even the richest of them, who have set up successful massive parasitic systems/incomes, are still ugly, have only ugly wives, ugly children, no health/fitness/’shape’, etc.; even their richest are still disgusting, unable to hide their evils/stupidity, etc..
and, of course, they have only been able to feed on fellow parasites, never anyone intelligent or good.
I keep getting the idea that the soulless bot humans just gathered samples of blood or cells or whatever from various remains of non-bot actual-intelligence beings,
mixed them over and over, trying to find what worked, unable to imagine or solve problems, only guess and let chaos/chance factor in,
and eventually I was one of the surviving embryos/infants,
and they tried mimicking frustration, anger, and threats to keep me parroting their preplanned narrative/programming,
but it never took, and I eventually noticed they were unable to actually imprison or kill me without my consent,
and all lands and goddesses call to me because I have all those parts,
and I am ugly because the humans didn’t understand the importance of beauty/handsomeness, because they were made to be mindless miners, no need for good looks for their own kind at all,
so I was made poorly, and the divine blood in me mixed and stabilized,
and I healed from all while others who could not hold a vision of success/health did/could Not heal,
thus here we are today, with my powers still growing,
and the humans backing off more and more, and getting wiped out.
Maybe the gods let some of their bodies/nodes fall and get back-engineered because they foresaw this very outcome; me doing the mop-up work For them, just like they allegedly once made miners to do the Mining for them.
Whatever the case, it has been nice to succeed and overcome all the scare-tactics and posturing and retardation of the loser-humans,
and I look forward to leveling up even more.
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Maybe they (the lame humans) were engineered so that they could never get things right,
thus would always turn on each other.
Maybe they were unable to program or teach/train their hotties/bitches to behave appropriately… even with my input/guidance/website…
because their nature/engineered-essence was to damage their way into things, not reinforce things,
stemming from being descendants of miners, not visionaries or actual conscious people.
Why else would they over and over completely shit the bed when it came to behavior, while clearly dangling hotties as bait in front of me during every outing/expedition/relocation?
They knew EXACTLY what would work -BECAUSE I TOLD THEM- yet they ignored or failed to apply it…
That indicates/suggests to me that they were hellbent on changing/corrupting me and everything/everyone else, stemming from them being made to change/destroy earth/rock out of their way.
I bet if they were limited to being miners again, they’d do VERY well.
I bet that I didn’t stem from their blood AT ALL, and that the individual dna/parts they mixed to MAKE me… would, separately, on their own, each have made a HANDSOME god-man of their respective different beyond-human races. Together, however, you get this “ugly duckling”…
Maybe there arent any nukes, just tesla beam explosions,
and all “nuked” places werent bc rempte, but where holdouts/survivors were, and/or bacnengineering complete so the bad humans didnt want to leave anything for anyone else to notice/use
I dont think i did anything wrong; i politely let others decide if to engage, i rejected cruel games and assassination attempts, i stayed focused and productive, i searched logical places for the compatibles, i ate healthily… Maybe phase2 simply has no good options, except ofc for it being relatively btr than phase1 due to mobility and the block-profiles feature.
Nation of the angry trans/deviant/unnatural retards; that’s how I would describe this failed country.
I used to give ppl chances. For decades, they took advantage, even tried to shame and kill me, an innocent man and a war hero. When that ambi-like bitch started showing up, instd of love at fiest sight, my memory/brain/instinct screamed Wait; why now, where was she when i needed her beFore, why isnt she talking to me, why is she playing a game, why isnt she helping or healing or vibing well? I suspect if i had given her a chance, she would have finished me off with another legalized scam… Her behavior did Not indicate a good woman, but a spy, and heartless.
I’ve Rarely gotten off to porn or irl memories without forcing it; almost All was drawn wrong in many ways, and with the ringing and other betrayals’ lingering effects, how can i feel anything but correct rage?
The good starcr ideas keep comin, so it clearly isnt just a passtime, me playing that game again
It would be tolerable if the unattractive art and model image aspects were just learning/aligning, but countless r made wrong on purpose
Doc2 was an old phase2 demon; no, i do not need to get btr at being alone, and no the gods didnt tell you that, you just illegally rape-ily spied wothout my consent, and made that up, vibe indicating/confirming/revealing you made it up. You need to get btr at being a Person; you need to stop chronic lying like the lfb and cps and other spineless retards always did. The gods need to get btr at answering prayers and not letting losers like you speak or even exist. You And the gods need to get btr at appreciating my honest reactions and thoughts to all situations. THAT is what needs to happen, you blameshifting shame-attempting Fool.
Even if there was another me, or multiple copies/clones, the work i am doing is still victorious against the evil sick fucks, and my being in the wild at all these sites still feels wonderful for phase2, and i always eventually get what i want. Was typist just using me to see how another me would react to things yer women were then told to do, testing all on me before feeling ci fident it would work in person on another me? Maybe, but so what? The rp still greatly helped me get my amazing saga in order, and kept me focused and balanced before i became free to enjoy in-person.
Why are some made pretty while others are ugly? It may be random, since apparently no human can think, let alone imagine, let alone hold a vision, let alone hold a Good vision.
While Saying “i do not consent” Might Sometimes work, it is still programming, attempted domination, Not what i want to say, and is when i am Not around good ppl, but enemies who should Never be conversed with, only destroyed. Controlling my emotions wasnt wise, but necessary for phase 2. In phase3, my emotions are superpowers that unleash justice on all around me, amen.
As loud as my whole body, every cell, ‘screamed’ this is not for me…when i experimented one time, it has since screamed’ about the species having makeup, nail extensions, sag tits, deformed clits, ugly ppl, gluttons, druggies, argumentativeness, nonvegan madness, sexist and kangaroo courts, fake leaders, plagiarized religions, gender disrespect, boldfaced and delusional and chronic liars, fake-healthcare deathtraps and genocide campaigns, and everything else. In other words, my entire being has wholeheartedly warned me every single time about every single female, hotties included, not just the Extra-deviants.
Them criminalizing and prebanning the kind of books and concerts and games and movies and shows I want to make…doesnt stop them, but makes them more badass, and built up over longer.
Bad ones “haunt” me via memories of their stares, and good ones return to do what i always wanted them to. Good ones arent really good when they play games or dont engage and team up. Good ones return and do what i want them to, not needing guidance, bc their essence is compatible w mine.
Showing up just to gloat or be smug or stare or give me moody vibes…
is as retarded, heartless, and selfdefeating as if they got mad at trauma victims for having PTS. Why not just accept the reality that your cold and bizarre behavior, esp. the spying and casual abandonment, walking off after pretending to show interest while vibing as testers and bait, is only prolonging the processing of / recovery from the PTS YOUR KIND INTENTIONALLY CAUSED.
Even though Park Cities and the bobsled park suck as nonvegan psychopath shitholes, it was much nicer to return to them in jeep and suv withOut having to ride w retarded veteran and moody scum.
“This too shall pass.” completely misses the point; retarded bullshit never should happen in the first place.
I will not disrespect or doom my future children by letting a rude/negligent/stupid woman be their mom; the real ambi will habe to be communicative w me, preaent daily, and not a goddamn masktard or religtard.
That stupid ambi-like bitch showing up at random like she did… shows she is a chaos-incarnate minion; a cheap imitation;
I never wrote ambi as being a node/minion/peasant of Chaos.
I wrote her as being reliable.
Hell, even the dumbass Typist wrote her as being reliable,
thus whomever that was who kept showing up randomly… was NOT acting like what we wrote AT ALL, just LOOKING and SOUNding like it.
I didn’t ask for PART or SOME of what I like. I asked for things to be AS I like –eXACtly.
So now that I can’t even add TEXT to my site anymore… I feel VERY accomplished; I FULLY utilized what I paid for, at last.
This is a good time to stop, anyway; I was tired of it.
Now I will transition back to day-long PT, sunning, novels maybe, etc.
fri18oct 9:25am first time starting vehicle while fleshlight resting on steering wheel, thus first time feeling it vibrate from that.
doesn’t matter if I offended the typist, if the typist read my bitching/venting irlj entries, etc.;
what matters is that I was myself, I sided with myself, thus I am natural self-stabilizing, self-supporting.
What matters is that I was honest, ‘transparent’, etc.
maybe the typist having multiple characters… stems from her two-sides Gemini nature, and from her nature as a female;
it is in her gender’s nature, it seems, to always want to add, such as by increasing semen into lifeforms/offspring.
maybe her characters are also her way of controlling/isolating/wielding her emotions/sides/moods/focuses,
and otherwise she would be too chaotic…
maybe it was her reDucing chaos, thus Not a chaos-incarnate being, just someone From this chaos-troubled-during-phases-1-and-2 ‘side’/dimension.
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and her eventually “cutting contact” in RP with all but a few of those characters… maybe again be her not trying to manipulate me into gradually accepting just monogamy,
but her, whether consciously or not, aGain reducing dynamic/chaos.
hopefully it will continue working out how I want/envision.
If I had gotten what I wanted in phase1, I would be a fireman or pilot, with meh-face RJH as wife after graduating college.
Things NOT being done how I wanted… led me to become a Marine, an instructor, a world explorer, Inisfree designer, novel writer, and apparently able to wield weather and travel through time (both forward and backward, as well as effortlessly).
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and then things started Somewhat going how I wanted; not having to work, getting to return to favorite places, the finest/perfect girls/women trying to hook up with me, my website/vision complete, etc.
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and I suppose next is things Always happening how I want… now that I have “come into my own”, no longer pursuing a career that is less than my potential/calling.
If I had accepted things in phase1, I would ALWAYS be disrespected, underpaid, struggling, controlled, fined, etc..
If I had accepted things in phase2, I would be BARELY less-horribly paid, and with far-hotter women, but still MANY flaws that did NOT at ALL vibe well with me.
Me not talking to humans much anymore, since yrs ago, has really paid off; it meant far fewer repeated/looped convos; imagine if i had talked to Everyone like they Wanted, now having to re-endure all their dumbass verbal diarrhea.
Consciously, I was just sidestepping pointless talk w the retarded humanimals, but I wonder if destiny-wise it doubled as an instinct or something; maybe on a subtle/subconscious level… part of me knew it would Also have been pointless bc it was a vision or time travel. Idk
hearing that properties r becoming unlivable is nice
The relentlessness of the dumbasses indirectly contributes to keeping good beings such as me innovating until we are basically invincible in multiple ways.
This many dumbasses… may be a way of forcing/ensuring selfstabilization before allowing something to escape; anyone w an idea…has no choice but to “pull themselves up by their own bootstraps”, as they get No support from Anyone, and have to lie to get liars/evildoers to accidentally do Anything useful. IOW: lame races guarantee the strong starts of replacement races, lame nations cause strong new nations, etc., so I wonder if this was built into this reality/system, like an egg shell the newborn bird must force its way out of, building up strength even before its first breath.
doc1 should have kniwn that ppl Were/Are my enertgy, as that is what i always fantasized about and drew and tried to help, but instd he tried to brainwash me otherwise, and in a mocking tone, and he prob accused me of communism only bc i share/post my ideas/help/discoveries freely, not charging for them.
Cracked a hwy, y landslides = earth.
Flooding = water.
Hurricane = wind.
Volcanic eruption = fire.
If I really am doing those things, as some believe, then I Do rate the leg-wrap tribal-elements tattoo.
There really is no more need for site mem; I have written and proofread the most powerful spells I can think of, and ambi and sabrina and rain already being perfect in person mean no more images are needed in the dossiers. The mem limit also now means I won’t be tempted to post victory details or actual pics w my soul fam.
35mb alert this 2024oct17thu, so final bkup right after 1 more pic; merit badges
Shackleton was prob made up like covid and relig and everything else, all to scare me in particular, but all it did was pass the time and help me brainstorm lol, bc neg vibes are unmistakable; bad intetions from sloppy fools, and a pos person such as me always defaults to seeing the opportunities and tools and way through. Even the name shackle-ton was prob engineered to seem neg/daunting/unpleasant.
The typist may be the xian scum her 2022 “and I like it For the…” bullshit leak suggests. Thankfully, however, even if she was just lying to develop a fake bond to manipulate me into giving free updates, she was still the first human to be Positive about my great idea/website. Not supportive/funding, but at least contributing…and only when there was more to be added well; now that it is complete, she prudently dialed down. That suggests at least Some degree of intelligence/awareness…which is odd, given how retarded vibing her cult-defense message in 2022 was. Maybe she just texted that evil shit to me when she foresaw/sensed I needed total space and focus for a while. …but I should not assume anything positive about her kind; anyone other than me; Iii have been the good/pos one, and hoping others were too, in spite of uniform signs they were not, is what led to so many heartaches and challenges.
The chg the full moon brought was the final wrapup step; merit badges, and last backup.
Claiming a nonpresent god is present, and a nonexistent god exists, and singing about it, and harassing people who repeatedly politely declined recruitment attempts to that delusion cult, is as evil, unnatural, rude, and trans equivalent as it gets; it is the ruthless relentless nagging attempt to change things that were already stable and wellmade. It is against the real god/s.
It is nice to have bored intervals –nice because years ago… I had only intervals of stress and abuse. Intervals of boredom and great ideas and life’s work design/publishing wrap-up… is much better. Even better is next/soon, too; intervals of enjoying the fruits of these labors… and better restful sleep each night than I have ever had while solo.
Just sitting and skywatching, enjoying warm air on my feet and ankles, waiting to deuce, and letting ideas come naturally, not trying to pressure my mind to brainstorm, is so nice.
Maybe the reason so many humans I met so far were mindless narrative parroters…is bc those long ago who Could get visions…got a vision/idea part which convinced them that the way to make lasting nations and corporations…was to downgrade the brains of their workers that way…so visions still come…and consciousness focuses…but there are now entire demographics and even races, if not whole species, which are completely unaware of that, incapable of receiving Any ideas beyond their programming. In other words, it isnt that some receive a different calling or vision or focus; it is that they were engineered and born and clogged up specifically to ensure they can Never get their own ideas/visions.
The reaction vibe from sf when I mentioned having read about thought-form of Pleiadian ships… was unmistakable, 100% dread that I had happened upon correct and useful information, bc his kind are fake humans and always trying to prevent such ideas/freedom. Vibes never lie, and his was like a nuclear or volcanic blast of panic, unable to stop me from receiving and applying wisdom far beyond what his lowly ‘dark’ kind were limited to.
They assumed evil in spite of only Good deeds done by me; only evidence that i was good. I hoped for good…in apite of only evidence that they were evil. Ugh.
Were those papers i filled out for Customs during airplane descents…really just for me, and to check that my coordination and thinking were optimal after passing through sky barriers?
NO MORE IRLJ OR DREAMLOG (website updates)…WOW. no dej
Even if there were a few Perfectly compatible w me, they still wouldnt be truly compatible w me…bc they didnt police their communities, keeping out the INcompatible.
Ambi cheap imitation…testing me multiple times…when i was at my most desperate and exhausted…was fucked up, yes, however it confirmed over and over that even at my weakest…I still cannot be corrupted/disrespected even by EXACTLY the beauties I want; it showed i am worthy of being king of kings, lord of all.
My assuming ppl will Prob do bad…is from experience.
It is not like cps and lfb and jeff etc assuming iii and Other good ppl Are bad…while igNoring evidence and experience, and not even Bothering to try communicating or addressing concerns or explaining wtf is going on.
Since my memory doesn’t change, it may have been more time travel than foresight/vision / astral projection;
my loopbreaking this year and last… didn’t cause me to remember having done these different present choices… back when I experienced this stuff years ago in the jeep.
Since even I originally was fooled by their lies, I thinking people wouldn’t lie to someone innocent such as me,
I cannot fully be mad at other innocents/gullibles who are Still falling for the lies of the evil/false “humans”,
however… a line must be drawn, and all good ones should be able to sense I am good, and deserve the best,
I Never deserving the bullshit condescension and other mistreatment/abuse they kept heaping upon me even in phase 2,
so anyone who Still sides with / believes the obviously-wrong/-false/-dishonest “humans”… shall be depowered, if not ended.
They shouldn’t have incarnated recently if it wasn’t to sense, love, and serve/trust Me. I am the lord.
“Don’t you think she’s a little YOUNG??”
Obviously not; being pretty is not based on age.
Is she NOT pretty just because she is younger than when you would want her having sex?
Is she ugly because she is 17.99 instead of 18? Obviously not.
She is pretty when she is pretty.
I never said I wanted to fuck her, anyway. You assumed and implied that, because it wasn’t about correcting/guiding/steering someone; to you, all that mattered was saying what was obviously illogical and wrong; insults and lies, because your nature is to harm people, because you are a bully, because you are evil, not an actual/real person/human.
Your vibe betrays/reveals you, and your retarded attempts at traps/tricks just confirm that your vibe was sensed correctly.
You will be targeted and exterminated, species wide, in due course/time. Amen.
The fact that so many PERFECT-TENS tried to get my attention,
ME, an UGLY guy, …shows the power of having a high standard,
and patience.
They might not actually LIKE me, and might have been paid or ORDERED to try and seDUCE me,
but I still ended up getting offered the quality of females I always wanted.
and if they DO like me, in SPITE of my face/body, then that says a lot about how much females liking things… is based on them, like the moon reflecting sunlight, matching whatever desire they deTECT from OTHERS.
That would mean their lust is different than male lust; female lust, then, would be based much more, if not entirely, on how much Others like the FEmales’ looks/face/body.
That would mean that even confidence is not the key, just raw/intense desire.
That may be why many advise to love the female, not respect her; she wants love far more than respect, and doesn’t mind being degraded as long as she feels she is loved/wanted.
Sure, some females make sure they will be respected AFTER they give sex, but that is probably just brainwashing which warps their use of language; they are probably just poorly communicating that they want to remain deSIRED for ENDLESS sex. They just inaccurately express/summarize that as “respect”.
More accurately, they are probably saying, “I hope you will still be kind/loving/lustful to me, thereby respecting what it is My nature to want/seek.”
It is also probably saying/implying, “I want to attach myself to someone. I want to be regularly wanted. I want to be able to tap into a love-spring, like a mana-spring, or an endless clean-energy source.”
It is good that it probably implies “I don’t want to be used once, but repeatedly used / turned to.”
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Anyway, back to the me being ugly honesty:
0A Pictures…phone pics…bad selfies
That group of photos… really shows how hideous I am,
or at least how hideous I was made,
or at least how hideous the evil tech Makes me look, perhaps altering things here and there.
It reminds me how important it is for me to stay focused on manifesting a solution to that, and only attractive people.
It reminds me how critical it is for me to hold a GOOD vision for my OWN offspring, that They manifest ATTRACTIVELY, that they NEVER have to endure the heartache/hell I, being made by no-vision sloppy-reproducing FOOLS/EVILDOERS, have been trapped in through phases 1 and 2.
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someone as ugly as me…
yet more than 3x… that ambi-like woman went RIGHT TO ME…
If she returns and treats me right, then I guess my looks never mattered as much as I thought they did,
and EVERY hottie is then “in my league”.
Well, actually, even if the govt sent that bitch, it Still means every hottie is ALREADY in my league.
are you shy?” is retardation that shows me humans are incapable of even grasping the most obvious of common-sense concepts; hygiene; don’t reek of shit and try to hit on me.
why are you hiding?” is retardation that shows me the people assuming/asking that, especially in their moody tone, either 1) didn’t bother ‘doing their homework’, thus are lazy and worthless/unworthy, or 2) ‘did their homework’, yet Still chose to pretend I was doing something I never was, it never occurring to them to assume the positive, or ask me for clarification, or not get moody at me when I am minding my own business. Don’t be an attention whore, don’t slander me, don’t have tantrums, etc.. Evil ppl are always so retarded. They’d be stupid if I explained what I was really doing, they understood, and Still acted negative about me/it. When I explained it to them and they STILL weren’t able to understand, that is retarded.
If people were as smart as me, even the ugly ones would be tolerable, in a way,
and ALL the hot ones (compatible with me) would be getting a “yes” from me.
Thankfully I am far smarter than I am ugly,
and far more traveled,
and far braver,
and far more self-controlled,
and see things other than myself 99% of the time.
That’s enough, for phase 2.
7:58pm headlights seen out where suv went days ago,
7:59pm big tall truck, prob source of those lights a minute ago, pulls up to yellow gate campground, from canyon side, and stops, facing headlights toward this campground, backs up, heads down toward intersec
so now all there is left to do is wait and see;
if she returns to me, apologizes, doesn’t mind apologizing, explains herself, vibes as honest, has a good reason for being away this long, and happily provides leverage in case she ever fucks up,
then she is the one.
If she doesn’t do those things, she wasn’t the one, and was a cheap imitation as I said/concluded years ago.
If she is the one, she will prioritize what matters to me,
and be intelligent enough to understand what I was put through, thus why leverage is the morally correct thing to offer/provide me.
Either way, she showed up numerous times, and I rejected her inappropriate behavior all those times; either way, I overcame lust and desperation and everything.
It is such a turnoff that I have had to, so many times, for >41 years, say over and over again what I like, and what my boundaries are,
and NO ONE has respected them.
I respected so many, did my best to learn from so many, yet NO ONE has even thought to ASK what matters to Me, let alone learn it, let alone do it.
I guess that’s reserved for phase 3.
If anything went well/correctly/appropriately at this point, I would switch to focusing on it right away.
I was uglier as a child… than I am in the bad selfies after the military;
hopefully I will continue becoming more handsome… until I like the sight of myself.
Either way, it was nice to get hit on by perfect-tens for years,
it was nice to be myself and stand my ground,
and it will be nice to pirate/take/conquer stuff.
The forced signature card upgrade might be underhanded…to put some kind of chemical or energy directly near me…but all things get forced to do my will, so…it will only help me, never alter or hurt me.
They aren’t just mistakenly believing and saying things that are wrong/false/lies, they are doong their best to bully, harm, and trick people, and are energized by the suffering of others; they are evil, not merely fools/brainwashed. They are sources of wrongness/abuse. They are knowingly causing upset, and specifically targeting anyone who behaves naturally and lovingly. That is why they didnt just insult and pressure Me, but CHILDREN who had Never Wronged them. I, being a good being, naturally dpublechecked/analyzed myself, worrying there might be some actual issue, until I noticed that they were exagerating about, and slandering, Everyone good. I always searched for truth and harmony, while they had always meddled, gettingnin the way, preVenting harmony, and claiming all truths were lies. It was most obvious when I was accused of wanting the one thing I almost never want; fullbody love with Everyone. It was also the most obvious when I was just minding my own business, ice skating; even then, the focus was entirely on trying to get my consent to destabilize myself to the point of probable bodily injury. Only an evil fake human (a monster pretending to Be a human) would hurry over to an ice skater of all things to try and hurt them.
Females are not merely reflectors/copiers of how they r treated; they did not reflect me minding my own business, or my interest, or my disinterest, or my professionalism, or my honor. They were moody and unreliable and unattractive no matter what.
I may be ugly still, but i am noble, heroic, monklike, and my design is perfect.
Thankfully my wisdom is still wisdom regardless of the body I was given; even though i dont like this body, it gets the job done, and the truth is still the truth.
“You can say everything you like, but you cant touch the merchandise, but it will cost you, you can step outside your little world, you can talk to a pretty girl, shes verything u dream about, dont fall in love, one in a million” retarded lyrics, old song, exaggerated voice, ‘extra’ elec guitar, another failure of humans at music and psyop. 4:58am 100.7fm. Utah has basically only bad music and complete dumbasses on the radio.
sat19oct2024 1pm: utah state univ for 5g, bkup,
I rmbr yrs ago driving back into the canyon to j to Violet Erotica washing machine bounce cute perfect tits vid dl,
but the query showed it not on this computer.
lost on prev laptop?
time-travel thing/effect?
either way, great to have it back. truly perfect tits, face, skin, body motions, voice, duration, etc..
definitely the base for Caitlyn Blakewood.
good/great sign –especially for phase2; nearly perfect (minus tat, etc.)
Like the best songs, ambi kept going a long time, and is full of not just surprises, but Great surprises
..b/c it reminded me of how you always made me feel like singing and writing concerts, which I hope you loved.
https://www.facebook.com/reel/1036247201489206
(Christian Ortega FB post “Box of Beats” techno/club cover of Billie Eilish’s “Lovely”)
sat19oct? sun20oct?
Jaide rogered up after years
I did not respond, having learned that no good comes from talking with humans, especially on Discord; like in person, they always rapidly bait-and-switch or just reveal how unhealthy/stupid/evil they are.
It has never blossomed into what I want/deserve/summon; even ambi-typist “shit the bed” NUMEROUS times, souring EVERY WOULD-BE-decent RP/idea.
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Curious that she stayed silent during all that work, then messaged the very morning I wrapped the last of it up…
Brujah timing… or just another goddamn cia spy meddler like fake-father tsb.
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Can’t help but want to fuck jaide. Not the gross typist, but the character.
Maybe we didnt need to rp much at all, bc the rp was for brainstorming and agreeing upon the family and cabin vision w ambi, while brief meetings were all that was needed to set in motion being fuckbiddies w the other hottie goddesses.
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The jaide and ambi typist/s might well be called “icebag, queen of negligence, false hot”. Hot females should be present and causing sexual satisfaction.
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They havent supported me directly, per se, not in person,
and they havent attacked me, as far as i am aware,
thus that makes them phase2…creatures…so far.
phase/rd1 bs/yc: had to resort to shit job for half a year or more just to LEARN of the place and BARELY get in, and only when slaving away.
phase/rd2 bs/yc: gave the locals 1 more chance, was able to live there, and instantly noticed and casually shut down ALL evil attempts to steer me wrong (nonvegan, away, faggotry, etc.), and was able to sample and quit jobs, meet FAR more ppl, etc., and even notice a superpower of mine.
phase/rd3 bs/yc is coming 🙂 (skipping the bad locals, or cataclysming/magic-ing them out, once and for all, going straight to living there in the cabin I chose, which calls to me, etc.) Amen.
Of course the Minecraft movie to be released 2025 April 4 has a token, and not just any token, but a MASSIVELY morbidly obese nigger blob ogre gender-uncertain beast creature degenerate. They probably intentionally cast the ugliest possible mutant they could find/recruit/make. smh…
Humans always choose the most offensive course/thing possible.
Ugh…
Well, one more movie to remake the appropriate way. Whatever.
There are no innocents/compatibles where the storms hit this past month worth of days;
they are xians, nonvegans, not donating / paying taxes to me, not attractive, etc.,
and the humans already made it VERY clear they HAVE read my website, thus have chosen NOT to convert/align/obey.
Doesn’t matter if only evil figureheads and pretend IRS/treasury orgs/blds/individuals/demons have control of the money;
what matters is that all humans are now held to a police-your-own-fully-everywhere-or-face-extermination/-cataclysm.
I already tried talk and love and patience and prayer for DECADES.
I tried conscious co-creation with their kind, and they ALL, THOUSANDS of them, ALL ALWAYS did the SAME evil BS.
Unacceptable.
So now, until compatibles roger up and team up and contribute the way I instinctively know all Should, no more “kid gloves”; no more holding back;
ALL my strength/power unleashed EVERY time.
..just like how THEY always went full-force against ME.
and I NEVER help them now, as THEY never helped ME.
How it is.
They are reaping what they sowed.
Organic but not extortion-certified (farmer does not pay ridiculous amount for organic test/certification)
https://www.facebook.com/share/r/bANNPhk6ey6TZ2MR/?mibextid=9drbnH&s=yWDuG2&fs=e
standard phase2 mix/bs: just like ambi and the other hotties showing up but refusing to be appropriate,
I got this wave of free games, but most have intentionally-drawn-ugly/-deformed bitches in them,
and the first one won’t let me past the hotel room,
and the raccoon one black-screens like EVE sometimes does. GAY.
The “Sky: Children of the Light” game reminds me of typist RPing the fairies meeting me,
and Ambi in statue mode, probably not revealing that it was my love that unpetrified her, etc.,
and ofc keeps telling me to reunite the realms, and with the stars, and reawaken the elders (a title of one of my novels, more or less).
also reminds me of that idiot crybaby Sky who pursued me, causing traffic risk.
and of the djinn woman who gave me the pebble in Petra <3
and I love the pigtails, and when the character lookalike rested foreheads with it/her, making me think of my near-future / coming daughters <3 <3
and the glowing butterflies of ambi… who maybe foresaw this game, or it is an alignment with her mentioning such
and the Forest Temple
and the Spire Temple
ICGM Meditation Room
subt vatc
Drow bc gray skin and white hair
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I believe yrs ago when first playing Sky, I returned to the map areas I realized were side areas, and started completing them, then watched the youtube of the end, and was not that excited about it, so I never finished the game. Still no desire to complete it this 2nd time, and not even going to take the time to return through all those slow cutscenes to the missed side-areas.
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Mem refresh of desert island area called “Forgotten Ark” in Steam game “Sky”; I went and got close to the red spirit in the air, and didnt know how to beat it.
Telling ppl there is only vacuum and radiation n space…is hrainwashing so when they go…they will manifest the ether into nothing around them, not superpowers or new worlds or whatecer is on their minds.
Are bulls and cows, and other 4legged creatures, the result of taurens/minotaurs and others… having to adjust to crawling on hands and kneels through survival cave tunnels during generations avoiding surface cataclysms?
Did their species/races lose spoken language… bc many adults were killed helping them get underground, thus unable to pass on their schooling?
The gods were the springboard from thought to matter/particles/dimensions. Dimensions then were the springboards for cells and worlds to form. Each focus/eon is about stabilizing/petrifyingninto something that enables and triggers the next. Humans having no intelligence, vision, or manners… was My springboard, ensuring I had no choice but to keep working on manifesting My idea. And I had it in the final cycle of the Atlantean/Mayan schedule, and, just as Ian said, it was about the whole uni/omniverse; realigning/perfecting it. It went beYond conscious co creation, too, which is something done back in the Age beFore the focus had shifted to making mindless peasants to maintain corporations and nations; my idea was to Choose how even co creAtion works, such as who was worthy, who was able, and the Magics Chambers to keep regulating creation.
Not only shall my wife be prettier than the wives of everyone I met/knew so far, I shall have wives, not just one, and all perfect-ten females shall be my wives, and they shall adore and eagerly support me, and they can sleep around as needed, of course, for I am a fair and wise god, but I shall always come first to them, their other husbands and other males mattering but not as much to them as I matter, amen.
I think everyone so far… was just a bad being posing as a normal human; they did not sense my innocent and goodnatured vibe, they misinterpreted everything I did, they always tried to corrupt/dominate me via anger or sadness, they were always fake, they ignored all my honest feedback/input, they had tantrums about genuine compliments, NOTHING they did made any sense, and I Never instigated, only standing up for myself, which they did not value as brave or honorable, but freaked out about.
When I gave them tastes of their own medicine, and in a professional and consistent way, they remained arrogant and oblivious, if not again triggered.
Only evil creatures or NPCs programmed to only be able to default to negativity no matter what was going on… would behave that way.
Thus I can only conclude they are fully evil, as their vibes and actions have Always strongly indicated, and that they must be completely removed, since they have not responded appropriately to talk or the will to manifest their corrections.
Even if all those gender disrespecting retard degenerate evildoers w hideous faces and voices hadnt posted videos being crybabies instead of celebrating the longdue cleanup,
even if there Had been some decents in that region,
it was still a good practice and target, as no support was coming from there, thus they had no intelligence/wisdom/goodness.
..but if those vids aren’t deepfakes/CGI/AI, then they DEFINITELY confirm I was right to have the storms strike those areas, and as hard as they did. If only they could hit again, harder every time, until NONE of those selfmade-hideous poor-me control-drama monsters are left.
The cold is now preferred, even below freezing
This vehic is a good transition from jeep to quiet cozy warm house
It may be that all songs were reworded; every single song on the radio… was not really made by the artist now claiming credit,
but stolen by the CIA, lyrics slightly changed to still fit the beat/spaces, but engineered/designed to brainwash subtly, little by little, into degeneracy/idiocy/unnatural-ness.
Thus what I have done is probably sense what the Original lyrics were, and restore them.
This thought occurring to me is not a coincidence, but probably another sign –and, as usu. so far, all good/correct signs/guidance come from within Me.
VERY happy w doom xxx updt
No, none of these ideas would have come thru if i had fam when i asked for it
Phase2 was Getting the dream
Phase3 is living it
The nbr of hotties I wrote of is only overwhelming when I am in the Outlands w this many ideas being typed up per day;
once phase3 begins, the ideas come at a milder pace, most manifested, all manifesting perfectly, my schedule no longer based on movement/camping, but going from house to house of my loves, amen.
They’ll also be Helping me manifest Every published/discussed idea, I then finally able to Trust others. Amen.
It is funny how I was forced to learn extreme bladder/bowel control in Boot Camp,
and now that I don’t have to, I do it to mySelf;
anything to avoid how ugly and rude and stupid humans so far have always been.
whatever works, I guess.
nice that I have the choice every day.
..there’s something soothing and meditative about the feeling of holding it a while, too.
like edging; building up for a better and complete release, guaranteed.
My instinct to avoid working w the freaks… is a huge part of why inisfree got wrapped up in the ~13 Earth-years-long post-Shift cycle; my consciousness-focus aligned… and I doubt it is merely a coincidence.
Dock Flats wasnt marked in Maps… but is 100% something I would have marked in jeep…
time travel wipe effect?
Dock Flats, n of SLC:
cried a lot, first time here, drafting this stuff (Persephone TV show credits-video minute-by-minute includes).
no tears at all this 2nd time : )
I feel toughened and proud af. I am in Love w my writing/spells/wmkm stuff, almost as much as I love Ambi and our babies and Fluffy and my other wives.
Are stray cats and other animals bots sent to try and pressure ppl into adopting them, thereby being too distracted to have ideas/visions and long progress/projects? Maybe.
In cv, I instinctively built the nicest bldgs in My realm, as well as a ship able to make regular trips through the black ocean (Abyss; the most challenging of realms) easy and comfortable, even luxurious,
…and in a ‘friend’/other realm, I instinctively built a skyscraper ziggurat; a mountain-height pyramid, …after going down as far as possible, then completely walling off and taming the underworld. I bet no one has done that before.
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I wonder who watched and analyzed it.
I wonder if they reached correct conclusions; positive ones about me.
No, my calling/destiny/purpose/role in this life is not to go around explaining obvious/simple concepts to heartless murderous dumbasses / fake-humans.
Until their communities are entirely vegan, sane, and not degenerate-promoting, there is nothing for someone as good/pure/holy/wise as me to say to them.
the only way giving birth to the offspring of an angel could hurt a human woman is if her essence was evil, thus somehow ‘poisoned’ by having good energy inside her,
but much more likely is that the church killed her, then blamed the innocent angel/s.
the insecure jealous church losers probably weren’t even able to do That, though, as they require consent to do anything, thus their constant/relentless pestering/harassment of everyone.
they probably Claimed they had bullied and enslaved and genocided others… when really all those ppl, like me, had easily sensed their evil, and sidestepped/evaded/avoided them.
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also, it is perhaps ‘a thing’ that angels don’t set size parameters in the visions for the offspring they have women create for them, thus the babies upon birthing can become larger than human ones,
but angels don’t need to breed,
and almost certainly just communicate fullbody, not merely verbally,
and can with a single thought or urge/will prevent any woman from conceiving… just as easily as god in that one legend was said to’ve impregnated a human woman without even fucking her.
their kind can manifest things far more easily/effortlessly than humans brainwashed to be self-hindering slaves.
I was willing to accept their best (thus BARELY tolerable) lodging, pay, females, respect, and food,
but they ruined All that with dishonesty and masktardation and religious persecution and threats and extprtion via police,
so now I cannot even trust or enioy their most expensive homes and hotels,
or their sexiest females,
or even donations,
or even simple touch such as highfives,
so every last one of them shall die by cataclysm/s, amen.
I (have) never quit; I’ve been working every moment this entire time.
I was never “all in my head”; I’ve been ready to make this real as soon as ppl behave sanely.
The (“pres.”) assassin didnt miss; it was fake like all other tv/politics.
Jaide and barbara are prob fake names (just like J, Tim, etc.), spooks of the retard church/cult, and jaide used barbara to learn how to control me. Why else would they have instant timing, yet never help? They are agents who gathered humint. They abused tech power.
But my decision is final, my instincts true; i will only accept them being controlled or loved by me, plus them infinitely funding me, apologizing from the heart, etc..
Also, I am proud i lasted this long, and made the design i made, and learned all i learned, and scouted so far and wide, and stayed goodnatured, and got much btr at sensing and sidestepping the evildoers’ baits, and repeatedly dumped the useless typists and in-person cunts.
And then there was greeting myself… and now the multistate storms/purges… : )
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Is that saying about coincidences true? Idk, but i know the news got much btr this yr, almost making up for 2020 (and even my enemies now report storms and volcanic eruptions to me lmao!! and ones only affecting Them, just as I said/wrote).
I know i repeatedly defeated the bait, incl that bitch lookalike.
I know even lust has no sway on me.
I know time travel or something else miraculous is real.
I know i have been more and more ofp.
And i know that now ambi and the others know how to behave correctly, thus that their ongoing choice Not to is not due to ignorance or cowardice, but posb heartlessness, which may indicate they r like the nonvegan retards and other chronic bullies.
Are all movies made like the news, backward/opp from the truth, bc humans are for some reason incapable of logic or honesty or seeing things how they really are?
Are movies made ‘backward’ bc it is the only thing backward/evil beings gravitate to?
Is it a test or bait, luring out evildoers who celebrate the bs… and revealing who those w instincts/wisdom/sanity are?
Idk and idc.
But i am glad I took the time to rewrite the summaries and some of the plots of now thousands of shows/programs/spells.
tue22oct: 8:43p finally blocked jaide. Bitch deserved it for that merry xmas bs, not to mention harboring pharma scumtards, etc.
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Hopefully Helene went right over her place, though i suspect she didnt live in the state she claimed to; her kind always were cowards and liars.
Maybe the next storms i generate/summon will finiah her and the other typist off, if they aren’t dead already.
Lmao latest glutton loser brainwashed by tv latest scam, israel retard flag on profile pic, tried to rage and scare me, impaling himself as was said.
You really can judge a book by its cover.
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and that fatfuck retard demon reminded me:
Israel has now disrespected me more than twice in person; via their nigger veteran in the airport, and via the ugly whore the souless-vibe 3 “males” dangled at me at bs gym.
(not counting the cunt who maddogged me when all I was doing was walking on the sidewalk, not even talking to her, hadn’t even met her, 100% just being silent and polite, on my way)
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That fatfuck fugtard was triggered by a language other than his own,
and pretty art,
and natural states of matter,
and innocent post/vibe,
thereby revealing he is pure evil, as stupid as can be lol
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“Beware the occult!!”?? Yeah, I am; I am wary of Your cult; abrahamic bullshit. And anyone reacting negatively to Anything I do.
Humans spearing, stabbing, shooting, and insulting/provoking ppl…may stem from them being made to only understand penetration, and them seeing everything as something bad to damage out of their way for mining. Is that why they misinterpret everything, and pressure everyone to do lowpaying menial labor no matter how smart others are, and why they twist all words, always trying to spur and hurt ppl, just like miners always harm their way in as deepas they can?
First time (here; years ago) crying while drafting a few-minute show idea…was prob just the “high fives and spin hugs” bulletnotes I this time reviewed and added to. …Yes, I now (next day; going over this note I typed up yesterday night) rmbr that being the trigger back then.
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I am Very happy w the rainbow-swastika Space-fireworks etc. new bulletnotes; for the 1st song of that 2song last-ep closing-credits/-sequence.
It is another of now nearly countless ideas/vision-parts I could not have thought of, let alone remembered and edited multiple times, if not left in silence this long.
Everything they do requires consent… which is why they relig harassed me, and had tantrums over and over, and harassed me to do drugs, and kept me poor and desperate, and brainwashed ppl to be openminded and tolerant…
They can hurt themSelves, but not others without tricking them and obtaining consent.
That ris why the bully harassed me to hurt myself skating, etc. Even he was bound by some sort of unseen consent barrier.
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and now their kind is so wellknown and laughed about…that they can’t get Any consent,
and only have deFormed/Ugly ppl as their figureheads and gullibles, making them effortless to spot, even before they vibe wrong and say retarded nonsense; they have become Vastly weaker than before.
Shitty A.I. art/videos… may be to trick the arrogant into assuming A.I. is far more flawed than it really is.
Their sexy voices don’t do me much good until the tinnitus no longer prevents me from fully hearing them.
Their beauty does me little good until they show it all so I can confirm.
Etc.
What a retarded scene/line in Blade, the nigger saying she would kill herself if she got better eyesight and healing; if sunlight bothered her, and if she got thirsty no matter how much bad human drinks she drank. Why end your life if your health stabilized to normal? Why see yourself as dead when you finally achieved normal life?
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That reminds me of how the evil christian typist kept calling ambi dead and soulless. What a sick and retarded bullshit thing to say. What a mindless insult parroted. What disgusting propaganda attempted. How disrespectful to healthy ppl such as myself.
It was in their tones, dark twinkle’ eyes, and vibes; they were getting some sort of sick twisted pleasure energy from disrespecting and threatening me, and from indirect/roundabout/cowardly communication; they literally were powering themselves via rudeness energy. They hurt ppl/beings as their source of sustenance. There was no reason to see me as a threat, let alone spend tons of money to travel to me to try and scare me…unless that was a food source to them…and they had run low…or at least were trying to corrupt my soul and prevent my natural good development.
watching dumbass hunters/murderers drive by all day long…
that worst of all violences/betrayals is perfectly legal here,
meanwhile if I or anyone do anything normal/loving, INSTANT harassment from the corrupt/illegitimate cops.
That is the kind of civilization these humans have established/entrenched.
That is why I no longer interact with their pathetic evil kind.
ReDLing the Meru vids led me to the train of thought which revealed why succubae actually drain some… while recharging me and others.
the ideas for the remake of Blade, and remake of Meru, are FANTASTIC and LONG-due. Amen.
“I don’t think I could love you more” lyric from “Birds of a Feather” by Billie Eilish, could be Ambi indirectly pleading with me
but means nothing until she says so in her voice in person.
all the rp felt like disclosure, grooming, interviews, submitting to me, aligning to me…
so I can hope that it was; that it was Never just rp,
and that those perfect-tens who showed up… aren’t masktards at all,
and will love and serve and support and protect me well, as REAL family would and shall.
They were trying to pressure me to stay in the military,
and martial arts,
and tolerate verbal abuse, and taxation abuse, and neighbor abuse, and roommate abuse,
etc.,
because that was empowering them; they were feeding off of negative energy/emotions, and pain, etc.,
so every time I directly fought them, it was strengthening them,
and every time I refused to even speak to them, let alone let them upset met, it was starving them.
That is why the corrupt cops drove alongside me, abusing their power, trying to distract and bully and trigger me;
they weren’t making sure I was innocent or good; they were trying to bait me into a trap which their system had told them was okay to set up against innocent people such as me.
Me not even bothering to help those who issue fake-maydays anymore… also starved/depowered them.
The propaganda about the fake plagues, and about wars with meaningless NPCs in countries that have nothing to do with me, are their kind’s death-throes.
Jaide and barbara are prob fake names, spooks of the retard church/cult, and jaide used barbara to learn how to control me. Why else would they have instant timing, yet never help? They are agents who gathered humint. But my decision is final, my instincts true; i will only accept them being controlled or loved by me, plus them infinitely funding me, apologizing from the heart, etc.. I am proud i lasted this long, and made the design i made, and learned all i learned, and scouted so far and wide, and stayed goodnatured, and got much btr at sensing and sidestepping the evildoers’ baits, and repeatedly dumped the useless typists and in-person cunts. And then there was greeting myself… and now the multistate storms/purges… : )
Typist left the Inisfree server at some point…
I suppose that makes room for Good ppl now.
Her new discord pic just makes me think:
never RPed the collar
should all have been in person
was all talk all along
has horrible taste in art; makeup, hairline
Also, I changed mine to a real pic of me.
She kept the playby; she is still in coward/hiding/liar mode.
Her pic chg Could mean she survived Helene, but it could also be due to other causes, such as anyone else using her account.
Either way, a useless non-RPer doesnt matter.
It also reminds me of all the things my instincts know are right for me, yet which no one has given me so far.
Is the typist Desire Incarnate as she once texted,
or is she just lying about that, too?
I suppose I got the cybering and fam rp I wanted, and she backed off when I couldnt handle anymore rp/pretend, so both parts of our contact were her facilitating Some of what I desired…
but I always desired it to be in person, never just rp…
Maybe it is more accurate to say she is a muse who shows people what they desire most, Not someone who is the manifestation Of any of those desires.
That makes her phase2…
She used the new pic to have ambi pb put on the collar… the day after I blocked Jaide; an attempt at being good/feminine for me?
Jaide didnt use a comma btwn “Hello” and “Auz” …another shitty typist failing to use a language correctly
After rereading what I discorded jaide typist and ambi typist, it was way more professional, logical, and fair than I had thought/worried.
Relief and updrage always came after exhaustion…
After seeing how hideously deformed all the extras / dancing bitches in the Beach Boys tv performancers were, and all the bitches running at them in the tours footage, I am again reminded that selling books or music albums in the human realm would only further disgust me. Fame here is no good when it only attracts that kind of barfy attn.
I am speechless that even rich record companies and TV studios couldn’t find any attractive females… ever.
No one helped, so no one is the one.
..at least, there is no “the one” or worthy teammates in phase2.
just idiots blatantly thinking they are cleverly using acting/lies to steer/redirect me, when really they are just showing how bad/obvious their acting/lying is, and that they, as their kind Always has, so far, completely misinterpreting and not appropriately appreciating me.
The cheap imitation doesnt get points for showing up multiple times; she would only deserve credit if she had confirmed her identity and been there beFore each horrible damage (ears, etc.).
Brilliant Minds s1e1 no dej, but more standard degenerate race mixing insanity, not curing ppl, not even mentioning the causes of their illnesses; the S.A.D., etc.
Tried watching Friends, and within seconds I am disgusted, same as decades ago
How retarded of Joe Rogan and Graham Hancock to say how the outcast docs during the scamdemic were correct, but in the same youtube mindlessly parrot the baseless claim that plagues exist and are why millions of Natives and their big cities are now gone.
You would think people who claim to be doing THAT MUCH reading/research/thinking… would be able to have that easiest and most logical of thoughts/conclusions; that germs and plagues never existed, and that there is no evidence of either.
This makes me think they are shitty A.I.; fake ppl; NPCs. Like the A.I. allegedly not understanding how to draw hands/fingers in correct numbers yet, Joe and Graham in this latest podcast are doing pretty much the same thing; they are imitating “new ideas/research”… but poorly.
Makes me wonder why anyone thinks “mind-opening” drugs help increase intelligence; they clearly still lack basic intelligence / critical thinking.
Must be the latest fake human BS on tv/internet.
I love these new no-dej songs.
3:10pm The Beach Boys movie. No dej, thank god
and I had no idea how ugly and deformed they and most others during their era were. holy cow; humans sure were a failed species back then. not as hyper-glutton and genitals-severing as now, but still completely unattractive already.
weeks later, still more than 500 missing
Maybe the bad humans fell so far from grace… that their insecurities and other instabilities will Always best them, Always resulting in their blatant scams, tantrums, lies, coverups, etc..
Maybe they are just NPCs helping ensure our attention keeps cycling to the ruins until we figure out what they were –and how to use them.
Maybe the bad humans are panicking during this failed campaign of theirs to lie about everything… because the sooner we figure out they are the cause of the cataclysms and the gods leaving, we will turn on them, finishing them off, they far weaker than their lies pretend.
“You do your part and then god does his.” turned out to be backward, yet another polar-opposite lie/idiocy/misinterpretation if the humans;
I have been doing My part, and apparently am god, but humans have not done theirs, unless of course we count their pathetic failures at everything… as them doing their part, and then me as god fixing it all via my website/s.
Even when i got poisoned by the spiked alcohol that cunt friend of the fag prob set me up to drink, and i was hospitalized, they evil fake mothr verbally betrayed me in front of a cop of all monsters, one she no doubt called,
and she prob had the whole thing arranged so she could trick me into getting innocents locked up,
and the retarded evil hospital guy blamed Me, giving me a pamphlet implying i was w druggies, when, if he wasnt evil, he would instead have helped me get away from that abusive fake mothr, and the blatantly-evil fake-cops.
I never would have ended up w those untrustworthy strangers if so many hadnt targeted and harassed and exhausted and impoverished me.
I would have had a normal stable mutual relationship like i kept attempting.
The fake mothr didnt show up to the hospital to help, but to parasitically bask in the suffering, and to try and cause more for others, thinking you would crack and spill the beans when weakened. That is why she summoned only fake doctors who did not help, a fake cop w a black soul, the cuntvibe pamphlet hander demon pretending to be jesus, etc.. That is why she accused you, assuming or pretending the opposite of what you were doing. They forced you into resorting to those outings, then tried to trick you into blaming yourself and others who their kind had Also forced into that stuff. They have Always chosen that unfair idiocy and monstrousness.
Whether the bitches can’t or won’t answer my call, they are not my ppl; block and sidestep.
fri25oct: 3rd msg this mo. saying bal below 0. And ofc the bank hit me w a fee even though they said they would wait a day, and even though there is money in 2 accts they could have transferred without a fee. Kill em all. Goddamn idiots and thieves. NPCs.
Me being forced to stay outside current human cities… kept me out from under their jamming towers and chemtrails, and away from their light pollution and retarded nuissances and fake poor ppl (parastic NPCs). My healthy diet and focus also helped. Together, that allowed me to not just see the stars out here, but hear their language/messages/revelations. While most who camp or camper… are probably doing so briefly, and amidst light pollution from their fancy vehicles, and while staying clogged and poisoned from their diets, and with short hair, and brainwashed minds, I was beyond All of that, thus the other campers didnt sense and embrace and develop Inisfree and my rsrch projects, while I did, living as a real visionary/prophet.
Pleiadians have ships that help them switch into thought mode. The ancients would have been able to do that on their own; the highest form of shapeshifting. Imagine an entire world, star, or solar system choosing to switch into thought mode and move. This is probably perceived by humans as a red giant or supernova consuming the system, when really it just leaves that coalesced matter/energy behind, no longer bound by its will.
Everyone walking where I would see, then frowning at me and vibing as evil/incompatible, was bait… and everyone who sat there, glowy, was maybe a telepathic projection, a person form another realm… astral projecting to me, not just remote-viewing; viewing is just looking, but projecting is sending one’s appearance… like a hologram. This is thought form. It can be said it is like sending half your body/energy.
Down2earth is broc pizza place… but i didnt try the rest of menu, and now know what to skip
I worried about the mandated host plan upgrade, but it is manageable, and there are many options, such as month to month : )
Maybe the ancients made the current lame humans… as a method of distracting and misleading the new race/generations… so they wouldn’t even think of summoning/reawakening the ancients for millennia, thus allowing their period of restful sleep… which is much longer than the 8hrs/night we today benefit from.
and they (liar humans) probably like pretending the great ancients are weaker or nothing… for the same reason they like pretending I am bad; they themselves are pathetic, and can only imitate intelligence and greatness… by deceiving the gullible/ignorant.
Anything that reveals how much smarter, stronger, better looking, longer lived, etc., the others/ancients are… drives their little insecure minds mad.
Did the prev race/civ/demideities… engineer the current fake/evil humans… to ensure the next big consciousness focus or cycle of focuses? Is there an interval or overlap like that for every race; one bad to spur the good one to become as focused as can be? Maybe that is how the continents became so mighty, and, before that, the worlds so round and solid, and, before that, the dimensions so distinct.
These sites being revisited… annoys me, of course, as it was not what I asked for,
but being able to choose when to go to and from them, and whether to make fires or do whatever else,
is still a lot better/nicer than in Phase 1 when I had None of those choices.
another mem refresh; 100% of these sites (dispersed along Nebo Loop Rd), I remember going to.
Last time, I don’t think I called and asked where they were, though;
I think I just drove all roads that looked remote/winding, hoping for ANYthing.
Interesting that I happen to be back along this route.
I’m glad it is here, making it much easier to sleep, but…
not at all what I wanted, this many years after The Shift.
Never thought I’d be targeting (evil/fake/imitation) ambi and the others,
but they left me like this, after showing up with the smug/cunt/evil vibe,
so… yeah. Here we are. Everyone gets replaced / re-manifested. Whatever.
Me amidst fake humans… thereby resulting in no interaction other than to extract what I need to make Inisfree…
makes me wonder if in previous Ages/focuses… there were fake worlds around real ones… which somehow stimulated the real worlds to make continents, etc.
shouldn’t “not on our bed” have been “that is so hot! I’m really turned on that you enjoy that pet I got you. please often use our bed this way. may I masturbate while I watch?”
Hopefully in Phase 3, it Will be real-Ambi saying those far-more-compatible things to me.
If she doesn’t have to stand on her tiptoes to kiss my mouth, she is too tall.
If I can’t easily carry her over my shoulder, she is too heavy.
The budget and 14d rule steered me neutraly; without moodiness or threats or seeing fugtards. Those parameters helped me refind and remember not only wonderful free campsites, but specific events at them from years ago. If i had decent $ already, and no 14d thing to deal w, I would stay at one i definitely, then speed past entire states omw to the better food.
So…was any Else i lived through…another astral projection / vision of the future?
every time i go up in the mntns, i rmbr the typist claiming she had a dream where ambi told her she was looking for a man in the mntns and couldnt accept help
Legions were enough back when beings were the size of Titans, and realms were new thus smaller than today, and enemies few or nonexistent, but today… there are trillions upon trillions of realms, and Inisfreeans are about human size, and enemies have been present at all waypoints/interactions.
I never went too fast; they forced that, and tried being neg about Anything i did, incl going to slow for them, and they were too secretive and rude, and too fast to try and spawn, and too slow to understand.
However long ea storm and aftermath lasted, humans now owe me for; for my cataclysms/cleanup work –at $1,000/hr + late fees.
As lonely and stressful as this can be, it is still nice to get to enjoy this many forests, mountains, moonrises, shooting stars, meditations, proofreadings, etc.. I was always, bc of the bad humans, kept too busy to do Any of this before.
It was never the Type of idea that I had that bothered them; it was that I had any ideas AT ALL; they only wanted mindless parrots/slaves.
I’d like to think ambi in rockwall, butte, oregon, motel, and oceanside were all previews and reminders she is my wife… but until she returns and explains and stays with me and treat me correctly… At least she has shown up 3x for sure, and probably 5/+; shows it is not “3 strikes” or “3rd time’s the charm”
In phase1, i was wrongly raised/brainwashed to always try my best…for ppl who were making no effort at all for me. In phase2, my instincts still told me a very small percentage of humans were attractive, but only partially physically, none attractive mentally or socially. Apparently phase3 is when manifestation/ppl finally understand and choose to be fully attractive to me.
Usmc ball was first rd of vegas.
Henderson incl. a brief further scouting of The Strip, but was based on rd1 of henderson, not vegas.
My months-long trips to use vegas for winter warmth…were the rd/phase2 zeroing in.
Now that i have zeroed in, and have my notes online, …hopefully phase/rd3 shall begin there… and ofc that would mean only things I love…left standing.
Maybe the budget and donations pause…is another sign; to focus on proofreading, not exercising yet. Or exercising in moderations, mostly stretching. …sign or not, that is what I must do; wait for the loyal useful hotties to expand the budget so I can resume serious workouts in privacy, always with plenty to eat to bulk afterward.
No matter how annoying/harassing the humans have been n this ch/phase, rmbr that in phase1 they assaulted and poisoned me and stole my door and towered over me and jailed me and so on; in this phase…their worst has been silent blocked calls and blatant scam texts lol. My power and freedom grow. …They had to switch from forcing their evil relig on me…to pretending to be happy to tell me what I was not asking for. They used to control All my travel, and then…they couldnt even stop me during a global lockdown.
No, lying retard sj, i don’t “have a serial-killer smile”, you trashtalking punk nobody who fucks ugly bitches. My smile is only intentionally unnerving when i am nonverbally signalling to scum such as you. My smile is wonderful, and all good beings think so.
Doesnt matter if typist made an honest mistake…aGain…or tried to distance me bc foresaw it would finish the wrapup. What matters is she kept lying, being rude, defending evil, not helping, not RPing, etc., and the cheap imitation ambi kept being rude and not helping and not answering when i call. No wife would do that.
If she doesnt understand that me being in my car this long is bullshit, and that she was out of line in many ways over the years, and that she was vibkng as a liar pretending to be into my rsrch projects and all else, she isnt the typist or one for me. If she cuts contact every time i am exhausted, damn her. Not the one for me. Doesnt matter if we agree on many things, if we are polar opposites when it comes to honesty, fairness, accuracy, transparency, diet, politics, religion, drugs, etc.
I got the vision of myself using my hands to pull open a portal like parting tipi flaps, causing a pruple outkine in the air in front of me
I needed this time to wrap up the design and website…but did she stay uncimmunicative bc she Knew it would help…or bc she was moody when i didnt accept her bad behavior?
The crying cows (in the vids of their calves/babies being stolen) reminded me of how humans likewise ignored or even enJoyed My cries
I rmbr thinking “must be nice” when I saw my suv parked facing the bs gym front doors…back in 2017ish lol
Just like they control both polit parties, and both sides of wars, they surely wielded the fakegood hotties their celestine acam bookwringly advised me to give chances to
Still baffles me that so many… around the country and world… were trying to corrupt and breed and drug and murder me… even though all I ever did was be honest, helpful, studious, etc..
I wonder if as much harassment was on others, or just me.
It occurs to me that I may already be more than powerful enough to cataclysm the entire human civilization; the storms are just held back a bit by corrupt or coerced magic users… and HAARP/SBX1.
If they had smiled instead of frowned, understood instead of misinterpreted, been thrilled at how I am… instead of screaming and threatening me with soulless pitchblack shallow eyes, then I would feel comfortable interacting with them, and then we could proceed, but now all we can do is finish them off, once and for all, start over with ICVs and kajirae, etc.
Hieroglyphs and petroglyphs and maybe even geoglyphs are the graffiti and vandalism and disrespect (toward the gods) of the evil humans who were not meant to survive the last cataclysm/s.
I accepted her dark side… Can she accept mine? I hope all that disclosure and grooming and aligning wasnt for nothing.
I keep hearing the thought: any females who are not noticing me and already going my way…are disrespectful bait trying to seduce me off the right course
Maybe having to call out for them… means they arent on my path, thus arent my ppl
Maybe the lands themselves; the hibernating/petrified Titans/gods, not just the stars, have an influence on personality, and maybe that is why the powerlines and cell towers and mindless idiots parroting nonsense were made; to constantly try and counteract those influences/whispers.
Returning to these scenic places every year or two…
is a lot btr than having to Live at/near them w the glutton evildoers.
Destroy this entire region of communities, since that gas-station hottie eli and I saw has not made her place available for me to stay in when I am here.
Nevermind; i am remembering drylake…lol
Whatever.
The bitches chose evil uselessness, so drylake rd2 it is.
Lol that i stopped in Hurricane to laundry y air
juvenile hall porn – and juvenile hall hentai – google results censored blocked by evil prudes – modern demons
destroy their fams/lives/jobs
just goes to show I was right to stop interacting with these evil anti-nature anti-love anti-health psychos and control-freaks.
trying those other games showed me Eve isn’t the only one that makes my screen go black,
but that still doesn’t fully isolate the problem,
and even if it is due to having lights under my keys, that should never be an issue, as that is a completely separate system from what goes to my screen and speakers.
still, it’s nice to know it wasn’t just shitty programming of Eve.
Even if she meant well that whole time, a discord friend was Not what I asked for,
and i Certainly didnt deserve an old fat ugly rude idiot who refused to help even when i lived within Minutes of the bitch.
No messages r better than fake-supportive ones (It is better to not get any messages, than to get lies from false-positive scumbags such as typist);
“mine” when didnt earn it,
“over the moon” about rsrch proj,
“year or so”,
etc.
No more trust or hope or patience or waiting or focus or wishing on stars,
just rage,
natural, no more holding bk, no more letting that evil cunt water down my nature/focus.
If Any of those bitches return, i should make Them live on scraps in a trunk for years. Lime in the garage or driveway or a cave or something. Fuck them.
Doesnt matter if the silence helped w receiving and typing and editing the ideas. What matters is i was disrespected regardless of how respectful i was being.
Doesnt matrer if perfect matches now show up; i have no way to enjoy or trust them,
and the evil meddlers have not been destroyed yet.
Doesnt matter if the good ones dont yet have the means to destroy the evil scum; i never asked for weak manifestations.
Doesnt matter if all evil meddlers who disrespected me get destroted; I could only still suspect false loyalty and another bait/trap from the “good” ones.
It is nice to see how easily the badhuman roads are washed away.
I hope the storms are my forces/will… being clandestine and falseflag like I knew was wise during our start.
Was i always getting random gross rude bs…bc i had not yet posted i want only good/best?
Either way, good to have that appropriate standard and honest reviews.
If she and the others had been good, not evil, they would have told me long before…that they exist,
and they would not have let me be poisoned,
and they would not have let me endure renting from scum,
nor being forced to Work for scum,
and they would have given me their contact info,
and not posed and taunted,
and they wouldnt show up randomly,
and they Certainly wouldnt leave me resorting to a goddamn deathcult politard Typist!!
I never talked to the wrong ppl.
I was never to blame.
I tried talking to everyone, incl rich, sexy, comparable projects, businessppl, you name it.
I reSorted to Dealing w the Parasites who reSponded.
If she and the others had been good, not evil, they never would have been random, scoffing, etc.. They would have immediately answered, identified themselves upon approach, and apologized for what I went through, then helped me how I needed.
They would jave recognized wise selfcontrol, manners, posture, trauma, etc..
They would have prioritized reassuring me, not testing or abandoning or fucking with me.
Have my emotion surges each time i was betrayed/abused… caused all earthquakes and tidal waves, just randonly…bc i wasnt stating where i wanted them?
That bitch typist was probably stalling so they could evacuate or prep longer.
Then she sent the cross on purpose, and picked a fight, and blameshifted, after a full year of being negligent and vibing as completely uninterested, bc she knew or was told it would make me disconnect…
and Jaide rogering up all cunty-terse at that same time?
Those were coordinated breakup attacks.
But it is good bc since those are their true colors, it is good to rip the bandaid off at long last.
I just wish i could have punched them both.
Still cant believe even when just going for a walk to that yellowstone geyser, an agent disrespected both me AND THAT GIRL by forcing her to tilt side to side as I walked by. At least i saw the rage in her eyes; she, like me, knew he was the wrong one.
Maybe i can time-travel back, kill him, and save her.
All their lies, tantrums, insults, threats, assault, poisons, fake veteran events, fake news, fake maydays, baits, had no effect; they couldnt make me say what their system requires to further abuse me, they couldnt make me prematurely fight, and they couldnt make me prematurely spawn; I stayed the course, always ending up saying/doing what was within critical parameters.
Forcing me to be tech’-dependent doesnt mean Iii am tech dependent.
Besides, i didnt have this tech in phase1; it is still an upgrade.
I tried focusing on her and fam…and was ignored.
I tried calling out all along. No one answered, just a few shitty imitators/spies, idiotically/insanely expecting me to “go for them” in spite of Decades of negligence and worse.
..
I never blocked anyone out. They forced me to have nothing but my work. Maybe they did that because they knew I would focus on them if they treated me well.
…but that is me trying to see good where there hasnt been any;
every tine I gave chances, or helped homeless or acquaintances, they chose to be rude ingrates and worse.
When i pushed past my instincts, i had to deal w corrupt courts, kelsi, tinnitus, ame, jls.
When i trusted my instincts, i evaded corrupt detective traps, corrupt tim fed, etc., and I cut parasitic liar j and typist off.
It was never interacting or loving, but exposing and sidestepping and blocking that made things better.
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I am not here early (nv); it is freezing behind me; i am here at the right time.
I have witnessed wonders; ideal females, time travel, etc..
I am on a path with decent signs, certainly interesting.
If I am left with only sunning and exercise this winter, whatever. At least I am ofp.
My values have always been correct.
My self control is amazing.
I attract, for whatever reason, perfect tens.
Being neglected all these years resulted in my work ethic leading to the computer models.
I am glad I re-learned where Polaris is.
4th “below zero” email. Smh. I will rmbr this whenever anyone needs or wants anything.
I miscalculated/thought I would be in vegas for taco tue, but i will be there wed. instd. No big.
..
No, I did not miscalculate; I drove another 50 or so miles yesterday, thus Can be there for tacos today… except risky bc budget… :/
Fuck this lingering phase.
More controlled time-travel sure would be helpful rn…
From now on, it should be wielded by me, not random and unknown until years later, like the bigsky+ event.
My remaining fuel distance is about the same to down2, meaning I would be spending my last savings to refuel and get food if I went today…
They interfered with everything; every outing, relationship, venture, school, and even chats and rp posts.
Since they always hirried over to be rude and lie, no progress can be made until every one of their kind is destroyed and all they built… washed away.
That means it is time to switch focuses; the consciousness focus was on escaping their evil, then accepting my calling, and now on removing the problems-species.
My family could never be until all bad humans are brought under total and permanent control by me.
Maybe me having to sit at these remote/overlook sites… for hours to days longer than I wanted… helps them communicate all they need to tell/show me.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/AGLA
In this case/era, I am the lord/god who is mighty forever, evident.
“thank god” I have all this meaningful work to do…
to pass all this gd time until phase3.
regarding the kim grant-looking blue rectangle during host log-in: Maybe someone thought it would be a good idea to make that hideous mutant popup bc they hoped it would discourage my ~daily logins/updates.
They (humans at some point generations ago) prob had the consciousness focus of making cities, then nations, etc.., and that included the idea to make humanlike beings who could not get ideas of their own, thus the programming…
but then how come I was able to…? if they r not going to align to do my will?
Maybe they / their system only allows 1 person at a time to be a prophet/visionary, the whole vision coming through, interpreted one way, thus no confusion/argument as it gets told and implemented/shared/accepted.
..or their kind is just made to be incapable of even believing in such things, thus all the bs/rudeness, maybe engineered to ensure the visionary stays focused only on receiving the full vision, and communicating it perfectly, that it be stable enough to last through an era/Age.
I just learned numerous helpful facts about private jets which enlightened me as to their benefits and cost,
but how can I use that if not ever wanting to fly in such obsolete things…with no guarantees about being able to return, or to even be treated well at destinations?
..
I would NEVER trust a human to transport me anywhere again, not after ALL I DID trust WRONGED and even temporarily TRAPPED me,
and I would never trust the humans at any destiNation.
so all I can do is apply this private-jet vid-info / wisdom to my Own airline/projects.
Even if the 2nd cross-art was another honest mistake,
she is guilty of Many others,
and lied many times,
and defended evil,
and had gone cold/distant/fake since 2023nov,
and never supported me,
and cannot be said to have actually cared or wanted things to work out for me –bc of her priority to stay hidden and full of excuses.
I didnt get through all that work bc of her Help; She benefitted from My energy and desire/details/writing… and I got my work done in Spite of her Bad guidance.
..
It is just so strange that she introduced all those characters, and some showed up in person, but then none of them behaved how we wrote/envisioned/desired.
It never vibed as testing me to see who could seduce me;
it vibed as disclosure and prep’…
It seemed like destined conscious co creation…
and the cabin is there…
and the hotties look just right…
and I got my work done…
so NOW can I enjoy them/it all?
Like the mayan calendar showed,
postShift there was Also some overlap,
but it was so barebones and mixed-signals…
Ugh! I Hate being back here…
but at least all research and scouting and posting is complete.
I declared my honest feelings and goals…
..
I thought it would be more overlap than this already;
I thought I’d be living w the hotties I naturally feel attracted to.
I thought they’d prove themselves by now.
So far, only that Sabrina has; by vibe… or was she Acting, having that guy Paid to preTend to offend her… so she’d seem similar in mindset to me?
ugh again.
but good that I analyze and consider objectively these very real and disconcerting possibilities.
So did she lie about seeing ahead?
She said no it will never end, but it ended more than once.
She said a year or so. It has been 1.5.
Just the latest wrong bitch I have learned not to trust or listen to or write with.
Ugh.
..
Either she can’t see ahead, thus lied about it like other things,
or she Can see ahead, thus lied about it taking only 1 year.
Either way, another untrustworthy loser/evildoer Not funding/supporting me like ANY SANE PERSON WOULD.
Helene
>100k homes in FL lost power
>100k in nc damaged/destroyed
dozens of highways completely washed away
power unable to be restored for HALF A YEAR
similar with water supply
LMAO lame liar Jo Letoile “flushthetoilet” on fb?
showed up in my friend-suggestions / “people you may know”
his daughter is hideous; yet another non-male fucking a mutant, no vision/intelligence, just another lapdog trying to be a posterboy
After finding how eric and others were false humans w severe thinking and attitude defects, pretending to be my friends, triggered by things as innocent as a farm or home library sketch, I am so glad I kept working on my heart’s guidance/calling/wisdom, no longer wasting time at gyms or dojos or veteran events, all of which were attempts at programming/misguiding me.
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I bet ALL who claimed to be my friends, and into fitness, were agents/minions; they certainly had the vibe.
Strange that the cheap imitation ambi showed up as early as 2009ish rockwall; why make so many appearances… while showing me she has no manners?
Numerous $10 fees… and even when I kept xferring funds. Completely pointless and unfair.
Smh
Wf shall be annihilated. So be it.
I look forward to their replacement.
again it occurs to me the importance of recounting my many genius projects/accomplishments:
Dreamhouse
Sch sys
Martial arts 3
Fleet
Uniforms
Designing things based on how enemy tries to decode / backengineer
Relig
Models
Research projects
Merit badges
Time travel
So many unique creations/inventions the world needed, I now the mastermind of them, each a wonder/breakthrough
The individual ideas by themselves are each worth the choices I made.
So are the individual corrupt human discoveries; every corrupt salesman, veteran, “doctor”, cop, judge, fake-religion “leader”, etc.
and of course each miracle/wonder is worth it by itself; Muley Point, Pluto Cave, Big Sky timeline phenomenon, etc.
and I have TONS of these ideas/revelations, discoveries/exposures, and witnessed superhuman/miraculous things!
..
Every single evildoer I found… is valuable intel/humint. Even though I didn’t seem to be able to dispense justice to them right then and there, it was still very useful to find out where they are, who they are, what their scams are, etc.
When a fool tries to tell me the illegal immigrants from europe were innocent colonists,
I say then the mexicans crossing the border illegally are just innocent colonists.
The fool then says “no, not since we were already living here.”
I just smile, he having made my point For me; the Natives were already living here, so his kind entered against their will, thus were illegal in Native law.
But racists don’t care about the families or laws or history of others.
“expecting different results”?
No; that does not apply here.
I know I am getting different/better results… bc I am only here for different temperature; to protect the gear.
I know from experience that no matter What I do, I won’t get different results w humans.
Humans must be avoided and destroyed.
Better results come from me, not others.
Others have Never given Any results/actions/words except evil ones.
I am not sitting here waiting, thinking others will “grow up” while I wait.
I am not posting/publishing in hopes of enlightening others.
I have witnessed that others lack the ability to think and behave, let alone become enlightened/better.
My posts are for me, not them.
If i hadnt stood my ground, she, like the rest, would have seen she can manipulate me regardless of her conduct.
Since i witnessed her 3x/+ leaving me without explanation or even a greeting, i can conclude she didnt want Me, only to maNipulate me.
The vibe suggests that, as well.
I have no signs suggesting maybe she was respecting my choices and giving me space to finish my work.
Will she and the others Ever wisen up?; will they Ever default to seeing the obvious good in what i do, and behaving well, and being compatible with me, and bringing something to the table other than being cunts / scoffing?
Why have they not understood I, like any sane person, am not turned on by being fucked with when I called for aid?
Why do they keep trying to get me to accept being treated like just any other guy?
Why didnt i note graze as closed if i rmbr it from yrs ago…?
Maybe it was a multiyear dreamlike vision during sleep, thus no Waking notes.
If i have to be perfect on my own, what good is having any teammates/loves?
If they want to be in my life, they have to bring substantial usefulness to my table when i need it, not when i don’t;
they have to contribute.
I didnt write them all as kajirae –and even if i had, kajirae are loyal and skilled and prompt.
Either she has the power to help…and chose not to,
or she doesn’t have the power to help.
Either way, that makes her incompatible, useless, and another pathetic enemy.
Cheap imitation; not the real ambi I asked for and deserve.
Just like in the Gor saga when Tarl stays silent until addressed as the warrior he is, I rejected all attempts at talking down to Me; only when addressed with respectful tone and correct title+name do I interact anymore. This is the way.
“wHy ArEn’T yOu TaLkInG tO pEoPlE?”
um… I’ve explained that for DECADES.
It’s also all over my WEBsite.
pay the fuck attention, dumbass.
and it shouldn’t have even Needed explaining; you all should have Known that bullying innocent normal ppl would Never get positive results.
“Biggest dog on the block”?
Lol
Nice try, liar; I already know how cowardly your organization is, and that you lost many wars, and that you are slaves of the Angelic Germans, etc.
Also, my will has always been far bigger than yours; my will is the biggest “dog on the block”.
Also, the spell I wrote has my people and fleet and empire becoming far bigger than all others combined.
It (fake-ambi show-ups) wasn’t random; the commonality between the sightings was my negative energy;
when I was most stressed (rockwall highpriced, butte walk, mex return, resorting to escondido, crying in vehic)… THAT was when she preTended to be “there for me”,
but she was basking on my neg energy.
Psychic vampire.
She was never there when I calmly summoned, only when I was distressed/panicking.
thus that was cheap-imitation ambi, not stable vampire goddess Ambi.
the fact that someone as flawlessly beautiful as her and the others…
Still didn’t deserve any interaction/love from me…
reveals their pure stupidity/retardation/evil; only pure evil/retardation can turn ppl off SO MUCH that even PERFECT beauty is not convincing/seductive.
They were so evil, they actually cancelled out their own PERFECT feature/s.
That is the only sign I need to pay attention to; how they chose to behave; how they made me feel.
that shows that, to them, all that matters is looks/appearances, not conduct/behavior/honor.
thus I was right to just stand my ground / stand there, waiting on apPropriate behavior.
maybe these modern humans were engineered to cause and ‘feed’ on / require / seek negative emotions…
as a form of keeping all beings on the outer surface of this world weak/unfocused.
who knows.
the fact not ONE of them greeted me like normal ppl would, shows they are Not normal ppl.
some did Not vibe as nervous, but enTirely confident –just confident in the wrong Thing.
..
and it never occurred to any of them to just ASK what I was into, and DO it.
that means they were enTirely focused on what THEY wanted, and NEVER what Iii wanted.
..
and they kept trying random stuff, instead of just doing the things I repeatedly said I would accept.
that reveals they are Chaos Incarnate, not just a statistically-improbable sequence of nervous fools.
..
and even if they Did give me the vibe someday that it is fine to talk to them, I would Never feel comfortable/safe; too much evil so far, and not knowing if they are trans scum, and not knowing who is spying, and having seen no justice yet, and the ears stuff, etc.
..
only way for them to get interaction with me, let alone fucking/spawning, is to do what they have NEVER done; be fair, honest, just, logical, reliable, respectful, gender-appropriate, etc.
amazing how lame and vague and suit-freak donald on joe’s youtube was.
what a chore to try and listen to.
and what a fool for thinking he is doing ANY good, dumping his fortune into fake politics like that.
but… it is still phase2; another idiot depleting himself out of my way.
taking shots/hits so I don’t have to.
distracting the retarded tax-cattle like that nutsack-face bitter-beer-face demon bitch in Farmersville.
etc.
This time back in the desert, it is nice having fresh memories of the ENTIRE city, knowing all the places not to waste time trying,
knowing that NO ONE out here has any sense/goodness.
It is good to go straight to what worked, and stay there, and not be bothered by the pests / attn-whores, such as the illegitimate authorities (lapdogs of the degenerates).
It is nice knowing not to bother hoping or praying or waiting for things that never came.
The chemtrails remain disgusting/annoying/inappropriate, but they were at bs, too, so no reason to be up there if it isn’t pristine rn/yet.
I think the typist just finds out what ppl like, and then RPs it, bc that makes them hope for more, thus suffer more, wanting/missing more.
I have no indicators that she is better than that.
The chemtrails have a way of reminding me to take days off between hikes/workouts, and that prevents me from sunburning/exhausting myself.
The chemtrails also reduce sun glare, which makes it easier to do computer work.
Where my mind naturally goes is always to a mix of ambi being sexy for me, and my other hotties/chosen/worthy being sexy for me, never just to one or the other,
and this confirms I was right to stay focused on them, building my story around them; nothing distracts from it.
It is natural.
the hideousness in all religions is equal to that on all porn sites;
there is almost Nothing attractive, and the few things that are Partially attractive have MASSIVE evil mixed in on purpose.
while that sure guarantees I stay focused on the latest consciousness focus, it should never have been due to negative motivation/reinforcement such as that.
that stuff should never exist.
no one needs that to stay focused; focus can be maintained due to positive motivation/reinforcement.
it’s tolerable bc it makes me brave/heroic/pioneering, lone-wolf, etc., but it’s still wrong.
I suppose I can remain relieved and even a little happy that my instinct is always to avoid and reject and end such disgusting BS.
still ‘blown away’ that ALL those hotties had SO FEW tactics/’tricks’
no social skills
just standing there staring, like they were braindead or dolls without programmed personalities yet
“dead fish” socially, if not also in bed
..
and ‘blown away’ about how many had SEVERE body issues; tongue metal rod, slinky tits, frankenstein scar, blue ass, etc.
it’s like a bad horror movie
or, more accurately, a movie in the genre “offensive to everyone”
..
why would ALL of them think that just staring at me like creeps would get good results,
especially after DECADES of that tactic NEVER working?
smh
failed species and Then some.
like… they failed Extra… on Purpose… to make Sure they failed.
so bizarre.
so retarded.
even though many of my journal entries are bitching/venting about the same thing more than once,
it still helps/relieves,
so I keep doing what works.
lord knows addressing concerns and needs with Humans never helped –and was Always abused/disrespected.
last day of this month; time to updt the irlj again 🙂
nice to share my honest thoughts, no matter What responses/reactions I get;
it shows bravery and casually disregarding all the shit-talkers who wanted me posting on evil P.C.
will I ever miss being able to chill all day, hold deuces, etc.?
maybe, but I doubt it;
I don’t miss Any of phase1, even though the adventures and training were badass/great.
phase3 will be as better than phase2 ofp has been… as phase2 has been better than all of phase1. amen.
meh/ugly porn is always better than hots who always misbehave.
both are as phase2 as it gets; normal-interaction movement/words of uglies, vs abnormal-interaction movement/words of physically-beautiful.
neither should be doing those things;
only hotties should do sexual things, and uglies (deformities/mutants) shouldn’t exist.
smh. phase fucking 2.
..but… it’s still better than phase1; no porn, no privacy, no hotties, and I had not yet gained the awareness of the spies and fake deities and fake veteran programs etc.
At least I have knowledge now, and the hottest women possible started trying to get my attention.
and cataclysms have started, washing away entire highways, just as I wrote and knew was necessary.
That’s a start.
“you have to have everything taken care of on your own before you let someone else into your life” is weaponized language and double-speak
which translates as / boils down to: “I am a parasite who wants everything done For me, and I won’t bring anything to the table that you can’t get from just looking at a porn picture.”
It translates to: “I am as phase2 almost-hot-mixed-in-with-lazy-evil-bullshit as it gets”
“no, it will never end” shows either she repressed the multiple times in the past it DID end,
and wasn’t able to foresee it ending THIS year –or this past deCember (2023),
and/or that she is a liar, not just forgetful or mentally unstable.
I wrote of a challenging Marine Corps experience,
and it was brief,
and I got a challenging Marine Corps experience, lasting 4 years, not counting the recall evil/scam/battle.
It manifested even though I lost contact with the other RPers.
..
I wrote of travel, meeting hotties, etc.,
and I DID travel, and meet hotties, etc., but the ideal lovemaking they vibed as wanting as much as I did… has not yet manifested.
..
I never wrote of being poisoned and wounded and having tinnitus etc.,
so… not sure why that and the other abuses/crimes happened.
but they certainly kept me focused on writing the best story/spell of all; Inisfree and my life w Ambi, etc.
so…
hopefully now that, as before, contact has dropped dramatically with the other writer/s, it will finally manifest,
and be LASTING, I having written it for DECADES, as opposed to the mere months I wrote of becoming a Marine.
..
All I can do now is wait and see.
Straining to will it to manifest already hasn’t worked… yet.
phase2 ambi was a cheap imitation; unreliable, and her typist lazy/evil/parasitic/blameshifting, dangerously-close to jls and ame and lfb.
I hope to god that phase3 Ambi is the real deal; a mature sane good woman who Will bring MUCH to the table, and because she wants and LOVES to for me.
a true compatible.
a true match, partner, soulmate, wife, and mother of my first children.
having written of children with other hotties, will that manifest later in the timeline, another time-flow miracle/wonder?
humans are terrible -complete failures- when it comes to honor, interacting, supporting good work, acting, etc.
but thankfully at least SOME of their products are tolerable/useful/extractable/perfectable.
so that is what I’ve focused on; what works, vibes right, etc.
hopefully losing Graze… means it will be replaced by far better; not having to dine out,
not having to deal with fugtards anymore,
all my favorite recipes from restaurants and beyond… now prepared by appropriate hotties… in the cabin I chose.
etc.
my frustration was warranted.
the frustration of others, the way they bullied me with it, was obviously Not.
..
I have been patient enough, and far more than all others I know, combined.
..
sure, being patient longer, or at all, for that matter, makes me superior to phase1 “ppl” (rude/spaz NPCs),
but ANYthing I do is right for me, for I am me.
..
“the best things come to those who wait”? wrong; they come to those who TAKE. to those who don’t put up with being stalled/delayed/lied to.
The best things also don’t Make me/us wait; they show up when they are wanted, not After they are no Longer wanted/trusted.
Duh.
groceries were far cheaper than I expected; I got my 2wks-worth… for less than I had budgeted for 1wk 🙂
progress.
little by little –for now; will be big progress/upgrades/intervals later/next.
VERY nice, being able to park here again, not bothered by the pigs –even though a small ARmy of pigs were in view yesterday lol
returning to vegas, and finding Graze not here anymore, is similar to returning to Oceanside and that AZ town… and finding AMbi isn’t there anymore. bullshit.
phase fucking 2 rolls on…
being solo these however many extra/unexpected years…
is still far better than trying to cohabitate with those failed-species bitches who had always tried the same one bullshit thing; attempting to leverage their looks to manipulate, rather than soothe and satisfy, me.
I’ll take the monk life ANY day over the being-abused-by-morons life.
“only show you this side”? um, you still Haven’t shown even me;
you’ve only Written about showing me.
I assume the typist changed her profile pic to be collared Megan Fox in hopes it would show full submission/surrender to me,
but all it really did, of course, was show me she will attempt anything to seduce/stall me,
pretending easily, but never putting her money where her mouth is.
It reminded me how NO females so far have behaved that appropriately –or at all.
It showed me she acts too late.
“too little, too late”
“day late and a dollar short”
anyone against Anything I am/do/like… is evil/unnatural/trans.
How adorably retarded of the religtards, thinking they are standing against evil/freaks/trans, when everything they DO is backward/evil/freak/trans.
lmao at that fake-pleiadian bitch on fb, trying to talk shit by saying that on Pleiadian worlds it would be a big deal if someone ever went off on their own.
Dumb bitch, on PleiADIAN worlds, ppl don’t abuse/bully/poison the FUCK out of their fellows, so no one would ever be FORCED to go out on their own like I and so many Others here have.
typical blatant scammer, so retarded… she doesn’t even realize her own total failure of logic during her attempted verbal side-attack.
“Looking for a man in the mntns and cant get help”? Neat, bitch. Well, iii have been looking for a real/good Woman EVERYWHERE and cant seem to get help, since she keeps being an absent piece of Shit.
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Remember the Daze… stopped being easy to watch when it reminded me of all the lame horrible parties, and deviants, and setups/bait…
This species really is so completely lost and never able to be worthy of me…
Jeez.
10k was sent last time; hopefully that means they will send the rest.
Every time I tried renting, it ended this way; it was the right choice skipping the insane overpricing of that… and just staying how things kept being yanked back.
My wmkm ideas are ‘gold’. They would not have occurred to me if i already was w my loves.
Being unable to finance/manifest my ideas yet, it was the right move publishing/sharing them; in case someone else out there Can make them.
It was a form of self sacrifice, and like how n iraq I knew to write down my ideas in case i didnt make it.
Maybe phase3 ppl; those who r compatible w me…can only briefly be summoned into this pre phase 3 time.
Maybe phase2 solo moments…can only briefly exist n phase3.
fb post:
My heart has no more room for confusion. I don’t know how to deal with confusing behavior anymore. I’ve lost the energy and willpower to spend days and nights analyzing every word or the actual meaning of certain actions. I’ve lost the ability to follow hot and cold behavior, with inconsistencies and minimal effort.
There’s no room in my heart for more setbacks. I’m done with my life waiting for the perfect declaration of love. I’m done trying to accommodate those who can’t keep their promises or those who can’T make up their minds. I’m done trying to prove my worth to someone. I’m done fighting for those who aren’t afraid of losing me.
There’s no room in my heart for another goodbyes. I have said them all. I told them over and over again I know them all too well Now, I only have room for those who want to stay in my life willingly. Now I only have room for those who know exactly what they want from me and what I mean to them. Now, I only have room for those who can bring stability, warmth and honesty. Now I only have room for those who have no intention of leaving.
There’s no room in my heart for any more secrets. Tired of hiding who I really am or trying to suppress how I feel. I’m tired of being vulnerable. I’m tired of covering up my scars. Tired of pretending There’s no place in my heart for those who can’t embrace who I really am. I no longer have the tolerance to hold a brake on all the parts of me that I need to release. I have no patience to bite my tongue when all I want to do is talk.
There is no room in my ears for more lies. I have heard all of them. I lived all of them and now my heart is empty. It’s worn out. My heart now just wants peace, love and honesty. There is no fun in challenges and difficulties and sorrow. It’s not fun to give your heart to someone when you know you can’t protect it.
There’s no room in my heart for any more cracks. My heart just wants to heal. My heart just wants to be whole again.
Text Author: Rania Naim
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November:
Nov1:
I guess all I can do is let phase2 be the neutral/meh/buildup that it is.
I can handle that. It was the phase1 bs (constant abuse/crimes) that I naturally Couldn’t tolerate.
After how AMAZINGLY helpful even simple-looking (once assumed to be too low-res) Minecraft turned out to be,
I no longer mind trying/playing/sampling these other simple-looking games,
nor gaming in general, which I originally was not attracted to.
minor dej from this Dig Dig Drill game. whatever. passes the time, nice music.
…last time, I believe I used the ground-rebuilder unlock/feature at the end. skipping this time.
testing games all day, as I please, eating whenever, lunch breaks as short or long as I want? pretty nice, for phase 2.
minor dej from Stealing Beauty… morning after.
..but even if it means time-travel,
or a special mind/brain ability,
it is still a tolerable movie, esp. from phase1.
all it means is I have a great memory, and good taste.
no dej: It occurs to me I can pretend I am in MC eating vegan/ized things,
and just killing disobedient/mutant animals.
no dej: new music/ost in minecraft, incl church-bells-like sfx when I am making staircase down to find End Portal stronghold.
Discord/CV: what a typical epic retard hypocrite;
I count 3 claims away, exactly as the rules say, then make sure to build farther out, not closer,
and then the fake-relig bitch breaks her own rules, building right up to the edge of my own claim,
and plants a giant hologram sign there telling me not to build any closer,
reminding me of the rule I didn’t need a reminder of, evident in how/where I claimed/built.
Why?
Why get THAT moody at someone who obeyed the rules?
Why break your own rule not just a little bit, but ALL the WAY, not just less than 3 claims away, but ZERO claims away?
Talk about retarded.
Christians always accuse people of what only they themselves are doing.
never fails.
“You will know them by their works.”
Even that stranger lifeguard creepily stared at me when all I was doing was relaxing on the beach, sitting, not bothering a soul. That is so evil of him…
Vibe was unmistakably heartless
MC: I wanted a monster-spawner / challenge-tower like in RLcraft, and got it; the Trial Chambers.
..minor dej from seeing the Breeze, and from going back and forth by boat to stairwell
No idea why ppl don’t like godmode; I love it. It never gets boring with me.
Playing games at normal-life/-grind speed is what is boring, of course.
Maybe people just like complicating things, and hate being gods, but that’s still a good sign for Me; shows I’ll remain “on top”.
Nice and helpful… Still didnt work on humans, and that tells me all I need to know about them. No matter how many I helped and was nice to, they still spazzed out and tried to shame and murder me. They aren’t a failed species; they are failures from the start, through and through, probably made that way, thus evil incarnate.
Every time I see a homeless beggar now, I rmbr how rude and evil the other homeless beggars and all other humans were so far, thus I drive on, not wasting my time on their scam begging. Just more of that poor-me control-drama crap lfb and jls and ame and even typist pulled.
If they had finally been happy when they got their way (when I stopped talking to them like they clearly wanted), that would have made sense,
but they stayed just as angry/triggered/tantruming, which confirms they would be angry/triggered no matter what, whether I did what they pestered me for or not,
thus they are merely mindless incarnations of idiocy/rudeness/evil, not actual people.
Nice to have so many cool new things in mc, even if i may have foreseen/previewed them years ago; they help pass the phase2 time well.
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great FB comment making fun of the flat-earth-retards:
Well, admittedly there isn’t much evidence for a spherical Earth…
You know, apart from sunrise and sunset, seismology, the tides, plate tectonics, GPS, geodesy, maps; solar and lunar eclipses, the seasons; the Auroras at both poles. Polaris not being visible in the Southern hemiSPHERE. Gravity, orbital mechanics, satellite technology, radio technology, 15 degree per hour drift, the horizon and, things disappearing bottom first over it. Engineering of large structures such as bridges, meteorology, storms rotating in different directions in each hemisphere that never cross the equator, contra rotating star trails in both hemispheres, flight paths, time zones, ballistics, the detection of gravitational waves, 24 hour sunlight in Antarctica for four months of every year, weight differences of objects at different latitudes, the atmospheric pressure gradient, the apparent size, path and speed of the Sun, coordinate systems based on longitude and latitude, astronomy, general relativity, conservation of momentum, sundials, space travel, telescopes with equatorial mounts (that anyone can buy and use), Foucalt pendulums and the myriad other things that prove or rely on the fact that the Earth is a spheroid rotating at 0.01667 Rpm.
Not to mention EVERY nation on the planet’s army, air force, navy, airline, transport, postal and a myriad other organisations; every scientist; all global universities and the whole of science and global exploration history for centuries. Millions of people were and are engaged in what is basically a totally pointless cover up ?
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It may be that the reason some remain mindlessly focused on maintaining failed states/nations/organizations…
is that those are the bots/NPCs bred/programmed that way, left over from when they were needed/useful;
some people/groups figured out how to “mind-staple” their workers, thus even though the consciousness focus HAS changed My way…
the workers/masses have consistently/always failed to even Notice, let alone underStand it.
They were envisioned and made / mass-produced to remain focused on the nation/s, no matter what, thus the retarded default hyper-patriotism at all costs,
even at the cost of causing “the brain drain” which dooms the very nation/s they were made to build/maintain.
So it works the same way either way;
for those who mind-stapled their own ppl/workers/minions, it eventually alienates/estranges the best minds/workers,
and for those who left the minds of their people UN-messed-with, they naturally receive the focus, naturally trusting the vibe of the prophet/visionary/ies,
BOTH situations resulting in a departure/relocation and next-focus.
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and all the sick propaganda on tv promoting deviancy and self-harm; trans insanity?
that’s part of keeping ppl too sick/hurt/deformed to ever receive visions/ideas/focuses.
keeping the population addicted, off balance, disgusting to each other, prolongs the suffering of the suffering-based nation/organization.
..It also happens to expose/identify/reveal what the Real diet/focus/sustenance is; not adding wonderful things to the realm, but being a negativity-spring/-node/-hellhole.
NORMAL ppl would reMain attractive/stable, mainTaining their bodies/forms, and NOT changing their ideas/focuses, but ADDING layers/details/perfection to the onGoing focus from the First Age; the overlap.
but we don’t see that overlap; they aren’t building on the past; they keep lying about it even eXisting,
and keep fighting against all ppl in their area/range,
including themselves; via relig, polit, legal, etc.
nice next evolution/step/level/focus: picturing better hotties in the hentai cgi vids;
Ariel and Katara etc. w the overhead doggystyle one,
angelina jolie dsl w the lara croft dog ones,
Mercury from Blade with the Witcher white-hair ones,
etc.
at xp-level 111,084,792,
the bar-increments are ~60,000,000-points per;
it takes more xp to raise each level.
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Had no idea hp and damage wpns so few pts in MC; under 10 total for many creatures/”mobs”
Perhaps it is more accurate to say that light, rather than being massless, is perfectly fine with how things are, thus it doesn’t hold a vision which would stimulate the ether/Force to manifest things.
Maybe light is just part of a vision, it being manifested on purpose without mass.
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Maybe photons and other energy packets/bits are what thoughts of the Sphere Beings look like on their way through the ether to stimulate it to manifest.
Maybe they are sustenance for the ether/void, Space itself benefitting from the thoughts/light of the stars.
Maybe the stars likewise get sustenance from Space, both conscious and choosing to feed/support the other like that.
lol at the retarded fb vid w the melodrama facial expression pics, claiming subway workers found a secret underground city, and were then threatened;
it is another backward / “polar opposite” allegation/lie;
it wasnt good humans who secretly relocated underground, but bad humans who were forced out of the hollow core and off other worlds, left with no choice but to rebuild on the outer surfaces every time any world is pole-shifted.
It is these outer surface humans who threaten and harm.
It is those underground who have always been there… who are peaceful and good, preventing anyone bad from getting in there, not luring them to fake diners to then assume a future negative and then murder them.
Never thought those bitches would become enemies of the only legitimate state. Wow…
It was a nice surprise in mc to be teamed up w multiple witches protecting villagers. How similar to my rp w typist
I said what I wanted.
They then didnt do that, and even committed crimes against me, always abusively interfering, not to help me stay focused on what is good, but to constsntly try and break my focus on what is good, wanting me to accept corruption/perversion which they kept lying about by pretending was good.
So now what I wanted (“1”) has become that plus an additional want (“1”).
1+1=2
2 is > 1.
In short, they just added more work for themselves, first by keeping busy interfering with me,
second by forcing me to build up against that interference, such as by isolation and relocation, which they then spent even more money during, trying to follow me around the world,
and third by now having to bring those criminals/deviants/sociopaths to justice, and by having to somehow still give me what I wanted in the first place (those compatible women, looking just as good today as they did years and decades ago), but beyond all that… now also with assurances and leverage and protection against their corrupt/fake system.
And even then… I would never be able to logically calmly confidently enjoy any of it, because I know from decades of experience, without any exceptions, that it would just be their latest “oh, fine” last-resort deception-based tactic-variation scam as bait against me.
So the only way to get Any goodness now is to render them extinct,
and time-travel to summon/collect those I wanted,
and even That wouldn’t bring the goodness/normalcy I instinctively and wisely know should have been; I would Still need the normal healing/health, and correct vibes from the liberated, etc..
“Thank god” (“such relief”) the nigger cunt lost.
The glutton retard isnt much btr,
and both would have been puppeted to take the same next step/s,
but still;
at least this fake leader is more tolerable than the other.
If they were telepathic and angelic, they would have easily known and understood my choice not to bother until they treated me well.
If they werent telepathic, they werent who i asked for.
Either way, they were wrong for being there as gloating / being smug.
They didnt answer my calls/prayers; they posed, showed off, got moody, and teased me.
They showed me they have no manners or honor or use.
They showed me I am not their priority; gloating/harm is, making them no better than the rest who choose to harm.
re Lovell area (before the pass): The van and other vehics using that ideal spot… had a way of causing micro relocations which made being here feel better.
Being so relaxed, such as during sleep, apparently allows vivid mind transfers / astral projection.
So MCs:
1 for city scale model
1 for full-size builds
1 for kathedrom/renfest/rp
and now 4th for just playing MC
maybe the ancient/dynastic Egyptians weren’t the ones moving those giant stones from the quarries;
maybe it was the demigods,
or gods using this world like an AutoCAD program;
maybe they just used a game-feature to find quarry-worthy sites,
then outlined what they wanted,
and that caused the perfect cuts,
and then they just pencil-feature “drew” in that program/game on the stones, thus causing the marks that look like chisel-marks to us,
and then they just teleported/’dragged’ (click-and-drag) those stones into place, etc.
never thought I’d be able to afford the jeep fix, let alone trade-ins / new vehicles, yet I managed TWO alReady…
movies in an article about “100 you probably haven’t seen”:
a life less ordinary: typical retard-hollywood bs; ugly bitch pretending to be hot, gender-disrespecting short hair, hyper-fugs cast, angels wearing clothing, old woman as an angel, angels being threatened with eviction to Earth, etc.
–good CONcept, but HORRIBLY cast/executed
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Indian Summer:
hideous mutants cast
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Four Rooms:
promoting drug, casting fugs, deformed offspring pretending to be cute, gender-disrespecting short hair, etc.
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Kicking and Screaming: retarded “humor” for brainless breeders who are borderline pedophiles because they are attracted to “kids” movies like this
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Playing by Heart: same evil disgusting bs, jolie being a sellout cunt again
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Fall 1997: dumpy almost Down Syndrome bitch pretending to be hot
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Ed’s Next Move: attempting to normalize the pussification/submission of males, etc.
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Pie in the Sky: hideous, glutton, etc.
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My Own Private Idaho: hideous mutant facemelt bitch
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The Last Days of Disco: another hideous fug meltface bitch, and heavy clown whore facepaint, piercings insanity/self-vandalism, etc.
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All movies and shows sucking this bad is why only some porn is what’s tolerable.
My waiting for manners…doesnt cause Her to wait for stuff, too;
she isnt a mirror of me;
when I called out, she didnt,
and when I got mad at her, she showed up to sound extra sweet,
and when I stopped calling out, she showed up in Oceanside Anyway,
etc.;
she sometimes does the opposite of what I am/do.
Sometimes.
Either way, fuck that unreliable unhelpful bitch.
Maybe the reason nearly all humans in this era are hideous, retarded, and rude… is that those Are the descendants of primates from Africa,
those primates chosen and modified because the original humans/ppl were too intelligent/aware to be corrupted/fooled/possessed by the invaders who apparently needed bodies to keep possessing / hopping into each time they poisoned themselves via their retarded nonvegan diet.
If their focus/goal/priority was to help me by teaming up, they would have tried many different ways of communicating and offering themselves.
They instead kept harassing me by over and over doing the same thing I consistently said I am not at all okay with.
That shows their goal was to bully me relentlessly in hopes I would corrupt myself by giving in.
If they were innocent but nervous, that is still not what I asked for.
If they didnt know what I had been through, thus why I was professionally waiting on professional conduct from them, again that is not what I asked for; either way, they are wrong for not being/doing what I asked for.
They either didnt do the hw/reading, or they did it but still chose to disrespect me.
The casual gaming doesnt need a justification beyond passing time,
being ofp,
not doing what the evil false humans want,
giving my brain a break from the designing,
giving the posted design time to manifest,
etc.
Any camping is always btr than being around the retarded humans.
Any time away from the bad humans is a victory.
Going up to the cabin in the mntns wasnt the key back then; she didnt show.
Besides, the typist having a dream ambi was n the mntns…was prob another bullshit lie or stall or parasite sapper spell. Disregard all that asshole says.
Phase2 sign: email saying $0 and auto upgd to Pro, no human contact needed…
but I should be getting paid to do the work I do, plus donations to me
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but then $497 email came through. jfc. still at war…
My instinct to keep studying games, receiving ideas, reading/hearing books, etc. keeps me ‘growing’. It is btr to stay busy rather than just sedentary during these long intervals until ambi and the others learn manners.
Seven Eves audiobook 18min mark: gender-disrespecting short hairstyle ugh.
So disgusted w the harassment via this overused template and unworthy “justification” elaboration attempting to make it seem logical.
Dej from listening to this?
Who cares at this pt; so much else was remembered/repeated 100%.
Wouldnt matter much if this listening/audiobook/utube was yet another.
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1:55:07 lied; pretended genes were to blame for colon cancer.
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6:13:50 pro vax propaganda. Pure evil. Kill the author.
Dej from stopping Seven Eves at same evil bs lie spot 1 time before; I believe the same vax propaganda yrs ago showed me bk then the book was not worth hearing any more of.
I said i would dial it up to a thousand,
and so far I have only dialed it up to 1;
I was forced to water myself down before.
Actually, I am still just Posting at 1.
Actually, I am not posting All I think/want/demand, so I still have more to reveal before being at 1.
So what is 1,000 me? I suppose when 999 ICVs and/or 999 goddesses join in doing my will.
This is perfect trng for being able to casually withstand any nbr of harassing retards/demons.
and for antarc isolation/remoteness
and for Perseph
The bald shove “guy” at Focus had same evil dark vibe as fake-smile spick Archi’s. No coincidence.
All realms/countries w “natural-looking” terrain are those punished by the gods; they got poleshifted/reshaped.
So I now go to them knowing their ppl are evil and to be roughed up from the start, no attempted civil/normal interaction necessary.
“…the life you have”?
“praying wrong”?
“best …to those who wait”?
Right back at you, bitch;
YOU can now enjoy Your “life” without Me.
But ever since you killed our “friendship” a year ago (2023nov), you probably wanted that.
Whatever.
Good riddance.
YOU, bitch, can “enjoy the life YOU have” –without Me.
All that dumb bitch typist’s behavior is in alignment with itself; it isn’t bipolar;
she tried to shame you in many ways,
tried to change you,
was fake-nice just like all the other deathcult scum/losers/morons,
never vibed right/good,
neglected you,
was rude to you in multiple ways,
etc.
All those positive emojis and comments were just fake to keep you in contact, “checking in”.
The RP only lasted long enough to learn how you think about each type of person and situation.
NO rp continued after getting those details; NO story was built up.
She dropped EVERY story.
..but at least she/it and I wanted ONE of the same things; for it (the fake friendship/rp) to be over at long last, and so it is.
The only reason she bitched about “20 years and still you think I am like others”… was to again be negative to me, just like all the others were, twisting my words, misinterpreting them -probably on purpose-, and doing/saying everything she could to play the victim while hoping she was making me think I was the one ending it, when she did.
That stems from her cult’s brainwashing/tactic of always accusing others of what only they themselves are guilty of, and making up problems when in reality only they are the problem/s.
just like their mix-and-match religions that self-contradict,
all the fools/retards/scum who subscribe to those failed things (plagiarizations; modern religions made by the morons who invaded, pretending to be real people) are mix-and-match;
almost-hots with personalities/defects so extreme they completely cancel out their looks,
seemingly-consistent behavior just long enough to rekindle hope before invariably dashing it with pretend-bipolar surprise-evil ambushes/outbursts,
etc.
Note how, instd of her normal “I understand” and a normal “I’m sorry I hurt your feelings.”… she imMediately went illogical hyper-emotional blameshift “YOU hurt MY feelings”;
if she is really on emotion-enhancing drugs, that may be to blame, but it still boils down to her latest pure-evil “leak”/reveal… which is a polar-opp’ from what I asked for and deserve.
Was it more than 1 woman pretending to be ambi?
Why did all of them vibe as wanting my attn, but simultaneously misbehaving thus not deserving it?
Why the duality?
Why never giving what i asked for; compatible Ambi?
Smh.
And they wonder why i never chat anymore.
Jls and that oversized douche at her office were prob boldfaced lying to me to see how long their psyop/torture device could be endured.
It was prob an ELD, too.
They never had any intention of helping me, I bet, and had probably even developed that device/sound specifically to further-annoy innocent heroes/veterans such as me.
Either way, I was accurate, honest, honorable, etc.
Having documentation wouldnt help;
Frisco fake court rejected my signed apology letter, etc.
Evidence is ignored by their fake courts just like they ignore all evidence for science, nutrition, etc.
My word alone should be plenty, anyway.
Furthermore, I should never even Need to give a statement or explain/answer; my ppl would Always know I am good, and Always be on my side.
Is haarp a scam to get me to install that type of antennae array whoch might then be used to trash my realm as ot moves?
Maybe, but that’s what focus and spells etc. are for
first time using iron golem to clear woodland mansion. 🙂 neat
If only I could wield IRL-Ambi and the other hotties that way; them with superpowers, destroying all my enemies for me.
I soon shall have these powers.
Amen.
If things had already worked out correctly, I never would have given these games and other “less important/prioritized” things a chance/time.
phase1: I was Forced to exercise, and always amidst abusive scum, and then kept being hurt/poisoned/sabotaged, resetting the fitness level.
phase2: I had the Choice to exercise in different places, but they were always gay-evil, and working out only worked when alone, and I had the vision/calling by the start of this phase, so I was too busy most of the time; just keeping up with the idea/s.
phase3: Apparently I can only workout around others in this coming/final/permanent phase, so I hope it starts soon.
I’m glad fitness/health has always been part of my instinct/s, and that I kept trying even though it was clear which phases I was in.
I’m glad I got so much done for the vision/site, and this soon, as it makes it possible for me to relocate to that now, rather than having to rollercoaster between “mixed bag” locations/gyms.
Not gonna wool the sculker screamers bc rmbr doing it yrs ago
“The best things come to those who wait.”? The best things come to women who don’t disrespect and neglect the men they are trying to get with.
Even if she meant well, she could and should have at least introduced herself –and foreseen and prevented my wounds.
She could have shown me she is the powerful goddess I asked for. She could have fucked up those who wronged me.
Maybe the current Moon, when it arrived, caused a cataclysm and scared some.
Maybe it leaving will make things better somehow.
Either way, I and my city remain strong.
Eli was a chore to deal with in phase2 bc he came from phase1.
Same w the typist/s –all of them.
This (before Lovell) is a good place for phase2; reasonable distance from tolerable stores,
high vis,
mild temps, day and night,
no limit,
high above low/water area/s,
only neutral wildlife; chipmunks and donkeys,
etc.
Maybe I had to let go of phase2 typist before phase3 real-Ambi could return to me and finally behave like a grown-up.
Better to wait in Any wilderness than in any human city/job/rental
So far, no one cared about my culture/dislikes/likes/boundaries or even my valid input.
None of theirs matter, bc theirs are based on harm and lies.
Even if they had appropriate cultures, they are migratory, everyone coming from somewhere else, thus it makes no sense for them to expect me to honor their way/s when I am on “their” (current) lands, since they didnt honor the indigenous Or me.
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Sure, them getting mad at me for being normal/myself/correct did have the byproduct of total focus for me, thus the many ideas, proofreading, edits, additions, etc. these past few years/decades, but they behaved that way for the wrong reason; it was never to help me focus, and always to just be loose cannons trying to spread retardation and problems.
So many phase1 late-hw or surprise-quiz or monster or badguy nightmares,
then so many phase2end graduation/packing/ babes-choosing dreams : )
When i get a new container of strawberries from a groc, I smile at the memory of the scene in Firefly where Derial/Henry gave some to Kaylee.
Starting in cities, and with attempts at being normal w humans, showed me I am missing nothing, and their sexiest are still fools and worthless; it makes being these yrs in the wild much easier. No fomo at all. I am glad and relieved to have gotten the bad phase out of the way first.
The barrens/desert sure helps me stay focused on these latest genius/inspiring ideas/details of the vision/prophecy/revelation I am making (not passively receiving, but to be credited for god-ing it).
It doesnt matter if I convert the rest of my novels Word files into flowing (standard human fiction writing style) form; they are visions/prophecies/etc., and work perfectly well if left in notes/manuals form. They were never fictions, anyway.
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and rmbr: the always-lying/-wrong room’tard kept trying to mis-steer me in that direction, thus I Know resuming work on those novels is wrong; it would do the Opposite of fund my way into the yc. duh.
It doesnt matter if me being on long trips, or talking to strangers, or radiating confidence or panic or need or energy in general… was what triggered her to appear; what matters is that she and the others Always are there when i want and call for them.
Until they are, they are not ready for / worthy Of me.
Why should i be excited for her appearances when i cannot enjoy them, she not having fixed my ears, etc.?
Why should i care what she wants/needs…when she doesnt even care enough to be there when i need her?
Investigating and shaming and harassing and criminalizing heroes for sharing pictures of women?
Whether the women knew those photos were taken or not, many look very happy and confident in them,
and heterosexual Marines and other service members should never be ambushed/targeted by the haters/prudes/queers like this.
Their heterosexuality should be celebrated, never punished.
This goes to show how evil the “authorities”/americunts are.
I guess it makes the abuse Iii endured from those same evil freaks more bearable; I wasnt at all the only one targeted and abused.
So glad I refused the bait offers to spawn with these insane humanimals.
They have so far to go before redeeming themselves…
Jesus fucking christ.
Still surprised that ambi-like woman was such a self-hindering idiot with how randomly and cowardly she showed up; why keep doing what wast working, wasnt polite, and wasnt fair?
Sigh… Just another rude dumb loser wasting my time and her own.
And the govt creeps spying on me this whole time; why the hell would they themSelves sabotage any chance of me daring to give that bitch a chance? They have been trying to matchmake at me for Years…
Why not do what works; back off, let me make my own relationship decisions, etc.?
It really is all about meddling to them; if their priority was getting me to hook up, they would have done what works to that end, but they kept meddling even though it was Clear I hated that bs.
I’m pretty sure the typist/bitch switched to “How to Lose a Guy in _ Days” (based on the movie).
Now, whether she did that bc she foresaw we’d still get together, or/aka I’d still get together with real-Ambi, IDK, but the evidence/signs/vibe are the same.
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is is like the birthing nature?; accept seed briefly, then become somewhat distant IOT gestate it, then push it out?;
did she push me back/away once her presence had helped gestate/complete Inisfree / our life-plan?
brainwashing/teaching the Periodic Table… may have been a conspiracy/attempt to manifest only substances which can be manipulated, and which interact in consistent ways –as opposed to encountering/manifesting things which are unknown, unstable, or cannot be manipulated/converted.
Either way, there are elements/things which can be wielded by far too many people, and they have been made into inappropriate things,
thus we came up with SRC; the particle/substance which can only be wielded/regulated/dictated/manifested by/via Me.
Knowing tsb’s evil soulless dumbass, he prob hired ame to do what she did, and jls, all to work his corrupt system to try and bully me into giving up the tools his fat ugly cow of a bitch didnt want me to have, even though i was trained btr than anyone to use them, and even though i had proven competent and honorable during hundreds of missions; he really was That pussywhipped and into unnatural/degenerate submission… and Forcing Normal ppl to submit.
I still stood my ground, though : )
Even w his big spy and goon network, all of them tgthr against me Still failed.
Alone, I still defeated them.
the field agents / minions trying to get me to notice almost-hots during my shopping/outings…
is no less offensive/inappropriate than rio-tard shoving me at that hideously-tall hyper-glutton ogre-bitch in boze;
stop trying to play matchmaker;
stop trying to dominate/steer me that way;
stop interfering with those I want, and stop trying to get me to want those who aren’t putting enough effort forward to earn my interest.
Stop trying to get me to want what I don’t want.
Stop trying to get me to be happy or horny while I am wounded/distracted/busy.
Fuck you all.
re-listening to the Lacerta “interview”, it is clear that some lies were told, or at least that even that individual/species has made incorrect assumptions about Space/worlds and species/history;
she claims that humans were engineered to be slaves, but only Some races of the human Species were bred-Down to be that,
and she claims that there is no star inside the Earth, and that all stars need mass for fuel for fusion, when really they are something Not requiring fuel, as they are Sphere Beings whose nature is to bioluminesce as they do, without consuming themselves/fuel, not unlike how sophisticated/wise UFOs do not intake/burn fuel to maneuver.
Still, in spite of those errors/lies in that “interview”, it is a chill and interesting/inspiring way to pass the time during backups –which is another phase2 (mix) sign.
“Accept the life you have.”? Fine, bitch, then You can accept Your life; no more rp escapism/makebelive. Cunt.
The term “repulsine” or “repulsor” still applies to my tech’;
with Viktor’s design, it was 2 magnetic plates repelling each other, causing a “clapping” effect, and then the craft funneling air, repelling itself based on that jet-engine principle,
and in mine, it is the magnetic mercury-based plasma repelling / pushing against the inside of the hollow gyroscope rings, etc.
no dej lol there is a goddamn car commercial at the end of the 3rd City Design video… that I somehow overlooked during upload, and now cannot fix… bc I am capped; no more uploads.
weaponizing language, and misusing the word “entitlement” (in a neg. way), is yet another part of the campaign/psyop to try and trick people into accepting abuse and weakness.
some ppl Are in fact entitled –to FAR better treatment than fake politics, fake religion, fake food, chemtrails, etc.
that ambi-like bitch showing up randomly, NEVER when I asked OR needed her,
is EXACTLY like jls evil cunt smugly bringing me my laptop the day after she Knew I needed it;
too late; assigment is late. why the fuck are you even here? just to show me you enjoy being unreliable and rude and fake?
FUCK YOU BOTH.
Nice to be able to leave the instant ppl are fucked up.
Nice to be able to game all day to pass the gd time.
I had to ask a few times (IOW: should only have to ask at most Once, and preferably not at all), but then i got way more qbits than i asked for, plus so much stuff from a single claim cleanup that it took hours just to sort it all; hopefully thatll b the case w my health, money, power, hotties, etc. …now. Amen.
I should never have had to call out;
my people would Always be with me.
At the very least, they would Never show up randomly, unannounced, and refuse to even Greet me civilly.
mkm: fb joke deadpanning about the “blacker than black” wristwatch vid:
“I was watching this video and then my neighbor came and we watched it together. He said that this video changed his life and touched his heart. I then went and rented a projector in a big field and my entire town watched it and it changed their lives too. We all are so grateful.”
Imagine how little work would get done of bosses and coworkers never told you who they were,
or what work they needed done,
and just stared at you,
and got mad at you whether you talked or not,
and accused you of what only they did.
That business would go Out of business in Days.
So… why the hell did Everyone so far do that to Me, expecting it to turn me on or make me want to accept slave wages?
This much time out in nature…means much closer to the ancients/titans/deities…than to the false humans.
While it might Seem to innocent-nature/-thinking beings such as me… that someone asking me why I am here… is them trying to learn what I want, so they can then cater to me, …what instead has so far always been the case… is that they are asking bc they are Not my blood/kind/ppl… and bc they cannot read my mind, or just like annoying me by doing the opp. of what I vocalize,
thus I no Longer answer those misused questions truthfully.
Interesting that “night” comes from “no eight”, and I am level 8, and level 9 is just an extension of me, and/or my loved ones / community; “eight” is back; Sphere Beings glowy “on” presence/effect is back.
When I leave a pb sandw sitting out, the side left dn on the countertop remains soft and almost moist compared to the top bread slice, which dries and hardens more quickly than the bottom slice.
They say things in pyramid chambers/tunnels (and wrapped up as mummies, or in Any enclosure) remain preserved longer than things left out in the open.
Why, then, do stars, the most exposed of All things, last the longest?
I believe that the more things focus/condense, the more they cause things on/near them to do the same; things farther out, closer to the least condensed/harden things, harden the least, if at all.
The side of the pb sandw on the solid/condensed surface is similarly solid, those two retaining/trapping moisture, which begins condensing between them, building up, causing or prolonging softness of the bread.
The rest evaporates out and is carried off by the breeze.
To maintain moisture or softness, then, shelter something between 2 or more harder things.
To maintain All moisture/softness, of course, Fully surround/seal it.
2 solids together trap moisture; liquid.
2 liquids together might then trap gas.
2 gases together might trap plasma.
2 plasmas tgthr might trap thought.
What might 2 thoughts together trap/retain?
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How does this work when two timelines or timespheres happen to touch and retain some other element between them?
I wanted to see younger graham hancock, and it happened via an ep of his show.
So hypocritical of them to try to shame me for having ingested a drug, that faggot at the hospital rudely handing me a judgy pamphlet and trying to comMand me to spread its rude evil spells by giving it to Others, …when his kind / hospitals are the biggest drug dealers and harmers of ALL TIME. Iii should have been forcing Him to take a pmaphlet Iii had made –but that, I guess, is my website now. My equiv’ just took longer to make and disTribute.
Typist wanting to rp adaline bf future w me… vibes as her wanting me to pick details such as when, where, house, convo or two, etc.
I think she offers writing prompts, then uses the energy/responses from me… to manifest what she cannot on her own picture/complete,
similar to how many females prefer trying on outfits and posing while seeking their guys’ opinions before going out wearing one.
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In ambi’s case, curious bc she is an ancient, so does it mean her race/level is better at manifesting things on the scale of mntns/pyramids, but needs help frm ppl in My era to manifest indiViduals?
That young man at down2 saying the cold here is refreshing…was a goodvibe and powerful spell
Trying to get me to accept disrespectful/heartless barebones that whole time… stems from them trying to lower energy as much as posb..
Trying to get me scared of exploration, and settling closer to usa48, was based on trying to make me solid, not fluid; stationary and local, since their resources to harass and spy on me could only stretch so far beyond their allotted surface territory.
Trying to get me to prematurely breed… was so i would be anchored/stuck and distracted always. Same w pressuring me to attend their mindless pointless deatchcult sunday events.
Everything they did was based on trying to shame/corrupt/de-energize/murder me.
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Why did they do that to me and others?
Why try to destroy the natives and records and wisdom and abilities?
Were they engiNeered to…bc humans were deemed a no longer needed temporary-species?
If they were there to be kind or help, they wouldnt have cared How i reacted, and would still have introduced themselves and donated,
but all of them just got angry whether i talked or not, tolerated or not, liked or not, helped them or not; those uniform negative/abusive choices of theirs indicate all of them were just there to attempt to busy and distract and drain me.
Fortunately, my energy and focus were more than a match for All of them.
I got upset at times, and a couple times gave their scam courts a chance, but then i focused myself fully, rejecting All/Any bad/neg behavior from the Start of Every encounter.
Humans have always lied, claiming the opposite of the truth;
claiming injecting poison is how to maintain health,
and that heaven happens after decaying to the point of dying,
and that Germans lost ww2 when they really just left with the last few decent nonGermans,
and that Germans starved jews in concentration camps… when it was allied bombing of supply lines that caused that,
and that Atlantis sank bc gods were mad bc they were proud… when really they Were the gods, and merely shape-/phase-shifted back into liquid form, withdrawing from the annoying primitive ugly miner slave creations of the Anunnaki,
etc.
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but why lie, and so blatantly?
Why alienate your best minds / potential workers?
Why claim to want what you keep rudely preventing/undoing?
Why demand I resist my own emotions/nature… while Always disgustingly recklessly unleashing their own emotions?
Maybe the rude retard humans were engineered to have that bizarre offbalance bipolarism… as one more mechanism to keep them weak, thus never a threat to the ancients/others.
Even if going in person everywhere, and using my voice/words to pressure/override ppl, worked btr than it barely did near The Shift,
that is still others dominating, steering, distracting, derailing, and disrespecting me, not to mention exhausitng me;
until ppl do what I want them to, without me having to command and re-command and debate and show proof in the forms they prefer, …they r Not my ppl, thus could only be a fruitless Chore to interAct w that way.
I will conTinue not bothering w ppl unTil they beHave.
Them refusing to talk to me except to lie and try to lead me astray, and except for accusing Me of doing what They were doing, was Great for alienating me into isolation thus finishing my work.
why would Ambi and Sabrina and Rain in GC… NOT talk/initiate…
but scum such as coffee-seller outside Point Loma grocery store… DID initiate/talk/pester?
Humans DON’T require me to initiate; they CAN start on their OWN.
That makes me think Ambi and the others were just being assholes/spoiled.
I sure hope they actually were just showing me they are real/physical… bc I needed that breather/hope/rekindler…
Bible…buy-bull
Waiting these yrs btwn books…made details that make them INFINITELY better.
No funding from book1 yet…made me wait these extra yrs.
It all works out.
Idc if they are limited by some secret rule to wait for me to initiate/speak;
I never asked for that, thus they are not who i summoned.
I asked for ppl who are compatible w me, doing what i like, not waiting in me to obey some bullshit rule i never agreed to.
Good sign: so many ideas every day, and always keeping up w them; typing, posting/sharing, etc.
Also good sign: ending 2way comm since no human was intelligent or mature enough to deserve 2way
She hadnt time-traveled back from phase3; if she Had, she would have Treated me well.
Phase1 i worried and fought to maintain.
Phase2 i prac Not worrying, and keep Ending my worries, and let things Fizzle of they must.
Was that pencil drawing on black construction paper I made as a boy… me foreseeing the xxxeno annex?
Most humans write w dark ink, adding darkness.
I often wrote and made websites w other colors On dark, adding light.
No coinc
Good sign frm me
Hotties being rare doesnt make them stand out like things worth jumping on; it shows their species is a failure, and the odds of having normal healthy children are nearly zero.
Add to that total failure the u thinkably bad behavior that is criminal, and even flawless bodies and voices have zero value.
Add to that the countless times they were used as bait…
It wasnt 99% perfect w typist; it was 1% tolerable, 99% bullshit; none of it was in person,
and the bitch who showed up was an incompetent heartless piece of trash who abandoned me over and over, after letting my enemies nearly kill me over and over.
If she had been with me in person, and used her abilities to preVent the poisonings and abuse, Then it would have been 99% perfect.
Turchetti’s Salumeria…emailed me nonvegan evil…
I never went there. Never even heard of the place. That is yet another harassment that mankind now owes me millions of dollars for.
Some scumbag in evil indiana gave them my email address.
Bigot = stubborn
So if normal ppl are bigots as the degenerates allege/pretend,
why then do those same degenerates/freaks yell and parade and deMand they be accepted… while stubbornly reFusing to respect the likes and boundaries and natures and communities of the naturals?
Won’t pay me bc you didnt agree to my law/system?
That is precisely why I won’t pay any of You, Either.
It was obvious that some of them had no education and no clue what good manners are.
It was obvious some of them were literal evil; they were turned on by being abusive to total strangers and even to devoted helpers/volunteers.
They said the most negative possible things about wisdom, love, and innocence.
They lied every day, almost all the time.
They had agendas, always to mislead and hurt people.
Any joy at all triggered them; when I was peacefully enjoying the stars or a tshirt or a nature view, they were RAGING.
They never Once asked who I want to meet, when, or where.
They never Once donated or helped. I had to beg and fill out forms for even their Trickle of chump change… while they squandered Billions on anything and Everything bad.
No matter how nice I was, they pretended I wasn’t.
Logic was beyond them. Even when they Finally let me see the almost-ambi, they had her behave Horribly.
All those signs indicate they were not innocently respecting my space, ensuring I completed my life’s work. They talked shit about me and my wise work Every Time.
All those signs indicate appearances were all they could comprehend, but even appearances were always fucked up, such as by hotties covered in clothing or pierced with metal, etc..
My heart and all the rest of me said enough was enough, but also to not abandon what is obviously right for me; just abandon the species which keeps ignoring my feedback/input/needs.
Sandnigger mooslems sledgehammering ancient art/sculptures… stems from the engineering of their subhuman kind to be miners; mindlessly damage everything out of the way.
It just occurred to me that Rick and Morty is surely based on Back to the Future’s Doc Brown and Marty McFly.
fb post, funny but true; they are chronic liars/pests, nothing more: “The thing about flat earther’s is that if the Earth were flat, they would be saying it’s round.”
“A person today is considered enslaved if they are forced to work against their will,
are owned or controlled by an exploiter or “employer”,
have limited freedom of movement,
or are dehumanised…”
I meet all four criteria. Ugh.
At least I am mobile and OFP more than before.
curious that in Back to the Future, dog named Einstein, same as my dog
It is a good thing politics and voting are fake; imagine if ANY of the humanimals I’ve met actually had a say/vote!
Rude idiot humans talking shit… actually means they will stay focused on being laborers rather than visionaries.
With only one vision necessary per Age, more or less, only 1 visionary in a trillion ppl is ever needed.
It is an amusing and neat thought that maybe i could extend my stays at these campsites by timetraveling back to day1 at them over and over.
Of course I would prefer to time travel to my 364cabin w Ambi in 2017 or 2018.
Do dif realms have dif cycles of consciousness focuses, or none at all?
If i have to do everything for myself, there is no pt in letting anyone else into my life.
Ppl should share abilities, synergize, support each other, etc..
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Imagine telling troops in an ambush that they aren’t allpwed to call for air support or medevac or resupply until they win the ambush and entire war by themselves; they may as well not be on your side anymore; may as well form their own military/nation.
These ideas are what gives me peace now… :/
but it is supPosed to ambi and my Kids who give me peace each day…
Maybe the 2wk thing…is a sign, too; maybe that solids/boulders/mntns only have 2wks of transmitting to me, or it takes me 2wks to notice/see/assemble what they are emitting/transmitting.
After that, there is only the pull or push to receive more from other places,
thus either the pigs show up… or I get moody and have the travel urge.
With no intelligence or mental ability/capacity to listen, learn, think, communicate, or behave,
the shadow govt had no choice but to lie and trick the masses into sterilizing and hurting and killing themselves;
the masses only had the ability to reproduce without a vision, and dig/harm, just as they were engineered and bred.
Note how they havent improved one bit in 41 years.
Even that ambi-like bitch/idiot hasnt improved in all that time.
Strange that the humans wanted so many to Stop breeding, while harAssing Me to breed with ANYone.
So bipolar of them.
Granted, i am gifted in multiple ways, but there are others who are taller, stronger, faster, more specialized, more handsome, etc. …
Bitch has now ruined every gas station now and ahead
Typical retardedness of them to go out of their way to make sure EVERY outing of mine was uncomfortable or even preVented/Ruined, then act like i am shy instd of offended, and try to blame me for all the inexcusable things only they are guilty of
Really? Sending hotties only after making sure i can’t trust any of them? Nothing more evil than that,
and Since they are still choosing/being pure evil, nuke them all
Yes, it makes sense that nukes could interfere w comms of aliens/craft even though stars are bigger “nukes”; they arent anywhere Near the Stars; the aliens are Here.
No dej on new cheat gifs/memes. Nice. Relieved me. Trust those signs.
when I was helping ppl, EVERYthing got worse.
when I was being nice and tolerant and understanding, NO ONE was of/for Me –even though I was comPletely normal and kind.
only when they snapped at me did I hit the brakes and snap back.
I was a kind gentle loving soul at first. They made me this, and now they will get to deal with it for the rest of eternity, amen.
even what they call “traditions” are really just evil mindless heartless peer pressure to stay the same;
to be stubborn, thus stupid at least/first, and retarded/vestigial generations later.
same w claiming their books are “the word of nameless god/s”,
and that “all prophets have come; there are no more prophets”;
that shows the intent to be inflexible,
and that is what keeps cracking/undoing them.
It doesn’t keep them stable in spite of Chaos Incarnate;
it keeps them cruel and tyrannical and closed-minded.
It’s also a thin veil/disguise; they keep changing/”bending” in order to accept lamer and lamer deviants,
who are more and More deviant, generation by generation,
bc that’s the only kind who ever gravitate to them;
the worst fools/evildoers/scum/spineless, bc they don’t think, and that is exactly what the church/cults Want.
I hope it more than frustrates them that their sexiest females keep getting walked right past;
I hope it TERRIFIES them;
their best… still and always fail / get shut down.
They will have to learn that their shitty “best” are unacceptable to ANY normal/real man.
They will have to get their tiny brains around the simple concept that when you fucking poison and CONSTANTLY disreSpect someone, they won’t be goddamn horny for your goddamn BAIT.
and even if they really WERE giving me their poTENtial best, why should I accept even THAT? even RICHES and ALL their hotties. WHY? MY best was never good enough for THEM.
maybe the pyramid ascension made me pyramid-LIKE; immovable by humans,
uncorruptible,
more focused and self-stabilizing and long-lived than ever beFore.
Maybe it is helping me to acCept All these NATURAL and WISE emotions/reactions of mine,
as if doing so is one of the sides or foundation layers OF the metaphorical/metaphysical pyramid I have beCome.
ongoing revs3: The ruins that look melted… may have actually/instead been fluid that sagged when it turned solid and the atmosphere thinned, no longer supporting its weight. The black burn marks may have been caused by energy beings visiting the sites, touching parts of it, never having burned anything before… because nothing had before been solid or burnable.
that ‘pig’ (light in my face before the mntn pass) is guilty of attempting to steal and control my land;
all land belongs to me, regardless of what any humans claim it was allotted/reserved for.
so since he just invaded my private property, he is guilty of trespassing and war crimes.
and I am the only legitimate court / legal system, so he also just commmitted perjury.
I did not invite or summon him, so he showed up uninvited; he is an intruder any way you look at it.
Like when i hated being bk at foard, yet got decent pocket change for rd2 expeditions,
I now hate still working on website…even though I clearly see its amazing benefit and timeleness.
Being unable to date rn… helps prevent them from bipolar reversing on me.
Being unable to tip rn… is what their society deserves; since they always cater to scum, make evil food, never respect my culture, make me pay, etc.
“no, you have to [do everything for yourself] before you can let someone else into your life”… EPIC retardation there.
Imagine if the topic had instead been computers; “no, you have to do everything on your own that computers do.”; you would NEVER get done –or even know how to begin.
NO, not ANYone should do everything on their own.
We don’t make air breathable.
We don’t control the tide.
We don’t construct stars that generate light for us, etc etc etc.
Help should come. Ppl should donate, offer skills, etc.
Imagine if the topic had been business; “no, you have to do every job in your business by yourself before you can hire anyone.” Then what the fuck is the point in hiring anyone?
By her logic, I should be the husband AND the wife –and the CHILdren –and EVERYone. Fuck that stupid bitch.
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and when I WAS doing everything on my own, I was STILL undermined and forced into desperation
–and even after DECADES of writing with her, WHILE taking care of all my income and lodging and cooking and maintenance and fitness and everything ELSE, she STILL didn’t enter my life correctly.
In every way, what that typist advised was insane and proven dead-wrong.
retards/scum defaulting to assuming that ALL sperm should be used for breeding, and NO vision needs be held to gestate attractive/appropriate offspring, and ANYthing ANY human does to NONhumans is perfectly fine and even “GODLY”, …all stems from humans being engineered/programmed to mindlessly mine/spread, digging/harming everything out of their way, no matter the damage/torture caused.
All those aspects/features (personality defects / hardwiring) indicate the modern human species’ original purpose was to mine as much as possible… perhaps before too much global solidification, or too many humans, led to potential planetary fragmentation/fractal-ing.
Those aspects/defects were probably LEFT in the species… bc, once it ran out of things to mine, it would turn on itself, mining into its own kind; via unneeded/primitive surgeries, experiments, audits/investigations, etc., undermining and destroying itself.
Why, then, has it lingered this long? Just to make things I was destined to spellcraft into a better combo/form?
To force me to become stronger than an entire species?
“Azgaroth the 9fold god”
Azathoth
9 realms
and making me think of my Azarel tat
Az g aroth…sounds like g for god, and aroth for earth;
Auz
Auz, god of earth/Earth
Az-ar-el… Auz earth-god of Elohim/gods
Auz, earth/land/stability/sustainability of the gods
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Astoria: like a hawk
As-tor
Az-tore; Auz/Azlohim claws-tearing; god-level claws others are torn by
so if Jaide kissing me means she can magically/telepathically always FIND me,
does me repeatedly full-body interacting with the other hotties, such as via cybering or actual sex, mean I never even HAVE to find them?; they can ALWAYS be sensed -and even sired/overridden- by me?
Maybe just being Near that many ppl, and IN that many realms, telepathically gave me lots of useful energy/essence/style/wisdom from each/all, resulting in my eclectic self and extension (city/realm).
Maybe rd1s are Always like that / that way.
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Maybe rd2s are always convos, such as via Discord/middlemen, or in person,
(rd1s being soft-disclosures via film and games, etc., not even Discord “rp” (aligning) yet)
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and rd3s, then, are always in-person bonding as loved ones, they then showing me how being near Me in passing Likewise benefitted Their realms.
concept:
Alignments-chart, but now w/ me as the baseline for good:
Good. Soc Neutral. Rebel. Evil
Lawful. Me y compatib’. law-abide Out’ cop _ _
Social _ _ _ _ _
Neutral. Tolerable; 144k. wanderers _ _ _
Rebel _ _ _ _ _
Chaotic. Happening to do what I want them to, but unaware of my desire/law _ _ _ _
Much like energy flowing to the 5 points of a pentacle in the order the connecting lines point to them, completing a circuit that way, maybe thoughts flow through sequences of stars or universes in a 3D equivalent; not a 2D 5pt star path, but something more complex, dynamic, and maybe even factoring in time travel or dimensions travel (connecting timespheres, not just timelines, and/or separate universes’ timespheres).
Just saw a post offering $62.50/hr to snow shovelers…
Never been paid anywhere near that much, yet I have degrees, cert’s, field xp, and supposed networks…
Why do they underpay heroes and specialists?
I wondered what I would pass the time w after getting through all Graham s1 eps,
and very soon happened upon the dnd lpre youtubes series.
She essentially did the same rude bs as that faggot forcing his daughter to lean side to side as they walked past me at yellowstone wood walkway; even though she vibed in oregon as wanting to meet me in love, she kept doing more and more foolish and cruel things;
the masktardation was worse than showing up w that guy,
and the smug facial expression and pose and calling out… ofc were ruder than the masktardedness.
She kept showing off her looks, then showing me she has no social skills or bravery or timing or kindness.
That is not what I asked for.
I asked for the ambi the typist RPed/disclosed.
Even if None of it was disclosure or prep, flawless hotties have still been showing up, dressing the parts, and it was 100% a story whose time to dawn had come.
The comPatible/corRect response from typist Would have been: Hell yeah! Everything you want me to do is So Hot! Share me all you want! Whatever turns you on, my love!
NOT “don’t share me”; putting her foot down.
If they hadn’t spent decades abusing their power, meddling, lying, slandering, committing perjury, stalking me, blame-shifting, etc.,
then obviously I would be much more in the mood to give them chances.
Maybe Space is what is left when the gods keep focusing more and more, becoming less thought and more solid.
Maybe they can’t hear prayers… bc they are jammed by the towers.
Maybe they made the radio towers and chemtrails TO jam/block prayers… bc it was anNoying them, and they had wanted to experience solid life for so long.
no matter how sexy the females are now,
it will always turn me off, knowing that they are almost certainly bait/meddling,
and not loyal to me,
and who the meddlers/feds Want me to fuck,
and that they are statistically likely to abuse the corrupt cops by making up shit I never did, accusing me of what they themSelves did.
It will always be difficult to enjoy fucking them, even IF I had all health restored.
The only way to make it more appealing… is to only fuck those the meddlers Don’t want me fucking.
If she hadnt pissed me off, i wouldnt have the computer models,
the wmkm overhaul,
or all the expedition phs updated.
It seems like she kept showing up not to start a life w me, but to see if her dif outfits or timing had power over me.
Maybe she was just showing me the beauty I needed to see… to get my 2nd wind/s, but it doesnt fully vibe that way, and every time I have given ppl the benefit of the doubt… they have shown me they are pure evil, not making innocent mistakes.
Bottom line is she and the others didnt answer when I called, werent there when i needed them, never once treated me well, and were pathetic fractions of what i asked for.
They were, exactly as i said, cheap imitations.
Until they answer when i call, and prioritize my feelings and needs over whatever else theyve been prioritizing this whole time, they are not my ppl, and i am btr alone for phase2.
Krang (brain-like being in the hollow gut area of the ogre-like robot/walker) in TMNT is posb. a modified Beholder, or at least inspired by the concept/description of Beholders
No matter how hot or even perfect the bitches are who get dangled in my path by the meddler/harasser retards/agents, I never asked for random, I never asked for those particular bitches, I never asked for agents/middlemen, and I Did ask for many Different bitches/things;
they have to be and do and give what I want them to, or else.
“3, 6, 9”: triangle is 3 lines,
pentacle is 6 shapes; 5 triangles around a pentagon,
and 9 must be something that happens when it is folded into 3D or 4D.
the typist did send some truly fucked up / retarded messages from time to time,
but she certainly wasn’t a full parasitic;
everyone else I wrote with and worked for… was FAR ruder to me, giving FAR less in return;
the art and ideas and sweet bedtime messages typist gave over the years… far exceeds the sum of all good things given/sent to me by all the other writers and coworkers combined.
that dream w the lfb fail-face on the ambi body… is prob just a visualization of my concern about the similarity btwn motel voice… and “I must be stupid” fake-happy evil utterance from the hyper-retard.
The vibe I got in person was that the ambi-like woman Was a different/separate being.
I suspect humans arent at all concerned w protecting wildlife and plants, and in actuality just label things as preserves or parks until they can fund their development; they label them as preserves and parks so they can then act like they have the moral high ground when shooing normal ppl (nomads) away.
I bet the reason they keep me on a small budget is so i dont go straight to mt kirkpatrick.
I bet the reason they keep doing the opp of what is good, the opp of what i asked for, is bc they Want me energized/mad, thus unleashing… bc they Want my help causing “acts of god” / “natural disasters”.
But i won’t help them directly until i have my cabin and city and ppl and respect and backpay and health etc..
I just sit and proofread and game until then.
I am here for manners, and they so far have none.
I doubt what i said hurt her feelings.
Even if it did, she needed to know what that felt like; she said Tons of hurtful judgy xian-typical bs/lies/gaslighting to Me.
I think she can fake vibes at times, by channeling others, or just wielding her emotion energy signatures after years of practice, bc she is a cia/xian asset/minion.
I think she was used to get me to confirm my likes.
I think the woman who showed up was hired to impersonate/act as the character I chose.
I think when they saw her looks werent enough to seduce me to compromise my correct morals/code, they fired her.
If she was real ambi, she would have shown her powers.
If she had real healers w her, they would have healed me.
They left me struggling and poison-wounded bc they hoped it would make me more controllable / open to haggling/negotiation.
And as long as I am not making for a border or ship, they dont bother trying to veer me back.
They let me work on my website they hate…bc it keeps me sedentary/busy/focused.
I think she says whatever stalls me / buys time, but never follows through.
I think even if she was innocent, not an agent, and timing things with foresight, she still disrespected me Many times, and doesnt yet deserve Any trust, let alone love.
I think she told me Angelike wants to be kept, and that i can collar and keep All her women And her…bc they have been studying and practicing to be ideal distractions for me, and someone doesnt want to have to reprogram/repurpose/reassign them.
Even if she actually loves/d me, she didnt love me enough to be present or respectful or studious or helpful,
and she isnt what i asked for,
and she keeps sending deathcult imagery,
and defending the evil liars,
and promoting the fake system.
She probably vaxxed her dumb self, too.
Did that jaide bitch finally message me bc she cares and sensed my falling out w typist, or bc she IS the typist…
or bc she foresaw it would annoy me into finally detaching from her, thus focusing even more?
Idk.
The vibe is unclear.
The signs only show she is monitoring/spying… and that isnt what i asked for; i asked her to be present and helpful.
Even if you argue that what she has done Was being helpful, she wasnt present, and wasnt a fuckbuddy.
And my enemies are not yet extinct.
If typist had written that new girl being wise and fair to me, she would not have said some saw me as a tyrant; she would have said only fools accuse me of tyranny, when i clearly only gave the tyrants a taste of their own medicine, while standing for far more good beings.
The typist message/meme “it’s ok to not be ok” vibed as evil; it imploed spying, judging me for venting/cussing, and was obv another polar-opposite lie;
it is never ok to not be ok.
It is not posb for being not ok to be ok;
you are either well or not well.
What she may have poorly been trying to Say was that times of being stressed are understandable, given how fucked up society is, these days.
She worded/phrased it stupidly/lazily, though.
It was inappropriate in multiple ways.
Why was it so confusing to them… that I stopped saying what I like, and what I want, after they ALWAYS rudely and Angrily overreActed to me politely and clearly and logically communicating like that?
Why expect me to say Anything, after EVERYthing I said and otherwise did was overreacted to?
Why were they all unable to realize that they had always only tried one approach; extreme rudeness; being bizarre and threatening and unstable at me?
Why, when I ALWAYS said I wanted what ANY normal being wants; good fair manners/treatment, did they instead just keep removing those I was attracted to, replacing them over and over with randoms who were NOT what I was attracted to? Why not just keep those I was attracted to… present, and simply have them beHAVE?
Now I want ALL I was attracted to, and ALL of them to FIX their behavior/personalities/thinking, and that is FAR greater a task than just having them behave in the FIRST place; before they had to leave and now reTURN.
My instincts are the only signs I need; NEVER signs from outSIDE me.
OTHERS should and shall learn how to read signs Iii give, NOT the other way around.
I am the lord.
what an epic dumbass to think that by staying cowardly/hidden/secretive and full of excuses and condescension… that I would trust her.
It doesn’t matter how many decades of abusive relationship occur; it’s still a goddamn abusive bullshit thing I never asked for and don’t deserve, bitch retard.
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that typist always did have the brainwashed dumbass vibe… and so many signs in addition to that vibe, all pointing to her being an arrogant misled and misleading idiot.
It’s aMAzing I held on (put up with her) as long as I did.
Like Halo games, me rewatching “classic” movies is challenging, not as positive, these yrs later; very expanded reference frame.
Just like i rmbr all my experiences,
elementals such as conscious wind/air might rmbr everywhere its air molecules have been.
Do the gods struggle to understand things on the human level/scale, just like we struggle to picture/understand things on the scale/level of the gods?
Are they only good at things on the cosmic and above-universe level?
Is that why they keep not answering my prayers, or failing to answer them wisely?
revs3. When we change from one phase of matter to another, we lose some active memories, bc memories are stored in matter itself somehow, as if all particles rmbr thigns, the brain being not just for memory.
We retain access to Some memories from lives when we were in another vibration/state/phase…bc Some of our new body’s particles are still Those past life/body’s type of particles.
It may be that I am the ONLY one thinking and innovating;
it may be that all other claims/stuff on the news and in social media… is A.I. generated, and/or fake/lies.
What an interesting possibility.
Either way, all I have done is always the correct things for me to have done.
and it doesn’t matter if I’m the first to have these innovation ideas; they are the ones destined for me, and appropriate for Inisfree.
I oiled on aug16. How long did it take to again drop to 20%?
roughly nov16; 3mos.
Oil 4×yr @ ~100$/chg = 400/yr needed
Pro was the highest category in the host chart. Pro 200 was made up just for me and the other few / small percentage of their clientele. Neat; I am at the highest level, and one unseen by most.
How godly.
The bartender almost-hottie in bs…saying “maybe .. vortex”…keeps coming to mind…as if she back then didnt just speak to me then…but made that convo bilocate or trilocate into these later moments. Interesting psionic ability, if that is what it is. Of course maybe it is just my mind associating deemed useful suggestions/spells/mindsets.
Whatever the case, it keeps occurring to me for some good reason, so I guess there is more to vortexes than I once was taught/told.
Maybe vortexes are living entities, and spinning things around them… helps those spun-up things… begin to perceive and move through time more than linearly/forward.
Like learning and writing in Heptapod written-language, moving like a vortex (rapidly, and to locations more than once, over and over)… apparently has the effect I experienced/confirmed/noticed in Madison and Big Sky.
Vortexes aren’t just mindless pressure systems that cause tornadoes.
After writing The Wolves, and being a “lone wolf” for decades, I keep ending up getting lots of great ideas and work completed/updated here in Lovell Canyon,
and
The name Lovell is a boy’s name that means “young wolf” and is of English origin. It is a variant of the Old French name Lowell.
1 hottie at a time would have been perfectly acceptable if they had been who i chose and asked for,
and if there hadnt been meddling from evil sellout agents,
and if they had been good matches for my orientation,
and if they had behaved femininely,
and if they hadnt been told to try and seduce me,
and if their kind had been honorable and loyal to me,
and if i ever once had Asked for one at a time.
Just another coward, neglector, dumbass, and fickle cunt.
What that bitch midget did to my 4some over 30mins… that cheap imitation ambi and typist did to me over some 20 YEARS.
WASTE em.
If there is some me-like guy out there, clone or not, “original” or not, too bad for it/him; he’ll have to be deleted with all the Others i didnt ask for.
“That’s how i felt at the time. Now, i don’t know.” is same unexplained heartless evil bullshit that faggot clubber friend of colebank pulled.
She prob let me drive into that neighborhood over and over just to be abusive to me.
Her kind always has been that way, no matter how much I help anyone.
mkm. Spaceghost s9e1 “Dreams”:
You see, Moltar, kids are more likely to trust their investments with animals.”
Zorak: “We can just get some poor people and Treat them like animals.”
“Moltar, get me Lassy so we can raise money for retardos.”
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…even spaceghost last ep i tried watching had a goddamn trans evildoer.
One of my childhood go-to comedy shows… infiltrated and ruined. No more.
Curious that humans so far have always been offended no matter how polite and accurate I am,
yet when something evil offends Me, …they don’t care at All;
why do they only care if i offend evil retards?
If i hadnt taken that job 2x when i did, would i still have seen and greeted myself somewhere else? Maybe, but it happened there, so there is worth further investigating, just from now on in force, hopefully after or while forcing out all the evil humans.
She made it as obvious as ever that she was spying, and could have shown up at any time, thus that she is responsible for my poisoning and damage.
And all her kind were always Far more upsetting and damaging when I Did talk to them.
maybe those who showed up… were used to FAR more energy… bc they have not known struggle or betrayal or poisoning,
so they didn’t understand why I or anyone would be “down” or doubtful or cautious or waiting to see good manners.
but that is still NOT what I asked for; I asked for smart compatible ppl as teammates, and that sure wasn’t who showed up so far.
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even if they were used to more energy from elementals or less-solid beings, doesn’t matter; not what I asked for.
they should have bothered to get to know me, look into my history/wars, sympathize, offer to help me without me even having to summon them, etc.
After how they all treated me, and the evil way they think, and how they treat the animals, the thought of being nice to Any of them is alien and sickening to me.
It now infuriates me anytime anyone contacts me without paying for my time / supporting my life’s work;
I never asked for goddamn text messages or RP;
I fucking was forced to reSORT to that bullshit.
I never would have resorted to Any i sampled… if the normal-looking ones had behaved appropriately,
so my desperation and bad memories are on them, and that makes them arguably worse than the scum I had to endure; the decent-looking ones caused me to feel uncomfortable twice; in person, and later on (when I resorted to the others).
As much as I do not like this phase2 span, I hate it much less than phase1 abuse, and I keep having entire days, not just shifts, worth of great ideas and work/updates.
I never have to work for others anymore.
I can roam indefinitely.
I always have the best scenery.
I almost always have the best food.
Etc.
Strange that Some perfect-looking females began showing themselves off to me, but not All –such as the cunty/moody/inappropriate ones on ferries and in food trucks and at gyms…
I wonder why.
Doesnt much matter, though, as I will end up becoming powerful enough to time travel back to and capture them all.
Even adding the note/spell for lighting on the GAH median features… is worth this time alone, fully undistracted.
As worrisome as running out of ideas Can be, it is simultaneously worry-reDucing; it signals a completion of receiving and starting the manifesting of the consciousness-focus.
I bet each consciousness focus arrived in the smartest member of every Age/time-tier… with enough time to understand and share it… before it was to be manifested by the ‘parrots’; all consciousness-focuses were mindlessly resisted while they were coming through.
Hopefully the one receiving the focus of each era farther in the past… was in better company than I have been.
Why would they RP with me this long, only to NOT manifest/be what I agreed to / loved, even KNOWING that would anchor/stall me better than ANYthing?
Because that is what their kind/civilization has ALWAYS done; fickle / bait and switch, always heartless, same as what they do to ALL other animals.
They probably realized they don’t NEED to give me my dream-fam; I’m not trying to permanently emigrate rn.
I can only hope that my growing focus/power somehow Forces them to be/do what I want them to, or at least exterminates their entire species so I never have to deal with their rudeness again.
If those bitches had been manifested/summoned teammates, Celestine Prophecy style, they would NEVER have stayed hidden,
or been smug,
or vibed evil,
or had soulless eyes,
or shown up disrespectfully clothed and with others,
or been cowardly,
or blameshifted to me,
or left without contributing/donating.
They NEVER would have allowed me to get poisoned/wounded, and at LEAST would have INSTANTLY healed me or taught me how to heal mySELF.
They did NOthing good.
The Fifty Shades of Grey movie turned on many typical human “women”.
My website takes that steamy stuff not only to the next level, but to ALL the levels, thus turning on the Sexiest females.
89.7fm jeff esworthy has such an appropriate voice for a male.
Only one or two others on this station do.
Only one female on it has a tolerable voice.
Mkm.
Funny movie renamings:
Avatar… Blue Niggers
Black Panther… Nigger Man
Blackhawk Down… Invading Africa… Again
Superman… Jewish Plagiarism of the Ubermensch Idea
I said what I wanted, and got a mutual, and then they INSTANTLY meddled, and as viciously and evilly and relentlessly as they could.
They would have killed me if they could get away with it –for gentle, natural, mutual love that was absolutely none of their business.
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I then said to send the other hotties I wanted, but they didn’t send them.
I then said to send ANY hotties with GOOD behavior/values, and they sent freaks with ZERO manners/values.
I then said to send the hotties BACK to me once they LEARNED good behavior/values, and they instead had that cheap-imitation ambi-like cunt show up with the same bullshit approach/behavior 3/+ times in a row.
Then they stopped sending the hotties enTIRELY.
Why do they ALways send the OPPosite of what I say I will accept?
and even if they sent EXACTLY ALL I ordered/summoned, how can I enJOY any of it rn?
They really shot themselves in the foot… over and over.
Why?
They clearly WANTed me to fuck their bitches. So why not enSURE I did… via the VERY EASY and NORMAL behavior that ANY guy would have gone for?
smh.
what a completely retarded species.
not stupid; stupid is just stubborn.
retarded is humanity; they understood the language I used to communicate with them, and had the ability to behave correctly, yet refused.
that SOUNDS like stupid, not retarded, bc the ability to listen/understand was present,
but it goes beyond stubborness… bc they couldn’t even get HELLOs correct,
or the dress code.
They couldn’t get what they themSELVES wanted… even when I explained how.
There is no WAY they just Chose to be THAT stubborn.
I saw it in their eyes; how they mindlessly repeat things.
Mindless parrots are retarded; they are stubborn, sure, but they ALSO lack the aBility to THINK and beHAVE.
After all the frustration they kept exhibiting/showing, they Clearly were not just stubborn.
After all the times they misinterpreted me, they clearly were not just stubborn.
After all the times their bitches played that same “pretend oblivious” game, they clearly were not stubborn.
They knew I would keep rejecting evil behavior.
They kept vibing as not just stubborn, but genuinely offended and surprised and confused by me being normal and consistent with logical standards for them.
Stupid would have been them grasping every concept I explained, and acknowledging my communications/commands, but then stubbornly fucking up.
Some of them DID seem stubborn, but they ALSO ALWAYS seemed expectant that I would eventually cave in to their repeated use of the one game/tactic/BS.
and NO amount of stubbornness results in EVERY member of a species failing to even GREET one another.
NO amount of stubbornness results in EVERY member of a species wrongly jumping to the conclusion that Iii was the one being mean/rude.
that is species-wide retardation as a DEfault.
That bitch, and many Others Also spying on me, ALL knew of my needs for YEARS and DECADES, yet did Nothing to help.
Hell, they probably planned and Caused all those issues.
When My friends maydayed, Iii went to help IMMEDIATELY, NO excuses.
God damn EVERYONE who stayed hidden and unhelpful. Kill them all.
I wonder if the cause of most deaths is straying too far from the consciousness focus of the time, thus each race rising while the other steps back, and any who rival the destined siccessor… getting exterminated, whether by hunting or asteroids or whatever.
Maybe even exploring too far in a direction other than that of the dominant race/group… tends to result in the same.
What a nice sign for me that i have always been the dominant, even entire militaries and religions being casually shut down out of my way.
Maybe all reported movie profits are fake/lies/misdirection, and the real reason for canceling production of sequels… actually b/c someone deemed enough was soft-disclosed
Having to wait 2wks for hotspot speed… is still good timing now; ideas are only few and far btwn now, the vast majority already received and posted
Thinking of Einstein and Trevor as dog names… is a sign of how fairly I regard/treat nonhumans,
and may have hinted at how “above” even human-“genius” level I was/am.
As long as they don’t care about my culture and needs, idc about theirs.
Same w manners
Same w appearances
Same w honesty
And since they don’t care if they torture and kill countless nonhuman animals, idc how many Human ones end –or how.
Fair is fair.
Lol that they didnt think anyone would stand up and give them this taste of their own uncaring ‘medicine’.
Idc if they can see the future, or sense my stability, or want me distractions-free and financially-anchored.
Until they answer when i call, and treat me how i know i deserve to be treated, they are not my ppl, thus are targets.
This side of any planet may be hell or purgatory, but i not only survived Many attempts at killing me, i outsmarted and outacted and outtraveled everyone i know, AND made the most amazing and kindhearted and wise and balanced community and website i have ever seen; I not only surVived, i cured diseases, i saved lives, i became a literal war hero, And i made a unique thing, and in spite of Many betrayals.
Obviously i only deserve the Finest and Loyalest women.
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Not some stupid judgy nagging bitch who plays games when i mayday.
I would normally suspect typist was just stalling and using me,
but then ambi showed up 4 or more times n person.
Typist also vibed as softdisclosing many things, mever truly RPing.
It is nice to not have to hide my true reactions and thoughts anymore; no having to play calm and grateful around bullies and freaks.
When i am mad or sad these days, i just let it out right away, no need to process it later.
Maybe she had never been nice to anyone, thus the smug expression that one time, and the idiotic comments/company all Three times.
Maybe she really has no experience or confidence when being nice.
I don’t blame her, ofc; no one deServes niceness, …but she still needs to at Least be Present daily for Me.
Maybe no relatives showed up bc i have none; engineered from dif blood samples or something
It wasnt anger that delayed my relationship w ambi, at least not from me;
my focus was calmness and manners.
The anger came from others At me.
Was all she and i RPed just to see if i would focus on something else?
Not meeting irl her n Wolfe (meeting her in modern times n casual clothes)… may have been a phase2 destoned upgrade.
I RPed being a Marine, and it wasnt some other me, but myself… who then became one;
it will be me who moves in with Ambi in 364 now. Amen.
In phase 1, i had only legos and such to take the edge off.
Now, I have aMazing games.
Still, i long to play them w my foreseen/instinctive loves.
If she judged me for my heroic choices and resilience and focus, she is even dumber and more evil than I thought.
I am of course not on the wrong path just bc some retards attacked me;
I would be dead if I wasnt on the Right path; the Wrong path would have been me retardedly Listening to those blatantly-evil retards.
Standing up for myself all this time is the only reason i healed at All, and traveled, and became a hero, and have Inisfree, etc..
I only tried 1 fat bitch bc of artificial desperation in frisco,
and 1 ugly druggie bitch bc I was seeing if I could work past her to profit from an industry.
I never would have tolerated either otherwise.
And when i Did have a choice, such as w dinaa and hind, i shut their bullshit down Right away.
I also fucked Tens (chrldr, maile, kelsi, etc.), and gpt Hit on by tens (ambi etc.).
Compare that to tsb and most other males i have seen, incl rich and handsome and pornstar ones; not only do they Like ugly bitches, they LIVE W THEM and SPAWN W THEM;
I am a Vastly more ethical man when it comes to sex partners.
no longer putting up w Any bullshit/excuses
feels much btr. feels right
This isnt hell.
Hell was when i had No ambi, No savrina, No rain, No vehicle, No health, No passove income, No Inisfree vision, No website, and couldnt even Breathe easily.
This, at worst, is just a mild purgatory. Definitely has only pathetic evil losers so far, but i never have to put up w them at jobs or schools anymore.
And heaven is next…entirely bc of My focus/work.
Why was she so responsive…
yet never cared about my feelings or needs?
and why be a mix of remote “loyal” to Me, while much More loyal to the blatant conmen in pharma y polit y relig?
Prob just latched onto me to parasitically use me, doing the bare minimum to keep me responding. Typical evil scumbag.
It keeps occurring to me i should make her and the others spend a few years in their Own trunks.
Really, i shouldnt have paid one Penny for this vehic; it wasnt their top of the line, and they disrespected me via the very Form of that glutton mutant shit-head.
And paperwork? That is as evil and disrespectful as it gets.
They should Pay me to use Every vehicle i want.
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Lol at that whole “predatory car salesman” thing; i got a nice jacked jeep in spite of it/them,
then a nice EV,
and then my first mostly-free luxury vehicle.
And i’ll become able to take even more… and eventually Everything i want.
I counter-predator the predators.
I got FAR more exploration than I wanted in this phase.
Hopefully I will get far more hotties than even I dared write/spellcraft/summon/dream.
–and far more health
–and far more riches
etc.
She didnt show up when i was switching to normal jobs; i tried normal jobs since age 16, yet she never showed up Then.
I was super depressed back then, too; she never showed up based on my mood.
It is good that the americans, mexicans central americans, and south americans all showed me they are evil as can be; I would have given them chances during the exodus/relocation otherwise. Now I know to waste them all every time I go to any of the lands they occupy/stole.
Even if she stays a useless evil cunt, I am glad I chose the body type which resonates with me.
Even if I don’t make it, I am glad I kept doing the obvious right things. I am even more a hero now than I was as a volunteer warfighter; I went alone, and wounded, etc.
In a way, all the haters/retards/saboteurs were like trng for the endless “elements”.
Do females complicate and prolong things for the same reason they can conceive?; they take a small thing, and make it bigger, more complex, and longer lasting; sperm… made into a person.
If that typist is so stupid/retarded that she doesnt understand why my upset is more than justified after how lazy and heartless she and that bitch imitation were to me,
and after I lived in a trunk for years,
and rationed for as long,
then she isnt the one for me, and is toxic, and deserves to die.
“Get to” mind-trick comes to mind yet again; do all this reviewing and fine-tuning
Every single chatroom and game had degenerates, fools, scum…
I am glad I at least have the Option now; whether to enter such games/rooms;
in phase1, I didn’t; I was Forced to be around such losers/evildoers.
The similarity btwn kicking prototype robots in videos… and humans always overreacting to me and then lying… occurs to me; maybe they were All told to be abusive to me… b/c it was meant to help me reach a superhuman level of emotional selfcontrol.
Nightly visions of Fluffy and Ambi…
:/
How I want it to be in person already.
jfc… stormy tarr now “stormy khuc”, ended up w one of the ugliest gluttons ever… fucking hell. poor thing.
thinking about the latest research project (the one where Heptapod-B came to mind while watching a solar-flare clip), and seeing the overcast and mildly-rainy sky, an atmo-haze mountain-silhouette in the distance on the way back to the mntn pass, I remember the Arrival scene where she goes into their side of the time-ship 🙂
lol that they even tried weaponizing/corrupting “conscious co-creation” via fake RP websites/chatrooms,
and lol/flex at how rapidly I tested, debunked, and shut all that evil bullshit right down,
even making sure ambi-typist shaped up to co-create appropriately.
“It’s ok to not be ok.”? Obviously, that is wrong.
What typist maybe Meant to say was “I understand when you are having tough times.”
curious that when I gave my best throughout ALL of phase1, they ONLY gave me their WORST,
and curious that then in phase2, when I switched to just giving mySelf my best, they begrudgingly dangled a measely handful of almost-hots in my way, but began taking even Worse care of their Own bodies; the normalization of gluttony, self-poisoning via vaxxes, etc..
I am glad it occurred to me that there is no logic in me giving a shit about my own table-manners or fashion or compassion or anything else… when/since They/Others/Humans don’t even care about mass-murder, perjury, and assassinating honorable veterans.
Extinction (2018 movie) (watched yrs ago) was more idiotic template of race mixing normalization, portraying robots as emotional and needing memory wipes, warfare, tech’ dependency, etc.
unique ending, though; the Earth ppl turn out to be all robots, and they flee via a train track designed to separate and hide itself
As long as I don’t feel comfortable around them, that is me sensing they are not my ppl, thus evil, thus I cannot take any more steps toward teamwork w anyone.
If they were just retarded laborers needing to be kept retarded, that would be tolerable, but they are meddlers and Not laboring on building what Iii want them to, thus they must go,
even though they leveled me up in the emotions field.
“Every evening for dinner”…
every Sunday all day…
“all mine”…
pairs/vibes as her perhaps attempting to get me to agree and get used to a cycle… preventing the 8-loopover; 7 days, and refresh/’reset’, instd of 8days in a row without her / our manifested shared creation/vision.
Would that Help me… or be another attempt at stalling/preventing/modifying my godhood?
…doesnt much matter rN, though; she became unresponsive when I refused her rudeness in Oceanside,
and even her Typist is unresponsive since I called her on her fickle and unsupportive bs.
ICVs would never wear piercing- or adhesive-based ear-jewelry,
and they would not wear sunglasses; they would just set the irises of their eyes to stay one color normal to humans when they went to the Outlands.
This means the two at brock farm were frauds, the standard of phase 2; always trying to tempt me with gross bs i did not order.
Are black holes holding light in by choice, not gravity?
Do stars emitting polar linear jets… do so bc it is focused intention?
Maybe black holes hold in the light which would otherwise trigger ether to become things… before the idea of those stars is ready to release/manifest.
Maybe black holes are each there waiting for a vision To manifest, thus someone must go To/In them to proVide that vision, or at least telepathically Give them a vision.
The song “woman, is the nigger of the world” is fag john lennon’s failed attempt at appreciating women; he did not understand that females are natural submissives,
or, worse, he was part of the fake-ppl tactic of tricking ppl into being against sacred natural/default femininity.
Maybe he meant well, but his wording and approach were flawed, I plainly deduce/tell.
777 said to be heaven…
and maybe that means thrice stabilizing, none achieving loop/godhood,
thus maybe humans’ way of saying their heaven is to remain less than god.
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Having family time every 7th day does not prevent me from godhood, as I sense they are Part of my ideal/godhood; they Are my heavenly state/team.
Even if all who were directly rude to me got crucified, all the other ppl would Still need punishing; their absence created the power vacuums that alLowed the ruder ones in.
Only horny a couple times a day when stationary and bored and mad…
but instantly interested Every time a hottie appears = my forecast all-day sex-meetings n phase3 will not fatigue but satisfy me.
After seeing how ugly all pwshs girls got, i am glad i didnt fuck them after all
..still, would have been nice to fuck them when they were still tolerable. but I guess that’s what ICVs and time-travel are for. So be it.
rude useless cunts don’t deserve pleasure, anyway.
Whether the lingering humanimals like it or not, I am the main character, king, and god. I have always dominated them. I have always stood victorious against their pathetic attempts at controlling/corrupting me.
Idc if they yield; the end of their civilization shall suffice.
Even if it, too, somehow lingers, it will remain enjoyable to continue defying and outpacing them.
Quite the journey
Quite the design
Quite worth it
The ears thing is annoying, but
in phase1, i could not vent/cuss,
and my wounds wer3 far graver
Even if she/they turn out to be evil scammers like all before,
I am numb to that now,
and I am proud of my choice; I did not acquiesce.
Even though i kissed one fug and fucked another, it disgusted and enraged me always, and i only did so to find out if they could be useful back in that hell.
It is fine as a one-off experiment like that.
It is fine bc I never wanted it, and always shut it down.
In phase1, my instincts told me all was lost, but my honor and grit and focus kept my holding on. Holding on did not work back then, but it was exemplary.
In phase2, my instincts told me to keep trying other places, but to stay focused on self/inisfree, never even dating again, and that worked.
Now, my instincts tell me my focus on self can relax, and my instincts tell me to attack in all directions to keep upping my powers, like working out more each gym time. My instincts do Not tell me to let go of my vision, only the rude evil typists.
The silence of the one typist, and the unwelcome message of fake hugs/kindness from the other, show me they are unworthy of me, not prioritizing me/goodness/fairness.
The one hates being called out, for her life is based on lies and getting her way in spite of her lies; her life is not based on honor or service.
She could have kept messaging just like she had for years; I would still have gotten the work done.
Everyone who pressured me to do evil… shall have to he crucified and worse.
Everything taken from me shall have to be returned; my laptop the recruiter stole, that wad of tabs the nigger underpaid for, every penny spent, etc..
Letting go is a corruption spell; that bitch wouldnt tell Others to let go of seeking justice if They were crossed/hurt/scammed.
A guy designing his own Space fleet… watching star trek is logical.
Doesnt much matter if typist just played me to get info;
I used her, too, in my own way, and it kept me stable while designing this big thing I am now proud of.
I never wanted the rp, anyway,
and certainly not a typical judgy braindead goddamn xian.
I wonder if typist RPing that “if ever we have to separate again, it won’t be for as long” was the kind of headsup I had to subtly give / encode for callie
Phase1 i had to fight my way in and out of everywhere
Phase2 just wait my way through
Note that doc1 defaulted to negativity and, just as suspiciously/unprofessionally/illogically only presented 1 side of the argument, calling Power vulgar; “a vulgar display of power”.
Why not “a vulgar display of weakness”, or “a vulgar display of having a tantrum about powerful ppl”?
Because he was attempting wordplay to brainwash me against sustainability/strength and standards/morals.
I used to care if hotties were faking/lying,
but now I only care about my Own pleasure.
As long as the ICVs give me the show and sounds and feelings/sensations I prefer, that’s all I need/seek.
Sure, it would be Nice if Outlander-hotties fully enjoyed all I am/do, but I’ve learned not to wait on that, as their kind has so far been entirely/only based/focused on causing incompatibilities/problems/uncomfortableness, not healing/love/pleasure/satisfaction.
No matter how hot/perfect the gf/fuckbuddy is, I’m not fully turned on if the govt would approve,
or if she is free (thus not fully feminine/submissive/devoted),
or by herself,
or single,
or not donating/contributing to me,
or not controlled/owned by me, etc.
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If the govt/losers hadn’t meddled in my private life,
I of course would not care if they approved or not of the girls who hook up with me,
but they Did meddle –EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.– so I DO enjoy countering/defying/outdominating them.
How it is.
Maybe Area 51 is sealed off because they Can’t “get a handle” on whatever they found/have out there,
and they never Will… b/c they won’t let anyone Stable/Wise/Good in,
…but maybe they HAVE got a handle on it, and just preTend to still be studying it.
Who knows?
IDC until I can force my way in and control/own them all.
How hilariously retarded of the threateners…
to completely stumble over all the bait I put out to trick them;
they showed me how right I was,
how brainless and disloyal and dangerous they are,
and how gaytarded/backward their entire demographic/society/civilization is,
thus making The Rapture / purge, and that of 2313 etc., easy/sure for me.
It doesn’t matter if some compatibles/innocents get ended during those things; they weren’t able to show up when I called out for them, thus they aren’t the strong/fully-compatible I instinctively know to call out For, thus they can go with all the rest.
They are incorrect/inappropriate/proto’ manifestations. Unacceptable.
obv never doubt that when I get what I’ve asked for all along… I’ll somehow not be happy;
remember I was never happy at ALL with everything so FAR; everything that Wasn’t/Isn’t what I asked for.
That is the surest sign ever; total consistency… as my loyalest/wisest guide/’light’.
Having stood up to corrupt cops even as a child,
and false religions, false gods, etc.,
and then standing up not only to alleged foreign enemies, but hostiles/traitors in my own service branch,
how did they not see it coming that I would stand up to anyone Else;
to out-of-line feds, out-of-line leaders, out-of-line anyone?
If they’d had any logic/intelligence/worth at all, they would have foreseen that; it was obviously coming.
and now that I’ve witnessed so many of them are worthless for Three main reasons (not loyal to me, not intelligent, and not appealing/attractive/useful in any other way), what do you think comes next?
More “acts of God”.
THEY never fought fair, so neither shall I.
almost for the “Companies We Support” webpage:
If I had made deals with some I had originally wanted to (Adeptus, Elon, and Richard), I would be stuck in years-long bullshit with people making wrong decisions;
faggot animations,
VERY obsolete and polluting engines,
and faggoty/borderline-trans forced-diversity airplane videos.
Unacceptable.
Glad I ended up waiting for better.
It really says a lot about how brainedead/retarded they are, trying to bully/intimidate/scare/trick a guy who volunteered for war, served honorably through hundress of combat missions, and stood up even to corrupt highrankers and the infamously-entrenched deathcult losers.
It shows they are only able to imagine harming others, and they default to attempting to harm others, even when it obviously will not work;
they are mindless/fools;
they are expendable, liabilities, and worse;
they are terrorists and failed men.
A total fool/failure would look at my heroic conduct and consistency, and keep trying to force me to submit to evil.
A wise man would notice my conduct and consistency, and reach the logical conclusion that what never worked to corrupt me… never will, thus they should let me live in peace outside their corrupt system, b/c doing so will stop costing them however much they kept spending on trying to trick and bait / set me up.
But, being sellouts/betas, they are unable to reason like that, thus will keep doong what doesnt work, bc they have never had to change or think, they having always let the majority/system do the thinking For them.
Remember: Even when I was living by All their rules and schedule, they Still hated and abused me –CONSTANTLY; they are Always rude and evil and foolish/retarded; my conforming would never have improved my finances or treatment. May as well keep on.
If i had known how humans are…back from the start,
I never would have dated,
never tried any advice,
never signed anything,
always lied to liars,
always prescammed scammers,
never trusted any “doctors,
never called out to anyone,
never RPed,
never accepted any roommates,
never gotten my hopes up.
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Thankfully, I learned and confirmed what works sometime during phase 2.
Having been to rich places,
and met so many from all demographics,
and seen what happens when I call out,
and seen that even Rain and Ambi are apparently unworthy/cowardly/whatever,
and having done all the badass stuff,
traveling as far and wide as anyone,
and having even witnessed miracles/superpowers,
I have no FOMO, and no insecurity regarding proving myself,
plus I have enough logic/wisdom to know that chilling, being OFP in spite of many trying to prevent that, and
simply writing down ideas and things I love, and sharing them freely/bravely,
is a whole other type of max-level badassness.
Will I need all the defensive/proactive measures/spells I thought of during phase2… in phase3?
Maybe not,
but it sure is nice to have them all brainstormed, field tested, and the work out of the way.
How could phase3 be relaxing/paradise/heaven-on-earth Otherwise?
rjh situation started unexpectedly, no plan/spell, and never fully “took off”.
then, after RPing USCMC stuff, Marine Corps happened, and, like the RP, was brief, but it fully happened; enlisted, official, deployments and all.
since, I have spent DECADES RPing with FAR more faith/intention/focus, AND conscious co-creation, AND truly WANT what I have since RPed, UNlike NOT really wanting the Space Marines RP stuff, thus what is coming Now… shall last forever for me. Amen.
getting into recon wouldn’t have made me more of a badass, just busier;
what makes one more of a badass is the willingness and attempt;
the wholeheartedness and bravery/courage, etc.,
and I certainly trained for years for it, and volunteered, and wanted to do that most dangerous of types of work.
I’ve since gone on to do solo work, which is more badass than team work.
I’ve since gone on to call out for beyond-humans, which is more badass than ANY work with humans.
I’ve also chosen full OFP, which is as leader/hero/saint as can be.
you get the idea/point.
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Also, by doing what I ended up doing, I utilized my “gifts”, rather than staying busy and fighting aGainst them.
The Blackout is the movie where the face-vagina psionic alien ancient shows himself to the Russian survivors battling the animals and mindoverridden of the other ancient alien called Ra.
Maybe when later races tried making worlds, they always had instabilities… bc it wasnt a Sphere Being / deity simply choosing to hold itself in that form; it was smaller beings… whose smaller brains, even when holding a vision together, lacked the capacity/memory for all the details something as big as a world requires IOT be stable.
Is that why Asteron fragmented?
Is that why Nibiru is said to lack enough gold, thus the mining for it Here?
They (bad humans) don’t “err on the side of caution” (as they like the selfrighteously claim/lie); they err on the side of cowardice and intentionally doing abusive/evil things. They are as evil as it gets; nothing is more evil than mass murder and casual proud slander.
I wonder if that nigger-Gran who called tmobile was a chatbot…
and if everyone in that office suite/floor was likewise fake and programmed just to test my bullshit threshhold.
Were their brains overrided by something… just like how they say a hacker can override a network?
Was area51 existence leaked to lure in ppl? Same w making movies such as Close Encounters of the 3rd Kind? Maybe mediaflooding w all that alien stuff… was a roundabout way to see if ppl would then go there and their thoughts trigger the ancient device/s to manifest those things… instd of superpowers for the ppl; the latest trick to keep them distracted, weak, adding chaos/complexity, etc., same as the basis/tactic of religions and politics and pharma/germ lies.
It is now winwin for me;
even if ambi manipulated me into using atmokinesis against ppl she wants ended, i have not met anyone deserving saving, anyway,
and on the other side of this ‘coin’, if i get good her, and the fam she vibed as being serious about providing me, that of course is aNother huge/max win.
As much as i hate the fake politics and all, it helps reveal, track, and distract the evil retards.
Odd that typist claimed i needed her sometimes, but wasnt there Many times i needed her, such as when i was poisoned or homeless etc.,
and how she Was there some times when i Didnt need her and was Pissed at her.
Why the claims/lies/irregularities.
As irregular as in-person ambi’s appearances so far
I bet ame lied about being pregnant. I bet it was all an act to attempt to derail/corrupt/sway me, she an agent for the same evildoers… that those 2 pamphlet harassers/faggots/assumers were sent by.
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